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I wish I wasn't me.

Is it odd that I'm with with a man I've never seen in real life? Is it strange that I've fallen for someone who cannot pull his arms around me and hold me close? Is it wrong to fall in love...



Everyone that's dating online that I've met either met their man in person before or after talking to them online. Me? It's not so much that. I met Joseph online about six months ago. We started talking and role playing 1-on-1, and about 2 months into our friendship, he expressed his feelings for me. I was shocked and surprised. I didn't know what to say. But I thought and I prayed, and after some time, I returned his feelings. We've been together like this for 4 months now.



For one thing, my mother took the news of an internet boyfriend hard. She said she hated it, so ever since then, I've avoided the subject, bringing him up subtly to let her know I'm still with him. But when will I ever be able to talk about him freely again? When will she understand?

My Dad took it a little lighter, but said to keep my options open. Although this is a little better than what my mother's reaction was, I still know that he does not understand. I don't want to keep my options open. I never wanted them open to begin with, even when I was single. There is no one around here.... and I mean NO ONE... that I even remotely like. It's Joseph who helped me open my eyes, and eventually my heart, to love. Why would I want to keep my options open with a guy like that by my side?

I love Joseph, even more than life itself, if you can believe it. I've chatted with him, and talked with him on the phone, listening to the soothing sound of his sweet voice carrase my fragile heart. He's treated my so gently, like I were a wounded dove or a crying child: tenderly and with immense love and compassion. That's what I've always wanted... it's all I ever wanted.

So I don't care what my parents, or rather anyone says! I'm sticking by my man, even if he is halfway across the country! He's mine, and I'm his. It may sound crazy, but that's what love does to you! Sometimes, you have to go a little nuts to fall in love!

I love Joseph with all my heart, and I'm never going to let him go! It'll be hard, but it's just something I need to do... because I need him! More than anyone could ever imagine!

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((If you read all of that, I gotta thank you! It means a lot to me that you read it all!))

I had one of those pretty sand pictures in a bottle, you know where there is different colours of sand layered in designs? My friend gave it to me.
Well, it was sitting on top of my bookshelf, and my boyfriend and I were getting a bit carried away making out and he pushed me up against the shelf so it fell and broke. I'm too embarrassed to tell my friend..

People think that I am very innocent, but I tend to have very hate full thoughts about others.

I have arguements with my self in my head and infront of the mirror as if there are two of me.

I have had a crush on the same guy for the past four years, though I've been lying to my friends saying I don't like him anymore. He doesn't know who I am.

I'm the real slim shady... ninja

Ok, when I was little, I wanted to be mermaid. Like, badly. I'd like use spells and incantations. Never worked.

I cheat for some of my homework, you know, when we are on the bus, but when will i ever need to know what the square root of pie divided by diameter times the ratio of the circumfrance?

lately i've been going out with my best friends boyfriend cause he likes me and I like him, and I think she's already caught us makin out before......yikes...