|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
 Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 11:03 pm
Kindle's stomach dropped out again, but for an entirely different reason. 'Oh, god no...' He can't believe how big of a foot he just put in his mouth. That's not what he meant at all! Yes she was beautiful, but that didn't matter to him...not really. How could he make her understand?
"Flora...I." Attempting to collect himself. "That' not it at all. Yes, you are beautiful. But that's not why I...why I love you." He putters out at the end, realizing that he IS declaring his love to Flora and there's no going back now. "I'm sorry I'm screwing this up so badly, I just find myself stumbling and stuttering around you..." Embarrassed that he has lost his suave ways when he needs them the most.
"When I met you, you were a so bright and full of joy. Everything you did made those around you happy, it was like you were the reason the herla around here smiled." Smiling to himself as he reminisces. "Who wouldn't love that?"
Getting serious now. "You were different Flora. In a land where conflict and fighting happened every day, you took a stand for peace. This is almost a foreign concept to these herla, i'm sure you've noticed, and you...you surprised me. I started to see you as a person, not just my little sister's friend. You had ideals and you weren't afraid to share them." He blushed, realizing how silly he was sounding, but he couldn't back out now.
"Then you found my field. Our field. I was so angry that my peace was disturbed, but you changed that. Your very presence, which had you been anyone else would have ruined this place, actually made it brighter. Look Flora," Using his nose he gestured to the field of flowers. "The flowers have been growing better since you came. I've never seen the clearing look like this before. It's because of you." But now he had to bring up the end, about why he had left.
"Every time I looked at you, I felt a warm glow inside my chest. I just thought it was because you were my sister's friend, and an adorable little fawn, but that wasn't it. That feeling continued to grow...until I realized what it was. I loved you. I was in love with a child, and I didn't know what to do about it. So I left." His eyes bright with unshed tears, blinking to hold them back. Kindle's shoulders drooped as he felt his heart nearly break, sure that he had failed a test he wasn't able to study for. He had one last thing to say, then he would let her kick him out of her meadow...
"Looks don't matter to me Flora, you are beautiful, but there are a lot of beautiful harts and hinds... You're special because you're different, and I don't really know how to put it any better." Hunching his shoulders as if expecting a blow, Kindle waited for her reply.
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 12:00 am
Flora listened to everything he had to say. He wasn't the first male to tell her he liked her; there was Lucifer after all... and from the way her brothers talked to her; she assumed more than those two liked her though... So... When he told her how he felt... she wasn't knocked off her feet. At least Lucifer had been able to play with her...
But when he started to explain why he loved her so much, she beleived him... it wasn't just becuase she was pretty or something... it was becuase of how much she loved peace... She smiled and reached out her head; nuzzling him very lightly with her nose. licking at his eyes to wipe away the tears and stepping in closer to him to nuzzle along side of him.
Laying back down next to him and laying her head over his back in a form of comfort. "Thank you Kindle. I appreciate your feelings. But I don't know if I can return the feelings... I mean... you're my best friends older brother... and I don't really know you like that... In fact... I don't feel that way about anyone yet...." she told him honestly; her head bobbing along his back as she spoke. "So I geuss you're in the running right now." She teased trying to cheer him up.
"I really appreciate your honesty though. And I like the reasons you gave... they made me feel special... and unique.... You're super groovy Kindle. And I'd be lucky to have you... but as it were... right now.... I don't know if I want you... but maybe later? if we get to know each other more? if you don't dissappear again? I would love to get to know you better...." She really would. And she smiled a small smile as she rubbed her neck and head against his back. <3
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 9:21 am
He took a shuddering breath to calm himself. Kindle wasn't sure why he was so upset, he knew this was going to happen. Pulling himself together, Kindle took another breath so his voice would be even when he talked to her, he didn't want to sound like a complete baby. "Of course, I don't know what I was thinking... I apologize Flora."
Standing, Kindle gathered the tattered remains of his dignity around himself and smiled down at the golden haired herla. "I guess we'll just see what happens then." Then, calmly, Kindle turned and began to leave the clearing.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 10:14 am
Flora shook her head when he apologized. "Don't apologize Kindle. never apologize for honesty and your opinions D;" She followed after him and blocked his reatreat because that's what it was. She really did have sympathy for him and her face showed that. Not pity; and not remorse. "Don't leave."
She asked of him and tried to kind of push him back into the clearing. "I don't want you to leave; and you don't have to... I'd feel awful about it if you did... Becuase this time it really would have been my fault." She smiled weakly and continued to try and nudge him towards the center more. "I don't want to leave the field either... I don't know if I can handle it just yet.... But... I'd really love some company... if it wouldn't be too hard on you? Please? Stay?"
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 12:47 pm
Of course Kindle couldn't leave after that, not when she still needed him. Letting her push him back towards the patch of fire flowers, he did his best to let go of the hurt. He knew it was a lot to expect Flora to love him, they really hadn't had THAT much interaction... "Of course i'll stay with you. I told you, i'm not going anywhere again, at least not for a long time."
Lies down in the flower patch, waiting for her to join him. "Will you tell me who has upset you so Flora? Was it your brothers? I can't believe your father would be angered so easily..." Unless she had developed serious feelings for another hart, it had to be one of those. "I only want to help, i'll do nothing you don't want me to do." Sends her a lopsided smile.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon May 24, 2010 12:42 am
Flora wasn't a solitary person and to be completely honest; she hated being alone. Which was probably why she always craved to be surrounded by others. Maybe it was becuase of her mother; telling her she needed to be popular; maybe becuase it was her brothers were always off during the day and she missed them while she was gone... maybe it was becuase sometimes she wasn't sure why people liked her. Who knows~ maybe she had a complex about herself. But it all vanished when she was with someone; anyone really. And it made her feel so much better. So yes; she was afraid of being alone. But who could blame her??
She walked over to him; and laid down beside him; not close; not touching; but enough to get a bit of comfort from his body heat. He radiated heat; kind of like his sister. Oh god.... her best friends brother was in love with her.... what if she didn't like him back? What would happen then? Would Ember get mad at her if Kindle disappeared again? This time it would definitely be her fault...
"I can't tell you that Kindle." She told him seriously a stiff upper lip; no room for debate about it either. "You've helped me enough though thank you Kindle." She told him reaching out and nosing his cheek appreciatively. "I don't think I'll ever tell anyone who I was fighting with; or what it was about either. That's between me and them~ You know?"
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon May 24, 2010 9:58 am
Kindle smiled at her attempt to be stern, enjoying the changes that growing up had wrought on her. He can't believe he had left for so long, he'd missed so much of her growing up with his selfishness. But it was all in the past now, no use to dwell on what couldn't be changed. "Of course I understand Flora, we all have to handle our own problems at some point. Just making sure."
Not responding with more than a smile as she nuzzled his cheek, Kindle didn't want to do anything that might make her uncomfortable with him, well, not anything more than he had already done. He saw her holding herself back, and it hurt a little. He had gone and ruined the ease at which they were together, but it had to happen if anything was going to change between them.
"F-Flora, I wanted to say something." Steeling himself for this dreaded conversation. "Please don't worry about...us. I'm not freaking out or leaving, your question of how can I love you without knowing you is completely legitimate. So I'll get to know you. I wont do anything to make you uncomfortable, but I want you to know one thing." Meeting her eyes with his, his eyes glowing with feeling. "I AM in the running now."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue May 25, 2010 2:41 am
Flora nodded her head and sighed. "I'm gonna be so mad with you if all of a sudden you aren't the only male that tells me he likes me or something. I'm gonna blame this drama on you! I think you might have just opened up some sort of 'can of worms' or something like that...." She told him jokingly; but really fearing that it might be the case deep down... She hated hurting people. She really did; but this was going to be something she was absolutely certain of. "If you fight; at all; you're out of the 'running.' Got me? I don't care what the reason. All of my friends know I hate fighting; even the worse tempered ones don't do it around me. And neither should you." She told him nodding her head firmly.
"And if you're going to try and win me over; don't make others feel bad or something if you think you're doing a better job. Cause i won't like that either. Ok?" She asked him staring him straight in the eyes; her own filled with a certain sort of stead-fasted-ness.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue May 25, 2010 10:49 pm
He raises his eye at all her ultimatums. "Flora, didn't you understand? One of the biggest reason I like you is because you're a peace bringer. Why in god's name would I 'fight' to win your heart?" Looks at her, mildly confused. " It sounds really counter productive." Smiling, Kindle glances down at his feel, feeling an old shame as he told her about this. "A-and...I'm not really a fighter. Not a physical one anyway. I don't think i've ever been one, because I don't see the point of them." Blushes a little at admitting something that has bothered him for a while.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue May 25, 2010 10:53 pm
Flora gave him an apologetic look. "Sorry Kindle... lots of fights seem to happen around me... I don't want you join them thinking you'd protect me either. It's just as bad I think..." She admitted stepping up to him and nosing his nose before licking form his chin to his nose playfully. "That's ok kindle if you're not a fighter. I'm a lover not a fighter too! We can be lovers together!"
She exclaimed giggling and stepping away from him; prancing around him in a circle happily. Not realizing what she'd just said could be taken the wrong way. Or even what kind of a way it could be taken.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 30, 2010 1:18 pm
O.O Kindle has to hunch over, being unable to breath due to a coughing fit. "L-lovers..?" His eyes watering, surely she has no idea what that means. Kindle straightens up, taking a deep breath and decides to let that one gloss over. But the rest he could address.
Kindle laughed. "Honey, I think you can protect yourself without me. I've been gone for so long, it would be stupid to think that i'll protect you NOW... You've obviously been taking care of yourself for a while." Thinks about all the hinds in their herd that DO NOT need protecting. "Most of the ladies here would get insulted at the thought of needing protection, and some of them are really scary." Feigns fear. "And a mate isn't about protection, it's about love and friendship." Happy to see her prancing around.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 30, 2010 1:36 pm
Flora stopped and stared at Kindle for a long moment. no expression on her face at all; as if she was trying to figure him out; trying to think something through; as if she was listening to something in her head though her guardian wasn't speaking to her and was instead... almost waiting for her own reaction. She didn't know what to think. The males in her life wanted to protect her; they felt she needed protecting... But she didn't. Not really. She needed comfort and love and someone to tell her she was a good person and listen to her when she cried. Her brother did that for her now but sometimes she felt like she was more of a burden than anything....
It was like he'd just read her mind. "You're right Kindle." She finally said after a long moment of silence maybe even an uncomfortable one as well. "I don't need a protector I need a friend. It's like you can read my mind." She stepped forward and nuzzled him sweetly almost kind of... intimately as if thanking him for saying that. "I don't need someone to protect me; I just need someone to wipe away the tears when I cry and tell me it will be alright... I wish the others would understand that..."
|
|
|
|
|
|
Poisin Ivy Josephine Vice Captain
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun May 30, 2010 1:49 pm
He smiles and blushes just a little as she does this, but it's not enough to stutter his speech. "Flora," his voice serious even though he was as happy as he'd ever been, " I want you to know, no matter what happens I can be that for you." Gently nuzzles her back. "I understand you, and I'll be here." His smile wilting a little. "You know, to make up for the time I lost when I left."
He was satisfied with this. Even if Flora decided to gift her love to someone else, he understood. It wasn't his right to be angry or hurt. He wanted her to be happy, and if she was happy with someone else, that's how it would have to be. It didn't mean he wasn't going to try and be that hart, but he would be there for her no matter who she chose.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Reply
