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 Posted: Wed Aug 08, 2012 7:08 pm
She felt comfortable again, slowly but surely. That wasn't to say that she was worry free but at least, for now, it was easily set aside on the backburner. Listening to her Twin she offered a bit of a nod, "That is good. I am glad he has given you so much and that you marked him," she replied warmly she even leaned and gave her Sibling a quiet affectionate kiss on the cheek. If she openly felt love for anyone it was certainly Needle but that was different. The affection she felt for her friends was different as well.
Part of her wondered if she'd ever feel that way for someone but the thought threatened to overwhelm her with anxiety and so she shoved it away without even mentioning it.
"Speaking of Tattoos, Sister, I was wondering if you would assist me with one for myself," she asked quietly, "the place I plan to cover is not one I can easily access on my own."
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 8:52 am
Needle only smiled at the warm reply. Unlike Lattice she had no little voice to tell her to be anxious; well, that was a lie, she had one. A big one, but over the years she had learned to ignore it very well. The consequences for what she was doing would be great indeed, but only if the clan found out. Lattice would never tell and neither would she, so unless they were being spied on she figured she had nothing to lose.
"I would love to aid you, as always. Where were you thinking?" The conversation had changed, but she knew she still had more to say. It just seemed proper to let Lattice direct them, since she was the more timid one with the conscience voice.
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 8:59 am
Lattice was simply going through trying to digest the information laid upon her without being upset because it would upset Needle. Needle needed support - not a lecture. They got enough lectures at the Manor. Needle knew the consequences and hopefully knew that there was a chance she had to set the dalliances aside to do what they were meant to do in the end.
The only trouble was the heartbreak involved.
Either way she simply used the subject at hand to simply alert her Twin to perhaps make some time for her later on, "I was thinking something along my sides? Something that appears as if my flesh is tearing open...Perhaps with ink, snakes, and holly pouring out. At least that is what I would like for the ink to cooperate on for me..."
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 9:08 am
As Lattice described her tattoo, Needle sat back thoughtfully. "That is a lovely sounding piece, dearest!" She complimented eagerly, lightly clapping her hands together. "I am sure, like our patrons, if you focus hard enough on what you wish to see, it will be done!" Her brain was whirring with all the possibilities, all the talent that would be involved in making something so detailed...would they even be able to do it? They were both good at what they did, but they were still young, still learning.
"Perhaps we should do it at the manor, so you may focus properly, and the ink may be more willing?" School - and all the emotions in it - were quite distracting.
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 9:17 am
Lattice seemed pleased with the response and nodded in agreement, "Yes, let us do it back at the manor where it is easier to parcel away our ... selves."
There was a pause.
"...Are we ourselves more here or at home?" She asked softly. It was hard to tell, something was starting to stir within her, a questioning about who she really was. If it hadn't been for school she probably would never have known that she could smile as often as she did now.
Needle was always the more open one but...Did this Muka change things for Needle?
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 9:57 am
Needle noticed the change, and behind her mask her brow raised. That was a question she hadn't expected to hear, especially from Lattice! She was curious where it came from, and she even fancied that it was because of her; it was one step closer to one thing she was starting to realize she wanted. Freedom.
"It is hard to say, my love." Needle started softly, brushing her hands down her blue hakama. "Perhaps, but perhaps not. These could just be Personas after all." She didn't want to outright go YES THIS IS REALLY US but at the same time, she certainly did feel that way. "However...I like the way I am now. I feel...happy." Which she had already expressed to Lattice.
"Even before Muka, I felt relaxed, relieved, free...but with Muka these feelings are stronger, brighter somehow." She hummed thoughtfully, and then drew in a deep breath. Now was the best time to say something, right? Since they were on the topic? Would Lattice hate her for it? Hopefully not, she couldn't bear the thought of her dear twin hating her for her choices.
"But...because of these feelings...I have been considering leaving the Clan." There, it was out in the open. Now all she had to do was brace herself for a reaction.
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2012 10:07 am
Lattice could accept the answer easily enough and even gave a bit of a brighter smile as her Twin described how she felt with her chosen boil. Part of her wondered about the other boils her Sister had 'intimate' moments with but then they had never been at the level that Muka and Needle had apparently gone. Perhaps that is why Muka was considered the 'Chosen Boil'.
"I am happy someone makes you so happy," she said quietly as she tucked away the small ounce of jealousy she felt. It was not able to be helped since Needle had been only hers for so long the thought of someone waltzing in and ...
Her thoughts became interrupted at the next set of words. In her chest she felt something of a phantom thump of a heart or perhaps it was imagined because her emotions had suddenly run very high just then - the feeling of alarm, fear, and ... a tiniest fraction of excitement.
Leaving the clan? Was that possible?
Wait...
"I...I see," her voice pitched oddly in spite of her control, "I..."
It felt as if Needle was talking about leaving her as well.
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Posted: Fri Aug 31, 2012 11:31 am
Needle saw the hesitation, and clearly misunderstood. She saw the stuttering as the beginnings of irritation or perhaps rage, seeing as she had requested something very taboo in their lives. Painfully taboo.
"Please do not get upset!" She started first, her hands gripping Lattice's. "I have not made a decision, I have been...considering it. Please, please do not be angry with me!" They had held down one who was disowned. They had heard the screams of agony from someone taught to bear them in silence. It was a terrifying thought, and part of the reason as to why Needle had yet to follow through. She was rash, but seeing agony in a fellow Engraver was...core-shaking.
"It is just...This place, it is different than what we know. What we grew up with as normal seems barbaric! I have tasted freedom, I have felt emotions I did not know existed and some I still can not name. This world outside of ours is so different, and yet it seems...right, somehow. I love you, and I love Canvas and Nail, but after experiencing what I have...I do not want to go back there." She was eager to try and make Lattice see things her way, but...perhaps she was just rambling.
"I do not think I can go quietly back into the way things were..."
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