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 Posted: Tue Jan 19, 2010 2:57 pm
I feel like all of my life, I have kept each and every one of my emotions locked up inside this titanium box. Ever since I was little, I was always at the butt of people's pranks and practical jokes. Throughout elementary, I was bullied so bad I was hospitalized multiple times. I have also never really hit it off with my mom. The only emotion I have succeeded in feeling is sadness and betrayal, and those are two of the most negative emotions there are. So when it comes times for happy things, I...don't...feel anything. I know what I should feel, but I don't. It's like being color blind. I know what color I am supposed to be looking at, but I can't actually SEE the color. I have recently, through my attempts to get closer to God, realized that this is one of the main things keeping me from him. All of his work is love, one great emotion...and one I can't feel. He can't reach me, because I can't feel him, and I can't respond, because I don't have access to these emotions. Can you help me? I can't go to anyone I'm close to, because my pride is still standing. It's crumbling, but I can't bring myself to ask a friend for help yet. Can you give me any advice on what to do?
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Posted: Tue Jan 19, 2010 8:05 pm
I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all.
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Posted: Sat Jan 23, 2010 12:33 pm
Maybe you just need to ask him in. Sit there with people one day and ask him to come in, to flood your mind. This is also a healing thing probably, and those are things which are best done with other people...maybe you should just ask them to pray for you. You don't even need to tell them what to pray about. I think God's going to do some amazing work in your life!
heart You're Blessed! smile
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Posted: Tue Jan 26, 2010 2:37 am
I think I know what you're going through. The only advice that I can think of giving you at this time is to pray that God fills you with love for yourself, others, and most importantly (firstly) for God. And for God to help surround you with His love and to put godly, loving Christians around you. The kind of people who will love you no matter what and encourage you to do what is right. ^^ I'll be praying for you.
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Posted: Tue Jan 26, 2010 5:03 pm
Thanks for your advice. I recently started attending a christian club, and I really think it's doing me some good.I hope by the end of the year I can break down this barrier.
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Posted: Tue Jan 26, 2010 8:33 pm
The Magnificent Maestro Thanks for your advice. I recently started attending a christian club, and I really think it's doing me some good.I hope by the end of the year I can break down this barrier. Yay. smile I'm happy for ya!!
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Posted: Tue Jan 26, 2010 8:51 pm
good luck you'll need it, cause I still can't smile without getting mad at myself
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Posted: Wed Jan 27, 2010 9:56 am
The Magnificent Maestro I feel like all of my life, I have kept each and every one of my emotions locked up inside this titanium box. Ever since I was little, I was always at the butt of people's pranks and practical jokes. Throughout elementary, I was bullied so bad I was hospitalized multiple times. I have also never really hit it off with my mom. The only emotion I have succeeded in feeling is sadness and betrayal, and those are two of the most negative emotions there are. So when it comes times for happy things, I...don't...feel anything. I know what I should feel, but I don't. It's like being color blind. I know what color I am supposed to be looking at, but I can't actually SEE the color. I have recently, through my attempts to get closer to God, realized that this is one of the main things keeping me from him. All of his work is love, one great emotion...and one I can't feel. He can't reach me, because I can't feel him, and I can't respond, because I don't have access to these emotions. Can you help me? I can't go to anyone I'm close to, because my pride is still standing. It's crumbling, but I can't bring myself to ask a friend for help yet. Can you give me any advice on what to do? my first piece of advice for you would be to get saved, if you are not already. Jesus wants us to be filled with joy. our joy is to be centered around Him and around Godly and Holy things. I can totally relate to feeling somewhat emotionally unresponsive at times. maybe some day i will go into detail as to why i feel this way, but not today. for me to access these feelings of joy that i know Christ wants me to feel i do certain things, i think on certain things. I sing praises to the Savior, Christ Jesus the Lord. One Hymn that i really super enjoy is Christ Arose. just take a look at these lyrics: Low in the grave He lay, Jesus my Savior, Waiting the coming day, Jesus my Lord! Up from the grave He arose, With a mighty triumph o’er His foes, He arose a Victor from the dark domain, And He lives forever, with His saints to reign. He arose! He arose! Hallelujah! Christ arose! Vainly they watch His bed, Jesus my Savior; Vainly they seal the dead, Jesus my Lord! Death cannot keep its Prey, Jesus my Savior; He tore the bars away, Jesus my Lord! i mean... wow!! Christ is VICTORIOUS!!! that song makes me want to shout and pump my fist into the air - the winner! we're the winners when we're in the everlasting, eternal family of God! it makes me so very joyous to know that Christ died for me. for my sins he gave himself as the payment. I am so thankful for that, words cannot express. so.. singing is something that helps me feel joy. also reading Gods word. praying/communicating with the Lord and just telling him how wonderful and magnificent he is. nothing in this world can even hold a light to Christ. make sure that your source of joy is Christ. Christ wants you to be joyous in Him, so He has equipped you with the ability to access feelings of joy. Try doing a word search on "joy" in the bible and find all the reasons why the Lord wants us to be joyous. heart heart
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Posted: Fri Jan 29, 2010 4:05 pm
SARL0 The Magnificent Maestro I feel like all of my life, I have kept each and every one of my emotions locked up inside this titanium box. Ever since I was little, I was always at the butt of people's pranks and practical jokes. Throughout elementary, I was bullied so bad I was hospitalized multiple times. I have also never really hit it off with my mom. The only emotion I have succeeded in feeling is sadness and betrayal, and those are two of the most negative emotions there are. So when it comes times for happy things, I...don't...feel anything. I know what I should feel, but I don't. It's like being color blind. I know what color I am supposed to be looking at, but I can't actually SEE the color. I have recently, through my attempts to get closer to God, realized that this is one of the main things keeping me from him. All of his work is love, one great emotion...and one I can't feel. He can't reach me, because I can't feel him, and I can't respond, because I don't have access to these emotions. Can you help me? I can't go to anyone I'm close to, because my pride is still standing. It's crumbling, but I can't bring myself to ask a friend for help yet. Can you give me any advice on what to do? my first piece of advice for you would be to get saved, if you are not already. Jesus wants us to be filled with joy. our joy is to be centered around Him and around Godly and Holy things. I can totally relate to feeling somewhat emotionally unresponsive at times. maybe some day i will go into detail as to why i feel this way, but not today. for me to access these feelings of joy that i know Christ wants me to feel i do certain things, i think on certain things. I sing praises to the Savior, Christ Jesus the Lord. One Hymn that i really super enjoy is Christ Arose. just take a look at these lyrics: Low in the grave He lay, Jesus my Savior, Waiting the coming day, Jesus my Lord! Up from the grave He arose, With a mighty triumph o’er His foes, He arose a Victor from the dark domain, And He lives forever, with His saints to reign. He arose! He arose! Hallelujah! Christ arose! Vainly they watch His bed, Jesus my Savior; Vainly they seal the dead, Jesus my Lord! Death cannot keep its Prey, Jesus my Savior; He tore the bars away, Jesus my Lord! i mean... wow!! Christ is VICTORIOUS!!! that song makes me want to shout and pump my fist into the air - the winner! we're the winners when we're in the everlasting, eternal family of God! it makes me so very joyous to know that Christ died for me. for my sins he gave himself as the payment. I am so thankful for that, words cannot express. so.. singing is something that helps me feel joy. also reading Gods word. praying/communicating with the Lord and just telling him how wonderful and magnificent he is. nothing in this world can even hold a light to Christ. make sure that your source of joy is Christ. Christ wants you to be joyous in Him, so He has equipped you with the ability to access feelings of joy. Try doing a word search on "joy" in the bible and find all the reasons why the Lord wants us to be joyous. heart heart Those lyrics are really awesome...just reading them put a smile on my face. I do think that singing and music in general help. Half of my 16gb Ipod is filled with religious music in one form or another. I recently read through the bible, and I'm going to do it again once life dies down a bit. The word search sounds awesome. I'll give it a try.
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Posted: Sun Jan 31, 2010 5:53 pm
sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing?
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Posted: Sun Jan 31, 2010 7:25 pm
Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing? well I can smile, but every time I smile and catch myself an instinct tells me I look stupid and to stop smiling
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Posted: Mon Feb 01, 2010 2:17 pm
sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing? well I can smile, but every time I smile and catch myself an instinct tells me I look stupid and to stop smiling Okay, so it's psychological (or even spiritual). lol. I was wondering what kind of rare disease would disable a person's cheek muscles because they smiled too much. Haha. Anyway. I bet you're awful cute when you -do- smile. wink btw - I love Red, too. Good music.
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Posted: Mon Feb 01, 2010 7:18 pm
Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing? well I can smile, but every time I smile and catch myself an instinct tells me I look stupid and to stop smiling Okay, so it's psychological (or even spiritual). lol. I was wondering what kind of rare disease would disable a person's cheek muscles because they smiled too much. Haha. Anyway. I bet you're awful cute when you -do- smile. wink btw - I love Red, too. Good music. yeah I've heard my eyes were cute lol I try to listen to as much christian music as possible I wanna be a Godly person without messing up big time
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Posted: Mon Feb 01, 2010 9:45 pm
sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing? well I can smile, but every time I smile and catch myself an instinct tells me I look stupid and to stop smiling Okay, so it's psychological (or even spiritual). lol. I was wondering what kind of rare disease would disable a person's cheek muscles because they smiled too much. Haha. Anyway. I bet you're awful cute when you -do- smile. wink btw - I love Red, too. Good music. yeah I've heard my eyes were cute lol I try to listen to as much christian music as possible I wanna be a Godly person without messing up big time I wouldn't worry so much about messing up - we all do at some point. It's just a matter of time.
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Posted: Tue Feb 02, 2010 8:48 pm
Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 Takahashi_Natsumi sub-zero120 I know how you feel, I've lost my happiness, when I was little, I smiled so much and it drove me nuts so I basically permanantly damaged myself so I can't smile, and now I can't very often at all. Is that even possible? Or is it a psychological thing? well I can smile, but every time I smile and catch myself an instinct tells me I look stupid and to stop smiling Okay, so it's psychological (or even spiritual). lol. I was wondering what kind of rare disease would disable a person's cheek muscles because they smiled too much. Haha. Anyway. I bet you're awful cute when you -do- smile. wink btw - I love Red, too. Good music. yeah I've heard my eyes were cute lol I try to listen to as much christian music as possible I wanna be a Godly person without messing up big time I wouldn't worry so much about messing up - we all do at some point. It's just a matter of time.[/quote Haha, but you know...the key is not wanting to mess up. Which I think is something that Jesus can help us with quite a bit sometimes when we ask!! smile smile
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