Well. I am still writing to you! That is a good sign, isn't it? My gamble with the spider did not go too badly.
I have learned a lot. My mother has sorely lost favor with the Goddess. She is pretending to still have her divine spells. She does not! I overheard her conspiring with a mage to get more spells, scrolls, anything, to protect her and carry on the charade.
By the Goddess. I still am not clear what my Matron did to earn such a fate. I would say it could be a test, but I heard the sound in her voice. The fear. No, she knew it was more than a test. I have kept the spider in place but I have a long wait in between times I am able to activate it.
I think Nedxena has lied. She claimed that only I would be able to listen once I activated it, but I suspect the girl has been able to listen in as well. Her attitude lately has been different towards me. It's.. she is as confused as I. She cannot tell the Matron, Dab'raxae would not bear to have even Nedxena know.
Am I ready for what I can see must happen? Lolth. If this is my test, I am willing to meet it.
-Akorbaste
