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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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 Posted: Tue Oct 31, 2006 10:47 pm
Yoshino_Heike little_evil_goth Yoshino_Heike little_evil_goth Drazien Yeah arent I awesome *flexes and poses* I talk to girls like it is nothing online but in real life Im actully somewhat scared of them. Yes if it's me or you he should be scared...
good point..... ((but he doesn't know that!))
((Tis' True... twisted twisted twisted ))
*evil nod*
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Posted: Tue Oct 31, 2006 10:50 pm
StarryDynamo Ecck, was that "wow" at me? 'Cause I could have kept going xd
feel free to.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Nov 01, 2006 5:49 am
Oh my... I dunno where to start...
well, I like the taste of blood
I cut (only my ex and my current gf knows about that)
I have lots of emotional stress/angst I never tell anyone about
I'm angsty in social situations
I'm lying very often out of panic
I often hit myself when I do something stupid (not in public)
I cry myself to sleep some nights because life suck
My mum seems to think I need a psychiatrist and/or that I'm doing drugs (no, not because I'm goth, but because of other things... she might be right about the psychiatrist, but I can't tell about what bothers me to people when I'm face to face with them, so I'm never going to one)
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Posted: Wed Nov 01, 2006 11:58 am
my boyfriend broke up with me yesterday.... i still love him and he still loves me, but his mother is psycho. we're in college, but she's still controlling/manipulating him. she hates me and i don't know why. i lie... a lot. i don't like people to know how i feel. i'll always tell someone that i'm okay, even when i'm not. i've alienated all of my friends. i keep myself distant from everyone except my (ex)boyfriend... i'm still in denial about our breaking up and i know it.... i get obsessive about things/people. my humor offends a lot of people. i hang out with the goth kids at my college, but i think most of them are posers. i have no idea what i want to do with my life. my parents have disowned me and thrown me out of my house. i live with my grandparents who i dont' get along with at all. i have to pretend to be Christian even though i'm Agnostic around them or they would throw me out too. i've been depressed since junior high and cutting since 9th grade and even my family doesn't know... or possibly, they just don't care... i've been in and out of counceling for years. attempted suicide on more than one occasion... (note: ODing on asprin and pain killers = really bad stomach ache, not death). more than anything in the world, i want someone to love me and somewhere to call home. i guess that's enough for one post
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Posted: Wed Nov 01, 2006 3:10 pm
randomosity333 my boyfriend broke up with me yesterday.... i still love him and he still loves me, but his mother is psycho. we're in college, but she's still controlling/manipulating him. she hates me and i don't know why. i lie... a lot. i don't like people to know how i feel. i'll always tell someone that i'm okay, even when i'm not. i've alienated all of my friends. i keep myself distant from everyone except my (ex)boyfriend... i'm still in denial about our breaking up and i know it.... i get obsessive about things/people. my humor offends a lot of people. i hang out with the goth kids at my college, but i think most of them are posers. i have no idea what i want to do with my life. my parents have disowned me and thrown me out of my house. i live with my grandparents who i dont' get along with at all. i have to pretend to be Christian even though i'm Agnostic around them or they would throw me out too. i've been depressed since junior high and cutting since 9th grade and even my family doesn't know... or possibly, they just don't care... i've been in and out of counceling for years. attempted suicide on more than one occasion... (note: ODing on asprin and pain killers = really bad stomach ache, not death). more than anything in the world, i want someone to love me and somewhere to call home. i guess that's enough for one post
Aww, I'm sorry about you & your boyfriend cry
Wow, you remind me a lot of... well, me. Things we have in common:
-- My boyfriend's mother is a psycho & still [at least attempts to, often successfully] control/manipulate him even though he'll be 20 in February; & she hates me & I don't know why.
-- "i lie... a lot"
-- "i don't like people to know how i feel."
-- "i've alienated all of my friends. i keep myself distant from everyone except my (ex)boyfriend"
-- "i get obsessive about things/people"
-- "i have no idea what i want to do with my life"
-- "attempted suicide on more than one occasion... (note: ODing on asprin and pain killers = really bad stomach ache, not death)." With me it was Tylenol. Note: ODing on Tylenol makes you act like you're on crystal meth, makes you hallucinate like crazy & have very little clue as to what's going on, damages your liver, earns you a pleasent glass of Charcol (or a tube down your throat, if you'd prefer) & four-or-so day stay in the ER hooked up to a shitload of wires & crazy hospital stuff during which you're unable to get out of bed & are forced to drink a huge glass of the nastiest tasting stuff EVERY every four hours (yes, even in the am & all) to help your liver which you've ******** up.
-- "more than anything in the world, i want someone to love me and somewhere to call home." (that's second in line for me; first is wanting to love myself.)
... A bit eery, isn't it?
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Posted: Wed Nov 01, 2006 3:24 pm
little_evil_goth StarryDynamo Ecck, was that "wow" at me? 'Cause I could have kept going xd
feel free to.
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
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Posted: Thu Nov 02, 2006 3:36 pm
Wowzerz...compared to that I have no real secrets
Well...let's see...I say I don't like it, but I actually love spanish reggeaton[or however you spell it].
What can you expect? I am hispanic after all
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Posted: Thu Nov 02, 2006 11:03 pm
StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo Ecck, was that "wow" at me? 'Cause I could have kept going xd
feel free to.
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Nov 02, 2006 11:05 pm
CryztalizedTearz Wowzerz...compared to that I have no real secrets
Well...let's see...I say I don't like it, but I actually love spanish reggeaton[or however you spell it].
What can you expect? I am hispanic after all
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Posted: Fri Nov 03, 2006 7:36 am
little_evil_goth CryztalizedTearz Wowzerz...compared to that I have no real secrets
Well...let's see...I say I don't like it, but I actually love spanish reggeaton[or however you spell it].
What can you expect? I am hispanic after all Font or concept?
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Posted: Fri Nov 03, 2006 2:15 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 11:30 am
little_evil_goth StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo Ecck, was that "wow" at me? 'Cause I could have kept going xd
feel free to.
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 11:34 am
StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo Ecck, was that "wow" at me? 'Cause I could have kept going xd
feel free to.
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.ouch... Want another hug?
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 11:35 am
Be proud to be gay man! I know lots of gay people who are. I'm proud to be bi as well!
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 2:13 pm
TheDyingMessiah StarryDynamo little_evil_goth StarryDynamo
Alright, here goes...
-- I was addicted to Heroin when I was 13 years old
-- I was addicted to Crystal Meth when I was 15; went to rehab for it (WORST experience of my life) for about 4-6 weeks; turned 16 in rehab; had no desire to actually quit meth until I was about to be realised from rehab & was using the payphone to make a call to arrange to get drugs ASAP when I got out; have had some minor relapses since (by "minor" I mean "less severe")
-- I've slept with someone exactly twice my age
-- I have a tendency towards violence, as do both of my parents.
-- I don't feel much of anything at all towards my boyfriend anymore, even though he still loves me. I treat him like s**t, & don't really care; it pleases me in a way to see him miserable.
-- My ex-boyfriend was a ***** (I was 14 & 15, & he was only one year older than me).
-- I was raped shortly after I turned 13. I'm almost certain that all the misery & confusion about everything that I experienced during the months following is what lead me to the Goth subculture.
*hugs* free hugs are inspiring. then oprah stole it from us! but thats another subject
did it at least feel better to get it out?
Whoohoo, hugs! biggrin
&, yes, I definitely felt a sense of... "relief", I suppose... to just type all that stuff out in one place completely frankly & to-the-point. Because none of those words would EVER be able to come out of my mouth in person. Even if I tried, I just... wouldn't be able to.ouch... Want another hug?
Aw, yay... more hugs! biggrin
I should start a collection of virtual hugs rofl
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