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 Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 2:44 am
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۞ Bella✽Reue✽Legosi ۞
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 Bella continued to randomly stare at a 'star-spangled banner' themed bra set in Victoria's Secret to keep her eyes from looking at Jack. The pang she had felt in her chest had started to rekindle at just seeing him again after that night...and now here they were. Once the best of friends...and they couldn't even look at each other. Seeing the manner in which Jack hastily turned away seemed to confirm Bella's earlier suspicions that she had just been a 'night' to him. Or at least, that their friendship was permenantly ruined. ' Perhaps he blames me for what happened...I shouldn't have kissed him. I shouldn't of-' Bella bit her straw to keep from blaming herself. She had guilt-tripped herself before when she and Cailen's dad had passed away while they were in high school, and she sure as hell did not need to force herself into more years of withdrawl and depression. How stupid she had been for thinking that night had been something special! He was just a guy, being a guy, who slipped up and gave in. It was, after all, easier to give in with beloved friends one trusted than it was with a complete stranger. ' If we weren't friends, he wouldn't have done it.' Which should have been a comforting thought; except for the bitter stabbing throb sounding in her chest. ' He was just being nice to me.'
Clamping her eyes shut at the sheer contemplation of such a belief, an image of their night together flashed into her mind and she bit down so hard on her straw that when she loosened her teeth from the plastic, it stayed closed like that in her mouth, and she had to suck more smoothie in order for her straw to return to normal. Whilst in her momentary bout of a mental struggle, Bella's ears pricked to the sound of Adam asking her to go to Macys with him. ' Oh GOD! Will you just leave me alone!?! I DONT WANT TO SLEEP WITH YOU!' Biting back the inward growl from escaping her lips, Bella opened her eyes and glanced to her side to try and formulate a believable excuse or suggestion which would prevent her from saying 'yes' to Adam when Skylar walked up and distracted her from thinking of one.
Immediately looking to Jack, as her heart could not resist the torture, the smile lighting up his expression made all her previous heartbreaking thoughts seem all the more likely, and the reality of how meaningless it was had just been rubbed in her face. Immediately, the beginnings of tears began to well up in her throat. ' See! He's in love with Skylar. What happened was a mistake, and he wont look at you because he regrets what happened.' Unable to tear her eyes from the interlude with the same morbid fascination of having to always look at road kill, the happy smile combined with Jack giving Skylar a kiss and folding his arm around her waist was too much for Bella to handle. ' If I have to watch them together for an hour I'll kill myself!' Exagerating only because the pain in her chest was so unbearable at seeing him do nothing besides giving Skylar a kiss and holding her, she cringed her eyes as the images of Jack making-out with Skylar or -worse- being on top of Skylar flashed into her brain. Immediately a throbbing as horrendous as when their father had died all those years ago enflamed her chest in the most acute, constricting, pain she had ever remembered experiencing. If not worse. ' I can't handle this...if I don't leave now, I'll start balling later...Or I'll storm off and then everyone will know how I feel. I can't do that to Jack...I can't...do this to the baby...'
Knowing her limits well, Bella felt her phone vibrate in her pocket from her brother's text message, but at the present moment Bella couldn't care less if anybody texted her, like hell she was answering right now. Seeing the obvious choices before her: Watching Jack be all wrapped up in Skylar, or going to Macy's with Adam, Bella cringed and laughed her tomboyish chuckle. Being so focused on Jack and Skylar that she failed to notice Alice tugging on Adam's sleeve, a bright smile blossomed on Bella's face at the sheer hope of not having to deal with watching the lovebirds for another second! Tugging on his hand; Bella replied to Adam in as genuine as kindness as she could muster:
" Ha, You can't pick out a simple present?" Bella shook her head in genuine glee at Adam saving her from perpetual torment before using her right hand to brush her reddish brown wavy hair behind her ear. Never smiling long, her smile faded, but the light continued to dance in her eyes. She could be happy today, blissfully happy, if she could just get far...far away from Jack. At the moment, in her agony, Bella was happy that their 'perfect relationship' finally had a problem! It wasn't like she and Skylar were the best of friends...In three years Bella couldn't remember the last time they had spent together outside their little group, but that was Bella's own fault for being an anti-social recluse. Not that she hadn't wanted to branch out and be kind to her. Knowing she would regret having thought so painfully evil a thing, Bella pushed her conscious away and continued where she left off.
" Sure, I'll help you out. Its not like I have anything better to do. I'll see you around guys.", Chuckling slightly once more, Bella didn't even wait for Adam to start walking before she turned around and headed for Macy's department store. If Adam was anything like how fast he had been a few short minutes before, he was already hot on her trail and jogging to match her pace. So what if she was using him? At the moment Bella didn't think Adam would care.
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✿But when I'm gone...will you✉to me?✿ ↙xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 12:22 pm
 Cailen$Legosi As Cailen made his way over to where Alice had joined up with the group, he noticed that Bella was there. A flood of relief washed over him knowing that his sister was alright- for now. He looked around at the various people walking through the mall, searching for Tony or Bruce. Cailen remained silent as he approached the group and stood next to Alice. He swept a quick glance at everyone, pausing to get a good look at Bella, and then stared down at the ground. Come on Cailen, pull it together. His hands were slightly shaking and he could hear his heart beating in his chest. He bit his lip as he tried to think of a way to get the money to pay back Tony. It would take a month’s worth of paychecks to pay him back, including the amount he had to use to pay various bills. Was Tony willing to wait over a month to get his money? What if he paid him back in smaller installments? This wasn’t the first time that Cailen had owed money to someone. He was always borrowing money from people he knew, and occasionally people he didn’t really know. He’s also gotten beaten up a few times before when he told these people that he didn’t have the money to pay them back, but none of them have gone as far as threatening the people he loved. This was something new to Cailen. He could take a beating, but he would never forgive himself if something happened to Bella.
He could tell that Alice was aggravated at him. She probably already knew that the phone call was about another debt he had to pay off. She always asked him about it, but Cailen was sensitive on the matter. I do not have a gambling problem. Sure he lost almost all his money when gambling, and was at the casino at least once a week, but he could stop anytime he wanted. The reason he didn’t stop was because he figured that since he lost all these times before, he was bound to hit it big sooner or later. When that day came, no one would ever be mad at him, not even Alice. She would be so happy and Cailen could buy her anything she wanted. He could pay off all the debts he owed to people and buy anything he wanted. Then no one would ever question if he had a gambling problem or not.
Cailen was always like that though, he loved taking the risks and then having it pay off in the end. When he was younger he was always taking and dishing out bets in the school yard. The bets got more serious as he got older. During his teenage years he learned about hustling. After school him and some other buddies would head down to a pool hall and hustle the guys there out of their money. When he turned 18 he was finally able to buy his own scratch and lottery tickets. From there he got into gambling at the casinos and quickly getting into debt. Now he was in some serious trouble and he had to find a way to get the money that he needed.
He wasn’t paying much attention to what the group was saying until he heard Adam ask Bella to go to Macy’s with him. Cailen, and everyone else in the group knew that Adam had a thing for Bella. This sort of rubbed Cailen the wrong way. He knew all about Adam and all his hook ups, and he did not want his sister to be another one of those girls. Cailen snapped his head up to see what she was going to say. He didn’t want her to go; he wanted to keep her in his sight at all times. If she left, then he couldn’t protect her. He usually wasn’t overly protective of Bella, but in this case he had to be. He wanted to say something, but what could he say? He didn’t want to start anything between him and Adam and if Bella wanted to go with him, Cailen couldn’t stop her. To his surprise, she agreed to go with him and started off in the direction of the store. Cailen wanted to call after her, but she went with a purpose and there was no stopping her now. Before Adam had a chance to run off after her, Cailen pulled him aside. “Hey, keep an eye on her for me please. Don’t let anything happen to her” he said to him with a pleading look in his eyes. It seemed kind of ironic to Cailen to be asking Adam to look out for her, but at this point he didn’t care what it took to keep her safe.
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 4:32 pm
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And I need you to make the promise l a s t
To contradict my past
To know that I am s a n e
To help me feel a s h a m e d 
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Skylar smiled when she made eye contact with Jack. It was just something she couldn’t really help. Seeing him made her happy and knowing that he was happy just made everything better. Basically, Sky enjoyed the little things in life. She was a bit determined to appreciate them more. She liked the feeling of Jack’s arm around her. It made her feel safe and loved. It practically made all of her insecurities that she had been thinking about before just go away.
Of course that didn’t last long because Cailen decided to join the group. Now Sky loved Jack. That was something she was certain about. She cared for him deeply and he was her boyfriend after all. But lately Sky had been noticing feelings start to spark up when Cailen was around. She couldn’t figure out why. It was just something about him. He was a nice guy, she had always thought that. But now it was like she was thinking about him as more than a friend. She couldn’t be doing this. She was with a great guy who treated her right. She couldn’t be thinking of another guy with him right beside her. She would just have to suck it up and hope that Jack didn’t notice anything was wrong with her. She didn’t want to lie to him if he did ask but she wouldn’t want to ruin this relationship because of a silly thought.
Sky noticed that her feelings around Cailen seemed to be stronger when he was single. Alice and Cailen had dated many times in a sort of on – off relationship. Whenever they were in the off part of their relationship Sky thought about Cailen a lot more. She knew this was dangerous and it was part of the reason she felt weird about the whole group thing. Last she heard, Alice and Cailen were not together. She would just have to remind herself that she was with Jack, a great guy. If she repeated that to herself enough times it would be sure to knock any feelings she had for Cailen far away.
It was shortly after Sky arrived that Bella and Adam started to leave. She couldn’t help the thought that snuck its way into her mind Are they leaving because of me? She hoped not. It was her paranoia taking over once again. She really needed to keep that in check. She decided to turn her attention back to the rest of the group, ”So how is everyone doing?”
_____________________________________________ ________________________ You promised that you'd stayYou say you want to g oYour lips provide a s h e l t e r to theThings that I don't know
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 4:49 pm
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we remain, I can breathe one more day
still here still f i g h t i n g on
all we have is today find my way to the beauty
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Alice found it hard to contain her annoyance that Adam would not speak with her prior to going off with Bella. She pushed down her feelings inside on the matter. Clearly, Bella did not have a problem spending time with Adam when it was clear to everyone that he had a thing for her. If she wants to become another notch in his bedpost, that's her choice.... She sighed, feeling guilty for even having a thought like that pass through her mind. Bella was Cailen's twin sister. Although the two girls had never been extraordinarily close - Alice would never dream of being outwardly mean to someone so close to someone that she cared about so much.
The thought of Cailen made her turn her attention back to him. He appeared to have said something quietly to Adam before he walked off with Bella. Something was incredibly off about him. Alice began to wonder what the phone call could have been about. There was no way that it was just a simple call from someone requesting money - no, not according to the expression that was now painted on Cailen's face. There was definitely something incredibly wrong. What was one agitation drained from her face and turned into an expression of concern and worry.What if he owes a lot of money this time? A lot more than he has owed before. What if it's to someone who means business when he says that he wants his money?Alice knew that if it was a large sum of money that Cailen now owed, there was no way that he would be able to manage to pay it back on top of paying all of his bills. Normally, she would just lecture him on the negative sides of gambling - but clearly, that didn't seem to have been working for either of them in the past. She began to wonder if the reason why he didn't stop was because he kept landing himself in debt and he figured one day he would be able to pay everything off. She would help him out in paying it off - if she could. Her job at American Apparel was only part time and provided her just enough hours to pay the bills that she owed. There was no way that she would be able to help him out with the money she earned. Unless...- Alice usually did not accompany Cailen to the casino. That location was not somewhere that she felt particularly comfortable. It most definitely was no within her comfort zone. Nevertheless, after another argument in which Cailen had mentioned that she never took the time to get to know anything he liked, Alice decided that she would go with him to see if perhaps it wasn't as bad as she thought it was. "I'm going to wander around for a bit, okay?" Alice informed him before starting to walk around, taking in all of the sounds and lights around her, hoping to take her mind off of how awkward she was feeling being there.
It was not long before someone came up and approached her. A tall man wearing what looked to be a very expensive, clean pressed, black suit. Alice flashed him a half-smile to be polite, hoping that he wouldn't want to strike up a conversation, however - she did not get so lucky.
"Why hello there, Miss. You're just an absolutely stunning one, aren't you?" the man spoke to her in a smooth, yet professional tone. "...Um, thank you...," Alice was not exactly sure how she should respond to such a comment.
She remained silent, growing more and more uncomfortable with the situation at hand and hoping that the man would just decide to walk away when he realized that she really wasn't a chatty individual. The man did not walk away, but instead, reached into the inside pocket of his suit and pulled out a small business card.
"I think you would do well at my establishment," the man said to her, extending his hand out so that Alice could take the card that he was offering.
Her eyes gazed down at the tiny piece of thickened paper in her hand. INDULGENCE was written in big letters across the card. Alice had heard of that place - it was a small strip club just outside of town. Was this man honestly asking her if she wanted to become a stripper?
He could sense the mixture of insult and disgust on Alice's face and chuckled a bit to himself when she looked back up at him and tried to give him his card back, letting him know that she most definitely was not interested in his offer.
"Don't fret, sweetie. We are a very respectable establishment. I take very good care of my girls. No one lays an unwanted finger on them without my guys taking care of them," the man proceeded to explain to Alice, but she was still not showing any sign of interest in the offer. "Keep the card. You've got a real 'girl-next-door' look about you. I think you would do very well if you were interested. Give me a call if you change your mind."
Alice, trying to remain polite and 'keeping the offer open' so that he would leave her alone, put the card in her purse and told him that if she changed her mind she would contact him.
Shortly after the man walked away, Alice skirted back to Cailen. She did not tell him about the man that had just occurred. It didn't matter. She was never going to consider that line of work. Ever.
-Alice knew that she still had that man's card in her purse. She rarely ever cleaned that thing out, so the card would definitely still be in there. She could not believe that she was actually starting to consider the man's offer. What if anyone found out? Bella and Skylar would probably think she was a whore. Jack and Adam would probably find it hilarious and never let her live it down. And Cailen... well, Alice wasn't sure how he would take it. Maybe I just won't tell him. He spends so much time at the casino there's no way he'd go to that strip club...Alice decided to put aside her thoughts for the moment and answer the question that Skylar had just posed."I've been doing pretty good! Hey... who wants to go to Build-a-Bear?!" Alice added the last part with enthusiasm, hoping that the group would decide that going to her favorite place was a good idea.
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 8:41 pm
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I taste your scent in the wind
I set my sail but then you sink my boat
So I begin to swim
Bash my foes until I win
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" HEY! WAIT UP BELLS!" Laughing at having been so slow, Adam was just about to reposition his phone in his pocket to keep from snapping it mid-run when he felt a thick hand on his forearm/elbow. Turning around to see Cailen, Adam got the impression that if he did not move to talk to Bella's brother, he would be forcibly removed from the group to hear the man out anyway. Adam had to swallow at the painful contemplation of what he might be about to say. Everyone knew his sleeping habits; especially Cailen and Jack, as Adam never made it a secret that he slept around, even if he never mentioned whom he slept with. Realizing his joy was short-lived, Adam followed Cailen a little distance from the others with a pained expression splashed on his face. ' ' Here it comes...the ' If you *touch* my sister I'll kill you' speech.' '' ' Which Adam had heard a few times in his life...but hearing it from one of his friends made the experience all the more painful. Kicking himself for not having realized this conversation -would- have taken place eventually, Adam decided not to risk embarrassing himself by explaining his intentions. Chances were, he wouldn't be believed anyway, why waste the effort?
Seeing the concern on Cailen's face forced a smidgeon of worry to bubble within his chest. ' ' Does he really think I'd screw and ditch Bella after we have been friends all these years?' ' Completely forcing thoughts of Alice out of his head, as that night absolutely did not count, Adam felt a fearful tremor surging through his veins at the possibility of how dead he would be if Cailen found out he and Alice had slept together while they were broken up. Swallowing the excess saliva forming in his mouth, Adam -once more- ignored the strange lump on the underside of his chin and averted his gaze to keep the wave of guilt from surfacing up and ruining everything. ' ' s**t...how am I going to break this to him?' ' Realizing he couldn't, in any way, tell Cailen willingly, Adam knew in his heart he had to have a serious talk with Alice sooner or later about that night...and after a quick glance at Bella still walking down to the end of the mall, Adam opted for later. With dread of hearing a threat tempering his original glee, fear smite-ing the rest of it from the face of the earth, Adam looked back at Cailen which a ghost-white face.
“Hey, keep an eye on her for me please. Don’t let anything happen to her”
What? was the sentiment written all over Adam's face at hearing that instead of the threat he expected to hear. Almost touched at his friend having some small remnant of belief in him, Adam grinned and playfully slugged Cailen on the upper arm. ' ' Seriously? You don't think i'm just f*cking around...' ' The man still appeared rather fearful and concerned, which spurred Adam to doubt his statement the slightest bit. Cailen would probably act nice now...and kill him later if he found out Bella got hurt. For now, the glimer of Cailen having faith in him was enough to rekindle all his original euphoria, combined with an addition boost for the good fortune of avoiding a painful conversation. Nodding in as reassuring a manner as possible; combined with a genuine smile, Adam patted his friend on the back.
" I've got your back Cailen. I've never let Bells out of my sight before. If -anything- happens to Bells, it wont be because of me; okay? You can trust me." Regretting adding the last bit, as Adam wasn't sure Cailen would believe it, Adam started to skip towards -or more really past- the group before the image of Alice resurfaced in his brain. The guilt of saying: 'you can trust me' when he slept with his -then- ex-girlfriend grinded him to the core of his being. Taking out his phone, Adam started to walk very fast to try and catch up with Bella while furiously texting a message to Alice's cell phone: Alice...I'm sry about being short with you. We just can't talk about that night *now*. I'm sry. Plz call me tonight. {Lv- Adam.}
Clicking 'Send' being the last thing slowing Adam down before he disappeared running through the mall to catch up with Bella, who had vanished into the classy department store a minute before he reached the entrance. The slow pace he had used while erasing and re-writing his text message three times having been enough to create the large gap between them. Searching around the store, Adam had found Bella staring blindly at the baby clothes before he finally ended up catching up with her.♣XXXXXXXXXX♣XXXXXXXXXX♣ ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ ▒▒▒ ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ ░ ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ ▒▒ ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ {♣♣c::Alright, to keep from boring you all and cluttering up the pages with an on-going conversation with myself, I'm going to let you guys carry on for a while, let the plot continue, then have them walk back to the group at later time. Depending on what goes on in the rp. whee ☞I am the conqueror
Byzantine mozaic in the heat
I am cursed, through the worst
With a life that's made to burn
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Posted: Thu Dec 09, 2010 12:28 pm
Cailen$Legosi Cailen could see the look of confusion on Adam’s face when he heard what Cailen asked of him. Adam was probably expecting this whole speech on if he ever hurt Bella what Cailen would do to him, but truthfully he wasn’t worried about what Adam could do to her at the moment. He was more worried about Tony’s threat. His thoughts lingered on the last part of Adam’s statement. He better not hurt Bella, or else. At the same time though, he felt a little relief. Adam would most likely stick to Bella like glue and if he did hurt Bella in any way, Cailen knew he could handle it. He could deal with Adam later if needed, but Bruce was another story. Without another word, he watched as Adam chased after Bella who had already reached the store by now. He didn’t really know how to feel about Adam and Bella being together. It would be weird seeing his sister and Adam whom they grew up with in a relationship. Cailen mentally laughed to himself at that thought. He knew his sister and as far as he could tell she did not like him in the same way as he did.
Cailen sighed and walked back over to where Jack, Skylar, and Alice were. He’d heard Alice say something about going to Build-A-Bear. He thought it was childish but knowing how Alice really didn’t have much of a childhood being stuck in a hospital most of the time, he could understand. Building a stuffed bear wasn’t on the top of his list of things, it seemed more of a girl thing, but in light of the situation he thought it would be best to go along with it. He wanted to keep Alice happy since the decision to give their relationship another shot. Plus maybe she would forget about the call he received earlier and wouldn’t bug him about it. There was nothing she could do and he didn’t want to bring her into the situation. Having one person he cared about in danger was bad enough. That and he wouldn’t accept any money from Alice anyways. It didn’t seem right for her to waste her money on his mistakes. This was a situation that he has to handle on his own.
Cailen swallowed his problems and put on the best smile he could manage. “Sure, it sounds like fun” he said putting his arm around Alice. There really wasn’t anything else to do. He sure didn’t have any money to spend, but he was willing to accompany them. He needed to get his mind off his problems and just try and enjoy the time he had with his friends. Of course the situation won’t go away, but he didn’t want to think about that right now.
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 7:49 am
 ❝Obsession Compulsion Disorder❞
【But I can control it】
I think.
Jack watched Adam and Bella walk off together and couldn't help feel a twinge of jealousy in his gut. It was the fact that Adam had been toying with the idea of them being together all day, with his subtle winks and the way he smiled when he was around her. Jack knew Bella wasn't interested in him, he never understood why guys still went after girls when they blatantly made it obvious they were not interested. Jack was never the kind to force himself on a girl, in any kind of situation. When a girl said no, Jack backed off. Although he wasn't sure if he remembered a girl saying "no" too often, he was a real nice guy after all. Which brought him back in his thoughts, remembering what he had done with Bella. He wondered why in the world he would have sex with her, he had a girlfriend whom he cared for. (But he wasn't sure if he honestly loved her.) Did Bella not say "no" because Jack was just a nice guy that she knew would treat her right? Jack bit his lip and looked down at his feet. He felt like a jerk, a big stupid jerk. He didn't want to come between anyone, he didn't want to ruin a perfect relationship. He looked at Skylar with a smile and realized how tight his grip had gotten on her waist. It wasn't a reassuring grip, it was a jealous and angry grip, his fingers just took it out on Skylar's waist as his thoughts took him away. Quickly, he let go of her and apologized with a gentle caress of her arm as moved to cross his arms over his chest.
There had to be a reason he would sleep with Bella. She was weak at that time emotionally, unsure of what to do. She had gone to him for help, he comforted her. He didn't mean for it to lead anywhere, but it suddenly lead to a kiss and then more. He shook his head, he was focused on it too much. But it wasn't really his fault, his OCD took over. He couldn't focus on anything else but his own thoughts. He was afraid he was talking out loud, but he looked up and no one seemed to care about anything but the mall. Jack felt quite the opposite. There was just too much going on, he couldn't have fun. He heard Alice bring up "build-a-bear" and chuckled, "You guys have fun, I'm gunna wander..." He held out his phone as if to say call me/text me for anything...
He started walking, hoping that no one followed him.
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 2:54 pm
x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀ ♥ x ♥ x ♥ ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀still here staggering on through the impossible
we remain, I can breathe one more day
still here still f i g h t i n g on
all we have is today find my way to the beauty
of one more day,▀▀▀▀▀▀▀ ♥ x ♥ x ♥ ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀
"You guys have fun, I'm gunna wander..."
Alice figured that Jack would not want to accompany them to Build-a-Bear. She was actually surprised that Cailen agreed to go; it was a very "girl sort of thing" for sure. Hopefully Skylar would want to accompany them as well, but Alice would understand if she wanted to accompany her boyfriend... wherever he was going.
Once again, Alice pondered the offer that was made by the man in the casino. She began to wonder if there was any possible way that she could get away with it and have none of her friends find out. The only person that she could actually see frequenting a strip club would be Adam... and well, so far she knew that he could keep his mouth shut.
No... there is no way I am doing this. I can't. Alice told herself silently. ... But what if Cailen is in real trouble? What if someone is coming for him if he doesn't pay up? He wouldn't ask for my help.... but if he was in danger... would he accept any money from me? He would have to. If I had the money to pay off all of his debts and he was in danger, he wouldn't turn it down, would he? How would I explain it? He knows I don't make that much money...Alice excused herself from the group for a moment, claiming that she needed to go to the bathroom. This would give her time to at least give the man a call. It would also give Skylar some time to decide if she wanted to accompany them or not. With that, Alice darted off in the direction of the nearest bathroom with almost a slight skip to her step. She had to make it seem like there was nothing on her mind until she had everything figured out.
When she arrived in the bathroom, she stepped into a stall and pulled her cell phone out of her purse. It was then that she noticed the text message that she had received from Adam, apologizing for how he acted and asking for her to call him later. She made a note to consider it. It wasn't what happened between them that she had even wanted to talk about. its fine. txt u later. dont say a word to cailen yet plz.After sending the text, Alice pulled out the business card once again, this time allowing her fingers to slowly dial the number. She held her breath as it began to ring. Starting to have second thoughts, she contemplating just hanging up. No. She couldn't do that. She could do this. She could at least meet with the man. A meeting would be okay.
"Indulgence Nightclub, Harrison speaking," a voice emanated from Alice's cell phone."Hi... I'm Alice. I met with someone at the casino a couple weeks ago...." Alice was unable to finish her sentence before Harrison cut in so that he could speak, "I remember you. I never forget such a pretty face. You change your mind about my offer?"
Alice had to give the man credit, he was definitely a smooth talker. However, she was not going to allow herself to be sucked in that fast. "I'm not sure. I wanted to set up a meeting with you.""Of course, sweetheart. I'll have my assistant call you to set something up. This number good to reach you?"
Alice informed him that she could indeed be reached at the number she was calling from and they ended the conversation. She figured that if Harrison's assistant called when anyone else was around she would play it off as a dentist appointment or something.
With that, Alice left the bathroom and made her way back to where her friends were standing, hoping that Skylar was going to accompany she and Cailen to the Build-a-Bear store.
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 5:22 pm
S K Y L A R XXX L E N N O X███████████████████ █████ ███
And I need you to make the promise l a s t
To contradict my past
To know that I am s a n e
To help me feel a s h a m e d
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Skylar smiled slightly when Alice suggested that they go to Build-a Bear. She thought it might be a little fun to go there. Sky considered Alice to be her closest friend. The only other person she felt probably closer to was Jack and that was simply because Jack was her boyfriend. Alice had been extremely nice to her when she first joined the group. She liked spending time with her. The only real problem that Sky had with Alice was her being together with Cailen and Sky considered that her own problem. She really shouldn’t be thinking about Cailen. It was clear that they were back together and it wasn’t like Sky was single or anything. She has her own boyfriend.
The tightening of Jack’s hand around her waist was something that Sky noticed right away. She looked over at him with a concerned look but his attention was placed elsewhere. She was really worried about Jack and decided not to pay attention to the slight pain that was being caused. When he finally let go and apologized, Sky didn’t say anything. Jack wasn’t like himself. Or maybe Sky wasn’t like herself. She was confused too much at the moment and didn’t know what to think. When Jack left saying that he was going to wander, Sky just let him go. She was almost positive that he didn’t want her around. She hoped he would talk to her about this later. She really wanted to know what was going on.
Now it was just Alice, Cailen, and her. This would be interesting. Sky knew she would feel slightly like a third wheel with this scenario. She decided that she would just have to grin and bear it. Then Alice left to go to the bathroom which just left Cailen and her alone for a moment. This wasn’t the best idea as far as Sky was concerned. She really needed time alone to get herself straight before she would be comfortable being alone around Cailen and not worry about her thoughts. She figured she might as well make things friendly and say something to him. ”How are you, Cailen?” She thought that was a friendly statement she could say to him.
When Alice returned, Sky smiled at her. ”I hope you guys don’t mind if I decided to join you on your trip to Build-a-bear. But if it’s something the two of you want to do on your own I completely understand. I’d be fine on my own for a bit.” The truth was she really didn’t want to be alone right now. She was worried about Jack but figured he would need time to himself right now.
_____________________________________________ ________________________ You promised that you'd stayYou say you want to g oYour lips provide a s h e l t e r to theThings that I don't know
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 6:29 pm
Cailen$Legosi Cailen could tell that something was wrong with Jack by the way he was acting. He and Jack were real close and he could tell when something was bothering his friend. Had he been acting this way the whole time and Cailen hadn’t even noticed? He was too absorbed with his own problems to even realize what was going on with the group. He wanted to stop Jack from wandering on his own and ask him what’s up, but figured he didn’t want to talk about it. After all Cailen didn’t want to tell anyone about his problems, because they would want to help. He was stubborn in how he didn’t want anyone to help him with his problems, and this was one he definitely didn’t want to get anyone else sucked into. Cailen watched Jack walk away without another word, leaving him with Alice and Skylar. He smiled as the three of them stood there.
Just then Alice excused herself to go to the bathroom making their group of three into a group of two. “I’m uh, I’m good. How are you?” he lied. Of course a million thoughts ran through his mind, mostly concerning how he was going to get the money he owed Tony. He smiled at Skylar, the newest one to the group. Thinking about it, Cailen didn’t know all that much about Skylar. He’d always been distracted by other things. I guess I never really took the time to get to know her. He felt awful about it. Some friend he was. He was pleased when she agreed to join them to Build-A Bear.“Of course you are more than welcome to join us. I wouldn’t want you walking around the mall by yourself” he said to her. He hoped Alice wouldn’t mind, her and Sky were close and the offer sounded like it was extended to everyone. He hoped he was able to forget the earlier call for awhile so he could have a good time with Alice and Skylar.
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Posted: Mon Dec 13, 2010 4:05 pm
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Posted: Tue Dec 14, 2010 10:45 pm
❝Obsession Compulsion Disorder❞
【But I can control it】
I think.
It took all Jack's effort to not run right into Macy's and grab Bella by the shoulders and demand she talk to him. He just wanted to calm his nerves, make sure everything was alright. At the same time, as he thought about Bella, his thoughts led towards Skylar. It was hard for him to look at Skylar, knowing what he had done to possibly ruin their relationship. It broke his heart knowing he would potentially break hers. He wasn't sure what to do; Jack knew he cared for Skylar and he cared for Bella as well. He kept playing the same question in his mind over and over again: 'Why did I sleep with Bella?' It wasn't just a comfort, it wasn't a mistake. Jack never made mistakes. He always did things with a purpose. But he couldn't put his finger on why he had slept with Bella.
Suddenly he found himself in front of Macy's. He looked up at the big sign and gulped. His eyes scanned through out the aisles of clothing for a sign of Bella's or Adam's head. He stepped inside and pretended he was looking for a particular item in the men's section. At the same time, he kept looking up and looking for Bella. Finally, he caught her. Adam had his stupid grin as usual, he always looked so dopey around Bella. It was just so painfully obvious how much he liked her. Jack found himself chuckling and he dug his way through some flannel shirts. A Macy's worker approached him and he waved his hand to let them know he was fine and didn't need any help. Finally he let go of the flannel and found that his feet started moving. His hands were in his pockets and sweating far too much. His eyes fell to the floor as he made his way over to Bella and Adam.
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Posted: Thu Dec 16, 2010 3:07 am
{ Okay, I'm going to only write all this out in Bella's point of view. Partly to save space, and secondly because writing all this out twice is a little much for me right now. Plus I want to leave you with a bit of Mystery on what Adam is thinking/feeling.}▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂ ▂▂ ▂ ▂▂ ▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Шнψ wont you ☎ me? ╚═══»╠╣ell is waiting around for you to notice me.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ➷xŠΰяε you spent a ☂ night with me«═══╝xxxxxxxxxxxx ßµŦ Maybe thats all it took for me to realize your ☣ for me.
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Walking into Macy’s department store with a sickening feeling still lingering in her stomach from the sight of Jack and Skylar embracing each other; Bella hesitated a moment before turning her neck to look behind her. ‘ Thank you for the delay Cailen. You’re a real good brother for stalling him…’ Wanting to escape her fate, Bella began to desperately search the departments nearby in the hopes of seeing a reasonable place to hide. Childish as it was, Bella could find nowhere better than the escalator leading upstairs.
Tap tap tap…
Her shoes light against the linoleum tiles, Bella placed one delicate hand onto the rubber railing before her rising chariot escorted her to emotional safety. With her neck turned so that she could survey the entrance behind her, Bella’s heart beat anxiously in the hopes of not being spotted by her imaginary assailant. Thankfully, Bella did not see him enter the store before the placement of her feet atop of solid ground indicated that she had reached the second floor. Only then allowing her heart to relax, Bella glanced around at the furniture department she had stumbled into, only to have the color briefly contort to a shade of green. ‘ Oh great.‘ Staring at a dozen different beds and couches in all shapes and sizes forced a claw to squeeze her stomach as the images of her night with Jack shoved their way into her mind. Unable to keep her body was awakening sexually at the remembrance, Bella crossed her arms over her chest and tried to stop the movie from playing in her mind, but it was too late. Almost feeling the ghost of Jack’s arms around her waist from the initial first kisses that precluded the movie she could not avoid, it took all of Bella’s reserves not to allow water to well up in her eyes. After the event downstairs with her friends, imagining that night was simply too painful to endure without them, and though she didn’t cry; her eyes throbbed bitterly at being denied their climax. ‘I can’t stay here…’
Hurriedly mounting the nearby ‘up’ escalator to the third floor, Bella kept her eyes on the movement of the silver stairs beneath her feet that by the time she reached the top floor and stepped onto the metallic rug she knew not what department she was in. In tilting her head upwards to survey the scenery, Bella felt her stomach lurch as she was bombarded with cribs, toys, blankets, and changing tables. Unable to keep from thinking about the baby forming within her womb, Bella’s hands sickeningly cupped her stomach. Thinking about their baby forced Bella to once more think about Jack; and unfortunately, this time there was nowhere else to go to hide from the fact. Embracing the matter being her only option, Bella walked to a nearby brown-stained redwood crib set and ran her fingers over the wood. Imagining the beautifully carved little piece in her studio apartment kindled some hope of joy as the cinemax presentation took over her mind’s eye. As she held what her mind guessed their baby would look like, Bella looked at the baby with a smile before giving him or her a kiss on the forehead and tucking it into that brown-stained redwood crib. As the imaginary Bella turned the lamp out and closed the door, Bella’s vision faded back to reality and a pain gripped her heart as she looked down on the yellow bedding of the crib. ‘ Jack hasn’t called. He didn’t even text back…surely if he wanted the baby…he would have mentioned something by now.’ Sniffing and swallowing to contain any form of fluid from excreting from her body, Bella feared that the water that had welled up would fall down her face if she did not get a hold of herself. ‘ Well. No worries honey. I’m here for you.’
Allowing her eyes to drift from the crib in the hopes that seeing something else might brighten her outlook, Bella’s eyes stopped at a cute, furry, dark beige teddy bear ruggedly smiling on a nearby toddler chair. Complete with the words: ‘My first Teddy~’ sewn into the foot, Bella couldn't look at that bear and not reach for it. Slowly enfolding the bear into her arms; she became emmerced within its dark chocolate-brown eyes. Capitaved by them. The bear seemed to reflect the same expression that she was feeling, as if the bear understood what she was going to. Having never gone through a ‘stuffed animal’ phase as a child, the concept of identifying with an inanimate object never occurred to the woman. Almost pretending the teddy was a little child she was cradling against her stomach, Bella ran her hands soothingly through it’s head-fur as if to reassure the bear that all was well. Whether she felt like it now or not, all would be okay. Bella had to believe that.
Temporarily distracted by the bear, Bella did not hear a certain someone behind her calling her name until he was within eight feet of her. ‘ Oh well…Can’t hide forever.’ Turning to face Adam with a gentle smile, Bella didn’t even consider how silly it appeared to be snuggling a bear, and breathed a sigh to strengthen herself for this uncomfortable interlude.
“Finally! There you are!” Bella resisted the urge to cringe, but found herself unable to keep from it before a pleasant smile replaced the unease on her face. Deciding to ‘play it cool’ she answered as if they were the closest chums in the world:
“ Oh hey.” Adam didn’t even waste a second to change the goofy expression on his face before blurting out a reply.
“ Are you ready to help me look?” As Adam turned his body towards the escalator, Bella could only incline herself to nod before following the handsome stud-muffin as he led the way downstairs. As the pair waited atop of the escalator, admiring the scenery, Bella felt herself look up from focusing on how high they were from the first floor before Adam initiated a conversation.
“ So do you think Kimberly will like that?” It took Adam an awkward three seconds before he pointed at the bear to define what he meant. ‘ Oh this?’ Her face seemed to say, and Bella felt herself possessively clutch the bear to her stomach. Resisting the urge to behave like a Neanderthal and screech: Its mine!!! Thinking of an excuse to make the bear seem unappealing, Bella pointed at the foot where the words: ‘My First Teddy~’ were sewn into it in beige. Adam’s eyes glanced over where she pointed and he laughed and shook his head.
Taking five minutes on the first floor to browse through the jewellery section was as long as it took to realize that Adam was only half-heartedly looking for something. Most of the time, his eyes were on her, and even when she couldn‘t see him doing it, she could feel his eyes glancing over her body. Perhaps she was growing the ‘eyes’ out of the back of her head because of being a mother; but whatever the reason, her instincts were not inaccurate in the assumption. Catching him in the act for the final time, Bella sighed and turned to face him.
“Alright Adam, be honest, your not buying anything for your cousin; are you?” Bella saw the man grin and chuckle at being caught before he answered her question.
“ No…I just wanted to buy something for you.” Bella raised an eyebrow at Adam’s statement, shaking her head at how easy to read he was. Chuckling from genuine amusement, Bella shook her head once more and started to walk out of the jewellery section.
“ I don‘t need you to buy me anything.” Absentmindedly walking through the jungle of racks in the woman’s clothing section, Adam shuffled through two displays of pants to catch up with her with a swiftness to his step. Somehow, Adam must have felt some form of offence at her comment or something, because he answered her statement with a very serious tone unlike any Adam had ever used. At least; around her.
“ Well, no; but, I never see you wearing anything new besides flannel and jeans.” Looking down at the coffee-colored carpet at that statement, Bella felt a soundless sigh exit her mouth. Bella usually only shopped at thrift stores or goodwill. ‘ Is it that noticeable…’ Looking down at what she felt Adam deemed was an ugly outfit, Bella had to wonder amongst herself: ‘ Does Jack think I wear bad clothes too?’ Feeling a sad state of depression cloud her emotions, Bella’s heart lurched at the idea of being ‘unattractive’ and a frown decorated her face. Hiding it with a cascade of her wavy hair, Bella started to walk forward a step when the sound of metal-against-metal forced her to stop. Adam had pulled some dress off of a nearby rack and held it out to her.
“ Here, try this on for me.” The man was so cheerful that Bella could not help but brighten up a little bit. Giggling at the suggestion of trying on anything Adam suggested, Bella tried to put it back on the rack without even glancing at the dress. As the glimmer of the scarlet fabric caught her eye the second before the hook latched onto the rack, Bella re-saved it from between the dresses to look over the dress from head to toe. It wasn’t a revealing gown, but it was off-the-shoulder and specifically cut to bring out a woman’s curves. Almost completely sleeveless, the fabric looked like it would float when one wore it. Frowning on the inside, Bella remembered that she was pregnant. ‘ I might not ever fit into a dress like this again…’ Mourning the fact, for a moment Bella seriously considered trying it on, possibly wearing it someplace nice, before another thought shot down the short burst bubbling cheerfulness. She had no one to wear it for. Putting it back on the rack, not sure how Adam guessed her dress size, Bella started to walk away from that dress with a vengeance. ‘ Oh! What’s the point?’
“ I don‘t think this dress would work for me.” Spitting out her comment, Bella was about to take another step when she felt Adam’s hand grip her wrist. Stopping her walk; surprised that Adam was that bold. Tilting her neck to look at Adam’s face, he appeared almost hurt by what she had said. Blinking profusely at how strange it was that he would be sad over that, Bella watched his eyebrows lower determinedly as his hands cupped her face. For a second Bella’s heart raced in fear at the idea of being kissed.
“ Bella…Who told you that your not beautiful?”
‘ What? I…’ Bella was speechless; stunned at his statement. Unable to properly think from her surprise, Bella could only avert her gaze awkwardly and glance about the room before Adam speaking again forced her eyes to return to his face. She had to admit that she did feel unattractive on the inside.
“ You walk around like your trying to disappear into the background.” Adam chuckled and released Bella’s face to grab the brutally rejected dress from the rack again.
“ This dress…can‘t hold a candle to you; I mean…” He paused and chuckled again; for once looking awkward and unsure in his declaration. Like he was fumbling for once. “ Did someone say you were ugly? Because I‘m thinking they were jealous.”
‘ Oh please…How cheesy is that?’ Bella thought as she turned her head away to look at the floor. Bella felt like her feet were glued to the carpet; but mostly, it was knowing she had nowhere left to run that forced her to stay pinned where she was. Like a mouse in a cage.
“ You should never feel guilty for wanting to be noticed…Your gorgeous Bella, don‘t keep living like your not.”
‘ He sure has you pegged; don’t he?’ Bella thought with a mental laugh to try and comfort herself, but the truth was…the man had a point. She never made the effort to show off for anyone, not even when Jack’s car broke down and he and her were alone in her apartment. ‘ Maybe If I looked a little nicer I’d have had a boyfriend by now…and that night with me and Jack wouldn’t of happened.’ At that thought, Bella looked up at Adam. For some reason, that man liked her. Of all the girls he had dated or she had seen him flirt with for years before his interest in her, he had always chosen ‘popular’ or ‘pretty’ girls who had style or only had one name like cocktail waitresses. Definitely not Bella. In all her experience she had never seen him with an ugly girl. Never. If he was crushing on her, then he wasn’t lying. She must be beautiful. ‘ Am I that blind? Does Jack think I’m pretty?’ Frowning almost angrily at even thinking about ‘Jack’ right now, Bella gleefully stole the dress out of Adam’s hands and headed the short distance it took to reach the women’s dressing rooms. Turning to face Adam, as if he had contemplated following her, Bella warned him:
“ Stay out here while I change.” Before dragging both herself, the Teddy bear, and that dress into a changing room. Usually Bella always waited for an ‘attendant’ to help her; but, with the recent development of security cameras watching people enter the changing stalls, that was a thing of the past for Macy’s. Comforted in the fact that ‘stall cameras’ were illegal, Bella closed the door behind her, slipped out of her jeans and flung her shirt over her shoulders. The dress was very easy to slip on, as there were no zippers or buttons to fiddle around with and stall time, so all Bella had to do was smooth the fabric over her hips and pull it down to properly cover her body. Glancing down at herself, Bella felt weightless beneath the luscious fabric. It was so soft…almost fairy-tale like in its glimmer. Bright red was never a color Bella would have worn in a short cocktail dress, but she was stepping out of her comfort zone. Facing a new frontier! However…she still had to brace herself before looking into the mirror. ‘ Don’t be too disappointed when it doesn’t look good; okay?’ and slamming her eyes shut, she turned around and opened her eyes. Gasping in awe at how different she looked; Bella almost twirled to see every angle of her body in that beautiful dress.
‘ Well I don‘t pull off wearing a dress like Skylar does…but I have to admit…Just…Wow!‘ To Bella, Skylar looked like a model she would happily take pictures of if she was lucky enough to be a magazine photographer. Skylar was lively, and kind, from what Bella had learned of her over the years. Deep down, Bella had always felt a little intimidated when she was around. Skylar was naturally alluring, or at least had been far longer than she had, so Bella was not surprised that Jack would still want to be with her. She was a wonderful person under those good looks, but it was the ‘good looks’ that had made Bella feel the subtle twinge of jealousy earlier that day. Bella seriously felt she could not compete with that, and still didn’t…’ But in this dress…I could almost…’ Laughing at herself, knowing she could never stoop so low as to bait for Jack’s attention. Especially now, when she was so upset at the man that she couldn’t think about him without feeling heartbreak or anger. At the moment, she felt anger, and in thinking of Adam waiting to see how she looked in the dress, Bella’s wounded heart started to metaphorically beat again. ’ I don’t like him that way…and I can’t make myself attracted to him…but…he’s here…and Jack’s not.’
Smiling at the fact that someone thought she was beautiful, Bella almost frolicked out of that stall only to show him before seeing none other than Jack walking towards where she stood. In a heartbeat all her newly found confidence in her appearance was shot. ’ Don’t look up! Keep watching the floor, Jack!’ The idea of him seeing her barefoot in this dress almost sickened her. Biting her lip to keep from panicking, Bella was torn between begging Adam with pleading eyes not to leave her and asking Adam to leave so she and him could be alone. Bella and Jack would eventually have to talk about this…and the question was if that would be ‘sooner’ or ‘later’. ‘ Oh god…I can’t be alone with him…Darn it! If Adam gets suspicious we’re toast! Skylar would break up with him if she found out, and I can’t have that on my conscience!’
Although her pleading eyes suggested otherwise, Bella completely ignored the expression of awe and delight glistening on Adam’s face and politely pointed to the worker who had recently tried to help Jack a few minutes before.
“ Can you please ask her how much this dress costs? The tag is ripped and I can‘t go that far from the changing rooms…” No doubt Adam could see the tag hanging out of the underarm of the dress, but with a questioning glance he started walking anyway. Before his gaze locked on Jack and a confused expression contorted his face. Somehow, given his slow stride after seeing Jack, Bella did not think he would ‘stay’ away and give them space to talk in private. ‘ That’s the best you can come up with? Sheesh Bella.’ And breathing a deep sigh to prepare herself emotionally, Bella walked forward a few feet to make up the difference between them. All the previous hurt she had experienced whilst Jack had held Skylar rising from the ashes and bubbling over in her chest. Although she wasn’t on the verge of tears, she was one short drop away from loosing all her composure if he said even the slightest thing wrong. With water filling her throat, Bella thought to herself: ‘ What are you doing here? Why couldn’t you just text me back or something? Does he want to talk to Adam? No…he would have followed him. But; why! WHY NOW! Why not two months ago? After we slept together!’ Everything in her heart wanted to curse the man out, or scream at him, or tell Skylar and ruin everything…But…Bella shoved all those feelings down her throat by swallowing and only said:
“ Hey.” before pointing towards the hallway connecting the store to the dressing rooms. She assumed the man was smart enough not to suspect her of foul play after all their years as friends, and started to walk towards where she pointed.
“ If you want to talk…about um…that…Well, we‘ll need privacy; okay?” Stopping right outside of plain view, Bella felt her heart throbbing in her chest. Even if kissing Jack was the last thing on her mind, she couldn’t help what she felt for him…and being alone beside him in a slightly cramped space was enough incentive for her knees to grow weak. Her body trembling uncontrollably at the concept of being so near to the man, in this dress. She was over-worrying of course, the dress wasn’t showing anything at all except her shoulders and collar bones, it was just that Bella never wore anything like this that unnerved her. Hoping against hope that he wouldn’t say anything too hurtful, Bella looked down at the floor in suspended animation. Holding in her breath in the belief that receiving air might provide the necessary energy it would take for her to cry. ‘ I can’t cry in front of him, nope, nada, I can’t. The last time I cried in front of him, he…we…’ She stopped thinking and looked up at Jack with an emotionless expression painting her face.
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✿But when I'm gone...will you✉to me?✿ ↙xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Posted: Thu Dec 16, 2010 12:08 pm
❝Obsession Compulsion Disorder❞
【But I can control it】
I think.
Jack's eyes widened at the dress she had tried on. It was a look of shock, he hadn't seen her in such attire since homecoming and prom. He shoved his hands deeper in his pockets as Adam walked away, but not too far. "You look ..." he smiled. "beautiful." Bella started walking away and he followed at her heels. He wasn't sure what to say, all of a sudden, he felt out of place. He felt like he was talking to a princess and he a penniless beggar. His thoughts moved suddenly to that scenario. The entire macy's morphed into a small villa, Jack wearing tattered clothes and covered in dirt. Bella wore a long gown with a tall cap that draped a veil over her face. He brought himself out of his fantasy when he realized how dirty his hands were. He fidgeted awkwardly and looked back to her eyes. What was strange was that his fantasy of Bella didn't change much compared to real Bella. She really was beautiful, her eyes were always what captivated him. He parted his lips to speak, but felt his voice catch in his throat.
"Listen, Bella, I've been wanting to talk to you since..." He pulled out his phone and scrolled through the texts to read the text. He turned it around to show her and shoved it back in his pocket. "But I just...I don't know what to say. I just want to let you know I am willing to talk, and I want to talk..." He backed up, feeling as if she were going to stab him and rip his eyes out. "I've just been thinking over and over and over...and over... about what I want to say, how I want to say it and when..." He was rambling. Jack could feel the sweat on his brow and his fingers shake within his pockets. He couldn't reveal his nerves, he wanted to appear strong but his rambling brought that facade down. "I'd do anything... anything at all..." He looked her dead in the eyes and reached to grasp her wrist gently. Suddenly his hands didn't shake so much. "for you." He meant it, too.
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Vanilla Nerd Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Dec 16, 2010 5:55 pm
x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀ ♥ x ♥ x ♥ ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀still here staggering on through the impossible
we remain, I can breathe one more day
still here still f i g h t i n g on
all we have is today find my way to the beauty
of one more day,▀▀▀▀▀▀▀ ♥ x ♥ x ♥ ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀
Alice couldn't help but feel slightly awkward standing with Skylar and Cailen, almost as if she was now some sort of a third-wheel. She shook her head slightly and told herself that that thought was ridiculous. She had only been gone for five minutes, tops. "Onwards!" she spoke with a slight giggle to her voice as usual as she led the way in the direction of the Build-a-Bear store.
During the walk, Alice's mind began to wander. Did she really want to be spending any of her money right now? She wanted to be able to help Cailen out but she also knew he had refused her offering money in the past. More and more the job at Indulgence was looking to be the only option. Cailen might turn down small denominations of money, but surely he would not turn down a large sum paying off his entire debt. Besides, if she started pinching pennies he might start to get suspicious.
Upon arriving at the store, a particular article of "bear-clothing" immediately caught her eye. A black and white stripped sweater with lace along the front; the exact shirt that she was wearing, only much smaller."I'm going to build an 'Alicebear'!" she stated cheerfully as she started to carefully pick out items to most suit the miniature bear-version of herself.
For that moment, Alice could not have been any happier. That was why she enjoyed holding onto childish things, they brought her a sense of unsurpassed comfort. Growing up as sick as she was, the uncertainty of something so basic as waking up to see the next day's sunrise had been taken away from her. Early on, she found as much comfort as possible with things like stuffed toys and little dolls. Now that she was older, still these items brought her that very same feeling.
She was off in her own little perfect world until the Alicebear was completed and she went to purchase the new addition to her stuffed toy collection. Standing in front of the cash she began to felt a vibration coming from her purse - her phone was ringing. Quickly, she handed the tall woman with red hair who was working the cash the money for her bear with one hand and answering her phone with the other. "Hello?" she spoke into her phone, taking her change and the bear before walking out of the line.
"Hello," a cheery female voice answered, "may I please speak with Alice?""Speaking," Alice replied, looking over at her friends, flashing them a smile and sticking up her index finger to signal that this would only take a minute.
"Mr. Moore has requested that I schedule an appointment with you to meet with him," the woman informed her. Alice was surprised as the level of professionalism this assistant was displaying, considering the line of work that Mr. Moore was in."Yes, that's correct." Alice and the woman conversed for a few minutes and scheduled an appointment for Alice to meet with Mr. Moore the following morning at 11am. Once the phone conversation was over, Alice hung up and turned back to Skylar and Cailen."Sorry, guys. Had to make a doctor's appointment," she explained with a smile, hoping that they wouldn't ask any questions.
outofcharacter: new posting format and theme song for Alice. I felt inspired. Also, fun fact of the day, I totally wrote this out on paper while I was waiting at the laundromat. XD
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