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 Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 5:42 pm
So-chan 15 DrasBrisingr So-chan 15 look, i know how ya are with the bad days a lot more than others. i have them too. but just because you or someone else has a bad day, doesn't mean that you should take it out on others. i try really hard to not take what most people say to heart, and i probibly should, but i wont because what it will do to me. or US. all of us. we all have bad days, and BE THE f**k NICE TO LOBO. he doesnt need any thing thanks. look, i dont care or give a f**k if you hate me for saying this, but its true. you are kinda mean, or hell, kinda really mean, and i understand. but you shouldn't be blaming LoBo, or anyone else for whats been going on. it JUST happend. i know, i was gone for a long time too. doesnt mean i want to b***h at people because its like this, that just means the Guild members arnt really respectfull. anyway, lets try to pull through with all of this, and see where it goes. ~So-chan 15 stare Please, show me an instance where I have been completely and ruthlessly mean to LoBo. While I may have said things that were bitchy, I said them in a nice way. Lots of pleases and thank yous, I believe. I like LoBo. We're friends. Or, we were. He doesn't seem too fond of me now after I asked him nicely to stop spamming the forum and he completely overreacted. true, you are kinda bitchy, and i never remeber LoBo saying anything about you or in the like. but really, it seems to be that you and lots of the others gang up on him alot. yes, he is my friend. one of my BEST friends. and i hate it when people b***h at him. honestly, i'll take ALL the hits for him. bring them on poeple. and hey, he MAY have over reacted, but you dont know whats going on in his life. you HONESTLY. DONT. KNOW. i mean, that day or w/e he could have just lost his best friend. you NEVER know. just saying. Well ********, for that matter, you don't know what's going on in my life, either. I could have just lost my best friend. I could tell you, but I won't. Because frankly, it's none of your business. And besides, I thought you said it doesn't matter if you're having a bad day, and that you should try to be nice to people no matter what. What spares LoBo from this rule? The fact that he's your friend? That you have a bit more empathy for him? Well ********, what about the rest of us humble citizens?
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 5:50 pm
LoBo_23 Why did I snap at Dras? Because she snapped at me long ago for not understanding my "Evil Plan #3", probably still doesn't. I doubt anyone does, that's why they gang up on me, if they gang up on me. And I am still hurt. Not all "Emo" hurt, but like... If you punch me in the arm, I go "what the s**t!?" and kick you. So I snapped 'cause of that, and because I felt she was trying to say that my posts are nothing more than toys, when they were tools of my own quest for knowledge. And I made the Maprialc as a tool for quests of knowledge. Maybe it just changed since I left... Refresh my memory, which one was "Evil Plan #3" again? I don't really remember snapping at you for not understanding something. But, then again, it has been February since I last talked to you.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 7:00 pm
oi, LoBo....yeah, thats a pretty....kinda stressfull life. truth is i dont beilve in god. prolly why people "hate" me. and look, Mr jolly ol' WHATS HIS FACE. be nice. i personaly dont have anything agenst you. honestly. but like LoBo said, some people just have depressing lives, and hearing that some of your old freinds you thought you could trust really HURTS. if its never happend to you, either you dont have good friends, OR! your freinds are so dman loyel that they WONT hurt you. Lobo, Call me sometime ok? or, wait...i'll call ya.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 7:03 pm
DrasBrisingr So-chan 15 DrasBrisingr So-chan 15 look, i know how ya are with the bad days a lot more than others. i have them too. but just because you or someone else has a bad day, doesn't mean that you should take it out on others. i try really hard to not take what most people say to heart, and i probibly should, but i wont because what it will do to me. or US. all of us. we all have bad days, and BE THE f**k NICE TO LOBO. he doesnt need any thing thanks. look, i dont care or give a f**k if you hate me for saying this, but its true. you are kinda mean, or hell, kinda really mean, and i understand. but you shouldn't be blaming LoBo, or anyone else for whats been going on. it JUST happend. i know, i was gone for a long time too. doesnt mean i want to b***h at people because its like this, that just means the Guild members arnt really respectfull. anyway, lets try to pull through with all of this, and see where it goes. ~So-chan 15 stare Please, show me an instance where I have been completely and ruthlessly mean to LoBo. While I may have said things that were bitchy, I said them in a nice way. Lots of pleases and thank yous, I believe. I like LoBo. We're friends. Or, we were. He doesn't seem too fond of me now after I asked him nicely to stop spamming the forum and he completely overreacted. true, you are kinda bitchy, and i never remeber LoBo saying anything about you or in the like. but really, it seems to be that you and lots of the others gang up on him alot. yes, he is my friend. one of my BEST friends. and i hate it when people b***h at him. honestly, i'll take ALL the hits for him. bring them on poeple. and hey, he MAY have over reacted, but you dont know whats going on in his life. you HONESTLY. DONT. KNOW. i mean, that day or w/e he could have just lost his best friend. you NEVER know. just saying. Well ********, for that matter, you don't know what's going on in my life, either. I could have just lost my best friend. I could tell you, but I won't. Because frankly, it's none of your business. And besides, I thought you said it doesn't matter if you're having a bad day, and that you should try to be nice to people no matter what. What spares LoBo from this rule? The fact that he's your friend? That you have a bit more empathy for him? Well ********, what about the rest of us humble citizens? well, guess what. ITS BECOUSE I CARE. i actualy GIVE A ******** ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE GO THROUGH. Humble? hardly. look, not trying to be mean, andyou could kill me if you want to, GO RIGHT AHEAD. but honestly, i'm not saying that it spares him from it, i'm saying that you should understand what's going on in other's lives, and think of them FIRST. you first is just Selfish and fuking stupid. god.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 8:18 pm
So-chan 15 well, guess what. ITS BECOUSE I CARE. i actualy GIVE A ******** ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE GO THROUGH. Humble? hardly. look, not trying to be mean, andyou could kill me if you want to, GO RIGHT AHEAD. but honestly, i'm not saying that it spares him from it, i'm saying that you should understand what's going on in other's lives, and think of them FIRST. you first is just Selfish and fuking stupid. god. Why the hell would I want to kill you? What reason have I for killing you? Give me a reason, then we'll talk about the killing thing. And please, don't be so dramatic. If you care about LoBo, why can't you care about me, too? I'll give you a reason to pity me if that's what you need. I have a shitload of health problems. Legitimate health problems. In fact, at this very moment, I have both a migraine and acid reflux. My migraine is fading, but my reflux isn't. Aside from these, I have heart problems, I pass out when I stand up, I have asthma, allergies, IBS, chronic gastritis, insomnia, clinical depression, and generalized anxiety. Yet because of these last two, no doctor will ever take me seriously. So the fact that my heart rate can get up to 200 beats per minute (from a normal 60-70) is all my fault and I just need to grin and bear it. Same thing when I stand up and pass out, except half the time I'm just faking it. My stomach problems are my fault, too. I stress myself out too much, causing all of these problems. There is no underlying medical condition at all, according to my primary care physician and cardiologist. There, better? Now you can pity me, too.
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 12:34 pm
i'm sorry for your troubles. all of them in one really really REALLY must suck. and i do pity you weither you want it or not. i have depression too. but i dont want pity. i'm just looking to help others. i'm sorry if i've been a b***h too. honestly though, they HAVE to take your word on that stuff. ever try getting someone in your family to take you and tell the truth? *not that your lying or nothing* but to get the doc to understand? oi. stare damn that totaly sucks. is there anything i can do to help?
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 2:23 pm
Has anybody noticed how ridiculously hypocritical this thread is XD!!!
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 4:22 pm
cheerios18 Has anybody noticed how ridiculously hypocritical this thread is XD!!! I have. I don't find it as hilarious as you do though.
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 5:10 pm
So-chan 15 i'm sorry for your troubles. all of them in one really really REALLY must suck. and i do pity you weither you want it or not. i have depression too. but i dont want pity. i'm just looking to help others. i'm sorry if i've been a b***h too. honestly though, they HAVE to take your word on that stuff. ever try getting someone in your family to take you and tell the truth? *not that your lying or nothing* but to get the doc to understand? oi. stare damn that totaly sucks. is there anything i can do to help? The sad thing is, I think you're sincere. I kind of liked you hating me better. And yes, the hypocrisy of all of this has caught my attention as well. However, it was to be expected. And, it seems to be mostly, if not completely, contained here. Which was another reason I made the thread. I'm considering creating a "bitching, ranting, and griping" thread for this sort of thing.
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 6:05 pm
Dude, dras, do you seriously have the heart thing? Because I had something similar - well, technically, I still do, but only when I don't hydrate enough or sleep enough. But there was this one time during finals week in college when I had a resting bpm of 180+ for three days straight, and I had to have a friend help me walk to classes. Used to have a ******** of migraines too. Some classic, some just nasty mofo headaches of dewm. The final straw was the chronic yeast infections that caused enough inflammation to require surgery and a serious lecture about either finding the cause or never having babies.
To combat these problems, I:
1) Went to a cardiologist who said I have aortic valve prolapse but it isn't life-threatening so just get used to it. (Yeah, same to your mom, shitbag)
2) Had my mom send me to an acupuncturist.
3) Endured the unspeakable evil of the Allergen Elimination Diet while having to eat at the dining hall (typical resulting dinner: salad greens with table salt) - which pointed out that I get a two-week yeast infection every time I consume dairy products. If you haven't checked out possible dietary issues for your list of possibly-not-just-an-example conditions, I recommend reading Hidden Food Allergies, I forget the author, but there are also a few plans for ruling out allergens in the back of the book. He's an MD, I remember that much. I'll look it up.
4) Stopped going to acupuncture
5) Noticed my heart problems were coming back
6) Found a new acupuncturist who *wasn't* an ex-Army nurse during 'Nam (with the expected resulting bedside manner)
7) Finally decided to drink the amount of water she kept telling me I needed
cool Stopped having heart problems and migraines, and only got yeast infections when well-meaning people assumed I was dieting, not allergic, and decided to sneak in a "treat" for me
9) Heard my ER-physician teacher for Clinical Pathology in my acupuncture school say that, anytime he sees a patient come in with tachycardia, he *assumes* it's chronic dehydration and 90% of the time it is, and gets better with a fluid drip
From this, you can glean that my well-meaning advice, for which patients pay me $75/hour is: drink more water and read the book I mentioned to see if it sounds like you.
If it helps at all, I've found that drinking more water and eliminating foods you're sensitive to will at least alleviate all the symptoms you mentioned. Including the depression and anxiety - one symptom of chronic low-level dehydration is panic attacks.
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Why no, this doesn't have anything to do with the thread. But, y'know, where else in this forum does anyone b***h about health problems?
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Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 7:31 pm
Yvaine Dude, dras, do you seriously have the heart thing? Because I had something similar - well, technically, I still do, but only when I don't hydrate enough or sleep enough. But there was this one time during finals week in college when I had a resting bpm of 180+ for three days straight, and I had to have a friend help me walk to classes. Used to have a ******** of migraines too. Some classic, some just nasty mofo headaches of dewm. The final straw was the chronic yeast infections that caused enough inflammation to require surgery and a serious lecture about either finding the cause or never having babies. To combat these problems, I: 1) Went to a cardiologist who said I have aortic valve prolapse but it isn't life-threatening so just get used to it. (Yeah, same to your mom, shitbag) 2) Had my mom send me to an acupuncturist. 3) Endured the unspeakable evil of the Allergen Elimination Diet while having to eat at the dining hall (typical resulting dinner: salad greens with table salt) - which pointed out that I get a two-week yeast infection every time I consume dairy products. If you haven't checked out possible dietary issues for your list of possibly-not-just-an-example conditions, I recommend reading Hidden Food Allergies, I forget the author, but there are also a few plans for ruling out allergens in the back of the book. He's an MD, I remember that much. I'll look it up. 4) Stopped going to acupuncture 5) Noticed my heart problems were coming back 6) Found a new acupuncturist who *wasn't* an ex-Army nurse during 'Nam (with the expected resulting bedside manner) 7) Finally decided to drink the amount of water she kept telling me I needed cool Stopped having heart problems and migraines, and only got yeast infections when well-meaning people assumed I was dieting, not allergic, and decided to sneak in a "treat" for me 9) Heard my ER-physician teacher for Clinical Pathology in my acupuncture school say that, anytime he sees a patient come in with tachycardia, he *assumes* it's chronic dehydration and 90% of the time it is, and gets better with a fluid drip From this, you can glean that my well-meaning advice, for which patients pay me $75/hour is: drink more water and read the book I mentioned to see if it sounds like you. If it helps at all, I've found that drinking more water and eliminating foods you're sensitive to will at least alleviate all the symptoms you mentioned. Including the depression and anxiety - one symptom of chronic low-level dehydration is panic attacks. ====================== Why no, this doesn't have anything to do with the thread. But, y'know, where else in this forum does anyone b***h about health problems? Yeah, I really do have that s**t. The highest I recorded on my bp monitor was 161, but I swear once it was over 200. It's strange, though. Even though my heart is about to jump out of my chest, my bp never gets above 120s/80s. My PCP says I've probably got hypovolemia, since my blood component levels are low compared to the population, but not in proportion to each other. I've had EKGs, echocardiograms, holter monitors, 30-day monitors, and all kinds of s**t. Everything looks normal. I also have orthostatic issues, and while I'm having an episode of tachycardia I can't regulate my body temperature (got heat stroke once while I was at the beach and had an episode), makes me think it's a problem with my autonomic nervous system (regulates involuntary bodily functions). I drink a shitton of water and Gatorade and eat a shitton of salt to try to raise my fluid volume, but nothing seems to help. I'm going to try a rigorous regimen of exercise after I get over this goddamn bout of mono. I'll look into the book, but I've been allergy tested for everything under the sun. No reaction. I haven't been able to find a pattern in anything I eat, either. I keep a detailed log of everything I eat, what I do, how much sleep I get, how I'm feeling emotionally, and how I'm feeling physically. No linkage. Nice to hear of someone who has similar problems, but I wish you didn't. I hate the feeling I get when I'm having an episode. It's almost as bad as waking up after fainting.
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Posted: Wed Oct 01, 2008 5:28 pm
you WANT me to hate you? what the hell?! you like it when i hate you? you LIKE? it? O.o ok, now i'm scared. would it make you feel better if i called you a FREAK?
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Posted: Wed Oct 01, 2008 6:08 pm
So-chan 15 you WANT me to hate you? what the hell?! you like it when i hate you? you LIKE? it? O.o ok, now i'm scared. would it make you feel better if i called you a FREAK? I didn't say I want you to hate me. I just said I almost like it better. And a least calling me a freak would be something I'm used to. Don't be scared. I can deal with people hating me easier than I can people liking me. It baffles me when people like me. And even more so when they love me.
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Posted: Thu Oct 02, 2008 5:17 am
hhmm.. join the club. in fact, i would end up liking it better if people hated me. it would be easyer to live with.
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Posted: Thu Oct 02, 2008 7:33 pm
the part where you guys were talking about med problems was cool, I study that a little, maybe you guys can help me out a little, k I'm trusting you here so take me seriously. This is hard to say because of the very thing im about to tell you. I have what I believe to be acute paranoia. But I don't have the guts to tell anybody 'cept on the internet of coarse where no one can institutionalize me. And I think I have other things too but I don' know what they are. one time i had an episode and I'd like to know what really happened, here is a journal I wrote the day after it happened...
It happened last night at about two in the morning, I had just watched butterfly effect and all of a sudden I woke up and I honestly believed that I was the main character in the story. I was freaking out about changing the future, I woke up with a fever and shaking. My thoughts where going bazerk, and I thought all the characters where real, I didn't feel like I was being watched anymore I just thought I was in the movie. Anyway I couldn't get back to sleep and time was skipping and I kept getting hotter and hotter, I completely forgot that I was myself, in stead I was the main character in the movie. So at about four I got angry for some reason I and picked up my cat and threw him out of the room, still getting hotter and hotter, I than remembered who I was and where I was. So I tried to keep my perspective as myself but I couldn't. Whenever I closed my eye's there I was in the movie again. So I went down stairs and turned the tv on. finally I got to sleep, but even now at 5 in the evening the next day, I can't get the movie out of my head.
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