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 Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2005 10:15 pm
The Wall
02/12/03
Love has plagued me,
a bitter loneliness love
even though my feelings are met
they can not be received.
As my heart grows fonder
my body grows weary
for one touch,
one kiss,
and one look.
The more I think about my feelings
the more I began to dread them,
for they know how I feel towards them
and they feel the same for me.
It will never be,
for miles of land
and millions of stares separate us.
The temporary joy and happiness I feel
when I hear your voice
and see your words,
fades once we have lost contact.
The thought of your touch once again
brings me butterflies.
To think we were so close
and yet so far away.
Its rather odd how we play these games,
these simple yet stupid mind games.
Its hard knowing that the other cares for you
yet you won’t let anyone in.
In fear of hurt,
humiliation
and severe heart break
that could cost you love
for the rest of your life.
Yet you keep your feelings balled up inside
because you know the wall will remain
remain there for life.
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2005 10:19 pm
[ Message temporarily off-line ]
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 7:22 am
Rose
A rose is a flower
Beauitifull and lush
Comes in many differnt color
Reds, orenges ,whites and yellows
But a rose is only a flower
and with out water it can wilt
For a rose is like love
It either blossems or fades away with the sun
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 10:26 am
My life's a lie
The scribes write in blood my name
They don't care at all
I am nothing
scribes are lost by death
built on tragedy
This while life is fake
I'm lost in this place of sacrifice
Not stopping till my final breath is gone
All these words mean nothing
I'm so ******** I don't even know what's happening anymore
The tone of the pendulum slowly swinging
Edging it's way to my body
These bloody arms are all that's left
Don't try and stop me
I won't listen
I deserved this from the begining
And you and I know
My life meant nothing
The darkness surounds my vision
Your out of reach
Never seeing me again
I don't know how far or how hard
I try and fail
In the end
It doesn't even matter
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 10:58 am
Four white walls.
Four white walls
plain and un-adrictive.
Spots of dirt, where hands once pressed
Bright white paches, where spakle was laid
Four white walls,
a prison of the heart
With one open window,
to let the mind go free.
Four white walls,
that make up a room
with a bed, a dresser and a desk.
Four white walls
how I wish to paint you
So you are no longer a prison for anyone
not heart nor mind.
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2005 11:09 am
Scared and burned
Battered and bruised
O, the tales the body tells
Of dares that dared to be done
Of crashes on pavement, grass and dung.
Broken and twisted
Used and naglated
O, the bitter memorys the heart does remember.
Of love loved and lost
Of death of people near and dear
Tell me friends, what have we done?
To get such torment, such abuse of our selfs
Was it because we dared what others dared not?
Was it because we loved when others could not?
O, the bitter memorys
O, the painfilled bruises
This is how we taste the sweet nector of life
For with out pain and hurt,
Joy is only a illusion
A figment of the mind.
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Daze__Bringer_of_Ragnarok
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2005 5:33 pm
i am alone in this world
i don't belong anywhere
i travel through life and watch others w/ their loved ones
and i wonder why does no one love me
when i ask ppl where is my home they tell me
"home is where the heart is"
but where does my heart reside
my mind is in turmoil and my heart is slowly consumed by darkness
and rage that rests within it
i have no one that loves me nor have i ever had someone that loved me
i never feel as if i belong no matter where i go
i fear that if i don't find acceptance and love soon i will slip into pure
darkness
and if that happens noone will be safe
please help me
please
before i have to end the darkness my self
any way i can
this poem though i wrote it just now expresses everything i have been feeling for sometime now and comes straight from my heart
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2005 6:01 pm
If you can't stand upon the water I will see you on the ocean floor. When you blink do you only find the misery between the lines? Then take my hand and walk with me. Come to me, your sanctuary, I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted. If you feel fine, then give it just a little time I'm sure you'll contract my disease. Look what you've done to me now, you've made me perfect. If you can't stand upon the earth then I will meet you on the other side. When you blink do you only find the misery weighs down your eyes? Then take my hand and sleep with me. Take my hand I'll be everything to you. Take my hand I'll take everything from you. I will seep under your skin. I will. I will hold onto your heart. I will
(used by most loved byless)
rahXephon
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2005 6:22 pm
Here are some songs I've made for my band:
Fond Dementia
Sweet, dementia of mine...
How deeply you sink within my flesh
So powerful, so sensational
I can barely feel your searing touch
I can barely feel your healing touch
I can barely believe you love me...
Ah, sweet dementia of mine...
How you taint my soul...
Turn me wicked toward all I love.
Accept those I hate...
I can't really live without you.
I can't stand to live without you
Come, let me feed off of your corrupt solace...
Sweet, darling dementia of mine...
How the crimson nectar spills from my broken veins
You touched me only once
You must hold me, again...
I must sink into your deadly seize...
Kill me, touch me, thrill me
Thrill me, touch me, kill me
Ease this dismal sobriety
Drag me away into a world of utter diversion
Meet this possessive lust
Flesh to blade
Simple cuts
Blade to flesh
This isn't enough
Tears of hatred pour from internal corridors
Dismembered souls just cry out once again
Spilling from this very heart
Sweet dementia, feed my craze
Sweet dementia, feed my crave
Sweet dementia, don't ever let this be
Consume me,
Fulfill me,
Scar me,
Save me,
Hurt me, please...
And as those manipulative petals glide along
Pools of this nectar and desperate misery shall be their escort
Clattering to the floor is this illiberal one's savior
Now, watch as they sink into obliteration...
Watch as they recoil from their own mania
Desperation compels them
Devours them, now
Like a spiraling stairway, one implodes
Sinking so low, until what little soul they have to savor
Leaves
This one fades into the sickness of their own, sweet insanity
Heed the withdraw of deep, soulful pools
They will finish you, soon.
Turn Around
Turn around, just look away
Face no fears, just face disgrace
Don't even try, don't even care
Driving me ******** insane-
I walk around and see a happy face
I noticed something rather peculiar
How can it be?
It can't be so!-
I saw that face
Just not too long ago
They were sad
They were crying over-
How much they can't stand themselves!-
I don't care about anyone else!
I don't care about what happens to me
Or about what you can see
Just ******** off, don't try to tell me anything!-
It seems we're spiraling down into nothing
And I just can't hold on much longer-
I keep on fighting
I keep on smiling
I keep on trying to make this world work-
All around me
People defy me
Trying to run my life into the dirt-
And for what?-
They're all just giving up!-
I know I've had enough!
Stop crying,
Stop whining,
Stop telling me you are too week to save yourself-
Just ******** off...
Don't try to tell me anything...
Why the ******** should I even sing...?
You're just going to go and cut ******** know I've had enough!
And I refuse to just give up!-
I'll fight your flames
I'll fight your cries
I'll fight your stupid knives!-
You can never drag me down!
You will never shut me up
Because I've had enough
You stupid ******** time to get over your depressed self
It's time to change what's inside of yourself-
Release the pain
Release the chains
Don't you cry about another thing
Or I swear, I will kill you myself!-
... Just ******** off...
Don't try to tell my anything...
Don't try to ******** chain me down...
You'll never change me, now.
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2005 8:35 am
I've got a new poem, everyone, just wrote it. Enjoy.
I Can Cry for Myself
Just for this, one, final moment
Let me feel as though I am complete
Such a helpless wreck, there
Lying on the floor
So pathetic
In this final moment
I can't think properly
And I'm drowning
In my own discrimination
So pathetic
How strong I was just a day ago
Holding my chin up high
The sky shone with my radiating pride
And now it's sunken this low
So pathetic
Spinning within my mind lie the images
Of the last time I've ever been happy
As he held me close and stained my purity with ugly shades of red
The passion so sickening, now, in my core
So pathetic, was I, the day before
Now I struggle to keep myself above the defeat
Not understanding what I have become
Slowly sinking into my own world of discrimination
The only rule is a lack of self esteem
So pathetic, was I, on this day
Dry my veins of the essence of life
And I'll cry, wishing for another day
Flow through my body with the sensual pain
And I'll cry, wishing for it to go away
So pathetic, am I, upon the floor
Cowardice settles in
And I find myself drifting away
Subconscious rides in as the heroic Calvary
But one is selfish, only wishing someone could hold them
So pathetic, I am, and I shall always be
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:25 pm
I find myself..
Thinking of you
The thoughts burn to ashes
Because your lies were true
I find myslef in darkness
I thought you were my light
Your appearance was deceptive
Even thought I despise...
The way you make me smile
And the way you make me bleed
Its too much pain to bare
It's like gumming my own teeth.
You try to fix the wound
But it ends it with more pain.
You left me a tear in my eye
and nothing left to gain
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:27 pm
I find myself..
Thinking of you
The thoughts burn to ashes
Because your lies were true
I find myslef in darkness
I thought you were my light
Your appearance was deceptive
Even thought I despise...
The way you make me smile
And the way you make me bleed
Its too much pain to bare
It's like gumming my own teeth.
You try to fix the wound
But it ends it with more pain.
You left me a tear in my eye
and nothing left to gain
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:42 pm
[ Message temporarily off-line ]
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:45 pm
lol electra did you write that? It's awesome. but it seems commercial!
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Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:47 pm
AoD_Khoai lol electra did you write that? It's awesome. but it seems commercial! commercial?
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