Hi guys.
Some of you may remember me as a ball buster.
I haven't been on in months. I just don't need to, anymore.
The past few months have been odd for me. I went into a suicidal period, and when people finally took it that I was indeed going to kill myself on certain date if I didn't get help, some people stepped up.
I almost got a pretty good job, but got stabbed in the back by some b***h I now want to destroy completely.
I'm now seeing a gender therapist for the first time, after eight years of waiting for someone to give me a hand.
I have a family (my blood family is s**t), which consists of my good friend and her two siblings (which I call my kids). I'm bailing out a few friends from shitty situations, and I'm about 3/4ths through my therapy/counseling program at this college.
I'm working on a few projects, namely makeups and deodorants that don't have toxic ingredients (I believe people, women in particular, can be clean and beautiful without having to poison themselves).
I've bleached and dyed my hair blue for the first time over the past couple of months. I've been dressing better. And I no longer pencil in my eyebrows, because having thick eyebrows doesn't ********' matter.
I got a little nicer, a little more tolerant of other people. And even though I only have a few close friends, women. ********. Love me.
Also, I have someone I'm desperately in "love" with, and although it's not mutual, it's fun to tease him and it doesn't aggravate him (it confuses him, but oh man, his responses, it's so cute). He's about my height (I'm about 5' tall), pudgy, good with math, somewhat antisocial, and friggin' adorable. We have a similar taste in music, a similar scientific adoration, and some other crap. Point is, I've liked this guy for about three years and didn't want to face it, so about eight, nine months ago, I did, then told him in the summer, and we're actually closer than before.
So, in short!
I am leaving Gaia because I no longer need this shitty site and all the other s**t!
Some 'o you guys are pretty ********' cool, and s**t, but all that aside, I'm seriously giving away random s**t.
First come, first served. If I have an item you want, just ask. Any item; no bullshit. Out of politeness, though, if you want a ton of stuff, give others a chance to pick, too.
I also have some gold, so it any of you have a huge quest, let me know.
Here's my inventory:
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Everyone, I should explain as best as I can.
I used this place as a coping tool, but when dealing with my actual issues and growing to be able to combat and beat them directly, I no longer need this, or several other sites, as a coping tool.
I don't intend to burn my bridges, just to move on from them. I highly doubt that I'll need anyone's input from the various people I've met online. I don't even listen to the people I know in person, half the time. My life is my life, and I can make my own choices and mistakes.
This is me just donating stuff to anyone, since I did put real money into this site a few times and, hey, pixel achievements are crap to me. Don't feel selfish. I'm giving them away because I'm leaving on good terms.
If any of you want to contact me, feel free (although I have to tard it up in case of bots and s**t):
Facebook, try facebook (dot) com (/) vahnm
Email reddragonz1 (at) netzero (dot) com
Steam, try Bacon-Soap.
And yes, if you play tf2 and bump into a terribly laggy player called Bacon Soap, that is me. I go on random servers most of the time.
