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Posted: Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:49 pm
"No!"
Had she upset him? God. Maybe they should just shove her back into a pod or kill her off or something. Making everyone feel bad about acting like they normally did wasn't how Sasha wanted to be. This was supposed to be some kind of second chance for her. An opportunity to make a difference or something. New friends, new experiences, and here she was being the same old fuddy duddy that Nona so often accused her of being.
"I'm sorry. I just." She opened her eyes and stared at him pleadingly. "It's stupid. I'm.. I'm stupid. It's hard, you know? All my life I've lived with just my papa for company. It.. it sounds ridiculous, I get that. And then just... doing all this a-and... and Nona..." Sasha rapped her balled fists on her thighs in frustration.
"I want to be like everyone else. It's just. Hard. To, you know. Get over it." She shook her head.
"But I'm trying. I just feel kind of... lost."
It probably didn't even make sense to him. He probably didn't even want to hear about it, for crying out loud. And for once, for the first time ever, Nona was actually silent. Soothing. No singing, humming, or trilling. No chirping, no nothing.
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Posted: Mon Mar 05, 2012 9:55 pm
Well, yelling no at him was definitely one way to keep him around. He flopped back against the wall and his eyes widened as she spoke. He unfurled, slowly loosening up again while he listened to her story, and eventually a fond little smile played on his lips.
"I don't think that's stupid. And I don't think you're stupid, either. I think that's.. sweet." He put his chin in his hands, and rested his elbow on his knee. "I don't know too many people who were sheltered that much. The world out there, she's a cruel place. Even without being a hunter. But you seem like you haven't seen that much cruelty in your life yet. And sweetheart, there ain't nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to that."
The culture shock was going to kill her, however. To go from that kind of peace, to this.. He shook his head. "So why'd you say yes? When Deus came calling, I mean. Sounds like you had it pretty made, there with your - " God, she even used the word papa. He felt like he was in a Disney movie. "Your papa."
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Posted: Tue Mar 06, 2012 7:11 am
"He died."
She fussed for a moment with the hem of her dress, a slight downward pull of her lips and a furrow between her eyebrows the only outward signs of the distress that the admission caused her. It was easier when she didn't think about it.
"You've probably heard this a million times, too, but. There's horrible things out there, you know? I can hear them. Well... not so much here. I guess that's a good thing. And, ah... when papa died, they got worse. Like. I'm not saying that he kept them away or whatever. I would just ... you know. Get in trouble when I talked about them."
She cleared her throat and peered over at him earnestly.
"So when Deus came, it was an easy decision. I didn't ah.. I didn't have anything else to do, I guess. I wasn't really thinking about all the parties I'd never gone to or.. or boys." Sasha shrugged. "I just kept worrying about ... structure and just... having something to do."
Sasha blinked a few times, scooched a few inches closer and breathed, "What about you?"
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Was it creepy? Probably a little. Maybe more than a little.
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Posted: Tue Mar 06, 2012 11:30 pm
"Aww, sweetheart."
A girl who had nothing but one person her entire life, was inevitably a mess when that person died. At least Sasha seemed like she was handling it well, though the choice to channel her energy into Deus may not have been her smartest. He reached out and wrapped his big arm around her shoulder, squeezing her gently in comfort. It felt awkward, the way his arm threatened to engulf her, and he tried to be gentle - he really didn't want to make her freak out again.
Still hugging her, he rolled his eyes and chuckled. "Yeah, I know all about them horrible things. They came to us all, and now we're coming to them. That's our job. Get rid of the horrible things in this world, while they keep on trucking without ever knowing about it. And hey, at least we have parties here. It's almost like living a real life."
He didn't sound entirely convincing, but he tried.
When she turned to ask him, he blinked down at those big, curious eyes, and quirked a brow in utter confusion. "What about me? Why'd I say yes?" His face melted into some very convincing apathy. "It wasn't a hard choice. I was a d**k back when I was nobody. Too many wrong decisions. And I figured, the best way to fix that was to start all over." His hand sliced across the air dramatically. "Clean the slate. Kill off Robert Morris and start anew." His hand dropped to his knee, and he smiled down at her proudly. "No regrets."
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Posted: Sat Mar 10, 2012 8:52 pm
"It just feels so nice to have something to do again. I don't know. I just." She shrugged and tucked a chunk of hair behind her ear as she thought about what she wanted to say. "Well. Like you said, right? A.. a chance to start all over. Be the person I never got to be. Not... well, for me, not really a better person. Just ... different."
Sasha gave a half-hearted laugh.
"It's a lot harder than I thought it would be." Sasha wrinkled her nose. "Like. You know. Like you said. Parties, a real life." She fluttered her hand. "Or.. as real as it can get, I guess." After letting a few moments pass, Sasha chuckled softly, turning a wry smile in Robert's direction.
"The only thing I've ever been proficient at wielding was my flute, and sometimes a paintbrush. Coming here, learning how to work together with a very.. ah, demanding.. well, with Nona. It's... been an interesting ride so far. I just hope it gets easier."
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Posted: Mon Mar 12, 2012 4:08 am
Robert listened, and smiled when it was appropriate. His smile turned just a touch more genuine when she mentioned the flute, however. "You play? Do you have one here? I wanna hear!" He was just rude enough not to ask, but just announce his desire outright, and yet, it didn't sound like a command. If anything, his eyes had lit up bright enough to make it seem more like an excited request. "I love music. What do you play? Classical, or jazz?"
He had no answer for the rest of what she'd said. Because the truth was, it wasn't ever going to get easier. It only got harder from here on out, and he couldn't tell her that. He never wanted to make that pretty face frown.
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2012 7:26 am
Everything about Sasha brightened when Robert grew excited about her mention of playing the flute. She loved playing for others - back home, Sasha had played for coin when her papa hadn't been able to work. "Classical! I'm.. not jazz. My papa taught me to play. I can sort of sing, too, but... I loved my flute."
As quickly as that radiant shimmer had come, it was gone.
"I was not thinking clearly when I packed to come here. To join Deus, I mean. I... I left it. I didn't bring it." She shook her head mournfully. "I hope to get another," Sasha flexed her fingers briefly, "because sometimes I really, really miss playing."
Slender shoulders hefted in a small shrug.
"Once I am able to find a new one, I could learn some jazz?" Sasha offered a small grin. "I'm a fast learner. Papa always said so." He had. He'd also said that she was a disappointment - but it was only because he'd wanted the best for her.
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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 6:37 am
Robert looked genuinely sad that she hadn't brought her flute. To be locked away in a place like this without the one thing most important to someone, would be torture. He nodded quickly. "You'll get one. We get to go out and get s**t, and we get paid well. You'll have your flute back in no time. Maybe if you learn anything I like, I'll sing it with you as you play." His face crunched up slightly. "Maybe. So long as we're alone."
He was relieved to hear that she was a fast learner. It was a skill that would, hopefully, keep her alive. "So, basically, you're gonna need to get adjusted to the labs, 'n s**t. That's where I come in. Now listen, this is real important." He bent in close, his eyes widening at the seriousness of the information he was going to pass on. "The entire division of Life is like.. it's like living with a big group of boys. Pranksters. You don't trust a single thing any one of those boys say, except for me, and Leon. Leon doesn't really play the whole prankster bit, but I do - which is why I know better." He leaned back, and brushed his thumb against her cheek playfully while winking. "But don't worry. I don't plan on playin' any tricks on you. You're too sweet."
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Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 10:23 am
Sasha's eyes widened impossibly, a huge smile spreading across her lips. "You would... you would sing? What do you sing? I bet you're a good singer!" The thought that he was even remotely musically inclined pleased Sasha incredibly.
When Robert went on to impart the serious advice about the Life division, Sasha listened with acute attentiveness. Her nose wrinkled slightly when he spoke of pranksters and the like. It was good to know that she could trust him to keep the pranks and tricks away from her - and this Leon he mentioned sounded like a good ally to have.
"Thanks, Robert," she rubbed her cheek where he'd brushed his thumb against her skin, the almost permanent pinkish color flushing her skin again. "It.. it means a lot, you know? To have people that I can trust." She reached forward and patted his knee before folding her hands in her lap again.
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Posted: Thu Mar 29, 2012 4:07 am
Robert's lips thinned in a tight smile at the question. His instinctive denial bubbled up almost instantly, but Sasha was just the kind of person to inspire sincerity in a man, even him. He shrugged his shoulders and nodded. "I guess. Yeah. I worked hard enough for it. If I wasn't a good singer.. that's a good bit of my life I was wasting back then." But even his moment of sincerity had it's limits, and the question of what he sang made him hesitant. "I.. can sing everything. Whatever you want, I'll belt it out for you. Not really picky." He lied smoothly through his teeth. He was very picky, but there was no force in heaven or hell that was going to make him sit there and list off his favorite musicals and opera sonatas for a girl. He had to keep some shred of his dignity, somehow.
The pat on his knee distracted him, and when she spoke, he nodded sagely and lifted his eyebrows in solemn agreement. "No doubt, princess. Having someone you can trust, around here, well, it's everything." He grinned down at her brightly. "I'm glad you're in Life, Sasha. We're gonna take good care of you."
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