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You know what? I think you all should calm down and watch THis

Oh good god. D:

weird? it's plain downright ******** creepy!

and since www.leekspin.com isn't working...it's the next best thing...I think.

It was Arc?

Buh-bye. its 2:30 am here. im tired. Goodnight.

Life is gay, I'm down again, I'm not looking for sympathy, but I am looking for insults. I figure I might as well be kicked while I'm down, and hell, one of them may re-motivate me and get me back into working order. I don't know why, but everything is stressing me out lately. I've completely quit drugs, or atleast that's what I'd like to say, but after somebody made a line of powder that looked suprisingly like coke but wasn't and offered it to me as I practically threw him across the room so I could get to it faster, it made me realize that I fail. I fail at everything. I'm pissed at the fact that I can't even quit drugs that I know I don't have problems with... Hell, more than half the time, I don't even want to do them, but seeing what I thought was drugs tonight, I wanted them more than ever, and now I still do. I'm not going to get any mind you, but it doesn't change the fact that now I want them again. My love life has also failed. I was getting along with a girl I have a lot in common with, and when I asked her out, she just went quiet and stopped talking to me. That's 2, count them 1, 2 fails, one away from an epic... But WAIT! Here's the third to make me epically fail at life and everything related to it. Nothing I do makes me happy anymore, I mean, yes I'm glad I have a new computer, I am happy about that... but that's just it. It's novelty will wear off soon, and I'll be depressed again. I love playing games on the computer, but half the time I'm using it, I'm either here or on Gaming Force Forums, so I'm hardly playing games on it at all. I can't find anything at all to catch my interest, and it's only making me more and more mad at myself for failing to find something to catch my interest to get me to work for it. Like I said, I epically fail at life and everything related to it. I'd be better off killing myself, but knowing me and my expertise of failing, I know I would somehow fail at that too, and only bring myself down more. ******** life, ******** living, and ******** not being dead. I hate this s**t. Also, to all you optimists out there, don't tell me things will get better, because whenever they do, it's hardly at all, and then things drop even lower than they were before, so once again, just ******** off for now.

I'm going to drink as much as I can right now. I've got Jag, a full fifth of Level Vodka, tons of beer, and some other stuff. So cheers ATG. Friends and other people I don't know too, and of course, one of my closest friends, booze, this binge is to you. Live long and prosper, because I know I won't, so I'd rather just get out of this bullshit now.

Peace for tonight, hope you guys are all doing well.

I'm not attracted to a man being ******** by another man. I may not have had sex in over a year and 3 or 4 months, but I'm not homosexual. Sorry Jaft, didn't work. As for being able to change things, I seriously have tried, but nothing works. In the end, I'm still the useless piece of s**t that I always have been, and nothing I do will change that. I've come to that conclusion and I accept it.

I... feel... emo... *goes and sulks in the corner*