Ah yes, well I really don't visit Gaia much anymore but i've had some free time and ran across an old email notification...soooo here I am checking up on some things.
Aw poor girl! But you know, i've discovered that life is pretty much about the ups and the downs. I't shad and frustrating but ultimately makes us better people if we choose to learn from what's happened. That said...I feel like ive been robbed of certain emotions and aspects of my personality...so I feel you there at least a little. Dealing is hard....stuff comes back to haunt you at some of the worst times.
Another part of the reason I don't hang out here is because I feel too old for it...lol...turning 24 sooooon and I have a great job doing fixing computers for a local bank/holding company. Not too much else going on though. The best way to contact em these days is facebook if you have one.