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 Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:09 pm
iBarty Shoujo Phoenix Omggggg. Juno rules. She fixed the layering of penguins and seals so they layer like they used to back in 04 o___o I reported it in one of her journals a couple months ago <33
I just made this avi because I'm so super excited about it.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:17 pm
iBarty So....I found out tonight after work that my mom has cancer. I'm not sure exactly what to feel. I feel a little pain inside, but I haven't let myself cry or anything. We don't know if it's spread or anything, but...there's a chance it might have because she said she's felt this sort of lump for three weeks when she swallows, and there's a tingling under the right arm pit (like pins and needles). I don't know if I should go to Anime Detour now because she'll probably be in the hospital by then. But..knowing her she'd tell me to go have fun but I just..don't know. I'm not all that worried about it yet, but the idea of it is scary and it's really upsetting right now because if something were to happen I don't know what I'd do. She's like..the only other person that's really there for me if I did need it. And if she did die, I don't know where I'd live because I'd be alone with no way to pay for rent or anything. She told me I could still live at home, have people move in (though she mentioned one of my sisters if she got a job but...truthfully, I wouldn't let her move in because she hasn't found a job in months and she smokes weed which I don't care but I'd rather not live with someone that does that stuff). That way I would be able to take care of the water & gas, electricity, etc. There wouldn't be a mortgage to pay because she got insurance on the loan so got to pay off the rest of last mortgage. I forgot what it's called again...it's not the home equity loan, but it was just one to help pay the 12k on the last mortgage. I think it starts with a s? Anyway...so, yeah..that's about it. I just..I don't know what I'll do if I lose her. I'm lucky she didn't die in the car accident she was in when the hood of the car went up into the front window. If it had gone any further than it did, she would have been decapitated and I'd be completely parentless by now. I don't know..I just hope it hasn't spread. I hope everything will be alright.... I think I need ice cream right now.
Don't approach this wracked by fear, but learn as much as you can about the kind of cancer she has and what treatments she will be taking so you and her can make the most of however long she has left... be it 2 years or 30 years. It may seem an impossible road, but the right moods can aid her treatment and should she pass on you would rather have pleasant memories of your remaining time together
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Streamjumper Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:22 pm
iBarty So....I found out tonight after work that my mom has cancer. I'm not sure exactly what to feel. I feel a little pain inside, but I haven't let myself cry or anything. We don't know if it's spread or anything, but...there's a chance it might have because she said she's felt this sort of lump for three weeks when she swallows, and there's a tingling under the right arm pit (like pins and needles). I don't know if I should go to Anime Detour now because she'll probably be in the hospital by then. But..knowing her she'd tell me to go have fun but I just..don't know. I'm not all that worried about it yet, but the idea of it is scary and it's really upsetting right now because if something were to happen I don't know what I'd do. She's like..the only other person that's really there for me if I did need it. And if she did die, I don't know where I'd live because I'd be alone with no way to pay for rent or anything. She told me I could still live at home, have people move in (though she mentioned one of my sisters if she got a job but...truthfully, I wouldn't let her move in because she hasn't found a job in months and she smokes weed which I don't care but I'd rather not live with someone that does that stuff). That way I would be able to take care of the water & gas, electricity, etc. There wouldn't be a mortgage to pay because she got insurance on the loan so got to pay off the rest of last mortgage. I forgot what it's called again...it's not the home equity loan, but it was just one to help pay the 12k on the last mortgage. I think it starts with a s? Anyway...so, yeah..that's about it. I just..I don't know what I'll do if I lose her. I'm lucky she didn't die in the car accident she was in when the hood of the car went up into the front window. If it had gone any further than it did, she would have been decapitated and I'd be completely parentless by now. I don't know..I just hope it hasn't spread. I hope everything will be alright.... I think I need ice cream right now.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:23 pm
Streamjumper iBarty Streamjumper Phoenix Goliathane To be fair, he was rather angry back in the day, but I believe he's mellowed out a bit. Anyway. Harbls. Also: lol@gaia qqing over the coralluses. Though the recent poses I didn't really like, including the final one. Yeah... I was rather disappointed at what was basically another chinese zodiac helmet with nothing else... and the other forms were a little on the weak side for my taste. And is it just me or is anyone else looking at the White Drome Egg and thinking about velociraptor attacks? Actually though, the cape and the hood redeem it heartily in my opinion... they were added after I wrote that.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:24 pm
Shoujo Phoenix iBarty Shoujo Phoenix Omggggg. Juno rules. She fixed the layering of penguins and seals so they layer like they used to back in 04 o___o I reported it in one of her journals a couple months ago <33
I just made this avi because I'm so super excited about it.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:27 pm
Streamjumper iBarty So....I found out tonight after work that my mom has cancer. I'm not sure exactly what to feel. I feel a little pain inside, but I haven't let myself cry or anything. We don't know if it's spread or anything, but...there's a chance it might have because she said she's felt this sort of lump for three weeks when she swallows, and there's a tingling under the right arm pit (like pins and needles). I don't know if I should go to Anime Detour now because she'll probably be in the hospital by then. But..knowing her she'd tell me to go have fun but I just..don't know. I'm not all that worried about it yet, but the idea of it is scary and it's really upsetting right now because if something were to happen I don't know what I'd do. She's like..the only other person that's really there for me if I did need it. And if she did die, I don't know where I'd live because I'd be alone with no way to pay for rent or anything. She told me I could still live at home, have people move in (though she mentioned one of my sisters if she got a job but...truthfully, I wouldn't let her move in because she hasn't found a job in months and she smokes weed which I don't care but I'd rather not live with someone that does that stuff). That way I would be able to take care of the water & gas, electricity, etc. There wouldn't be a mortgage to pay because she got insurance on the loan so got to pay off the rest of last mortgage. I forgot what it's called again...it's not the home equity loan, but it was just one to help pay the 12k on the last mortgage. I think it starts with a s? Anyway...so, yeah..that's about it. I just..I don't know what I'll do if I lose her. I'm lucky she didn't die in the car accident she was in when the hood of the car went up into the front window. If it had gone any further than it did, she would have been decapitated and I'd be completely parentless by now. I don't know..I just hope it hasn't spread. I hope everything will be alright.... I think I need ice cream right now.
Don't approach this wracked by fear, but learn as much as you can about the kind of cancer she has and what treatments she will be taking so you and her can make the most of however long she has left... be it 2 years or 30 years. It may seem an impossible road, but the right moods can aid her treatment and should she pass on you would rather have pleasant memories of your remaining time together
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:27 pm
Skizzors Streamjumper Skizzors The V-Day sleeves.. I like white, black, and red the most. But I think they all have potential heart I'm not the least bit impressed with em. They're totally unusable to me and most male avvies. Gaia needs a lot of male clothing... starting with a few more types and colors of dress pants, shirts, and jackets. *flaps arms about* ninja I agree, though. Gaia is being jerks to the guys for making SO many female-centric items.. not just recently, but for basically the entire life of the site. Not necessarily. Even IRL, there are far more girl clothes than guy clothes. (Aside from the old bit about guys not liking to shop.) I mean, looking through my wardrobe, the general day-to-day stuff I wear is: -T-shirt. Usually, either something that's beat down, or something that looks vintage with a witty caption across the front. (My favorite among these is the "This Is Why I'm Hot" one. -Possibly a long-sleeved shirt under it. -Jeans. Currently, I prefer jeans with a bit of give, but that's because I'm not comfortable with showing the curves of my a** to the world. (I mean, certainly, I have a very nice a**, but that's for private.) -Sneakers. I only really keep one pair - a brown pair of Converse skates. Contemplating getting a pair of Chucks, but something tells me I should get leather sneaks because walking through the rain in suede is a b***h. -Belt. The two I use most often are rather different - one has holes cut out of it, while the other has gold crosses embedded all around it. (I like the second one better, but my mother calls it a girl's belt. OKAY THEN.) -Hoodie or pullover sweatshirt. Sometimes I switch it up with a buttoned-down shirt. (Generally left somewhat unbuttoned and with the cuffs rolled up - I like the rumpled look plus if the shirt doesn't go all the way down to my wrists it doesn't matter that much.) Most of that IS unisex; I could wear a lot of that stuff as a girl and not be looked at as horribly butch. A chick could even wear a suit and not look too bad, most of the time. (Of course, then we have crazy s**t like Celine Dion's infamous backwards tux.) But if I were to wear a lot of stuff that girls wear, in those cuts? I'd look like I was trying to be effeminate. And I mean, even girl jeans (sup Suyo) or a lot of the odd cuts that women wear. I think Gaia's reflective of how people actually dress - women drive by like five billion stores and can even wear the heck out of men's s**t, but it doesn't work in reverse. Another thing is that I'd venture to say that the majority of Gaia is girls and guys that act like girls. (Mostly girls, though.) They WOULD play towards that.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:45 pm
Phoenix Goliathane Skizzors Streamjumper Skizzors The V-Day sleeves.. I like white, black, and red the most. But I think they all have potential heart I'm not the least bit impressed with em. They're totally unusable to me and most male avvies. Gaia needs a lot of male clothing... starting with a few more types and colors of dress pants, shirts, and jackets. *flaps arms about* ninja I agree, though. Gaia is being jerks to the guys for making SO many female-centric items.. not just recently, but for basically the entire life of the site. Not necessarily. Even IRL, there are far more girl clothes than guy clothes. (Aside from the old bit about guys not liking to shop.) I mean, looking through my wardrobe, the general day-to-day stuff I wear is: -T-shirt. Usually, either something that's beat down, or something that looks vintage with a witty caption across the front. (My favorite among these is the "This Is Why I'm Hot" one. -Possibly a long-sleeved shirt under it. -Jeans. Currently, I prefer jeans with a bit of give, but that's because I'm not comfortable with showing the curves of my a** to the world. (I mean, certainly, I have a very nice a**, but that's for private.) -Sneakers. I only really keep one pair - a brown pair of Converse skates. Contemplating getting a pair of Chucks, but something tells me I should get leather sneaks because walking through the rain in suede is a b***h. -Belt. The two I use most often are rather different - one has holes cut out of it, while the other has gold crosses embedded all around it. (I like the second one better, but my mother calls it a girl's belt. OKAY THEN.) -Hoodie or pullover sweatshirt. Sometimes I switch it up with a buttoned-down shirt. (Generally left somewhat unbuttoned and with the cuffs rolled up - I like the rumpled look plus if the shirt doesn't go all the way down to my wrists it doesn't matter that much.) Most of that IS unisex; I could wear a lot of that stuff as a girl and not be looked at as horribly butch. A chick could even wear a suit and not look too bad, most of the time. (Of course, then we have crazy s**t like Celine Dion's infamous backwards tux.) But if I were to wear a lot of stuff that girls wear, in those cuts? I'd look like I was trying to be effeminate. And I mean, even girl jeans (sup Suyo) or a lot of the odd cuts that women wear. I think Gaia's reflective of how people actually dress - women drive by like five billion stores and can even wear the heck out of men's s**t, but it doesn't work in reverse. Another thing is that I'd venture to say that the majority of Gaia is girls and guys that act like girls. (Mostly girls, though.) They WOULD play towards that.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:54 pm
Bart is going to attempt to get some sleep... Though I have a feeling I'll be up late on the phone again with Joasis because I told him I wanted to talk. It's a good feeling when you know you have someone to talk to. But yeah. I'll update later tomorrow whenever my mom tells me about what the doctor said.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:57 pm
Bart, I'm sorry about your mom. I hope it's not too serious. Hopefully they'll be able to start treating it really soon!! sad heart
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2008 3:46 am
Streamjumper Ashram McDuck Alright, I'll be leaving here in less than a hour. See You Guys After TAF Have fun! Had fun getting here, that's for sure. Five hours in transit to my final destination was packed full of fun fun funness. Anywho, Ash reporting live from an internet cafe in Akihabara. I didn't know you could pay the equivalent of $40 and get a comfy (yet small) place to surf the internet, read manga, watch movies, play games and what not for up to 12 hours. I even got a little bed and access to showers! Sweet deal.
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2008 3:51 am
Ashram McDuck Anywho, Ash reporting live from an internet cafe in Akihabara. I didn't know you could pay the equivalent of $40 and get a comfy (yet small) place to surf the internet, read manga, watch movies, play games and what not for up to 12 hours. I even got a little bed and access to showers! Sweet deal. That's pretty cheap. eek
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2008 4:52 am
Skizzors Ashram McDuck Anywho, Ash reporting live from an internet cafe in Akihabara. I didn't know you could pay the equivalent of $40 and get a comfy (yet small) place to surf the internet, read manga, watch movies, play games and what not for up to 12 hours. I even got a little bed and access to showers! Sweet deal. That's pretty cheap. eek That's what I thought ... plus, forgot to mention, free (non-alcoholic) drinks. :3Currently watching Utena to boot.
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2008 7:02 am
@Bart: With any luck the fact that she just feels a lump means they can find out if it's malignant, and do something about it quickly. I know when they found out my mom might have cancer, they did a biopsy and found it to be benign, so they'll be checking again in a few months, but chances are it's nothing to worry about.
Good luck heart
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2008 10:38 am
hilaroma Bart, I'm sorry about your mom. I hope it's not too serious. Hopefully they'll be able to start treating it really soon!! sad heart
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