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 Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:25 pm
StarryDynamo TheDyingMessiah StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.ouch... Want another hug?
Aw, yay... more hugs! biggrin
I should start a collection of virtual hugs rofl
xd
OoO, In that case get a Hug counter
Sorry, I have a bad habit of taking things literally
Anyways...This isn't exactly one of my dirty little secrets, but it's something I just found out and I wouldnt tell anyone because it makes me feel like crap
When I first moved here I started hanging out with this girl, and most of the guys from my neighborhood. I don't anymore just because their personality and mines didn't match.
Thing is I found out that my suposedly guy "friends" made a bet to see who could get with me first and get me into bed.
I didn't fall for any of them, but I never expected that from the guys I trusted the most. It really makes me feel like crap to know that that's what I'm worth to guys and that they think I'm that type of person.
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 10:36 pm
CryztalizedTearz StarryDynamo TheDyingMessiah StarryDynamo little_evil_goth
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.ouch... Want another hug?
Aw, yay... more hugs! biggrin
I should start a collection of virtual hugs rofl
xd
OoO, In that case get a Hug counter
Sorry, I have a bad habit of taking things literally
Anyways...This isn't exactly one of my dirty little secrets, but it's something I just found out and I wouldnt tell anyone because it makes me feel like crap
When I first moved here I started hanging out with this girl, and most of the guys from my neighborhood. I don't anymore just because their personality and mines didn't match.
Thing is I found out that my suposedly guy "friends" made a bet to see who could get with me first and get me into bed.
I didn't fall for any of them, but I never expected that from the guys I trusted the most. It really makes me feel like crap to know that that's what I'm worth to guys and that they think I'm that type of person.
Starry; *hugs* put me on that list!
Yadi; i've found alot of guys to be like that. and the more you hang out the more they'd like to get in your pants.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 10:40 pm
another dirty secret; i listen to courtney love! rofl
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Posted: Sun Nov 05, 2006 11:42 am
I listen to Rap, Hip-hop, Pop... all sorts of things that Goths aren't allowed to (good thing I'm way too lazy to actually be a Goth). I heart heart heart Fergie. & I love Cypress Hill, Tech N9ne, Gwen Stefani, The Transplants, Gorillaz, 50 Cent (etc. etc.)
But I'm STILL a Goth music fiend, above all else xp
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Posted: Sun Nov 05, 2006 5:52 pm
little_evil_goth CryztalizedTearz StarryDynamo TheDyingMessiah StarryDynamo little_evil_goth
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.ouch... Want another hug?
Aw, yay... more hugs! biggrin
I should start a collection of virtual hugs rofl
xd
OoO, In that case get a Hug counter
Sorry, I have a bad habit of taking things literally
Anyways...This isn't exactly one of my dirty little secrets, but it's something I just found out and I wouldnt tell anyone because it makes me feel like crap
When I first moved here I started hanging out with this girl, and most of the guys from my neighborhood. I don't anymore just because their personality and mines didn't match.
Thing is I found out that my suposedly guy "friends" made a bet to see who could get with me first and get me into bed.
I didn't fall for any of them, but I never expected that from the guys I trusted the most. It really makes me feel like crap to know that that's what I'm worth to guys and that they think I'm that type of person.
Starry; *hugs* put me on that list!
Yadi; i've found alot of guys to be like that. and the more you hang out the more they'd like to get in your pants.
Yeah but it's okay
I know everyone wants a piece of me
rolleyes
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Posted: Sun Nov 05, 2006 10:15 pm
haha lol is that an offer i hear? wink xd
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Nov 07, 2006 7:56 am
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Posted: Tue Nov 07, 2006 10:32 am
I love Handcuffs, Not the weird fuzzy colored ones, but the accual hard metal ones 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Nov 07, 2006 6:58 pm
Wolf_Demon_Ayla I love Handcuffs, Not the weird fuzzy colored ones, but the accual hard metal ones 3nodding
I do too! xd
also, I'm bisexual, a masochist (I don't cut myself!!!) and I also mlie a lot (I've been tying to cut this down to a minimum.)!
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Posted: Wed Nov 08, 2006 11:46 pm
oh yeah cool
'cuffs are the sex! love em got em cuffed to the bed!
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Nov 09, 2006 1:26 pm
My best friend doesn't know it, but she kept me from killing myself. I had gathered all of the pills in my house and was ready to take them, but she called me, and I made the mistake of answering. She talked to me, and then it seemed to get better.
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Posted: Thu Nov 09, 2006 4:23 pm
Just so you know, dying from overdosing on pills is incredibly rare & incredibly hard. All the pills with which overdose has actually proven to be fatal any notable number of times are strongly regulated by the FDA, if not simply illegal.
There really is no good way to kill yourself. The chances of messing up & ending up still alive & really messed up for the rest of your life are too high with every possible method. So stay alive, please?
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Posted: Thu Nov 09, 2006 4:26 pm
Wolf_Demon_Ayla I love Handcuffs, Not the weird fuzzy colored ones, but the accual hard metal ones 3nodding
I know my avatar might imply otherwise, but I have an intense phobia of my hands being restrained.
I actually consented to being arrested (?! haha) just so the cops would not handcuff me xp
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Posted: Fri Nov 10, 2006 2:38 pm
miturn Wolf_Demon_Ayla I love Handcuffs, Not the weird fuzzy colored ones, but the accual hard metal ones 3nodding
I do too! xd
also, I'm bisexual, a masochist (I don't cut myself!!!) and I also mlie a lot (I've been tying to cut this down to a minimum.)!
Yeah, alot of my friends are bisexual and when they asked me if I was Bi too, and I said no (Because im Straight) they completely was like.. eek
'LE SHOCK!!!!'
And for a while they have been trying to convert me 'cuz I guess one of my girl-friends liked me....ALOT, but it just dossnt work, sweatdrop I just dont have intrests in females, But handcuffs+Dude=RAWR! xp
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Posted: Sat Nov 18, 2006 12:36 pm
I don't think I would ever even consider going out with a girl
Which is a shock to a lot of my friends
Since they swear I'm secretly bi
But I'm not, I just happen to find girls cute
Oh by the way you guys, did you know number 5[the zurg alien] is a masochist?
twisted
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