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 Posted: Sun May 02, 2010 9:06 pm
I wish I could stop trying to make him feel guilty. I don't even know if I still like him!
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Posted: Mon May 03, 2010 2:08 pm
I know I said I wasn't expecting him to like me, but I'm so happy that he gave me his number.
It's a good thing, right?
I think so. <3
I'm going to call him in an hour!
Oh jesus, I couldn't be more thrilled.
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Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 10:13 pm
I'm disappointed in myself when I eat.
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Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 10:16 pm
I know I'm making wrong choices with my money, and I know God is telling me and trying to teach me how to make right choices...
but the things I spend it on are so addicting. (not drugs, I'm allergic, swear. sweatdrop )
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Posted: Fri May 21, 2010 1:24 pm
I have a very long list of things..
-I lost my virginity to someone I wasn't even in a relationship with. Every time I see him, I could drop to my knees and cry, or go at his throat.
-I only make jokes and try to be funny so everyone will look past the fact that I'm hideous.
-If I didn't have my best friend Haley, I don't know where I would be right now.
-I miss an ex boyfriend's friendship.
-My best friend moved away, and what kills me the most is that I wasn't there to say goodbye, and that I had the biggest crush on him for 5 years.
-I'm scared to walk past the kitchen hallway, in fear something will "get me".
-I'm scared to sleep in my room, so every day, I go to sleep on the downstairs couch, set my alarm for 5:55, five minutes before mum goes to work, and when the sun rises, and then sleep upstairs, so mum wont get mad at me for sleeping on the couch.
-My boyfriend constantly downs me, calls me a b***h, and says I sleep with a million different guys, when in reality, I've only had sex with him and one other person. I want to leave the relationship, but I'm scared that he'll kill himself.
-I feel like I can never win.
-I hate pictures of myself.
-I try my hardest to be a certain way, but I always end up the other.
that's about all I can think of that are really itching me.
-Angel Monster
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Posted: Fri May 21, 2010 9:24 pm
Thanks for leaving me when I needed you the most.
I'm never asking you for help again.
You have lost all of my trust.
And,
I regret going out with you.
I'm sorry.
But you weren't worth my first date, or real kiss.
Not if you are going to treat me like this.
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Posted: Fri May 21, 2010 9:37 pm
My husband suggested that I try to be with a girl at least once in my life because I have been attracted to them before, but I was always too nervous to do as he suggested. One of my friends, a female, asked me if I would like her to show me how it is with women. I thought about it and finally agreed. Now I feel like I'm cheating on my husband even though it was his idea and he approved.
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Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 6:59 am
-I hate the relationship I'm in, and I want someone who will treat me right and better, but that mission is yet to be accomplished.
-When I'm upset, I sit on the floor of my room, listening to "Angel Monster" by Buckethead on repeat, talking to myself about how I do things wrong.
-When people call me names and stuff, I don't even think to cry about it anymore. I feel like I've become so emotionally cold that I can't even find the tears to cry about it.
-When I wake up from a dream, I always look online to a dream dictionary, just to see what my self conscious is saying to me.
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Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 2:33 pm
The Angel Monster -I hate the relationship I'm in, and I want someone who will treat me right and better, but that mission is yet to be accomplished.
-When I'm upset, I sit on the floor of my room, listening to "Angel Monster" by Buckethead on repeat, talking to myself about how I do things wrong.
-When people call me names and stuff, I don't even think to cry about it anymore. I feel like I've become so emotionally cold that I can't even find the tears to cry about it.
-When I wake up from a dream, I always look online to a dream dictionary, just to see what my self conscious is saying to me. You seem to be a bit like me. It makes me feel better to know that I'm not alone and I love how I'm not the only one who looks up what my dreams mean. I have a hard time remembering them sometimes, so I write them down as quickly as I can and then run for my laptop. You just seem like a really special person and I'm actually jealous that I don't know you in real life <3
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Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 2:58 pm
Okay here we go I have more. xD
1. I would marry my ex if he asked me.
2. I have been talking to him for the last month.
3. I was secretly engaged for 5 months and only 3 of my girlfriends and people on gaia knew.
4. I met the love of my life here on gaia,
5. I am going to date my ex again and no body knows it because they all hate him (he broke my heart) and I just can't tell them.
6. I want to live up to my grandparents standards, so I have signed up for 20 credits next semester.I told my mom I would drop a class, but I don't plan to.
7. I would move to minnesota for a boy if I wasn't going to college here in Michigan.
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Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 3:56 pm
I'm afraid I'm taking this too well. I'm expecting to wake up one morning in tears at the realization of all this nonsense.
This is not going to end well and I can say without hyperbole that there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.
I'm not looking forward to getting regular bloodwork, but thank God I bet my trypanophobia or I'd be hysterical.
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Posted: Sat May 22, 2010 11:23 pm
When I was a kid, I REALLY wanted these Christmas Tree toys that my neighbor had. So I stole them and then confessed to my mom that I had done it. So I took them all back, said sorry and prayed to God that I was sorry I stole in the first place...Man did I have a conscience.
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Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 12:10 pm
⋙ ❤ Cαℓℓ мє CҺαρρy ❤ ⋘
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● I am in a relationship but find myself thinking a lot about someone else, and flirting shamelessly with him. ●
ღ ღ ღ XXXXXXXXXXXXXX ღ ღ ღ XXXXXXXXXXXXXXღ ღ ღ
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Posted: Sun May 23, 2010 12:13 pm
I never eat breakfast on weekdays i know i know its bad
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Posted: Tue May 25, 2010 9:58 pm
I lost my virginity to a man i didnt love and was afraid to leave, and who was 11 years older than me
my grandfather used to touch me when i was younger, now im always cautious around him in what i wear and do because i know he sees me or at least saw me in a way he shouldnt see me
My boyfriend now is moving to denver, and I want to move with him, even if it means leaving my family, and giving up school.
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