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 Posted: Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:48 pm
village midget whee Happy Birthday for whenever it is xd
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Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2011 1:14 pm
3Amaranth13 aTTypical Don't feel bad about yourself at all. To me this really does sound like a chemical imbalance, essentially it's a medical condition if you think of it that way. What you're describing sounds a lot like depression to me, but it could be more of an anxiety disorder or something similar (I only really know about the former). I would also suggest therapy, except it sounds like that may not be an option, in which case, a close friend or relative whom you can confide in would work too. In fact, ideally you should have both. Supplements are a good start, so is examining your diet in general to see if anything is missing. Though if it's a bad imbalance you may need medication. I'm not a big pill person myself, but they can help keep things from getting out of hand, which gives you a chance to figure out what's really going on. Honestly, the key to all this may be some unreleased stress or emotions. It could even be something subconscious that's bothering you. Or it could be a whole bunch of little things just adding up.
If you're refering to the very first of the thread, don't worry about that too much. I have been getting much better than I was then. At the moment, I'm doing the best I can to accept my anxieties and manage them naturally without medication. I've also been talking to my psychology teacher about it as well, and he's been very empathetic with me and supportive of what I'm doing. I've also been keeping up with my proper nutrition to balance.
It could be a chemical imbalance, but I think it's genetic because my mother also suffers from anxiety and depression, and I found out from her that it ran in our family, so I think it's something I've always had. It DOES also relate to stress, because I'm going to be 18 soon and I have many responsibilities now and ahead of me. I'm more anxious about those things more than I ever have before. Time passes by fast.
Still, I'm doing the best I can to make myself much better, with the help of my family and friends. Thanks so much for the advice. It is very much appreciated. ^^Glad to hear it! Yes, it does sound like in your case it's just one of those family things. I have a similar story (got mine from my mother too). I'm really glad to hear you're making progress without medication too! That's always a last choice option in my opinion. 18 really can be a high pressure birthday =/ what with the transition into adulthood and all. I hope it turns out to be an enjoyable transition for you though.
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Posted: Sat Dec 17, 2011 3:31 pm
Update: Yes, it's almost Christmas time. For the moment, I just want to rant.
I had been feeling really sick this month. My allergies are acting up, causing me to feel congested and really icky. I have seasonal allergies, so this is normal for me, but I haven't felt this sick in years. It pisses me off to no end.
My anxiety has been on and off. I had been studying for Finals, and so far, I feel good while also a little anxious. I want to get at least B's on my Finals, that way my semester grade doesn't fall apart. It's also just my normal anxiety of lonliness, but I had been able to distract them with music. Music makes me happy.
I had been feeling really depressed though. There were times when I had felt like not eating, and not sleeping. I felt like not doing anything, as if doing anything wasn't worth it. I don't know why I felt that way; I just felt that I had no motivation. My mom had been feeling horrible for me, and her hormones have been acting up so it made me feel worse. Though, both of us cried and she told me hat she loved me, and that had been making me feel better. I'm not depressed now, but I was until Wednesday.
At the moment, I'm at home relaxing. I'm going to study for Finals and get ready for Christmas and my birthday in the next weeks.
I wish all of you a wonderful holiday! I appreciate all the advice you've given me, and It makes me smile every time I read what you guys post. So, thank you to all.
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Posted: Sat Dec 17, 2011 4:26 pm
*reads to the end* dayum... that's some hard stuff. sad
It's good to see that advice was helpful though. biggrin I offer hugs and many good lucks in your future. (I'm 18, turning 19 in May of next year, so I kinda understand how tough that part was for you) *hugs* Also, I suggest finding a hobby that you can enjoy, or something that can keep you occupied for long periods of time. Mine is playing video games, and I know it really helps me keep stress to a minimum. I currently have a part time job that I'll be quitting soon so I can start the process of becoming a U.S. Marine.
I'm posting this to let you know that you have a friend who will always be here to listen to whatever you want to talk about.
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Posted: Sun Dec 18, 2011 8:49 am
world walker 1734 *reads to the end* dayum... that's some hard stuff. sad It's good to see that advice was helpful though. biggrin I offer hugs and many good lucks in your future. (I'm 18, turning 19 in May of next year, so I kinda understand how tough that part was for you) *hugs* Also, I suggest finding a hobby that you can enjoy, or something that can keep you occupied for long periods of time. Mine is playing video games, and I know it really helps me keep stress to a minimum. I currently have a part time job that I'll be quitting soon so I can start the process of becoming a U.S. Marine. I'm posting this to let you know that you have a friend who will always be here to listen to whatever you want to talk about.
I do have a lot of hobbies; I just have trouble committing to them (I know, it's a bit weird). I'm hoping to get a part time job with just using some basic skills (like cleaning or something) over the summer. I'm not going to college until early 2013, so hopefully that will help me in my time off and in my resume.
Good luck to you in being in the Marines. Most of my guy friends are planning to do that after graduating, so I wish them good luck as well.
Thank you for posting. It makes me happy to know that someone (or a lot of people) understand my tough times and my rants.
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Posted: Wed Dec 28, 2011 11:27 am
Sounds like the beginning of PPD (Paranoid Personality Disorder)
I'm diagnosed with it.
I know what it is like to freak out over little things, and have it being constantly on your mind.
It sucks, Just know that the odds of someone breaking into your house is slim to none.
Try to block it out of your mind and talk to a doctor about it.
Meds might help you, they helped me. =)
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Posted: Wed Dec 28, 2011 11:34 am
@Subliminal Aftermath
Huh, it could be, but I don't know. I'd like to prefer not being diagnosed with anything, and I haven't seen my doctor in a LOOOOOONG time. XD
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 8:52 am
Update:
I may need help again.
I feel like I'm becoming a total b***h.
Let me explain.
Recently, I have been overthinking. There had been some things that my mom had said to me that sometimes kind of made me question her. There was a day when she made the worst stereotypical statement. The statement was something like this, and I'm sorry if I offend anyone, but these were her own words:
"Schizophrenics are dangerous. They are violent and dangerous and would want to kill you. They can turn to serial killers..."
I didn't say anything, but I was very angry at that. I didn't want to show it in my face though, because she usually would want to correct me. I shouldn't judge her, but I had to sometimes, especially when moments like that happen. I can't help but overthink that she's the kind of person I don't want to be.
I've said before that I want to be a better person. I want to be able to go out more, do charity work, become the person I want to be than be the person I am now. I feel like my mom, even though she has done so much for me and things I still appreciate her for, is getting in the way. I want to someday move out of the house after college.
I feel like it would embarrassing to myself if I stayed with my mother for the rest of my life. I love her dearly, but sometimes, I can be very angry at her.
Now here's how it really came to be.
I have a friend named Parker who is extremely dear to me. I think he likes me, and maybe I might like him back. My mom is concerned and excited for me, that I recognized, but for some reason, every morning, I've become very cranky and I let it all out on her. I feel like she doesn't trust me, but I think it's because I don't trust her. I'm 18, and almost an adult, and I know she wants me to be safe, but I keep wanting to go the way of the normal teenager and saying that she doesn't know him and all that other bullshit. I'm not gonna go down that road, but I don't know how to explain to my mother that I can take care of myself.
I know I can. I've been taking of myself for most of my life. I feel like that every time I'm going to be with him, she's going to pry and become nosy. I know that's normal, but for some reason I'm angry at her about it. I feel like I'm becoming a b***h to her because I'm mad at her for being concerned and prying into my life.
I feel like I'm becoming a person that I shouldn't become. I'm cynical of most people I know; I don't need to lose my trust for my mother, and I don't need her to lose her trust for me. I love her, but I just don't want to poke her nose through everything.
Can someone explain why I'm being this horrible person? It may seemed like I already explained, but I still don't understand my own emotions and why they're there.
I just want some good advice on how to change myself to be more optimistic about this, because at the moment, I'm not happy with myself.
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