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I am a 15 year old who only wants to learn more about the wiccan religion but my mother is a strict christian. I convinced her like my friends told me to but when i did she yeld at me to bring everything upstairs so I did as I was told, She burned it all infront of my very eyes... Now my mother makes sure i dont go anywhere with out her or my dad if she thinks I am up to something "suspitious" she drags me to the nearest Church.... What is wrong with me just wanting to be myself. When I get older I want to run my own Animal rescue shelter and become a High Preastess Of Magick in a coven of my own ^_^ But how can I continue my studies when my mother wont even let me go outside to get the mail? I mean I cant meditate I cant even take peacful walks and just let the wind run wildly through my hair? I will never reach my dream is my mom never lightens up. What do I do can anyone help me is there a way I can undo this whole thing, its been going on for the past 4 years!

Merry ye part^_^

Well, at 15, you're not going to be able to get involved in Wicca for three more years, as no real coven will initiate people under 18. By then you'll have moved out anyway, so no worries. If you're interested in practicing magic until then, go ahead, but do it in secret. Some people are ignorant and refuse to hear any other viewpoint than their own. You can't reason with them, so you pretty much have to either avoid them or live with them. I'm living with two at the moment, not intolerant of me, but rather with each other. Man, that's amusing. I hear their viewpoints and listen to their arguments, but the whole time I'm thinking "Where the hell are they getting their logic from? Kindergarten?" My brother and my stepmom (the two I'm talking about) just are complete idiots. I doubt that my stepmom would care that much if she knew about my interest in the occult, but I'm not taking chances, because she really is kind of intolerant and stubborn. ^_^

Your mom can say and do all she wants but in the end, your views are your own. She cannot forcibly change them no matter what she does. She can drag you to church everyday for the next year, but you may still be truly Wiccan.
My mom almost wanted to do that to me but I informed her of the information above and it finally clicked with her. She now thinks that this is a phase that I will grow out (its been 7-8 years now, lol).
Also keep in mind that your mom may be worried about you. Wicca doesn't have the greatest track record. Many "traditional" Wiccan covens are nothing more than cults that promote ***** and other icky practices. There's been many cases were the High Priest of a coven makes the younger members do things in order to be accepted.
That's why my mom didn't like Wicca. She was hearing about these coven cults and was honestly afraid that something would happen to me. Now, of course not all covens are like this, but maybe there was a really bad coven in your area who called themselves Wiccans?
Start off slowly woth Wicca. If you join a coven, join one that has people you can trust. Even if its not traditional Wicca, you may still find it to be good for you. Non-traditional Wiccan covens usually will admit younger members. Why? Because its dumb not to. No religion in its right mind will make younger folks wait until they are 18. They develop religious curriculem specifically for children and teens.

As for practicing Wicca, keep in mind that your mom can't stop you from praying or doing magik. Wiccan magik tends to rely on items (stones, herbs, candles, etc.) but the truth is that you don't need any of that stuff to effectively do magik. They just help you focus.

I wish you the best of luck! I despise being forced religion (or forced away from religion).

I second Josh's question; Maybe it was a casual error, but when I read "I convinced her like my friends told me to", I had a "Wait, hang on..." moment.

You could be a diligent wee Wiccan and read up (online) all the stuff you're missing out on, so when you're older and presumably allowed more breathing space, you can start putting stuff into practise; or, you could be hardXcore and become sort sort of techno-Wiccan right now; it's a lot more discreet than amassing a library of wicca-related material and tools.

They told me to sit down with my mom and tell her how i felt of christianity and Wicca, they said everything would be okay so i did what they told me to do they said to show her a good book on wicca so i showed her this book called True Magick and then she lost it she burned it and started to yell at me to get my other things!

She can't force you to change your mind no matter what she does. She needs to realize that. If it was me, I would argue that even Almighty God recognized that the chance to freely choose to do good was the most sacred thing in the world, so much that evil must be allowed to garuntee it. And, if God doesn't just whisk away all the evil in the world, who the hell is she to think she can?

Wait, everyone has to screw for God(ess)?

Legally, your mother can decide exactly what you do, what religion you practice, etc etc, and so forth until your of legal age and out of her house and financial clutches. However, physically, she cannot choose what you think is your spiritual path, how you use your dreams, and whether or not you meditate in bed right before you fall asleep. Thats something only you can control. So therefore, you may want to try magicks that are easier to conceal than "Wicca" for early practice. Looking up basic energy practices and symbol magick is your best bet.