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I know exactly how you feel. I used to cut and sometimes still do. I have done a ton of drugs to stop feeling like i'm a piece of s**t and you know what? It made me worse. The only way I got out of it was I quit thinking about my problems and I acted like I was happy and that nothing was wrong with me. It helped a lot but Even still today right now I have to fight myself not to cut every little inch of my body. I used to look in the mirror and tell myself I was nothing and stand there with a knife slashing my face. It used to also piss me off when people would say that I did it for attention. That was bs because I never told anyone I did it. So if people tell you that don't pay attention to them they are stupid. I also talked to my teacher about everything that was going on. It also helped. The thing that stopped me from becomeing happy again was and still is the fact that I didn'twant people to see me happy. I don't know why I didn't I just didn't. If this is one of the factors trust me people want to see you happy. And if drugs are a factor I know it's hard but just drop them. Yes this is very very hard and I still haven't quit doing them completly but I am trying very hard. I just always think about my future and how I want to make somthing of myself. It also really does hurt the people you are closest to. Please trust me on this. I hope you get better. I know its hard but keep working on it. You can pm me if you want more advice on how to work this issue out because believe it or not and I'm guessing you probally don't people really do care about you. Good Luck!!!!!!!!!

Well. I don't know what the ******** is going on with me. I don't know what the hell is happeniing, but I want to change, I want to be like I used to be. I want to be care free like most of the people I know. I don't know anything right now.