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Posted: Sun Apr 26, 2009 4:37 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 26, 2009 4:57 am
First Visit To The Udon-Ya Outside, Phaerna moved with quiet, but driven, determination as she retraced her steps back to the home she had stumbled across only a few days ago. Though she had promised herself that she would not return, if only because she did not wish to further disturb Setsushi and the circus of attention he seemed to attract, it seemed the only logical place to bring the one who followed closely behind her. If Setsu did not know him, then perhaps the two of them could, at least, find out where he was trying to go and how to get him there. For his part, Hitsuga was mortified, and walked in silence, head low, clutching the purple jacket she'd offered him around his waist like a makeshift towel. He was not in ANY state to be seen by others at the moment and gave off feelings of embarrassment and upset as they moved. As they crossed into the yard, Hitsuga squirmed. Was she absolutely certain they were not disturbing the man she had spoken of...? And if not, would Hitsuga's current state of "dress" do that anyway...? sweatdrop Rika finally deposits the sword on the table, slowly turning around, replacing her monocle once again and looking through it at this new arrival. ... And the Celestial Chaos. At the sight of those, her eyebrows rise so high the lens almost falls from her eye socket. ... But she looks back at Boyan, brow furrowed, taking a step forward as she scrutinizes him. Then stops, her expression softening into blankness again as she strokes her chin. "... Are you the Celestial Oracle?" she asks, somewhat dubiously. Boyan would have answered that YES, young lady, he APPARENTLY IS the Celestial Oracle-- at least, the sparklies seem to be. But instead, his attention is stolen by the familiar arrival, and the UNFAMILIAR arrival. "....Naked." Oh, if only he had a way to check the time! Is it shirtless o'clock already?! gonk As they near the door, which seems to be hanging open, Hitsuga finds himself halted by the strange male just inside who is staring at him. ....and what he has just said. Heat rushes to his face as he averts his eyes squarely to the ground, clutching the jacket a bit more tightly around himself. Hitsuga projects his most PROFOUND apologies to all in attendance for arriving in such a state but....that, all things considered, he was not given much choice in the matter. Hitsuga is a bit....lost, he fears. Phaerna, recognizing Boyan as the "artist" from her last visit, quietly keeps her distance in case, somewhere unseen, Setsu was once again in a state of disarray over another mess he'd made. Removing herself politely from where she was providing a flesh-and-blood barrier between Hitsuga and the others, the young drow stands aside. ....not realizing that she was, not so much a hindrance, as she had been providing the poor man with a bit of cover. As interesting as a Celestial Oracle who does not appear to be Hyouka may be to Rika, Boyan is not nearly as interesting as what has just arrived. She cuts in front of Boyan, adjusting her monocle and leaning forward to examine Hitsuga with merciless eyes. ... She will have to measure this one. Boyan will have everyone know that he is on a mission of GOOD WILL, and also that he has brought questionably edible MUFFINS baked with love by his lovelybeautiful daughter! And what luck the naked newcomer has! It would seem this nice young lady is going to measure him for new clothes! In the meantime, Boyan is wearing far, far too many clothes, and it would seem this naked man is not wearing enough for his liking, so Boyan does not mind sharing. 3nodding He sets the basket of muffins on the ground and begins to untie his outer robes. Yousei arrives just in time to see Boyan begin untying his robes and screeches. Aloud. And loudly. No no, Boyan must not expose himself, "--especially not in front of strange new people!" Having clearly missed Boyan's true intentions(?), she attempts a dive for the Celestial Oracle, scrabbling slightly for his ties. As she does this, she turns to look at the others assembled in the room, all of whom are unfamiliar to her. Hello. gonk He blinks in bewilderment as the other male is nudged aside, revealing someone else who is now approaching him with purpose. Someone he does not recognize. A female, who's very air seems to exude authority, which only seems to be magnified behind the monocle she wears. Hitsuga feels his chest tighten with the first faint flutterings of onsetting panic.... No. NO. Not right now. He sets his jaw, drawing a deep breath and letting it out slowly. Not right now. Focus. Control. gonk Hitsuga's mind is awash for a moment with images of flowers, trees, various other plants.... Little by little, he seems to gain a foothold of domain on himself once again, the panic receding before it can become unmanageable. Hitsuga bows to Rika at last, trying to hide the trembling of his hands with a projection of as much warm respect and apology as he can offer her, given present circumstances. Rika's intense scrutiny of Hitsuga's body allows her to notice those trembling hands. As much as she would like to continue studying this rather handsome, nigh-naked man, it seems that his anxiety ultimately dissuades her, and she averts her eyes, shrugging off her scholar's jacket and handing it out to him. "... That may be entirely too small, but try it." In the meantime, she heads further back into the house, dips behind the screen and opens up Setsushi's chest of drawers. While helping herself to an under-robe and looking for a middle layer, she asks, "And who might you be? You two," she adds, trying to peek over the top of the screen at Yousei but not quite being tall enough. Boyan flails, projecting a bizarre mix of "UNHAND ME, WOMAN!" and "YOUSEIIIIIIIIIIIII 4laugh heart ." He would have been perfectly content to shed his outer layers (Like a rather Boyan-shaped bug shedding his skin) and share them with the man-who-now-wore-the-tailor's-coat (Surely, Rika HAD to be a tailor!), but now, he has something BETTER to pay attention to. He finally throws his arms around Yousei, his mind a pleasant garble of brotherly affection and a desire for hugs. And as he drools slightly on Yousei's shoulder (It would seem he never DID quite grow out of that), he forgets that Rika, Phaerna, and Hitsuga even EXIST. Hitsuga's eyes widen as the jacket is offered to him. He assures her t-that is not necessary. That she needn't offer him her OWN clothes, certainly. That-- ....but then she is gone again, leaving him holding her jacket. As uncomfortable as the idea is that he is intruding on the lady's generosity with his own sorry appearance, Hitsuga found it just as uncomfortable to be rude about such a gesture. He....certainly does not wish to appear ungrateful...! Especially when, by all rights, he could have been turned away immediately. His utmost thanks, poking its head out amid the turmoil of embarrassment, fluster, and general upset, follows Rika as she ventures further into the house. Attempting to keep a hold on the jacket at his waist, Hitsuga struggles into the jacket he's been given, finding that, while a bit tight in the shoulders, it does, indeed, fit. Nearby, the explosion of emotion that bursts from both Boyan and Yousei draws his eye to make him blink in sheer bewilderment. ....where had all of these people COME from? The ashen-skinned one (....Phaerna, was it?) had assured him ONE man lived here. eek At Rika's question, he returns his attention to the direction of her voice. "H-Hitsuga." he says quietly, his voice sounding alien and small to him on the air. Yousei has been getting re-acquainted with sorting through Boyan's unique style of communication, and thus has only a little difficulty picking out the important things from his projections. The first of which being: hugs! 4laugh Followed by an amused apology at having not realized Boyan only meant to help the poor man standing over there. She sends apologies to him, as well, and the two ladies. Yousei is not always this... conspicuous. Er, obnoxious? She is -- that is, they are -- friends of Setsushi's. She gives them all a smile from around Boyan's head. She doesn't believe she's met them before so, she directs at the two Porcelain, "Are you new here?" Finding a middle-layer robe among Setsushi's belongings at last, Rika hands it and the under-robe to Hitsuga (after giving them a careful snifftest.) "... These may be entirely too large," but what can you do? She shrugs. ... "Shall I leave you behind the screen?" she asks, trying very hard to resist her urge to resume scrutinizing that very interesting male chest of his. In the end she finds it too hard and moves to the other side without waiting for him to answer so that she will not have to constantly peel away her glances. "I am newly arrived, yes," she replies to Yousei, "though I am not certain how long I will be staying." A pause to consider. "... Some time, at least," she murmurs, a slight smile tugging at her lips. "My name is Rika," she says casually. "That is Hitsuga." ... She again pauses, looking back towards the screen, and asks, "Hitsuga... of Heaven, of Gray Shells?" "Hhhhh--yhhhhn," says Boyan, not about to detach himself from Yousei. What rotten luck Yousei has to have missed Boyan's lovelybeautiful daughter yet again! She really must see his lovelybeautiful daughter, yes, and his GRAND~CHILD~ who happens to still be a bun in the oven. Speaking of buns and ovens, Boyan has forgotten the muffins! Grandpa-not-grandpa is not present to enjoy them? Boyan is careful to avoid any mention of EATING the muffins; he loves his daughter dearly, yes he does, but he would much rather eat dirt. --Which isn't saying much, seeing as how he apparently thinks dirt is an appropriate seasoning for cookies, but BOYAN DIGRESSES. Now that Mr. Naked is Mr. Not-quite-naked, Boyan has to wonder. ...What on earth is he doing running around UNINTENTIONALLY naked? (Once again, he makes a rather troubling distinction.) Hitsuga, again, bows to Rika as he is presented with the garments, assuring her that she is far too kind and that he will, most certainly, manage. Her query about whether she ought to leave him alone behind the screen gives him pause, however... sweatdrop ...though he is greatly relieved when she retreats of her own accord, leaving him in privacy to struggle into the clothes. They are, indeed, far too big. And remind him of being a small boy long, long ago attempting to put on the clothes in his father's closet. ....and then everything comes to a screeching halt as Rika calls him by his full name. Which he is, quite certain, he has not offered anyone here. Peering around the side of the screen at her, still fussing with the ties on the robes, he blinks owlishly at Rika. Yes, he assures her, that is he... Rika does her best to follow Boyan's projections, though a slightly crumpled brow betrays her confusion. "Who is this grandfather?" she asks. For, if her understanding is correct, one Dragon Knight Tenkyuu, one High Priest Kouyo, and one Setsushi live here -- and unless Tenkyuu is a man, Kouyo is not as chaste a High Priest as he ought to be, and the very kiln of the Silver Empress has frozen over, none of those people are anyone's grandfather. She sniffs. ... And she looks back at Hitsuga. "I see," she murmurs, with a blank face. "I have heard of you," is all she offers as explanation at that time. Boyan nods emphatically. (While still nomming on Yousei's shoulder.) Setsushi is Boyan's Grandpa-not-grandpa. It's kind of a long story. Ah, she is "Yousei." She hopes that Rika's stay here will be pleasant, and Hitsuga's as well. She cocks her head a little at the other woman's almost secretive-looking smile, but does not comment otherwise. Did Rika and Hitsuka arrive here by mysterious means like the other Porcelain from the Golden World? Yousei turns back to Boyan for a moment. She would really like to see Little (Not-So-Little) Melo again -- perhaps Boyan will have to help them arrange a visit. However, his comments succeed in making her a little wary about the muffins. Ahh, er, yes, Yousei projects stumblingly at Boyan's explanation about Setushi. That is, Setsushi seems unnervingly similar in some ways to their grandfather Tsukiba. Grandpa was the one who brought most of the original Porcelain living in Gaia and helped raise them and find caretakers for them. Her words, whether they were intended to be or not, were like a sharp kick in the belly as he inwardly winces, slowly drawing back behind the screen to finish situating the ties and smoothing the fabric into some array of order. His mind races. She had heard of him? Perhaps she has made Kitsuo's acquaintance at some point, then? Or someone else's.... He slams his mind shut to the idea before it can fully form, knowing what it would bring if he let it. Sometimes, when he allowed his thoughts to wander, he had wondered how widespread his past transgressions had become. Rika.... Rika..... The name itched at him as if he really ought to recognize it, either as someone he has met or a name he has heard spoken in the past. Though his current state of disorientation would not allow him to place it. Projections of harried frustration loom about him like an intangible tapestry as he, at last, steps out from behind the screen, in clothes that he is not so much wearing as he is swimming in them. He offers Yousei a bow of greeting and situates a smile that he hopes will appear genuine on his lips. He then admits that he....really is not sure how it is that he came to be here. Or where 'here' exactly was, for that matter.... Rika listens to Yousei's projections intently, nodding her head slightly as she follows them. "Then the epithet 'grandfather' was chosen out of affection? To indicate his status as a social progenitor of the others? And is 'Gaia' is the name of this place? This plane?" For, she begins to explain, "It seems we have arrived here through strange coincidences of planes. I suspect Hitsuga stumbled through an anomaly by accident. I, however, fabricated the means of my entrance." As she speaks, she travels to the table, picking up her resonator-measurement-device and approaching the now-clothed Hitsuga with it. "If our conjectures are true..." Yousei nods at Hitsuga. Yes, here is indeed Gaia. They will find that all manner of people live here, and it is generally an accepting place. She eyes Hitsuga with sympathy, as his frustration with the over-large clothes is apparent. Ah! She knows. Carefully detaching herself from Boyan's grip, she pulls out the blue ribbon and elastic band holding her hair in its braid. Don't worry, she'll be right back. biggrin She approaches the male Porcelain and holds the two items out to him. If he uses these, perhaps he can tie the ends of the robes up near his ankles. He might look a little silly, granted, but at least he will be able to walk a little better. Now freed from its confines, her hair seems to be present in rather alarming amounts, unnaturally wavy from the style. "Grandfather" was an indicator of status for most of the Porcelain, Rika is correct. However, Grandpa was, in fact, actually Yousei's grandfather. At Rika's revelation of having brought herself to Gaia, Yousei beings to project little feelings of shock and curiosity, but politely remains silent while Rika thinks to herself. As Rika, again, approaches him, this time with an odd... thing in-hand, Hitsuga forces himself not to shy away. He is determined he will, if nothing else, preserve a shred of his dignity in the presence of the others. Strange faces, strange place, or not, it is of utmost importance that he does not leave anyone with a bad impression of him... redface Offering no opinion of his own on the idea of how he may have arrived here, as he is very sure he does not recall anything after blacking out at his desk or before awakening in the park, he listens instead to Rika's explanation. Hitsuga politely inquires of Rika what the device is, and what it may do to him... sweatdrop He finds it is far easier to maintain composure now that he is, once more, clothed. Having ONE wall of security restored to him, while it does not offer him the full degree of privacy he enjoys, is far better than none at all. As Yousei approaches, offering him the ribbon and band from her hair, he feels his face flush once more. Generous....they were all being far too generous to him! gonk heart He could not possibly, he stammers to Yousei with another bow. He wishes her to understand that she is very, VERY kind, but that his frustration had not been at the clothes, but at something else entirely. He-- He-- Oh dear...so much for composure. "It measures your resonance," Rika answers Hitsuga, though she pauses when she sees him grow nervous again. "... It doesn't hurt. ... Probably." Deciding to leave him alone for the moment, she instead turns and points it at Yousei, lightly poking her without asking permission. She then studies the gauge... her eyes going wide as the needle swings to a number she has not yet seen. "From where did your grandfather bring you?" she asks. ... Rika is just asking out of curiosity, she adds; it's not necessary for her to know. Yousei looks a little embarrassed at having embarrassed him, but she smiles easily nonetheless and retreats back to where Boyan is. She looks a little concerned, though, when Hitsuga mentions having lost consciousness. Her concern is momentarily interrupted by Rika's device. "Ah--" she starts, but that's all she can get out before it's all over. Yousei is startled, but manages to answer the question anyway. "From Dragonlamp," she says, and wonders if Rika has heard of it? Just then, she catches sight of the other woman's wide eyes. Oh no, why does Rika's face look like that? Is there something wrong with Yousei? Rika must tell her how to fix it! Projections of reassurance and apology follow Yousei as she retreats, begging her to please not be embarrassed. It is Hitsuga who should be embarrassed, showing up in such a state in the presense of ladies such as herself in the first place....! Hitsuga will do better, though. He will, somehow, make this up to everyone who has had to see him this way. The thought is accompanied by a gentle push of determination. There. He feels a little better now. His eyes flick raptly to the device as it prods Yousei's arm, and then study Rika's reaction to what she finds. Resonance....? He allows himself to be intrigued. "There is nothing wrong with the measurement. It is just new to me," Rika responds calmly to Yousei's questions. "I suppose it indicates you are originally from a different plane." In response to Hitsuga's curiosity, she replies, "It is not certain that is what it measures, but that is the theory I like -- that these 'planes' are coterminous, operating at different particular resonances." She indicates through projections as she speaks that it is not important that they understand what she means; what really matters is that she successfully used the readings to travel. "It is originally Baikou's theory," she adds, and to Hitsuga, "I heard your name through her." Her face remains neutral, as if she does not have any particular emotion connected to this. ... Oh. Yousei seems to take this in stride, but makes a note to ask further about this later. For now, though, she needs to be getting some writing utensils and paper goods, and she's not sure if the stores will be closing soon. She bids the two Golden World Porcelain farewell with a nod and a small smile and makes her way out, ruffling Boyan's hair affectionately as she leaves. Hitsuga, unfortunately, does not seem to register Yousei's leaving as his eyes are wide and fixated on Rika as if she has suddenly turned into a poisonous snake that may bite him. BaikouIt is very, very clear that while Rika may not have any emotion invested, he does. And it does not seem to be of the pleasant variety. The small swells of panic in his breast that he has been keeping a reign on, compound on themselves as her name, in Rika's voice, beats itself around inside the cage of his skull. He tries to catch it. To squash it. To put it out of mind. But it is something far bigger than him, and an icy wave of panic surges over him, consuming him. There is no room for reasoning with himself, or even time to warn her of what may be coming. "....oh....." he says aloud, in moreso a croak than a statement. And it is the last coherent thing to come from him as he seems to lock up, a sharp tremor beginning in his hands and travelling up his arms, making them draw to his chest. His eyes roll back to their whites, and a moment later he has collapsed on the floor, twitching. Rika's disinterest quickly becomes alarm, as well, as Hitsuga's feelings of panic leak into her and she shivers. She stares at him, dumbfounded, for a moment -- but she is not so stunned that she does not react when she sees him start to collapses and reaches out with her telekinesis, trying to support him, especially his head and neck as his whole body may be too heavy for her to do any good, as he falls. Once he is on the ground she darts to Setsushi's bed, bringing back a pillow and tucking it under his head as gently as she can, then -- still wearing a face of calm but gripping one of her sleeves so tightly her knuckles are turning white, shouts towards the door, "Someone? Help?" while projecting a strong beam of requiring-assistance -- though not letting any panic she may be feeling seep through. ... It was a quiet morning, though, and if no one comes by... She looks him over, cursing herself for not studying physiology in more detail, and kneels next to him, very cautiously extending a hand to hover over his face as she very tentatively tries to read, without actually affecting him, what she can about his mental state with a psionic touch. The spastic tremors only last for a moment, before his body begins to relax once more, and he lays, half-curled on his side. His thin frame heaves with labored breathing as he recovers from the fit, though he still seems to have not quite yet come back to himself. His mind, at the present, is like an empty room with its lights left on. SOMEONE is clearly home, they have simply....stepped out for a bit. Another few moments and his eyes flutter open as Hitsuga awakens, sore and bewildered. Too much too quickly....too many shocks, indignities, stresses, and not enough repose from it. He gives what sounds to be a miserable groan as the young man pulls his hands beneath himself to attempt to sit up, head throbbing and vision swimming. He sends an open but bleary projection to whomever it is near him, that he is fine. Or will be in a moment. And that he is very, VERY sorry. Rika's arm reaches out partway as he sits up, an offer to steady him if he needs it. "You need not apologize," she says softly. "I am sorry I could not be of help." Her calm, imperious expression has now completely transformed into one of genuine worry and almost sadness; she pauses a moment, then asks in a carefully sealed, private stream -- Did Rika cause this fit somehow...? "... I am not a doctor; I do not know what you need." Nor is she sure what medicines Setsushi might keep in his house... but does he want water? Food? Any particular drug? Hitsuga assures her, mind still hazy, that this is something he has dealt with for a long, long time. It is not pleasant, but it is not life-ruining either. It just....happens sometimes. When he has been particularly-badly jarred by things. She has nothing to worry about, he will be fine. He turns his head away, stifling a dry cough behind one hand. He will, likely, fetch himself some water once the room stops weaving, though.He refrains from mentioning Baikou again, but wants Rika to know it is not her fault. It was not HER, per-sey, she had merely been the block that had toppled the rickety tower that made his nerves. It was an unfortunate circumstance, and that was all. That was all. This....was not at all the picture he had wanted to paint of himself. Had he met them under better circumstances, in his shop (and DRESSED), things would have been much, much better. Rika stares at him, seeming to be studying his expression and projections for any dropped clues (to what...?) but in the end does not press him, instead standing and fetching a cup from Setsushi's kitchen, and... ... ... ... wondering where the water is. confused While flipping open cabinet doors and upending pitchers, Rika murmurs towards Hitsuga, "You have presented yourself quite well, for being thrust into such adverse conditions." And she raises that constant stony wall she always has, to let a bit of sincere concern and... admiration?... leak through. ... "AAAH!" ... ... ... "... Pardon me." Rika places a hand on her chest, staring at the now-gushing tap of the sink, which she seemed to activate by playing with the spickets. ... That was a bit of a surprise, she thinks to herself while holding out the cup to collect the water. He starts a bit at her cry, but then allows himself to relax when it appears to be nothing, giving her a genuine, if lopsided, smile. Rika has been very good to him, and has been incredibly understanding. Once he has gotten himself situated and figured out what he will do with himself while he's in this....Gaia-place....he will repay her kindess somehow. He is silent a moment, and then cautiously, though with warm intentions, ventures the question of whether Rika is fond of fragrances or not. He believes a deeper bouquet would suit her. Perhaps cedar or clove. Rika hasn't done anything special to deserve his gratitude, she grumbles in response to his projections while whirling the spickets around randomly, yelping an obscenity as one turns the water extremely hot, but finally managing to shut off the stream. She carries the water over to Hitsuga, setting it on the floor next to him as she crouches and -- suddenly beams at his mention of those particular scents, once again unable to maintain that blank stoic look. "Do I make you think of cedar?" she asks, informing him with obvious pleasure that that aroma -- that of woods in general -- is one of her favorites. She has heard Hitsuga is a skilled perfumer through-- ... and stops herself in the midst of that projection. There is only a very brief awkward pause, though, before she asks, a hint of lightheartedness creeping through projectionally while her face becomes neutral again; "What scent would flatter a man who is elegant, shy, and a little bit stupid, I wonder?" Hitsuga is first offput at her grumbling, but then exceedingly pleased at her reaction to the proposed scent. 4laugh He is not surprised, he tells her, that she would be fond of the woods as she, herself, reminds him of the woods. Stoic, quiet, regal... He lets it linger there, not wanting her to mistake a compliment for idle flattery. His profession has allowed him to deal with a wide scope of people and he has become, if not good, at least decent at assigning complimentary scents to his customers based on learning a bit about their personality first. He is, sometimes, very wrong.....there are instances where that flippant dancer is appalled he would think that a bouquet of citrus and honeysuckle would be appropriate for him. Or that a well-built soldier tells him, no, he can keep his sandlewood, she would rather have something in rose or peony. sweatdrop At her question his head cocks at an inquisitive angle, brows arching, as he accepts the water from her with a projection of his deepest thanks. Drawing a drink, the liquid soothing his throat, he ponders on this for a moment. This man, he inquires. What more can she tell him...? When he mentions the rosy soldier, she laughs, as if that was rather the person she had in mind. She ponders a moment, then begins, "Appearing cold, but having a compassionate heart. Appearing pure, but having a lascivious mind. Lovely without knowing so. And capable of enduring anything but the sadness of his... little sister." The reason, she explains, is that "I would rather you passed along the gift to the master of this house. He is in more need of perfumes than I -- of something to reveal the beauty which his favorite ladies fail to see." Rika, for her part, prefers incense. There's no need to put a fragrance on herself; courting boys just annoy her. stare He mulls this over for a long moment, his mind racing through her description and attempting to match it to suitable scents. Cold, but warm, he ponders. Pure, but lusty. Lovely, but ignorant. And enduring... His mind projects to her a picture of a white lotus flower, perched precariously on an overhang of rock that overlooks an expansive azure bed of churning waters. It sits there now, elegantly out of reach of the frigid spray that would attempt to dash its petals to ragged bits should they reach it, open to the sun's rays, where they tantalize the pink center the flower had been hiding. It is these scents he must somehow combine, he believes. The fresh ice of clear water, the warm bask of the sun, the earthy musk of wet stone, and the faintest scent of the lotus underlying it. He looks to Rika for her approval. Rika ponders, giving off a faint feeling of being impressed by this man's ability to improvise such imagery and scent inspiration from a brief description. "Perhaps lotus is too sweet for him," she muses, thinking of his sharpness, his brooding melancholy... on the other hand, it suits him, a flower that glides gracefully on the top of the water. "I should have to smell the finished perfume, I think. And even if it were not truly his, I am sure it would melt hearts," she says with a smile. ... ... ... "But perhaps it must wait until we return to the Empire." After all, they have no idea if this strange world has the ingredients he needs... She looks about the room doubtfully, with its strange furnishings and decorations. Hitsuga assures her that he is, most certainly, willing to work with her on it. And that it would be his honor to rise to the challenge of this particular fragrance. He so seldomly is allowed to dabble in abstracts for anyone as most of what he sells in his shop is set to certain specifications....which usually fall under 'sweet', 'spicy', 'light', or 'musty' depending on the customers' preference. They take skill to make, regardless, and he takes pride in them, but there is no discovery. At her assessment of the room, he offers his agreement. Hitsuga would very much like to return home as soon as possible. If only for closure as to why it was he ended up here to begin with... The customers awaiting their orders that he had promised would be ready for pickup today must be quite annoyed to find his door still locked... gonk ... Rika will unfortunately have to inform him that his orders will indeed be quite late, though his customers are likely disappointed rather than angry -- "You disappeared many weeks ago." Indeed, "It was your disappearance that prompted our research into these planar disturbances." ... Not only his, though, of course. Many other people had gone missing as well. ... Though it is quite strange that Hitsuga seems to believe he only arrived today the same day as Rika, while he disappeared many weeks before Rika left... She puts a hand to her chin, musing. He blinks... And then blinks again. " Weeks?!" he exclaims aloud, his voice a tight-throated squeak. That couldn't be right....that....what.... It doesn't make sense to him...! Hitsuga frantically goes back over the night before's events (WAS it the night before, after all...?), in his fervor to sift through the mental fragments, unwittingly broadcasting them a bit, allowing Rika brief, disjointed, glances of a stranger speaking to him, offering him a dark bottle, snatches of what had been said, none of it enough to form a concrete picture. Under better circumstances he might be mortified to be so careless with his own thoughts as he much preferred to keep them tucked firmly beneath a wing of privacy, sharing them only as he liked. Rika, however, has caught him in a very interesting state of mind where, in grasping at anything at all that might make sense of his current situation, he very simply did not CARE... And this had happened weeks ago? He sets aside the glass of water, to cradle his aching (and suddenly-heavy) head in his hands. Today is getting better and better... Rika rises again, casually strolling over to the table to replace her measuring instrument, though she attends carefully to everything Hitsuga unwittingly projects, not pressing him for information but absorbing what he reveals. "... I should like to ask you more about it," she says, "but when you are feeling wholly well." For there is always the possibility that Hitsuga, say, traveled to another location during his departure, or somehow took longer than Rika to arrive, allowing it still to be one evening for him but many weeks for her. Of course, "It is not good to assert a theory so soon." ... When was Setsushi supposed to get home? If it still won't be for a while, Rika thinks she might like to take a nap... He keens to absorb what she has to offer on the matter. Perhaps so. .....somehow. The perfumer clearly has little knowledge of how such things work or, as the case seems, -may- work. He also wishes he could tell her when Setsushi was to be home, but he is afraid he has no clue. He has never met him before and is only here at all thanks to the guidance of... That thought derails suddenly as he realizes that Phaerna has been nowhere to be seen in a long while. and he still has her *jacket*! crying What she must think of him...! He excuses himself hastily to scramble to his feet, barely supported on legs that feel watery beneath him as he clumsily pads back to the changing screen, reaching behind it to procure the rumpled purple article of clothing. He must get it back to her at once....! The room cants sharply to the left making him flail at the wall to catch himself. 'At once' meaning 'a little later'. After he has rested a bit. A nap is sounding like a good idea indeed....but will Master Setsushi be upset to find him there uninvited, he wonders? "Setsushi won't be upset because you are my guest," Rika says with an emotion like a naughty smirk -- as if she means to imply that if she is the supplicant, he will acquiesce to anything. The screens seem to have been rearranged to shield two little sections of the room from the kitchen area -- one containing the bed and the other a little couch and a mattress on the floor. Rika considers, then... suggests Hitsuga rest in the bed, as it will probably be easier to rise from it without making himself dizzy? Rika, for her part, plans to nap on that mattress, she asserts, reaching up to pull out her hairsticks, her golden hair tumbling partway down as she disappears behind one of the screens. And if Setsushi returns before she is awake, someone will be sure to tell him to make some deep-fried, battered prawns, won't he?
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Posted: Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:29 am
[journal: 01]
I am writing because it is something to do.
It is something to do and I need to focus. Even if its only for as long as I have room to write on this page.
I do not know what I am doing in this world, or why I was brought here. (if 'brought' is the word I am looking for...I am not fond of the idea I may have done this to myself). It is alarming how accommodating everyone has been.
They act like someone arriving out of nowhere is commonplace! Maybe it is. Maybe that is more reason to worry.
Lady Rika was still resting when I woke. I did not want to disturb her, so I left a letter. The Master of the house was still not home, and I felt I should find Madame Farena (apologies, I do not know the spelling!) to return her jacket.
Madame was outside and had, in fact, been staying nearby to ensure I would be all right. I offered my most sincere apologies. I assured her she would never see me in such a state again and I returned what was hers.
She asked if I had been offered a place to stay. I told her I was sure I would think of something.
Madame suggested that, if I had no other options, her home had a room no longer being used...
I declined. She insisted.
......
In the past days, I have come to understand that Madame has a very small voice, but can be quite influential when she wants to be. The bed has been made up in clean linens. There is now a desk in the corner. The floor was run over with a horrible, loud thing (I believe she said it was a vacyum?) that left it cleaner than it was at first.
I will never EVER be able to repay such hospitality!!!
Farena, though, has a very closed mind. She is like an oyster. Sometimes Madame and I seem to connect if my mind speaks loudly enough to hers, to the point that she understands what I am trying to convey to her. Overall, though, I need to communicate in her way to get anything across without confusion.
It is....frustrating. And tiring. I have never cared for mouth-speak as I am not very good at it. If I could write to her, it would be much easier, but she doesn't seem to be able to read my writing.
I must find Lady Rika again. If she will see me, at least (I must have looked a fright last time!). I feel she may be the key to answering many of my questions. Not to mention, I must return HER jacket as well.
....and Master's clothes.
~~苾畫
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Posted: Tue Apr 28, 2009 2:50 am
Nothing in this world was easy.
Nothing.
Even the most mundane of daily tasks required relearning as he tried to adapt to Gaia's way of doing them. Hitsuga recalled once when he and Baikou had been small, she'd had a goldfish which was kept in an ornate glass bowl on her windowsill. It had seemed content to live its life there, though it bumped its nose against the walls of its prison as it swam in aimless circles.
It had troubled Baikou to the point that she had taken it upon herself one day, Hitsuga in tow, to carry the fish and its bowl carefully to the shore where she had selected a small tidepool to set it loose. The two children had watched in fascinated horror as, instead of embracing its newfound freedom in a vast new home, the fish had gone into spasms, choking on the salty water, and died.
Day by day, Hitsuga found himself feeling the same. He missed the familiarity of his own bowl. He longed for the aimless circles which were the upkeep of his shop and the pleasant banter between him and his customers. It was not a life some would prize, but he had been happy with it.
As he sat on the edge of his bed, fresh from a bath and fixing the ties on the still-borrowed clothes he had not yet had a chance to return, he wondered how long until HE would begin to choke on the vast ocean that was this new world.
A tapping at the door drew his attention as he stood, straightening himself out as best as he was able.
"Madame...?" he inquired politely, his speech still feeling halting and awkward on his lips. A moment later it opened, revealing a now-familiar pair of green eyes.
"HItsuga? I hope I'm not bothering you...." Phaerna said softly, shifting her weight a bit. He offered a gentle smile in return, assuring her Madame was never a bother, and certainly not in her own house.
It was not a lie....it WAS her home and he knew well that she was well-entitled to do what she liked in it without ever having to feel like she was intruding. Though, truth be told, he was having a hard time finding comfort. Only one closed door between him and the rest of the world (a door that did not even have a LOCK, no less...) and the four walls surrounding him were not nearly enough to give him the security he'd enjoyed at home.
He would never, of course, SAY such a thing. He would sooner go out of his own head than to ever want to appear ungrateful for what he'd been given. But that was, unfortunately, the state of things.
The drow lingered in the doorway a moment, chewing her lip, before entering the room properly. "I'll be going into town today, and....and I thought maybe you would like to come too."
Hitsuga's brows shot up in surprise.
"I mean...." she quickly amended. "I mean, you don't have to, but...." Her eyes fell to the outfit he'd "borrowed" from Setsushi. ".....but I thought maybe you might want to look at some clothes. And whatever else you might need."
The man felt a blush bloom in his face as she spoke, giving his head a shake in the negative. "No." he told her. "I can.not." the statements, though clipped and short, were accompanied by a projected flood of gratitude, embarrassment, and repeated assurances that she did NOT have to do that. She had done more than he could ever repay her for as it was...! gonk
"I don't mind..." she pointed out. "I....well, I have everything that I need. You, though..."
don't have anything. His mind completed the thought on its own as he averted his eyes to the floor, fidgeting. That may have been, but it was also not her responsibility. He reaffixed the smile, which had slipped a few notches, and rose, giving her a bow that flourished with the practiced grace of having been performed many times in the past.
"Madame is va-ree kind. But no. Hitsuga is well." The words tripped over one another in their unusual gait, even as he went to special pains to pronounce them clearly enough to be understood. Straightening again, he turned politely from her to continue to fuss with the clothes he wore, straightening them meticulously and very self-consciously aware of her presense. Setting his jaw, he barred back any stray thoughts she may pick up on, willing her away so that he could be left to himself once more. It was a selfish desire, he knew, but it was also NEEDED.
It was never something he'd had to explain to someone before...it had been as simple as turning off his shop's lights, locking the door, and moving into his living quarters. He could not think of a way it COULD be explained without it sounding horribly rude.
As he mentally debated with himself over this, he had, for a moment, forgotten Phaerna still stood there, eyeing him thoughtfully.
"If you'd rather not go, then could I bring something back for you? I'd like to, Hitsuga..."
He had become familiar with the tiny edge of force she'd eased into her words. It was the tone of voice that said, in Phaerna's own polite way, I assure you I will take this personally if you say no again... He was suddenly achingly aware of his own heartbeat as blood pounded in his head. Slow, even breaths....
This was clearly not a battle he was going to win. And if he fought it much longer, he would only upset himself. And Phaerna.
"I....will go." he relented, wincing a bit at the high note of distress in the words. He would go, he reiterated. If it would please Madame, he would go. She lingered a moment more and then, blessedly, left him to himself. Hitsuga exhaled the breath he'd been holding in a soft rush, fingers rising to his throbbing temples to rub at the tension there.
He didn't know how much longer he was going to last like this...
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Posted: Sat May 02, 2009 6:50 am
The outside world of Gaia was....interesting.
Hitsuga could not, precisely, sum it up with a better word than that. There was none of the subtle or soft-edged beauty of Rinkoku lining the streets of their towns, but instead, raucous merchants and loud, eye-searing colors. And on the topic of loud....these people...!
The perfumer was accustomed to being able to hear the sigh of the breeze and the soft melody of chimes over the constant subaudible hum of others' projections. Phaerna, it seemed, was not the only one who preferred to talk by mouth. Everyone did it. And did it liberally. It made his head hurt....as did the thumping "music" that played overhead in this building.
He stood before the mirror in a dressing room in one of the strangest shops he had ever seen, and now was studying his reflection as it stared back at him like a complete stranger.
Madame had asked him what his taste in clothes was, and he had assured her he was not picky, as long as they fit. That had, apparently, been the magic words to send the shopkeeper, a lady of most peculiar dress, moving from one rack to the next, gathering up an armload of clothing for him to try on that she thought may suit him. It was clear to him, however, as he eyed the denim pants that hugged his waist uncomfortably and the shirt which, in a strange contrast, was far too big, that the shopkeep's idea and his own of what suited him were far different from one another...
Did men really go around in this manner, he wondered? His upbringing had dictated to him that it was permissible to have a set of "work" clothes for messier chores....one did NOT, however, under any circumstances, wear those clothes into public. And the idea of even stepping out of the dressing room in this outfit was enough to make his head swim. Folding his arms self-consciously over his chest, he looked to the rest of the garments he'd had yet to try on. There was a pair of heavy black pants that belled out at the bottom, but they were covered in metal buckles and rings that seemed to connect to nothing. There was likewise a shirt that did not look so much like a shirt as it did one of the fine-meshed fishing nets used for collecting shoals of smaller fish near the shore.
Tweezing this garment in particular carefully between his fingers, he held it up for further inspection. It offered no protection from the elements, it had no style to it, there was no hidden embroidery or design. ....he did not, honestly, see the practicality or even the beauty in such a thing.
And would these people, perhaps, see the practicality or beauty in what you consider normal...? Hitsuga had to admit that he was looking at things in a very closed-minded way, considering his current circumstances....but at present he felt so far out of his element that he was attempting to grasp at any straws of familiarity he could find. The fact he was not finding many to grab hold of, was not helping him, exactly, to cushion the plunge into the strangeness he'd been presented with.
As his eyes, again, fell to the tangle of clothes, he found something that drew his attention. Another pair of pants, much like the ones he currently wore, but....horribly-mistreated. Laying aside the more-fishnet-than-a-shirt, he picked up these next to assess just how badly they were damaged. QUITE badly, it looked. There were holes torn in the cloth, stains, and very noticeable fraying at the edges. Hitsuga blinked, wondering how such a thing could have gone unnoticed, much less be put out on the shelves for purchase...
Perhaps, he mused, the shopkeep wasn't aware. With as large a store as it was, certainly a customer, perhaps a rowdy child, could have come in while she wasn't looking and ruined some of her goods. As a fellow merchant he sympathized. There was nothing quite so breaking to his perfumer's heart as the sound of shattering glass, and turning in time to see a guilty-looking young one staring at the broken remnants of what had once been an extravagant bottle of fragrance. Children rarely -meant- to do such things, he knew, it just....happened sometimes.
Well, no matter.
Folding the pants over the crook of his arm, Hitsuga reached for the knob of the fitting room's door, easing it open to scan the outside area. Finding no one nearby, he frowned. He....he wasn't really going to have to go OUT there in this manner, was he...?
Ah, there!
The shopkeep, who had been fussing with shirts on a nearby table jolted a bit, looking up and around herself as if something had just bitten her. Hitsuga winced, realizing a moment too late that perhaps all people in this world -weren't- as closed as Madame Phaerna....and he had just, effectively, yelled inside of the poor lady's head. Biting his lip, he projected sincere apologies, making her look of surprise fade to one of confusion as she, again, tried to place the source.
He is over here, he urged her. At the fitting rooms. The woman turned abruptly to blink at him.
"Oh..." she said, seeming somewhere between relieved and offput as she affixed a smile on her face, approaching. "There you are. Did you find something you liked?" Casting a look to either side of him, Hitsuga stepped out of the dressing room and offered her the pants he held with an apologetic sort of smile. He was afraid to be the bearer of bad news, but it seemed--
"Oh really...?" she asked, sounding surprised as she took them from him, looking from the pants to Hitsuga. "You didn't really strike me as somebody who'd be into the grunge fashion, but I thought I'd give you the option."
Hitsuga felt his smile falter into a look of puzzlement. ....the what?
"You want me to get you the shirt that matches?" she went on, grinning now. "We also have some boots. And a collar that isn't really part of it but you would look AWESOME in it!"
He...err....wasn't she concerned with the--
But she was already gone, bustling across the shop to, presumably fetch the items she'd described. Boots? A COLLAR...?
She would expect him to put those on when she came back with them.
...........
Feeling his stomach turn a greasy flip inside of himself, he disappeared back into the fitting room, not quite slamming the door behind himself as he leaned against it heavily.
Deep breaths, Hitsuga.
Deep breaths.
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Posted: Sat May 02, 2009 8:05 am
[journal: 02]
I do not think I'll be going shopping again for awhile.
But I found enough of what I need to get settled, at least. Madame Phaerna is very generous. I have promised to repay her as soon as my means let me.
I have clothes that are my own now. They are not exactly like the ones I used to have, but they are as close, I think, as I will find. I am in no position to be choosy.
There was another shop we visited when the clothes were sorted out. It sold a variety of things to satisfy a variety of hobbies. Madame was looking for crystal beads, she said. ....and happened to catch me looking over what claimed to be a perfumer's kit.
I am keeping careful, careful, inventory of everything I must repay her kindness for.
This parcel has bottles, pipettes, strips, a press, and several vials that are labeled strangely. I am not sure yet if I will be able to work with it or not, but it is more than I had. And I will try.
I must wash Master and Lady's clothes and return them. I only hope Madame remembers the way to the house...
~~ 苾畫
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Posted: Sat May 02, 2009 8:27 am
Return Visit What should have been a fifteen minute walk from point A to point B had ended up taking the better part of a half an hour. Hitsuga had stopped, faltered, and retraced his steps several times, unsure of whether he was going the right way or not as per Phaerna's directions. Little by little, though, things had begun to look familiar. By the time he had reached the edge of the weed-littered lawn, his apprehension that he'd gotten himself lost eased away. Straightening up, his mood brightening considerably, he pauses a moment to smooth a few wrinkles out of the folded bundle he carries with him. It is his hope that Lady Rika or the master of the house is at home, as he doesn't trust leaving what he'd borrowed from them both on the doorstep. Not when it is freshly-washed and spring rains are so unpredictable! As he sets foot onto the property, he stops, taking note he is not alone here. Blinking at the green-haired woman nearby, who does not yet seem to have noticed his arrival, he hesitates, and then offers her a greeting. Omi heard it... or thought she did. She turned, catching sight of Hitsu and seemed to just watch him for a moment. His clothing was a bit odd... as was his appearance, but as a Fa'e, she really wasn't in any place to make judgments. Turning to him, she bowed politely, as she'd been taught. "Hello," she answered, not yet realizing that the greeting hadn't been aloud. "I'm sorry if I was intruding." This is a bad idea. This is a supremely bad idea. And yet, Luna notes with a touch of amusement, they're DOING IT ANYWAY. It isn't exactly what she would call a dangerous situation, but still, she's almost glad to have Jokeph to act as a buffer if things get ugly. And Boyan's presence... Luna suspects it would make the situation worse, but her mother was busy working, her daughter had homework to be done, and Boyan was really the only capable person. Which means that the following situation is going to be pure chaos.Here, on safe ground, in a calm setting, Luna is bringing her cousin to meet Setsushi. "Hey hey hey Lu! Lu! Your brother doesn't have a nose, so how does he smell? LIKE DIRT." And as Sofi and Boyan erupt into peals of childish giggles, Luna can't help but roll her eyes. This is going to be a LONG evening. While the sounds of clattering pots and pans and rattling lids emanate from inside the house, a young Porcelain woman sits at the outside table, her feet up on another chair while she fiddles with a glassy tube with incomprehensible etchings in the surface, spinning wooden wheels at the ends with a bored expression. When she notices the arrival of some others -- two she recognizes, others she does not -- Rika pauses, pulling her monocle out of her robes and fitting it to her face, gazing towards them, but offering neither spoken nor projected greeting yet. Hitsuga seems to brighten at Nozomi's immediate acknowledgment of his projection, elated that he will not have to flail at other methods of communication as he does with his current housemate. The man assures Omi, with a polite bow, that if she is intruding, then he is likewise, as it is not, precisely, his house He is about to ask her if she happens to know Setsushi or Rika, but is interrupted by the giggles nearby and turns his head in the direction of the sound, watching the approaching three. One of them, he recognizes from his last visit....the other two, not so much. At least, this time, he is clothed.... It was supposed to be a nice day; the sun was shining, after all. The breeze was a lightly cool one, so Tsubei didn't even have to wear a sweater. However, she couldn't help but feel like something was going to go horribly amiss. So why was it, exactly, that she was heading down to the udon-ya? She needed to get out of the house for a bit and rest her tired hands. Not being sure entirely where she could go, Setsushi's place was the only choice that made sense to her. Besides, she always seemed to meet interesting people whenever she went. Today, she had a trio of plum blossoms held in her hair with a plum-colored barette, her plum tree having shed them not much earlier. They looked pretty...and she wanted to feel pretty today, for some odd reason. As she walked, she could already see people she hadn't met yet. One of them was a Porcelain woman who looked quite regal and familiar somehow. Another was a Porcelain man that was unfamiliar in all senses. As she came closer, she sent out a gentle greeting to them all, including the humanoids. That was when she seemed to realize that nothing had been spoken at all. Omi blinked, first at Hitsu, then at the others who seemed to be doing much the same silent welcoming or greeting thoughts. How on earth were they doing that? Perhaps it was a custom of theirs... since they all seemed to be of the same race. "I... thank you," she answered, nodding to Hitsu gratefully. While she was curious, she did not want to seem rude. Then again, there really was no polite way to ask someone what they were, was there? Before Sofi can bolt forward and greet everyone enthusiastically, Luna grabs her hand. Not that she doesn't trust Sofi, but new people, a familiar person? And someone with INTERESTING TOYS? She might as well give a two-year-old a double-shot of espresso and turn them loose in a paint factory. Unfortunately, it isn't Sofi who deserves Luna's concern. "Naked!" Boyan belts out, jabbing a finger at Hitsuga for Sofi's benefit. See? See? THIS is the one he's been telling her about. Or would have been, if she could hear any projection in his head. Heck, that's why he's here in the first place; to act as a translator between Luna and Sofi. And. And who is this little Porcelain who seems so familiar? Can it possibly be Tsubei? Oh, Tsubei! Such fights she had with his mother! Such hostility! (Such amusement!) And finally, Rika. The girl whose importance has finally been revealed to Boyan. No, not her status as Imperial Princess, but rather a daughter of the Celestial Oracle. Which means yet another lovelybeautiful girl to spoil with presents! ...Which he sadly lacks at the moment. But he is so going to find her a rock, and it's going to be SO SHINY...! ... Rika reaches up to adjust the lens, which had come slightly out of place when she raised her eyebrows. Setting the tube down on the table, she turns her head to the udonya, projecting to the one inside a notion of people. She then turns back to the assembled group, puts her elbow on the table, rests her chin in her hand and gazes inquisitively at Boyan. "Are you also a geologist?" she asks. A few moments later, another Porcelain appears in the doorway, wearing a brand new blue-checked apron over his house robes. He glances at Rika, smiling nervously, then looks out over the mass of visitors, and, in time with a warm projection of greeting and welcome, asks, "How may I serve?" I have entered a world of strange, pale people and have no idea how I got here.Omi looked at the one that had yelled 'NAKED', and now was truly concerned. No one else seemed to be speaking aloud, and it was quite plainly unnerving her. It wasn't until the two on the porch spoke that she finally started to almost relax... and bowed politely to them both. "No," she answered, since the woman's question wasn't directed at her. "I don't need anything. But thank you for the offer." Boyan shakes his head violently, already tangled hair becoming an impossibly large mess. He isn't a geolomogist, or really much of anything. But he likes shinies, and he likes sparklies! Luna waves to Setushi with her free hand, returning his greeting with one of her own. A greeting with a faint undertone of... anxiety? Jokeph seems equally troubled, and makes it a point to stand as close to Luna as possible without interfering with her hold on Sofi's hand. And Sofi is still not entirely certain what she's doing here, but the thought of noodles is one that pleases her. "Do you serve spaghetti?" The polite smile Hitsuga has been maintaining slips into a look of being utterly mortified at Boyan's proclamation. T-That is NOT what he wants to be remembered by...! gonk He only just now seems to notice just how active Setsushi's front lawn has become and feels his cheeks burn. Thankfully, blessedly, a new presense, both inside his mind and out, draws his attention as he turns to see.....what is a very TALL man standing in the doorway of the nearby house. And....is that Rika sitting nearby? Oh, good...! Readjusting his grip on the clothes he carries, Hitsuga moves toward Rika first, though keeps a polite distance as she has her conversation with Boyan, waiting for her to be finished before he attempts to speak to her. A few blinks later, Tsubei's stunned face turned into a smile. She THOUGHT she recognized that goofball. "It's good to see you too, Boyan." She said as she bowed to him, turning to Setsushi and the woman sitting outside of his house. She sent her greetings to him, bowing respectfully to them both before she turned to look at the young woman with Boyan. Both she and the man with her were familiar somehow. Noticing the nervous male, she bowed to him and sent easy greetings to him, trying to make sure she showed respect to all around. More activity here than usual, it seemed. "... Oh." After inclining his head to Nozomi, giving off a slight feeling of disappointment but also of deference, Setsushi addresses Sofi: "The noodles here are unlike spaghetti, Madame, but rather in the style of what is called 'udon.'" He wonders if perhaps he should make some for her party so that she may see if this style appeals to her-- ... and then, looking over Luna, Jo, and Boyan, comes to a realization, suddenly smiles and makes his way down the steps. "Madame Sofi?" he asks, giving off a bright, eager feeling of pleasure at finally being able to meet her. Rika eyes Setsushi as he does so, quietly grumbling that she hopes he won't be taking much longer making her prawns. But she turns her attention to Hitsuga, nodding slightly in greeting, giving off a very slight projection as well but mostly remaining mentally silent. "Are you well?" she asks, rather directly, but with a sincere tone of voice. Omi was taken aback a bit by the disappointment she felt from Setsushi, and couldn't quite understand why he reacted that way. She hated being a bother, and most weren't too upset when she would decline to put them out of their way on her account. This place was becoming more and more strange to her, then she suddenly remembered her grandmother's words. "When hospitality is offered, it is considered rude to not accept.""Oh dear," she murmured, sighing inwardly as she watched Setsushi's attention shift. Too late now. She caught sight of a familiar face then, and her smile came back. Yes, that was definitely Sofi... there was another Fa'e here! Hitsuga bows his head respectfully to Lady Rika, reaffixing his smile with assurance that he is doing much better than last they met. Turning his head briefly at the unfamiliar greeting from another direction, he offers a warm and polite greeting back to Tsubei. Looking back to Rika, he apologizes he did not stay to say goodbye properly, or to meet Master. Rika waves a hand slightly as if to fan away Hitsuga's apologies. She pauses, looking him over, and then asks with a straight face: "I see you have clothes; did you find a place to stay?" Glancing at Setsushi, she adds, "I would offer you a bed here if there remained any space at all." Sofi blinks once, twice, three times in rapid succession. She seems to remember something about an employee at Aunt June's who fits Setsushi's description, but the idea of holding two jobs in food service at ONCE is one she simply can't fathom. And why would it be so important that she meet him, anyway? She thinks very, very, very hard. And suddenly it occurs to her, complete with a lit light bulb appearing and floating over her head for an instant. Could this possibly be...? "LU!" Sofi's face melts into a look of ABSOLUTE HORROR. "Is this... is this.... This is a blind date, isn't it? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... I know I just had my birthday and I know I'm old enough to go to R rated movies but DON'T YOU THINK THIS IS A LITTLE SOON? Who put you up to this? Was it Dad? Was it Aunt June? Do they think it's time for me to settle down and have two and a half kids? How do you even HAVE half a kid? Is that why the magicians invented the sawing in half trick? So they could create a legion of half-kids that parents can pick up when they want to fill their quota? Why haven't I seen any half-kids around anyway? Could it possibly be... OH MY GOSH, LU! LU! MAGICIANS ARE RAISING AN ARMY OF HALF CHILDREN AND THEY'RE GOING TO DECLARE WAR ON THE WHOLES! We have to DO SOMETHING!" Jokeph covers his face with one hand. Oh god.And Boyan, simply happy to see Tsubei again, flings himself at her in a big, friendly, squishy hug. ... ... ... ... Back from psychologically dissociating, Setsushi asks Luna, "Shall I prepare some food for your family?" Four bowls, three, two? What flavors -- and what kind of tea? ... ... ... Or perhaps something less invigorating for Miss Sofi? As she waved off his apologies, so too does he gently deflect her implied one, assuring her it is, for the moment, taken care of. He is currently staying with the one who brought him here. She....rather insisted on it, he adds. And speaking of bringing.... He sets the bundle of clothes on the table, sifting through them until he finds the garment belonging to Rika, and offers her her jacket, neatly folded and clean. ......trying not to hear the verbal aneurysm taking place nearby. He does not wish to be rude to the others, but if he attempts to focus on more than one or two people at a time, especially in a setting that is still largely-unfamiliar, he is well-aware it would only end badly for his nerves. Completely deaf to Setsushi's projections, Sofi calls out to Omi (finally noticing another Fa'e! Just her luck! ALLIES). "Mii! MII? Mii! Miiiiii! Mii! Mii mii mii! MII! Over here! MII! I think my cousin's trying to MARRY ME OFF!" I am not! Luna momentarily forgets that Sofi CAN'T hear her. And finally, she turns her projections to Setsushi. She can't hear you like that.It comes as a bit of a surprise when Boyan suddenly flings himself at her, but Tsubei isn't at all displeased. Her face lights up with a smile and she returns the squishy hug in kind, warm happy feelings rolling off of her. She was happy to see him, despite their past arguments and fights with his family. "I've missed you," She said, muffled a bit by his mess of robes. Is everyone else well? How is Melody? Tsubei hasn't seen her in quite some time. And the rest of his family?Oh so many questions and so many new people to meet, not to mention the impromptu reunion. What a day this was going to be! Boyan, for once, manages to refrain from drooling on Tsubei's shoulder. Little Melody is all grown up now and WILL HAVE BABY. Boyan is extremely excited to spread the news far and wide; sure, he might already be a grandpa, but a REAL grandpa now? He can hardly contain himself! And Tsubei might remember his little baby sister Luna, right? She's the one over there holding their loud cousin by the wrist! And there's Jo! Boyan hasn't actually seen much of them lately; she's been busy with a daughter of her own and work and so many babies.Boyan wonders if his mother remembers Tsubei. He kind of doubts she holds a grudge, though; she didn't even TRY to flirt with Grandpa-not-grandpa Setsushi! ....Which means he's all Tsubei's! Oh yes. It was definitely Sofi. Chuckling, Omi walked towards the flailing girl, head tilted in curiosity. "Marry you off?" she asked, having heard Sofi's mental tare from the beginning, she rather got the idea that perhaps this was all Sofi-logic instead of actual fact. Still, it was amusing as hell to watch. "You sure she isn't trying to sell you?" It probably was better left unsaid, even as a joke, but Omi's ornery side shone through in that moment and the words were out before the verbal firewall could block them. Rika nods slightly to acknowledge the return of her jacket-- but it's clear her attention is on something else. Swinging her legs down and beginning to rise, she beams a projection in the direction of Setsushi and Luna: Who's marrying whom?Nobody is marrying anybody! Setsushi immediately flashes back at her, then pauses, sighs, and raises a hand to delicately press on his brow. A moment later, he repeats his questions, all mentally this time, to Luna. And also wonders if she would like him to translate for her -- though he is not certain Miss Sofi is attending or will be quite willing to listen to him... He is interrupted by Rika suddenly appearing at his side, giving him a sharp jab in the elbow. "My prawn?" She asks, adjusting her monocle as she quickly surveys the assembled group, her eyes lingering on a few individuals longer than others, though no emotions seep through her wall. As Setsushi sends her apologetic feelings, she glances back at Hitsuga. "... Would you like to come inside?" she asks. Oh, way to go, Nozomi. "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" With a shriek, Sofi tears herself away from Luna and dives behind Omi. "Don't let her sell me, Mii! Don't let her sell meeeeeeeeeeeeee!" Now, Luna believes, Setsushi understands why Luna warned him about her. And also why she'd HOPED to have a nice, calm environment for the two to become acquainted in. But apparently she just can't have nice things.My brother is here to translate, she explains, but it seems he's... distracted.
I'm so sorry for this; I didn't expect it would go this BADLY.Tsubei listened intently to all of the news that was being delivered. Melody was having a baby as well? She thought of Silver and Amena, and now even Melody. She couldn't help but feel a mix of emotions, which she tried valiently to keep bottled inside. "I doubt Junyi could forget me," She commented with a small smile, looking over at Luna. "That is little Luna? She's all grown up...." And Tsubei is still young. A touch of annoyance was on that last thought. When Boyan suddenly proposed that Setsushi was all HERS, her pale face went as pink as the flowers in her hair. NOOOOnonononononono no way! She projected hastily as she shook her head and waved her hands up in a blocking fashion, almost vehemently. Tsubei can't even think of being with Setsushi or anyone. Not after....well..........in any case, the very notion of her 'having' Setsushi is a bit out of the question. He's deserving of someone much better.She hoped those projections were mostly private.....but the hasteness at which they came probably meant that they weren't. "I'm glad Melody is starting a family. I'm certain she will be a good mother." She put on a smile, her wishes genuine. Hitsuga blinks, debating with himself privately. Whether he would stay longer than to deliver the clothing or not had been up in the air since he'd set out. Seeing the crowd on the lawn had made his decision lean toward the negative... ....however with the question formally put to him, he finds himself not wanting to be rude. He winces noticeably at Sofi's shrill scream, drawing into himself with a jolt. Perhaps somewhere quiet would be better. .....He would be happy to, he tells Lady Rika, if it is, of course, fine with Master. His eyes fall to Setsushi then, as he sets his jaw. The taller male seems quite preoccupied as it is.... ....nonetheless, he projects a greeting of politeness directly, though not demandingly. Well, that could have gone better. Omi laughed softly, hugging Sofi. "I was kidding, Sofi... honest. She wouldn't sell you!" Of course, that would invariably lead Sofi back to the whole marriage thing, which at this point was likely the lesser of two evils. Maybe. Looking to Setsushi and Luna, Omi gave an apologetic smile. "I'm sorry. I didn't think she'd believe me." Rika nods at Hitsuga, then turns to head inside, carrying her device. As she steps forward briskly her shoulder collides with Setsushi, though she does not seem bothered by the contact and continues moving to one of the inside tables. Setsushi, though, despite being perhaps twice Rika's weight (more than twice...?) stumbles, off-balance and distressed for a moment. After recovering his bearings, though, he insists to Luna that Setsushi would not describe this to be 'going so badly.' He only hopes that Miss Sofi does not bear resentment towards him afterwards. But what can he make for them? He insists. And, to the other visitors as well, he asks, "Shall I cook something for you as well?" Miss Tsubei? Master Boyan? ... The human ...? Perhaps one of those other large-eared folk he has seen before... male who has also recently arrived? And, ah, one he presumes to be Master Hitsuga? "D-Do you promise?" Sofi asks, nearly in tears at this point. Well. At least she wasn't screaming. Hitsuga blinks at being addressed by name, hoping his reputation has not preceded him badly. ....at least not in the way Boyan seems fond of holding him in-mind. He fetches the folded clothes off of the table and approaches, giving Setsushi a polite bow before offering him the garments. He thanks Master Setsushi profusely for his lending of them, though he may not have been aware of his doing so. It has, he says, been a very, VERY strange past few days... Tsubei looked up to Setsushi with a smile and nodded, agreeing that she would indeed like some noodles as well. She followed the others inside, glancing between the other Porcelain man and Setsushi with curiosity. She knew it was rude to ask the circumstances of his arrival, so she kept it quiet. Tsubei pulled out a small compact mirror from the small violet purse on her shoulder (which she hardly ever carried much) and fixed the flowers in her hair, making sure they weren't damaged from her hug from Boyan. She still wasn't sure why she was caring about such things now, but oh well. "I promise," Omi answered, smiling as she watched Sofi go. Sighing inwardly and outwardly, she finally takes stock of everything around her, and all of the people that seem just so much different from her... but at least alike to each other. Noodles. She heard mention of that. "Udon, you said?" she asked of Setsushi, trying to make up for her lack of manners earlier. "That would be lovely." Setsushi gives a slighter return bow to Hitsuga, sending pleasant and warm feelings -- Setsushi is glad to have provided assistance in a small way. If Master Hitsuga requires further help, he is always welcome to call on Setsushi again; he also had difficulty adapting to this strange world and will happily share his resources and experience. He nods again to the group, acknowledging the requests before he heads inside as well, to begin preparing noodles and to also boil some water for tea. ... Ah, and to check Rika's food, of course. Rika, now sitting at the inside table with her shoes off and her stockinged feet up on the table, removes her stare from Setsushi and applies it to the preening Tsubei instead. Mentally silent, she scrutinizes the young woman, then transfers her attention to Hitsuga. "You should request something as well," she says to him. "Setsushi is quite good." Setsushi is glad to have Rika's confidence... Keep it cool until the full moon....Another day, where another thought she was being rude at work for not speaking. This was just the icing on her day, now she wanted to strangle the new girl at work. Why couldn't she just act normal around her, and not like a total freak? So what if she couldn't speak or hear? Did she really have to try and attempt to do everything for her? Rubbing at her temples, she pauses as she glances up. Looking behind her, she shakes her head before she looks back ahead of her. Had she made a wrong turn in the middle of her rant to herself? Nothing was familiar to her at all. Folding her wings around her shoulder, Virendra sighs as she looks up at the shy. Sometimes she wish she could just step outside her body and scream. That was for another day though, when she was actually able to make everyone know how she feel. Right now, she was trying to figure out where the small restaurant had come from. Now she was sure she had gone the wrong way, finding she never been down this way before. Pausing just a few feet from the building, she chews on her bottom lip. Her tail brushing the ground as her feline ears twitch, she couldn't decide if she wanted to go inside or not. It couldn't hurt right?As everyone begins to gravitate indoors, Hitsuga trails after them, bolstered a bit by Setsushi's warm reception. He'd dreaded the idea that he would find Setsushi offended by the intrusion of his clothes and belongings. He had, in the past, been scolded for convincing himself of the worst of everything all of the time, however.... At Rika's suggestion, his eyes flick between her and Setsushi, already busy preparing for the others. He is quite sure that Master Setsushi's food is wonderful, but he regrets that he has eaten before arriving... His stomach was still indecisive over whether it liked Gaia's fare of food or not... Some tea, he says, would be most appreciated, though, if it is not a bother. The others began to filter inside, and Omi was torn between going in or going home. However, she'd already asked for food, so it wouldn't make much sense to leave now. Virendra approached then, and the Fa'e watched the newcomer with a smile. That look of hesitation was one she knew well. "Everyone's going in," she said, beckoning to the girl. "Care to join?" Excellent, Setsushi interjects into Hitsuga and Rika's conversation; Setsushi has already warmed this water, so it will be soon to boil. "Make that citrus black tea," Rika suggests. The one named after the Gray Earl of the United Kingdoms, or whatever, she clarifies. If Hitsuga hasn't tried it, she explains that "It is scented with the oil of..." Well, Rika is not quite sure; she has only started her investigation. But to her nose it smells something like citron? She seems to be relaxing her outer wall somewhat, amenable to mind-conversation with Hitsuga. Virendra didn't notice Omi at first, not until she caught the movement of her head out the corner of her eye. Looking towards her, she arches a brow as she watches her mouth. She managed to catch the last two word she spoken to her. Join us..With a small smile, she nods as she walks towards Omi. This in its own right was going to be interesting. She couldn't speak to anyone right now, and she wasn't sure if any of them new sign language. Crossing her arms under her chest, she lets out what looks like a small sigh. This is one of those times, I wish I had my sister here.Intrigued by the description, Hitsuga thinks that he may like to try it. If Setsushi, of course, happens to have any. He projects a warm thank-you to his host and seats himself at the table as well, self-consciously smoothing creases out of the yukata he wore. Taking a brief inventory of who remained, finding Nozomi at the door speaking to someone he could not see, he turns his attention to Rika, giving her a smile as he inquires as to how she's been since they've last met. Tsubei felt eyes on her and glanced outside of her compact to see Rika looking at her. She suddenly felt embarrassed and slowly put the compact away, shifting to take a seat and hopefully hide herself somehow. It was impossible with the rooms openness, of course, but still... It then ocurred to her that she finally recognized Rika from her history book. Another embarrassment to add onto the growing list, she sent humble apologetic feelings to Rika for not treating her with the respect she truly deserves. She turned her eyes down to her hands upon the table, her mind and voice quiet for the moment as she tried to recover her mentality. Setsushi indeed has some Earl Grey, smiling as he fetches the tin, prepares the teapot and then pours in the newly-boiling water over the leaves. While the tea steeps, he takes out a pair of long chopsticks and fishes out of a pan of boiling oil -- giving off delicious (or horrible) greasy aromas -- three pieces of breaded prawn, now deep-fried. He places them on a plate, then drops them off in front of Rika as he goes to the doorway to ask who else would like some tea. And sees the new arrival; though rather surprised by her appearance as well, he smiles, projecting a warm feeling of greeting while asking, "How may I serve?" Would Madame also like something to eat? Rika shakes her head at Tsubei, dismissing the feelings of apology. "I need no special respect," she responds to-- "... What was your name again?" ... ... ... And is Setsushi just going to give her this food without any utensils? stare ... ... ... She tries to pick one up with her fingers, but quickly puts it back when it proves still too warm to handle comfortably. Virendra glances towards the few that were sitting around the tables, suddenly feeling very out of place. As her ears fell back, she frowns alittle as she lifts her hand. Giving a small wave to them all, she blinks as she felt the a soothing warmth flow through her mind. She couldn't pick up who it came from, nor could she actually return the warm gesture. Crossing her arms again, she found herself thinking as she attempts to figure out what to do. It took a minute, but finally she decides the next best thing. Lifting the hem of her skirt just alittle, she curtsies to Setsushi as well as the others. A simple gesture yes, but it was also a sign of hello and respect to her. Maybe they won't ask me too many questions..Looking to Virendra as she enters, Hitsuga likewise projects a warm greeting in her direction, hoping the evening finds her well. As a contrast to the warmth, however, the perfumer shifts a bit uncomfortably in his seat at the tension that seems to rise slightly from Rika at both Setsushi and Tsubei at once. He wisely, however, keeps any thoughts on the matter to himself... Something occurs to him, from their last visit. His memories before the nap are hazy (it seems to be normal fare for him, following a seizure) but he recalls he and Rika discussing a fragrance she wanted made for someone. ....had she said the master of the house? He privately inquires of Lady Rika if this is the one he is to make the scent for as he watches Setsushi bustle about, being careful not to stare. Tsubei sent her gratitude to Setsushi, then looked back up to Rika and smiled lightly, nodding a bit as her apology was dismissed. Still, she made a mental note and decided to work with it in the future. "I am Tsubei. It is an honor and a pleasure to meet you." She introduced herself and projected sincerity with her words. It was true, she did feel honored to meet the Imperial Princess of the Golden World. Her attention was drawn away by the woman who came in and seemed to be a bit shy. She wasn't entirely sure what was wrong, but she observed her and sent warm welcoming feelings to her. Setsushi pauses, a bit puzzled by this new woman, but answers her curtsy with a slight bow. Projectionally, he repeats his question-invitation: Would she like something to eat? It is no trouble for Setsushi; the opportunity to treat a guest is a great pleasure for him. Rika nods slightly. "Tsubei," she repeats, adjusting her monocle as she contemplates for a moment... then once again dismisses Tsubei's respectful feelings. "There are seven Imperial Princesses," she says, her tone lightly sarcastic without being truly cutting; "Nothing so special about them." In response to Hitsuga's private question, though, she breaks into a sudden smile, though she tries, not altogether successfully, to return her face to neutral as she also gazes at Setsushi's back. Privately, she confirms that he is the one. Giving up controlling her expression, she pokes at a deep-fried prawn to try to find the coolest part of it, then picks it up and starts eating it with the fingers. It's terribly greasy -- which the scholar seems to enjoy quite a lot. Virendra frowns as she feels the warmth flow though her mind again, followed by words. Well at least now, she knew how to break the barrier when the time came. This didn't help her right now though, and it was frustrating her to no end. Glancing back around the room, she turns back to the one that called himself Setsushi. With a small nod, she lifts her hands as she pretends to write on her hand. She was in need of a pen and some paper. Why...on all days do I find people who I can actually be social with? Life isn't playing fair right now.Her statement to Tsubei about the princesses, for the moment, doesn't register with Hitsuga who, right now, seems to be lost in his thoughts as he watches Setsushi carefully, with an artist's eye. It is always easier to fine-tune custom perfumes after seeing the subject they are intended for... Averting his gaze again before he can be noticed, he tells Rika he will have to tweak a few things, he thinks. But that he has much more to work with now. He may even be able to start on it before returning home, provided he can find the appropriate materials. Setsushi stares at Virendra for a moment... then aahs with understanding, ducks back inside the house and returns with a notebook and pen -- one that has been strangely wrapped in a layer of plastic Handing the items to the woman, he gives off reassuring feelings, as if to reinforce that it is no trouble, and wonders if she would perhaps like to join the others inside? Rika nods slightly, informing Hitsuga in private projections -- very tightly controlled, grammatical ones, thoughts shaped almost like writing or mouthspeech, that he should perhaps ask Setsushi where he buys his groceries -- without spoiling the surprise, if he can. Having already devoured the prawn, she sighs contentedly, licking the excess oil off her fingers before looking about for a napkin... and finding none, settles with wiping her hand on her sleeve.
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Posted: Sat May 02, 2009 8:33 am
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Posted: Sun May 03, 2009 8:24 am
It was by no small amount of luck he'd found his way back, given the condition he was in. He barely remembered Phaerna's asking him if he was all right and if he needed anything. He had given her a vague response that he was fine, and that he needed to be alone to think. Please.
It would likely occur to him later how rude he'd been to Madame, but at the moment, his frame of mind was a far step away from courtesy. By the time he closed the door to the room behind himself, his chest was heaving with rapid, fluttering breath that made red spots dance at the corners of his eyes. In a last ditch effort to get a reign on himself, he fumbled with and then tore the lid away from the canister of tea he carried, breathing deeply of the earthy, sweet scent the dried leaves within exuded.
The smell flooded his senses, centering him. Calming him. It was not until he could, again, breathe easily that he dared draw it away as he crossed the room with a staggering step to set it on the edge of the still-unused desk.
She'd spoken favorably of him.
Hitsuga reached up to smooth flyaway strands of dark hair away from his face as the sharp edge of panic began to recede, leaving in its wake something just as unsavory. Guilt, barbed and unrelenting, raked itself through him. He'd been wrong. All of this time, and he'd never even entertained the idea that it could be any way other than he imagined it to be. He began to pace, hands worrying at one another, as his mind churned.
Why would she speak favorably of him? Why? He didn't deserve it. It wasn't as if grudges were below Baikou, either. As a child, he had sometimes been in awe of her ability to cling to disdain for some of the children who had antagonized him the worst. There were times when he had fretted one day that disdain might be turned on him if he were to wrong her.
What he'd done, he liked to think, was easily one of the deepest wrongs one could do to another. A large part of him, he found, WANTED her to hate him. Because at least that, hurtful as it was, would make sense...!!
On the sixth pass of the room's length, he gave up and collapsed on the bed in complete disarray, burying his face in the pillow. It had been a long, long time since he had allowed himself to be whipped into a froth over his botched marriage. Remorse and longing were familiar companions on the issue, and it was with them that he had sat up late nights, pouring over Baikou's publications in the secure womb that had been his closed shop. But being frenzied with grief and anxiety -- he had stopped that within months of coming back to himself....partially at his sister's insistence that it would fix nothing and only destroy him.
It should never have ended up in the way it had.
The ceremony had been beautiful, with everything going just as it should have. He had been told by his own and Baikou's family alike how wonderful a match they were. How happy they would be together. How happy HE must be to look upon his long-time friend and now call her his wife. He had smiled, blushing deeply as he thanked them. Baikou had carried herself with a pleased elegance, as if she were confident that this was where they belonged. Being united in front of those they'd grown up around, near the shore they had oft-played together as children.
But even as he'd looked deeply into her eyes, promising that he would love her and honor her, he was troubled. Dismissing it as "maiden's nerves" he'd pushed it out of hand.....but even then, he'd reflect later, he'd known. Despite his convincing himself in the weeks leading up to their wedding that things would be fine, it was not his wife he'd seen gazing back at him, but his friend and big sister.
That thought would resurface later when they found themselves breathless and entwined with one another against the closed door of her bedroom. At first, as she often had in their youth, Baikou had taken a lead in things. But control of the situation had, gradually, been shifted to him. ....and that had been where things had begun to falter.
"What's wrong...?" she'd whispered at his hesitation. "....you did read the book, didn't you?" the question had been playful, its bite tempered by her sweetness. He had smiled. He had assured her it was only his head being noisy again. Yet it wasn't just that. Her desire had caught to him, and he was beginning to feel its effect. The world around them had hazed, making the two of them the only tangible objects in it. At that moment, arousal told him there was nothing he wanted more in this world or any beyond it, than her. The wall around his mind had begun to crumble as kisses and touches increased their fervor, letting it extend tendrils of itself beyond him to reach out for and be met by something. Something strange, but warm and welcoming.... And yet...
IS this what you want, Hitsuga? Kitsuo's words had floated back to haunt him.
No. NO.
The scene was slapped away from his mind's eye forcefully, returning him to the present. He didn't have to remember. ....but he did. No matter how hard he tried to forget that night and what had transpired, it was always there....hiding just out of sight in the velvet of his subconscious, ready to step forward and reintroduce itself like an old friend.
And did you see....
He jammed the pillow over his head with a groan, trying in vain to block out his brain's muttering.
....that look on her face...
He tried to focus on other things. Any other things. Rainshowers of white petals as they cascaded from the cherry trees. Laughing, bubbling brooks that bounded over the stones that stood in their way. Feathery white mist that stretched its wings in a milky blanket over the woods and fields.
...when you slammed the door in it to deny her?
He'd seen it. Of course he had. It had been the very last thing he'd seen, in fact, before the world had spun out of control in a haze of confusion and misery. That look had haunted him for years. Such a twisted and perverse cork to stop up the innocence and camaraderie of their youth. She had every right to hate him. Of course she did. He had done her one better, in fact, and had taken it upon himself to just assume that she found him detestable. Her friends and those close to her, he assumed, while she may not have ever referred to him by name, would likely know well the flighty boy from her childhood. The one whom she'd only wanted to love and protect, who had repaid her by crushing her trust and taking the pieces of herself she'd offered him and throwing them back in her face. How stupid he had been. How selfish. How glad she was that her damage from it had not been lasting enough to deny her the happiness of a proper husband.
Hitsuga agreed on all counts.
He had believed that so hard, that he had accepted it as a truth. So to hear Rika tell him that she still spoke of him, and in such a way that it would lead the young lady to believe that the two of them may be secretly married....
The perfumer was trembling quite badly as one hand groped blindly for the edge of the covers before finding them and drawing them over himself. If he'd been given that night to do over again, he promised himself, things would be much different now. He would not be in this strange world, grasping at the tails of painful memories. He would have swallowed that moment of panic, just as he'd swallowed so much else over the years, and put aside his own misgivings.
Who was HE to feel indignant or belittled over the idea she wanted to protect him, even when the bullies that had tormented him as a child were a thing of the past? Who was HE to feel as if a taboo was being broken to know that she looked to him as something more than a brother and expected he would do the same of her? He was no one. He was, and would remain, a frail boy who jumped at shadows and let his worries drive him to fits.
She'd spoken of him favorably.
Perhaps would have even spoken to him directly after he'd recovered from his illness if he hadn't gone to such pains to hide himself from her. Hitsuga curled in on himself, hugging the blankets tightly around his frame to keep out a chill that only he could feel. Hitching in a breath sharply, tears began to puddle at the rims of his eyes.
It hadn't had to be this way. He'd MADE it this way.
He'd ruined everything.
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Posted: Sun May 03, 2009 8:27 am
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Posted: Sun May 10, 2009 10:45 pm
Hours of staring into nothing had finally dragged him from the bed and to the desk where he had sifted through the contents of the perfume kits to try and make sense of them. Some of the bottle labels he'd recognized, some he was relying solely on their scent to make his best guess of what they may be as he'd sorted through them. When all was said and done, the pipettes, empty bottles, and papers had been settled to one side, the bottles of acids and oils to the other.
....it was a very small canvas to work with, but it was better than having none at all.
The canvas situated, though, he had been lacking the proper paints for it. And, in his profession, the "paints" changed with each new work. He was well-aware of his promise to Lady Rika, but also knew that, tonight, he did not have the capacity for dabbling in delicates and abstracts.
So he would settle for something he was more familiar with. And to do that, he had first needed more than what the kits had presented him.
The scents of wood, resin, and other rich forest smells assaulted his senses as he worked, intuitively separating the purities from the contaminants and then doubling back through the contaminants to examine which were truly useless and which may be useful in achieving the bouquet he had in mind. He had worried, at first, that this world would be lacking in what he needed. Gaia, it seemed, was nothing if not teeming with wildlife, however.
Even the woods that bordered just beyond the backyard fence of the house offered a meager amount of raw materials to choose from....as he had found when he had excused himself for, what he'd intended to be some fresh air, but had turned into a short walk among the backrow of tangled shrubs, trees, and grasses. The things there had spoken to him. These leaves said that if they were dried and powdered, a lightly-spiced scent could be teased from them. That bark promised that the globules of sap that hid beneath it contained a pungeant and tangy pine. This bed of moss, if pressed, could have a sweet, earthy, essence squeezed from it.
Long story short, he had returned nearly an hour later with various woodland debris cradled in a fold of his outer garments which now sat in various piles and separations atop his desk in, at least, some semblance of order.
Despite the precise movements of his hands, however, and the intent look of concentration that etched his features, Hitsuga's craft was well-enough known to him by now that his mind could safely autopilot the tasks in progress while his thoughts were elsewhere.
....and at the moment, his mind was dwelling in the past, poking at wounds that would heal if he would just stop bothering them.
Maybe.
The gray-eyed stranger had promised him that the bottle would make all of this stop. And while he recalled the tranquility he'd awoken in, short-lived as it was, he'd yet to experience a repeat of the feeling. His mind was just as much in knots as it had always been, fretting over things he should have done, words he should have said, actions he could have taken. But then again, when all was said and done, it was hard to sift out how much of that was due to the shattered bond in his head, and how much was due to his own nature.
A pipette tinked against the sides of the vial as he stirred its contents carefully, producing a high, merry noise in the silence of the bedroom. He missed his instruments. He was not creating with what he had before him, but rather was making do....it could be likened to taking a painter's easel and paints from him and replacing them with a piece of newsprint and a box of crayons. He could still put color down, yes, but it would not be near what he was capable of with the proper materials.
Why....was he here? What was the point?
He was aware of his jaw clenching as he picked up the small plastic eyedropper to transfer the tiny amount of greenish fluid he'd managed to express from the moss from its vial to his current concoction. Fingers trembled slightly as he carefully squeezed off a single drop, paused to stir, and then tapped off another.
Maybe it had been the stranger's idea of a joke? They were not soul-stealers, however, he noted wryly, the man had said nothing about mortal shells. And he had played directly into it, even when trying to be careful.
Idiot.
He reached across the small desk for one of the bottles of essence that had come with the kit, uncapping it to sample its aroma critically. It claimed to be cedar. It smelled to him, however, that its maker was careless. It had been diluted far too much, taking away the signature spiced bite he'd hoped to use it for. He weighed his options a moment....deciding at length that the perfume would manage without it and likely be better off without a half-cocked ingredient. It didn't occur to him until he realized how badly his hands were shaking as he tried to recap the bottle that he was fuming.
Hitsuga and anger were not well-acquainted with one another, but at the moment, he was a few shades shy of furious with both the situation and with himself. It was not enough, apparantly, that he'd made a decision that had resulted in hurting one of the people he'd cared most for. It was not enough, also, that his mistake had followed him around for the last six years, never letting itself be forgiven or forgotten. Apparantly this joke also needed its punchline fully realized -- that being that now that he was made aware of the fact Baikou did NOT hate him, he had no way of arranging to speak with her.
Quite possibly ever again, if Rika's attempts to repair her equipment failed.
Venting a sigh over his teeth, stormy eyes narrowed to slits as he stared intently at the desktop...
....he stared intently at the desktop, only to be jarred from his thoughts by a loud thud to his immediate left, making a strangled cry escape him as he wheeled around to stare at the thick volume on Alchemical Processes that had been dropped to the tabletop.
Someone's head wasn't in his work today, Kitsuo's projection suggested, accompanied by curiousity with an undertone of annoyance with his apprentice.
Hitsuga winced, bowing his head in apology. He wasn't doing it intentionally, he promised the older male as he picked up the book and slid from his seat to go put it on the shelf with the other tomes where it belonged.
Was he getting enough rest? Kitsuo inquired of the dark-haired boy. Trouble at home, perhaps?
Hitsuga felt a flush of frustration rise to his cheeks, his back thankfully turned. He was fine, he assured his mentor. Just thinking about things too much again.
"A day or so of this, and I'd believe you." he pressed, watching Hitsuga carefully as he returned to his seat to resume his work. "But you've been out of sorts for weeks, my young friend."
It was nothing, Hitsuga insisted, reaching to pick up a pair of metal tongs. Silence spanned between them.
Was it a lady, Kitsuo inquired? Hitsuga's resulting jolt, making him drop the instrument back to the tabletop with a clatter procured a chuckle from the older man. It was all right, his mentor assured him. All boys approached the age where courting a girl they fancied was foremost on their mind, and Hitsuga was, he imagined, no different. Had Kitsuo met her before, he wondered?
Hitsuga's mind clamped itself shut like a vice in response to the playful, prying lilt in his mentor's projection, though he felt his resolve weaken at the same time. He shook his head, which suddenly felt very heavy, making the other male arch a brow.
She doesn't reciprocate...? he ventured.
".....she didn't even ask me....." the dark-eyed boy murmured aloud, the words uneven but betraying weeks' worth of inner torment. Even as the words died on the air, Hitsuga knew he had just committed himself to telling Kitsuo everything that had been on his mind. .....and he did not offer much resistance when his elder began to pry anew as he began to explain himself.
Kitsuo had misunderstood, at first, admonishing him for agonizing over nothing. So what if she didn't desire a proper courtship? A courtship was a formality in the first place and he ought to be glad, really, he wasn't being asked to waste his time.
no. No. NO. It was not the courtship. It was -all- of it. Didn't he see that? Hitsuga's eyes spilled over with the frustrated tears he'd been holding back as he wavered, trying to rope it back within himself, and then broke down completely, pouring out weeks of frustration, worries, and dreads as he wept like a small child. Kitsuo watched him, but said nothing, bracing himself against the wall of mental anguish as it radiated off of the young man with surprising intensity. It was not until he'd begun to quiet that he spoke again.
It seemed to him that Hitsuga owed it to this girl, before he made a mistake he'd have to live with for the rest of his life, to tell her that he didn't love her, he concluded. Again, Hitsuga shook his head in the negative.
He did love her, he assured the other male. And that was the worst part. He loved her fully and unquestioningly...
....as a sister.
They had been through so much together, and she looked at him with such happiness since the announcement at her birthday, that he couldn't begin to think of denying her. But she still hadn't asked him how he'd felt about it.
She hadn't asked...
Miserable, Hitsuga buried his face in his hands. For as much of a blessing as most saw the idea of a marriage, he went on, he'd been given a good look at everything wrong with it. He disliked the idea of being forcefully bonded to another person for the rest of his life. And was TERRIFIED of the notion that if something should happen to his partner, it would mean his death by proxy. And what if Baikou, close as they were, decided to explore the potential of her lucid mind and somehow shield herself from her half of the bond? What if he just ended up a plaything? Something she could drop whenever she chose, but who he was obligated to remain with?
It was Kitsuo's opinion that Hitsuga's imagination had run away with him. He seated himself on the other side of the table, studying the boy critically, as if looking for something. "Insecurities aside....IS this what you want, Hitsuga?"
Wet, dark eyes peered out from between pale fingers. He wanted to make Baikou happy, he ventured at last. But if it had been left to him, no. There would be no impending wedding right now between them.
More silence. More thinking.
At length, Kitsuo had leaned forward, favoring his apprentice with a warm smile as he placed a hand on his shoulder.
"I may be able to help you."
When he came back to himself from the bitter wash of memory, he was wiping the pipette clean, a small vial of amber-colored liquid sitting before him. It was nice to see, at least, that his ability to work while detached still served him well. Though, given what he had to work with....
He lifted the vial to his face, inhaling its scent deeply. His mind was instantly awash with visions of tall, stoic trees, leafy thickets, and mossy groves. The faintest twinge of citrus gave it warmth, like the sun dappling a forest floor through the treetops.
....that said, it was not his finest work, by any means.
But it was his hope that the one it was intended for would be pleased by the gift anyway.
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 8:17 am
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 8:41 am
[journal: 03]
Dear Eikou,
I don't know when I might actually find a way of putting this letter in your hands, but it is my hope that you'll forgive me. It wasn't my plan to disappear like this. You must think I'm terrible.
Little sister, this world is so strange. Half of the things I want to tell you about it, you would think were my imagination jumping at shadows. This is a world where beasts walk on two legs and talk like you or I. This is a world where it is not uncommon to see angels and demons living a villager's life.
I have asked myself several times whether I am dead or if this is some sort of fevered dream. If I wake from it, maybe you and I will laugh about it later when I tell you of all of this. If I do not....
Eikou, please take care of yourself. Do not worry about me, I am safe for now. The few people I've met here have been very good to me. There is one here, Lady Rika, who may know a way home for us. In the meantime, I've been offered a place to live and space to work while she fixes her equipment.
I don't like the idea of taking root here as it implies I'll be staying. But I know that if you were here, sister, you would like the idea even less of me doing nothing but sitting, waiting, and fretting. So I am going to settle. I am going to work. And I am going to hope.
Love and respects,
~~ 苾畫
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 8:46 am
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Posted: Sun May 17, 2009 7:19 pm
It was not going to be easy. Not any way he sliced it.
Hitsuga had examined and reexamined ways of presenting the topic of his moving into the house Rika had presented him with to Phaerna, and he, for the life of him, could not think of a scenario in which she would not think he was doing it out of personal spite.
There was, of course, the option of simply not moving, but....to be honest (and perhaps selfish), that was just as unattractive as having to break the news in the first place.
....not to mention that, after he had narrowly avoided upsetting Rika over the process of accepting the house, she would surely find it a slap in the face if he proceeded NOT to make use of it.....
And so here he was, standing rooted in place outside of Madame Phaerna's bedroom door and spending so much time debating with himself that it would seem to an onlooker that he was eavesdropping on the one-sided conversation she was having on the other side.
"No, mother, I don't think he would mind it...." her quiet voice murmured. ".....well, I think, all things considered he might even appreciate it. I mean....*I* would if I had a baby on the way to worry about. Planning a wedding would be the last thing on my mind."
....maybe now wasn't the best time. Then again, the perfumer wondered, would there ever be a good time, if he followed that line of thinking?
She was going to hate him. She was going to ask him what she'd ever done to wrong him, and he'd have no answer. Because she hadn't done ANYTHING to wrong him, that was the thing. This was all him. Him and his stupid need for space. And privacy. And not being able to simply be grateful for a roof over his head.
His breathing began to come quicker and he closed his eyes, setting his jaw against it. He thought of flowers, he thought of the woods....
"I may have to look it up and get back with you." Phaerna said to, presumably, her mother. "No, I'll be here for the evening. Okay. Love you too. Bye."
And then, silence.
Drawing in a deep breath and holding it, he reached up to knock at the closed door twice softly. It opened a moment later, revealing the drow on the other side as she blinked, surprised at his presence.
"Oh....!" she said, as if not sure where to go from there. Their gazes locked for a long moment, though Hitsuga's was the first to drop.
"Madame Phaerna...?" He began with hesitant politeness. "I hope you are well to-day."
"I'm doing fine, Hitsuga, thank you." she smiled. "Did you need something?"
He chewed his lip worriedly.
"I--I must discuss something with Madame." he ventured at last, words heavy with apology already.
"Is something the matter?" she asked, brows drawing up in worry.
"No." he said immediately, and then winced. "....or perhaps yes." A pause hung in the air. "Madame has been very kind letting me stay here. I owe you a great debt." he began. Having to speak was making it much more stressful than it needed to be. ....perhaps it was best to just say it, after all. "I....have been given a new home."
He braced himself for the fallout.
"Oh." she said, her tone implacable. "Well, that's....good, isn't it? I'm happy for you."
He blinked in surprise. Was she...? Perhaps he'd been worried for nothing...
"I'm just sorry that I didn't do a good enough job of making you comfortable..." she went on, making his newly-built hopes come crashing down.
"No." he said, accompanying it with a both a shake of his head and a projection of the sentiment as well, as if to drive it home in every way possible. "That....that is not it. Madame has done plenty. It is more that I will have space to work. And to open a shop." Mental tendrils of reassurance and pleading exuded from him. He did not want her to blame herself. Please, not at all. And to please PLEASE understand.
"I didn't know you were planning on opening a shop..." she said, brows lifting a bit. He nodded in the affirmative, perhaps a bit too eagerly.
"Yes. If...Madame will allow, I would like to--" he shied a bit as a hand touched his upper arm.
"You don't need to ask my permission. I never told you that you HAD to stay here." she assured him. "If its what you want, Hitsuga..."
He took a small step backward, politely out of her reach. "I do not want you to think I am ungrateful." he ventured slowly. "If not for you, I--"
"I didn't help you because I wanted you to feel like you owed me anything..." she interrupted again, shaking her head. "I helped you because I know how it must feel."
Hitsuga blinked, puzzled. How what must feel...?
"Not knowing where you belong. Having no friends." She went on, as if having read his thoughts. If she had, he would have been surprised, considering his having to shout between their minds to be heard in the past. "You looked so scared that day we met in the park....I didn't want you to feel like you had no one..."
Another stab of guilt tore through him, her words making him feel all the more selfish for what he was doing. She had given him shelter, she had paid for his clothes, his food, had given him some of this world's currency to venture out on his own to buy what he needed for himself....
And is that the life you want for yourself? Truly? To throw away your dignity and live behind someone else's generosity and protection?
No. No, it was not.
Was that not, after all, one of your reasons for dodging out of your marriage...?
The thought was sobering, and just what he needed at the moment to keep him from devolving into a self-abhorrent mess and backpeddling on what little ground he'd made thus far.
"Are you all right?" Phaerna sounded alarmed as he jolted back to himself, realizing his control had slipped a bit, and his chest was fluttering with rapid breath.
Hitsuga screwed his eyes shut, turning his head away. Fine. He was fine. Or he would BE fine. He just needed a moment....that was all.
"Is there....any way that this one can make amends?" he asked, the words reedy and wavering.
"You don't NEED to make amends, though." the brown-haired drow insisted, now seeming flustered. "You don't need to do -anything-. Just....go. Okay?"
And....now he had made her upset. Which was only fueling the fires of his OWN upset. He couldn't do anything right. Damn him. Damn him to the hells! His lungs burned, not enough air getting into them, and his stomach began to flutter with the urge to flee. To where, he didn't know. But somewhere. Somewhere safe. Somewhere dark. Somewhere where he couldn't reach anybody to hurt them with his--
The train of thought was cut off abruptly as her hand, again, found purchase on his person. This time on his shoulder. His eyes snapped open to stare at her, glassy and large like a frightened deer's.
"Hitsuga...? Why don't we talk about this in the kitchen?" she asked slowly, carefully, as if talking him down from a ledge. "I'll make some tea, all right? Would that be okay...?" Green eyes attempted to seek reason in dark blues. "....please....?"
The edge of growing desperation in her final query seemed to bring him around. Enough, at least, to realize he did not want HER panicking as well. He nodded quickly. Yes. All right.
His breathing abated a bit...enough to allow him to draw full breaths again.
"That....might be....for the best."
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