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Releena thought about some of her favorite songs and decided on one that she hadn't heard in awhile. "Well, I do you know how to play Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus?" She asked remembering how much she loved that song.

"Your Guardian Angel huh let me see." TK said as he sat down and start playing. Trying his best to sing but never getting it on key.



"Was that the right one?" TK asked once he finished.

Nich laughed as she splashed him and tried to act normal about the situation. This was intesely difficult considering he was fighting a raging heartbeat, a blood stream full of more testosternone than any man should have and a particular part of his body that was incredibly difficult to control.

He attempted to act natural even though his XYY had strated to kick in. He waded closer to her and around behind her slowly.

"See now thats just the kind of thing that you expect me to want to hear. I am however not naive enough for that dear emily. Although, i could definately say the same about you, in fact moreso."

His voice was like silk, he was successfully keeping his cool. It was tough considering the capillaries in his eyes were beginning to swell, and his peripheral vison had become blurry and pulsed with his heartbeat.

He closed his eyes and laughed a little before adding...

"You know i think i especially appreciated your skivvies, you saw mine this morning and i thought that hardly fair until a moment ago."

He pushed off her shoulder playfully and dissappeared underwater. Forcing himself not to look back at her figure beneth the water he swam behind the waterfall to a small alcove that had been carved out of the rock over many years.

He remembered then that he hadnt wanted to physically touch her, but now he'd done it. He wasnt sure how she was reacting to it. He stared at the wall of white rushing water he couldnt quite see past, and didnt know how to act. He decided it was best to just hide back here for a moment. If she didnt come after him in the next thirty seconds he would have to apologize.

Thinking all this helped him to ignore the incredible sinking feeling he had in his stomach. he was afraid he had just ruined the best thing to happen to him and a long time.

Perhaps it was the adrenaline, or perhaps it was that he really liked this girl and he couldnt stand the thought of having her hurt, especially by him. Perhaps it was that he was afraid she wouldnt want to be around him anymore, but he knew he had to try and talk to her.

He swam through the water fall and stood in front of her, simply and plainly. His hands weres till shaking, but it may now have been out of fear more than anything for he was afraid. The thought entertained him for a moment. @ days ago he had been ready to get alchohol poisoning and die, now he just didnt want to hurt someone's feelings and he was shaking.

"Emily listen, im sorry but this is foolish. What do i have to do so that you arent afraid of me? I mean, I would never dream of hurting you on purpose and doing by accident like this is the worst thing ever, i wont even make a move on you if youd rather i didnt but for god sakes dont be afraid of me. In fact you can be the opposite if you want, just take a minute to trust me and i promise to not let you down."

He looked away because he could feel water welling up in his eyes. He knew it was the hormones making him feel like an emotional wreck, but he couldnt help but feel completely desimated that his girl was afraid of his touch.

He thought back to that morning when he had been the one drawing away from her and sighed a little. He was glad he knew about her apin, but he would give anything to go back to that moment and live it differently.

Nich felt her touch his arm and it did comfort him to know that she would do that to herself for him. His mind was gorwing hot, that meant he was almost out of hormone and his body was trying to keep his energy up but it was now flooding his blood with endorphins which did nothing but make him even more emotional.

Then she bagan to cry. Her tears fell to the water's surface and left small sad ripples. He wanted her to stop, not to make himself feel better even though he felt like his heart was being drawn and quartered, but to appease her pain.

He had no options, he could try and hold her but that would make things worse, he wanted to try a full on all or nothing move like kissing her but he really doubted that would do much.

Thats when his frustration began to flare and in his mind he was really trying to trick himself out of it. He kept telling himself its just your emotions acting up, its not like your actually angry. It was true and he knew then that he only really could be sad.

Talking to her was all he had so he tried.

"What is your fear of me based in? Some cognition of the male race that they all want to molest you? Why would you compare me to someone like that? What evils have i bestwoed upon you to deserve such feeling, emily why do i seem like i would hurt you."

His words were well structured and he didnt know why, he shook his head and moved around her to be face to fece.

"I mean emily if id do somethinglike that ive had my chance, and i mean literally more chance than most people probably have, but i didnt even touch you. I wanted to so badly, but not for some ..."

He cut himself off and grimaced, he thought that maybe if he came clean then things had a chance of resolving, and itreally was his last option.

".. Emily, i want to hold you and be near you because i feel like i made more than a friend today, and you know it to, if not conciously then subconciously. If you put up a front for everyone else why take it down for my benefit? Maybe its because you wanted my help, if thats the case then trust me, and if its not then im more than willing to do anything to make you happy again. You have a beuatiful smile and really id much rather try and kiss a smile."

His last words were feeble and barey audible, because it seemed to him like his heart truly had been torn. He now had no control over what was about to happen. This is something he never let happen out of habit, because it required trust in whomever you were with, something nich had never given to another person. This was a chance he was willing to take for emily, because he trusted her even if she didnt trust him at all.

Nichs middle finger twitched the way it sometimes did when he was surprised. He didnt kidd her back at first it was a little awkward for him until he realized what was happening.

Then he moved his lips with hers and held her close to himself. He blinked and a tear dripped from his eyes, but it was being discarded more than felt.

He felt her warmth in the cold water and to him it was like something that he wished he could be surrounded in, like some dimension of pure comfort wherein nothing could possibly spoil his ecstasy.

He parted his lips from her but didnt let her go. Runnig his hand up her back he brushed his fingers along her face and smiled at her.

"I promise youll be safe with me Emily, and i will never hurt you."

Nich moved a little closer to her and took her hand in his. His attitude was firm. His face was a little sad looking though, he wanted her to be happy, but he wasnt sure how to make things brighter.

"Emily... listen i know that i aint exactly prime boyfriend material or anything, but id really like to spend more time with you, I would also at some pint like to be able to touch you without you shivering about it."

He let her hand go and smiled...

"I wont force anything on you, but i think you know how i feel."

He didnt know what else to add, he felt vulnerable in a way and it was making him uncomfortable, but he trusted emily for some reason, and he just really hoped things would be okay.

"Hey.... you know your clothes may be dry now, you should probably put them back on before i get handsy."

He smiled at her and winked.

Nich waded over to her and hopped up onto the edge of the pool. He got out of the water and crouched down to help her out of the water.

He could tell her laugh was a little nervous, and he knew that meant she was still uncomfortable around him, but if he wanted that to change he was going to have to cheer her up and let her do things on her terms.

"You know i should take advantage of the moment and snap some shots before you get dressed, its not everyday that i get beautiful half naked models."

He was kidding around and it was obvious by the inflection in his voice. His smile was also a tip off. He was wearing a small grin suppressed by the fact that he was in such an edgy situation.

He wanted to reach down take her in his arms and lift her out of the water, maybe kiss her again but he didnt want to press his luck and he was sure that was the furthest thing from anything she was thinking.

"Cmon hop out so i can see if your hurt."