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 Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:20 pm
 This is a romance log for Ishme Storrow and Tsunami Inela, including Tsunami's son Cadassi. Please do not post unless you are xx Aps or Ishmeluv! <3 This logging thread will probably be used in the future, however we have deemed this particular roleplay finished due to the nature of the ending and time constraints. Feel free to read on!
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:21 pm
Ishme: -biting at her lip nervously, looking back at the shop every few seconds as she walks away from it, wondering whether her mother can handle Scherzo, but knowing full well if anyone can do it she can. Heaving a sigh, she looks at where she's walking, realizing she has absolutely no clue where Tsunami spends her time anymore, that thought tugging at her heart as she purses her lips and keeps walking towards somewhere more open where she might be able to see better-
Cadassi: Come on Mom. It’s time to get up! -He reached over and pulled the covers from over her. He heard a whine as the covers were tugged back into their original position. Sighing, he grabbed them again, this time with more force.- I said up! You can't keep living like this. You need to get out and have a life again.
Tsunami: -Whimpering, she tried to grab for the blankets again but Cadassi pulled them out of her reach.- Why are you so mean? -She sat up, her ears pinned against her head.- I just want to sleep...
Cadassi: No sleeping. We're going out today. Surfing, like you use to do. Come on. -He pulled her out the bed and slide his paws through her hair to comb it back.- Good enough. He then pushed her out of her room and outside.- No ifs ands or buts. We're going. -He couldn't help but roll up his eyes when she whined again.-
Ishme: -trudging along, she dragged her tail, her eyes searching, head moving back and forth as she looked for any sign of Tsunami, wondering what she was doing these days, if she ever got used to motherhood, if she was still upset with her after all this time.... Trying to remember all the places they had spent time together, she wondered if Tsu still visited the beach, she knew once upon a time the young vixen loved it. Heaving another sigh, she decided some fresh salt water might do her some good and turned so she could head in that direction-
Cadassi: -He had resorted to grabbing his mother by the hand to drag her toward the beach. It wasn't easy, but he was slowly getting her there, rather she liked it or not. He was tired of her sulking all the time. If she continued this, he'd have to carry her over his shoulder.- Stop fighting me!
Tsunami: I'm not fighting! -Growls under her breath as he continues to drag her along.- You should stop holding onto my wrist, it hurts! -Frowning, she finally gave up and followed along, knowing he wasn't going to give up. When her paws hit the fresh sand, she blinked and looked down. It had been so long since she had been to the beach she had almost forgot what it felt like. As the sound of the waves filled her ears, they lifted and she looked forward. It was at that moment that her stomach lurched into her chest. Was that... Ishme?-
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:22 pm
Ishme: -finally managing to reach the beach after dragging herself there, she stumbled off the ledge and crash landed in the sand, shaking herself out and sitting up so she could sniff at the air, her ears swiveling as she felt a calm rush over her- Hmmmm~ -hearing the slight movement of sand, she ran her gaze over the rest of the beach and saw her.... Her heart thudded hard against her chest and she felt her mouth go dry, tears welling up in her eyes for reasons she couldn't exactly explain, and even if there was a thousand things she had to say, all she could do was stare-
Tsunami: -Seeing Ishme, a part of her wanted to run over to her, but there was the larger part of her heart that could only feel pain. She stiffled back a tear before turning to her son who was talking about a mile a minute at that point, none of it that she heard. He didn't know who Ishme was, so he didn't even realize his mother was in another world. She finally felt a tug at her wrist and looked up to see Cadassi giving her a glare.- Oh I'm... sorry.
Cadassi: -Sighing, he couldn't tell what was going through her head, but even for her she seemed out of it today.- Come on, I brought the surfboards. We're here, we might as well surf!
Tsunami: -Wiping her eyes, hoping the image of Ishme would go away, she was a little upset when she still saw her there.- Uhh... yeah... Um... I guess we should. -She replied to Cad, allowing him to tug her toward the water.-
Ishme: -staring, she started to feel helpless, her heart racing slightly, her whole body was tensed, her muscles locked up as she tried to will herself over to where Tsunami stood. Seeing Cadassi tug at her, she narrowed her eyes in on him, noticing the slight similarities, her lips twitching as she realized she should have been in both of their lives, watching this young man grow up. Then, as if her body just couldn't sit still anymore she shot forward, towards the pair, padding more slowly as she approached the edge of the water, her words faultering for a moment.... What do you say to someone you haven't seen in such a long time? Someone you recently realized you're in love with?- Tsu! -her voice barely audible above the waves, she tried to yell across the water- I miss you!
Tsunami: -She paused completely when she heard her name but she didn't turn. Her whole body went ridged and she shook. Tears were now welling up in her eyes..- Don't... Don't... Don't... -She kept repeating to herself under her breath. Her fist clenched to help keep her composure.-
Cadassi: -Tilting his head, he looked over his mother's shoulder to see who was calling her name. he didn't recognize the person so he was a little confused.- Can I help you? -He looked at his mother, noticing how upset she looked.- Who is that? -He whispered to her.-
Tsunami: That's... That's... -She was almost sobbing.- ...Ishme..
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:23 pm
Cadassi: -It was almost like a light lit up in his mind. All the stories his mother had told him, what had happened when he was born. This was the female that had abandoned his mother.. because of him.- Ishme?! -He couldn't help but stare at her, and even a little in his mother's defense, he stood closer to her.-
Tsunami: Perhaps... you should go Cad. This is between me and her.. -Her voice was shaking but she now finally turned to look at Ishme.-
Cadassi: -He wasn't convinced it was the right thing. But he gently squeezed his mother's paw.- I won't be far away if you need me. -He then shot Ishme a look before walking away.-
Ishme: -standing there, she watched Tsunami freeze and part of her wished she hadn't spoken, she could see the tension in her body, any happiness or carelessness she might have been able to possess returning to the water rushing out of her; she could see plainly how much it hurt. Her own heart ached, her knees wobbling slightly as she simply watched Tsunami, not knowing what type of response she would receive, scared that maybe she would just avoid her altogether. Her ears laying back, she barely noticed the look Cadassi gave her as she gazed again upon Tsunami's face- It's been so long.... -voice quiet, she stared at the distressed female before her- I'm so sorry I've waited so long.
Tsunami: -She felt her body shake at the statement, a rage building up in her.- Waited?! You left me Ish. You completely left me when I needed you the most! I had no idea how to raise Cadassi! I asked you for help... and you left! -Tears were in her eyes.- ...I couldn't understand why you would do that.. I still can't..
Ishme: -ears pinning back, she winced and shrunk slightly as Tsunami yelled at her, knowing full well she deserved it- Yes, I know.... Tsu.... Trust me, I know..... I can't.... I don't understand it either.... -rubs at her eyes for a moment- I was scared, I didn't know how to feel.... Tsunami you had kids and I had no one and I thought.... No, I'm not going to make excuses. I know I was horrible. I can't change it. I know how it feels now. I am so, so sorry, Tsunami.... I left you alone.... I never should have done that.... I..... You were everything to me and I let you down.
Tsunami: -Frowns at her, tears falling down her cheeks.- You had me... But now all I can feel is though I wasn't good enough and I never will be. -Shakes her head back and forth and takes a few steps back-
Ishme: No. Tsu. That's not it at all..... I've got no good excuses. I just didn't understand then what I do now..... That when you feel something, this something deep within you, you can't be scared, you can't run away. I've been running away all my life, whenever I've become scared, or my relationship with someone has become too serious.... I've always moved on, gone somewhere else..... Tsu I knew I wanted to be with you, then I got scared.... And when you had those kids.... I felt like we weren't.... We couldn't..... I didn't have a chance.... Tsu, I knew then that I couldn't just be your friend, and I didn't want.... I didn't think we could be together then..... Please. Please don't walk away from me. I'm done running. I'm done staying away. I will follow you wherever you go. Don't try and push me away.
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:29 pm
Tsunami: -Blinks back tears, curling into herself. - How am I supposed to trust you... -She wraps her arm around her other, trying to keep herself somewhat distanced from Ishme. Hearing the statements indicating that Ishme wanted to be more than friends, she felt herself shake again.- I'm not even sure how to be friends with you right now... I can't even pretend to think about anything more.. I always... I always loved you... But right now I'm too confused. This hurts too much. I don't even want to live anymore.. I've hardly come out of my room since you left. I just can't... handle it anymore... -She shrunk back, feeling so completely vulnerable.-
Ishme: -pauses, blinking back tears, watching helplessly for a few moments- You can't. Not right now. But Tsu.... I will do anything, anything, to regain your trust. I will do anything for you. I will do whatever I can, whatever you want. I will regain your friendship. -hearing her love and despair, she cringes again as if hit, lowering herself and slowly crawling forward- No Tsu.... Please stay with me.... Tsu.... I want to make it better.... Don't.... You can't say that.... I won't let you do that.... I won't let my stupidity go that far.... I won't lose you.... Or let your son or your family lose you.... -reaches a paw out and holds it there before letting it drop and go back to her side, talking quietly to the vixen- Tsu....I am here right now.... Please, just let me be here with you....
Tsunami: I haven't... Only for my mom's and Cad's sake. -Her eyes were swollen.- My father died, Ish. So did my sister. And my grandfathers. And my great-grandmother.. And my grandma and great uncle have disappeared and we can't figure out what happened. My whole family is practically gone. I hardly have anything left. I'm not sure I can bring myself to be close to anyone anymore... -Looks away.-
Ishme: Oh Tsu.... -looking at her gently, she studied her face and clenched her fist, knowing it was best not to touch her just in case it might upset her in any way- I didn't know.... I..... I am so sorry.... There are no words.... -bites her lip again- I am sure it must be hard.... But.... Tsu, you gotta believe me when I say I'll be here.... I will be by your side from now on until forever..... I.... May have to leave to take care of my children..... But.... I will always return to you, Tsu.... And even if you never accept me as your lover..... I will be here, trying to earn your trust and love as a friend.... This I promise you. I swear it. You will always know where I am, so you don't have to worry anymore....
Tsunami: -Sighs.- It'll take more than words to make me believe you.. I really don't know what else to say... You hurt me so badly... I thought I would never see you again after you left. -Won't even look at her.- I don't even know where to start... Or how to even be friends...
Ishme: I know, but I am willing to show you.... -scoots so she is only a few inches away and watches her quietly- Sometimes..... Sometimes I thought maybe I wouldn't.... But then sometimes..... I wanted to.... And just..... Thought that it would be too hard.... That you wouldn't want me.... That you would hate me.... But..... I was being selfish..... You deserve more than that.... -purses her lips- Well.... You could tell me about your son?
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:30 pm
Tsunami: -Rubs the back of her arm and sighs. Despite Ishme coming closer, she stays where she is, only barely looking at her from time to time.- Well umm... His name is Cadassi... He's a deejay like his mother. He's a lot like her really, a lot more than he is like me anyway. -Chews her bottom lip.- But he helps me out and is really sweet. I'm proud of him.
Ishme: -nods along gently, curling herself up so she's more comfortable in the sand, her eyes soft, curious- That's an adorable name. He may not like the things you do but.... You were fun and silly.... And I'm sure he takes after that side some.... At least he showed that bringing you out here.... Does he have your sense of adventure? Your outgoing attitude? -wraps her tail around her ankle- It sounds like you raised him well, Tsu. I'm glad you have him around.
Tsunami: -Draws in a breath, trying to keep herself from crying more.- He's outgoing. I guess a little adventurous, not as much as I was though. He's been... a lot more serious than I was.. a lot more responsible. I was.. lucky in the fact that he doesn't hate me.. He has more or less taken care of me more than I have him... -Shifts some of her hair behind her ears. Letting out another sigh.- And... your children...? -She was half dreading the answer, but she knew she had to get passed this.-
Ishme: -nods again- Yeah.... He's been through a lot too, I'm sure....But everyone changes depending on circumstance.... It isn't always a bad thing to be responsible.... Heh.... I'm sure it will help him in the future.... I..... Well I'm glad.... At least you are both okay.... And have been able to lean on each other.... -quiets and shifts before letting out a sigh- They're only kits.... Scherzo, my middle boy, he's.... Serious.... He doesn't like me.... He'll barely even look at me.... He's full of.... Silent angst and hatred.... His sister is loving, affectionate, but she's a fighter.... She's determined and.... She wants to learn her father's trade.... My eldest son.... I met him briefly.... He was so soft and gentle.... But I haven't.... Worked things out yet.... So that I can keep him.... -looks down at the sand, brushing her paw across it, suddenly quiet-
Tsunami: I guess.. I wish he had had more of a chance to be carefree like I use to be... -Her ears down, she looks at Ishme and sighs.- That ninja guy is their father... -Muses and looks down again. She knew he was bad news from the beginning, but it wasn't any of her business then and it wasn't now.- Ahh... well... he definitely wouldn't like me then either... -Scratches the back of her head.- Do you have a closer relationship with your daughter at least?
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:31 pm
Ishme: That's.... True I suppose.... But I'm sure.... I'm sure if you'll let me stick around.... That maybe.... Maybe I can.... Be by your side.... When you trust me again.... And he can have some time... To be carefree.... Even if it is rather late in his life.... -glares at the sand and clenches her jaw, thinking of the fights and the tears they had shed over her relationship with Sasuke- Yes. So.... You were right.... In that.... If.... You want to look at it that way.... -lets a little smile twitch at her lips thinking of Requiem- Yes.... She's beautiful, loving, and she.... Well, she..... I guess she's like Cadassi in a way.... Always trying to make me happy and show me.... Just how much I am loved.... That I am a good mother.... Even though.... -chokes a little- I know I'm not.... My own kids and I.... I have screwed things up.... -takes a deep breath and gets real quiet again-
Tsunami: -Musing, her brows knit together.- Stop it. -Her voice was a little brisk before she finally looked up, tears in her eyes.- That's not true, and you know it. You've always been good with kids and you were a wonderful mother to your adopted kids so I know you've been and will be a wonderful mother to them. I don't have any doubt of that. You need to believe in yourself more... -She finally let her eyes meet Ishme's, even if they were full of sadness.- If your son is full of hate it’s not because you were a bad mother... Your daughter is proof of that... -Chews on her own lip, knowing it wasn't the same case with her own children. She was lucky Cadassi turned out the way he did... And well.. Valdete.. she never got to see.-
Ishme: -winces slightly even though she knows Tsunami is only trying to be nice, her eyes lifting slowly from the sand and meeting with the other vixen's, the look much more gentle and loving, despite having a tinge of sadness and a trace of wetness on her lashes- I should have known better though, Tsu.... You were right.... I was being foolish, and now it has cost me the happiness of two of my children.... This situation is what.... What has done this to us, to me, to them.... If only I had.... -touching a paw to her forehead she sighed, shaking her head a few times- But I'm here to change that.... My son.... It's clear I cannot change him.... Not now, when he won't listen to me.... But if there's one thing I can change, I will do it.... For me, and one day my children will understand for them as well.... I'm sorry, I've brought us back to this.... Is there anything I can do for you, Tsu... Right now?
Tsunami: -Sighs- How could you know better? If you liked the guy than you liked him... Regardless of how much of an a** he may or may not have been. -Looks away now, rubbing the back of her arm as she felt rather sheepish for her outburst.- It happened to both of us... right? So I guess we're both to blame... -Her eyes were now dancing across the sand, anywhere to not have to look at her. Her head slowly shakes to the question.- I'm... not really sure.. Ishme... It’s just... a lot to take in right now...
Ishme: -watches her carefully again, biting at her lips, a nervous habit she had developed recently- Yeah... I just.... Wish we would have.... Said how he truly felt back then.... I know it's not easy to hear them now.... -closing her eyes for a moment she listened to the waves and the wind, the sand brushing against her tail and sifting between her toes- I understand.... If you want to go.... Or even.... If you want me to stay away for a while.... But I'll be close by.... Where ever or whenever you need me, okay....?
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:32 pm
Tsunami: -Nervously looks up, her whole body shaking a little as she held back tears.- I'm not sure what to do... A part of me wants to stay... but it’s... so painful.. It’s painful to even look at you... to even wonder what could have been... All this time away from you has killed me... I don't even know what to do anymore... I've... I've missed you so much Ish... -Can't believe she's saying this. She slumps down into the sand and wraps her arms around herself to stop from shaking so badly.-
Ishme: -allows tears to well up and slowly run down her fur as she moves a little closer, clenching her paws to keep from reaching out to stroke Tsunami, slowly lowering her body down in the sand so she can look at her softly- I don't want to hurt you, Tsu.... That is the last thing in the world I want to do.... But I just.... I don't want to risk losing you, losing any chance of us.... I don't want to leave you again, Tsu.... I want to stay.... I've missed you too.... With my whole heart.... But if you need time by yourself.... If you need me to leave for a while.... Whatever you need Tsu.... I can give you time to think.... I just.... I will give you anything Tsu, anything at all.... I offer to you what little I have left of myself.... You can do whatever you want with the pieces.... Just.... Don't give up on me.... Don't shut down....
Tsunami: -Continues to keep herself in a huddled state, sobbing softly until she can manage to calm herself down enough to talk.- I... I don't know what to do... All of this is confusing me... For so long I just... I wanted to see you again... For you to tell me everything was going to be alright... And I just... I... This is too much... I feel like I'm breaking... I'm not sure there is anything left of me... -Wipes her eyes with the back of her paw though it doesn't stop the tears from falling.-
Ishme: Tsunami.... Tsu.... You're right here.... I can see you.... And.... I'm right beside you.... Telling you we're going to figure this out.... Together.... -chokes on her tears, full on ready to sob now, her paw reaching out slightly, shaking- Tsu.... -gets quiet- Please.... Can I.... Can I touch you....?
Tsunami: -Sniffles, choking back some of her sobs, her whole body shaking. She wanted nothing more than to curl into a ball right now and make the world disappear. Her eyes were squeezed shut tight until she heard Ishme's words, she slowly opened them and dared for only a second to look in her direction. She wasn't sure what to say, she wasn't even sure if she could say anything with the way she had been crying. So she bit down on her lip and slowly nodded her head in response to answer her.- ...
Ishme: Oh Tsu.... -breathes unevenly, gasping a few times for air as tears pour down her face, watching the gentle nod she nearly broke, reaching out to touch Tsunami's cheek gently, her eyes closing tightly, paw stroking gently the soft fur there as she struggled to keep her breathing steady- How I have missed you.... I.... I haven't touched anyone.... Like this.... In.... I don't even remember how long.... -opening her eyes again she looked softly at Tsunami as if mesmerized, paw moving back slightly and stroking down along her jawline, her body shaking as well- I.... I will resist the urge to hold you, okay....? Just.... Just tell me when you need me to stop.... Tell me.... When it's too much..... -slowly she stopped for a moment to simply hold her cheek, her other arm hastily wiping away tears-
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:33 pm
Tsunami: -Feels her heart skip a beat at Ishme's touch. Her eyes close as she still finds herself sobbing a bit, though the sobs were getting quieter. She leaned into the touch, nuzzling against Ishme's hand. Her own eyes opened just a moment to meet Ishme's own.- Ishme.... I... -She hiccuped a few more sobs, her body heaving slightly in her distress. She paused, looking Ishme square in the eyes before she finally gave up and jumped into the other female's arms, snuggling against her.- Please... please hold me... I've missed you so much....
Ishme: -choking a few more times, she laughed lightly, loving every minute of the nuzzling, a wistful smile on her face, she opened her eyes to look down at Tsunami, a desperate look in her eyes before they widened slightly, her arms grasping Tsunami as if they had simply been waiting for her all this time, wrapping around her tightly, making sure to be careful with such a precious gift, her mouth allowing soft coos to escape as she simply held her, both their bodies shaking, breathing uneven- Oh Tsu.... My Tsu.... I will hold you as long as you want.... I am here for you always.... -gently strokes the back of her head as her own leans against Tsu, a few tears mixing into her fur-
Tsunami: -Curls herself into Ishme's embrace, still sobbing somewhat. Leaning into her, she nuzzled her face into Ishme's neck, enjoying every bit of warm that Ishme's body provided. Shifting her head, she listened to Ishme's heartbeat and how fast it was going. Staying against her as if a child, Tsunami ran a finger against Ishme's hair, her eyes slightly vacant but her crying had stopped.- I missed you so much... I don't want to lose you again... -Leans into her more, purring softly as she nuzzles against her.-
Ishme: -Her heart fluttered at every movement, every nuzzle, her paws pulling her closer as if into herself, craving this other being, this young vixen she had known for so long.... Loved for so long and only now could show her true affections. She didn't want to go too far, to upset Tsunami in any way, but she could not help herself, lips pressing against Tsunami's head, just beside her ear, eyes closing slightly in a sort of all-encompassing bliss, her paw still slowly stroking her hair, chokes and gasping turning into heavy sighs, trying to simply breathe Tsunami in- You won't.... I promise.... Nothing in this world will ever keep me from you ever, ever again.... I want you to know that, Tsu.... I want you to believe that.... Just as I am here now.... I will be by your side every day I am able.... To be whatever you need, a friend, a supporter, an advisor, a lover.... Whatever it is, I will be it. I swear to you.
Tsunami: -Curling against her, she seems to pull herself more inward at the words, as if protectively. However, she doesn't leave Ishme's side, hestitating but staying close. Sniffling a little, she closes her eyes, listening to the words in quiet contemplation.- I'm... I'm still scared... -She said quietly, almost in a whisper.- I just... At the same time... I don't want to lose you... But I'm afraid of what might happen... And.. I... I know you're trying to make it up.. but it’s going to take me a little while... And it’s not just because of you... I've seen my mother and grandmother lose everything... I'm terrified of that happening to me...
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:34 pm
Ishme: -Breathing in deeply, she let out a shaky sigh as she listened, eyes closing fully, giving a little nod of her head, expecting that this will not last, but not wanting it to end so soon. She could not get off easy for what she had done, this was a fight, she had to prove herself to the woman she loved.- I understand.... I promised you before, I will do my best to prove myself.... I will stand by as long as it takes.... If I can't touch you for a while, if I have to just.... Be there quietly in the background to show you I'm not going anywhere.... I will do it, okay?.... Please, you just have to let me try.... I'm not asking for anything more than that.... Just give me a chance.... I can't make up for what I have done in the past or what has happened to your family.... All I can do is be here now, as whatever you need.
Tsunami: -Letting out a breath, she lifted a paw and touched Ishme's face, looking her square in the eyes.- Maybe... just... something slow for now.. Maybe a.. friendship/dating period... Where we get to know each other again? Hang out a bit.. and just see where it goes? -Her eyes were swollen and she was trying to do her best to not cry again but her voice was a little more hopeful than before.-
Ishme: -gives Tsunami her most charming smile, her eyes welling with tears again as she looks at her hopefully and nods- Of course... I would be happy to get to know you again.... I'm sure much has changed in both of our lives, aside from the obvious. And I.... I'll try not to chicken out when asking you out on a real date. -laughs slightly, nuzzling her cheek against the paw-
Tsunami: -Looks at her for a good long while, she leans forward and kisses Ishme's cheek, but quickly shifts back with a blush. She chews her lip and nods, her eyes now looking away.- You better not. -Her lips twist into a smile for a moment at her teasing gesture.- I'm sorry that I need some time before jumping fully in... It’s just... so much has happened...
Ishme: -flushes brightly as well, a smile still playing at her lips, another laugh bubbling up for a moment as she heart Tsunami's comment- Yes, ma'am. -lets her smile fade for a moment, her eyes still gentle, but a bit stern as she grips one of Tsunami's paws, craning her neck as if trying to look into her eyes- Tsunami, I do not blame you. You may take all the time you need. I am simply happy that you are not pushing me away for what I have done.... Your pending forgiveness is all I ask for. Your heart is a precious thing to give away, especially when it has been battered, I want you to keep it until you have confidence in me again, until you know you can trust me and want me by your side as your mate forever, because that's how long I plan to be here.
Tsunami: -She nods slowly, tears stinging at her eyes. She shifts slightly uneasily and lets out a sigh before looking up again.- I have always loved you... If I couldn't forgive you... I wasn't a true friend.. And it only means that I was lying to both of us. -Looks at her feet and muses, trying to figure out what to say.- I know I want to be with you, but it’s just going to take that time for me to be ready again... after everything that has happened. -As she shifted her gaze again she saw Cadassi watching them and she frowned again.- For now... maybe we could begin by you getting a proper introduction to my son?
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:36 pm
Ishme: Sometimes.... Sometimes people don't forgive when others have done them wrong. And sometimes.... It's for the better. But I know you can see right through me, you did before, even when I wouldn't admit it, and I'm happy that you see.... I really do mean every word. It will be worth it to forgive me, it will. I am still your best friend, and I am glad that you are still mine. -loosens her grip and allows Tsunami to move around or leave her lap if she wants, slowly following her gaze and flushing deeply, giving an rigid nod of her head, embarrassment and awkward social commitments setting in- Yes... That's probably a good idea....
Tsunami: -Shivers slightly and pulls her legs to herself, her head shaking slightly.- I've never been good at holding grudges... -She looks at Ishme again before slowly getting to her feet. She felt rather confused, but she knew she had to get passed this.. She didn't want to lose Ishme again. Her eyes turned to look at Cadassi who was trying to look away and appear nonchalant. She chuckled a little at him, before turning to Ishme and grabbing her hand, squeezing it lightly.- He's just... concerned... He's a good kid though.. -Looks back in his direction before moving that way.-
Ishme: -nodding, she felt the confusion and distress rolling of Tsunami in waves, but she tried to ignore it, knowing it was simply going to take time and effort to make things right again. She was sure that she could help stabilize Tsunami, maybe even return to her pieces of her old self, though with everything that had happened, she knew she would never be the same. The laugh and the slight tease gave her some hope that one day it might be okay. Feeling Tsunami's grasp she smiled her best smile and followed her towards the young male- He seems like it... I think anyone would be a little.... Concerned.... And weirded out seeing their mother in the arms of a vixen they've never met.... -clearing her throat, she flushed some more and lowered her head some, feeling even more awkward admitting that-
Tsunami: -Gives Ishme's hand another squeeze before appearing in front of her son. She never did let go, continuing to hold it as if reassurance that everything would be alright. Looking at Cad, she cleared her throat a bit, unsure how to explain everything to him.- Cadassi... This is Ishme... Ishme.. this is my son, Cadassi.
Cadassi: -After having watched most of what had just happened, even if he had tried to look away, he wasn't sure what to say. He couldn't say it was nice to meet her, but he also knew he should be polite. He nodded his head.- Hello Ishme.. -It was all he could manage to say, though he knew he sounded rude and wasn't all that surprised to see his mother shoot him a sharp glance.-
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Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2014 11:37 pm
Ishme: -holding tight to Tsunami's hand, she gave him her most welcoming smile and offered a bow of her head before she grinned- Hello Cadassi, I have heard a lot about you. It has been quite a long time since I last saw you, you were barely a day old.... I'm happy to see you grew into such a very kind male, one who is kind and respectful and helps out his mum. And thank you, for allowing me time to speak with your mother, even though I know it must have been hard when you want to protect her. -she dug at the group sheepishly with her foot- I would usually give the people I meet a hug, but I sense I won't be able to do that for a while. -realizes she's going on and quiets herself, giving a polite, if a bit awkward, smile-
Cadassi: -Grits his teeth somewhat, though he keeps a smile pasted on his face, even if it was somewhat fake. He wanted to yell at her, and tell her how things were, but instead he kept quiet, especially since in a way it felt as though she was bating him and daring him not to be all the things she just said he was. This irritated him.- I have also heard a lot about you.. -He kept his words somewhat cryptic and saw his mother frown heavily, her ears folding back. He refrained from saying more, convinced that if he tried to talk any further it would just make Tsunami even more upset.- Anyway.. it seems the two of you have worked some things out?
Tsunami: -Stays quiet, not sure this meeting was going very well. She felt pretty small and wanted to disappear but knew she couldn't.-
Ishme: -sensing the tension, she looked first to Tsunami and then back to Cadassi, her ears leaning back as well, she wondered what she had done. She could not even comprehend ever having malicious intent and so his reaction made no sense to her; she was simply trying to compliment him, to tell him she was happy Tsunami had such a person in her life, one she could be proud of. Looking down, she felt his gaze burning through her- Oh.... I'm sorry.... I didn't mean.... -shaking her head a moment she took a deep breath and snapped her head up to look at him once again, a smile no longer present, but a soft look still on her face- We've started to..... We have a long road ahead of us.... I have to prove myself.... -looking between them she bite her lip- To both of you.... But.... That's for the future.... I have to get to know Tsu again.... And I'm hoping.... Well.... That one day I can get to know you too.... But.... I understand if that takes time. I.... Plan to be around.... -eyes staying on Tsunami, she squeezed her paw, knowing she was doing this all wrong, but hardly understanding how to do it right since Cadassi is foreign to her-
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