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 Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:30 pm
Jerry, meanwhile, drunkenly kissing every bit of Gnat accessible finally wobbled to catch his breath as Gnat came up for air for her drink. He barely registered Candace being carted off- it had been a lot longer since his last drink than he remembered, and maybe he had over done it just a weeeee bit...
but all of this honesty being tossed around, his mouth twisted and contorted as the emotions sloshed around in his abused brain and he finally hung off of her with a desperate whisper, "Jusssst so you... so you know you ssssshoudl know cause... cause i wanna be... wanna be honesht okay, I'm a re-re-re-recovering alcho... alcoholic." It was important to build relationships on honesty.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:32 pm
Gnat just patted his cheek again, a little sadly this time.
"You ain't seem to 've recovered much," she responded.
"Want 'nother?" Whatever she had been chugging had left her feeling disconnected and pleasantly warm.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:43 pm
"Yeah, ok," Jerry said, and then suddenly swooned, heavily, against her.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:45 pm
Gnat sighed, and looked down at the hunter whose face was suddenly awfully close to her chest region -
And she just kind of let it happen.
"Mmm-hmmm." She murmured, and kind of scritched at his hair absently. This party was weird.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:47 pm
Rin looked thoughtful as Melvin approached and then suddenly she frowned, it wasn't a question that would be easy to answer truthfully. One, because a lot of ifs were involved. Rin honestly couldn't answer a scenario that didn't actually exist. Two, when she went past that and attempted to consider if the scenario did exist, how would she feel about it - again a lot of non existent variables were involved. And finally three, Rep was now asking too in a different way.
Rin still tried.
Rin looked back at Melvin with an apologetic half-smile, "I like you both for different reasons. He did things I like in bed, but he also scared me and wanted to control me..." She paused to look at Rep, "Possess me in ways I didn't enjoy. It was like being made only to live or exist for him. That isn't me. I'm more than a toy to be left on a shelf when not being played with." Then her gaze fell back on Melvin, "But you don't really make me feel desired at all. You don't control me like that, but you also don't seem to want anything of me or who I am or what I like. You only don't know things because you aren't asking me the right questions or listening for the unspoken answers."
Rin suddenly stopped and drew a deep breath, "Instead of asking me a bunch of bullshit what ifs, maybe you should be asking what I feel about the reality, I guess." Rin's attention slid back to Rep, "Right now? Him. He doesn't want to destroy me for not being perfect. I'm human Rep, I'm incapable of perfection."
Rin could really use that bottle of booze Gnat and held out a hand hoping to take what was left.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:49 pm
Gnat passed the bottle.
Wasn't like she was going anywhere.
She hoped this guy didn't drool.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:52 pm
Rin gave Gnat an apologetic look, if memory served at all - Jerry was a drooler.
She nursed the remaining liquid in the bottle. Here's to exactly zero Melvin interest for the rest of the month; communal booze after all.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:55 pm
Rep listened to Rin's reply with every single inch of his sozzled brain. In the moment he was in the pleasant buzz of alcohol, but part of him told him he'd be regretting a lot of things later. He scared her. That was right though? It was power. And the control..well, he controlled all the things he cared about. He wanted them close so he could never leave them, and to do what he knew was best for them. He gave her a baffled look.
As she finally confirmed that yes, Melvin was the favourite, his expression shifted even colder - her reasons didn't matter to him, she'd abandoned him and forfeited what she meant to him. The way Rep saw it was you didn't leave the mafia and live. You didn't leave him and live either.
"You're no human." he drawled. "You are a woman."
He slumped against Harrison.
"Anna perfeckt example of one."
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 6:55 pm
Melvin stared at her, stung by stating he wasn't exactly fulfilling her need in bed compared to another guy who was not gay and had two guys hanging on him. It greatly hurt his pride, what little he had.
"What unspoken answers? I don't know what you are talking about. If that's a question you want me to ask, then - What do you feel about the reality of this relationship?"
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:15 pm
Rin frowned over at Rep, "I'm more human than you will ever understand dear William. You just don't want to see it because it's hard for you to." She sighed and shook her head. "You ARE my best friend. My first and best. I love you for that. But with you, it's never enough for you."
She looked back to Melvin, "There are many Melvin and you will not get answers straight through a truth ring, I am referring to questions that self answer by simply being. The other though? I felt really good about it until you said you did not trust me and because you didn't know me. That hurts. I trusted you; you know where I came from, you know my hobbies, you know my dreams - old and new, I tried telling what I like... but it's not your thing, so we don't. We do your thing and that's okay too. I like being with you. I just don't know what you want from me; if it's just that you're bored and will take and take then leave once you are satisfied."
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:25 pm
Melvin glanced at the onlookers and then at Rin. "Can we talk somewhere more private?"
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:26 pm
"Easy question; yes." She looked hesitantly back at the party, "With the ring on?"
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:32 pm
"I never forced you to put it on. If you think you'll answer better that way, it's up to you." He wasn't sure if he wanted her to keep the ring on, but he did like the truth. "I'm not saying you're a liar, just..." He liked when others wore it.
He moved, picking up the cleaned, closed bottle he had set aside when putting the ring on before, and walked to a quiet corner of the room. When Rin came over, he turned to her. "I'm not bored of you. I just want to know what you want out of me? Out of this relationship you want with me." She was the one that started all this and said she wanted to be with him. He was just giving her that so she wouldn't leave.
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:40 pm
"I want you to believe what I say without a damn magic ring on my finger," Rin held up her hand and pointed to it. "Because I don't need it to be honest with you. I just want you to believe me, to trust me at least a little even if it is a false trust based solely on the factor of choice being removed."
Rin heaved a sigh, "I guess part of me wants to know why you agreed to this arrangement. How DO you feel about me?"
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Posted: Mon May 20, 2013 7:49 pm
With all the truths filling the room, he didn't feel he could salvage much of anything. He decided to keep going. "You left when I said no. I said Yes because I didn't want you to leave."
Are you lonely? The question from Jordan stung now.
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