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 Posted: Tue Dec 07, 2010 2:31 pm
  「 Ҁ a s e y 」││ 「 Ϻ i s s Ѻ v e r l y Ʌ c t i v e 」 Put your f a i t h in what you most b e l i e v e in XXXXXXXXX
Two w o r l d s, one f a m i l y XXXXXXXXX
Trust your h e a r t, let f a t e decide XXXXXXXXX
To g u i d e these lives we s e e XXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXX A p a r a d i s e untouched by m a n
XXXXXXXXX Within this w o r l d blessed by l o v e
XXXXXXXXX A s i m p l e life, they live in p e a c e
XXXXXXXXX Softly tread the s a n d below your f e e t now XXXXX XXXXXXXXX▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ X X X X X XTwo worlds, one f a m i l y
X X X X X X X X XxTrust your heart, let fate d e c i d e Casey's ice blue eyes were soft. She listened and watched, her sharp vision not missing anything. She swa him shift something underneath him. Black against pale was completely obvious. She didn't mention it, but she wasn't stupid. After three years or tricks and pranks, she was used to how teens hid things. Todd was hiding something he didn't want Casey getting. Pushing it aside, she looked into his eyes, ice blue locked with brown. "Todd, your father is gone. I know he still haunts you; I've had insomniacs and kids with the same problem as you before. So please don't shut me out and act as if I don't know anything, because I do. You have a brilliant life ahead of you, if you'd just face your fears. If you would fight the nagging voice that gives you these nightmares, then you would get over your fear." Casey didn't know what else to say. She was already walking on thin ice when it came to counseling; all the counselors were with their teens. They would get nowhere with blunt words. Every word must be chosen carefully. Casey's blue eyes held Todd's for a moment, and then she stood. Whether Todd would take her advice or not was not up to her. She grabbed the trash bag and looked back at Shane, then stopped. Todd would put up a fight if he knew what she was doing. Instead, she pulled a wastebasket from beneath one of the beds and put her own black bang into it, folded on the bottom. She then took Shane's from him, holding his eyes for a moment, hoping he'd understand what she was doing. "Shane, could you please go fit the wastebasket in the girls' cabin? I'll be there in a minute," Casey said calmly. She wanted to give nothing away. She just really hoped Shane would take the hint. She finished fitting the basket and stood, looking at Todd. "Todd, you're either going to have to sleep or I'll take you out to the others. I'm afraid there's no in between," Casey said, her voice equally calm. She tightened the ponytail band on her coffee colored hair, then pushed her neon green headband back on. The girl looked near perfect- as perfect as a leisurely camp counselor could get. That's what was so neat about this girl- she was just one of the guys in person, but had a better fashion sense then most girls. Yet she rarely used it! ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂XXXXXXXXX X X X X X XR a i s e your head u pXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XLift h i g h the loadXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTake s t r e n g t h those that need y o uXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTwo w o r l d s, one familyXXXXXXXXX
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 5:33 am
XXXXXҬℴδδ GɾαӌʂℴηXXXXX
Long l o s t words w h is p e r slowly to m e
Still can't f i n d what k e e p s me h e r e
When all this t i m e I've been so h o l l o w i n s i d e
I k n o w you're s t i l l t h e r e  ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
Pull the trigger
and the nightmare
Sϯℴҏʂ
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● So go on and screamScream at me, I'm so far away Todd listened to Casey, silent. He crossed his skinny arms over is pale chest, his hair sweeping over his eyes. Now and again, it just randomly happened, but, when his hair fell over his eyes, Todd Grayson looked totally adorable. It was hard to make out the size or shape of his dark-almond eyes, so it made you curious. But the trick didn't seem to work this time because it was being attempted on a heartless, cruel b***h, Todd finished for his subconcious mind, a slightl smirk crossing his face as he blew his hair out of his eyes. "Look, Casey, you may not believe in what I do. I believe that if spirits, ghosts, in my case, have unfinished business in the world, that they stay until that business is finished. And, no, you haven't had anyone like me before. You don't know anything about my case. And, how in hell can I have a brilliant life ahead of me if I can hardly read!? I only made it to... tenth grade before I dropped out. Besides, how can I fight a voice? It's not like he's in my head. Now, my mom, she is. But she's just trying to help. So, Casey, I'm not gonna sleep. The next time you see me with my eyes shut, will be when I'm laid in my grave," Todd finished quietly. During no time of his little speech had the young boy gotten an edge to his voice, though he really wanted to.
Todd tightened his arms around his chest when a ghostly voice breathed on his neck. Hot breath that smelled of lust and alcohol. He could practically feel his father's sharp nails trailing up his naked back. The dark-haired teen tried to keep his cool, honestly, but his breathing started coming raggedly, like it was flesh being cut open by a wood-saw. Todd wanted to scream, to cry out, just to make his father leave, but he knew Casey would notice that. So would Shane. The sharpness of the nails stopped against his shoulders, slowly making small circles around his collarbone. Todd shut his eyes tight, trying to make the feeling go away- but Casey didn't that for him. Her voice whooshed the ghost away. But that still didn't change Todd's stubbornness. His breathing was still slightly uneven when he replied. "Neither. You, Casey, can make me do nothing. None of you counselors can make us do anything. You're here to help,"he hissed out the last word, "and making me walk, will only make me more tired. Right now, your goal should be trying to get to know me and my story a little better. Maybe then you could actually 'help' a little better." He stood, clearly not about to give in, and walked outside. He headed towards the forest, then stopped and sat beside a tree, fiddling with the belt on his left combat boot. I won't be broken againI've got to breathe I can't keep going under ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●    ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Now I will t e l l you what I've d o n e for y o u
5 0 thousand t e a r s I've c r i e d
S c r e a m i n g, d e c e i v i n g and b l e e d i n g for you
And y o u still won't h e a r m e
Don't want your h a n d this t i m e - I'll s a v e myself
M a y b e I'll w a k e up for o n c e
Not t o r m e n t e d daily d e f e a t e d by y o u
Just when I t h o u g h t I'd r e a c h e d the b o t t o m
I'm dying again I ' m going u n d e r
D r o w n i n g in y o u
I'm f a l l i n g f o r e v e r
I've g o t to b r e a k through I'm going under B l u r r i n g and s t i r r i n g
The t r u t h and the l i e s
So I don't k n o w what's r e a l and what's n o t
Always c o n f u s i n g the t h o u g h t s in my h e a d
So I can't t r u s t m y s e l f a n y m o r e
Going under XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
ℳɩʂϯℯɾ Iηʂℴɱηɩα
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 1:44 pm
XXXXXÅʃϵҁ Dɩ'ΑЪʃѻXXXXX
Ӎɩʂϯϵɾ Dαɾϵʠϵѵɩʃ I'm t i r e d of being what y o u want me to be
Feeling so f a i t h l e s s lost under the s u r f a c e
Don't k n o w what you're e x p e c t i n g of me
Put under the p r e s s u r e of walking in your s h o e s
C a u g h t in the undertow, just caught in the u n d e r t o w
Every s t e p that I take is a n o t h e r mistake to you
Can't you s e e that you're s m o t h e r i n g me
Holding too t i g h t l y afraid to lose c o n t r o l
Cause e v e r y t h i n g that you t h o u g h t I would be
Has f a l l e n apart right in f r o n t of you
Caught in the u n d er t o w just c a u g h t in the undertow
E v e r y step that I take is another m i s t a k e to you
And every second I w a s t e is more than I can t a k e ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● XXXXXXXXXAnd I know
I ɱαӌ ϵηʠ ʊҏ ʄαɩʃɩηɠ ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Alec couldn't help but agree with Heidi. They'd get caught sooner or later, so why not just get it done and over with? He kept his bare arms wrapped tightly around, but not too tight. There was no way anyone would get him to let go. He pressed his lips against her forehead once, closing his blue eyes, then let out a soft sigh. He squeezed her hand in return, his breathing unusually soft and calm. The two were about to get busted, but that didn't matter. All that mattered to Alec at that moment was being with Heidi. He wished they could be alone together for a longer time- no Nikki riding his case and no Shane riding Heidi's. The thought made Alec want to punch the counselor again. He already knew Shane had a thing for his baby-girl, and was beginning to believe that his baby-girl had a thing for that a**-hole. He wasn't completely recovered, so that was definitely in Alec's favor. A grin crossed his face as his blue eyes opened. Now he just had to wait. ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
You were just like me,XXXXXX
with someoneXXXXXXXXX
Dɩʂαҏҏѻɩηϯϵʠ ɩη ӌѻʊX
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●       XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX I've become so n u m b I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more a w a r e
I'm b e c o m i n g this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be l e s s like you
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 2:43 pm
「 Ҁ a s e y 」││ 「 Ϻ i s s Ѻ v e r l y Ʌ c t i v e 」 Put your f a i t h in what you most b e l i e v e in XXXXXXXXX
Two w o r l d s, one f a m i l y XXXXXXXXX
Trust your h e a r t, let f a t e decide XXXXXXXXX
To g u i d e these lives we s e e XXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXX A p a r a d i s e untouched by m a n
XXXXXXXXX Within this w o r l d blessed by l o v e
XXXXXXXXX A s i m p l e life, they live in p e a c e
XXXXXXXXX Softly tread the s a n d below your f e e t now XXXXX XXXXXXXXX▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ X X X X X XTwo worlds, one f a m i l y
X X X X X X X X XxTrust your heart, let fate d e c i d e Casey's blue eyes missed nothing. She swa the way his hair fell over his eyes, the way it made him look absolutely adorable- but Casey's mind had grown dull in that sense. She may have a bunch of romantic teens around, but this was Casey's job, not some romance novel. She could see the feeling inside Todd's dark eyes- the fear, the determination, and she knew what he thought of her- and Heidi, for that matter. They both thought she was cruel, because of her enofrcing the rules. Well, guess what. Casey wasn't ignorant- she was actually quite intelligent. She shook her head ever so slightly. "No, we can't make you do anything. But we can and we will try. I know more than you think, Todd Grayson." Her breath stirred the air crackling with tension. She stood as he walked out. She watched him, then turned back. She closed the cabin door, but opened a window ever so slightly so she could hear outside. The girls' hearing was very keen. She could hear the rustle of leaves above Todd, and she would definitely hear if he moved. Casey grabbed a bag and yanked open Alec's suitcase, pulling out all the drugs, needles, alcohol, EVERYTHING. Nothing but his clothes and hygenic tools were left. She stuffed it all in a trash bag and tied it shut, taking his knives and weapons. She kind of felt like the Grinch, but it was for a good cause. Case then turned to Todd's bag. She hauled out all the Monsters, and ALL energy drinks, weapons, drugs, alcohol, whatever the kid had stowed in his bag. The rules clearly stated no alcohol or any addictive drugs or drinks were to be brought. And weapons, as well. Casey wasn't being cruel or heartless; she was enforcing the rules. The kids were here at camp to break their habits, not make them worse. And Casey would take everything away from them that could block the light at the end of the tunnel.
The two boys were left with only their clothes and the good things they brought. Absolutely nothing was hidden from Casey, and nothing was left. Casey figured the kids had something on them, but it wouldn't last. All the items were gone. Casey grabbed the trash bags and pulled them outside, hauling the alcohol, drinks, and drugs behind her. She threw the bags into a burning pit, a deep hole with a cage over it. She opened the cage and threw the bags in, then put a padlock on it. Absolutely no teens could get to their crap. It was going to be burned and nothing would be left. Putting the key on her armband, she grabbed fresh bags and started into the girls' cabin.
(( Blood- I loved the whole ghost thing! ^^ )) ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂XXXXXXXXX X X X X X XR a i s e your head u pXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XLift h i g h the loadXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTake s t r e n g t h those that need y o uXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTwo w o r l d s, one familyXXXXXXXXX
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 3:09 pm
XXXXXҬℴδδ GɾαӌʂℴηXXXXX
Long l o s t words w h is p e r slowly to m e
Still can't f i n d what k e e p s me h e r e
When all this t i m e I've been so h o l l o w i n s i d e
I k n o w you're s t i l l t h e r e ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
Pull the trigger
and the nightmare
Sϯℴҏʂ
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● So go on and screamScream at me, I'm so far away Todd choked and gagged when he felt a ghostly hadn cover his mouth and plug his nose. A soft voice breathed into his ear, warning him. He wanted to get up, run and scream. But he knew his attempts would be hopeless. His father would haunt him until he was happy- that could take the rest of Todd's short life. He felt the other ghostly hand sweep around his neck, nails digging deeply into his flesh. He was tempted to cry out, but knew people would just think he was insane. Who knew? Maybe he was. The teen closed his eyes, hoping the feeling of the hateful breathing on his neck and cheek would stop. The hand over his mouth moved and both hands started running down the bare skin of his back and chest. He felt hot, salty tears well in his shut blue eyes, making him even more scared. It'd been years since he cried- he hadn't cried since his mother died. The thought made his teeth clench, along with the seering white-hot pain of nails digging into the pale flesh of his back. His father had always done that when Todd was younger- make him hurt and crying before he raped him. The dark-haired teen let his grip of reality go and, despite his fears, started crying and screaming like a young boy again. I won't be broken againI've got to breathe I can't keep going under ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Now I will t e l l you what I've d o n e for y o u
5 0 thousand t e a r s I've c r i e d
S c r e a m i n g, d e c e i v i n g and b l e e d i n g for you
And y o u still won't h e a r m e
Don't want your h a n d this t i m e - I'll s a v e myself
M a y b e I'll w a k e up for o n c e
Not t o r m e n t e d daily d e f e a t e d by y o u
Just when I t h o u g h t I'd r e a c h e d the b o t t o m
I'm dying again I ' m going u n d e r
D r o w n i n g in y o u
I'm f a l l i n g f o r e v e r
I've g o t to b r e a k through I'm going under B l u r r i n g and s t i r r i n g
The t r u t h and the l i e s
So I don't k n o w what's r e a l and what's n o t
Always c o n f u s i n g the t h o u g h t s in my h e a d
So I can't t r u s t m y s e l f a n y m o r e
Going under XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
ℳɩʂϯℯɾ Iηʂℴɱηɩα I loved that too, but it made me feel sorry for the poor boy. I'm gonna have his father visit a lot more often now! It was fun writing that!
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 4:59 pm
Somebody caught you off guard xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Everyone knows what it feels like
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were made for
Slipped your wings and broke your heart xxxxxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx When they tell you, you don't measure up
xccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxCause' you were made for the sky
Told you, you'll never get out of here xxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccdxxxxxxxx You just weren't meant for the bright lights
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were born for
and you believed it all these years xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx But lovely is as lovely does
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccccccxxxxxxxxxxYou were born to fly.
Anyone who makes no mistakes......Is not trying HARD ENOUGH   Shane nodded and took the wastebasket. He headed to the girls cabin. Shane walked aeound the cabin, looking for anything and everything. He stopped at one of Heidi's suitcases. would she really? he asked himself. yes she would He decided finally and picked up the suitcase and plopped it onto the bed. Heidi was a smart girl. Of course she'd think of it. Shane tried opening the case. But he had some trouble with it. "Like I was thinking. Smart girl." he said and looked around for something to break it open with. He turned to Casey. "Do you have anything to open this with? I'm sure she has something in here. If you want to know how I'll tell you. If I was a teen, an addict and a teen, I'd figure out a way to sneak it in. And why would people look in a suitcase where all your clothes are supposed to be. So do you have anything that would help?" He asked her Lexi, My Dog((Out Of Cats: Sorry for the delay and the short post ))
SPANISH___ENGLISH
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ITALIAN___ENGLISH
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Love is much deeper than beauty xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Even if we are all broken 
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and beauty much deeper than skin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx We are each a reflection of God
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there in the eyes of your mother, your father xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Living with your dreams wide open
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxLove is the angel who's wings help you soar
is where it begins to sink in xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Spreading your wings to take off
↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭And... When Shane is drunk...↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭
He's... Like this
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself!
So what if you can see the darkest side of me
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal!
The "darkest" side, is when he's drunk
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Posted: Mon Jan 24, 2011 2:20 pm
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2011 3:23 pm
「 Ҁ a s e y 」││ 「 Ϻ i s s Ѻ v e r l y Ʌ c t i v e 」 Put your f a i t h in what you most b e l i e v e in XXXXXXXXX
Two w o r l d s, one f a m i l y XXXXXXXXX
Trust your h e a r t, let f a t e decide XXXXXXXXX
To g u i d e these lives we s e e XXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXX A p a r a d i s e untouched by m a n
XXXXXXXXX Within this w o r l d blessed by l o v e
XXXXXXXXX A s i m p l e life, they live in p e a c e
XXXXXXXXX Softly tread the s a n d below your f e e t now XXXXX XXXXXXXXX▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ X X X X X XTwo worlds, one f a m i l y
X X X X X X X X XxTrust your heart, let fate d e c i d e The coffee brown haired counselor opened the girl's cabin to see Shane struggling with Heidi's suitcase. Rolling her eyes, she smiled and nodded at his request. She listened as he explained what happened to him, her ice blue eyes comforting. She shook her head and laid a hand on her shoulder, her eyes locking with his. "Shane. It doesn't matter what happened to you in the past. The only thing that matters is that that's happened and over with, and you're here for the teens. You're here to focus on helping Heidi, and that's what I want you to do. I want you to forget what happened in the past. You need to focus on helping Heidi, and getting her to trust you enough to let you help her. Don't let your past get to you. Just forget about it. That's over and done with, but there are kids here that do need the same help you needed back then. So just focus and you'll be fine," Casey explained. She finished and took her hand fro, his shoulder, then grabbed the suitcase. She looked over it and remembered it was the same suitcase her father had given her for her birthday. Reaching into the far back, she felt the tiniest of buttons. She pressed it and the bottom compartment released, and Casey started to remove all the alcohol, drugs, and spray paint that was in there. She put it all in trash bags, and took all the things out of the secret compartment and closed it. She then opened the rest of the suitcase and took everything but her clothes and hygenic items in the suitcase. All unallowed things were removed, so nothing was left. Tying the trash bags and replacing the suitcase, Casey tossed the bags aside and grabbed new ones for Gail's bags. She opened all of the compartments on her suitcase(s) and took all the drugs, alcohol, markers, tattoos, knives, paint, and eveything else that wasn't allowed and put it in the bags. Absolutely nothing was left besides what Casey had left the other kids with; clothes, shoes, and hygenic equipment. Casey shoved the closed suitcases back where they used to be, and grabbed all the other bags. With a smile and a nod to Shane, Casey towed the bags outside. She unlocked the firepit and threw the bags into it, tossing five lighted matches in after them. She quickly locked the pit and jumped back at a loud crack, the compressed cans and flammable drugs exploding. Casey nodded grimly in approval, only to be distracted by a sudden cry: Todd's. Casey jerked her head towards the firepit at Shane, gesturing for him to watch it. Striding over to Todd, she knelt beside him. She took a deep breath and looked up at the trees, this time not making eye contact with the boy. "I've been thinking, Todd. You said I should try to get to know you and your story better. Well, I'd like to try. But I want to know what you feel comfortable telling me. Why don't you tell me about yourself? You can tell me only what you feel comfortable telling me. Please Todd, I've taken your advice, now please take mine," Casey said, her voice even. She turned so she could sit against the tree, not quite next to Todd. She glanced at him, but then immersed herself in watching the licking flames from the firepit. ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂ ▂XXXXXXXXX X X X X X XR a i s e your head u pXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XLift h i g h the loadXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTake s t r e n g t h those that need y o uXXXXXXXXX
X X X X X XTwo w o r l d s, one familyXXXXXXXXX
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2011 4:55 pm
xxxxxx•○• Maybe I need some rehab
xxxxxxOr maybe just need some sleep
xxxxxxI've got a sick obsession
xxxxxxI'm seeing it in my dreams
xxxxxxI'm looking down every alley
xxxxxxI'm making those desperate calls•○• xxxxxx•○• I'm stayin' up all night hoping
xxxxxxHit my head against the walls
xxxxxxWhat you've got boy is hard to find
xxxxxxI think about it all the time
xxxxxxI'm all strung up
xxxxxxMy heart is fried
xxxxxxI just can't get you
xxxxxxOff my mind•○•  xxxxxx•○• Because your love, your love, yourlove
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love
xxxxxxI said your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love•○•  xxxxxxxxxxxx◊ H e i d i H a r i s s o n ◊xxxxxxxxxxxx
Party'Animalxxx
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♫Heidi heard the sounds of people coming after her and Alec. She sighed and held Alec's hand before she whistled to them. "Guys, we're ok! Just get back to the camp! We'll follow!" she called out to them before she squeezed his hand tightly before walking back to the camp. She spotted the firepit and the fire that was blazing, but the smell was what caught her attention. She could smell her alcohol and paint being burned then she noticed Shane along with other counselors standing there, watching it burn. Her free hand clenched into a fist as her eyes rested on Shane. She let go of Alec's hand and ran towards Shane. She ran into him but she didn't knock him down. She began to punch his chest even though it didn't hurt him at all. She wasn't as strong as him but she was strong enough to help get her point across. "What the hell is this? How did you even find all of this stuff?" she said in an angered tone. She crossed her arms and stopped hitting him as she waited for an explaination. The smell of the burning alcohol was getting to her and she felt a little light headed. "You're idiots! You can't just burn alcohol, drugs, and paint away! It gets in the atmosphere and it's giving me a headache!" she said as she coughed but tried to ignore the smell. She punched him again and shook her head.
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❝ Give me a good reason to stop. ❞ Crazy ♣ Wild ♠ Rebellious xxxxxx•○• Won't listen to any advice
xxxxxxMamma's telling me I should think twice
xxxxxxBut I'm left to my own devices
xxxxxxI'm addicted, it's a crisis
xxxxxxMy friends think I've gone crazy
xxxxxxMy judgement is getting kinda hazy•○•  xxxxxx•○• My status is gonna be affected
xxxxxxIf I keep it up like a love sick crackhead
xxxxxxWhat you've got boy is hard to find
xxxxxxI think about it all the time
xxxxxxI'm all strung up my heart is fried•○• xxxxxx•○• I just can't get you off my mind
xxxxxxBecause your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love
xxxxxxI said your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug•○• 
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 5:22 am
XXXXXҬℴδδ GɾαӌʂℴηXXXXX
Long l o s t words w h is p e r slowly to m e
Still can't f i n d what k e e p s me h e r e
When all this t i m e I've been so h o l l o w i n s i d e
I k n o w you're s t i l l t h e r e ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
Pull the trigger
and the nightmare
Sϯℴҏʂ
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● So go on and screamScream at me, I'm so far away Todd looked longingly at Casey as she spoke to him. He gently picked up her hand in his cold, shaky one and brought it against his neck. He hoped for all his humanity and sanity that there would be a cold spot- anything that signalled it wasn't all okay. He felt the gjostly hand disappeared but not before harsh words were spat into his ear. The teen released Casey's hand, his breathing uneven and scared. "I was first raped by my dad when I could stand... I think. He beat me when I cried, but my mother just cheered him on when he did. That went on till I was about eight. Then he beat my mother to death and came back to rape and beat me. I thought he was gonna kill me. But then he stopped and left- just left with my mother's body. The beatings and rapes went on for years until he met this girl. She was really sweet and when they got married everything almost stopped- almost. She came in one night to see him doing it again and she locked him up. He was put to death, but he stil haunts me," Todd explained softly, not leaving out a single thing. He looked at her and, with his blood encrusted hands, (read earlier posts for more information) he dug out the large swiss army knife from his boot, looking away as he dropped it in Casey's lap. "Just try to get Heidi, Alec and Gail to understand that you're trying to help- not hurt." I won't be broken againI've got to breathe I can't keep going under ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Now I will t e l l you what I've d o n e for y o u
5 0 thousand t e a r s I've c r i e d
S c r e a m i n g, d e c e i v i n g and b l e e d i n g for you
And y o u still won't h e a r m e
Don't want your h a n d this t i m e - I'll s a v e myself
M a y b e I'll w a k e up for o n c e
Not t o r m e n t e d daily d e f e a t e d by y o u
Just when I t h o u g h t I'd r e a c h e d the b o t t o m
I'm dying again I ' m going u n d e r
D r o w n i n g in y o u
I'm f a l l i n g f o r e v e r
I've g o t to b r e a k through I'm going under B l u r r i n g and s t i r r i n g
The t r u t h and the l i e s
So I don't k n o w what's r e a l and what's n o t
Always c o n f u s i n g the t h o u g h t s in my h e a d
So I can't t r u s t m y s e l f a n y m o r e
Going under XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
ℳɩʂϯℯɾ Iηʂℴɱηɩα
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 5:31 am
XXXXXÅʃϵҁ Dɩ'ΑЪʃѻXXXXX
Ӎɩʂϯϵɾ Dαɾϵʠϵѵɩʃ I'm t i r e d of being what y o u want me to be
Feeling so f a i t h l e s s lost under the s u r f a c e
Don't k n o w what you're e x p e c t i n g of me
Put under the p r e s s u r e of walking in your s h o e s
C a u g h t in the undertow, just caught in the u n d e r t o w
Every s t e p that I take is a n o t h e r mistake to you
Can't you s e e that you're s m o t h e r i n g me
Holding too t i g h t l y afraid to lose c o n t r o l
Cause e v e r y t h i n g that you t h o u g h t I would be
Has f a l l e n apart right in f r o n t of you
Caught in the u n d er t o w just c a u g h t in the undertow
E v e r y step that I take is another m i s t a k e to you
And every second I w a s t e is more than I can t a k e ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● XXXXXXXXXAnd I know
I ɱαӌ ϵηʠ ʊҏ ʄαɩʃɩηɠ ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Alec frowned slightly but was puled right along behind Heidi, blinking as she dragged him back to the Camp. he was then led to the firepit and what he saw was horrid. All of his candy, drugs, alcohol... All of it was gone. He, crazed by his drug obsession, ran straight at the firepit when Heidi let go of his hand. While running to the flickering flames, Alec stopped and punched Shane in the face for good measure, then proceeded on. "The only escape," he croaked, helpless, "is...gone..." Then he heard a faint voice in the back of his head say, Oh, no. Not the only escape." He looked to Heidi, wiping tears form his dark blue eyes and stood, glaring at Shane now. He made sure and grabbed a handful of ashes, though. "It was my only escape," he growled murderously. ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
You were just like me,XXXXXX
with someoneXXXXXXXXX
Dɩʂαҏҏѻɩηϯϵʠ ɩη ӌѻʊX
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX I've become so n u m b I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more a w a r e
I'm b e c o m i n g this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be l e s s like you
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 3:02 pm
Somebody caught you off guard xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Everyone knows what it feels like
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were made for
Slipped your wings and broke your heart xxxxxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx When they tell you, you don't measure up
xccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxCause' you were made for the sky
Told you, you'll never get out of here xxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccdxxxxxxxx You just weren't meant for the bright lights
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were born for
and you believed it all these years xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx But lovely is as lovely does
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccccccxxxxxxxxxxYou were born to fly.
Anyone who makes no mistakes......Is not trying HARD ENOUGH Shane gave Casey a week smile. She honestly helped quite a bit. "You're right. Thanks" He followed her to the firepit and watched as she started the fire. Shane gasped in surprise when Heidi starting punching him. He looked at her. Shane put a hand on her arm. "Heidi, I found yours, because you are exactly what I was. And I knew it wasn't going to be in an obvious spot. You're an incredibbly smart girl." Shane listened, since that was what he was here to do. He nodded. "She has a point Casey, most of it's ruined anyway. But If we were to continue to burn it. It should probably somewhere where the smell wont bug anyone." Turning back to Heidi, "Do you want some water? Something to help with the headache, or if you want we, uh.. you could go for a walk, walk it off, away from the stench." Shane suggested softly, he couldn't bring himself to be mean to her or to be a jerk to her, he liked her to much. Shane didn't even flinch as she punched him. Shane gasped and stumbled backwards when Alec punched him. "Dude!" he yowled in shock, rubbing his face. "Alec, alcohol, drugs, or whatever you want to call it. Is NO escape. It traps you. Me of all people should know that." He sighed. "We're not trying to hurt you guys. You can choose to not believe me, but it's true. We want to help. Not necessarily change you, or fix you, or what ever you want to say. It's not fun when someone tries to fix you. You're not broken" Shane said softly, glancing at Heidi. "We can't change who you are. drinking, that's not who you are... Believe it or not, when your not drinking, it can actually feel awesome. We think of drugs as an escape when things are tough. But that's what friends are for. When you're going through something, there should always be someone you can turn to, not something. My best friend, his name is Nate. He helps me through so much." Shane paused, not sure if he should go on. "I'm sure you don't want to here me ramble on and on, but if you want to talk. I'm open. But I'll just say one more thing. Drugs, Alcohol or whatever. Is not an escape" Shane finished. He couldn't help but glance at Heidi. He really didn't like it when she was mad at him. Shane hoped she could understand his motives were because he cared, quite a lot at that, about her. Lexi, My Dog((Out Of Cats: ))
SPANISH___ENGLISH
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ITALIAN___ENGLISH
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Love is much deeper than beauty xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Even if we are all broken
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBeautiful bird, fly
and beauty much deeper than skin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx We are each a reflection of God
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBeautiful bird, fly
there in the eyes of your mother, your father xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Living with your dreams wide open
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxLove is the angel who's wings help you soar
is where it begins to sink in xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Spreading your wings to take off
↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭And... When Shane is drunk...↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭
He's... Like this
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself!
So what if you can see the darkest side of me
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal!
The "darkest" side, is when he's drunk
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 3:17 pm
XXXXXÅʃϵҁ Dɩ'ΑЪʃѻXXXXX
Ӎɩʂϯϵɾ Dαɾϵʠϵѵɩʃ I'm t i r e d of being what y o u want me to be
Feeling so f a i t h l e s s lost under the s u r f a c e
Don't k n o w what you're e x p e c t i n g of me
Put under the p r e s s u r e of walking in your s h o e s
C a u g h t in the undertow, just caught in the u n d e r t o w
Every s t e p that I take is a n o t h e r mistake to you
Can't you s e e that you're s m o t h e r i n g me
Holding too t i g h t l y afraid to lose c o n t r o l
Cause e v e r y t h i n g that you t h o u g h t I would be
Has f a l l e n apart right in f r o n t of you
Caught in the u n d er t o w just c a u g h t in the undertow
E v e r y step that I take is another m i s t a k e to you
And every second I w a s t e is more than I can t a k e ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● XXXXXXXXXAnd I know
I ɱαӌ ϵηʠ ʊҏ ʄαɩʃɩηɠ ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● Alec grabbed Shane's neck and stuffed the ashes in his face, wretching Heidi away. "If you were trying to help, you'd ease us away from the drugs and s**t when we're ready- not take them from us right away and practically kill us! We're addicted to this s**t- when you take an addiction away, everything gets worse. You gotta ease it away." Finally reality sunk into the young druggie's mind and he wrapped his arms around Heidi, suddenly about to burst into tears. He buried his face in her blonde hair, his bare, tanned shoulders shaking softly. "Dammit, Heidi... Why did you have to see me explode like that?" he whispered, his voice cracking several times. He slowly let go of the blonde girl and kissed her hand gently, blue eyes apologetic and almost dead, before turning with his hands in his pockets and walking back towards the road and the forest. ●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
You were just like me,XXXXXX
with someoneXXXXXXXXX
Dɩʂαҏҏѻɩηϯϵʠ ɩη ӌѻʊX
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●● XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX I've become so n u m b I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more a w a r e
I'm b e c o m i n g this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be l e s s like you
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 3:27 pm
Somebody caught you off guard xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Everyone knows what it feels like
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were made for
Slipped your wings and broke your heart xxxxxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx When they tell you, you don't measure up
xccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxCause' you were made for the sky
Told you, you'll never get out of here xxxxxxxxcccccxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccdxxxxxxxx You just weren't meant for the bright lights
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBut that's not what you were born for
and you believed it all these years xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx But lovely is as lovely does
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxccccccxxxxxxxxxxYou were born to fly.
Anyone who makes no mistakes......Is not trying HARD ENOUGH Shane gasped as Alec grabbed his neck. "Por el amor de mundos Alec, no te va a matar.
If it would. I would be dead by now. It works, it may not be the way you want to be helped. But it works, I survived," he said. Shane wiped his face, he spit on the ground a few times, since some ashes made it to his mouth. "You can hurt me all you want Alec, Heidi too. If it makes you feel better, go ahead, punch me. Let your anger out on me, if you want someone to yell at, someone to punch, go ahead." Shane looked at Alec again. "It won't kill you man" he called after him. Shane jogged after the young boy. "I'm sorry Alec. If it was my idea, I would've eased it away. I know how it feels to have, what you think to be your escape, just ripped away.
God, if it was my choice, I'd have eased it away. But it wasn't, I was getting the food while the decision was made." He sighed. "Tell me Alec, if you want. But I'm curious, what, other than drugs, makes you happy. I mean really happy, genuine happiness?" He asked softly. Lexi, My Dog((Out Of Cats: ))
SPANISH___ENGLISH
Por el amor de mundos Alec, no te va a matar___-> __For worlds sake Alec, it won't kill you
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ITALIAN___ENGLISH
___->__
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Love is much deeper than beauty xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Even if we are all broken
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBeautiful bird, fly
and beauty much deeper than skin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx We are each a reflection of God
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxBeautiful bird, fly
there in the eyes of your mother, your father xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Living with your dreams wide open
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxLove is the angel who's wings help you soar
is where it begins to sink in xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Spreading your wings to take off
↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭And... When Shane is drunk...↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭
He's... Like this
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself!
So what if you can see the darkest side of me
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal!
The "darkest" side, is when he's drunk
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 3:39 pm
xxxxxx•○• Maybe I need some rehab
xxxxxxOr maybe just need some sleep
xxxxxxI've got a sick obsession
xxxxxxI'm seeing it in my dreams
xxxxxxI'm looking down every alley
xxxxxxI'm making those desperate calls•○• xxxxxx•○• I'm stayin' up all night hoping
xxxxxxHit my head against the walls
xxxxxxWhat you've got boy is hard to find
xxxxxxI think about it all the time
xxxxxxI'm all strung up
xxxxxxMy heart is fried
xxxxxxI just can't get you
xxxxxxOff my mind•○• xxxxxx•○• Because your love, your love, yourlove
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love
xxxxxxI said your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love•○• xxxxxxxxxxxx◊ H e i d i H a r i s s o n ◊xxxxxxxxxxxx
Party'Animalxxx
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♫Heidi stood between Alec and Shane so that they couldn't try to hurt each other anymore. She gave Alec a soft glance and smiled as she motioned for him to stay calm. She then looked at Shane and shook her head. "I get it. You want to help. But you had no right to go through my things like that! or anyone else's for that matter! And have you ever wondered that maybe I don't want your help. Because every time you do try to help you only make things worse!" she shouted as she punched him again. "And I do not drink to escape anything! Drinking is the one of the few things that keeps me waking up every morning and living life barely. I drink because it's fun. Is that so hard to understand?" she asked before she shook her head again and sighed. She walked over to Alec and kissed him softly. "Just try to relax ok. I'll see if I can find something else that's as strong as drugs. They've got to have mushrooms somewhere. And I'll be right back. Trust me." she whispered to him as she squeezed his hand tightly to reassure him.
The blonde then turned over to Shane again and motioned for him to follow. "Come on. We're going for a walk. This smoke is only getting worse." she said as she started walking off to the forest again. She knew Shane would follow her willingly, so she didn't bother to look back to see if he was behind her. She kept her arms crossed as she searched around the forest for a spot that was far from the others. She didn't dare to take him where her and Alec were before because she considered that their place. A place where they both could escape from everyone if they needed to.
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❝ Give me a good reason to stop. ❞ Crazy ♣ Wild ♠ Rebellious xxxxxx•○• Won't listen to any advice
xxxxxxMamma's telling me I should think twice
xxxxxxBut I'm left to my own devices
xxxxxxI'm addicted, it's a crisis
xxxxxxMy friends think I've gone crazy
xxxxxxMy judgement is getting kinda hazy•○• xxxxxx•○• My status is gonna be affected
xxxxxxIf I keep it up like a love sick crackhead
xxxxxxWhat you've got boy is hard to find
xxxxxxI think about it all the time
xxxxxxI'm all strung up my heart is fried•○• xxxxxx•○• I just can't get you off my mind
xxxxxxBecause your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug
xxxxxxYour love, your love, your love
xxxxxxI said your love, your love, your love
xxxxxxIs my drug•○•
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