Poems
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Me
This mind of mine has been used,
abused, consumed,
This body of mine
is anything but fine,
divine, not kind
This pain of mine is so sublime,
Intertwined, combined
with the tears of my soul.
Never making sense,
hence
my failure in society,
self propriety, Sobriety.
Millions of faces,
images, voices
all these places,
choices,
choosing wrong over right.
My heart feels so tight.
as my eyes burn
as they stare into the light.
I breathe with all my might.
These lips of mine,
talks, stalks,
walks,
away from the one I love.
excuse me,
the thing I love,
what I put above all else.
These thoughts in my ******** with me all the time,
whispers silently,
yet all at once
And I succumb to this thing
as I talk to it,
with no response.
As I watch it fall into the pit
of my life.
Only I can handle this pain,
inside my brain,
no one can tame,
this insanity, it's not the same.
what am I saying?
you ask?
Only I know,
you dont understand,
because your a foe.
And Im a hoe,
cuz i like to hang with boys.
What does that make you?
who ******** guys with no faces.
Nothing replaces this feeling of hating
build up inside me
for you all to see.
For I will never be
who I truly am.
Will never pay the fee
I have taken.
But its okay,
I'll always be this way
And this way I shall stay.
what can I say?
This is just what I can be,
all of this,
is
...Me...
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Mama
I sit here, crying,
trying,
to hold myself together.
thinking of how I can tell her,
how I feel about what she does,
but the truth is all I can do is hug,
this woman who stood right by my side,
no matter how broken she felt inside.
So many tears i've watched her cry,
so many years i watch her die.
All I wanna do is take that pain all away,
and they're no way i can ever say,
to explain to you what you do for me,
each and every day.
And I need for you to know that I understand.
"You are appreciated" -2pac
They're no one I love more than you,
sweet Lady,
all my tears I cry for you,
All that pain please fade away,
With you ma I'll always stay.
Lookin back on the darker days, mama,
Wishin you had a better way, mama,
always fightin, blood sweat and tears.
And inside I know you have so many fears.
I just wanna hug you tight even if people stare,
Your in so much pain,
so I dont care, what they think
I love you so I wont let you sink.
And I want you know,
that I understand.
And know we're surrounded by drama,
But I want you to know,
that I'm here with you
...Mama...
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Dream
My eyes roll back,
your skin glistens on the rack.
Breath comes out short,
no need to escort.
as skins rubs skin,
this feeling building deep within.
i feel it,
it wants to explode out of me,
My teeth i grit,
as i feel it implode inside of me.
Your face contorts in pain,
as i feel it stain my insides forever to be,
a reminder to me,
of what we used to be,
And away your soul seems to flee,
out of your chest,
as your eyes loose their light,
and all the rest,
seems not so bright.
My eyes open wide,
as i awake in a cold sweat,
i look around,
and nothing is to be found.
tears run down my face in a stream.
oh god...
it was only...
...A Dream...
-----
...Die...
Why?
I cry, as I watch your soul fly,
out of your body,
and into the sky.
Lie, sigh,
I feel it inside,
as your eyes loose their light,
and the clouds above start to cry.
Please, please,
don't take her from me,
her soul is the purest of them all you can see.
She hated no one,
accepted all,
yet in the end,
It was her downfall.
I loved her so,
yet she so much older than I,
now her skin feels so cold,
as I begin to cry.
This pain inside,
emptiness,
takes over my mind,
at least I know, her soul is in utter bliss.
I must stay strong,
and do no wrong,
for she is no longer in pain,
and she will never have to live again.
I love you,
you love me too,
watching over me from above,
Oh how I wish I could hug,
that smiling, laughing, woman,
who showed her pain to no one.
but now her time is done.
Why? Why?
I cry to the sky,
asking how could you...
Just let her...
...Die...
Mama
I sit here, crying,
trying,
to hold myself together.
thinking of how I can tell her,
how I feel about what she does,
but the truth is all I can do is hug,
this woman who stood right by my side,
no matter how broken she felt inside.
So many tears i've watched her cry,
so many years i watch her die.
All I wanna do is take that pain all away,
and they're no way i can ever say,
to explain to you what you do for me,
each and every day.
And I need for you to know that I understand.
"You are appreciated" -2pac
They're no one I love more than you,
sweet Lady,
all my tears I cry for you,
All that pain please fade away,
With you ma I'll always stay.
Lookin back on the darker days, mama,
Wishin you had a better way, mama,
always fightin, blood sweat and tears.
And inside I know you have so many fears.
I just wanna hug you tight even if people stare,
Your in so much pain,
so I dont care, what they think
I love you so I wont let you sink.
And I want you know,
that I understand.
And know we're surrounded by drama,
But I want you to know,
that I'm here with you
...Mama...
----
Dream
My eyes roll back,
your skin glistens on the rack.
Breath comes out short,
no need to escort.
as skins rubs skin,
this feeling building deep within.
i feel it,
it wants to explode out of me,
My teeth i grit,
as i feel it implode inside of me.
Your face contorts in pain,
as i feel it stain my insides forever to be,
a reminder to me,
of what we used to be,
And away your soul seems to flee,
out of your chest,
as your eyes loose their light,
and all the rest,
seems not so bright.
My eyes open wide,
as i awake in a cold sweat,
i look around,
and nothing is to be found.
tears run down my face in a stream.
oh god...
it was only...
...A Dream...
-----
...Die...
Why?
I cry, as I watch your soul fly,
out of your body,
and into the sky.
Lie, sigh,
I feel it inside,
as your eyes loose their light,
and the clouds above start to cry.
Please, please,
don't take her from me,
her soul is the purest of them all you can see.
She hated no one,
accepted all,
yet in the end,
It was her downfall.
I loved her so,
yet she so much older than I,
now her skin feels so cold,
as I begin to cry.
This pain inside,
emptiness,
takes over my mind,
at least I know, her soul is in utter bliss.
I must stay strong,
and do no wrong,
for she is no longer in pain,
and she will never have to live again.
I love you,
you love me too,
watching over me from above,
Oh how I wish I could hug,
that smiling, laughing, woman,
who showed her pain to no one.
but now her time is done.
Why? Why?
I cry to the sky,
asking how could you...
Just let her...
...Die...
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Fool
You really think they're there for you?
You really think they're cool.
You really love their friendship?
Wow, you really are their tool.
When they double cross you,
You'll know it was a friendSHIT.
And don't come crying to me,
Because you got bit.
I know their lying ways,
I know all their tricks.
I even tried to tell you,
But you wanted for them to sit,
On your trust,
and smother it into dust.
It's not my fault,
you got trapped in their little cult.
I hope you open your eyes soon...
...You poor, little fool...
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Who Am I
Confusion fills my mind,
Calling all this time,
Nothing is ever fine,
With what I have locked deep down inside.
The man that walks so silently through the night,
The woman who fell compliantly and without fright.
I shall not let them control me,
Let them destroy all that I try to be.
I will look unto the sky,
And I will never ask why.
I have these feelings on the side.
Who am I?
Really?
All I am is a lie,
Cold, unfeeling.
I can't handle this cloud of pain
trapped inside my brain.
They're is no way,
I'll be able to pay,
For all I've done,
And so you've won.
I hate myself,
yet I'm so vain,
I love myself,
Yet I force me into pain.
It's a love/hate relationship,
but to all else,
it's nothing but s**t.
Everything I am,
Is all I've done.
I am so many,
Yet I am one.
My mind cannot keep up,
With the lies I speak,
With my hands I cup,
Why am I so weak?
Do you know what It is?
That makes me die?
Everything is his,
Nothing is mine.
But please tell me this.
...Who Am I...
