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Last one for a long, long time...
I'm done trying to repair the damage you left me with.
I feel good about myself finally and I feel good about feeling good no matter how much I reeled back from it at first.

If I spend the rest of forever listening to everything I was ever told by all of you, I will destroy every chance I have at keeping the things in my life that mean so much to me. I will be miserable.
I'm stronger than you ever were.

If I was so permanently worthless, then explain the international honor society, the grades, the wonderful friends, the amazing boyfriend, the invitation into accelerated chemistry, the respect I've earned at work, and every accomplishment that most of you could never manage.

The best revenge is being happy.
I'm ready for this. Finally.
Guess I won after all.

Just joined and first post is here, lololol

Y'see, this is *exactly* why I tried to get the two of us to work on Mock Trial stuff in advance, so that we'd be on the same page as we're writing out what to say. So we'd actually have a consistent theme to use in the presentations. So that our case would be *good*. That's why I was trying for most of this week when you suggested we work together to get us both writing to get these things down.

A day after that, I'd read the fact situation and was working on forming arguments. You hadn't read it, so we couldn't work much. So I asked you to make sure to have our witness' testimony read and some of the direct written out by the next day.

The next day, I had the cross examination written out. You had read the deposition for *their* witness, who *I'm* going to be addressing. Thus, you don't have anything on the direct done. We go to the presentation where they show us how to do the various things, including Opening (which I'm doing, but hadn't written yet) and the closing (which you're doing and hadn't written yet). Afterwords, you get wrapped up in thinking of a theme and I just want to grab you by the neck and yell at you to focus on the direct you were supposed to have done.

The next day, the cross and opening, my two parts, are done and in the revision process. You *STILL* haven't written the direct, much less the closing. We brainstorm after class on what needs to go into each of the parts, which helps edit down the cross and get plans for the direct. You promise to send me the direct to look at once it's done, and I do get it later that evening. Then, I spend about an hour rewriting it for you so it doesn't sound idiotic.

Then, the day after that, today, I'm starting to memorize my parts. The closing isn't done, you haven't yet looked at the direct I sent (understandable, since I sent it pretty late at night), and you have the GALL to sound annoyed when I forgot to send an e-mail to the people running it with a question we came up with the day before?

THEN, after the Agency midterm this evening, ending at 7:15, I go home rather than practice with another group because I didn't see you there. You were in another room? Fine. Understandable. But then, I get several text messages from you, one of which indicating that you've got a new idea to use as a theme. A new idea for a theme. To go into the opening and closing. The opening I wrote several days ago and have already started to memorize. The closing which you probably didn't start writing until half an hour ago. And now, you want to add a new, completely different theme. Which isn't very good, in my opinion. And ignore a lot of the advice on your direct that I'm going to get surprised with, since I have to play our witness.

...Yeah. We're never working together on a project again.

I've seen the darkest corners that the worst of humanity can muster and I've pieced myself together the best one can working with only one free arm, and I'm here to tell you that your attempts to knock over what I've made fills me with an emotion I can only identify as repulsion. I do not fear you because you will never succeed. I fear what I will do to you because you are trying.

Dear customer-y-people,
If you can clearly see that I'm struggling with a giant pile of freshly returned books, another customer, or any other sort of deskwork while my coworker is just reading then STOP WAITING FOR ME TO HELP YOU AND GO SEE HER.
I don't care if you need something checked out, to get something desensitized, to ask for help, whatever... SHE is just as capable of helping you as I am.

@You: I'm tired of trying to tiptoe around sounding like a b***h with you: If you don't want me to be judgmental or whatever else you say about me, stop making it so easy!

You're just so pathetic, it's almost sad.
At least stop arguing just to argue when I lay out my points perfectly with backup.

@You: I don't know if I can leave. I really don't.