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Aezon switched glaces at Diamond to Glacian. He had well wanted his very own lightsaber. He looked down at his belt and grabed the hilt of his training saber squeezing it tightly hoping it would become a lightsaber. It had obiously failed.

He looked up at Glacian and presented the training saber to him. It had marks and scratches from all of the training he did. If you squinted it even looked like the blade was bent. "No I have not." He finally said. "All I have is this zapping training saber. It's not much but it will have to do until I construct my very own lightsaber with the help of a master. I find that you too have not a saber yet."

Aezon had felt warm inside finding that he was not the only padawan in the Jedi Temple who had not had a lightsaber. He had had a true lightsaber from a Sith apprentice he once mirraculously killed with a single vibroblade. His lightsaber was taken from him after he had destroyed it true master. But Aezon did not fell like telling them both that. He knew that Glacian and Diamond could both feel that he had somthing to say.

Kari sat on the ground with with her hands together, she emplied her mind which turn out to be harder then she thought. After a few moments she was able to concentrate on the force, and sit in silence feeling the force around her. As she concentrated she could feel something with the force that didn''t seem right, however she ignored it and went back to concentrating on the force.

Aezon smiled at the sight of the lightsaber. He had not seen one in so long. At least not since his lightsaber had been taken away. He did not want to mention it but Glacian had somehow begin to slowly pull it out of him. Aezon took a last breath and looked up at him.

"That is very clever you. I had my own dual-bladed lightsaber but it was taken away. You may not believe this but it was from the first Sith apprentice I had slain. The Jedi masters had watched me defeat a fully trained Sith defeat a young 12 year old boy strong in the force. And yet that boy was me."

Aezon could not help admitting that he was jealous of Glacain because of his lightsaber, and because he at least knew his parents a little bit. He had always dreamed of igniting his lightsaber and become engaged in battle with another individual. Aezon never knew his parents he was abandoned in the moist grass outside of the Jedi Temple.

He had sworn to complete his training and be able to meet his mother and father, or at least know their names. Aezon was to young to remember a thing back then. All he knew was that it was getting harder to breathe and easier to die. But he held on and waited for the right person to find him.

But now there he was standing before a couple fellow Jedi disscussing their lives. He knew he was one step closer to finding his mother and father and completing his story.

"hmm, you felt the dark side, didn't you?
It's not bad, necissarily... it is how you use it. The best of the jedi used the dark side in battle.. Kyle Katarn for example mastered the Lightning and grip powers, because he had fallen to the dark side for a while. Once he controlled that side, it became an advantage in battle, the only difference is that a "true dark sider"'s dark powers are stronger...
Maniac, the jedi that dissapeared 3 years ago, learned those moves in a short dark period too, and did use them again when he was back to the light, according to archives... I, I mastered them without ever falling... and sometimes they really do give an edge..
Try to control those powers and a world of force, and of knowledge, opens for you... Knowledge of both sides of the force can make you understand historical documents better, and way more. Just never loose the balance, never go too far..."

Swex smiled a bit, looking at the student facing the dark side a bit... it amused him.. Never go too far.. but not to little to.. find the center, the neutral side, and the path of wisdom and freedom lies open for you... no more protecting the republic, just an endless quest of fully understanding. swexs mind seemed to dwell to neutrality again, but he quickly recovered..noone should know, not yet...not yet.

"Yes, some" said Glacian. "They were both strong jedi, but my father was expelled because of some of his outspoken views against some of the more dogmatic principals of the jedi order. Even though some called him a dark jedi, he never was, he always was a jedi, and my mother knew so when she followed him fromt he order. As fro my saber, i feel that it is not only an extension of my body, but a piece of my parents, I can swear that when i use it, i can almost feel them, or their minds, flowing through it and guiding me. It may be because i used both of their lightsabers to build my own, even the case is a mix of theirs. I had to scour the wreckage of our transport ship to fing the hilts."

"The Force is strange at times but everything happens because the Force wants it to. Sometimes I think the Code is out of date though, I have felt such forbidden emotions as passion for someone. I have never felt as powerful or as skilled in my life but in the end the masters made me choose between my love or my duties..."

At that moment Diamond knew he had said too much but somehow felt better about it. At that Diamond reahced deep within the Force and started to skim the minds of his two Jedi friends, he felt such great passion in them and knew they were skilled in so many ways. He knew what he just did was wrong but somehow their emotions made him stronger.

With a smile on his face he continued.

"I look forward to the day when I am taken by a master and fully trained. But we all seek that in the end: to become fully fledged Jedi Knights. In my opinion there is no greater honour for anyone who is Force Sensitive."

Somehow Diamond didn't believe that but then again he was young...

"My father said the same thing about the rules, he said that it was the bounds in our life that made us strong, and if they were weak, so were we, but if those bounds were strong, so were we as well. He said we draw strength from bounds with people even if it is not one of passion, but just friendship, and that if our bounds could survive the death of someone we shared a bound with, it made use stronger and would allows us to still feel that person through the force." Glacian said and then added, "And I think the force helps those who help themselves, and those who sit waiting to be told what to do by it will never truely know it's helping hand."

"Patience is a neccesity fro anyone who wishes to succed in anything, especially a jedi.," said Glacian. He too had a some wisdom to impart on his fellow jedi.