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“Oh, I think it is very fair to hurt others when you are hurting, especially if they have wronged you, and especially if they like to act like nothing is wrong.” Of course she was thinking about Mot during Battle of the Bands, and what she had said to him afterwards to knock him down quite a few pegs. “How should it be fair that I was hurting and he was not? The answer is simple…it was not fair.”

The ghoul barked out a laugh. “Oh, you did try, huh? Once again, I really doubt it. I doubt you stood up for me at all.” Hel pushed off of the door way and unfolded her arms, stepping closer to the ghoul and towering over her. “You see…Mot thinks you walk on water…and he has his head shoved so far up your a** that he can not see the light of the pumpkin sun...so if you really did try to tell him to do what was right, he would have…and because nothing has happened…” Hel spread her arms out. “I doubt it.”

A bit of a smirk pulled at her lips.

“Nah. I was not hurting when I came with Mac to you that day, but you are right. I did regret it from the bottom of my heart afterwards. It was my desire to tell you the truth, Lizzy. Mine. I knew we had wronged you, and I knew the right thing to do was to tell you as soon as it happened…but you know what you and Mot taught me? You get punished for trying to do the right thing. We should not have said a thing.” The ghoul’s lips twisted briefly before relaxing.

“Ya…you know why Mac came for me? Because he is a good friend. The best. Where were you, huh? Off licking your own wounds? Over what, Lizzy?” Hel rested her hands on her hips, staring down at the ghoul. “The right thing to do, Lizzy, was to put a boot in Mot’s a** to set him right. To set him straight. Why would you bother though? I know you are not a fan of me.”

Hel, to her credit, mustered enough patience to let Lizzy get out everything she wanted to without interruption, which was pretty impressive in itself. In a weird way, the ghoul was glad Lizzy finally unloaded. It was what she had been waiting for ever since the ghoul bothered to knock on her door. The reaper gave a short laugh once the spider demoness was finished, thought she did reached out to grab the ghoul’s wrist when she took a step back. It wasn’t tight, but it was firm. She had more to say to the ghoul, so she wasn’t going to let her go anywhere yet.

“Ooooh Lizzy.” Hel cooed. “So selfless…just looking out for everyone and never thinking about yourself…but I am going to shut you down on a few points, screecheart. I know this is not all about you looking out for Mac and I. I know you were bothered too, so just go ahead and say it. You are making me sick with how much you rub in all this ‘oh, I am doing this for others’ bit.”

The ghoul paused before continuing. “Next, do not tell me that I can not change, because I tried, Lizzy, I tried. You would not know though, because you are never around. I dunno where you are, but you are not around for the good times, just the bad…and a long time after the bad at that. That is why I doubt your so called concern. Because it only seems to happen when it is convenient. I would bet silver seeds that your original purpose in the reaper dorms this evening was not to see me. With Mac and Mot’s room across the hall from mine, it was only too convenient. I am merely an after thought. ‘Oh look, the light in Hel’s room is on…I suppose I should check in…that way if anyone asks, I can say I tried!” Hel’s voice got a bit high pitched, mimicking, before it dropped to its normal tone. “So it is just okay for Mot to go on being fine and dandy while I was the one hurting? It is okay for him to smile and push me aside after he broke my heart, after he used me? I wanted to keep it going, I wanted to try…but all my effort…pointless. Worthless.” Her lips had twisted at the last bit of Lizzy’s words.

“You know what, Lizzy? Do not preach to me about forgiveness. Do not stand there and talk like by doing that it will make me happier…bah…this is why I can not confide in you, Lizzy.” Hel sighed, her brows furrowing. “You do not see anything even a bit from my point of view. You do not even try…You never saw when Mot was hurting after the Haunted House field trip because he liked you…and…” Her lips twisted, now thinking of Mac and that sad smile on his face. “…For someone who claims to really care about her friends, you are awfully blind to those closest to you. Some…feel like they can not be themselves around you…Gah…” Hel let go of Lizzy’s wrist and reached up to rub the back of her neck in frustration. It wasn’t her place to say. “You need to pay closer attention to them!” She snapped.

Hel crossed her arms, staring at the demoness with her brows furrowed and her lips twisting. Once again, she listened, and once the ghoul was done speaking, the reaper threw her hands up in an exasperated sign of relief. “Finally! We are getting somewhere! If only you had been this honest and straightforward from the start when you knocked on my door! Bah…ya know what, Lizzy? You work on being brave and straightforward, instead of that whole avoiding s**t, and maybe I will take a look at that whole forgiveness thing…sounds like a fair trade, ya?” Though her words might have been seen as something a bit positive, her tone was anything but, once again.

The ghoul paused. “…Ya know what else? Beings are not always going to get along. You and Mot…you want to live in this happy world where everyone will get along…but realistically…it is not possible. Not everyone is going to like each other…and not everyone will accept others the way you want them to…even after getting to know them. That is just life. When you come to accept that fact, and respect it…than you can be a bit happier, ya? Agree to disagree, I think.” The ghoul waved her hand a bit.

“Ya. I can not say having this little chat was pleasant, but it needed to happen. Good night, Lizzy. Thank you for stopping by, I guess.” Hel didn’t bother waiting for anything else after that, and stepped back into her room, closing the door shut behind her.