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 Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2010 7:41 pm
"Hahaa... she's prolly taller than me yet, huh? I feel like a midget next to you." He felt bad, but really... the mood seemed to be lightening up and he couldn't help but let himself go with it. It didn't really feel right, but still... there was only so much wallowing he could do before his body forced himself to feel alright again when the opportunity presented itself. "That's good... I'm sure Alice will be happy to get back to her family... Syth hasn't been doing a good job... I ended up taking Moira out for her first shopping trip ever so the poor kid could have some clothes to wear." He sighed a little.
He shifted a little, before finally deciding to sit down on the bed next to Rasiel, but a decent distance away from him. "I... well..." He trailed off. "I got scared... that I was really going to do it... I'm all alone in there, you know... if I had killed myself, I doubt anyone would have noticed for awhile." He stared down at the ground. "So I came back here to clean up my mess... and maybe..." He trailed off again. "Maybe take something to remind me of you so I wouldn't go through with it..."
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Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2010 9:29 pm
Rasiel laughed a little. "I think you are both the same height.. but then again, a lot of people just seem short to me.." he commented. He was still fighting off the pain as he tried his best to keep on the track of joking around. He listened to him, content with the moment just as it was for now. "What a shame, I'm sure Alice won't be happy about that.. She did nothing but rant about her kids the whole time we were gone..." he spoke with only a slight bit of concern in his voice. "Please don't kill yourself... I would've noticed.... and that's the last thing I would want to happen to you... Please don't do it.." he responded, frowning, trying even harder to choke back tears. He forced another smile as he sighed. "You shouldn't have to end your life..."
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Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2010 9:41 pm
"She always seemed taller than me. Could just be the shoes though." He shrugged a little. The more Rasiel spoke, the more he wanted to just lean up against him and relax. Something about the other Meta just put him at ease. Before he really knew what he was doing, he was scooting closer and closer to him. "She'll have a huge mess to sort out... I think one of their kids has a Bad Thing... Moira said he talks to himself a lot, as if someone is really there." A frown formed on his face. He couldn't be paid to go near that kid, thankfully he'd seen what he looked like at the Halloween ball and knew which one to stay away from.
He looked up at Rasiel, and then gave in. He leaned over and wrapped his arms around the other Meta once more, nuzzling his face into him. "I won't... promise me you won't either, okay..? You're still precious to me, you know.. I don't know what I'd do without you or Sonnet."
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Posted: Tue Nov 09, 2010 4:18 pm
"Yeah, I think she wears heels... so that would make her taller I suppose." he explained, just keeping the conversation going. "A Bad Thing? Really? Oh man.... I'm almost tempted to help her out... but then again, I'm kind of mad at her right now. At the least, if I decide to help her, I'll let her sweat a little first." he laughed, finding the irony in the situation. Deskri had looked up to him as Rasiel looked back at him, almost questioningly.
Before he could say anything else, the other Meta wrapped his arms around him and began to nuzzle him. Hesitating, Rasiel could feel his heart sink and a lump developed in his throat as he paused, then wrapped his arms around Deskri. The pain was almost unbearable, being so close to Deskri, but knowing he'd never have him again.
"I promise I'd never end my own life... You mean so much to me, that I'd hate to never see your face again... The afterlife just has no glamor if you're not in it..." he spoke softly, tightening his hug as he closed his eyes. "You will always mean so much to me... Please don't ever forget that."
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Posted: Tue Nov 09, 2010 11:21 pm
"G-good... I don't want you to die..." Deskri sniffed a little, finding a bit of emotion rise up in his throat and threaten to make him start crying again. "Y-you'll always have at least part of my heart, I don't think I could ever stop loving you completely." He took a deep breath in an attempt to keep the building need to cry inside of him. He was doing this for his own good... for Sonnet's good, Rasiel's good, his family... he knew he'd eventually cut too deep or take a few too many pills if Rasiel got dragged along on another adventure, but he kept having to remind himself of that. It was just too easy to take the words back, to give in and say he couldn't do it.
"I-I'm s-sorry I'm d-doing this to you..."
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Posted: Wed Nov 10, 2010 1:42 pm
Rasiel had difficulty listening to Deskri's heartfelt words. They touch deep to his heart and made the situation all the more difficult to handle. "Y-yeah.. " he muttered back, not really able to think of anything to say. "N-no.. Don't worry about it. Like I said, I'm fine..." he reassured to him, sighing. "We're still friends, and we'll always be friends. Just knowing that makes everything easier to deal with... I'm sad, but I've grown to be stronger. I only want you to be happy. Please don't worry..."
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Posted: Wed Nov 10, 2010 10:53 pm
"You don't really seem fine... it's okay to not be fine... I expected you to be really angry, and to say that you didn't even want to be friends..." He frowned, once again feeling a choking sensation in his throat at the idea of not being friends with Rasiel. "Thank you for not saying that..."
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