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 Posted: Thu Feb 10, 2011 8:39 pm
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"We can have all the time in the world for practical jokes later; okay, Adam? I think we should all leave, now, before this 'Alexis' shows up..." Jack couldn't agree more. He shoved his phone in his pocket, then followed Bella and Alice out the doors of the casino. He couldn’t help but over hear Skylar’s sobbing voice, his instinct was to turn his head. But as soon as he did he regretted it. He couldn’t look at her without feeling guilty. He wanted to hit himself over the head with a 2-by-4 five times. Did you even love her, Jack? Or are you just that ‘nice’ of a guy that you dated her to make her feel ‘accepted’ and ‘loved’ in a new place? You’re not really a nice guy, are you, Jack? He wasn’t sure what was speaking to him, it sounded like his mother’s voice. Why do you even exist, Jack? To make people happy or to lie to them just because you ‘think’ they’d prefer a beautiful lie to an ugly truth? Jack tried to suppress his mother’s voice. He looked over at Bella and felt an overwhelming sense of calm wash over him. Bella knew who Jack was, she accepted him before they ever had any intimate relations.
He knew he loved her, he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. It was about time for a twenty-three year old man to figure out his life. He wasn’t in high school anymore. He wasn’t even in college anymore. He was in the real world. Skylar was still apart of his high school days and she was holding him back. Bella, even if she was his best friend since the single digit days, he always knew he’d be friends her till the end of the world. He could see himself with Bella; Now that there was a baby on the way, there was no denying that he had his future planned out. He wasn’t going to lie and say it was a surprise, but in all honesty he was glad that it happened. It made Jack realize that where he was wasn’t going anywhere. He had to make a decision if he wanted to do something with his life. Jack had potential for greatness and he knew that. But he couldn’t do anything when he was focusing on keeping Skylar happy and ignoring where his life was.
There was no future with Skylar, at least none that he ever imagined. Now that he was going to be a father, he actually saw a future with Bella. Alice’s words pulled him out of his thoughts: ”….in Jack’s car, Adam should drive, since Jack was in the hospital for his head wound…” Jack nodded and handed his keys to Adam. When their hands touched in an almost handshake, Jack felt himself smile at his friend. The sudden contact though made him jolt his hand away and rub furiously at his jeans to wipe off any dirt and germs. He moved towards his car and pulled the back door open. As he remembered his head injury, the throbbing started to come back to him. He scolded Alice silently for reminding him. He had nearly forgotten with all the drama that ensued, but now he remembered just how much pain he was in. He slid into the back seat and reached into the back for his emergency med kid.
Inside were his OCD meds, some alcohol wipes, and pain meds. His mother loved to make sure he was prepared for anything, the ibuprofen was what he grabbed first. He rolled is eyes up to the back of his head to remember if he had any liquids. He chuckled when he remembered an old bottle of water under the driver seat. He reached and grasped a hold of it. It was warm but it was water. He took three pills from the bottle, popped them into his mouth, took a swig of water, and finally gulped it all down. He realized how late it had gotten and he threw the pain meds back in his bag, then grabbed for his OCD meds. He took one pill out and swallowed it down just as easily as the ibuprofen. Hopefully after all that kicks in, he’ll be just normal enough to function. He leaned into the car seat and started to buckle himself in.
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 8:21 am
 Cailen$Legosi Cailen was shocked when he heard Skylar tell him to go back to the casino with the rest of the group. That didn’t stop him though, he knew she was upset. Except when she actually pushed him away, that hurt. Was every girl going to reject him? It’s not like he was trying to start something, but he figured she needed someone who cared. He was quiet as he listened to what she had to say. He couldn’t believe she even thought that she didn’t belong to the group. Sure she hasn’t been with us as long as everyone else, but she was still a part of the group. Once you’re in, it’s hard to get back out. It must not have been as obvious to him as it was to her that he should be back with everyone else. It was actually nice to get away from them for a moment. Right now he knew he needed to be here with Skylar. She was hurt and heartbroken and he couldn’t just leave her out here all by herself. What kind of a friend would do that?
He waited for her to finish her ridiculous statement of how she thought she was stupid for thinking she belonged with the group. “I’m sorry to say, but you can’t get rid of me that easily. You belong with us, even if you’re not with Jack.” Cailen knew he would still be her friend, and he knew her and Alice were pretty close. Alice wasn’t the type of person who would bail on her best friend just because she wasn’t dating and “original” member of the group. Even if Alice could change boyfriends pretty easily, he knew best friends were harder to come by. Skylar seemed angry, but he knew it was her sadness that was the reason for it. “I know how it feels. First you’re sad, that you lost someone you thought loved you and sad because it seemed like what you had was perfect and nothing could come between you. Then you feel hurt and betrayed that someone you trusted and loved could hurt you and do that to you. And then you feel angry and stupid. Angry that you let it happen, and angry because maybe there was something you could have done to prevent it. And you feel stupid because now as you think about it, the person you loved never really loved you the way you thought they did. And now as you think about it, you seemed to know it all along and that it was obvious but you were too blind to see it. I know.” In the middle of his little speech he felt his phone go off, but right now he was too busy to look at it. He needed to give his full attention to the problem at hand and whatever anyone had to say to him could wait.
Cailen wanted to say more on the subject. Explain to her that he knew what she was going through, that she wasn’t alone, but he saw Alice approaching and decided to wait. He didn’t want Alice to know just how bad he was hurting. He listened to her worried explanation on how they had to get out of their now. He couldn’t disagree because he knew it was true. They had to get away before Alexis caught up to them. He wondered if it was on purpose that they elected Skylar and himself to be in the same car, alone. It was true he would rather not be in the same car as Adam, Jack, or even Alice at the moment. As he thought about Jack, he realized Jack had been flying under the radar. For what he did to Skylar, and possibly Bella, Cailen figured he should be in the same boat as Adam. The only difference was that Jack was hard to be mad at. He just seemed so innocent all the time that staying angry at him seemed impossible. Not to mention Cailen wasn’t going to hurt him after that head injury he suffered today. It was a lot easier to be angry with Adam. “I agree with her. We need to go now, we can talk about it in the car,” he said to Skylar as Alice walked away. He got up and waited for Skylar as he made his way back over to his car.
On the walk over he decided to see who texted him. He figured it was just Bella or Alice or someone wondering where he was, but he didn’t like knowing he had an awaiting message and not checking it. His jaw dropped open as he read the message. What was Adam doing? Cailen hadn’t recognized the number, but he knew it was from some other girl, that knew about him and Alice. He hoped that it wasn’t Alexis, but then he remembered waiting in the parking lot outside of Adam’s apartment. She seemed angry as she stalked away from the same building Adam was in. Was that the whole reason behind all this, because she was jealous? It didn’t take much thought to put the pieces together. Her being there was just too much of a coincidence not to be suspicious. He felt the anger he was feeling earlier towards Adam resurface. He could not believe what he was reading. Adam sure had a lot coming to him. The next time, nothing was going to stop Cailen from knocking the lights out of Adam. Trying to swallow his anger so as to not upset Skylar, he stepped into his car and waited for her to join him.
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 11:14 am
 ▬▬ alice humphrey ▬▬LOVE IS LIKE A SIN, MY LOVE
FOR THE ONES THAT FEEL IT THE MOST
LOOK AT HER WITH HER EYES LIKE A FLAME
SHE WILL LOVE YOU LIKE A FLY WILL NEVER LOVE YOU
AGAIN
As soon as Alice saw Jack jump into the backseat of his car, she decided to hop into the passenger’s seat before Adam had the chance to take his seat behind the wheel. She wanted to question either Jack or Bella before she talked to Adam concerning what she heard. At first, she saw him take some sort of medication; she couldn’t tell if it was something prescribed or if he was just taking something for the pain. Figuring it was probably the second, Alice leaned back and started her sentence with a simple request. “So… I don’t even know where my things are right now… could you happen to spare a Tylenol or whatever else you might have? My arm’s killing me.”
She paused a few more minutes before saying anything else, but couldn’t help herself from speaking. “Skylar… she looked pretty upset, but… I guess you wouldn’t be the first person to upset the person you’re dating today. I think I completely crushed Cailen, not that I meant to… but, I’m sure he hates me. And now I’m not even sure that I made the right decision. I’m not going to lie… I heard you and Bella talking. I’m curious about whatever message you were talking about… about Adam and I. No… we’re not dating but… does he really think that the idea of being with me… at any point… is just a joke?” Alice had to force herself to stop spitting out words. She was beginning to ramble, which is something she’d always done when she was upset. Of course, she felt that she had every right to be upset. If Adam just saw her as some sort of a joke, then… she’d allowed herself to crush one of the most important people in her life for absolutely nothing. She would have broken his heart, only to have hers face the same fate. Karma really is a b***h...
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 1:05 pm
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Jack heard the door close and he looked forward to see that Alice had placed herself in the front seat. He grinned at her request and brought the bottle of ibuprofen back out from his bag. He reached forward, struggling a bit with the restraints, and placed the bottle in her hand. ”I always have meds available.” He said with a wink. Although, when he saw her solemn face, his sudden good mood faded away. He listened intently to her words and then looked outside to make sure everyone else wasn’t within earshot. He raised an eyebrow as she asked: ”Does he really think that the idea of being with me…. At any point… is just a joke?” Jack unbuckled himself then to reach comfortably and grabbed her shoulder.
”It was just a text message. Whatever it meant, it most likely was misconstrued as being serious. We should let Adam explain himself before I put my two cents in, because I’m the most confused right now about all of this.” He squeezed her shoulder to tell her that he was there for her and then let go to fall back into his proper seat.
Jack scratched at his wrappings, then felt around until he found what he was looking for. There had to be about four or five staples in his head. He looked down at his hand to make sure he hadn’t scratched off a scab, and with a smile, he let out a much needed breath. There was no residue of blood left. The doctors had done their job. He looked back up at his friend in the front seat, the only one that didn't have a reason to hate him yet. ”Alice,” he felt like as of he could relate to her. ”about what you said, …with Skylar being upset… I just hope that none of you will hate me. With all the things that happened today, with how my life had been going… It was like I realized something about who I am and who I should be.
“Why is it that we either hurt the people you care about, or remain unhappy just to keep the other person happy? I’ve… I’ve done that nearly my whole life. And finally, I realize I have a choice for myself, to make myself happy… but I feel like an a*****e. Alice, for my whole life people have known me to be this nice guy, but in the end am I really that guy?”
Jack wasn’t sure why he was pouring out all his thoughts onto Alice, maybe because she was the one that most likely wouldn’t hit him or sob hysterically. He hoped that she would turn around and tell him he wasn’t a bad guy, but at the same time he didn’t want her to say a thing. He had a feeling she would say just what he was thinking: Jack was a big fat jerk. How could he pretend to love Skylar while he had harboring feelings for someone else? ‘Did you really expect that pretending just to make other people happy would get you “the best guy ever” reward? Come on, Jack, you could have ended this long ago and she wouldn’t be crying on Cailen’s shoulder right now.’ Jack buckled himself back into his seat with a sigh.
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Vanilla Nerd Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 4:19 pm
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I taste your scent in the wind
I set my sail but then you sink my boat
So I begin to swim
Bash my foes until I win
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“ Bella, I think that you, Jack, Adam and I should ride in Jack‘s car. Maybe…Adam should drive…since Jack was just in the hospital for his head wound. I‘ll go tell Cailen and Skylar to follow in his car.”, Adam’s face ruffled in confusion as his eyes poked at Jack’s bandage that he had neglected to notice before. What, did you think he was making a fashion statement? Staring at Jack, Adam awkwardly lifted his hand to grab Jack’s car keys before seeing Jack’s hand hastily pull away from the touch to wipe on his jeans. For years now, Adam had thoroughly enjoyed toying with Jack’s OCD as much as he possibly could. However, this time was different…and Adam could feel it pinch at his ego. ‘ I have HIV now…once he finds out, he wont just freak out at touching me, he‘ll probably have his car steam-cleaned because I sat in the driver‘s seat.’, a sour mood curdling in his stomach, Adam didn’t bother to ask where they were going before following Bella out towards the parking lot.
Walking outside under the stars, Adam could see Alice’s mouth move as she talked to Cailen, and unknowingly stopped to watch the miniature scene. She didn’t stay long to converse with them; but, Adam continued to stand there and watch Alice walk towards the car. ‘ If she saw my text message to Alexis, why the hell isn‘t she asking me about it?’, the only possible conclusion Adam could think of was that she was either really upset about it, and wanted to think about all the possible reasons behind it before talking to him; or she was trying to find the right words to define just how crappy he was. Seeing Alice climb into the passenger seat and turn around to talk to Jack, Adam was about to snap his feet into movement when he felt a hand tugging at his elbow. Turning around, he was surprised to notice Bella having been standing beside him almost the entire time. Where she had been looking, Adam could only guess.
“ Yeah?”, Adam asked before seeing that the ‘gps’ on her phone was on, and she was pointing to her screen. Poking his nose down to look at the map, Adam made an odd expression in remembrance to what Harrison had texted him. Bella was looking at the wrong lake. True that lake was closer, and more beautiful; but, knowing Harrison, he would probably camp in Death Valley if it ensured it had all the privacy he wanted.
“ It’s not Vista Lake.”, Bella made a face at his comment and confusingly looked down at her cell phone screen. She probably had trouble thinking of Lakes close-by, so Adam leaned in to whisper the more likely location into her ear. It probably looked wrong, but that thougth didn’t even occur to him anymore. He wasn’t in love with Bella, and in knowing his every effort to woo her had just been to try and put a smile on her face, he knew he didn’t have any sort of liking left for her. Given how Bella kept looking at her phone screen, he didn’t think she thought it looked wrong either.
“ Harrison texted me to go south, Vista lake is north of here…So try Kenwood Pond. Its not actually a pond, it’s a small lake, near here--”, Bella made a face and interrupted him, almost snapped it at him actually.
“ I know what Kenwood Pond is.”, Typing it into her gps, Adam leaned away again to look at the gps and point at the address that Harrison had recommended. Seeing the proof in the address, Adam took out his phone and was about to text Cailen when he rethought that idea. Grimacing, Adam closed his phone and shoved it back down into his pocket.
“ Bella, how about you text Cailen the address okay? ”, Adam pointed at his left eye. “ He kinda wants to kill me right now, and I don‘t want to piss him off by my name showing up on his phone anymore. ”, thinking through that statement as he said it, Adam re-pulled his phone out of his pocket and started formulating a text message:
Cailen/Sky: Alexis is some brunette who
can‘t stand me for some reason,
she shot alice. If she forwarded
to you some bullshit text, just
delete it. We have enough to
worry about until Harrison
contacts us again that its safe
to come back home.
Pocketing his phone again, Adam made his way towards the car with all the prognostics of a bad car ride. Either Alice was going to wait for him to climb in or wait til they were safe before bringing up the subject; but, either way he knew it wasn’t going to be an enjoyable experience. Alice is never going to trust you. Not while all this craziness is going on. So don’t react when she calls you a piece of crap, its not like you deserve any better. Realizing just how morbid that thought was, Adam critisized his own mind. ‘ You know, what? No. Yeah, I texted bullshit, but if she honestly thinks I would mean something like that then she never had any faith in me to begin with.’ Adam could feel his speed dwindling for a moment. ‘But you shouldn’t have texted that!’ He didn’t need his conscience to tell him that. That much was obvious, but, he was just trying to get to Alexis and see how serious she was about the ‘betrayal’ comment. You need to fess up and tell her that you told Alexis you two were dating. Adam put his hand on the door handle after Jack finished his declarative statement and climbed into the carseat. Closing the door behind him, Adam didn’t even look at Alice long enough to share eye-contact. In the hopes of delaying the inevitable, he didn’t waste any time to shove his seat-belt on and poke the keys into the ignition. However, Bella wasn’t all the way into the car yet, so all he could do then was lean against the back of the seat.
‘ Alright…if your going to ask me, just get it over with Ally.’
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Byzantine mozaic in the heat
I am cursed, through the worst
With a life that's made to burn
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 5:12 pm
▬▬ alice humphrey ▬▬LOVE IS LIKE A SIN, MY LOVE
FOR THE ONES THAT FEEL IT THE MOST
LOOK AT HER WITH HER EYES LIKE A FLAME
SHE WILL LOVE YOU LIKE A FLY WILL NEVER LOVE YOU
AGAIN
Alice agreed with Jack that it would be best to let Adam explain the text. Although at some point, she was going to want to see what exactly it was they were talking about, especially if it mentioned her. Maybe if she just saw the text for herself she would see that her mind was blowing the situation completely out of proportion.
“Why is it that we either hurt the people you care about, or remain unhappy just to keep the other person happy? I’ve… I’ve done that nearly my whole life. And finally, I realize I have a choice for myself, to make myself happy… but I feel like an a*****e. Alice, for my whole life people have known me to be this nice guy, but in the end am I really that guy?"
After Jack finished speaking, Alice heard the sound of Adam entering the car. A part of her wanted to ask what was going on right then and there, but she felt compelled to answer Jack's question. The words seemed to touch her heart, knowing that he was right in the same place she was. "Nice... is relative," she began, feeling the words that she wanted to say, knowing that just saying them made her a hypocrite, because she didn't fully believe the most of them. She knew that Jack wasn't a horrible person. She'd known him for years and truly believed that he was a good person, but it was the other part of what she wanted to say that would probably sound like she was making the entire thing up. "People only think you're a nice person if you're doing well by them. If you're making them happy, but that doesn't mean you're nice. It means you're just doing what will make others happy. And in making one person happy, you hurt another. You'll never be able to please everyone. You'll drive yourself insane trying to do it. Follow your heart and go where it tells you; it's usually right. Stop worrying about what people think about you and you'll be happier with yourself."
Alice felt it might be appropriate to stop her "speech" right there, but she didn't really answer Jack's question, at all. So she knew she had to keep going. "If you hurt someone you care about... and you don't feel that crippling pain in your heart, well... then you're not a nice person. It meant you never cared. But if it causes you enough pain to ask me that question, then... it means you cared a lot more than you thought you did. You think it's your punishment for listening to your heart, but it's just your heart's way of reminding you that you did the right thing, because doing the right thing... always hurts." She decided that would be where she would end her little rant. She hoped that it was enough for Jack, because it was stirring up her own emotions. Her thoughts drifted back to Cailen, it was becoming harder and harder to think about him without feeling an ache in her chest. She hadn't meant to hurt him. She knew she would be doing the right thing by breaking things off with him - yet the days events seemed to prevent that from happening, thus far. She promised herself that she would have a talk with him when everything had calmed down and they were safe.
She sat in silence, not knowing whether or not she wanted to ask Adam about what this mysterious text message was. Perhaps it would be something better suited to be asked when they were safe, as well. Instead of speaking for that moment, Alice sat there thinking about what she had said to Jack; she was probably right. No one's perfect... Maybe one day she would forgive herself for what she'd done, she made a mistake; sure, but it made her realize some important things. With Cailen, she felt like everything was always smoke and mirrors. They pretended to be the perfect couple, even though they always fought, Cailen always gambled, and Alice always hated it. She wouldn't make the mistake of holding her feelings inside until they ruined a once, perfectly good thing. Not again.
"So Adam... I heard you all talking about some text message... regarding you and I. I... I don't even have an idea of what this text was. If it was sent to me, I don't have my phone anymore. I didn't catch very much... I just want to know what was said." she questioned, hoping that her imagination had just been running rampant again. Fearing what his response would be. I know I said I love you Alice, and I do. But I can't just be with one person, you know that. She clamped her eyes shut, dismissing that thought completely. No. No, he would never say anything like that. He thought I was dead and had a meltdown... he thought he lost me. That meant something. He wouldn't just throw that away to go back to sleeping with whoever he wanted.
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 6:06 pm
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Having taken a few steps towards the parking lot, Bella turned around when she heard Alice talking. Hearing what she said, Bella’s eyes widened and she lifted her chin that half-inch to run her eyes over the bandaged area on Jack’s head. ‘ How did I not notice that!’, feeling horribly guilty, Bella debated walking up to Jack and fawning over his injury like women tended to do; but, an idea stopped her. ‘ I‘ve never been one to do that kind of a thing. Even when dad was in the hospital I stayed home…Hospitals freak me out. ’, It wasn’t that she didn’t care, because she did care adamantly. But Bella was not an open person, and worrying or nitpicking outwardly in such a way was in her character…and given the situation, it was not her place. ‘ That’s just something Skylar would do…Worry about him like that. Why do something that’s going to remind him of Skylar…’, Furrowing her mouth apologetically, Bella turned on her heel and headed strait towards the parking lot once more.
At first, it was easy to keep her mind off of the currant situation. Admiring the pretty casino lights, or the decorative potted plants Adam had leaned against earlier that evening, she could find things to cheer her outlook if she wasted the effort to do so. Feeling the texture of the carpet underneath her sneakers, Bella could even admire the carpet. ‘ Red carpet is certainly ‘out-there‘, maybe I‘ll save up and redo the carpet in my apartment someday.’, Bella frowned at the idea, and changed her mind to a red welcome-mat or something. ‘ Maybe the baby would like red.’, That was certainly out-there, and Bella had to laugh. Looking down at the Teddy bear after a forth stranger gave her a funny look, Bella chuckled amongst herself and admired Toby’s chocolate browns. ‘ Your making me the laughingstock of the casino Toby-kins.’. Distracting herself was easy…until she walked outside.
Hearing Skylar’s watery-weepy voice bubbling out words to her brother was too difficult to hear without dampening her mood. Hearing her voice mumble words like: ‘I don’t belong’ stabbed into Bella’s chest. ‘ Because they‘re my fault. I made the first move, and I should have stopped it and I didn’t.’, as much as she couldn’t regret having a baby soon, she could regret hurting Skylar. For some reason, Bella kept standing there, unable to keep from looking at anything other than the pain on Skylar’s face. Skylar was always so sweet and precious in Bella’s eyes, the type of girl everyone hoped to be. At least, to Bella. Perhaps those thoughts had prevented her from reaching out to Skylar all these years, but maybe it was true that sometimes there were people you just weren’t going to ‘click’ with. If Bells thought on those terms, Skylar was just one of many in a list she had unknowingly kept since preschool of people she didn’t quite get along with. Not because she didn’t want to get along with them; but, simply because one couldn’t force hearts to knit together. You liked who you liked. Sometimes that changed, and Bella had always hoped for that, but with that happened. ‘ She‘ll never want to talk to me now, if she even wanted to before.’ And there was her brother, being the better person. ‘ Why couldn‘t I be more like you Cale.’
Remembering that Adam was driving and he had no destination, Bella looked up to see him standing there staring at Alice and nudged his elbow. To which he immediately turned around with an awkward expression on his face. With the way Adam had been treating her the past few weeks, like puppy love, the lack of care in his expression almost boggled her. ‘ I‘m not complaining, mind you. But when did I become a bother?’, Raising an eyebrow, Bella sighed and took out her phone. ‘ He said 332, vista lake? He said it was a lakehouse…Not many lakes around here.’, Not finding the address, Bella leaned forward to show Adam the screen.
“ Not Vista Lake.”, Bella made a face, and looked back down at the screen with a grumble. ‘ What other lake could there be?’ Feeling more than seeing that Adam had moved in close, Bella had to wonder why he was whispering it into her ear, but then, who knew if the security guards nearby had any ties with Alexis. Better to be safe than sorry, thought she, as she listened to what he whispered. Nodding at key points, Bella was about to keep nodding when Adam mentioned the words: Kenwood Pond.
Adam was right that it wasn’t a pond, she had spend a summer there when she was eleven years old. Suddenly, images of that summer flashed into her brain and Bella remembered the more particular scene she had always regarded with extreme distaste. Of all the places they were going to go: Kenwood Pond. A time when all her friends were talking about boys, boys, and more boys. ‘Katie likes Brandon’, ‘Crystal was holding hands with Thomas’, and her ‘new’ friend ‘Jessica’ couldn’t get her mind off of her brother. The entire summer she had spent time at their friend’s cabin pretending to play board games with her to get Cailen to notice that she thought he was cute. Ultimately betraying what friendship they had because of it.
‘Yeah, I’m sorry about not showing up, but if you had a date you could come to the party. Its not that I don‘t want you to come cause your younger than me.’ She was only one year younger; but still, that was a big difference back then. I do TOoOo!, Bella had lied through her teeth. Oh really, who? Bella had frantically looked around the room for anyone who would be tricked to going with her to that party Jessica constantly talked about. Looking to her baseball buddy, who had no interest in her whatsoever, Bella grimaced at the smug ‘your lying’ look and exclaimed: I‘m goin with Jack… Getting the ‘oh really’ expression back made Bella want to bop Jessica in the nose. Which was the most contact with the opposite sex besides wrestling that this girl had had up until this point besides hugging her father. Jessica started laughing. ‘ Then you better go ask him, cause Mandy said she was going to go with him.’ Bella’s cheeks had puffed up with air at that accusation, and Bella had left the house to try and find him outside. But in the end, it came to nothing. She remembered standing next to her weird ‘neat-freak’ friend with an awkward expression on her face with him going ‘What’ over and over again because she had said: ‘I have to ask you somethin’’. ’What is it?!?’, At being asked so unkindly, Bella had bopped him in the nose, and ran off. (That bop in the nose having slowly evolved into the little shoulder tap as Bells grew out of her aggresive phase.) It wasn’t like she liked Jack back then; but, asking him on a date was too humiliating for her to. Everyone would make fun of her with comments such as: ‘Bella liiikes Jack’ when she didn’t, he was a worrywort neat-freak she wrestled to the ground or played baseball with. She was considered a big enough freak without that adding to it, and being shunned for not going to the party had made her think very unfavourably of the place.
“ I know what Kenwood Pond is.”, Looking back down to her gps to end all further talk of the subject, Bella shook her head and let out a sigh as she typed in the new address. That whole summer was almost funny now…I wonder what Jessica would think if she found out ‘clean-freak nerdo-Jack’ was the father of your baby. Bella pouted and bit down on her lip. ‘ Oh like I care what she thinks. Preppy, boy-crazy, redhead.’, shaking her head, Bella showed Adam the phone screen before Adam piped up another comment:
“ Bella, how about you text Cailen the address okay?”, Seeing Adam point at his black eye made her mouth form in an ‘O’. Her brother? Beat Adam up? ‘ Ha!’, But there was the evidence. Trying to think of reasons why, Bella simply blamed it on Adam’s aggressive nature. He had the tendency to piss people off, and her brother was not immune to it. Metaphorically shaking her head, Bella typed a simple:
To: Cailen.
From: Bella.
Message: Hey Cale…
We‘re going to 332 Oak rd,
Kenwood Pond. Try and
follow behind us if you
want. It would be safe
to stay close…I don’t
want to lose you too.
Making her way to the car while she was texting, Bella had just clicked ‘send’ when she could hear Jack’s voice echoed in the car. Not wanting to interrupt their conversation, Bella pretended to admire an emerald green car nearby as she somewhat hid behind the trunk and listened to the remainder of Jack’s statement:
“ Why is it that we either hurt the people you care about, or remain unhappy just to keep the other person happy? I‘ve…I‘ve done that nearly my whole life. And finally, I realize I have a choice for myself, to make myself happy…but I feel like an a*****e. Alice, for my whole life people have known me to be this nice guy, but in the end am I really that guy?”
Breathless, Bella stood there staring at the ground with her mouth slightly parted. Breathing being the only thing that she tried to do as her right hand touched the back of the cold car to balance herself. The bear slipping out of her left hand due to oblivious trembling. Picking it up slowly, Bella kept staring at the ground so that the locks of hair that covered her face would continue to hide her stunned expression. ‘ What is he saying?…Who is he talking about? Or does he mean ‘In general‘?’, if he meant it in the general sense, then she was one of many people that he tried to make happy. Suddenly memories of several events over the years popped into her head, including the way Jack had followed her, after she bopped him in the nose, to suggest staying behind and playing super Mario with her. Like a selfish brat, she had threatened him if he went, but he could have gone. It wasn’t like her smacks were very strong. She knew it was just to be nice, there were very many times when he was just being nice. That night, he was just being nice trying to comfort you and you know it. Maybe the first ‘kissing back’ part had been, but she knew him. He…he wouldn’t have followed through unless he wanted to. Bella wanted to believe that, but now she wasn’t sure. ‘ I thought he wanted Skylar.’, Remembering the ‘I’m sorry’ text, Bella had been so sure of herself that he hadn’t meant what he said in the changing rooms, that he was trying to be nice, but…What does he want to be happy? Is it a person, a job, a change of scenery? Would Jack be moving away to pursue something? ‘ If I worry about this now, it will only cause problems. I‘ll let Jack answer this, on his own time.’ As much as she wanted to believe that, Bella’s heart continued to sink at hearing what jack said, mostly because she didn’t understand it. But, with seeing Adam climb into the car, she knew she couldn’t keep standing outside or everyone would know she had overheard him.
Climbing into the car as quickly as she normally did, Bella passed everyone her awkward smile before buckling her seatbelt and holding both of her arms around her teddy-bear. As hard as it was to look at Jack to see his face upon seeing her, worried that it might be unfavourable, Bella awkwardly grimaced her half-smile and nodded towards the head injury.
“ You okay?”, Bella tapped her head so that he got the idea. Perhaps having a double-meaning in the sentiment. Knowing she had interrupted the conversation, Bella just sat there and listened as Bella gave Jack her reply statement:
“ People only think you’re a nice person if your doing well by them. If you‘re making the happy, but that doesn‘t mean you‘re nice. It means you‘re doing what will make others happy. And in making one person happy, you hurt another. You‘ll never be able to please everyone. You‘ll drive yourself insane trying to do it. Follow your heart and go where it tells you; it‘s usually right. Stop worrying about what people think about you and you‘ll be happier with yourself.” Oddly enough, Bella thought Alice sounded like a fortune cookie. An edifying word of comfort that comes at a serendipitous moment. Even though it hadn’t been directed towards her, it was a very insightful bit of knowledge to chew. It made her think about things she wanted; but, with a heavy heart she stopped herself. At that dinner table, Bella made the decision to stop. Going towards goals at only left her disappointed and heartbroken, some dreams just couldn’t be picked up again and put back together. Glancing her eyes towards Jack, she only saw his leg in the corner of her vision, because she had not the heart to look at his face right now. What did you want as a little girl? Bella knew the answer. ‘ I wanted to dance.’ Then dance. Go back to school and teach little girls how to dance or something, but don’t give up on everything. Set a good example for the baby. Bella felt a hint of a smile cross her mouth as she turned her head to look out the window. Sitting as far away from Jack as she was humanly able to at this point in time.
“ If you hurt someone you care about…and you don‘t feel that crippling pain in your heart, well…then you‘re not a nice person. It meant you never cared. But if it causes you enough pain to ask that question, then…it means you cared a lot more than you thought you did. You think its your punishment for listening to your heart, but its just your heart‘s way of reminding you that you did the right thing, because doing the right thing…always hurts.” That was true…Bella took a deep breath in admitting that to herself.
Feeling the car’s engine start, Bella kept her eyes pinned outside the window. Watching the darkened parking lot’s trees with a gentle admiration. At least Kenwood Pond had pretty scenery. Hearing Alice mumble another question, Bella thought it in her best interest to stay silent as the car backed out of the parking space towards the exit.
“ So Adam…I heard you all talking about some text message…regarding you and I…I…don‘t even have an idea of what this text was. If it was sent to me, I don‘t have my phoen anymore. I didn‘t catch very much…I just want to know what was said.”
Bella felt a tense, thick, presence fall over the atmosphere, and Bella found herself pleading for what Adam’s answer would be. For some reason, Alice was staring at Adam the way she had when Cailen and her had first started dating. The way Adam had looked at her emotionlessly a moment before, Bella had to wonder if it was because he had feelings for Alice. ‘ Is the whole world going crazy?’
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✿But when I'm gone...will you✉to me?✿ ↙xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 6:49 pm
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I taste your scent in the wind
I set my sail but then you sink my boat
So I begin to swim
Bash my foes until I win
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"So Adam…I heard you all talking about some text message…regarding you and I…I…don‘t even have an idea of what this text was. If it was sent to me, I don‘t have my phoen anymore. I didn‘t catch very much…I just want to know what was said" Adam expelled a gentle breath to clear his thoughts before turning on his blinker at the next stop sign.
" When...When Alexis kinapped you, she sent me a text message saying: Tell cailen to keep better tabs on his girlfriend'.", Adam's face tightened in anger at the memory, and he gripped the steering wheel enough for a sound to be made against the leather.
" I was pissed, so I told her you were my girlfriend...But mostly so that she would pin her aggression on me instead of Cailen.", Adam squinted his right eye and turned his head away slightly as if that could protect him against a smack in the face. That move had been stupid, and he expected to be punished for it.
" So while you were in the bathroom, she sent me another text message, saying: You shouldn't have betrayed me, Alice will pay for your mistakes.", Adam clamped his eyes shut and squeezed the steering wheel again as he stomped on the gas a little too roughly than was required for the left turn onto the free-way ramp, driving down the road without pausing to consider whether or not Cailen was still following them.
" I was upset, but confused at her message. I mean, we were drunk and she never left her number or address. How can I betray someone who never made any efforts to come back and talk to me? She left absolutely nothing for me to follow all those months ago. So I wanted to see how serious she was in feeing 'betrayed' so I wrote that text message to try and get a responce. She used it against me to forward to everyone else. So I think she's just trying to get all of us to hate each other. Because if we stand together, we're a bigger threat.", Being bold, Adam reached his right hand down after turning on his signal and merging onto the freeway. Hoping to be allowed the opportunity to squeeze Alice's hand in his own for a moment. A bright happiness displayed in his reassuring smile. A knowing look he felt only Alice would fully understand at this point in time.
" If you really were my girlfriend Alice, I wouldn't cheat on you or ditch you for a crazy b***h. You got that?", Adam grinned his grin and chuckled before grasping the steering wheel and concentrating on the road. His right ear pricked to her answer, with his neck willing to turn towards her at the slightest sound. So far, they were on the road, and everyone was safe. He only prayed that they would make it to a safe lakehouse, and not stumble into a trap.
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Byzantine mozaic in the heat
I am cursed, through the worst
With a life that's made to burn
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 7:44 pm
▬▬ alice humphrey ▬▬LOVE IS LIKE A SIN, MY LOVE
FOR THE ONES THAT FEEL IT THE MOST
LOOK AT HER WITH HER EYES LIKE A FLAME
SHE WILL LOVE YOU LIKE A FLY WILL NEVER LOVE YOU
AGAIN
Alice listened intently at Adam's explanation of the text message while occasionally catching herself looking at the window. Not to look at her surroundings passing by, but rather in almost fear that she would miss seeing Alexis following them if she didn't periodically check. Great, now I'm paranoid...
The more Adam explained the situation, how he had lied to Alexis, how Alexis had sent the text threatening her, and how he had responded to it. Everything was starting to make a lot more sense to her now. She couldn't help but wonder if she had received such aggressive treatment from Alexis could be attributed to the fact that Adam had told her that he was her boyfriend instead of Cailen. She could understand that he just wanted to shift the focus off of Cailen onto himself, but that didn't really end up helping the situation. She still ended up taking a massive beating and a bullet in the arm, and Alice began to wonder if that wouldn't have happened if Adam hadn't of lied. No. Don't blame Adam. That's what Alexis wants. She's just... psycho.
"If you really were my girlfriend Alice, I wouldn't cheat on you or ditch you for a crazy b***h. You got that?"
Alice couldn't help but feel some of the unease and tension in her chest loosen up when he said the last comment. In a moment of utter recklessness, she wanted to ask him right then and there if he would date her. Thankfully, she managed to hold back. She knew she couldn't just outwardly ask him that... she was still technically with Cailen, and his sister was seated in the backseat of the car. Bella must not... she can't know about me cheating on her brother with Adam. She would freak out, she would hate me for hurting her brother like that! Alice came to the realization that the entire group seemed to be coming apart at the seams. Cailen abhorred Adam. Bella was certain to hate both she and Adam. Skylar was upset... by something that was Jack's fault, and she ran right into Cailen's arms.... No. No stop it. The group is not going to fall apart. I'll make sure of it. Even if I have to completely go against what I told Jack.... Alice felt herself beginning to choke up even before words began to make their way out of her mouth. She couldn't believe what she was about to say, but she knew that right now the group needed to be strong, they needed to be united. As much as she knew in her heart that she loved Adam, she couldn't live with herself if he, or any of the group were killed because they weren't approaching Alexis as an united front.
"Oh, I see," Alice tried to keep all emotion of out her voice, but she wasn't completely able to mask it completely, "Well... it's good that we aren't dating." After speaking the last words, Alice needed to physically turn her gaze away from him. Not to make herself seem more distant, but because she could feel tears in her eyes starting to form. She didn't want him to see. She knew that if he could tell she was lying, he would call her out on it and tell her that it didn't matter, that the group would stay together no matter what happened between the two of them. Alice wasn't convinced that would be the truth though. She contemplated telling him when they knew they were all safe from Alexis that she didn't mean the words at all, but that they had to be said. By then it would probably be too late, he would either be too heartbroken, or have already moved on. Probably the first one.
Her mind wondered to Jack. When she was speaking with him, she showed such concern for what Adam's real thoughts were. Surely he would be able to tell that she was lying. Would he say something to remind her of what she had just told him? And what about Adam... was she able to conceal the emotion in her words enough that he would think she was telling the truth? Or would he see right through her lies?
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 8:14 pm
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Listening to Adam's conversation, Bella had to raise her eyebrow. The way Adam choked the steering wheel, the emotion in his voice, Bella knew that he was letting out more than he was saying. Adam cared alot for Alice. Bella knew they were good friends; but, the idea of Adam feeling more than that had never occured to her until this moment. Simply because he was so guppy-eyed looking at her. ' Was that all it was? Was I a distraction to keep from thinking about Alice?', it was a silly idea, but perhaps it was true. Or at least, perhaps it had to do with Adam being a horn-dog. Nodding her head at that idea, Bella could laugh away all those weeks of infatuation. ' If he still likes me, he would have shown it by now...', somewhat relieved, Bella softly smiled as she really listened to his final answer:
" If you were my girlfriend...", Bella saw that look in his eye. That 'hopeful' guppy look wasn't there; because it was replaced with something stronger. Adam wanted Alice to be his girlfriend, Bella could see it plain as day, and looked at the back of Alice's head with a very strong hope flaring in her own chest. Hearing Alice's answer, Adam was not the only one blown away at the responce. ' ...Poor Adam...', Looking away, because this conversation was not her business nor her place, Bella remembered what she was going to tell Alice before Jack started to walk towards her, and took out her cell phone. Typing away a little message with the phone tilted to hide it's contents from Jack, Bella clicked send and closed her cellphone. Waiting for a message like two kids passing notes to each other in school.
When Alice opened the phone, she would be greeted with the honest truth. As hard as it was to share, it needed to be shared now, before Alice heard it from Cailen.
To: Alice.
From: Bella.
Message: You need to know
something. I'm pregnant.
Jack's the father.
After waiting three minutes for a reply and hearing no jingling music or vibration 'buzzing' Bella realized that Alice didn't have her cellphone. Puzzled beyond belief, Bella retyped the message on her phone and handed the open phone towards Alice.
" Type your reply please. ", Bella quietly replied before Alice had the change to read what was flashing on the screen. The same thing, except edited from before. This time, all Bella had typed was: ' I'm pregnant. Jack's the father.'
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✿But when I'm gone...will you✉to me?✿ ↙xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx [Click the top picture for Bella's outfit...I have discovered Polyvore...haha]
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 8:39 pm
 ▬▬ alice humphrey ▬▬OH I NEED THE DARKNESS
THE SWEETNESS, THE SADNESS
THE WEAKNESS
OH, I NEED THIS.
I NEED A LULLABY
A KISS GOODNIGHT
ANGEL, SWEET LOVE OF MY LIFE
OH I NEED THIS.
Once Alice was able to keep herself from crying right there in the car, she turned back in Adam's direction to see his reaction to what she had just said. A very large piece of her wanted to reach out to him, to just touch him on the shoulder and tell him that she wanted more than anything to be with him. She had to keep that at bay, at least, for now. It wasn't safe for any of them if she let that out in the open for everyone to see.
Thankfully, a distraction from Alice's thoughts presented itself in the form of a cell phone being handed to her. It was Bella's. Looking down at the screen, Alice could see that Bella was trying to tell her something. At first, reading the words, she almost didn't register their meaning. Oh no... what if she tried to send this to my phone? Alexis has it and she'll find out that... WAIT! BELLA IS PREGNANT!? With JACK'S child? Alice froze, not knowing exactly how to respond. She knew that Bella had requested that she type her response, but somehow that instruction seemed to get lost in the mix of what she was reading on the screen of Bella's phone. So... this is why Skylar's so upset. I guess she picked the right guy to run to for comfort... Alice needed to scold herself for thinking that last part in such the negative manner that she had. She had to reminder herself once again that she had absolutely no reason to be upset with Skylar, or Cailen. They were the ones hurting right now. Still, now that she had a cell phone in her hand, she couldn't help but use it to send Cailen a text... even if he was driving and couldn't read it at the moment, he would read it later.
From: Bella
To: Cailen
Msg: It's Alice. I'm using Bella's phone.
I'm sorry.
I... I want to talk.
When we get to the location.
Don't text back, just...
we'll talk later, okay?
"So are you guys like... together or something?" Alice turned around to hand Bella back her cell phone and questioned, immediately wishing that she could take back the fact that she had just asked that... out loud. Often when she was struck with such shocking news, she wasn't able to think clearly, and this was definitely one of those situations. "Oh my gosh... I just made this awkward... didn't I?" She didn't really need to ask the last part of her question, fully knowing that she had definitely added some awkward to the air within the car. She could feel her face turning red at just how embarrassed she was to have even asked that question in anything but a text reply to Bella. She couldn't even imagine how embarrassed Jack and Bella were. Alice wasn't even sure if Adam knew.
outofcharacter: . . .
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Posted: Fri Feb 11, 2011 9:35 pm
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I've been s•e•a•r•c•h•i•n•g deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get ɵȴʠ
L o o k s like I'm starting all over again
The last t h r e e years were just pretend... ≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎≎  Skylar knew that Cailen was somewhat upset with her by his reaction. It was possible that she could have offended him with her statements. Hearing what Cailen said about knowing how she felt, Skylar was a bit confused. How would he know all that? Did he just know what it felt like to be cheated on from books and movies? She didn’t think about it that long. Suddenly, Alice was there saying they had to leave and that Cailen and Skylar would be in his car. She saw the look on Alice’s face before she spoke. What was she doing? Here she was upset about the fact that Jack cheated on her and she was grieving to her best friend’s boyfriend. She was glad that Alice hadn’t seen Cailen with his arms around her. At least, Skylar hoped Alice hadn’t seen it.
The thought of all of them going somewhere secluded where they could hide wasn’t really something that thrilled Skylar. She didn’t want to be in a place alone with Jack and Bella. The two of them were probably estactic about the fact that Skylar and Jack were no longer together. It had never really been decided but Sky knew there was no point in a relationship with him anymore. ”I don’t want to go where everyone else is going, Cailen. I just want to go home.” The tears were gone from her voice and they had stopped flowing from her eyes. There was probably no more water left to spare in her body.
She didn’t even have the energy to fight anymore. She simply followed Cailen to his car. She sat in the passenger seat in the front and pulled her knees up to her chest. She looked out the window instead of at him. She just couldn’t do that at the moment. ”I just want to be mad at someone, other than myself.” The weariness she felt showed in her voice. ”I want to be mad at Jack. I really want to be mad at him. He lied to me about his feelings. The worst part is not even that he did it. The worst part…” She took a breath before continuing. ”The worst part is that I wasn’t important enough for him to even stop.” The tears slowly started to fall again. ”He didn’t even think about me at all or it wouldn’t have happened. He didn’t stop and wait to break up with me before going with it. I guess I’m an easy person to forget but…” She just shook her head and closed her eyes. The tears fell silently.
Continuing to look out the window, Skylar continued. ”I want to be mad at her. I know I shouldn’t be telling you this because she is your sister but I want to. I want to scream at her for not stopping this. I know we are not the closest and I feel bad about that. I guess it’s my fault in some ways. But she didn’t stop it either. She didn’t care that Jack was dating me.” She realized she would have to stop. Cailen shouldn’t have to listen to her babble on like this. ”I’m sorry… I just wished they wouldn’t have lied to me. I’d rather they have told me the instant that it happened. I know I wouldn’t feel like this if they had.” She chanced a look at Cailen to see what his reaction was to her little rant.
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G o o d b y e to everything that I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I t r i e d to h•o•l•d on to
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Posted: Sat Feb 12, 2011 10:12 am
 Cailen Legosi Before Cailen had a chance to start the car once Skylar climbed into the passenger seat, he felt his phone go off again in his pocket. He really didn’t want to look at it after the message he just received, but for all he knew it could be important. He grumbled once he realized the message was from Adam. What does he want? He read the message, but it didn’t really make things better. He was still angry with Adam no matter what he said. He’d have a lot of explaining to do in order to redeem himself now. He closed his phone and reached for his keys to start the car, but once again he was interrupted by his phone. What now? They weren’t going to get anywhere if everyone kept bugging him. When he realized the message was from Bella, his anger disappeared. He wasn’t mad at her and he didn’t want to be. They were going to Kenwood Pond? He vaguely remembered going there as a kid. I wonder what there is there? He hadn’t been there in years so he couldn’t remember what there was there that could be helpful to them. He knew they were going to have to lay low for a while, and wondered if that Harrison guy had a cabin or someplace for them to stay.
Cailen looked over at Skylar who hadn’t even looked at him since she got in the car. He knew she really didn’t want to be around everyone else right now, but at least they had the car ride to mull things over a bit. There was no way he would let her go home, at least not right now. They all needed to stick together no matter how painful it was going to be for them. He finally turned the car on and pulled out behind Adam making sure to stay close like Bella wished. He was quiet as he listened to Skylar. He made sure to hear every word she said, as well as keep an eye on where they were going. He agreed that it was hard being angry with yourself. Why do we punish ourselves when it was the other person that hurt you? As she went on to further explain what hurt her the most, he instantly agreed with her. His level of understanding was more than what she realized. They were feeling the same things. Was he not important enough for Alice to not go through with it? What were her and Adam thinking that night? Did I cross their minds at all?
As Skylar went on, Cailen could hear her voice shaking and he could tell she began crying again. When she started to mention Bella, he became a little cautious. He knew she was in it just as much as Jack was, but she was his sister. It was hard for him to wrap his mind around her also being at fault for hurting Skylar. He felt like he was stuck between a rock and a hard place. He wanted to be angry with the people that hurt Skylar like this, but he just couldn’t be mad at his sister. A little pang of anger hit him when she accused Bella of not caring. He knew it was just his over-protectiveness kicking in, wanting to defend Bella against anyone who might think badly of her. But this time Skylar was right. Bella did do this, though Cailen knew it wasn’t because she didn’t care. He knew Bella felt bad for what she did, but he had to admit that she wasn’t so innocent anymore. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Skylar finally look over in his direction. He tried giving her a look of understanding. He knew she was upset about what happened, and he could relate to her.
Seeing her eyes puffy and red from crying, he wanted to do what he could to make it up to her. He wanted her to know that he was here for her, that together they could both get through it. He reached his hand over and grabbed hers to comfort her. “It’s ok. It’s ok to be angry at the person who hurt you. I know exactly how you feel, trust me” he said giving her hand a gentle squeeze. “I just found out today that Alice slept with Adam back when we were taking one of our ‘breaks’. I know we weren’t really together, but we hadn’t really separated yet. I mean if she really felt that way about Adam, why didn’t she tell me? Why did she hide it from me and then continue to date me when she felt that way? It hurts knowing that she could so easily rebound.” Cailen took opened his mouth to continue, but stopped. He was going to say that the worst part was they Adam gave Alice HIV. He was going to explain how by her sleeping with Adam got her infected and that by not telling him could have infected him too. He wanted to say it all, just so he too could confide in someone, but he wasn’t sure if he should tell her. Alice might not want anyone to know, and this wasn’t Cailen’s secret to share.
As much as he was angry at Adam and even Alice, he didn’t want to ruin both of their lives even further. Knowing that Skylar might be waiting for him to say something since he started to, but stopped, he had to think of something else to say so she wouldn’t get suspicious. “I guess you and me are in the same boat. I know you don’t want to be near everyone else right now, but at least we have each other. Just remember that, you aren’t alone in all this. I’m here for you no matter what.” Cailen took comfort in knowing that. He needed her just as much as she needed him; they needed each other. After a few moments of silence, he felt the need to say something else. “I just want to know that you deserve better. I know Jack was a great guy, but like with Alice, it just wasn’t meant to be. You, Skylar, deserve someone who is going to love you till the ends of the Earth. There is someone out there who wants you and only you. No other girl is going to compare.” He stopped before he got too ahead of himself. What was he saying? He knew it was all true, but he couldn’t help but think if that guy was him. For as long as he’s known her, they’ve both been unavailable so he never really thought of her in that way, but now things have changed. He saw her in a whole new way.   xxxxxxxxxxxx I tried to give her everything
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx That she was searching for
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut she wanted morexxxxxxxxxxxxMore than she could find in my arms
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxMore than my world, more than this little town
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I wonder if she found it
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2011 9:47 am
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Seeing Bella pass the phone up the front didn’t alarm Jack in anyway; girls liked to pass notes. He just clutched his own phone in his hand like Bella to her new teddy. He couldn’t stop thinking about his choices and his future with Bella. He felt horrible for hurting Skylar, but like Alice said: it’s better to hurt than not hurt at all. He couldn’t help but take in a big breath and let it out slowly and easily. It took a large load off his back. If Skylar were to hate him for the longest time, he would let her. He deserved to be hated. What suddenly brought his attention now was Alice’s voice. It made his eyebrows shoot up into his hairline. What did Bella just tell her? Jack felt himself bite the inside of his cheeks to keep from answering. It seemed Alice caught her mistake. She had made the entire atmosphere in the car awkward. Sure, it would be nice to be official with Bella, but he didn’t know if that was what she wanted. It was probably too soon to say anything. Which was funny to think, since Bella was pregnant. (When is it not too soon to ask her out?)
Jack looked towards Bella and parted his lips to speak, hesitated, but finally aimed his attention at Alice: “It’s complicated.” It was the only thing he thought to say that was the least bit appropriate to answer her question. He wasn’t going to let it go unnoticed. He flipped his phone open quietly and started to type in a text message to Bella, he figured it would be the best time.
To: Bella
From: Jack
Message: I know it’s a confusing time and so much crap is happening,
I just want to talk to you at some point about us.
I want to know what YOU want.
He clicked ‘send’ and clutched the phone as if it were his lifeline in the palm of his hand. He was scared to feel the vibrations of a response, he was scared that she would not even respond. It was weird to just text to someone who was right beside him, but he was not going to speak aloud, especially of Bella didn’t want anymore attention drawn to them.
[ooc: sorry it's so short. D: I also made a polyvore outfit thing. It's linked in one of Jack's pictures. btw, here's an image for Jack's car.]
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2011 10:49 am
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I taste your scent in the wind
I set my sail but then you sink my boat
So I begin to swim
Bash my foes until I win
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" Well... it's good that we aren't dating."
Alice's words continued to run over and over in Adam's head like a broken record. If not for counting the mile markers every so often to make mental judgements of time, he wouldn't have known exactly how long he was mulling over those words. Had it been five minutes? Ten?...two? Adam didn't care, all he could contemplate at the moment was the conversation him and Alice had had in his apartment before Cailen punched him in the face. Alice had actually begged, pleaded, that he not go to Boston and now...' She couldn't have f***ing changed her mind so fast...', but the proof was staring Adam in the face. She realizes she doesn't know which one of us she wants more...and right now she's leaning towards Cailen. It seemed to be the logical answer, and for a moment Adam began to consider it.
" Well... it's good that we aren't dating."
' How is it f***ing good Alice? What? You think that us not being together will spare me some unwanted drama or something? Thats complete BULLSH*T.', Adam's facial muscles tightened and his adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed his frustration. As much as he wanted to punish himself with harsh: She lost interest in you comments, Adam couldn't make himself believe them. Yes, each thought felt like a throbbing stab wound; but, he couldn't believe them until she told those very things to his face. ' If you -don't- want to date me, AFTER ALL YOU SAID TO ME EARLIER, then what the HELL do you WANT?', Half tempted to stop the car, Adam lifted his left hand from the steering wheel to roll down the window a few inches in the hope that the cool air would gently rustle some sense into his head. With such upset subjects tumbling about his brain, his mind had to be in a poor state, shouldn't it be?
Seeing movement in the corner of his eye, Adam averted his gaze from the road long enough to see Alice holding Bella's cellphone. Similar to Jack, Adam passed it off as girls sharing photos or messages, and turned his attention to the road. However, at hearing the tone in Alice's voice and the words she used, Adam's eyes bulged like a frog and he raised his right hand from the wheel to adjust the rear-view mirror. Pinning it downwards in such a way as to see Bella and Jack's reactions in the corner of his eye. ' Bella and JACK?!? NO WAY.', Remembering all the days when Bella used to openly detest his 'clean-freak-itis', the idea of Jack having left Skylar for Bella was too great for his mind to handle. Later, he would be pleased from the distraction from Him and Alice; however, at the present he felt just as upset and concerned. ' All those months of me crushing on Bella and Jack didn't say anything to me? ANYTHING? He could have said something!' Even, no...especially, Adam understood the concept of being jealous over someone even when you or they were dating someone else. If Jack had feelings for Bella, then that meant he had just 'let' his friend try and put the moves on her without saying a word. To be the potential cause of pain for his friend, caused Adam to become almost breathless.
Jack's answer was the biggest surprise of all. Adam had been expecting him to say 'ha, no.' He didn't. He said: 'It's complicated'. Sharing a glance with Alice, Adam debated whether or not 'everything' was 'complicated' right now. Knowing he missed something -big- Adam turned to Alice with one eyebrow raised in question. Vaguely seeing Bella typing something in the background.
" Whats going on?"
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Byzantine mozaic in the heat
I am cursed, through the worst
With a life that's made to burn
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