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Make up your ******** mind. Hate me or like me, not that difficult a decision I would imagine.

Sounds like my friend IRL. Well, former friend.

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I honestly can't deal with this anymore. I'm sorry, but you're seriously killing me. I've been supporting you and trying to make you as happy as possible during the time we've been friends and I've known you have cancer.

But I just can't approve of how you're dealing with your boyfriend, even if he is a giant t**t. I know this makes me sound like a huge goody goody, but I don't approve of you loading yourself on alcohol, pot and other drugs to try to deal with it. And then callously saying you don't mind if you OD? What exactly do you think I am? You know every time you're really sick I freak out and get seriously upset that you may never sign in again.

Now I just wish you'd go away. And I know that probably makes me a horrible person, but damn. I'm emotionally exhausted and getting physically ill to the point were I can't handle s**t.

Not that any of this matters, seeing a you took off and possibly even killed yourself anyways.

And I'm sorry again Mega, I'm not purposely withholding information from my bff, I was just shaking very badly and about to throw up. When I afk'd to sleep I had to pace my room biting my hand so I didn't get sick.

How the hell was I supposed to know if what I said would ******** hurt your feelings IF YOU NEVER ******** TOLD ME ABOUT IT?! You can't resent me for something I said if I had absolutely no ******** clue it would be hurtful? And you're getting irritated with <******** off and get over yourself. Seriously.

I didn't know I was hurting your feelings, but you're ******** PURPOSELY hurting mine.

I sat there through your bleeding heart bullshit, disregarded all of my hurt feelings and begged you to act like an actual human being, and through it all it'll always revolve around what a hurt little martyr you are.

And as you kept talking about how you were hurting, about how you wanted out because you were so sorry and just felt so horrible about how you screwed up, at some point you started talking about disregarding us for the others, because we made you feel bad.

Because we weren't going to say how horrible human beings we were along with you.

I have initiated things to try and save this friendship. I have sat through your hurling fits of emotion as you continually bungled your way through this, at times purposely sabotaging your own efforts to try and fix this because you felt bad because of how it worked out. I kept my feelings of betrayal and overall disillusionment with everything you have ever said to the effect of me being such a close friend, even a best friend, to myself. I barely mentioned it once to get your attention on how much you were screwing this s**t up.

You want out of being my friend so horribly that you have to try and show everyone else that you can fall to in times of trouble? Then go to them. Because you didn't notice; I tried fixing things. For that entire while, I was the initiator. I suggested things for us to do, took part as best I could, and did all I could do to keep you around. And I sat there and told you that it would be alright. I didn't say this to convince myself or you, I said it because it was the truth.

In the end, you're still too wound up on your own personal faults to notice how anyone but yourself feels. And if you do, it's only so in the end it can come back to how that ultimately affects you. Because even when you stare at other people, it's just so you can look back at yourself.

If you didn't notice that, then I've no point in this.

Funny, when I started writing this all I could feel was anger, but now? I'm just numb.

Major rage time so bear with me:

Here goes...


You know, I bust my a** for my company and work as hard as I can, even harder than most of your lead agents and supervisors. yet I get written up for sticking up for myself and use my 3 absences as of late as an excuse? I'm sorry, but that's bullshit. Pure absolutely ******** bullshit. Just because you're a ******** bridge troll looking b***h who needs to stop acting ******** butthurt because I decided to stick up for myself when you tried to make an example out of me like I'm some sort of joke. I'm a professional goddamn it. I work my a** off and have no major issue staying late unless I have prior engagements. Hell, I've worked 20+ hours during storms and major travel times and this, THIS is how I get treated? Get off your ******** high horse. ******** you, your operation, the company you work for, and the company that your company is contracted under.


And the best part? You bypass strike 1and said that this strike is my "Final Warning". Really ******** professional you dumb fat disgusting waste of life.

You have all the empathy in my bones sir. Every last drop.

Sorry for this rant.. it's kind of dark.

Don't you even know what your doing to me? I can't even POST with you around. There is nothing that you have done for me that I have felt any happiness from.
Some Secret Santa you were.
If I even stay in the guild that long... Trust me. If that Time comes, I know it'll be you or the other person that hates me that will do it.
I'm sure.

Call me a whore, even in character one more time and I'll strike out.. I won't strike out about you though. No.. No one would even know what's going on behind this computer screen.. I'll Just be alone.. swallowing the guilt that should have never existed.
And no one would even know what I could do to myself.
Overly Sensitive?
You know it.. you probably didn't have to deal with people like yourself before.. IT'S CALLED CYBER BULLYING. IT'S THE GOD DAMN SAME THING AS IF YOU WOULD DO IT TO MY FACE. You do it to my face though...
You'd have to deal with the girl who's broken people's collar bones, arms.. It stops people from talking because they had no idea that their words hurt me more then I hurt them.

I am a broken doll.. Push me farther.. this doll's cute little face will fall..