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 Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:03 pm
Sasha allowed herself to be led away, a worried expression on her face.
"It's .. you know, honesty is important to me. I'd never like. Ask you to lie. I just.. I really care about your feelings, Rin. And like.. that's all I'm trying to say."
She lifted her shoulder in a shrug, blue eyes intently locked on Rin's face.
"I don't want to feel like.. I can't.. talk. About certain things. My.. my relationship with Jerry.. it makes me really happy. And.. I want to share my happy with you, but at the same time, like.. I don't want to.. to hurt you, either."
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:07 pm
Rin smiled, "I might be sad for a moment."
She was being honest, "But ultimately - I am happy when you are happy."
"I understand you like him that way." both her brows rose again with a sincere but worried expression, "I also understand my place."
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:09 pm
Sasha looked confused for a brief moment.
"Your.. place?"
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:10 pm
"As just a friend." Rin clarified.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:25 pm
"Oh."
Sasha pressed her lips together.
"A good friend," Sasha found it prudent to mention, eyebrows lifting.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:27 pm
Rin offered a meek little smile, "I don't really need humoured Sasha."
"I'm strong, I can handle the truth."
She wasn't upset or offended just... resigned to it.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:38 pm
"I'm not humoring you, Bean. I'm being.. I'm just being honest. Okay?"
Sasha took Rin's hand, her expression earnest.
"I mean it."
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:41 pm
Rin cracked a feeble little smile as Sasha took her hand, "I'm still just a good friend. I can accept that."
She was avoiding eye contact now though. All the terrible little feelings she was being plagued by at the warmth Sasha's hand gave. It took everything in her to resist squeezing it just a little.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:47 pm
"Maybe I just feel bad," Sasha said, sounding a little frustrated - just a little - at the lack of eye-contact. "I mean.. knowing what you.. what you want, and then knowing that I.. have feelings for Jerry. I don't feel.. I don't feel bad for having feelings for Jerry. I don't. I just... I feel bad that, ah.."
Sasha tugged at Rin's hand, a silent request for eye-contact.
"That I can't give you what .. what you deserve? Does that make sense?"
Sasha was starting to feel bad for even bringing it up, but she felt that the situation necessitated a little clearing up - even if only for her own benefit.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 8:55 pm
Rin was jolted a bit by the tugging and lifted her head to tentatively look at Sasha, she couldn't resist squeezing her hand now. She gave a fairly firm one.
"I know, I just... I don't want to be the reason you feel bad Sasha." she was smiling slightly but it was more at the giddy little thrill that squeezing Sasha's hand gave rather than forced to ease Sasha's concerns.
"I don't really understand though why you would feel bad about that in particular? You feel that way for Jerry, not me, that can't be helped. It isn't anyone's fault and I'd be equally sad if you forced such a thing for my sake."
The squeeze tightened very slightly, "I don't want to live a lie."
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 9:01 pm
"I.. I don't know. I've never.. like, I've never, ever been in this situation before. I've .. I've never had a boyfriend before, let alone someone.. someone else liking me."
<Let alone a ghoul?>
Shht.
Sasha cleared her throat.
"It was just something I felt like I needed to.. to talk to you about, Rin. That's all. It's.. it's nothing you did, or whatever, I just."
She cleared her throat again.
"Sandwiches, Bean?"
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 9:10 pm
Rin chuckled with a soft flush. Her grip on Sasha's hand weakening so Sasha could end the action with ease at her discretion, "Yes Goldy, sandwiches~"
Byr was mostly silent this time, he was trying to listen to Tracey's advice... but old habits died hard.
What?!
Byr... please. She's... she's got a boyfriend now... and she doesn't like me that way at all.
Byr fell quiet again when he realized the only answer he could think of was a simple 'so?'.
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 9:14 pm
Sasha still wasn't sure what the conversation she'd initiated had accomplished, if anything, but she tugged Rin back towards the sandwich goods before relinquishing the hold she had on Rin's hand.
"So. You start with.. with a piece of bread?"
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 9:21 pm
Rin slunk after her like a scolded child but there was a lingering little thoughtful smile that refused to leave her face as she was dragged along by her hand.
Back at the bread now before she was released.
"So... uh... bread.. and.. and then..." she looked distinctly distracted.
"and then... hmm..." she blinked before looking back at Sasha, "... you wanted to discuss something about Jerry?"
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Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 9:38 pm
Sasha's brow wrinkled.
"N.. no?"
She wished she sounded more convincing.
"I'll.. it's nothing. Just.. forget it. Please?"
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