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Millie would just keep herself standing where she was, the spider legs could be seen slightly passing her dress as to help her keep standing as the legs seemed to work as well legs for her to use as well, she just rarely used them. AS Raine would read into the one book that opened she would notice every so often there were dates, which seemed to show when the day ended and started, of course this book also seemed to contain the dreams as well, which was a weird read for anyone to be snooping through someones memories, she would seem to have to find the right date of what she was looking for specifically, or else she would be stuck reading page by page seemingly going on about normal days of Millie before her disappearance. they did seem to start off about a year before her disappearance, perhaps each book was a year or more each going in details about everyday.

Millie would just keep her posture the same, using her spider legs to keep her standing up with her arms crossed on her body holding the top of her arms much like hugging herself still. what Raine would eventually find would be the Date she was looking for, The date that Millie was supposably supposed to leave for a mission.

"what are you doing Silve...Death told us to not tell anyone we are going on this mission...he trusted us with it" "yea...but i mean, this mission is supposed to take a month...most of the time its a few days...why did he say its months...we have to tell our family's we are going to be gone" "I don't care...im not going to betray his trust" Millie would be looking at a Map seemingly of the Machinist Order's territory "Death Said that the Machinists are venturing to far from their territory and...we are being sent to watch them for a month" "recon? but...were not recon division...were the assault division" "i don't get it either, but we should be having some backup meeting us there" "who?" "i don't know...another student...and someone Death picked himself" "the Queen?" "no..shes too busy being the lap dog to bother helping any of us" Millie would roll up the map "lets get moving, we have to get there before Deaths pick gets there" The book remained to talk about the boring and uneventful journey to the edge of the machinist order's territory. eventually it would get to the point of Millie looking through binoculars "still no movement in their territory....no movement...hell not even a camp..." "thats weird...but whats also weird...is we are still the ones out here...its been hours since we were supposed to meet up with the other two" "Silve...just relax im sure they had other areas to check before here" "if you say so...still I would have preferred a call or even a message about that" "secret mission remember...besides its getting late, lets set up camp so they can find us at night" The two would proceed to set up Camp which Millie would offer to stay up first night to keep watch. "yaaawn...man either we have the worst timing or the intel was bad on the location...we have to stay like this for a month?" The silence filled the air before Millie would find herself falling to the ground, blood flowed to the ground infront of her eyes, as she felt a giant pain in her head, perhaps someone hit her from behind, she tried to get up, it was a slow movement but she managed to get on her knees and hands looking back at where sh was hit from, a man, wearing a suit was walking to the tent Millie and Silve had set up "w...who are you?" she mustered her voice not coming out loud as her head was spinning, the man was carrying Silve on his shoulder when he came out she was knocked out as well, it was clear she wasn't sleeping. he walked back over to Millie kicking her, which would cause the book to show empty spots showing her consciousness was gone. the book picked up when she woke up, blurred eyed Millie was opening her eyes she was on the ground next to Silve whom was still knocked out but Millie could hear faint words "just....as....promised. two...of....weapon....meister...your..." the words made it clear her head was still spinning and it made it hard to hear. "Well....Death...me....I....thank...for....experiments" and again the book goes blank again. After that point it seemed the days seemed to pass quickly with no memories in the book, until another entry popped up a week later. Milliw woke up in a large white room rolling off the bed as she got up standing up straight looking around seemingly lose "w...where...am i?" she muttered before walking around finding a Mirror "who....are you" she muttered touching the mirror...then her own face as she would look back at the mirror seeing the spider part of her body in the mirror, which caused her head to hurt causing her to scream in pain, as which point a woman walked in and stabbed her with a tranquilizer, causing her to pass out. and it seemed like the book repeated this process with small changes in Millies behavior being more calm and less shocked by her appearance every time.

IF raine could manage to keep reading she would find millie's salvation but at the point she read, she would have a good idea whom was responsible for the situation, and it wasn't just the machinist order.

Millie would watch as Raine read, she could see the reactions that the book had made, it was exactly as she feared....the book which held memories would give strong emotions...something she was afraid of getting herself....but for her she was scared she'd react as she did before....scared. "um....R...raine...are you ok....if the book is too much emotion....you don't...have to read it you know" she told her "you...seem angry...yet sad...so you don't have to read my life...."

Millie just watched as Raine would take her hands and swear she would get her life back "but...I'm already....used to this life i have...I don't know if i'd ever go back to the old life..whatever it was like...even if i returned my memories...I'd be too scared to return home...the way I am..and who knows what the person you claim took my life away will do if i pop back up...wherever im from" she coud see the tears in Raines eyes, which confirmed that what she read wasn't for feint of hearts...even more so a reason to not read it

Millie looked at Raine "i get that...but....what happened...happened...and i doubt even the brave...confident version of me that you knew...she wouldn't go back...to a life where she disappeared from...it would hurt to many people...mentally most of all" she commented. "You don't have to protect me...if you did before...you dont have to now....this place s what keeps me safe now...and i...dont want to leave it behind...i prefer the safety here...over the idea of being risking every day out there...more than ever now"

Millie just looked at her as she recommended staying here in the sanctuary. but she went on about giving her her memories back "but...part of the reason why im happy here is because i don't have any burdens...which im sure memories are going to give me...I'll remember people i've left behind...people i lied to...or something...and as long as i avoid mirrors to see myself....i wont have any headaches...or pain" she explained "i....just don't see any reason why getting my memories back....would do anything but bring pain...especially if what you read made you angry...and everything....you can read everything you want...I wont stop you because you...wanted answers..."

Millie could notice how sad her response made Raine despite how Raine answered, it was easy to tell, something she had picked up as a blank slate...she could pick up on negativity or positivity within other people if she interacted with them. "....look...I'm sorry...As...a blank slate....I think clearly...I know the difference between right and wrong...or i believe i do...and im...a good person as I am....I....dont want to really lose that....because if i get any of my memories back...even ones about a family...how do you think i will act..If you grew angry and threatening the person whom did this to me...how do you think i would feel if i knew what I lost...I wouldn't be able to think straight...and i might do something bad that i would regret...the me...now would regret" she explained "I dont know if the me from my past...would see things in the same way..but if she was a good person like you said...then she would regret it as well...when everything is done...and even if she did have a family...how do you think that family would react to me...a woman with the DNA of a spider in her...I can't take it well...it hurts my head...i can imagine how anyone whom cared about my past self reacting to seeing me...they wouldn't take it like you did...which im grateful for you being understanding of it....but i dont think anyone else would"