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 Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2010 1:26 pm
..:: Hayden ::..
Asu adopted another kid. His name is Hayden... I'm not sure how I feel about him. I know he's a toddler 'n all and they're supposed to be annoying, but godddd...
He doesn't stop talking! Ever! I tell him to shut up and all he does is repeat what I said right back to me. He's wearing me thin and that just makes it easier for Kagyaku to take control. I think that's why Kagyaku likes Hayden to a certain extent... That or he sees something in the kid that I don't...
I guess I'd better keep my guard up.
I was supposed to be watching him earlier, but with his endless chattering combined with Kagyaku's incessant pestering I thought I was going to burst. I think he was playing with a pinecone or something stupid like that when I wandered off elsewhere.
Asu's going to kill me when she finds out....
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Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2010 1:33 pm
..:: Rasiel ::..
Sonnet told me that we're dormmates... I haven't had a chance to look at the dorm listings 'cause Asu sent me out to play with Hayden as soon as she had everything set up. I guess that means that she's either setting my part of the dorm up for me, or I'm going to have to do it later. If I live that long....
I'm not sure how I feel about rooming with Rasiel. He's my best friend, like Sonnet, but I haven't seen him in years... Does he still like me? Are we friends still? And what about that time that he said he loved me? Was that a lie concocted by his "bad thing" or was that the truth? I'm just so torn up about it I don't know what to do...
I can't afford to love anyone, Kagyaku'll take them away from me. The only person I really relax around is Sonnet, because she has wings that can get her away from me if I lose control. That and she understands that I'm... I'm not the killer, I'm not the one that wants to see everyone suffer. He is, and she can see that.
I'm sure Rasiel can, since he has the same problem, but... What if his "bad thing" and mine start talking? What if they form a bond and get stronger? I'm scared of that... If Kagyaku takes control again...
Last time, he almost killed someone. I don't want to go through that again. It's technically my body that'll be doing the killing. Who's going to believe someone going on about how it was the voice in their head that did the killing? Even I know that it sounds insane...
Still, I want to see him. I want to ask him where he's been, why he left so suddenly... If we're still friends or not... I want to ask for clarification... I want to know if his "bad thing" is still there or not...
I'm too curious for my own good.
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Posted: Fri Feb 26, 2010 1:11 am
..:: Answers ::..
Well... I got a few of my answers..
Rasiel and I are still friends. His "bad thing" is still there, and he was locked up in one of the Dr.'s houses this whole time!
I need to back up.. um...
I was in the Hedge, trying to calm down, Sonnet found me (like she always does) and we were talking, but then Kagyaku mentioned that friends had arrived.
Low and behold, it was Rasiel. He's in terrible condition, but... I didn't tell him how awful he looks...
That would've been the best greeting ever. "Hello Rasiel, you look like s**t today. By the way, are we still friends?" Yeah. No.
The whole time Kagyaku kept laughing at me and I don't know why! He won't tell me, either. b*****d... He's enjoying it... ugh.
Anyway, I don't think rooming with Rasiel will be so bad after all... He said that he missed me too... a lot.
For some reason that made my chest all fluttery...
This is bad. Very bad.
I can't afford those feelings right now... Not until Kagyaku's gone.. Like, REALLY gone.. DEAD gone... He says he'll kill me once he's done hosting himself in my body...
I haven't told Sonnet that bit of information... Actually I haven't told anyone that, really...
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Posted: Sat Feb 27, 2010 12:34 am
..:: Wings 'n Eyes ::..
So I don't know if anyone's noticed but uh...
I don't have wings anymore.
Long story short, they got ripped off. mmhm... That hurt like a b***h. Yet goddd it felt so ******** good. Okay, that's just too big of a thing to call a "long story short."
Anyway...
That shack Asu moved us into was conveniently located near some pretty psychotic people. I mean, one day I was walking home from the grocery store and the neighbors were all staring at me like was a total freak... I was probably one of the more normal looking people in the area, if that goes to show anything.
So the day my wings got ripped off I was heading out to go get something for Asu, when I felt someone grab me from behind. They had one of those cheap-move clothes, so of course I passed out. I woke up in a dark room with only one light, so I couldn't really see them, but they asked me a lot of questions about Kagyaku. To an extent, I fear Kagyaku more than I fear anyone else, so I didn't answer them.
Their first attempt at getting me to cooperate was to rip the right wing off. All that did was make me scream, actually. So after a few more demands going unanswered they ripped the other one off. I can't say that I miss them, they were in the way all the time, and they were completely useless... Anyway, I don't really remember how I got home since I passed out a while after that from lack of blood but yeah. That's how I lost my wings...
And as for my eyes? Insonorise tried to heal them after I got something in them. That's how we figured out I have to heal on my own, so it's glasses or contacts for me, otherwise everything else is just fuzzy blobs without an end or beginning...
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Posted: Sun Feb 28, 2010 10:46 pm
..:: First Kiss? ::..
Did that even count? It was Obscurite, so I don't know... To be honest, I probably would have preferred Rasiel. I hope things don't get weird between us, I mean, it wasn't him that kissed me...
And it's not like I have any intention whatsoever to tell Rasiel about this smidgen of feelings I have for him.
Maybe smidgen isn't the right word... Even if it isn't, it's not like I can act on it anyway. Rasiel doesn't seem like he'd reciprocate those feelings despite what Obscurite said... Obscurite is a bad thing, they're liars... Liars that tell you what you want to hear so you'll do what they want you to.
I think he was planning on raping me if I didn't go along with it.
Oddly enough I'm not afraid of that. I'm more afraid of what reaction Rasiel would have after it's all said 'n done...
I know I'd have some sort of psychotic freak out if Kagyaku took over and raped Sonnet....
I can't even think about that. Makes me ill...
I'd rather commit suicide than let that happen.
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Posted: Mon Mar 01, 2010 8:03 am
..:: Ruined ::..
It's over. Completely and totally. He'll end the friendship as soon as he calms down, that's for sure. I should've pushed Obscurite off before he managed to kiss me... If I hadn't let that happen, Rasiel wouldn't be in the state he's in right now... We might still be friends...
Kagyaku was right all along... Should've listened.
Of course he's appalled. Disgusted. Not that I blame him, it's unnatural for people of the same sex to have feelings for each other like that... I haven't found one place that says that it's completely natural. Even the occurrences in nature are freaks.
[The page is dotted with what appears to be tears mixed with something black]
I shouldn't be getting so upset over it, I mean, I knew practically from the beginning that it would turn out this way but... Kagyaku's making it worse... So much worse. He just won't shut up, and I can't make him shut up no matter how hard I try.
Back to Sonnet again. For however long that lasts. I'm bound to drive her away, too... And then I'll be alone with him. He'll take over and there won't be anyone to stop him. He'll... he'll have his way and win in the end.
I thought the good guys were supposed to win?
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Posted: Sun Mar 07, 2010 12:56 pm
..:: Out of Control ::..
I need to be locked up in a room that I can't get out of... A room with no windows, a solid ceiling, and with a door that has a lock on the outside. I can't control him like I thought I could. He's a lot stronger than he ever let on, and....
Hayden's hurt because of my lack of control, Alice almost died... There's a little girl that's probably scarred for life and god knows what else is going to happen after that. Rasiel is probably feeling the same, if not worse since Obscurite really did hurt Alice. Twice. And he said some very harsh, mean things to me, too...
but I doubt that's weighing on his conscious. I outed myself after all, so he's probably fine with me never seeing him again. Not that it's going to turn out that way, I need to hear for sure that he doesn't want me around... I guess I really am the perfect masochist for Kagyaku to possess.
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Posted: Tue Mar 09, 2010 1:43 pm
..:: The Demon Inside ::..
[This is a Roleplay entry]
Deskri finished wrapping his arms in thick bandages and then crawled into his bed with a heavy sigh. He pulled the blankets around him, and then wrapped his arms around his favorite body pillow to snuggle with. "I can sleep now, right...?" He whispered quietly to himself.
Nope. I'm not done with you yet.
"But.. I did what you said! You saw all that blood, right...? Felt it when I did it?" Deskri felt like he was going to cry. It was day five of no sleep, his body ached all over and his mind was wearing itself thin.
Oh yes, I felt it, I saw it, but it's not enough. Lets talk about these friends of yours, hm?
"Please no..." Deskri curled tighter around his pillow, one hand already bracing his head as if it would help silence his inner demon.
Please yes! Lets start with Rasiel. He's always fun to start with, you know. He confuses you so very much, doesn't he? Dragging you along through the mud, making you think he's going to return your disgusting feelings but then... oh, but then... He hates you! He pushes you away, right at the last second... Right when you're so hooked you can't turn away.
"Stop it... just stop it..."
I'm not done. It's rude to interrupt. I think we should hurt him. I think he'd have the loveliest of reactions... No, that belongs to Sonnet, but we'll talk about her later. It'd just be too easy to pick up that knife of yours, the one friend that won't ever betray you, and just cut him up into little pieces. The blood would make a nice accent to him, I think. Especially when he's dead!
"Th-that's enough, no more... Please, let me sleep... I just want to sleep..." Sleep was impossible with Kagyaku chattering on so endlessly, so loudly... It was like someone had turned the volume up all the way and glued the knob in place, making it impossible to turn it down no matter how hard he tried...
I'm curious, Deskri... Why do you love that kid? He's a guy, for one, which is absolutely disgusting. Freak of nature, that's what you are. A little self-destructive freak of nature... That kid that no one gets close to for real because they know the kid's just using them for his own needs. Like Sonnet. You don't really care about her, do you? She's a girl. You're a f*****t. She's an angel. You're a demon. She just makes it easier for you to tune me out, so you go crying to her every time... How selfish.
"That's not true and you know it!" Deskri cringed at the thought. He wasn't intentionally using anyone, he didn't even want to use people... He just wanted his friends... Someone safe to go to when Kagyaku was driving him insane.
But it is! Think about it Deskri... All of those little fantasies you have of Rasiel, the ones you have no control over and are therefore your innermost desires... He's always torturing you! And you're always loving every minute of it. Tell me that's not using someone? That kid gets freaked out at the thought of causing harm to someone, but in your dreams he's always causing pain... What does that say?
"It says that you're warping me... and I don't remember ever, ever having some sort of fantasy about Rasiel..." The thought of defiling his friend in such a way made him cringe again.
Do I need to bring up the images? You may not remember because they were dreams. I get to see all of your disgusting gay porn dreams whether I want to or not. And you wonder why I'm so mean to you, Deskri...
"I have no control over my dreams! Stop punishing me for it..."
I wouldn't have to punish you if you'd just dream like a NORMAL person and ******** a woman for once. All right, done with violin-boy... Sonnet. She's interesting. She must be some kind of crazy a** b***h to hang around you all the time.
"Don't say stuff like that about Sonnet... she's just being nice..."
Nice? ********, you're really the worst. She's your best friend because she's "nice" to you? Do yourself a favor and ditch her. She's not worth hanging around.
"B-but... No..."
Because she'll miss you? You think too highly of yourself. No one would miss you. No one will miss you once I finish you off for good. You'll probably pop up in the obituaries, but no one will really care. "Who's Deskri?" they'll all say, but no one will have an answer, so they'll go along as if nothing happened.
"They wouldn't be my friends if they weren't going to remember me..."
Have you ever thought that you're the one being used? Why DOES Sonnet hang around you anyway? She's a goody-good angel, you're an insufferable demon that's possessed by an even more insufferable demon. Perhaps she's getting something out of it what we're not aware of. Looks like you're the used one in that situation for sure.
Deskri choked a little on a small sob. Kagyaku was starting to make a lot of sense in his tired mind, and that was quite upsetting. Why was Sonnet his friend anyway? He hadn't done anything good for her...
That's it. That's right... Those nightmares, they're the only reason she keeps you around, I'm sure of it. The minute you stop being able to suppress them, she'll drop you like a rock. And then you'll only have Rasiel, but not for long...
"Please god, stop, no more.... no more..." He choked again, arms releasing the pillow in favor of hugging himself for comfort.
Rasiel's using you too. He's got an inner demon, much like myself, and I'm sure that inner demon has some sort of plans for you... Plans that'll get him out of that body. As soon as the plans are complete, what use will you be? Rasiel will be without Obscurite to make him be friends with you, which means he'll go on his merry way, forgetting you even existed. What a shame... And you have such strong feelings for him, too... He'll be appalled when you confess, perhaps unintentionally... It'll slip out, and he'll flip the ******** out on you, breaking your little heart into a million pieces. And then? And then he'll stomp on them. As if it weren't enough to just shatter your hopes and dreams. Haha.
Another shuddering breath made the tears flow easier from his eyes. He had to be quiet though, otherwise he'd wake up Rasiel who was sleeping on the other side of the dorm. That was the last thing he wanted. "Please stop..."
And then you'll be all alone... With me. Until I leave you too.
"N-n-no, please don't... please..."
You want me to stay?
"I don't want to me alone... please don't leave me..." If he could hear himself in a saner state of mind, Deskri would curse himself for saying such a thing. But in his delirious state, he'd do anything to get some sleep and be assured that he wouldn't be alone forever.
Too bad, you're fated to be alone Deskri. Up until the moment you die. That's when I'll return to you, just to finish the deed.
His heart sank to the depths of the earth it seemed. That wasn't the answer he wanted at all. "Please, please... don't."
Oh look, the sun's up already. We've had another lovely chat, haven't we? Now go face them. Lie, pretend that you don't know of their schemes.. Make them think that you care about them. You're good at lying, it's your only use.
Deskri struggled to regain composure as he rolled over onto his back in order to peer out of the blankets. The sun was indeed up... Kagyaku had never been able to tell him that before, and the revelation worried him. "C-c-can I please sleep tomorrow...?" He asked quietly, voice weak.
Perhaps.
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Posted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 3:12 am
..:: The Origin ::..
[Part 1 of Kagyaku's origin]
He wasn't natural, even though he'd been raised like any other natural being created in the womb. No, he was created in a test tube from scratch with barely any help from a real mother or father. When old enough, he was placed in a home to be raised like a normal child.
As he grew older they soon discovered that he was anything but a normal child. He began cutting himself open as soon as he learned to use a knife. That was also the day he stopped eating. His parents found often find him drinking his own blood as a sort of food. They were disgusted.
His father abused him, but never told him why. The man believed that the scientists who had given them this child lied to him and his wife about what they'd actually been given. The abuse warped the child for the worst.
The day he discovered his powers was the day he committed his first murder. Accidentally, of course. It wouldn't have happened if the abuse hadn't ever started, though. That was something the child eventually connected in his mind. It made him very angry.
He lost control again, but this time on purpose. He killed his parents, the neighbors, their neighbors, and theirs. No one on their block survived except for the brother he'd been given. This brother of his was his opposite, regardless of that the child still had an attachment to him.
He was captured, and brought back to the lab. They still didn't tell him what he was. Instead they recruited him, saying they could use talent like him on the battlefield.
The thought of how much pain would exist in a war scene excited him. He agreed. The first day out on the field drove him insane. Killing became his favorite thing, he looked forward to the times they would let him out. He felt a sick satisfaction in feeling an angel's wing crack and break under his hands. He loved the war, it was where he felt comfortable, at home, but that was taken away from him as well.
The lab was getting shut down, and so they had to execute their experiments. The child was informed of what he really was, and that he was going to die. Once more, he was angered. He broke loose, and killed a good deal of them and their guards. Who were they to take his life? No one. He did go down, of course. He had no idea who the gray creature standing in front of him was, and so he made the biggest mistake of all.
He touched it.
It was over then, the world grew dark and he fell to the ground as his life quickly drained away into nothingness. Death, when it was actually happening, wasn't as terrifying as he had thought.
In fact, he actually opened his eyes at one point, but when he went to move his limbs, he had no control. There was someone else controlling his body. Some innocent small child. It disgusted him that he was being controlled by a child, which made him angry. He vowed to torture this child of his until he got his own body. And then, right when the child thought it was safe, he would return and kill it off.
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Posted: Sun Mar 14, 2010 8:41 am
..:: Betrayal ::..
[RP Format]
When he woke from his sleep, the blood had mostly dried, and he felt extremely weak. Still, he pushed himself into a sitting position and looked down at himself. The good majority of the wounds were gone, but he'd still wrap them after a shower.
I've been telling you all along that they were using you...
Kagyaku's whispered words didn't even make him flinch. The scene from Sonnet's room could only mean that they had been, after all, at least one of them knew what effect it would have. "Yeah..." The reply was empty, no emotion in it whatsoever. Inside he was struggling to stifle any emotion at all, hoping it would be easier to just stop feeling.
We're going to have to make them pay, you know. That was dirty, underhanded... Uncalled for.
"Yeah..." Deskri remained sitting in place for a few minutes before he crawled out of his bed. He barely made it to the bathroom before he slid to the floor, exhausted already.
Are you going to make it? Kagyaku sounded more concerned than condescending.
"No... I can't do it." Deskri shook his head, tears surfacing once again. He couldn't stifle the emotions any longer, and they were sapping any energy he had.
Cry it out. Afterward, clean yourself up, the bed too, and we'll think of a plan. Kagyaku was sounding better and better, and that only made him want to cry more and more. He brought his knees to his chest and then wrapped his arms around them, and then placed his forehead on the top of his knees.
Don't suppress it, let it out. Not all of it, we'll need some of it for later. You're so much more powerful if you have emotion behind your attacks.
Kagyaku had never called him powerful before; he'd only called him weak and useless. It made him happy that someone still thought he was at least somewhat useful, but it only made him cry more. "Why? S-she knows... S-she said... why?"
Women are not trustworthy. Their fickle minds are always changing, and they'll back stab even their own sisters! Their mothers! Anyone to get what they want. Just because she's an angel doesn't make her any different.
Deskri wasn't completely satisfied with that reply, but it was good enough to get him by for the next while. At least until Kagyaku told him what he should do about everything.
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Posted: Sun Mar 14, 2010 8:48 am
..:: Betrayal ::..
I can't believe they were really doing that...
Sonnet KNOWS how I feel.. Why would she...? How could she?
I can't... I can't get angry at Rasiel. He doesn't know... But even though I know that, I'm angry with him, too... Kagyaku says they were using me all along, and now that I think about it...
He's probably right.
I'm... I'm not so useless as to be used by everyone around me! I can be more than that... I can have real friends, right? I can trust people, right?
He's saying that I can't, because he's the only one whose thoughts I have access to.. Whose true feelings I'll know all the time... He's right. I'll never be able to trust anyone like I can trust him. But...
He's leaving me too, isn't he? He used to talk about it all the time, but he hasn't mentioned it for awhile now... Maybe, if I'm good enough, he'll stay? I don't....
I don't want to be alone.
If he leaves, I won't have anyone. I can't be near them anyone, even if I didn't care about them getting together, it would be too awkward. I mean... I love Rasiel, it would be too difficult to be near him and know that he quite possibly loves Sonnet...
Whose been my best friend for the past two years. And if I'm with her, I'll think about how she's with him. I don't know if that'll make me more angry than hurt.
So it's over... It's done... No more friends, aside from him.
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Posted: Tue Mar 16, 2010 8:20 pm
..:: It's Like Ripping Your Soul Apart ::..
[Roleplay Format]
Deskri settled into his bed after having screamed at Mirabelle and her two new companions to get out of his room. He couldn't believe he'd just been manipulated through the whole thing. Knowing Kagyaku it was probably planned out between him and Obscurite.
Obscurite would make Rasiel do something suggestive to Sonnet the instant he walked in, he would of course misunderstand and Kagyaku would take advantage of it. He'd hurt himself, make it so Kagyaku had an easier time taking over. Kagyaku would go find someone to torture, thus increasing his power.
But how did they work Alice into it? That part Deskri wouldn't figure out, but his mind was too tired, too pained to do it. Every time he took even the shallowest of breaths, lightening strikes of pain shot through his body. It wasn't just a nerve thing, it was deeper than that. Deeper than muscle, deeper than bone, deeper than anything he'd ever felt before. It was almost as if his very soul was in pain.
"St-stop doing this... y-you won. You had your way..." Deskri heaved a little, nearly vomiting as a particularly bad waved washed over him which caused his body to spasm.
Oh stop your whining. You were never meant to have friends in the first place. And you knew that, so I ask you this: why did you even bother falling in love? And why with a boy? It's really quite ridiculous, Deskri.
"Sh-shut up... I could have... had friends... b-before you." Deskri trailed off, no longer able to force the words out over the searing headache that was growing.
There never was a before me. I've been here all along, I just couldn't contact you at first. But all of those little falls, little scrapes, little bumps on the head... They added up, and then I was finally able to make myself known.
"P-please stop... please..." Tears were flowing freely now as he forced himself to roll onto his stomach, hands gripping the sheets so tight his already white knuckles were turning even more white.
It's necessary. We're separating, you and I. It's time for me to leave you once and for all.
"L-leave me?" Part of his mind went into a flurry of panic. If Kagyaku left, he'd be alone. He doubted Sonnet or Rasiel would want anything to do with him after what he'd done. The other part of him rejoiced, he'd finally be free. He could be normal, just like every other meta.
You'll never me normal. You'll always look to me for advice, for guidance, for orders. You're my perfect little slave, but I'm afraid your usefulness has worn out. You're tattered, useless, this body of yours will fail. I'll cut it to the chase and destroy you when I get my own body.
"St-stop..." He convulsed once more, screaming out as the strongest wave as of yet washed over him. "Please god, please stop!"
Goodbye, Deskri. For the remainder of this process I won't be able to talk to you. Kagyaku's voice sounded distant, and those really were the last words he heard from the demon.
The pain continued for a day and a half, the entire time Deskri either lied still as it shot through him at a lesser frequency, or he spent his time shaking, convulsing and nearly vomiting from the intensity of it. By the halfway point, he was wishing for death rather than freedom.
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Posted: Wed Mar 17, 2010 3:57 pm
..:: Separation Hallucinations part 1 ::..
[Memory Format, this is part of Kagyaku's back story, this goes on during the separation of Kagyaku and Deskri]
"Hey, what'cha doin'?"My eyes opened to meet the face of a gaunt figure standing over me. I was momentarily shocked, for I'd never seen someone so obviously starved. His gold eyes were sunken in a little, and bore deep black circles around them from lack of sleep. His cheekbones were easily discerned, making him appear skeletal. "Sleeping, go away." I replied gruffly. He was probably a hobo that was going to bed me for money. I didn't have any to give."Aw, why so mean? Too cool to talk?" "Just go away, will you? And what're you doing on our lawn? This is private property." I growled my response back and narrowed by eyes. I knew my appearance was intimidating all by itself when I wasn't making a face, so hopefully he would just piss off if I tried to be scary."I happened to be in the neighborhood and saw a lonely little boy laying out on his lawn, you've piqued my interest. Do tell me why you're laying out here all alone? I saw a pack of kids your age hanging out together down the street.""Why should you care? Get off our property or I'll call someone to remove you." This guy just wouldn't stop talking!"At least give me your name? I'm Meimu."He extended a bony hand, but I didn't take it. "Kagyaku, now get lost.""Kagyaku? Such a scary name for someone so... lonely."Before I could stop him he leaned down and placed his lips on mine. I froze up, panicking. Was he going to --------------? I couldn't let that happen, not in public. The panic made something surge forth, I felt it filling me up until it connected with him and he screamed.
I panicked even more, reaching my hand out to place it over his mouth. He only screamed more, apparently I was the one hurting him. I didn't know what to do, if I let go, he'd keep screaming and I would be punished for it. But if I kept holding him down, he'd die.
The decision was made for me, as he was too weak to last long under my sudden emergence of power. His body stopped shaking, his eyes went dull, and his muscles relaxed. He was dead. I had just killed someone. I looked back at my house, panicked, my parents were standing on the front porch. They were horrified.
I wasn't allowed to enter the house for the rest of the day. The body was taken, but I was never punished. Father kept ------------------- anyway.
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Posted: Wed Mar 17, 2010 11:09 pm
..:: Separation Hallucinations part 2 ::..
[Memory Format, this is part of Kagyaku's back story, this goes on during the separation of Kagyaku and Deskri.] "Why can't you be more like your brother!?""Because I'm not like him! It's your fault I'm like this!" I roared back at my father as he entered my room shouting. I had terrorized my mother for the fifth time that week, though I hadn't meant to. It was her own fault for walking in on me while I was feeding."Don't you blame your problems on me! You will start eating like a normal person and that is that! No more of this, Kagyaku. NO MORE.""Well how about you stop -------------- me then!? Maybe I wouldn't be so ******** up! And ******** no! I can't eat that s**t you shove down your throats." I raised my voice louder than my father's and stood up. I had gotten taller than him at only 16, but now at 18 I was towering over him by nearly two feet."Enough! You will do as I say and that is that!"He slammed the door and stomped down the hallway to my brother's room. I could already feel the pain seeping from him before my father actually got into the room. I hated my brother more than I hated anyone in the world, but I also ------- him. He was my opposite, never dirtied like I was, never scolded like I was... Until a few months earlier when father decided it was a good idea to start hurting ------ too.
I lost it. He wasn't meant to feel what I felt, he wasn't meant to know the horrors of his own parent ---------ing him. I burst from my room and stomped down the hallway and then threw open the door.
It was too late though. He was already ------------ing him.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I roared as I charged forward and tore him away from --------. He didn't have any time to respond, as soon as he was on the floor I was kicking him, screaming in rage. ------- was crying loudly, unable to comprehend what was going on. I was hurting him, too... Whether I wanted to or not."KAGYAKU! STOP!"My mother ran into the room, frantic. I ignored her and continued to kick my father. "You like that?! You want more?! Answer me old man!" The more I kicked him the more pleasure I got out of it. The more he bled, the better I felt.
I wasn't aware of what had happened until afterward.
There was an explosion, no one on our block survived except for ------ and I. I took the blame immediately, if they found out about his power... He wouldn't live the life he was meant to live.
They didn't punish me after they captured us. Instead they offered to let me join the war, saying they could use my talents on the battlefield. I agreed as long as they promised to keep -------- away from any pain or sorrow in the world.
They lied.
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Posted: Thu Mar 18, 2010 2:44 am
..:: Separation Hallucinations part 3 ::..
[Memory Format, this is part of Kagyaku's back story, this goes on during the separation of Kagyaku and Deskri]
The war... The war against the angels was by far, the most comforting place I'd ever been. Fellow soldiers praised my talents, accepted me, looked at me no different than anyone else.
I came to love the feeling of ripping wings from backs, I loved their screams, I loved their pain. It drove me insane with such... Wonderful feelings. I started getting careless, even killing off comrades.
No one seemed to care, though. I thought it was weird that I never got in trouble for anything I did, but I never questioned it. I saw what they did to questioners. At first I thought they were doing the right thing, killing off the non-believers, but I saw the truth eventually.
There was something going on in this war. Something not natural, something not right.
The war ended, we were all recalled to the laboratory that was making our weapons. They caged us, I freaked, killed a few of them. They told me I was one of their weapons...
They'd be raising me all along, pushing me in a specific direction... USING me. But it was all going to end, the war was over. We weren't supposed to exist. I wasn't supposed to exist.
I felt an anger growing inside of me like none I had ever felt before. I broke loose........
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