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 Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:00 am
"No, no..." She reached out for him, shaking her head as she tried to reach for his hand before realizing that it was out of reach. She paused, frowning before continuing, "Please don't apologize... There is no reason for you to apologize."
She summoned whatever energy she had left and crawled out of bed, flopping herself down on the floor. She looked slightly disoriented, staring at a fleeing Jimmy before wriggling towards her friend, "Mot, thank you... For staying." She even managed a small, but genuine, smile just for him.
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:03 am
Mot watched as she got herself out of bed, sitting on the floor with him. He got off his knees and slid to sit as well, watching her curiously.
"You're welcome." Mot murmured, his eyes set on hers. "I don't want to get you upset again, but.." Mot fidgeted with his hands, his eyes lowering momentarily before meeting hers again. "What happened with Mac?"
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:20 am
She went silent at the question, looking away momentarily; she really wasn't intending on telling anyone - maybe just Tess, but nobody else. She was planning to tell them all the same answer she had given to Shun, that Mac and her broke up... Simple and clean, an answer that wouldn't prompt too many questions.
However, this was Mot. She had promised to be honest with him. She had promised to not hide things from him.
"Mac broke up with me," Her voice was soft as she started to play with the hem of her dress, trying to distract herself from the ache in her chest, "He said... He said we weren't doing well. Said that he didn't take our relationship seriously." She begun to choke up, pulling her legs to her chest, "The Mac I know would never do or say those things... He would never hurt me... I'm so confused, Mot..."
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:28 am
Mot's mouth formed a thin line, trying not to let Lizzy's emotions stir him up. He'd never witnessed heartbreak before. But as far as he could tell, this was it. It was hard to watch. Especially to someone so dear.
Mac had said those things? That didn't make sense. He seemed so fond of her a few weeks ago. Did that change? He really would have to talk to the guy, even if it wasn't really his business.. he should at least try, for Mac and Lizzy's sake. Lizzy loved Mac. And as far as he had known, Mac had seemed to love her too. Maybe he had been mistaken?
Mot lowered his eyes. He had nothing he could say or do. There was no fixing this, was there? No kind words or a few hugs would patch it nicely. And if they did, Mot didn't know the right ones to say.
Not once did Mot even think to take Lizzy for himself. Not once.
"Give it time." Mot said after a long moment. "Something doesn't... seem right. But if it is what it is? Then.." Then what? "Then.. just.. try to heal. I hear that this kind of thing happens to a lot of people. All the time. So.." Wait, was that supposed to help?
Mot bit his lip. He wondered if trying to help was a bad idea.
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:35 am
"Like in the movies?" She tried to laugh, but it only made her want to cry again, so she settled for wiping her tears away using the back of her hand, "Maybe I should do something really drastic to take my mind off him..." She wasn't sure what though; his words had really tore her heart apart.
"This happens in the movies all the time," She whispered, hugging her legs close to her chest, resting her chin on her knees,"You're right. They say high school relationships never last... I guess I was just being hopeful, maybe just a little bit... Stupid." Yup, stupid, like Mac had called her.
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 10:41 am
"You aren't stupid, Lizzy." Mot frowned. A little naive? Yes, but not stupid. He wouldn't call her naive though. That would not make it better.
Still, that was a depressing statistic. They never last? Ever? Why did that feel like he lost hope for something?
"I hate to see you so sad." Mot admitted aloud. "But... I understand it will be a while before you really smile again. Just.. don't let your despair consume you. Okay?"
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:14 pm
"I won't, I promise!" She nodded, looking determined as she went silent again; Mot was here now, and Roch's words started to play in her head. Something about looking at Mot closely, and not label him... She frowned, hesitating for a moment, "Mot... Do you dislike being my big brother? Or rather, do you dislike me treating you as a big brother? Should we just be friends?"
She fidgeted with the hem of her dress, and then her hair, "I never intended for you to feel forced into any position..."
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:20 pm
Mot smiled fondly as that peppy attitude ever so slightly came back in Lizzy's eyes.
The change in topic was good, just not the topic he would have liked. "What makes you think that?" Mot said after a moment. While it was true the title felt.. awkward, considering how he felt. But, it made Lizzy happy, which was why he went along with it.
Just be friends?
A soft pang in his heart made him wince. Despite having resolved himself to thinking Lizzy could never be with him, hearing that even in an innocent sentence was a little painful. Too much reality. He preferred to live in his dream land.
"No, it's.. fine."
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:31 pm
"... Someone told me that I shouldn't force titles on others," She answered softly, picking her words carefully as she frowned, continuing to fidget as she looked away, "And you are someone important to me, so... I don't want you to be stuck with a title I forced on you, because you're always so nice and giving that you would never tell me if you are uncomfortable or unhappy with it..."
She looked back up at Mot, her frown deepening, "Please, I... I feel like people never tell me things, and I always get information from a third party. It makes me confused and hurt... Mot, are you hiding things from me?"
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:43 pm
Mot, are you hiding things from me?
Mot turned pale...er...paler. He was always pale. So honestly, if she noticed? Good for her.
"It's not that I mean to hide anything." Mot admitted, looking a little ashamed. "Not from you.. I just.." The reaper hesitated. "Some things are hard to admit, because I'm scared of pushing friends away. I worry I'll hurt others with what I feel sometimes. It's not that I dislike your title for me. It's flattering, truly. Mitsu calls me Big Brother too." But he liked when Mitsu called him Big Brother. It felt accurate.
"But.. with you, I feel less like the one watching over you. More like..." More like pining for.
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Posted: Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:57 pm
"I would never be pushed away. Not from you," She frowned, wondering why Mot was worrying so much, why he seemed so hesitant to tell her what's on his mind; would this big secret ruin their friendship? If so, that small, selfish part of her no longer wanted to know; too bad the stubborn part of her was louder, "Flattering is not the same as liking it... Mot..."
She sighed, and then looked up at him expectantly, waiting for him to finish his sentence.
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2011 12:09 am
"More like..." Mot was trying to find a way to word this that didn't give away his feelings. If he lost the battle with Hel, he'd have to tell her anyway though, right? Still...
"...More like you're the one always helping me out." He managed to say. It was the tuth, after all. He wasn't lying. It just wasn't his biggest secret. "I'm not a strong guy, Lizzy. You always lift my spirits up and tell me nice things. I need that."
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2011 5:50 am
"You're always helping me out too... And..." She frowned, fidgeting again as she looked away; she wasn't sure what she thought of that... She paused, hesitant to continue, her voice dropping in volume, "If I stop telling you nice things, will you stop being my friend?"
She liked seeing the good side of people. She liked praising and encouraging others... But if that was all she was good for... She couldn't do anything else for Mot, after all; she couldn't help him sleep better or eat better.
She looked down at her own feet, hugging her legs closer to herself, almost afraid to hear the boil's answer.
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2011 10:04 am
"Of course not." Mot answered right away, looking at Lizzy worriedly. "Those are just a couple qualities you possess. The most prominent." Mot thought carefully, not wanting to start gushing bout everything he loved about her. He didn't wish to gush, but Lizzy seemed in need of cheering up and reassuring.
"You're compassionate. You care so much for others. So whenever you're feeling down, more than anyone you deserve to be cheered up." He offered the ghoul a smile. "I like all the sides of Lizzy. If you're not up to being upbeat once in a while, I'll still be sticking around."
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2011 10:23 am
She smiled, even blushing a little, as Mot started to list what he thought were her good qualities; she was so used to giving others praises and encouragements that she had almost forgotten why she even tried to make a habit of doing that in a consistent manner... It helped others to see what they might be completely blind to.
"Thank you," She replied, "For your words. And for sticking around and caring... It means a lot to me." She moved over to sit by him, giving him a quick hug from the side, "Thank you for always being sincere, Mot... I promise you that I won't be down forever, okay? I just need some time to... Sort out my thoughts."
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