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 Posted: Wed Jul 22, 2015 1:10 am
•°o σн, ωσи'т уσυ ѕтαу ωιтн мє? '¢αυѕє уσυ'яє αℓℓ ι иєє∂. тнιѕ αιи'т ℓσνє, ιт'ѕ ¢ℓєαя тσ ѕєє, вυт ∂αяℓιиg, ѕтαу ωιтн мє. o°•  Location: School, Home, Hospital, Sinema, Hospital ⋰ ⋱ Company: Dex, Sydney, Dave, Mason, Isaac, Lexi, Viper, Malia, Jake, Parrish, Emily, others ⋰ ⋱ Status: Broken. ⋰ ⋱ Health: !!WARNING!!    Ryder was having a rough way to go as of late. Ever since the incident at the Millan house, he had been on edge, but buried it to spare his friends. He hadn't been getting much sleep, only on nights Dex crawled into his bed, which was getting a bit more scarce as the nights went on. Dex of course was still in denial over his own emotions, so it was kind of difficult to bring anything up, fearing it might send Dex off the handle. Ryder kept his mouth shut regardless, following the motions and moving on, keeping his personal s**t personal, and other things on the surface. The night of the party came around and he had gotten beyond wasted, not really wanting Dex to go and have his fun with Sydney, but he did, and didn't even question it. If Syd was what Dex wanted then far be it from Ryder to keep him from it, even though it stung. Dex was so back and fourth it was hard to keep up, and the stress of it was starting to eat away at him, but once again, he said nothing, not wanting to put pressure on him in any kind of way. After arriving at the hospital by request of Dave's father, something inside him softened when he finally put all the pieces together. He waited until school and left a rather lengthy letter in Dave's locker.
"Dear Dave, I am really sorry about all the trouble we've been getting into with each other. If I had known what you were going through, I would have tried to help you instead of handling things the way I did. It's hard, being like us in a place like this, but I just wanted you to know that I really do feel bad, and I'd like to try and make it up to you. Come sit with us at lunch today. I'd like you to officially meet, and get to know me and my friends. You don't have to go through this thing alone, and we are more than happy to support you. I'm glad you are okay. See you in the caf. ~Ry"
He slipped the note into Dave's locker and moved on, heading to class as usual.
The days were passing, and things continued to get more and more tension ridden. In class, their teacher was asking for descriptive terms or something, but he wasn't paying attention. Everyone in school was talking about 'Dex and Syd' all over the place because of what happened at the party, and it was bothering Ryder to no end. Isaac's condition wasn't getting any better and the doctors kept urging him to pull the plug, but he kept refusing, even though they kept shoving it down his throat that there was no hope. Sydney was called on, and gave a description of red, which he didn't pay much mind to. Dex was called then to describe kisses, and that snapped Ryder's attention away from the window, and back to class. He looked over at Dex, listening to him speak, and for every word he said, it cut just a little deeper. He knew many of those details pertained to him specifically, but was he the only one those details applied to? He looked at Sydney who seemed to have a rather swooning expression as she watched Dex, along with half the other classmates. Dave was there but he didn't seem to be as connected to it as Syd was, making the jealousy inside Ryder flare up. Dex was so specific, and Ry couldn't help but go back to that night in the living room, or even the night of the party, reliving those exact details, and hearing them again now hurt. He was under so much internal conflict at the moment, and here was Dex, letting him relive his moments if bliss, even though he knew he couldn't have those moments back. By the time he finished, Ryder could feel the tears coming, but had no desire to lose it in front of everyone. He grabbed his bag and got to his feet, scooping up his books and glancing to the teacher. "Pardon me, ma'am, but I need to be excused. I'm not feeling so well." His face had gone pale, his hands were a little shaky, and his eyes were starting to redden and tear up. She thankfully let him go, and he turned for the door. Once his back was on the students, a tear slipped over his cheek, and he wiped at it to dispose of the evidence. Dex always said one thing, then did another, and Ryer couldn't deal with the back and fourth, not right now. He had been so confident earlier, and now he didn't even know what to think or how to feel. He left school after dropping his stuff off in his locker, then walked all the way across town to the Mystic Falls Memorial Hospital. He shut his phone off and checked in, getting his pass and heading up to Isaac's room. Lexi was still in classes, so Isaac was alone, laying there unresponsive.
"Hey Isaac...I'm early, I know...I just couldn't gut staying in class today." Ry shut the door and set his bag down after pulling up a chair and sitting beside his brother. He reached into the shoulder bag and pulled out a folder, opening it up and looking at the page on the top. "The paperwork finally came through. I got the state to reprint a birth certificate for me and change my last name...I'm finally a 'Lahey' now...just like you. I mean I guess I was always your brother because of dad, but now I just kind of feel more like it. Closer." Ry knew Isaac couldn't hear him, or see what he was showing him, but it made him feel better, so he just spoke as if he was alert and it helped. "I think that is a big deal for me right now Isaac...I feel really distant and I keep getting this really bad urge to run like I always do...I don't wanna run anymore, but it's what I do. It's what I'm used to...sometimes I think you are the only reason I stay, and even though you are a big part of that...I can't deny that my pack plays a part too. I kind of look at Jake as this figure to look up to and I want him to be proud of me so bad, but I feel like a disappointment, not just to him, but to everyone else too. I feel like I am gonna let everyone down and I just want to run, but I can't." Ryder's eyes glassed with tears, biting his lip as he took hold of Isaac's hand. "I don't know who else to talk to...you gotta wake up because I can't do all this without you. I need help. I need your help to get through all this." Ryder crawled into Isaac's bed and curled up beside his brother, keeping hold of his hand and crying quietly until he finally slipped to sleep, praying silently for a miracle to save Isaac.
~~~
Thoughts of Dex kept plaguing Ryder's mind and there was nothing he could do about it. Finally, he had gained the oomph, and decided that after classes today, he was going to talk to Dex and just put all the cards on the table. That's what isaacwould have told him to do right? He was going to tell him everything, and let the chips fall where they may. Mason met him at his locker, along with Dave, and he greeted the two. "So! I've made up my mind. After school, I'm going find Dex and just lay it all down on the line. I'm going to just spill it all out and see what happens. I'm feeling pretty confident." He smiled brightly and Dave smiled. "Glad to see you're empowered." Ryder nodded and ran his hand through his hair. "Yeah, I feel great. I mean I've been in this stupid rut for awhile with my brother in the hospital and all the other stuff going on but I don't know, I have a good feeling about it." Mason looked at his phone and grimaced before shaking his head. "I wouldn't get too hyped up Romeo...Syd just sent me a text. Apparently...she and Dex are 'officially together'." Ryder quirked a brow and tilted his head to the side. "What? No, no, let me see. Dex wouldn't do that..." he looked at the text, his smile fading away as the realization sunk in. "...to me." He turned away from the phone and the three of them headed to lunch, Ryder sitting in front of both Dave and Mason. He was upset, that much was visible, asking Mason to keep telling him the messages that were coming through. "She says they were in the park, and in a roundabout way they kind of sealed the deal. She is stoked to say the least, and I guess I'm happy for her, but that sucks considering what you were going on about a bit ago. Did something happen between you and Dex?" Ryder shrugged his shoulder, pushing the food around on his plate not having touched it. "I thought so, but I guess not...this is such bullshit. Why would he-I mean what the hell was he thinking? The dude is a ******** train wreck, and she doesn't know how to deal with what he has going on. I mean sure he doesn't talk to me either about some stuff but I know for a fact he won't tell her about half of it. This is stupid. I'm headed out. I'll text you guys later." Ry shoved his plate over, absentmindedly, to Dex's usual spot, as he was the one who always finished off everyone's food. He glared at the place on the table when he realized his mistake then pushed it over to Mason and Dave. "You guys finish it. I'm not hungry."
Ryder returned to the hospital, annoyed as hell, especially to see Isaac still hadn't moved. Lexi was there, reading a book with one hand, and holding Isaac's hand with the other. She glanced over at him and smiled but Ryder spoke before she had the chance to. "Why is everything in this world so damn shitty all the time?! Why is it that the second that you find something that makes you happy, it gets ripped away from you and all you are left with is anger or jealousy!? I am so tired of this emotional roller coaster I could become physically ill. I can't do it anymore Lex, and look it isn't even just me! The rug was ripped out from under me but look at you! You spend hours here, talking to Isaac and trying to coax him back but it isn't helping! You two spend moths dancing around each other then the second it was solid, every force in the world did whatever it could to try and rip the two of you apart! Is that what I have to look forward to? Do I have to fight with every ounce of strength I have to get what I want only so it can be taken away the second it's good?!" Lexi got up and put her book down, moving over to Ryder and taking his shoulders in her hands. "Shh, calm down a little okay? Talk to me, what happened?" Ryder started to pace, as angry tears streamed his face, going into an explosion of what was happening. "I've been ******** played! I cared so much and I believed in how I felt, then all of a sudden it all came crashing down around me and I am an idiot for believing that I could be happy! Have you ever thought someone was your entire world and then just watched the world burn around you, taking them down with it?!" Lexi glanced back at Isaac and nodded. "Ry...listen to me. When you care about someone, something inside you changes. You become protective, and vulnerable. It's scary, but it's worth it in the end most of the time. For me, Isaac is my biggest weakness, but he also my greatest strength. That's what loving someone means. You'd put them before yourself and you'd stick with them come whatever, even when the world tries to take them away, you just have to hang on." Ryder drove his fist through the drywall on the opposite side of the room. "What happens when the other person lets go Lex!? What then!? When there is nothing left to hold on to?! What are you going to do if Isaac wakes up and decides you aren't worth the trouble anymore?! Would you still hang on? If he decided to replace you with someone else, would seeing him everyday be easy for you or would it rip you apart to see him happy with someone else?" Lexi didn't know where his anger was stemming from but she tried to take it calmly and thought for another moment. "I would fight until I didn't have any fight left in me Ryder, because I love Isaac, and I wouldn't just let go because things got tough. However, if he wanted to let me go, I would have to respect that, no matter how hard that was for me. If it meant he would be happier in the end, then I would have to let go...is this about Dex?" Ryder turned and ran his fingers through his hair, pulling on it some in frustration. "Of course it's about Dex! He is the only person on this god forsaken earth that drives me insane like this!
He told me how he felt about me okay, he verbally told me, and I accepted it, then, out of nowhere, he goes and gets himself a girlfriend, avoids the hell out me, and doesn't even have it in him to tell me about it! And the girl? Just so happens to be like a sister to me! Low freaking blow! How can he parade around like that and expect it not to hurt!?" Ryder fell to his knees and sobbed into his hands. Lexi knelt down and placed her hand on his shoulder before helping him up to his feet. "You need to give him time to figure out who he is Ry. I don't think he is doing this to hurt you. There is probably more to the story than he is telling you about. Maybe he is uncomfortable in his own skin right now. Maybe he just needs time to figure himself out. If he cares, he isn't going to just cast you aside so easily. Maybe he feels guilty for his choices you know? He'll come out and tell you what is going on when he is ready. What happened during the storm wasn't exactly ideal for me, but I'm not going to keep it from Isaac. I could, I could hide it and save him the anger, but I don't lie to him, and I don't keep things from him. He is going to be mad, and yeah, there's a decent chance he'll walk away from me, but I made my choice, and after everything...I still put him first, and I hope that he can see that, just like Dex will come around and he will see how much you care. Do you love him?" Ryder had calmed down, understanding that he and Lexi were kind of in a similar situation. His tears were slow and sad now, and he just nodded and the two of them leaned forward to hug each other. "Yeah...I love him."
~~~
That Friday, Ryder returned to school and was trying his best to tolerate Dex's choices. They hadn't really spoken much, and that alone was driving him nuts, but now he had to swallow the sight of Sydney running around holding Dex's hand, and gushing about how happy Syd was that they were actually a thing to Dave and Mason. It was then that they announced that they were a steady couple and Ryder was the biggest fifth wheel alive. Seriously? This was bullshit. He glanced at Emily who was sitting with her sister across the cafeteria, and nodded to her when she looked up, having promised Parrish he would keep an eye on them. He kept quiet during lunch, giving not much more than a 'yeah, mhm' every once in awhile. He left lunch early and made his way to his locker before heading to the locker room. He changed into shorts, left his shirt off, and turned on the shower. He rested his right hand on the wall, leaning forward, and letting the cold water soak his hair, and cool his skin. He kept his eyes shut, head bowed, while his left hand hung loose. Dex walked into the locker room, glancing around till he heard the running water and stepped around the corner, his eyes landing on Ryder with his arms crossed defensively in front of him. "You alright mate?" Ryder looked up, shut off the water and ran his hands over his hair to rid the extra water. He ambled toward his locker, biting his lip but his chemo-signals were rolling about seven emotions at once. Jealousy, Frustration, Sadness, Anxiety, Stress, Depression, and Defensiveness. He kept his voice low, and grabbed a towel, drying his arms. "Yeah. I'm fine." Ryder bit his bottom lip, and tried not to look up, figuring if he got into it now it would only hurt more later, no matter which way it went. He was trying to keep his head, but he looked down at his phone with a text from Isaac's doctor, stating that he needed to pull the plug and stop hanging onto nothing. His hands shook as he put his phone back in his bag, Dex leaned his forehead against the wall then too, "Really..." Ryder shook his head keeping his back turned. "No Dex. Not really." Dex chewed on the inside of his cheek, "Yeah. I can tell, 'not really'." Ryder sighed and groaned a bit under his breath. "If you bite your tongue any harder it'll bleed." he mumbled and closed his eyes, half expecting him to cry, half kind of not? "Say it." Ryder slammed his locker shut and turned around to face him. "Why the hell would I say anything Dex? It isn't my place quite obviously. I am dealing with everything the best that I can, and just trying to keep my head above water here." Ryder shook his head and turned to grab his shirt from his bag. "Yeah, I can see that, but you're my best friend. That matters to me, you matter to me." Ryder scoffed and pulled his shirt on, his eyes narrowing some. "Oh do I? News to me. Does Sydney know that?" Ry crossed his arms and faced Dex. "What is that supposed to mean? Does Sydney know what? That we're close? I'd say so, she's only been with us for six bloody ******** months now." Oh here we freaking go. A twinge of anger rolled through Ryder's chemo signals and he shook his head again. "Yeah, six months she has been around, but apparently right now was the opportune moment to date her. Honestly I'm not even sure which of you to be upset with more. Her for going ahead and wiggling her way into the middle of everything when she damn well knew better, or you for leading me on, then shooting me down over and over." Dex stood up straight then and stared at him stepping forward, "Excuse you?!" he snapped and the stepped forward to him, "She doesn't know a thing. And for your information, I never lead you on intentionally. I also apologized, and you said it was bloody fine, so I ******** believed that. You don't get to pull the victim card because you didn't get what you wanted."
Ryder disliked the fact that Dex had stepped forward, so Ryder retaliated and took a step forward too. He wasn't scared, and Dex was dangerously close to crossing a very thin line. "Oh please, like being 'the victim' in your little high school musical is the biggest of my worries. None of this is even about what I wanted, or how I feel, or what I think, it never has been, and that's fine. If you didn't want me, all you had to do was say so. You sounded pretty convincing when you told me how you felt the first time, and even the second time,I believed you, and that's my bad. So go on with your stupid relationship, and your stupid decisions, and just leave me out of it. For the love of God Dex, spare me, because I can't take the hypocrisy. I can't read your damn mind!" Dex stared at him, baffled. "Are you insane? I never lied to you! I never did. I never wanted you to get caught up in this ridiculous crossfire, I never wanted you to be the one to catch all the grief. Don't let yourself paint a malicious picture of me in your head." He scowled at him and shook his head, "It's a good ******** thing you can't read my mind. You'd be scared shitless, it wouldn't be an unfamiliar feeling, very similar to how you felt between the ages three till...now?" All the anger left Ryder's chemo signals. Dex had hit below the belt and Ryder couldn't even believe he had said that. He wasn't even there, what gave him the right to use it against him? Ryder took a step back, shaking his head and grabbing his bag. He headed for the door without a single word, in total disbelief. He headed down the hall, his pace quickening some. Dex shut his eyes for a split second, "No..No, Ryder, wait, I didn't mean...Not that, I'm sorry, that's not how that was supposed to come out." he said, going after him. Ryder didn't stop walking, keeping his eyes forward and shaking his head. "Don't...just don't! I am sorry okay!? I am sorry that I am messed up! I am sorry that I can't keep up! And I am sorry for being so inconvenient for you! I'm scared out of my mind, so what!? If it was Viper in Isaac's position you would be too, but I would never shame you for it. You do and say a lot of things you don't mean, and I get that, I keep forgiving you for it but I...I need to go." Tears lined Ryder's eyes, walking out of the front doors of the school, and heading down the sidewalk. Dex was still tailing him, and he was not about to make eye contact. If he did, he would totally break, and he knew it.
Dex dropped his gaze his heart thudding a million miles per hour. He didn't want this, and though he was mad Ryder got to him then, and guilt poured out of him, guilt for everything he had ever done, said, or thought. He ran his hand through his hair and nodded trying not to just grovel, knowing that in that moment, apologizing continuously and having a heart to heart wasn't going to fix things, it wasn't going to fix what he had just said, all he could do was leave Ryder alone, probably for good. He was doing it again, and he didn't want to be around him, he didn't want Ryder to deal with that, not again, ever again. He nodded, stepping back and nodding, "Yeah, okay. You do that. That's probably the best possible thing you can do. So go." he muttered and turned around, walking. Ryder just stopped dead when he heard what Dex said, stared at him for a second with teary eyes, nodding to his words. "Bye Dex..." His tears spilled over as he turned on his heel and headed toward Viper's flat. He made it there and went into his room, unfolding some boxes and starting to put his things in them slowly. The hurt got more intense, so he moved faster, trying to keep himself from speeding through. He organized everything fairly neatly, labeling the boxes appropriately, and then packing his duffel bag with immediate needs, and a few things he just wouldn't part with. Vi[er stopped when he saw all the boxes and furrowed his brow. "Ry? What the bloody hell do you think you are doing? Why did you pack up all your things?" Ryder grabbed his bag and looked up at him still teary eyed. "I think I've overstayed my welcome, and it's about time I moved on. I've started to step on toes and I think everyone would be better off if I just...disappeared...I marked the boxes pretty well so if you want to sell the stuff or give it away, it's fine." Viper put his hands up and shook his head, cigarette burning in his right hand. "Ryder, you can't leave. What happened?" The tears just kept coming thought Ryder didn't acknowledge them. "You see, those three words 'you can't leave'...that's all I would have needed to hear, but instead I got 'so go', so I'm going. Dave messaged me and asked me to come to Sinema but after that, I'll have to go square it all away with Jake, and probably stay at the hospital with Isaac for a bit, but I am probably doing him more harm than good as well. I just don't feel like I belong here anymore you know? I am really grateful for all the hospitality you and Malia have shown me. You were all very kind to me and I appreciate that." Viper shook his head, took and drag, and exhaled toward the ceiling. "Who the bloody hell told you you had to leave? You need to tell me what is going on before I let you go anywhere. You aren't leaving my house, not until that brother of yours is on his feet at least."
Ryder looked at his empty room, the piled boxes, the perfectly made bed, and then down to the floor. He told Viper about the fight, and what had been said and Viper sighed, pulling him into a hug and shaking his head. "Dex shouldn't have said that to you Ry, he has been having a rough time too. You both have, and you are using the other as a target or a way to vent. He didn't mean it. Not like that...he is blaming himself for your pain. He only told you to go because he doesn't want to hurt you anymore. Not because he doesn't want you around. He would be lost without you...I know that for a fact." Viper took another inhale, and offered a cigarette to Ryder, and the both of them went to sit on the front porch to smoke and talk over a beer. Ryder felt better by the end of it, a little, having been convinced that even though Dex was a mess, he would be worse off if Ryder was gone because then he wouldn't have anyone to pick up the pieces. Ryder couldn't abandon him, so he agreed to stay, at least until college came around.
~~~
Ryder spent most of the evening unpacking some of the boxes and putting things away, but only got halfway done by the time Dave texted to say he was outside waiting for him. They got a cab and headed across town, Ryder burying everything, and giving him no signs of turmoil. Dave looked over, "So, what's going on? You were really upset, and I was going to go after you, but I figured maybe you'd need some time. You didn't come to practice, and I still don't have your cell phone number. I was really worried." Ryder took Dave's phone and put his number in, then handed it back to Dave. "I'm having a hard time right now, that's all. I've been really tense. My brother is still comatose, and the doctors keep hounding me to pull the plug on him because they want the room. It's really hard on me and I don't really know who to go to about it. Then there's the whole Dex and Syd thing and my life is kind of a train wreck. Do me a favor and cut me off after awhile huh? I'd rather not have a nasty hangover on top of everything else." Ryder ruffled his hair to stick up some, and adjusted his shirt before settling and looking back over at Dave. "Well, to start off, you seem to let loose when you're drunk, it may be good for you. You know? To do something for you , but I'll keep you to straight liquor, that way it'll be easier for you to sober up and get some water into you." he said with a smile and then nodded, "As for your brother, my advice is to keep going, you have to push through everything, and it's going to be hard, life isn't a cake walk. But before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger." Ryder nodded in agreement. "Thanks Dave. you're a good guy. Thanks for having my back. I appreciate it. Ready to get a little ******** up?" Dave agreed and they both walked in. "No problem Ry. And I am, but...are you?" The place looked great, but lo and behold, the first scent Ryder caught made his heart stop for a second. He glanced across the crowded room and sure as hell, there stood Dex with Sydney. He and Dave headed to the bar and slammed back a few shots, taking turns paying for the other until they felt like going out to dance. Mason showed up, and the three of them hit the floor, all three dancing together, nowhere near Dex. The more they drank the more fun they had, Ryder ignoring the glares he could feel Dex giving him. After awhile, Sydney approached them and they were all friendly. Ryder was all sweaty, half leaning on Dave's shoulder while Mason leaned on Ry. "Hey guys! Glad to see you all having a good time! Ry, listen, there is this girl I'm kind of trying to be friends with over there, and I really want to ask her to come hang out with us, but I don't want to seem too desperate or make her think she is a charity case, because she isn't, but would you mind if I threw you under the bus? Can I tell her you want to dance with her so she'll come over and hangout with us?" Ryder agreed and Sydney parted from the group. Ryder's eyes glanced over Dex and he quirked a brow. "You look good. Glad to see you having a good time." It wasn't a dig, or any kind of jab, he was just trying to keep his head up, and every time he saw Dex, it just hurt to know what he really thought deep down. Another song picked up and Ryder swung his hips back, moving back to the center of the floor, Dave and Mason following and joining in. Minutes later, Emily joined then and Sydney brought Dex over to join in too. It turned into a giant line. Mason, Dave, Ryder, Emily, Sydney, then Dex. A long while passed and everything seemed fine to those who were unaware.
Parrish called them over, and all of a sudden they learned they were trapped, and Ryder's anxiety skyrocketed. He had been drinking but wasn't drunk, but had drank enough to mess with his healing. Great. He glanced over and Sydney took Dex's right hand. Something inside Ryder snapped and a growl escaped his throat before he could stop it. Parrish questioned it but then Dex answered for him and he shot a furrowed brow to Dex. "Actually 'nervous' wasn't the first word I'd pick to describe my emotions. I think 'territorial' was more the pace." He shot a look back to Dex, watching him move to Sydney's other side so she wouldn't be holding his right. He seemed to calm, the refocused on the situation, hearing Rory mention that the humans were going to be first targets. He put his arm over Emily, not in any sort of 'way' other than to offer a moment of comfort. As if to say that he would try and look after her. All of a sudden the vampires in cages were released, and all the doors and windows were sealed. Total chaos kicked up and in moments the floors were covered in blood while the air was laced with screams. Ryder ducked under one of the tables of a booth near the back, tucking Emily away there, and grabbing Dave, fully shifted. He put him under there with her followed by Mason, and Axel right after them. "You all need to stay covered. Dont come out until one of the others says. I'll be close." With that said, Ryder turned just in time to come face to face with a vampire. They lashed at each other for a short while before he twisted off her head and tossed it to the side, letting the body hit the floor. This process went on for awhile, and Ryder wasn't happy about the teeth, but he was managing, doing a head count every so often. Dex, Jake, Malia, Lexi, Viper, then glance back at the four beneath the table he was guarding. He was merciless, letting all his rage out on these guys, then doing another head check. This time, when he looked up to spot Dex, he had his back turned and there was a second vampire coming to jump him while he was distracted with the first vampire. "Dex! No!" He called before he grabbed Jake's arm, yanked him in front of the table with no more than a gesture, and went full feral, leaping into the air with a running start, and blindsiding the vampire that was about to end Dex. They both crashed to the floor, and Dex was seized, and given a dose of wolfsbane. Ryder had two on him in a few seconds flat and both were biting into his neck, one on each side, ripping the tendons as he thrashed. He could feel their claws rip into him, pulling on his organs and biting him everywhere like a freaking feeding frenzy. "Help! Somebody! Please! Dex! Jake!" His voice cut out and he could only yipe like a dog as they started to batter him senseless. He looked over to see Sydney in a compromising position, but all he could hear was Dex saying 'let him go' more than once. He knew. Ryder knew. Viper was right, and suddenly, nothing Dex had said prior to now hurt as much.
Ryder blacked out for a few moments. The pain was unbearable, having seen most of what they had done. He came back to and Dex was getting beaten pretty good. "D-don't hurt h-him." He tried to squeak out the words but it only came in a hazy rasp, like trying to talk while breathing through a straw. He looked up weakly, trying to keep his eyes open as he was bleeding out on the floor, unable to heal due to the alcohol. Dex was feral. Protecting him. And though he didn't understand why, he was thankful. Then the realization hit him. Jake was going to ream him if he didn't calm down. Ryder used almost every ounce of strength he had left to reach up for Dex, but it did no use. He blacked out again, and the next thing he remembered was looking up to see Dex holding his face. "Don't you dare, you told me you wouldn't do this to me again. So don't." Tears were streaming down Ryder's cheeks but his expression seemed sort of distant til he was able to focus on Dex's face and try hanging on there. He looked him in the eyes and the guilt coming off his chemo signals was nothing but sadness. "I'm...s-so sorry." It came out as a struggle as his body convulsed, gripping onto Dex's arm as he could see flashes of lights before his eyes. He could feel himself being moved, as he kept his eyes shut to ignore the lights, but it was the voice that made him look again. "It's not even that bad okay? It's not even that bad!" Ryder slipped out for a second, then forced his eyes open. "I'm gonna take care of you, you're my little brother, that's my job." He kept slipping in and out, and Ryder was already so far gone, that he couldn't see anything that wasn't directly in front of him. He looked up at Isaac and his tears just streamed down his face. "Y-you're okay..." he looked relieved, gripping Isaac's shirt and seizing again, then feeling his vision blur out. "Dex...h-he's okay-y?" He never got an answer before he lost it completely and fell like a rag doll in his brother's arms.
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It had been three days before Ryder stirred. He looked around the room, once his eyes adjusted seeing Isaac first. He had his hand, so he did his best to move his fingers and squeeze back to get his attention. He felt like his entire body was on fire, but the pain was manageable. He had to assume Isaac had been taking it away for him through all this, so when Isaac looked over, Ryder looked up at him weakly. "Hey...how are you feeling?" Ryder licked his lips before he tried to speak, his voice coming out in a raspy bass tone. "Kind of like I got into a fight with a wood chipper and lost...is everyone else okay?" He nodded and spoke with Isaac for a short while before Dave was next to step into his line of sight. Ryder half smiled at him and Dave spoke first. "So you were holding out on me." Ryder winced and nodded a bit. "Sorry about that. Not really my favorite thing to brag about." He bit his bottom lip while Isaac took his pain, and as he did, Ryder could sense Dex move. Was he here too? His vision was still very messed up and he couldn't see so well, but he caught a glimpse of Dex, their eyes met for a second on his way out, and all of a sudden and sharp pain hit Ryder in the chest. It seared his veins and Isaac's too it seemed. He cried out and his back arched, but by the time Dex walked out, the pain subsided a little. "W-what's happening to me? Where is he going?" Ryder rested back into his bed, glaring at the ceiling, and trying not to tear up, whispering so lowly, that Dave couldn't possibly hear."Dex...I know you can hear me...and I don't want you to go."  ωну αм ι ѕσ ємσтισиαℓ? иσ, ιт'ѕ иσт α gσσ∂ ℓσσк, gαιи ѕσмє ѕєℓf-¢σитяσℓ. αи∂ ∂єєρ ∂σωи ι киσω тнιѕ иєνєя ωσякѕ, вυт уσυ ¢αи ℓαу ωιтн мє ѕσ ιт ∂σєѕи'т нυят. тнєѕє иιgнтѕ иєνєя ѕєєм тσ gσ тσ ρℓαи... ...ι ∂σи'т ωαит уσυ тσ ℓєανє, ωιℓℓ уσυ нσℓ∂ му нαи∂?
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2015 2:57 am
 ¢ℓσѕιиg тιмє, σρєи αℓℓ тнє ∂σσяѕ αи∂ ℓєт уσυ ιитσ тнє ωσяℓ∂mood :: Protective, Scared, Anxious, Helpless, Appalled, Dreadful, Inspired, Vulnerable, Baffled, Threatened, Reluctant Misunderstood, Offended, Resentful, Peeved, Dismayed, Tense, Unsure, Timid, Bothered, Done, Exhausted, Quiet, Upset in general. I apologize, I'm feeling a lot, Defensive, Territorial, Loving, Genuine, Caring, Consumed, Safe, Captivated, I just...bloody love the guy, // location :: Sinema, Hospital, Hallway, Ryder's Hospital Room, Outside Hospital, Home, School/English/Locker, Home. // health :: Physically Fine. Mentally No. // with :: Ryder, Viper, Malia, Newt, Zack, Sydney, Kira, Mason, Dave, Isaac, Jake, Lexi, Whoever else.     Dex had followed everyone to the hospital, not leaving Ryder's side, keeping eyes on him at all time. Isaac carried him and Dex had tears falling down his cheeks as he chewed on his finger nails and when that wasn't enough, he chewed the skin on his fingers, his hands shaking with every movement. He paced in the hallway, his arms folded tightly around his chest as if trying to hold back a fit. His heart hadn't calmed down, and every time a doctor came out he turned, only to be stepped passed. He ran his shaky hands through his hair exhaling choppily, and sat down, bouncing his knee anxiously, and every time another doctor passed by, he switched knees. Dave sat down and offered Dex a coffee, "Here." Dex didn't even look at him, his eyes remained on the floor, "No thanks. I'm good." Dave nodded and leaned back in the seat, "How is he doing?" Dex rested his elbows on his knees and his chin on his hands, "I don't...I don't know." Dave looked him over, "Are they allowing visitors?" Dex shook his head no, "Only Isaac. Jake got in once, only because he's down as a guardian." Dave exhaled, "I hope he's okay. He' a really good person, sweet and kind. Don't get me wrong, I'm a little shocked with the whole Jacob Black syndrome if you know what I mean, but I think if given the chance I could see past that." Dex clenched his teeth, his right eyebrow raising, "What do you mean? Do you fancy him or something?" Dave stared, "What?...Oh! Maybe, I don't know. We talk now, and he's really sad, so I just want him to feel better. He was okay when he was with me earlier, but maybe you should go a little easy on him, you and Sydney being a thing kind of wrecked him." Dex looked at him, "And him and I wrecked you. What do you even want from me? What do you want me to say? That I'm sorry? That I'm okay with this? That I'm okay with him being like this!? Hurting not only emotionally, but physically dying? Do you think I accepted this into my life?! Do you think I wanted this? Do people think that less of me, that in their eyes I'm a vindictive, malicious monster that preys on people's feelings?!" Lexi stepped around the corner away from Jake's side when she heard Dex's voice raise. She stepped up between the two boys, pushing Dave back gently with one hand, and using the other to place over Dex's shoulder. "Hey! Okay that's enough. Dave, I think it's time you went home now. You can come back later when the dust settles." She bid him goodnight and watched him go before she led Dex into the elevator and hit ground floor, taking him to the cafeteria where they couldn't be heard by prying ears. "Dex...? You want to tell me what's going on?" Dex dropped his arms and paced around before he held his face in his hands, "I'm just...I can't go through this again, I can't lose him Lexi, it's not fair. It's not fair, none of this is okay. I can't...He deserves to live." he walked back and forth, shaking. "And he does this. He does this all the time, and he thinks he can just do that, save me, give everything he has up and save me! Because he thinks I'm worth that! But...What about me?!" he shouted out and then turned to face Lexi, "What about me when he goes to the light?! No! I get it! He'll be okay! He'll be fine! But what about me?!" he shouted, tears streaming down his face as he shook his head, "So he shouldn't do this kind of s**t for me! And right now at the moment I don't want him to live for himself, I want him to do it for me, please! Please! I just need him to do this for me! Because if he dies...Oh God...He has to do this, he has to do this for me..Or I'll never be able to forgive him." Dex had dropped, shaking his head and sobbing into his hands, "For making me love him!" Lexi listened and watched as Dex started to completely unload on her, nodding as he spoke, understanding exactly how he was feeling. Jake had done the same things for her tons of times, so she understood Dex's emotions on it. She stepped forward to the last of his words and pulled him into her lap and wrapped her arms around him, letting him cry all he wanted to. "He is going to make it out of this Dex. I know he is going to. He saves you like this because you make him better. He spoke with me the other night, and I am telling you right now, that he needs you just as much as you need him." She rocked him gently and rubbed her free hand over his arm. "He is fighting against everything to stay here with us, with you, but he is going to need you to fight too. You both need to fight for each other and be the other's armor. He needs to know that he has a reason to keep holding on Dex, and that reason is you." Dex listened to Lexi, letting her reassure him and he clung to her, just completely desperate for her to help Ryder, anyone. Whoever, whether it be the bloody pope, or the god dam Queen of England, someone needed to fix Ryder before he lost his s**t. Lexi had calmed Dex down enough and he nodded, exhaling on her shoulder and wiping his tears off. "Thank you for listening and talking to me, I don't know what I would do without him."
After Lexi and him parted, Dex returned to his seat in the hallway, and once they allowed visitors, he walked in behind Dave and Isaac, after a while, Ryder woke up and Dex just stared at him, half relieved, half terrified knowing that something was happening with him, and they couldn't change it. They had no idea, and that was the scariest part, and Damon wasn't about to risk changing him, and either way what if he reacted badly and it just killed him? Dex watched Isaac and him talk idly, then Dave stepped up sitting next to him, "So you've been holding out on me." Dex scowled to the ground and shook his head slightly, piss off. The more Dex pondered it, the more it upset him, what was he supposed to say? Or do? Flirt with him o his death bed and pretend everything was alright? The last time they spoke, they had gotten into a fight, but he had gotten territorial over the whole hand thing at the club, and he had taken a blow for him, and now what? He just wanted to crawl into the bed and hold him, and make him better, but he couldn't. He didn't have the power to do that, and maybe Dave had the ability to at least to make him smile. He stood up then and turned to leave, catching his eyes for a moment before exiting the door, he could hear Ryder cry out and he stopped dead in his tracks, listening. After a couple seconds Ryder whispered that he didn't want him to leave, and Dex leaned against the wall before moving back to the doorway. Isaac glanced behind him and then stood up, tilting his head towards the door. Did he want to talk? Dex's eyes fell to Ryder and he blinked as Isaac stood up, and before he left the room he moved over to the side of the bed, "I'll be right back." he said softly and then smiled once before squeezing his hand and stepping away, going into the hallway. Once he was standing in front of Isaac, alone outside in the back, he looked to him expectedly, "It's no surprise that you're involved in all of this." Dex closed his eyes briefly, "I didn't mean for it to get that out of hand, I didn't even know he was going to be at the club." Isaac shook his head, "I don't care about that Dex, I care about the fact that you seem to be the one he cares most about, yet you seem to be the most harmful one of us all." Dex closed his eyes, "I know you're from a really shitty past Isaac, but like you know, people make mistake. I'm trying to work through some stuff-" - "Everyone's trying to work through some stuff Dex, but you are going to take my brother down with you and I'm not okay with that. He had a breakdown in the hospital because of you, I don't care what he thinks or how he thinks he feels, this is already toxic." - Dex closed his eyes again for a moment, "Isaac, I've done things. And I regret them deeply. I know the gist of your backstory, and though I know it's not the same we come from the same kind of place. And I know, this place and these people has everything we never had, and I know you're afraid you're going to lose it all, everything you've ever wanted. But what you want and what Ryder wants or two completely different things." Isaac stepped forward, growling, "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS!" Dex shook his head, "I KNOW WHAT HE DOESN'T WANT. And there's a reason he's not following around you." Isaac shoved Dex back and snarled, "Your nerve! You almost got my brother killed twice! ********> twice Dex! Do you know who's fault it's going to be when he dies up there?! Yours. His blood will be on your hands! You have no right talking to me like this!" Dex caught himself on the fence and stared at him, "Why because of your flight risk relationship bond?! Tell me again why I should treat you like you have any authority over me because I sure as hell don't see it. And telling me I'm bad for him isn't going to change how I feel, nor how he feels." - Isaac swatted then, scratching the right side of Dex's and then he spun, kicking Dex across the face and sending him to the ground. Dex held his arms up, but Jake roared from a few feet away, knocking Isaac out of the way, both snarling and tumbling over each other till Jake grabbed him by his arm and slammed his face to the ground, "You. Do. Not. Touch. My. Betas." Isaac growled and Jake pressed him down harder, baring his teeth, "How DARE you even touch him." he snapped, when Isaac tried to fight to get up, Jake twisted his arm and he gave a low warning growl, "Do you understand me? Or should I make myself clearer?" Lexi approached the situation just then, letting a low growl escape her throat to alert Jake that she had come as back up, unaware of the situation. She took in the scene of Jake over Isaac, and remained fully shifted. She made her way to Dex and helped him up to his feet, looking him over then back at the blood on Isaac's claws. She roared angrily, keeping her distance, and standing defensively before Dex. She wasn't about to call Jake off, standing strong on his side without question. Isaac had stopped struggling and Jake kept his weight on his back till he had shifted back before standing up, he didn't try to speak, he didn't try anything, Jake didn't want to hear it either. "Get out of here now." Isaac looked to Dex and narrowed his eyes before standing up, giving a glance to Lexi and turning around, walking off. Jake turned to Lexi and Dex, he didn't shift back, tilting Dex's head to the left, then the right as he slowly healed. He pulled him into a hug, "What happened?" Dex explained to them then, letting Jake in on the Ryder situation, then what Isaac had said to him prior to the fight. Jake brushed his hand through Dex's hair and hugged him again, "He's not going to touch you again. And I will make damn sure of that."
That night was difficult for Dex. He hadn't returned to Ryder's room, knowing full well that he just couldn't walk into Ryder's room with Isaac sitting there scratched up. He couldn't deal with the questions, and the tension, and so he let Lexi drive him back to the flat, only to on the porch and ponder about Ryder. Was it his fault if he died? Was he going to die? He hated the fact that that could be remotely true, and all that night he sat on Ryder's bed playing a game on his phone till he got bored around five in the morning and found his way back to the hospital. The entire time questioning why Ryder had half packed boxes all over..
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After a few days, Ryder was okay and released, and though they hadn't spoken much, Dex was civil with him, refusing to fight with him, or even let him think he was mad at him. The teacher stood up, "So the topic of debate is..." she trailed off turning to the board and writing it down, "Is the Concept of love real?" She glanced to Ryder, asking if he was for or against and once he said for, she scanned the class hesitating on Sydney and then looking to Dex, "You'll be arguing against Dexter, you go first. Anything that comes to mind, keep it professional. Dex, please start the argument." Dex and Ryder had gone to the front of the class, and the only thing he could think of was how grateful he as that Ryder was standing there in front of him, alive and well, and normal. He kept his eyes on him, blinking for a minute to let himself fully take in Ry's appearance, his heart skipping before the teacher cleared her throat signalling for Dex to begin, "I do believe the idea of love is real, as for it being a real feeling, I believe there are limits. There's family, and that's a bond more so than anything, but personally, I believe that love is an illusion, something to give people hope, but as animals, we rely on instinct and nature. Love doesn't exist, it just makes us feel better if we think it does." Dex stated and looked up over the class. The teacher looked to Ryder, "I disagree. I believe that love is a very real, unconditional commitment to an imperfect person. It isn't just euphoric or spontaneious, it's always deliberate. You can't 'accidentally' fall in love, you choose to, whether you are completely aware of it or not. More often than not, real love has its sleeves rolled up, dirt and grime smeared on its arms, and sweat dripping down its forehead, because it's difficult to manage at times, but as long as one chooses to love another, it will always win in the end, until the other lets go." Ryder retorted. The teacher nodded, pointing to Dex then, "Contrary to the anatomy referenced in all our favorite love songs, love is not in the heart, but it is in the brain. the brain can get so obsessed with this powerful emotion. In fact, some scientists even see love as a kind of addiction, it is so hard to break up a long-term romantic relationship. Losing someone you love is like going through withdrawal, like a Heroin addict, and when you don't get your high, when you don't get the rush, when that constant has been taken away from you, you get sick and you lose yourself. It's nothing more than a cognitive illusion." Dex explained, his eyes travelling back from the class and over Ryder's figure, "While I agree that love is in the head rather than the heart, I don't believe that it is purely chemical. Of course there are aspects, the way a certain person can trigger different responses. Is it strictly 'all in your head' when he touches you, and you feel like your skin is on fire? Is it 'all in your head when your skin is set ablaze where his fingers traced your skin? A feeling that intense, that unquestionable, can't simply be written off as mere 'infatuation'. They walk into a room and it feels like you can't breathe with all the ash in your lungs, you suffocate when you see them, but you crave it, and suffer worse when you're apart. There is more to it than just dependency or physical attraction. It's an emotional teather, a bond of vulnerability." Dex kept eye contact with him, feeling a wave of Dave's chemo signals hit him, lust, longing, and desire. He looked to the ground and he narrowed his eyes, "The effects of chemical reactions are real but love doesn't exist as anything more than a fantasy. If you love somebody it's simply your body releasing some stimulants that affect your mood. Dopamines are nerves of the brain, they release a chemical stimulant when something, or someone makes you feel good, whether erotically or mentally intimate, it's more of a longing for that feeling." Dex heard Dave shift in his seat, and the teacher spoke, "Yes Dave?" Dex positioned himself to face Dave as he spoke, "Studies have found that people who have formed romantic, long-term, committed, emotional bonds with another person live up to 15% longer. And on the opposite side of things - when people lose someone they love, their body releases chemicals that significantly weaken their heart. This can lead to a fatal heart attack and is called Broken Heart Syndrome. Pretty intense for an illusion." Dex tilted his head slightly, "Exactly. Because that chemical feeling they relied on has been torn away from them, and that person probably realized that they would never be there for them again. The rush, and the crutch and the only thing that gave them that kind of feeling is gone. And it can be torn from you within the blink of an eye, do you know how fast it takes to get addicted to a drug? Within the first time of experiencing it. Intense is hardly the word for it, try unbearable, and agonizing." Dave stared at him, and the teacher glanced to Ryder. Dex shook his head, "The body is a slave to it's impulses, but the thing that makes us human is what we can control. After the storm, after the rush, after of heat of the moment has passed, you cool off and clean up the messes you made, you wean yourself from the drug."
Ryder smiled and nodded, watching Dave and Dex debate, then bit his lower lip after Dex's final statement. "That only applies if you choose to ween yourself off of it. As I stated, Love is intentional. If you want it to last, then you have to fight to keep your territory your own." Ryder's chemo-signals were rolling between passionate, hopeful, and almost desperate, but not toward Dave. "People try to push their distaste onto others and drive them apart for their own benefit, but if you weren't emotionally attached, why would it hurt so much to let go? Is depression not a 'real' illness? Is Dementia not a 'real' condition? Just because it is difficult to explain in words, doesn't make it fake or purely 'science'." Dave rose his hand again, and Dex didn't move his eyes away from Ryder, his heart throbbing against his chest once before he heard Dave speak, "Let's say you loved someone, and then it fell apart Dex." Dex tore his eyes away from Ryder and scowled at Dave, "You, yourself said someone might not make it. I think how most people think is that it's better to be alone. Because...what if you learn to need love, not anyone in general, just that specific person, it's not like you can lose the person you love and just get another one. So what if you found out you needed it, and then you don't have it. What if you learned to like it? And leaned on it? What if you shaped your entire life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying." Dex felt Ryder's chemo signals, and his own were overwhelming, and he snapped. "No it's not. The difference between losing love and dying, letting that just get away? Is that death ends. Losing love can last forever, that damage doesn't just go away." Dave nodded and leaned forward in his seat, "Are you sure you're speaking about your chemical reactions?" Dex narrowed his eyes before dropping them to the ground, "Maybe you're right. There's a reason it's called an addiction. They don't just go away when you cut yourself off and get over the withdrawals, they're always with you. And as soon as you get a sip, not even, a drop of that alcohol, or whatever it is you're addicted to, you're back on the wagon. Addiction is forever." The teacher raised an eyebrow,ready to call the argument when Sydney spoke up, "I disagree." She stated before Ryder could speak. Her chemo signals expressing sadness and heartbreak, while Ryder's heart was racing, pounding against his chest due to Dex's previous statements. When the teacher gave her the floor, she stayed in her seat and looked to the rest of her classmates, trying to find the words. "I think love is just a really beautiful idea. You could believe you 'love' someone, that you'd do anything to see them smile, or hear their voice on the other end of the phone, but when it comes to light, and those feelings aren't returned, how can you be sure it's even real in the first place? I think the idea is real and beautiful and something everyone wants, but that's all it is. Just an idea of comfort that you aren't going to be alone forever. Then, when you let reality sink in, it's the solitude that kills, not the loss of the other person. It's the loneliness, the isolation, the laying in your bed staring at the ceiling, wishing and praying that that one person would just love you back, and they don't. That's what kills and causes depression. Not love, but the fact of being completely and utterly alone." Dex looked up to her when she spoke and he kept his eyes on her the entire time, suddenly feeling the urge to defend Ryder's statement, he leaned on the podium and dropped his head for a moment, listening as the teacher spoke, "Dexter do you have anything to add?" Dex shook his head no, "So you agree?" He let out a breath and looked at her, "One hundred percent." he said tightly, guilt and shame crashing into him, "Couldn't have said it better myself." The teacher looked to Ryder then, "Anything to add?"
Ryder could see what was happening and shook his head in Sydney's direction. "I think love is like religion. To each their own. Different experiences cause different beliefs and to be honest there is no correct answer. We could debate about this all day but it wouldn't change anything. For those of us who believe in love, we'll wind up happier in the long run, and for those of us who don't, good luck to you in your future. Love waits for me, someday, that much I know because I believe in it. Enjoy your solitude to those who don't." Dex looked over to Ryder and Sydney's silence seemed to trigger the teacher, "A retort Dex?" Dex hesitated for a moment, rocking on his heals in his leaning stance, "We imagine love, and we worry about it. We spend our whole lives chasing dreams and 'feelings', wondering which is the right one. We try to control love, plan it, alter it, try to predict it, as if figuring it out will cushion the blow. But feelings change... love is the home of our deepest fears and our wildest hopes. But I know one thing for certain when it finally reveals itself," he stated and looked up the class, "Love is never the way we imagine it." Something inside Ryder broke a little, and he dropped his hands from the podium, biting his lower lip as he took it in. When the teacher prompted him for a retort, he shook his head, and walked back to his seat. Defeated. Dex watched him and when the teacher spoke to him, her words went a little quiet as he let out a breath, "No. I don't have anything else to say. Because everything that comes out of my mouth is clearly never right. My ******** apologies, sorry to waste your time. I need to be excused." he snapped and stepped back, leaving his books, his bags, everything in the room as he slammed the door behind him. Ryder did nothing at first, he and Sydney glancing at each other before she tilted her head toward the door and Ryder nodded. He got up, leaving his things as well, not saying a word to the teacher, and following after Dex. "Dex, wait." He called out, catching up to him, grabbing his arm and turning him around. Their eyes met for a split second before Ryder suddenly took Dex's face into his hands, and brought his lips to Dex's. He moved forward and pinned Dex between himself and the wall of lockers, threading his left hand with Dex's right. He poured everything he had into it, and when he pulled away he looked at the blue in Dex's eyes, as his own glassed over a bit. "I said it before, and I'll say it again...I don't want you to go." Dex had been walking, needing to run or hit stuff...or something. His body shook till he heard Ryder's voice and he stopped instantly, letting Ryder catch up, ready to have it out again. To fight with him again, to hurt him again, because he just never said the right things, he closed his eyes, as he was being grabbed, "No. I can't. I'm so tired of doing this to-" he was cut himself off before he looked at Ryder. The second their eyes met, he gave in, is heart thumping hard against his chest, letting himself be moved against the lockers, his body completely relaxing as his lips met Ryder's, letting him pour everything into it, and meeting it with an equal balance of passion. God he loved him. He loved him. In that moment he remembered when he met him and it was so clear that he was the only one for him. They both knew it right away. And as the days had gone on, things got more difficult and they had faced more challenges. And when he had seen the boxes in his bedroom he wanted to beg him to stay, try to make him understand the friendship they had at the beginning. To Dex, he was charismatic, magnetic, electric. And nobody knew it except for him. When he walked in, everyone's head seem to turn in Dex's eyes, everyone stood up to talk to him. He was like this hybrid...this mix of a person who couldn't contain himself. Dex always got the sense that he was torn between being a good person and missing out on all of the opportunities that life had to offer someone as magnificent as him...And in that way, Dex understood him, and he loved him. He loved him, he loved him...He. Loved. him. And despite their arguments, the jealousy, the fights, the impulsive digs, the drama, the obstacles...He still loved him, he loved him.
His chemo signals radiated, passion, desire, love, if that even was a chemo signal. He laced his right handed fingers with his left hands, with his free hand he rested it on Ry's jaw letting the kiss deepen, putting his weight on the locker behind him as he dropped his hand from his jaw to his side and pulled him closer. His lips glided along Ryder's with ease, his breath exiting into his mouth softly before he rested his forehead on his and kissed him once more gently. There was no more pretending, he was sick of it, the rusty armor fell off him then, and Dex could breathe. He closed his eyes and smiled sadly, "No. I'm not. I'm never going anywhere." He leaned his head against the locker, listening to what he said, "I'm not going anywhere. As long as you don't. Because I don't want you to ever leave." he whispered and then tilted his head, "I'm in love with you. Always have been. I thought you were the unfair one...but it was unfair of me not to say it. So I've said it. I was nothing. I felt like nothing. Less than. And you changed that. And I'm so done having shame and guilt for hat I feel for you, because I love you, and I'm so sorry that I made you wait this long. I love you." Ryder had been enthralled, and even at total ease before Dex started to speak, but once he stated he wasn't going anywhere, a wave of relief washed over Ryder through his chemo signals. Ry nodded, agreeing not to go, watching Dex's mannerisms as he always did, and kind of losing himself as he admired him. His heart stopped completely for a good five seconds, in total shock, the second those five words left Dex's mouth. His jaw clenched and unclenched a few times while he bit his lower lip, staring in total awe. He didn't want to tell him that he had never heard those words directed at himself before, but he hadn't, not even from his own brother. He took a second, trying not to get too overly emotional, but this was something of a big deal. He let out a breath and kept his eyes on Dex. "You were never nothing, not to me. You were the only thing I was holding onto, and you were everything I needed to keep off the edge. You always thought you were this giant ******** up that no one really gave a damn about but you were wrong the whole time. I cared about you the second we met, and even then I loved you. I'm alive for you, and without you, I'm the one who is nothing. You mean that much, and I will always love you. I don't want to fall asleep or wake up next to anyone else." Ry's thumb traced over Dex's cheek, leaving his left hand In Dex's right, trying to put all of his thoughts into words but he was struggling. "I feel like I matter for the first time in my life...like I'm worth something to someone for once, and I don't know how to process it. All I know is I don't feel empty anymore, and it's the first time in my entire life that I've been something. Because I love you." Dex listened his eyes remaining on Ryder's, feeling good that he opened up to him, no...Not good. He felt honored. He pulled him forward keeping him in his arms and letting him rest his head on his shoulder, "You're worth everything to me. I know before you felt like you weren't, but I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere, and I don't care who knows it anymore, I don't. If you want I will walk back into that that classroom and debate the bloody concept of love till I'm blue in the face. You're worth so much more than you think. And I am so honored to be the person you love, your person. You may have been alone before, but you're not anymore, because I'm here, and I love you too."
Ryder rested his head against Dex's shoulder, too many emotions rolling at once to land on a specific one. He smiled a bit to Dex's words about marching back into class, then looked back up at him when he called himself his 'person'. Ryder got why instantly, He cradled Dex's jaw and tilted his head, kissing him slowly and half basking in it. "I'm going to keep shielding you. Come whatever. That's my job. It always has been, and it's always going to be...I want to tell you everything so you'll understand, but I don't know how." Sadness started to seep through the signals as he kept eyes contact with Dex. Dex looked him over, brushing his hair back and nodding, "It'll be a joint effort." he said and smiled kissing his cheek and inclining his face slightly, "You can tell me anything. Trust me. I won't judge." he said and rested his forehead against him, "No secrets. No more lies. You can tell me everything." he breathed and held him tightly, "You tell me what you want to tell me, and if you need a break, we'll take a break. And when you want to resume, we will." Ryder nodded, leaning into Dex's touches, just waiting to be sure he wasn't about to wake up suddenly back in the hospital or something. He let his claws out some discreetly and dug into his palm, feeling the twinge of pain and half smiling at himself. It was real. "How about after the game tonight we do our victory dinner with everyone, then when we go home, we can just veg out in my room for the night?" Dex looked down to Ryder's hand, letting his hand dropping from his waist to his semi bloody hand, sliding his left hand into his right hand, raising it towards his lips and kissing the top first before he looked up, "Maybe we'll get some sleep tonight as well." - "Maybe." He agreed, half doubting it, considering they would waste their time talking or laughing, or letting the other into their pain, and before they would know it the sun would rise and they'd groan around the room before trying to get ready for the day. He felt good for the first time in a long time, He slid his hand around Dex's waist, flipping him around and leaning his own back against the wall, pulling him toward him to encircle him in his hold. Dex moved swiftly with the motion, holding his left arm to the locker, over Ryder's shoulder and hugged him tightly, he kissed his temple before his lips grazed along his jawline, "Mmm.." he trailed off quietly, "Maybe." Ryder smiled and kissed Dex on the forehead before he glanced toward the ceiling and sighed, remembering Sydney. "Bell, in thirty seconds..." His tone was almost sad, like he would prefer to stop the clock all together. Dex closed his eyes letting his arm drop from the lockers and back onto his waist, "No..." he trailed off whining, then cupped his jawline, "I'm sorry for pulling away this one last time." he paused and kissed him softly, "This is the last time. I promise." he whispered and kissed him once more, tangling his fingers in his hair and breaking it, three seconds before the bell rang. He turned then, "I'll see you at the game."
After school, Dex waited on the steps outside the school, waiting for Sydney to come outside. He bounced his knee and exhaled, his heart racing, he didn't want her to be upset, but if he knew her well enough, she would know that it was for the best. It was a bit of heart ache, and then it was gone, he didn't want it to go further than it had and have it blow up in their faces. When Sydney came out he stood up and looked her over, "Hey." he greeted and offered a smile, "Can we talk for a minute?" She stopped and smiled, adjusting her purse on her shoulder and nodded. "Sure. What's up?" Dex inhaled her scent, she had no idea what was even about to be said. He nodded and began to walk with her, folding his arms across his chest, "I wanted to start by saying thank you. I really appreciate what you did for me this morning in class." She smiled and blushed as she always did, nodding and offering a second smile. "Oh, it was nothing. It kind of sounded like you could have used a hand in that debate. No problem." Dex looked away from her, trying everything not to let the guilt hit him as hard, he sighed and forced a smile, "I don't know how to say this, and I don't want you to think it's on you, at all because it's not." he stated. "But you have a thing for Ryder." She finished somehow still smiling and keeping her heart rate the same. She wasn't angry or upset, just more understanding than anything. Dex dropped his gaze and nodded a bit, keeping up with her steady heart, and her chemo signals, "You caught that." he said quietly and looked away. "I think the entire class got that...Dave makes you nervous doesn't he?" Dex met her eyes, "Yeah. He does. I'm not really good with...Jealousy." he admitted and watched as Dave came out of the school with Mason. Was he not into Ryder? Not that he cared or anything, or did he just want to let Dex settle into a false sense of security? He narrowed his eyes and glanced back to Sydney as she spoke, giving her the respect she deserved seeing as they were literally breaking up. Here and now. And then whatever it was with Ryder was open, and he was free to express how he felt about Ryder whenever and wherever without legitimately cheating on Sydney. Syd nodded and shrugged one shoulder. "I guess that's where trust comes in. If you and Ryder are hitting it off and make things official then you are just going to have to trust that Ryder will deny Dave if he is dumb enough to make a move, ya know?" She offered another smile and crossed her arms loosely in front of herself. Dex noted her stance and bit his inner cheek, "Yeah...I figured that if I wanted to 'hit it off' with him I should probably clean up the mess I made in my backyard." he said and shifted his weight onto one leg watching Dave and Mason talk for a moment before his eyes snapped back to Sydney. Sydney nodded. "Yeah...good idea. You know what, I just think maybe it's better if we weren't....'us' anyway." Her heart skipped and her breath hitched for a second, almost forcing the words. Her arms tightened around herself, and already she could feel the tears trying to form. Dex blinked quickly and he looked down, "Okay." his voice was quiet, and guilt hit him hard, "I'm sorry." he wanted to hug her more than anything, he wanted to just wrap her up in his arms and hold her until she wasn't sad, because the small hitch in her breathing, and her heart that skipped was enough to verify that she was upset, like he knew she would be. He knew that if he made any kind of move on her that she might start crying, and he knew he couldn't take that, he never wanted to see her cry, or upset or unhappy. He never wanted her hurt, and here he was pulling the trigger. He rose his eyes to meet hers, trying to search her expression, but he could sense the panic, and he was ready to take it all back so she wasn't sad...but just then a tear fell over Syd's cheek and she wiped it away quickly, hoping maybe he wouldn't notice. Unfortunately for her, it was the first thing he did notice, "You don't have to apologize. It's okay. I wouldn't take it back, even if I could. I just had to say it first...so I wouldn't have to tell my brother. I'm okay...I'll be fine. I have to go but I'll see you at the game later." Syd turned all of a sudden as another tear escaped her eye and she started to walk toward the parking lot where she left her vehicle. Dex watched her walk away, biting his bottom lip hard wanting to go after her and apologize over and over and make sure she was okay, but she would need some time, and he knew that, but now it was real. And she was broken and he was the one who did it, he just hoped the next guy who put her pieces back together was nice to her.
Dex had gone home, just missing Ryder, he showered and got his stuff together, walking past Ryder's bedroom seeing that the boxes were now unpacked he sighed a breath of relief and then stepped out the door, and made his way for the school. Once he got there, he unloaded his stuff, hanging it up changing into his shorts, leaving his shirt off as he moved towards the weight room. He looked at the figure and leaned against the wall watching him do his usual pre-work out, he admired him for a second and then stepped over, letting his finger trail along his shoulder, taking one of his ear phones out and sitting on the bench in front of him, "Hey 'Mate." he greeted quietly. His eyes lingered on him for a moment as he leaned forward, elbows on his knees, chin in his hands as he tilted his head some to look up at him. Ryder half smirked when he caught Dex's scent but ignored him until he approached, letting him watch if it so pleased him. He froze when Dex trailed his finger over his shoulder and glanced up after releasing the weight. "Oi." He teased, relaxing some and taking a drink of water. "You smell like...guilt. Wait, did you already break it off with Syd?" Ryder asked half shocked. He knew Dex was going to dump her, he just didn't think he would do it immediately. Dex smiled at him then and kept his head tilted, "Oi." he repeated and then looked down frowning, "I did, because I didn't want to feel even worse than I already did. I feel like I was with her for the wrong reasons than alone for the right." Ryder bit his lip and got up off the bench , listening as Dex spoke, unable to just sit there and stare at him like that. It was terribly distracting, and he didn't want to do something he wouldn't have time to finish. "So how did she handle it? Like is she okay or am I going to have to call her later?" Ryder stripped his shorts off and turned on the water to the shower, letting it get warm some as he turned, leaning against the wall, waiting on Dex to respond. Dex turned, following his movements, a sly grin on his face as he watched the fabric around his waist slide down his leg and hit the floor before his eyes moved back to his, "I'm giving her a little time before I go and talk to her." he stated and then leaned back on the bench, propped up slightly to keep his eyes on him at all times. Ryder watched Dex move and rolled his eyes, scoffing, knowing he was messing with him intentionally. "Good. I'm glad you got it all sorted out. It'll get easier." Ryder slid out of his boxers and stepped into the hot water stream. He didn't care, it was only the millionth time he had been nude in front of Dex. He let his mind wander back to the game, eyes shut, able to block out his other pesky thoughts. Dex smiled and let his eyes trail Ryder back around the corner, biting his bottom lip and waiting till he was around the corner. "Yeah. I agree. It was hard in the moment." He stood up, wandering around the weight room and then slowly moving his way towards the showers, "Are you in the 'zone' yet?" He moved towards the showers, around the corner, quietly until he leaned against the wall opposite of him, "Sorry, but I think your clothes look better on the floor." he stated. "You know if you wanted to join me in a shower all you had to do was say so." He smirked and made eye contact, refusing to be the first to drop his gaze. Dex inclined his head and ran a hand through his hair, "I just showered before I came." a small grin on his face. "In that case, enjoy the show." He leaned his head back into the water and let it rush down the front of him. Dex watched him for a little while till he pushed himself from the wall, raising an eyebrow, "You're testing me." Ryder glanced at him and quirked a brow. "Oh, am I? Sorry mate. I'll try to mind your temper." Dex let his eyes move down his body, "You're a p***k sometimes you know that?"
Ryder made a mock pouting face and scoffed. "Aww. In that case I'll try to mind my manners." He bit his lip and winked at Dex, almost able to count down the seconds before he would cave. Dex narrowed his eyes, stepping closer to him, grabbing his arm and pulling him close, his head tilting to the side, "You must really want to miss first half." he said quietly he leaned forward, tilting his head taking his bottom lip, tugging on it with his teeth, "I guess lacrosse isn't that important." he breathed and let his hand trail up from below his waistline, "Your call." Ryder inhaled sharply through gritted teeth and letting Dex think for a moment that he had won. He tried to keep calm but his heart raced before he suddenly used his wolf strength to turn and pin Dex against the nearby wall. He held his hands in place, then ducked and trailed his tongue from Dex's navel, over his stomach, up to his collarbone, and stopped to n** at his neck. "Yeah...but I'd really hate to disappoint those in the bleachers. You know that." Ryder smiled devilishly, and ran his tongue just barely over Dex's lower lip, then swiftly moved away from him and grabbed a towel, and his uniform. "Maybe I'll have to pick this up after...but only if we win. Gives you a little incentive." Dex let his breath catch, arching his back against Ryder as he made his way to his neck. He felt his tongue along his his lower lip he gripped at his waist and frowned slightly, "Rude." he said and pushed upwards slightly forcing his lips onto his letting it last for a solid half a minute,"Now that you got me all wet..." he trailed off and watched him step away from him, "I mean, my shorts are drenched. I told you that I already showered. But yes, I guess we'll see if I show enough incentive, I'm not really feeling up to playing my hardest." he stated as he stepped over to him and let his fingers move down. Ryder was blindsided and dealt with the situation as best he could but the second Dex took hold, all Hell broke loose. Ryder crashed his lips onto Dex's, turning him around and slamming him against the lockers. Dex gripped at Ryder's waist and, knowing they needed to go, but he wanted him. The sounds of the crowd could be heard in the distance, but Ryder wasn't paying enough attention. He laced his left hand with Dex's right and growled into his mouth while his tongue wrestled with Dex's, the younger wolf inhaling as much as he possibly could from Ryder. He body rolled against him and moved his mouth to Dex's neck, leaving a mark, then calming enough, to look up at him with yellow eyes while Dex leaned his head back and stared back to him a small smile resting on his lips. Ryder's eyes faded back to hazel green, and he tried to breathe slow, kissing Dex's forehead, before leaning to rest their foreheads together in a much less aggressive way. "We have to go. Jake just got here.
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2015 3:08 am
That seemed to snap Dex out of it and he nodded slightly, meeting his lips, not taunting or teasing, just to say 'okay' before he let Ryder go, and they went to get changed. The boys changed quickly in just enough time to join the team to run out onto the field. Jake was there with Lexi and Malia who were holding up a giant sign for them, and honestly everyone they knew was there taking up a good section and a half of bleachers. Ryder had to stop and stare for a second, a wave of emotion rolling over him. Is this what it felt like to look out and see family supporting you in something you liked to do? He smiled and waved at them before he went and took his place. They barely won. it was a tie till the last point and Ryder scored it right before the timer, and the crowd erupted. Dex smiled wide, his eyes brightening up as he stared at Ryder, "Mate! You did it!" he exclaimed running over to him and shaking him, "Ry!" Ryder stood totally shocked in place before the goal, unable to move until he was thrown back into reality when Dex was the first team mate to get to him. He smiled brightly, letting Dex shake him all he wanted, not sure if it was customary to be rattled upon winning a game. "Oh my God...Dex! I did it!" He repeated Dex's words back to him before he grabbed his arms and the two started to jump before they were surrounded by their team mates, all jumping together in unison. Dex hugged him, smooshing him close, everyone all cheering and screaming, then out of nowhere Jake 'scused me' through everyone, grabbing his two boys and hugging them, then tightly taking Ryder, "I am so proud of you." he said and ruffled his hair hugging him once more again and squeezing him one more time, "Both of you." he added and smiled wide. Ryder hugged Jake, and listened to what he said, stopping his movements all together. Today had been full of new emotions and feelings for Ryder, and after Dex's profession earlier, Jake's simple statement was the icing on the freaking cake. He almost got teary eyed, knowing Jake and probably Dex noticed, but he didn't care. He just hugged them both tightly, never having felt like he truly belonged anywhere,until this very moment. Jake hugged him again and rubbed his back while Dex was high five-ing a couple of other players, "So, we're definitely going for dinner. All of us, on me! So where do you want to go Champ?" Ryder looked at Jake and had a ton of emotions flooding him. "Anywhere is fine by me. I didn't have a chance to eat earlier. I'm starving. Hey Dex! Where do you want to eat?" He called over the crowd knowing he could hear. Dex turned immediately, moving over to Ryder and Jake and smiled, "Not pizza. We have that s**t daily." he said and smiled wide, "But I mean, we never dine in there, so if you want..." Jake scoffed playfully and shook his head, "Oh no, no. We're going expensive. I've been saving up for a couple weeks, so we'll be good, anywhere you want Ry. Pasta? Pizza? French? Mexi...can?"
"Mexican sounds fantastic." He smiled brightly and gave Jake another hug, speaking lower this time. "Thanks for being here." Jake paused for a moment and looked at Ryder for a moment, "I wouldn't have missed it for the world." he said and smiled, looking him over, "I want you to meet someone." he stated and brought him and Dex over to Sam, he stopped in front of him, he looked between the three, "Ryder, Dex, this is my Dad, Sam."Jake introduced. "Pleasure to finally meet you boys. Jake's done nothing but talk about you two since I got back. He tells me you're both pretty remarkable." Ryder smiled and shook Sam's hand before watching Sam offer the same to Dex. He didn't know what to say, considering Jake hadn't said a word to him about his dad before. All he knew was he had passed. Dex shook Sam's hand as well and smiled, "Fancy meeting you as well, whenever your name's brought up it's nothing but good things, selfless things, you're quite respectable." Sam looked to the ground before glancing over at Jake and tossing his giant arm over his shoulders. "Thank you Dex. It's amazing what a man will do to help and protect his family, but I'm sure you know all about that." He gestured to Viper who approached with a cigarette in hand. "That he would mate. Right Dexter? You'd do nearly anything for big brother, would you not?" Viper put his cigarette between his lips and walked behind Dex, putting his hands on his little brother's shoulders proudly. He leaned down and kissed Dex on the cheek before letting his arms circle him. Ryder smiled at the interaction, glancing between Viper and Dex, and Sam and Jake. Dex laughed lightly, resting against Viper, "Why of course." he said and smiled while Jake leaned his head on Sam's shoulder and smiled a bit. Dex looked up, "Where's Isaac?" he questioned, Jake gestured to the bathroom, "He was here, but the crowd just kind of clambered from the bleachers, I think he went to the bathroom, but he'll be back. He's not really on...speaking terms with me?" he stated and shrugged, "He'll be here in a few." Dex looked over to Ryder then and reached out, grabbing Ryder's hand, intertwining their fingers, "You did fantastic tonight." Jake glanced down at their laced fingers and he smiled a bit, looking between the two of them, murmuring a small 'aww'.
Ryder bit his lip and smiled, keeping his fingers laced with Dex's, while Viper just grinned. "Atta boys." Lexi and Malia ran over and Lex tossed her arms around Sam's free side, glancing at everyone while Sam hugged her the same as he was hugging Jake. "Aww, so many smiles over here! It's kind of nice for once, you know?" She looked to Jake, glad that he had his dad back, then over to Dex and Ryder. "You two were incredible! I'm so happy I was here to see it!" Malia kissed Viper's cheek as she joined and Dex joined in with the grinning. Dex pulled Ryder closer, holding Viper on one side and then Ryder close on the other, setting his forehead on his shoulder as Jake laughed lightly, "For once...But I think we should get my boys to eat." Ryder wasn't at all hesitant on being pulled into Dex's side, watching as everyone interacted with one another, and nodding to Jake the moment he suggested they go to eat. He kept his hand with Dex's as the lot of them moved out, Sam walking with Jake and Lexi on either side, and Viper following behind after scooping Malia up on piggy back. Viper sped ahead and turned, tossing his keys to Dex. "Be careful with her, eh?" With that he caught up to Sam and told him that they wanted to ride with them, leaving the bright red Viper to the two boys. Dex smiled to him and looked at Viper and grinned, "Thanks V." - He drove with Ryder towards the Mexican place, knowing full well they were going to be bombarded with the entire group when they got there he stopped the car on the side of the road and looked over to him, "So I was thinking, you said you wanted me to know about everything, and you just weren't sure how to tell me." he stated, putting his hazard lights on. "I want you to tell me one thing every day, that way it won't be overwhelming, and it'll be easier to say and that way I have something to look forward to every day, not that I've dreamed about knowing your deep, dark secrets, but...I've learned in the passed while that you can't have an authentic life without being vulnerable." he murmured quietly and met his eyes leaning towards his face and kissing his cheek, "I want to be that with you, and I know you're not going to fully trust me for a while, so if we ease into it, then it'll be easier for you. I want to know you, every part of you, every scar, all the dark things that you hate about yourself, because I hardly think that will be the case with me."
Ryder was awestruck. He watched Dex's mannerisms, as always, almost completely unable to believe what he was hearing. He thought it over for a second and nodded, thinking about the concept. "One thing a day shouldn't be too hard...at least I hope it won't. I don't know I guess I just get kind of weird about it. I've never talked about any of it before to anyone, I guess the first thing I'll tell you..." Ryder thought, furrowing his brow, taking Dex's hands in his and pulling him a little closer, then lacing their fingers. "Is, before today...through the length of my life...No one ever told me that they were proud of me. And before today, I have never once been told that I was loved. Not by anyone." Ryder bit his lower lip as always and looked to the ground. Dex tilted his head innocently, listening and looking him over as his spoke, reading his signals and facial expressions. He frowned a little and squeezed his hand, "I can't change the past, but I can focus on you now. And what I can say is that you've jumped head first into deep water, and you've been managing it, school sucks, but that's to be expected. You're doing so well, you're life is changing, and you don't know how to feel about that, but I just want you to know it doesn't go unnoticed. I think the only thing you need to do is stay out of the kitchen, and you have been, so I'll even say that that in itself is a victory for you." he said with a smile and ran his fingers through his hair, "But don't you dare think that you're never loved. Viper's hard to get in with, but he does, Malia does, Jake loves you, Lexi loves you, Rian's fond of you, and even though Isaac's a little distant, and hasn't said it, but that doesn't mean he doesn't. And I know there's a shadow of doubt in your head with me, but I do love you, so much, and I don't want you think anything less than that." Ryder smiled and raised his arms up to encircle Dex's neck, and rested his forehead against his shoulder. "As long as we never give the other a reason to doubt, then doubt will never happen. I want to be able to tell you things, for you to believe what I say, and vice versa. I'd like to know everything there is to know about you too, because I love you, and I don't think there is a soul that exists that could change that for me." Ryder brought his hand to Dex's hair and smoothed it like he usually did before falling asleep, but now he wasn't just comforting Dex, but himself as well. Dex cupped his face and he kissed the top of his head and let him lean against him, just happy that he had him right now, "I'm not ever going to do that to you again. And soon enough you will. And could, because it's the same deal on my end." They went to dinner, Isaac had gone as well, only to support Ryder, and Dex just ignored him, keeping his eyes down the entire time, it was tense with Jake, Lexi, and Dex between Ryder, when a conversation arose they ignored each other. Jake spoke to Ryder idly, until Ryder asked what the hell was going on, and that's when Dex shook his head slightly hoping he didn't press, trying not to let Viper find out. After dinner, they bid goodbyes, and Dex looked to Ry, leaving with him and driving home in the Viper.
When they got to the flat, he stepped in, hanging Viper's keys up and then kicked his shoes off, "So there was a new horror movie added onto Netflix, I figured we could watch it." he said turning around to face him, leaning against the counter and tilting his head, "It's won an award. It'll be terrifying." he stated and smiled innocently. He knew Ryder was scared of horror movies, but it was his way of being close to him without actually having to ask him, and he handled them well because he knew that Dex, himself was terrified. He watched him as he moved around, taking in every movement, every chest rise, just wanting to throw him in bed and move into his side and just stay there for as long as he possibly could. Ryder slipped his own shoes off and went to the fridge, grabbing two sodas and handing one to Dex. He then slid behind him after setting his down, leaving his forehead on the back of Dex's shoulder, one arm circling around his midsection, while the other rested against Dex's bicep. His thumb traced over his arm and he sighed contently. "Sounds good to me. I suppose that means you're staying in my room tonight?" He asked somewhat hopeful, keeping his place. Dex rested against him and closed his eyes, his right hand trailing lightly along Ryder's arm and then nodded, "You suppose? I haven't slept in days. As long as I'm welcome I will." he murmured. "As long as you want to be welcome, you are." Ryder leaned back to stretch then leaned forward and took Dex's hand, soda in the other. He led him back to his room and collapsed on his side of the bed, scooting the controller over for Dex to use. Dex smiled, following Ryder along and shut the door behind him before moving over to the bed and hopping in after turning the light off and leaning over to him and kissing his cheek, just because he could. He settled into his side of the bed and hit the Babadook movie before letting out a breath, "Ready?" Ryder grimaced and scrunched his nose. "Yeah..." Within half an hour of the movie, Dex was paralyzed to one position, not that he was letting Ryder know he was that scared physically. His eyes didn't leave the screen unless he looked to Ry, but as soon as the ******** up s**t began to happen around the house in the movie his hand rested in his hair and he just grimaced at the screen, trying not to let the movie bother him as much, his eyes moving over to Ryder, "How are you doing?" Dex questioned. "Not good! What is this s**t!? Why! Why do we do this to ourselves?! I wasn't gonna say anything but I can't do it! How are you even doing this?!" Ryder squirmed until he was laying on his stomach and pulled a pillow over his head, groaning into the mattress. Dex listened to one of the scenes as the kid said they're dad was killed in an accident and he looked to the screen again, his eyes following the characters as Ryder spoke, "Hmm?" he questioned. He felt Ryder toss himself around his side of the bed and he looked over, "I don't know some of these movies have deeper meanings I guess, you just have to overlook the mind blowing terror they try to mask it with." he said and then looked between him and the screen. Ryder shimmied around and tucked his legs under his stomach, trying to use the pillow to block out the sounds that were coming from the TV. "Dexxxxx...." he groaned and wiggled again, writhing around and trying to to hear it. Dex flopped his hand on Ryder's back and then jumped when the dog was killed, "Shh..."
Ryder got up all of a sudden and whipped a pillow into Dex's stomach, then laid down on it, facing away from the TV. "This is bloody ridiculous." Dex caught his breath and then watched as Ryder buried his face into it, he smiled slightly and then traced his fingers on the back of Ryder's neck reassuringly, "You're okay." Ryder grumbled, then relaxed once Dex's fingers came into contact. The movie quieted some and anxiety rolled off his chemo-signals, anticipating the horrible noise. It didn't come, but the mother started to argue with her child and when her voice changed, Ryder cowered a little, covering his ears, and squeezing his eyes shut. The scent of not just anxiety, but fear hit Dex, it came from Ryder, and he tried to make the connection, it wasn't the noise he was cowering from, as soon as the scent got stronger, Dex hit the back button on the controller and put on a random comedy movie before looking down at Ryder and brushing his hair back, "It's off." Ryder crawled up into Dex's lap and rested his forehead against Dex's neck, tracing his fingers over his jawline and keeping his eyes shut. "Sorry I'm a giant pansy." He scoffed at himself then glanced up at him. Dex leaned his head against the headboard, and shook his head closing his eyes and shivering slightly then peering down at him, "I don't mind, sorry I made you watch it longer than you had to." he said setting his hand on Ryder's chest. Ryder kissed Dex's neck and smiled at himself, before taking off his shirt and pants, and settling back the way he had been. Dex contained himself and remained in the same position, "You're okay with this right?" he questioned, thinking about taking off his own clothes, but deciding against it. Ryder nodded glanced up at Dex. "Yeah, it's good. Ashton is a badass." Dex smiled, "He was good in that show, the seventies one, that still remains my favorite to this day." he stated and sighed before slowly moving to take off his shirt gingerly. "That Seventies Show, mhmm." He mumbled a bit before nuzzling into his neck after his shirt was off. Dex laughed a bit, pushing Ryder off for a second and getting up, leaving the room to go to his, taking off his pants and pulling on his grey sweat pants before moving back to Ryder's room, his eyes lingering on Ry, "Did I miss anything important?" Ryder was back on his own side of the bed, chuckling at the movie, then glancing to Dex when he came back. "Nah, not really. Come back. It's cold in here." Dex did so and got back in on his side, taking his hand in his own and then looking at the TV screen pondering a few things to tell Ryder, trying to focus on the movie. Ryder laced their fingers together absentmindedly, using his free hand to put behind his head, and watching the screen before him, smiling at the good parts. Dex watched the movie in silence, glancing over to see Ryder smiling every few minutes, he was content with this movie, and Dex was happy to have Ryder not curled in the corner of the bed. He liked seeing Ry smile, or hearing him laughing, it was probably his favorite sound in the world, as Ryder laughed at another part, a smile spread across his own face, "I love you." he murmured, his eyes on him, admiring his features, from his eyes to his perfect smile, to his jawline, "I love you too." he stated without even having to think about it, then glanced over, half sat up, and gave Dex a quick kiss before sitting back in his spot. He waited a second then furrowed his brow, pulling Dex closer to him then smiling in contentment. "Better." He then kissed Dex on the cheek and smiled at him with a wink. Dex nestled up to Ryder and tangled his legs with Ryder's wrapping his arm around him and kissing his cheek back as if to top the one he received. He lazily closed his eyes, not because he was tired, just out of sheer comfortability.
Ryder laid his usual way, tousling Dex's hair absentmindedly, his hand resting over Dex's stomach, still completely oblivious that it was a trip wire for him. Dex inhaled a bit, glancing to Ry's hand and then to him, not about to be like 'Hey mate, don't move your hand, like at all.' and then glanced to the screen trying not to think about it, mind over matter style. Ryder stayed still for the most part for about twenty more minutes before he rolled onto his side, facing Dex and perking a brow. He didn't say anything before he kissed him deeply then pulled away and got up. "Food run." Dex nodded and watched him leave, exhaling slightly and then waiting a few minutes in the dark room alone, wait. Kitchen. Food run. He exhaled before getting up and moving out to the kitchen as well, "I figured you'd need to be monitored." Ryder laughed and shook his head. "Well if you would just teach me how to cook, I wouldn't need monitored now would I?" He got into the fridge to see nothing good there, and sighed, pulling out his phone and calling for Chinese, knowing what Dex would have ordered off the top of his head. He hung up and turned to Dex, putting one arm on either side of him, not touching him, but inadvertently pinning him against the counter. "And now we wait." Dex grimaced slightly, "Teach you how to cook? No. Kitchen's hate you, that is a horrible idea. I think you made a good decision on your part." he watched as Ryder moved in front of him, trapping him between the counter and himself, interesting stance. "I love you...Smorgasboard." Ryder snorted before he busted into laughter, backing up from Dex and holding his own sides. "Oh my god. Seriously? That was all it took and you called it? I love you too by the way, but holy-" He burst into another fit of laughter, leaning against the wall. Dex rolled his eyes, "Shut up you p***k." he laughed and looked up at him shaking his head, "You suck." Ryder laughed harder, having grown fond of his 'nickname' then calmed down some and quirked a brow. "Not yet I'm not." He stayed on the floor, looking Dex up and down for a second and biting his lip before looking away. "Don't do that." Dex warned as he noted Ryder's lip bite. Ryder chuckled. "Do what? I don't have any idea what you're talking about." He bit his lip again, keeping eyes on Dex, and let it go slow, letting his teeth rake across the top some, then raising a brow. Dex scoffed, "Oh really?" he questioned stepping over to him and tilting his head.
"You have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about?" he sighed, "For some ungodly reason, you were able to stop me earlier. Don't push your luck." Ryder tilted his head as well, then looked back up at Dex before getting to his feet and stretching his arms. His phone buzzed on the counter, having left it there behind Dex, so he stepped in front of him, kissed his neck, body rolled once, and snuck his phone from the counter. It was just a text from Lexi asking if they had made it home okay. He responded that they did and they said goodnight before he turned back around and put it down, glancing at Dex, and biting his own lower lip. "As for you...I think I'll take my chances." Dex rolled his eyes as he moved against him, one his last nerve with the whole 'hold it in' thing. He moved back to the counter as much as possible keeping his torso region away from Ryder as far as possible. As soon as he mentioned 'taking chances' Dex narrowed his eyes, he was annoyed and turned on, and that usually only ever happened with this ********. He exhaled and ran a hand through his hair, "Get out." Ryder chuckled and basked in Dex's frustrated chemo-signals for an extra moment before he pecked him on the lips and stepped away to go and fall onto the couch. "As you wish your royal shortness." Dex let out a breath before Ryder moved away, and as soon as he fell on the couch, he heard the comment and Dex froze, "You're dead." he growled and launched himself over. He pinned him down and then rolled, launching him mid air over to the ground, Ryder busted into another fit of laughter and moved to run once he heard Dex tell him he was dead, but wasn't quick enough and was taken down. "But you're so cuuuute~!" He rolled him over to try and pin him but Dex was on a rage roll and all Ryder could do was laugh. Dex shifted to use his wolf strength, throwing him across the room, "Oh my God. I hate you!" he exclaimed. "Aww that isn't what you were saying five minutes ago!" Ryder let his own eyes turn yellow before he leaned up and locked lips with him, then rolled him, and pinned him down. "No you don't." Dex's back hit the floor and he welcomed Ryder's retaliation openly, holding him in place as he kissed him back, then shook his head out of it and shoved him back, "Cheating." "Teasing!" He rolled him over again and body rolled, getting up the second he caught the scent of the delivery guy. He grabbed his wallet, answered the door, paid, got the food, and locked the door behind him. "Come eat." Dex laid on the ground and narrowed his eyes, listening to the interaction before rolling to get off the ground, smelling the food and wanting it immediately, "Fine." he grumbled and moving over to where he was, they ate for a little bit and Dex looked up after ten minutes of silence, "You piss me off so much." Ryder smirked and shook his head. "Yeah...but you'd be lost without me." Dex put the food container down, "Yeah..." he trailed off and looked up to him. Ryder was right, and as frustrated as Dex got sometimes, it was never serious, he could never fully function without him at all. He'd be feral in days, Viper knew it, Malia knew it and so did Ryder, hell everyone probably knew it. Ryder had brought him down a notch, held him to himself, he was his anchor, for everything. Ryder glanced up and smiled before finishing his noodles and tossing the container. He grabbed another soda and handed the other to Dex before hopping onto the counter and sipping on it with a half grin. Dex dropped his gaze, "You shouldn't stay too close to the kitchen utilities." he stated and then tossed his garbage out before stretching backwards and then retracting back to normal and glanced around, "I'm gathering Viper and Malia are staying out for a bit." he stated and stood up, moving to his phone that was on the table near the door and texted Viper asking when they'd be home, he received a text back from Malia on Viper's phone, 'We'll be out tonight, Jake, Viper, Lexi and I are going out with Noah, Rian, Luka, Kira and Damon, we're probably going to Noah's after. Enjoy the night!' Dex tilted his head and nodded texting a goodbye back.
Ryder nodded and got off the counter, running his fingers through his hair and moving toward the hallway. He stepped into his room and flopped onto his bed, looking around at the darkness, as he took the controller in his hand and started to flip through Netflix. His pace with it grew quicker as his anxiety built up, before he caved. "Dex...Dex! Come pick another movie." Dex sighed and shut the lights off in the kitchen and stepped to the hallway, pausing in the doorway of Ryder's room and then hearing a crash from the end of the hallway. He looked Ryder over and then turned the bedroom light on so he didn't leave him alone in the dark and shifted, his anxiety growing as he moved down the hallway, Klaus was dead. He didn't have to worry, right? Dex pushed Viper's bedroom door open and narrowed his eyes, trying to turn the light on, his heart racing, once he flipped the switch, he looked at the mess in the middle of the room, the top drawer to Viper's dresser had been emptied in the middle of the room, and the window was wide open. He scowled and walked over to the window, shutting it and locking it before stepping over to the drawer, was someone in the house? He looked to the closed closet and then opened it slowly, pushing clothes aside and looking around before stepping back and exhaling, he couldn't hear anyone else in the house, but he also couldn't smell a scent either...He stepped out of the bedroom, leaving the light on and moving back to Ryder's room, "Picture frame fell off the dresser. The wind I guess was pretty strong." The moment Dex left to go check Viper's room, Ryder slid into his sweats and a v-neck. He felt too uneasy, and and could feel something was wrong. His instinct was to get away, as far away as possible, but he couldn't bring himself to move. He jumped when Dex returned and narrowed his eyes when he spoke. "Dex, come on that didn't sound like a..." he trailed off, using his senses to listen closely. "Do you hear that?" A faint melody was playing from somewhere nearby but he couldn't pin where right away. "Listen." His heart slowed as he concentrated, then pinned it and headed for the door. Dex stared at him then grabbed one of Ryder's hoodies so he was more covered as well and listened, he followed Ryder grabbing his hand, his heart racing, "Ry...Maybe we should just go to bed." Ryder stopped when Dex took his hand, glad as hell that it was his left. He leaned down on a specific floorboard and pulled it up with ease, grabbing a pistol he had hidden upon moving in, knowing it was loaded, all without letting Dex's hand go. He moved forward and followed the sound, half shifted to take advantage of his own senses.
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2015 3:16 am
He moved toward the sound till he reached the basement door and took a breath before pulling it open to look down at the stairs descending into pitch blackness. Dex held onto Ryder's hand tightly, pulling him back up the two stairs and shaking his head, "Stop. Please." the sound of the creepy, pretty song faint but noticeable, "I don't like this." he hesitated, "The window in Viper's room was open, yes. But it was the top drawer to his dresser that was on the floor." Ryder hesitated and listened to Dex speak, furrowing his brow at the end. "Something is going on here, and I can't just let it go. I don't like being stalked or messed with, and whatever is doing it needs to ******** off. It has to be a 'what'. It couldn't have made it from Viper's room to the basement if it was a person. There are no windows...it would have had to pass right by you between the sound of the crash and whatever music is happening, and nothing did." The music grew more intense, and Ryder glanced into the dark, then back at Dex, his more primal nature kicked in. Dex stared at him his heart racing, "I'm scared." he whispered. He shakily ran his hand through his hair, but followed him down the stairs, pulling on the light cord an looking around the basement as the music stemmed from a tiny little music box in the dead middle of the room, "Ry.." Ryder kept up a strong front, keeping his heart rate down, and keeping Dex behind him while he held his hand tightly. "I got you, you're okay." he said reassuringly, taking the first step and heading into the dark. Dex pulled the light and Ryder looked around, his eyes landing on the music box. Dex said his name and he glanced back, his brow furrowed while he bit down on his lip. He stepped forward, looking around and seeing nothing else out of place. Even the shackles for full moon nights were just as they had left them. He slid the gun into the waistband of his sweats, and picked up the box, looking it over and his heartrate picked up some. "Dex...this thing isn't even wound." Dex stared at him, completely terrified, "I don't like this." he stated his eyes refusing to look around the room. They jumped when three light knocks came from the door, "Just the door, maybe they're home." his breathing increased as they left the basement and went upstairs, maybe Viper and Malia were home? He listened, not hearing a heartbeat or breathing...His movements were slow as he made it to the door, and once he opened it, there was no one. Nothing. Just crickets chirping, the night was still, and there was no sign of anybody. Someone had to be ******** with them. There was no way...This was almost like the movie...Dex stepped back and shut the door, looking to Ryder, "Maybe it's Zack screwing with us. Like there's probably a camera somewhere this can't be-" he cut himself off when three loud bangs came from the door. He walked over, more aggravated than anything and turned on the porch light as he reefed the door open, no one there, again, nothing. Was Damon ******** with them? Rosco? He went to step back again when his eyes landed on the red book that laid perfectly on the ground, his eyes stuck to it and his heart rate picked up, Mister Babadook He shook his head, that was impossible. He picked it up and stared, "Ry..der.." his voice was choppy and small, terror filling his chemo signals, "I.."
Ryder kept close to Dex as he watched him go to the door, finding it odd that there wasn't a scent. When the banging happened, a growl left his throat, ready to pounce if anything sudden happened. He picked up a book and came back inside, stuttering his name so he approached. He looked at the book in his hands and shook his head. "No. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Nope. This isn't what is happening. Someone is messing with us. They have to be. This Babadook thing isn't real...is it?" Ryder's chemo signals matched that of Ryder's, thinking this was too well done, too perfectly executed, to be some mere prank. Dex stared at the title of the book, listening to Ryder disagree with reality. Then he asked the question. 'This Babadook thing isn't real...is it?' Dex's throat tightened, "No...Not..here." he whispered. Millions of possibilities flying through his head, "In England...There's a legend, used to scare kids into having nightlights." he paused setting the book on the counter, "But there were cases." he looked up to Ryder, "They're rare, I've never heard of it happening, let alone here, they usually go for the parents who have suffered an incredible emotional tragedy or..." he trailed of his eye lids closing as he shook his head, "Or loss." Ryder stood confused, pacing back and fourth in a short distance and trying to put the pieces together. "Okay...so this 'thing' followed you here? Or followed Viper maybe and has just been hanging out? What the hell, why is it surfacing now? What does it want with you two?" His lack of knowledge causing none of this to make sense. Dex blinked, his face crunching together, "It didn't follow Viper or myself. It couldn't, not unless it was possessing someone, and we weren't possessed by it." he moved to the ground, sitting down and staring at the wall, "The person it came here with is dead." he said quietly. Ryder understood then, but didn't want to bring it up, remembering well how bad it had messed Dex up when it happened. Klaus had been the one possessed, hence why he snapped and tried to kill Viper and attacked Malia. Ryder sat down on the floor across from Dex and nodded slowly. "So what happens? Is it going to possess someone else? Is it specific on who it chooses? What are we supposed to do with it if it's here?" Dex shook its head, "I don't know. I don't want to read the book to find out, but clearly it wants us to." he said quietly and sighed, "I want to call Viper, but I don't know if he's wasted." he paused and sighed, "I also don't want to be in this house. It's probably getting aggravated, kind of like when you don't eat you turn into a bloody bear. But I know it's not a human. There's the masked version of it, but then there's what's underneath. It can disguise itself, it's a trickster almost, and it plays you to get what it wants." Ryder's anxiety was through the roof but he kept playing at being calm. After a long silence, he spoke quietly. "Maybe we should do what it wants...clearly it went to the trouble to get our attention. Who knows what it's capable of if it gets even more frustrated with us." Dex looked up at Ryder and chewed the inside of his cheek, "Generally I know what it wants." he paused and looked at the counter, "It's a question of who it wants." Ryder extended his hand for the book, and once Dex passed it too him, he stared at the cover, keeping his hearing abilities up in case Mr. Babadook decided he wanted their attention. He opened up to the first page after taking a deep breath, and started to read. Dex closed his eyes, "If it's in a word or it's in a look, you can't get rid of the Babadook. If you're a really clever one and know what it is to see, then you can make friends with a special one a friend of you and me. His name is Mister Babadook, and this is his book. A rumbling sound and three sharp knocks. Ba-ba dook, dook, dook. That's when you know when he's around...You'll see him if you look. You'll see him if you look. This is what he wears on top, he's funny don't you think? See him in your room at night, and you won't sleep a wink. And you won't sleep a wink. I'll soon take off my funny disguise, take heed of what you read, you'r going to wish you were dead." Dex recited and glanced up to Ryder as he turned the pages, "Legend says it alters after that."
Ryder followed along as Dex recited what he knew of the book, studying the pictures and pausing there before turning the page. "It says 'you can make friends with a special one'...does that mean if you play your cards right then it might not mess with you? That it might spare you?" His fingers froze on the next page, terrified to know exactly what the guy was after. Dex shrugged a bit, "I'm not sure, I think that's part of it's trick personally. I never thought he was real, but then again neither are werewolves, right?" Ryder cleared his throat as he turned the page, and read out loud the next page. "I'll make you a wager...I'll make you a bet...the more you deny me, the stronger I get. In the dark of the night...my hunger will peak...follow demands, or a soul I will seek." The images were getting darker the more pages he turned, keeping them to himself, but giving the words. "My stay may be long, or it may be brief...as long as a mind is ridden with grief. I stay for as long as the pain stays the same...till there is no more hurt, turmoil, or blame." Dex looked around and exhaled, "That's bloody brilliant." he snapped. "I wonder how well sheer anger would do you." he growled into the air. "When you are lost in the dark, and know not what light brings...you must crawl to find spineless, wretched, cowardice things. Come quickly to read when the music box chimes...but run into the darkness when the knock comes three times." Dex blinked and sighed, "I'm going to guess this things has been starving." he stated, not very 'scared' anymore, but more burdened than anything, as long as they kept this ******** fed, they'd be fine. That could work in their favor at times, and as long as it wasn't targeting anyone specific at the moment, Dex had no ill will. His mind wandered to what it was asking for and he looked up to Ryder, "Should we start digging up the backyard?" Before Ryder could answer three sharp, loud, hard knocks came from the basement door beside them. They both scrambled to their feet and out the door as quickly as they could, grabbing a bucket off the porch that was used to catch rainwater. They bolted for the yard and with claws extended, they started to dig, searching for worms in the dark. "Wow! Rude! Aggressive ******** isn't he?! Good lord." Dex groaned as he dug into the soil, "We shouldn't tell Viper and Malia." he stated and looked him over, throwing any worm he found into the bucket, "It would be stressful on them, so I think maybe for now..."he trailed off."We keep this between us."Ryder nodded to confirm his decision, grabbing handfuls of dirt and crushing the clumps in his hands to sift for worms faster. ~~~ Once the bucket was over halfway full, the boys returned inside and stopped before the basement door. "What if it pulls us in...?" Dex raised an eyebrow, "Then it doesn't get fed next time. Or we wolf out and fight back." he stated and shrugged, "Either way, we'll be careful." he stated and opened the door, taking a deep breath and stepping down the stairs speaking as he approached, "Okay...Here?" he set the bucket down and stepped back slowly, and then quickly. Ryder followed Dex down, admiring his sudden burst of courage, and upon his calling for the monster, a small creak could be heard from the door on the wardrobe. They looked, and all that could be seen was the obscenely long fingers gripping the door. A very odd sound filled the room, scarily similar to the movie version, but somehow much more bone chilling. "Babadook...dook...dook.
Dex stared, half frozen out of fear before he stepped back quickly his eyes wide, kind of shocked more so than scared, analyzing the appearance, not four hours later he had been examining the movie monster, and now here one was living in the basement, "I...I'm not sure it's enough, but you seem fairly confident and capable at getting our attention." The Babadook stared for a moment, moving extremely slowly out of the wardrobe. He was twitchy in movement, moving for the bucket still in Dex's hands. When he was halfway to them, he suddenly moved with incredible speed, shrieking and snatching the bucket from his hand and vanishing into the wardrobe. The sounds of primal consumption could be heard as he gobbled the offering. Ryder had jumped back and slammed against the back wall, terrified out of his mind. Dex had stared at the wardrobe, having sent himself scrambling backwards, his chest heaving as he listened to the noises before moving backwards again getting closer to Ryder and listening his eyes glued to the wardrobe doors that were peaked open, "What do we do?" Ryder was speechless, breathing hard and clutching Dex's sleeve. "I....I don't know." In an instant, the doors burst open again and the bucket came flying back, knocking against the wall beside them. The doors shut, and then total silence. Ryder grabbed the bucket, then Dex's hand, and bolted up the stairs, getting Dex through, then slamming the door shut and locking it behind him before he slid to the floor against the wall. Dex collapsed and once Ryder slid next to him he leaned over onto his shoulder and held onto him tightly, <******** piss." he huffed and held onto him tightly, his chest rising up and down exasperated, holding onto his hand then with his right hand and with his left he leaned over to pull Ryder into a hug, "God, I love you." Ryder tried to catch his breath and held onto Dex, nodding and trying to calm his racing heart. He scoff exhaled, and nodded, kissing his forehead. "I love you too. That took a ton of bravery. I'm proud." He got to his feet, both of them still caked in mud from the digging. "Shower?" Dex looked over and smiled over at Ryder, "I don't like touching worms either. I think that was the scariest part." he breathed out and kissed his cheek in return before resting his head against the wall listening to Ry's proposition, "That would be acceptable." he said quietly and mock bit his bottom lip before he closed his eyes and laughed lightly, "I'm kidding, but yeah I feel like rubbish." "Rude." He grimaced before turning to head into the batheroom, rinising the mud from his clothes before tossing them into the laundry basket. He got into the shower first, letting the hot water wash over him, still trying to cope with the facts. When Dex joined him, he sighed. "So we have a closet monster hiding in the basement that wants to kill us...what do we do now? Surely he doesn't expect us to go to sleep does he? 'Oh yes thanks very much for feeding me, I'm just gonna chill down here while you two pass out. I won't creep on you or anything.' Seriously?" Dex laughed his a** off, leaning against the wall and then calmed down for a moment, "Mate, your arms." he said before he snorted and threw his head back laughing, "Maybe we should just stay up with movies or something. I don't know. I'm tired."
Ryder mocked a British accent and kept right on going. "Oh, yes how ruddy lovely. Here we ain't slept in days and the minute we catch a tick, a big rouge movie creature has to bunk up in the cellar. It's madness." Dex dropped his jaw and shook his head, putting on a fake American accent, "Ya' Bro, I feel you." Ryder was just as mock offended for a second before he pinned Dex to the shower wall and inhaled sharply through gritted teeth. "Don't make me distract myself...we've had a very traumatizing day." Dex smirked, quirking an eyebrow before he leaned towards his neck, nipping gently, "Oh yeah? Are you willing to invite our new friend to join as well?" he tilted his head gripping at his waist and pulling him close to kiss him once sweetly before he looked at him rather seriously, "Are we...together now?" Ryder furrowed his brow and snorted, dropping his head down on Dex's shoulder. "Oh god no. That's just ******** up Dex." He lost his train of thought when Dex moved, and looked up to meet his eyes when he spoke again, quirking a brow, but still admiring his face. "Would you be comfortable with something like that?" Dex wrapped his arms around Ryder and smiled with him, "Well...Don't be stupid." he said and grinned, tilting his head once again listening to him speak again and analyzing his facial features and expression, He wiped some water away from Ryder's upper eyebrow and nodded, "I told you earlier today, that stepping away from you before anyone saw was the last time. I meant that." he stated and kissed him once, slowly and tenderly, no underlying lust detectable, "I love you more than anything, and I want you to be mine." he stated and smiled a bit, "Only if you're comfortable with that kind of thing." Ryder smiled and cradled Dex's jaw, touching his lips to his gently, and pouring himself into it some before backing away and resting his forehead on Dex's. "Well, then, since you put it all that way, I would be beyond honored to consider myself that much a part of your life. If you'll have me, then consider me yours." He kept his eyes locked on Dex's, running his fingers over his jawline absentmindedly. Dex accepted the kiss and nodded slowly, leaning into himself into Ryder's touch, "As long as you want to be you will be." he said and smiled softly, kissing his cheek and then leaning back against the wall, "You're always going to be my person." Ryder nodded in agreement before closing his eyes, leaning forward, and kissing Dex on the forehead.
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Monday morning came and Dex was lying in bed at five in the morning, he was snuggled into Ryder's side, his arms in his chest, pretending to be asleep while he listened to Ry's heartbeat. He kept his eyes closed and his heart steady while Ryder was on his phone, cursing under his breath as he came up empty with information on their newest addition to the household. After another fifteen minutes of laying there still and silent, Dex inhaled and spoke quietly, "It'll be okay you know. We'll figure this out. I don't want you to lose any sleep over this." he said tracing circles on his chest. He kept up his finger movements slowly and softly to try and soothe him in some way, but he knew Ryder was anxious and both of them were still a little scared of this thing, and who wouldn't be? It was new and it was scary, but Dex's theory was that they didn't understand it, and maybe if they did a little more, then it wouldn't be as scary too them. That's usually what he did with every horror movie that scared him, he would watch the behind the scenes and 'in the making' of the movie to understand the steps they went through to make it how it was, and he thought maybe, just maybe if they did the same with the Babadook, it wouldn't send them into shock. Ryder jumped a little and glanced down at Dex before darkening his screen and putting his phone down. He readjusted to lay down completely and pull Dex closer. "It worries me. What happens if Viper or Malia find out? What if they upset him somehow and he retaliates while we aren't here? They'll make sure to get Zack or Sam or someone here to kill him before we can make it home." Dex shook his head, and his angled his head to look at up at him a bit, "From what I can tell it's smart. It knows that we'll be here to feed it, and when we aren't it should piss off until we arrive. Don't insult it's intelligence, how do you think it's been hiding from us for two weeks straight?" Ryder shrugged and furrowed his brow. "I don't think he isn't intelligent, I just don't think Viper is an idiot either...we aren't going to be able to hide him forever. I don't know...I'm taking the music box with me...just in case he calls." He nestled against Dex and buried his face in his shoulder. Dex nodded and wrapped his arms around him, running his fingers through his hair soothingly until they traveled up and down his back to calm him down some, "Good idea. We'll hide the book too, somewhere that isn't under the bed, that's where every adolescent hides things that they don't want others to find." he explained softly and kissing the top of his head, "We'll make this work." Ryder couldn't help but feel like Dex's last sentence had dual meanings. It made him smile and he shut his eyes with a yawn. "I believe you." Dex nodded and rubbed his back, holding him securely and smiling back, "Don't forget I love you." He smiled again and brought his hand up to stroke Dex's hair as always. "I love you." - Once they arrived at school, people were talking left and right about the game and Ryder and Dex had just been so passive about it. He laced his right hand into Ryder's left as they walked down the hall, his eyes flickering over to Mason who just stared at them. He was completely taken off guard when Brett moved into their path, and grabbed the front of Dex's shirt, ripping him away from Ryder and slamming him against the lockers and scowled, "You know. I warned you. I trusted you about this. She was a really good friend to you! She may be saying something different, but do you really expect me to believe that you weren't the reason she's been in her room all ******** weekend?!" Dex surrendered to the motion and allowed himself to be pinned, he huffed in returned, "Piss off Brett it was a mutual decision." Brett punched the locker next to Dex's head, "You don't just do that. Not to my sister!" Dex almost growled, "I don't treat her like ******** Slag like you treat every woman you ******** Knobhead!"
Ryder watched the interaction, ready to jump in if he was tagged for it. He didn't want to impose when he knew damn well Dex could defend himself, but he couldn't help it. He stepped forward, just behind Brett and scowled. "Back off Brett. Don't start something you can't finish." Brett pressed harder against Dex narrowing his eyes, "Clearly you didn't get the message loud enough. Too busy butt ******** your friend Dave huh?" Dex snapped then,he would never ******** Dave. "This is high school Brett! Not some ******** Jane ******** Austen novel!" - "You don't get it!" - Dex scoffed, "Allow me to pop a jaunty little bonnet on your purview and ram it up your shitter with a lubricated horse c**k you whiny little t**t!" Brett scowled, "What does that even mean?" Dex let a growl rip from his throat, low enough for Brett to hear...
"It means be advised. I'm mean, nasty and tired. I've dealt with a lot of piss and s**t in the last week that you've dealt with one year in your days of pretending your life was an episode of Downtown Abbey. You better go hump somebody else's leg, Mudface before I push yours in." he shot back. Brett glared, "I don't even know what you just said." Dex let another growl roll out of his throat, "I advise you go read a book and learn it then you ******** c**t." Ryder stepped up and pulled Brett back, standing between the two and putting his left hand on Dex's chest to keep him grounded. "Brett, seriously, you need to walk away. Their business is their own, and unless Sydney sent you herself, which I highly doubt she did, you need to stand down and let bygones be bygones." Sydney stood nearby, looking mortified as everyone stared at her for a second, then back to the three about to have a damn cage match in the hallway. Dex contained his snarl as Brett tried to step forward to Ryder, but stopped and moved backwards, "You're not even worth it." Dex's right eyebrow twitched a bit, "Duly bloody noted." he snapped and as Brett moved away Dex looked to Ryder and let out a breath, shaking with anger for a moment before he kicked the back of the locker and began to walk. Ryder made sure the situation was over before he let Dex go to cool off and watched Brett disappear down the hall. He turned to Mason, Sydney and Dave with a heavy exhale. "Crisis averted." Dex had calmed down some during first period, skipping it and sitting in the hallway and catching up on some homework, reluctantly, but still doing so. He wasn't going to talk to Sydney about what happened till Brett stepped off being a damn p***k, he wasn't ready to deal with that s**t. His anger level went from an eight back down to a six in time for English, moving in and siting in his usual spot, nodding to Sydney, just to let her know that it wasn't her that he was upset with, and then smiling to Ryder before giving his full attention to Ms. Anderson. They jumped into Macbeth again, and at first Dex was annoyed by that, until she spoke out, "So, going back to our Macbeth conversation, Dex would you like to refresh our minds with the answer to our riddle? When is a monster not a monster?" Dex glanced up and stared before flickering his eyes over to Ryder floored and then looking back to the teacher, "...When you love it..." he trailed off, looking back to Ryder. Ryder glanced back at Dex, both of them having a revalation at the same time and his jaw dropped before he looked back to the front of the room, mouthing the words as Dex said them, then shutting his eyes and pinching the bridge of his nose. He grimaced at himself and shook his head, as if they missed that. Maybe Ryder was right? He remembered the song then, 'If you're a really clever one and know what it is to see, then you can make friends with a special one a friend of you and me. Dex wrote it down and underlined a few select words, 'If you're a really CLEVER ONE and know WHAT IT IS TO SEE you CAN make friends with a special one..' How did Dex himself manage to overlook that? Ryder had been right. He sighed, turning his page over and scribbling a few words down, 'You were right.' He folded it and then flicked it onto Ryder's desk. Ryder smiled at the paper and scribbled back, waiting till the teacher wasn't paying attention, and football flicking it to him. 'There's still hope. We'll figure it out.' Dex opened it and smiled to him, nodding back and then slipping the note under his note book before leaning forward to give his attention back to Ms. Anderson.
They went back home that night, and once Viper and Malia went to bed, Dex and Ryder heard the knocking at three in the morning. They had gotten prepared for it prior to instead of just waiting to go get the worms, this time everything had been set out already, and the worms were fresh and ready. The weather forecast had called for cold temperatures and the basement wasn't insulated properly, one of the flaws of the house. Dex had grabbed the bucket, listening to Viper and Malia's hearts as well, they were completely out, thank god. He and Ryder moved down the basement stairs, a little more confidently this time, and under Dex's arm was a thick comforter, not sure if the Babadook could get cold, but being cold wasn't fun, so he thought maybe? It wouldn't hurt would it? He stepped over to the middle of basement setting the bucket down and then moving back a little bit, still crouched down, but giving him enough space to grab the bucket without feeling threatened, he kept the blanket under his arm as he watched the wardrobe. Mr. Babadook had knocked at exactly three am, and moments later, the two boys arrived, and as usual he peeked out to see the smaller of the two crouched behind the bucket. He crept out slowly as usual, watching him closely, before shrieking and taking the bucket, vanishing into the wardrobe. He took a few moments before peeking again, unsure as to why the routine had changed. He retaliated this time, by creeping back out slowly, setting the bucket down upright on the ground, and backing away just as slow. Dex watched him as he shrieked, listening to Viper and Malia who were still fast asleep, un-moving while the Babadook crept back out and set the bucket down and stepped back slowly. Dex held out his hand, "Wait." he said before moving forward, he stayed in a non threatening stance, but held out the comforter looking up at him, "The basement gets cold on nights like tonight. I'm not sure if it affects you, but either way, it's comfortable, and warm." his voice was soft and he was trying to be as delicate as he possibly could with approaching him, he was sure that it wasn't going to attack him, because it would have happened already. Mr. Babadook made a low grumble sound of confusion as he watched the smaller boy move, holding still for a moment, listening to him speak. He could understand the words being said, but it was unclear as to what made these two think to consider his level of comfortablility. He moved forward slowly, extending his giant claw-like hand, and accepting the fabric from him. He made another rumble from his throat, almost as if to thank him, before recoiling into the wardrobe and closing the door slowly until it clicked shut. Dex let the blanket go when it was taken from his hold and then nodded with a reassuring smile as he watched the creature move into wardrobe, and when the door clicked shut, that's when he stood up. He glanced around the basement to see if he could make it warmer in there instead of inevitably cold, but he found nothing. He sighed and looked at the wardrobe, he would be okay, at least for tonight, right? Dex moved back over to Ryder, taking his left hand and moving up the stairs with him. He shut the door and placed the piece of paper in between the door and the frame just as they had begun to do, and then moved back to the bedroom with Ryder. He shut the door behind them, then turned the light off when Ry got into the bed, smiling to himself a bit as he slid from his shirt and threw it to the laundry basket before watching Ryder get comfortable first.
He moved onto Ryder for a moment to get to his side, it was a shortcut. He remained hovering over Ry for a moment before kissed him softly, "That went better than expected." he said and then tilted his head slightly and kissed him again, his hand sliding up to cradle his jaw guiding his motions to go along with his own. He bit his bottom lip for him and then switched it up, hooking his top lip with his tongue and biting it gently and held his waist with his other hand, trying to make the act as sweet as he could, but it just wasn't go like that at all. He had no intentions of fooling around, he just enjoyed kissing Ryder, a lot, and not just kissing him, but really kissing him. He was in a good mood, they had taken a step forward with the Babadook, they were both doing relatively well in school, Jake had been checking in regularly, and in general Dex was feeling better about himself. A big part of everything was that he didn't have to worry about being seen with Ryder, or caught, or Sydney to an extent, he enjoyed the moments like this, the moments where he could show Ryder how proud he was to belong to him. His fingers trailed down his neck and he smiled out of the kiss, letting his lips move along his neck, kissing softly, "I love you." he whispered. He leaned back some and ran his fingers through Ryder's hair kissing him more innocently then moved off of him and onto his side of the bed, setting the alarm on his phone and rolling onto his side, curling up to Ryder's side and lightly trailing his fingers along his back, "Goodnight."
The next day when school ended Dex and Ryder walked out together, moving onto the side walk as Dex brought up the reasons why Star Trek was better than Star Wars, the vented about how Finn wouldn't even listen to him when he brought the argument up. "He's so blind! He won't even listen to me when I bring it up. It drive me bloody mad." he muttered. They spoke and walked down the street for about three more minutes passed till Isaac's new truck rolled to a stop next to them. He rolled the window down and then nodded once to Dex for acknowledgement before glancing to Ryder, "Hey, I was wondering if we could go for coffee? Unless you're busy?" he questioned casting a glance to Dex who just stared at him solidly, Dex spoke up, "I can meet you at home and then we'll go to the Grill, yeah? That way we can eve take Malia's car, so it works out." Isaac's eyes moved from Dex to Ryder, softening and shrugging, "It's up to you. I don't mind." Ryder had agreed, and Dex had walked the way home easily instead of going to the Grill, he had the sneaking suspicion that someone was following him, but...nothing. He managed to get home and get in alright, he took advantage of his time at home alone, he moved to the back yard and picked some worms out of the ground, throwing clumps of soil into the bucket with the worms, and once he was done, he hid the bucket behind the stairs of the back porch and moved back into the house swiftly shutting the back door and locking it. He moved to the living room then watching half a movie till he decided to get popcorn and soda, he stood up and moved into the kitchen to rummage through the cupboards till a noise echoed in his ears, it came from Viper's room, again? Dex raised an eyebrow, "Babs, it's no where near three, what could you possibly need right now?" The banging grew louder and Dex rolled his eyes, "You have got to be bloody kidding me." he muttered, "It's a good thing you don't pull this piss when Viper's here." he growled and then turned the corner down the hallway. He moved fluidly, "And why Viper's room? Do you want to be caught?" he mumbled, mostly to himself, but once he paused outside the door to Viper's room, he got a bad feeling. His hand hesitated to open the door, but he shook his head, ignoring the urge to turn and run, and push the door open. Nothing was misplaced. He raised his eyebrow and glanced around, his eyes landing on the window sill to the dark grey dust that was placed in a line specifically. His eyes narrowed then, "What..." he trailed off and held his hand out, the line of dust repelled his touch and he stepped back, "The hell.." he finished. He realized what it was then, mountain ash he exhaled tightly and then stepped back again quickly, he swiftly moved out of the room then making his way to the front door where his cell phone was. It wasn't there. He growled low and then moved, his hand reaching for the door knob, but instantly being repelled like he had in the bedroom. "Oh no. Don't try to leave! We were just getting started." Dex turned to look at the male that stood in front of him, his eyes hovering quick before he shifted and snarled his bright yellow eyes burning as he crouched defensively. What a clever trick. "Don't think you're going to make it out of this one big boy. See, no matter what you do, you can't get out, and no matter what your family does...They can't get in." he paused and then smiled, "Or I could keep you alive till they get home, and then bait them."
Dex bared his teeth, taking his first step forward, showing no cowardice. This person was human, he could take him. He had walked into his house, he wasn't backing down from this fight. He had bottled rage anyways, so what perfect timing was this? The man cracked his knuckles then narrowing his eyes and smiling tauntingly, "Come on big boy, show us what you got. You're too much to pass up." He didn't even hear the word 'us', he was too concentrated on taking the enemy down. He launched himself forward swatting his claws at the male who dodged him fairly well, like he was trained, a hunter. Dex was tossed off the male and kicked in the stomach, he shook it off, anger pushing him to keep going, this was going to end up with dead bodies, bodies that Jake was going to be disappointed with him for. He tumbled with the male, trying to just restrain him so he didn't have to kill him, he didn't want to. He pinned him down then finally and growled, "Stop it, this doesn't have to happen like this." he stated sternly. The male gave a crooked smile and nodded, "You're worth a solid twenty million dollars. Yes it does." he stated, pulling a knife out from his waist, he slammed it into Dex's side, he threw his head back and roared loudly, calling for help then. The man twisted the blade and Dex held his roar, as he hit the ground, had it been laced? He couldn't feel anything in his bloodstream, but he wasn't healing, and that was concerning. He let out a gasp as he pushed himself up to his hands and knees, trying to crawl away to hide or to get to safety. He coughed up a bit of blood, trying to keep the knife in place, so he didn't bleed out he pulled himself towards the kitchen. The man kicked him onto his back and he snapped at him, "The blade was charmed, nothing supernatural can heal from it. I mean, vampire's sure...but you're not a vampire aren't you?" Dex blinked and regained a bit of strength, taking his leg out and pulling himself on top of him, clawing at his face, but someone took him down from behind him, a girl. A chain was holding him down to the ground as the male stood up and picked the knife up, Dex watched him, trying to wiggle his way free, the man shrugged, "Nothing personal man, just fast cash." he then shoved the blade into his sternum and Dex howled out in pain using his remaining energy to whip the girl over himself after the blade was removed. He held his fangs against her neck in a warning stance for the male who scowled, "I will rip your entire family apart if you touch her. I'll go slow and painfully with your brother." A surge of anger rushed through Dex as he leaned his head back, but kept his hands holding both sides of her head, "And your pretty house mother, then I'll finish off with your boyfriend, and the worse part is I will make you watch, I'll slit your eyelids open and make you watch." Dex roared angrily then anger building up in his bloody chest as he snapped the girls neck then through himself forward taking the man to the floor, he had his chance, and he didn't take it, the girl deserved it, right?
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2015 3:18 am
The two tumbled along the floor, smashing into the hallway, Dex taking punches and kicks, avoiding the blade of the knife, he didn't let the guilt hit him, he was too busy trying to live. He moved to the basement after getting away, his chest was gaping as well as his side, and he was quickly going down. Now he was hoping maybe he could hide there, or get eaten, either way...He opened the door and the was taken down the stairs, he had snarled, trying to keep his shift, but the pain was overwhelming, the male and himself struggled till the hunter had landed on his stomach, the tip of the blade pressed against his heart, "RYDER!" he shrieked out, "VIPER, JAKE, AHH! M-MALIA!" he cried out gripping towards the door with one hand while the other one was pushing upward on the dagger, trying to keep it from entering his heart. This was not going to be how he died, it couldn't be! He had everything now! It couldn't just end, not like after that, not while he had everything. Mr. Babadook could hear the struggle going on upstairs, listening to the fight and getting angry with the attackers. Mountain ash had been used and now even he was trapped here. He exited the wardrobe and slipped into the corner of the room. He watched the smaller of his boys come down the stairs, bleeding, and being taken down by a stranger. His throat clicked threateningly from the shadows, to gain the attacker's attention. The boy on his back had been kind to him, and Mr. Babadook didn't feel right about letting him die. All of a sudden, he could feel Dex's energy start to drain, so he fled from his shadow and shrieked as he took the attacker off of Dex with ease. He opened his mouth wide, a terrible sound coming from within while he held the attacker high up in the air by the neck. He knocked the syringe out of his hand, and gave a creepy chuckle as he squeezed and he struggled, gasping for air, and begging for his life. It only made it that much sweeter when his mouth opened wide, and it looked like a Mortal Kombat fatality. By supernatural power, Mr. Babadook was able to inhale the attacker, pivot on his heel, and spit out the bone into a pile across the room. The bones then disintegrated into ash, which then evaporated into nothing. No evidence that a person had even been there. The creature looked over at Dex and approached him, reaching toward him and taking the blade from his chest, and turning to pick up the syringe from the floor. Cautiously, he offered both items to him, in the same manner Dex had offered the comforter. His throat clicked a few times quietly, as he tilted his head and kept his eyes on Dex. Dex stared wide eyed at first, but held onto his chest, as he tried to push himself to sit up, "Did..you j-just?" he stuttered out, blood running from his mouth, was he next? That was a pretty gruesome ******** way to die, his gut wasn't telling him to run, instead telling him that he was safe with this creature, he was exhausted now, and he just let his head rest against the floor, till the Babadook reached out and handed him the knife and the syringeu, full of wolfs bane just as Dex had handed him the blanket, "Thank you." he whispered, his breathing beginning to get raspy, "T-thanks you.." he breathed heavily and took hold of the things, trying to keep himself propped up. He held onto his chest and scrunched his face, "I can't ..h-heal it."
Mr. Babadook was pleased that Dex was grateful, but the amount of pain he seemed to be in proved as a problem. He stepped forward and scooped Dex up into his hands, hanging on enough so he wouldn't fall, but light enough that he wasn't crushing him. He backed up into the wardrobe, and within a moment's time, he walked back out but they were no longer in the basement. Instead, they were in Ryder's bedroom. The creature set Dex on the bed, then placed his hand on top of his chest. A black darkness erupted from his hand, and almost instantly, the chest wound left Dex, and appeared on Mr. Babadook. He squealed uncomfortably, backing into the closet, and closing the door before falling silent. Dex tensed slightly when the creature picked him up, but he held onto him anyway, gripping his cloak to hold on. He saw the wardrobe doors close and within seconds the creature stepped into Ryder's room and laid him on the bed, Dex was confused, just staring up at the Babadook and watched, being very still as the hand was placed over top his chest, he gasped slightly when the wound disappeared, but when the creature squealed Dex frowned, did he just take it? What just happened? He watched as it moved back into the closet then and everything was completely silent, his eyes closing his body just exhausted. He felt a cool touch then on both sides of his face, "Dexter, Dear, come on, open your eyes." Dex stirred slightly, opening his eyes a bit and looking at Ms. Anderson, "What..are you d-doing.." he whispered, "Here?" She looked at his chest her eyes hovering over the rip in the shirt, "Did he take your wound?" Dex nodded slowly, "Yeah..my...side hurts though, it was some kind of...knife." She nodded and glanced to Isaac who was hovering behind Ryder, "You speak nothing of this understood?" Isaac nodded, "Okay. Does he need anything...is he going to die?" She shook her head, "No. He won't. Your friends, the vampire's? You should call one." Dex was confused. Here their English teacher was helping him not be in pain, and she somehow just...knew about their new friend in the basement. Why was Isaac here? How did they get in? Dex struggled, "There's mountain ash..." Ms. Anderson shook her head, "Not anymore, it's all okay, you're okay." Ryder had stepped into the room the moment Ms. Anderson allowed, and did his best to stay behind her and keep quiet while she spoke to him. 'He'? Was she talking about the Babadook? His eyes widened and he looked between her and Dex, wondering how she could possibly know anything about it. Isaac spoke and Ryder listened, glad to hear Dex would be okay. When Isaac moved to call Rosco, Ryder took a seat beside Dex and pushed his hair out of his face, worried out of his damn mind. "Dex what happened? If you are going to tell, tell us quickly. Viper is holding everyone off outside for right now until Ms. Anderson gives the okay. Something tells me you are going to have to lie when the others get in, yeah? Was it Babs?" Dex shook his head, "No..It was these people..." he got out.
Isaac had finished on the phone and turned, "I killed her...One of them, Jake's going to...-" Ms. Anderson shook her head, "Not important, he has no right to criticize. It was self defense." Isaac shook his head, "Who's Babs? What is that?" Dex looked up at him, "He's someone who lives in our basement, Babadook. And he took it, he kind of ...absorbed it? I was almost dead." Ms. Anderson stared at him, "What...He took it? How so? What people? There was only one body." Dex ran a hand through his hair shakily, "One of the hunters, we fell down the stairs, and he almost had the knife in my chest and then he was just off me, and when I opened my eyes, Babs was devouring him. Then he put me here and took the gash in my chest, but I killed someone." Isaac stepped forward, disregarding the creature talk for a moment for he didn't get any of it, "The girl? You killed the girl?" Dex nodded his eyes meeting Isaac's, "Shift for me. Just your eyes." Dex looked up at him, pressing his lips in a hard line, before opening his eyes and looking up at him. Dex's wonderfully golden eyes had turned into a piercing bright blue, "Are they different?" Isaac looked him over and furrowed his brow, "Yeah, but...it's okay. They were attacking you right?" Dex nodded, "She held me down, then I pulled her onto me and then he just started saying things and I just kind of snapped...Her neck." he shifted his eyes back to normal and looked at the teacher, "Is he dead? Did that wound kill him?" She shook her head a bit, "It shouldn't." Ryder listened to the story and just kind of half smiled over Dex blue eyes, looking at the floor all cute like and shoved his hands in his hoodie pocket. He watched Isaac's reaction to Babs and was surprised to find that he didn't seem hostile. Had he given up on hating Dex? He wasn't sure, but he moved to keep stroking Dex's hair, and wiping blood off his face. "Everyone makes mistakes. If Jake wants to be angry, let him be. You are his beta, he can't stay mad forever." Isaac dropped his gaze for a moment and then nodded, "So this...All of this...Viper doesn't know any of this? This is a secret right?" Dex nodded pulling away from Ryder a bit, "You can't say anything okay? You can't say anything to them." Isaac nodded slowly and glanced at the teacher who seemed to agree with Dex, "When your vampire friend comes, please, don't say anything." she paused and her eyes flickered to Dex, "Was that good? What he did? It didn't seem very...like him." She smiled a bit, "When is a monster not a monster Dex?" Dex leaned his head against the pillow, "When it's loved." Isaac listened.
Ryder got to his feet and turned to his closet, opening the door and not seeing Babs there. He turned back to Dex. "He might have gone back to the wardrobe. I'm going to find him and see if he is okay. I'll be right back." He moved to kiss Dex's forhead then, and gestured for Isaac to follow, stopping in the bathroom to grab some antibacterial and a bandage. He led his older brother to the basement and stood before the wardrobe, hearing nothing, and reaching out to knock three times. Nothing. He opened the door and Babs was gone, leaving Ryder confused. "He has to still be here somewhere. He can't get through the mountain ash." He went back upstairs and checked every other closet, finally getting to Dex's bedroom, and knocking there too. To his surprise a small scratching sound could be heard from the other side. He opened it to see the creature huddled to one side. Babs looked up, growling low and a bit threateningly toward Isaac. Isaac growled in return, baring his teeth and Ryder turned around. "He doesn't know if you are a threat. Just...relax a bit. I don't think he wants to hurt you." Isaac took a step back and Ryder knelt to his knees, showing the materials in his hands and speaking quietly. "I just want to see your wound. I don't want to hurt you, I just want to help. Can you move toward me?" The creature moved slowly, keeping his eyes on Isaac as Isaac's eyes followed him as well, before Ryder got nearly all the way into the closet with him. Isaac was anxious, half shifted as he watched Ryder tend to the monster, he stayed in his standing position. He moved the cloak aside, seeing a streamline of black blood pouring out of Babs' chest. He reached out and applied the antibacterial cautiously, then put gause, and a wrap around it. Ryder put the cloak back to where it had been, covering him up, and taking a step back out of the closet. A small clicking came from Babs, and Ryder smiled. "Thank you for saving him. You don't know what it means to me that he is okay. I appreciate your help." Babs clicked again before curling into the corner and Ryder backed away and closed the door. He turned to Isaac and exhaled deeply before leading him out, and taking care of the garbage. "We think he can be saved Isaac. A Babadook is a creature that was human once, but was so consumed by grief and guilt that it changed. Even if he can't be saved...I can't walk away without having tried. Neither of us could. So please, don't tell anyone about him. We've kept him a secret this long, and we aren't ready for it to be out yet."
Isaac had watched as Ryder thanked him, seeing how much Dex really meant to him. He listened to Ryder speak, "I won't say anything. I just want to know what it wants and why it's here. But it's been a stressful night." Isaac stated and then he sighed mentally and looked him over, hearing a knock on the door, Rosco most likely. He walked with Ryder back to the bedroom and he watched as Ryder returned to Dex and sat beside him, running his fingers through Dex's hair gently. "Babs is hiding out in the closet in your bedroom. He let me put the bandages on, but I don't know if they're going to help." Isaac stood in the door frame watching how Ryder was with Dex and vice versa, feeling a bit guilty for how he treated the beta. Ms. Anderson moved over to him and they went to the door to let Rosco in and close it again in case anyone heard or came in. They went to the bedroom and Rosco nodded to Dex, "Hey there. I'm Ross, so do me a favor, don't die with my essence in you, because I already have one happy accident, unfortunately I'm not looking for a second." he stated and then bit into his wrist, letting Dex bite into it and take enough blood to heal his side. Dex pulled back and he nodded, "Thanks Mate." Isaac didn't speak from the doorway, and Dex just wiped the corner of his mouth flexing his side to make the soreness go away, he cracked his neck then looked towards Ms. Anderson, "So we'll see you at school tomorrow?" Ms. Anderson nodded and smiled a bit, "For sure." Ryder nodded to Rosco, knowing he didn't like him, only because he hated Isaac over Korra. He understood that, but he guess the best he could do was stay out of his way and not give him any more of a reason to dislike Ryder himself. "Thank you Rosco." he said quietly, keeping his head down and out of his way. Ross nodded to Ryder, mumbling a 'mhm' and then standing up, "Am I healing someone else? Or is the body in the living room completely 'K-Oed'?" Dex looked him over and narrowed his eyes in the slightest, but didn't say anything, "She's dead." he mumbled and glanced to Ryder whose chemo signals wavered slightly, Dex set his hand on top of his and watched as Ms. Anderson stood up and looked to Isaac, "Would you mind driving me back to my house? I would be more than honored to...Explain some things to you." Isaac nodded and raised his eyebrows, "Yeah, actually. I wouldn't mind that at all." He looked at Ryder and stepped over, leaning down to hug him, "You call me if anything happens, got it?" He looked to Dex then and gave him another nod of acknowledgement before stepping back and out of the room with Ms. Anderson, Rosco leaving behind them.
"Well...that went well." he said sarcastically, laying beside Dex, and waiting for the horde to come rolling in with questions. "He won't tell anyone about Babs, but he doesn't like the idea of us helping him. On the up side though, he doesn't seem to have a burning hatred for you anymore...more like a simmer now." He chuckled some before rolling over to lay on his side facing Dex and pulling him into him gently, and kissing his temple. "He told me what happened between you two when I was in the hospital." Dex smiled at Ryder a bit, "We have to wash your comforter, I bled on it, I'm sorry I couldn't help it." he murmured and closed his blue eyes trying to hide them almost, he listened to Ryder speak and when he mentioned what happened with Isaac he pressed his lips together and turned his head away from Ryder, "I should go talk to Jake." he said quietly. He didn't want to talk about that, personally he wanted to pretend it never happened, he and Isaac seemed to 'simmer' now and he was content with that, no need to bring it up again. He avoided looking at Ryder, and listened slightly outside the front door to the house to a conversation Jake was having with Rosco about how Dex wasn't going to school the next day because he didn't want another hybrid. Dex could appreciate that, though that made him inadvertently lie to Ms. Anderson, she'd understand. Ryder scoffed. "Don't worry about the comforter. I'll take care of it. As for Jake...give it a minute. I'm sure he'll be here momentarily...while we have a second though...why do you think Babs did it? He's acting...different. I mean I figured with time he might come around, but...I mean it was one thing to handle the guy but it was another to get you out and take the wound." Dex shrugged, "I don't know, but I'm thankful he did. He saved my life, and I'm grateful for that. All I know now is that I owe him, and I want him to be okay, so he will be okay." he opened his eyes and sat up, "I have to go and start with the body." he stated quietly. Ryder held him tighter for a second before letting go and nodding, getting up, and following him out the door, taking Dex's right hand and threading their fingers. "We'll go together. You don't have to do it alone." Dex squeezed his hand and shook his head a bit, "No, it's okay." he said quietly and pulled his hand away from Ry's, "I appreciate it." he added and then forced a smile, "But I can do this alone." Ryder nodded, a little taken aback, forcong a smile of his own. "Oh. Okay, sure. No problem. I'll go..clean up or something. Good luck." Ryder stepped away and returned to his room, stripping the bed and heading to the bathroom to scrub out the blood before throwing it it in wash. After that, he stepped through the basement door to work on repairing the broken stairway rail. Dex had gone to Jake, meeting him half way in the living room, and immediately was hugged, "Are you okay? What happened?" Dex nodded, "I'm fine. I just, was attacked. I couldn't really do anything." he said and gestured to the girl, "I tried not to kill her, but her partner got away." Jake listened, "You broke her neck.." Dex nodded, "Yes. She was holding me down while the other one stabbed me. As soon as she went down, he took off." Jake could sense Dex's growing frustration and just nodded, "Okay." was all he said, "We'll talk about this later. I'm really happy that you're okay." he glanced to the body, "Rosco's going to come and take the body, Zack's taking the mountain ash out. Call me if anything happens tonight okay? No school tomorrow by the way." Dex nodded, "No complaints." Jake stayed for a bit longer while everyone got the general story, and Dex remained rather quiet, he didn't show him his eyes, he didn't need to know right now. He didn't want him to know.
By the time everyone left, Dex sat in Ryder's now clean bed, it was around two thirty in the morning, and Dex just stared, changing the shows on Netflix, going through them over and over trying to find something interesting. He had showered and changed, and now there he sat, it was just like that the feeling of being overwhelmed came back, and as he got rid of old lies, new ones replaced them just as easily. He let out a sigh and went to a new browsing lane, letting his eyes scan quickly. Ryder had finally finished fixing the stairs, and showered, returning to his room in his boxers, and getting in on his side of the bed. He reached to his bedside drawer and grabbed a pair of tweezers, and started to pull the splinters from his hands. He glanced at the television, watching Dex flip through for a moment, then returning his attention to his hands, saying nothing and leaving Dex be. Dex stopped flipping through the channels after a few minutes, he was too distracted to watch anything, he didn't care, frankly he just wanted to fall asleep for days. He leaned back on, sliding underneath the blanket, "I'm going to go to sleep okay?" Ryder glanced at him and nodded, turning off the tv and his bedside light. "Okay. Goodnight. I love you." He laid down as well, pulling the blanket up, and laying down as he usually did. After a moment, he reached up and knocked twice on the wall above his head. A moment later a small scratching sound could be heard before silence took over once again. Dex rolled onto his left side, "I love you too." he said quietly and closed his eyes. He listened to the small interaction and then let out a silent sigh, so he was still in the closet, that was good to know. He exhaled slowly once again and got comfortable, pulling his arms into his chest as he faced the wall, slowly drifting into a light sleep.
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After a few days, Dex had pushed his issues aside, ignoring his new wolf eyes and how he got them. He pulled on his jeans and then a white t-shirt before he moved to his room so he could get a sweater, he opened the closet door and looked up, moving sweaters aside till his eyes fell on the dark figure in the corner, he jumped out of shock, not really expecting him to be there and then dropped his arms to his sides looking at the monster, "'Ello Mate." he greeted and crouched down tilting his head to the side, "How are you feeling? I never had the opportunity to make sure you were okay. Thank you for saving my life, twice." Mr. Babadook stayed silent until the smaller of his boys acknowledged the fact that he was there. His throat clicked slowly to his greeting, and he looked up, face not as pale as it had been before. He asked him how he was feeling and a small whimper left his mouth before he pulled his cloak tighter around himself, clicking quietly. Dex watched him, listening to the tone of his clicks and then the whimper that made Dex him frown. He looked different but Dex didn't let it get to him, nor did he question it. He reached out, his hand ready to be placed on his chest, but he waited for the 'okay', "Here, I can help." he said quietly his eyes locking on the creatures. The Babadook had taken his wound from him, so the least he could do was numb some of the pain, he blinked, "It'll be okay." The creature moved his cloak aside and showed Dex the bandage that Ryder had placed on him, soaked in black liquid. An uncomfortable groan left his mouth, dropping his claws to his sides, and resting his head against the wall. Dex frowned at the sight and he set his hand down on the bandages over the wound, he gasped a little when his veins turned black with pain, it traveled up his arm and he gripped the door frame for a moment, taking as much as he could till he couldn't anymore . He exhaled sharply and caught his breath while he looked up at Mr. Babadook, "A little better?" he questioned and then blinked, he wanted to change his bandaged, his were soaked in black blood, he wasn't sure if his body could get infected, but he didn't want to test that theory. He was shocked when the pain subsided, and a few clicks of happiness erupted. It was then he could sense the presence of another. He suddenly took hold of Dex, covering his mouth with one hand, and scooping him in with the other, shutting the door, and falling silent. Viper stepped into the house and called Dex's name. "Oi! Dexter! I'm not going to be home until tomorrow. Newt has Malia and I studying for finals at Emma's with Zack over at Peter's house so we are staying...Dex?" Viper checked the rooms before sighing. "Little bugger must not be home yet." He mumbled before scrawling a note and leaving it with some money on the kitchen table, before exiting the house, and leaving all together. Mr. Babadook pushed the door open, and let Dex go, assuring him it was safe again. Dex didn't struggle, he just listened as Viper spoke, and once he walked around a few times he heard Viper fumble around and then leave. Dex smiled a bit and looked at him, "Thank you." he said quietly and nodded, "Viper doesn't know you, but he won't hurt Ryder or I, thank you for doing that nonetheless, I appreciate it." The creature nodded and rested back against the wall, closing his eyes sleepily. Dex looked him over once more before he stood and moved to the bathroom to grab some bandages, he quickly replaced them on the creature and disposed of his older ones then grabbed his sweater and whispered a goodnight before he shut the door.
He made his way to the living room then, texting Ryder when he would be home as he lounged on the couch. 'Soon(; hold on, I'll call.' A few moments passed and Ryder rang in, speaking happily upon his answering. "Hey, Isaac grabbed me after practice and we are at that new Thai place. I'm bringing dinner to you, so don't eat, okay?" Dex switched the channel on the TV and listened, "Yeah, sounds good, I wasn't planning on it, I know when Malia gets back I'm going grocery shopping with her." he stated and glanced around. "You mean tomorrow? She called me and told me her and Viper weren't going to be home tonight. Some study orgy at Peter's I think." Dex nodded as if Ryder was right there, "I know that, but when she returns. And ahh, is that what you picture, you Wanker." he laughed. "Well we know your brother. If the opportunity arose I doubt he would pass it up. You St. Valens boys and your addiction to pleasure is kind of legendary." Dex snorted, "Hush up, are you not with your brother?" he asked quietly, "How inappropriate are you?" he said with a chuckle. "I am with my brother, and if he doesn't like my flirting with my boyfriend then he doesn't have to listen." He chuckled nudging Isaac's arm. "Okay, we'll be there in ten. I love you." Dex smiled, just hearing Ryder say it, "I love you too." he said and then jumped when the door was kicked in, "Something tells me you're not here yet, are you?" he paused and stood up defensively. A figure entered the living room and Dex narrowed his eyes, he smelled a bit of Ryder, and a tinge of Isaac, "Where is he?" Dex clenched his jaw, putting it together in his head, "I gather you're speaking of Ryder?" he questioned, raising an eyebrow. He stepped forward and Dex held his ground pressing the phone to his ear, "Don't come home." he said low and then set the phone down, the man took a heavy breath in and narrowed his eyes, "I will hunt him down after I'm done here. You have no right to keep my own sons away from me. I found them you know, I built the perfect pack, and now I'm here to collect my boys." Dex angled his head, "You're not collecting anybody. Every bad thing that has happened, every mentally scarring thing that he's gone through has happened because of you. You broke him. You taught him time and time again that nothing he ever does is good enough. Every good thing Ryder is happened despite you." he snapped his blue eyes already shifted into bright shiny blue eyes glaring at his.
Their father took another step closer, "Watch your mouth boy." he growled and bared his teeth, "You tell me where he is now." Dex shook his head, "No." - "Why not?" - "Because killing is own father is not going to be another thing that happens to him. Your reign of terror is over, I can assure you that you bloody son of a b***h." That was it. Ryder's father launched at him and Dex snarled lurching forward back, both meeting in the middle. How dare he think that he had any right to come to Ryder now, with any idea of speaking to him, of dragging him away, that wasn't happening. He wasn't having this piss, not tonight. He didn't want this ******** to screw with Ryder any more than he already had, and from the looks of it, he wasn't much of an alpha anymore, so there was nothing stopping him from ripping his throat out. What the problem was, was that he was fast, but so was Dex. The younger wolf dodged the older one, tossing him around the room and ducking under him safely to escape his hits. The larger one swatted, sending three gashes into Dex's cheek which only made him more angry, he didn't focus on healing at the moment, the anger had built up and sent himself into their father, shoving him into a wall and baring his teeth as vicious snarls left his mouth. He had his knee against the larger wolves neck, and he pressed having the choice to either end him or set him free and keep fighting. Thoughts of him going after Ryder entered his mind, the ghost whimpers and whines of Ryder limp on the floor echoing in his ears, no. He broke the wolves collarbone then, letting it stick out some then dug his claws into the chest cavity, grabbing onto the rib cage and ripping out three, he snarled and without hesitation jammed it into head of the wolf. He still squirmed, had he not gotten a death hit? Brilliant. He snarled, out of dominance and then moved his free hand and ripped his throat out, swiftly stuffing it back into his mouth. Seconds passed and the larger wolf choked and gurgled pawing at the ground till Dex snapped his neck, spinning his head all the way around his body went limp. Dex got off of the dead wolf and breathed heavily. He looked the body over and then sat against the wall, his eyes on the ground, well piss, that was grim. Was Ryder going to be angry? Was Isaac going to lose his mind? He wasn't even going to tell Jake, and he had to fix the door. He closed his eyes and shook his head, if this was what was going to put a damper on their relationship? He exhaled heavily, hearing the truck pull up and within moments, Isaac and Ryder came through the door to see their father dead on the ground mercilessly murdered. He looked up to see Isaac just staring, no anger or ill will in his chemo signals, but more like relief? Dex hesitated before looking at Ryder, "I-I'm sorry."
ι киσω ωнσ ι ωαит тσ тαкє мє нσмє   ι киσω ωнσ ι ωαит тσ тαкє мє нσмє ¢ℓσѕιиg тιмє, уσυ ∂σи'т нανє тσ gσ нσмє,
вυт уσυ ¢αи'т ѕтαу нєяє.
ѕσ gαтнєя υρ уσυя נα¢кєтѕ αи∂ мσνє ιт тσ тнє єχιтѕ,
ι нσρє уσυ fσυи∂ α fяιєи∂
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2015 3:57 pm
•°o σн, ωσи'т уσυ ѕтαу ωιтн мє? '¢αυѕє уσυ'яє αℓℓ ι иєє∂. тнιѕ αιи'т ℓσνє, ιт'ѕ ¢ℓєαя тσ ѕєє, вυт ∂αяℓιиg, ѕтαу ωιтн мє. o°• Location: Home, Mall, Barbecue, School, Home ⋰ ⋱ Company: Dex, Bastian, Viper, Malia, Jake, Isaac, Finn, Sam, Kira, Axel, Ethan, Dave, Mason, Sydney, Brett?, Emily, whomever else. ⋰ ⋱ Status: Terrified, Relieved, Thankful, Blessed, Content, Helpful, Happy, Celebratory, Protective, Nostalgic, Worried, Guilty ⋰ ⋱ Health: Perfect     Ryder had been out with Isaac, picking up dinner since they were pretty much out of food at home, when Dex messaged him. He decided to call him instead, only for things to take a massive turn. He had been in the process of hanging up when the sound of the door being kicked was heard through the speakers. "Isaac speed up." he said as his heart started to race, putting the phone on speaker so Isaac could listen. Dex asked if it was them, and Ryder said no, and that was the moment he heard the all too familiar voice. He and Isaac shot glances at each other, Isaac picking up the speed, and total terror filling Ryder's chemo-signals, while Isaac gripped the wheel, ready to take Alexander down, once and for all. A pit formed in Ryder's stomach. Alexander wouldn't hesitate to slay Dex, and the thought alone was making him sick. He listened intently, panicking completely when Dex told him not to come home. "No, no, no, Dex! Don't!" Ryder tried to protest but he could hear the movement. These two were going to face off, and only one of them would make it out. He heard the words his father said about hunting Ryder down specifically, and added Isaac to the list. He wanted them back, and the idea alone made a pit form in his stomach. He listened to Dex's words then, and tears started to form in his eyes. He had never said directly that he was the way he was because of Alexander, but somehow, Dex knew, and it amazed him that Dex had paid so much mind to the smaller things. They went back and fourth a bit, arguing between each other, Alexander demanding to know where Ryder was, and Dex refusing to tell him anything. He was protecting him, and as much as Ryder appreciated that, he was more worried that Alexander would hurt or even kill Dex trying to get to him, and that was something Ryder would never be able to forgive himself for.
Ryder flinched when he heard the sound of the two starting to brawl, It was impossible to keep up with who was doing what, especially since he couldn't see, and with every crash, every snarl, every sound, all Ryder could do was hope Dex was keeping the upper hand. It wasn't until he heard the bones break that he really started to lose it. "Dex! Dex! ******** dammit..." He wasn't getting a response, just that awful gurgling, and the sounds of bones breaking, until that final crack let him know it was all over. Then there was silence, and Ryder's heart was about to beat right out of his chest. Isaac hadn't even had time to stop the truck before Ryder jumped out of it, and bolted for the front door of the flat. He walked in and the first thing his eyes landed on was Alexander. Everything moved in slow motion for a second, and he staggered backward, catching his footing as he and Isaac gripped the other by the shoulder. His eyes left the body and landed on Dex, barely even hearing him apologize, before disregarding the body all together. He stared at Dex for a second, tears spilling onto his cheeks quietly before he moved forward and embraced him tightly. He smoothed Dex's hair with one hand, before he spoke. "Don't you ever scare me like that again...I thought you were dead." He held him tightly as his tears slowed, and after a few longer moments, he let go, turning to look back at the brutally murdered corpse, then back at his elder brother. He was breathing hard, heart still racing, then moved to hug Isaac. "It's over...it's finally over...we're free." The trio spoke for a long while before they decided what to do with the body, agreeing to take it to a graveyard, and bury it there. They dug deep, and tossed the body in, salting and burning it before covering the ashes with dirt. Isaac walked back to the flat with them, and once everyone was more at ease, and all the proper cleaning and repairs had been made, he left, and the two boys were once again, home alone.
Ryder took a shower, dressed in shorts and a v-neck, before laying on his bed, on his back, and exhaling deeply. He reached up to knock on the wall like he always did, waiting for Babs to scratch, while Dex was in the shower. No sound came, and Ryder furrowed a brow. He got up and went into Dex's room, knocking on the closet, and again getting nothing. He opened to door to see the creature still huddled in the back, not moving at all. "Dex! Hurry up! We have another problem!" Ryder reached into the closet and scooped Babs, out of his place, to find most of him was beginning to wither away. "Hey...hey what's going on? Is that injury killing you? What's happening?" Ryder moved the cloak to check the bandages, only to see that the wound was no more than a scar now. When Dex came in, Ryder had Babs cradled partly, and looked over at him. "Dex, I think he's dying. What are we supposed to do?" Dex had finished getting dressed in Ryder's room, moving quickly into his own where he sat with Babs, his eyes narrowed confused for a moment and he shook his head as he got down to their level. "That doesn't make any sense, I just saw him today, I took his pain...I changed his bandages. That's impossible." He looked the creature over and ran a hand through his hair, "What do we do?" Ryder thought for a moment before an idea hit him. "I think we killed him...we took away everything that made him what he was...I thought we were helping! I don't want him to die." Dex's throat tightened and he shook his head, "That's not right...That shouldn't have happened..."
The two boys tried everything to help the creature, but nothing seemed to be working. After a few hours, they just sat with him, watching him die slowly before their eyes. "I feel terrible...like maybe we could have done more, you know? I mean the least we could have done was give him a real name." Dex leaned against his bed and nodded, closing his eyes, "We could have named him. He thought for a moment before a smile came to his lips, and he glanced over at Dex. "I pick Bastian."He moved his eyes from Dex to the creature. "Any specific reason why?" Dex questioned. Had he always wanted to name a childhood pet that or something? Ryder laughed a bit and nodded before bringing his gaze back to Dex. "I just want to hear you say it mostly. It sounds badass when you say it with an accent." Dex looked up at him and laughed lightly before raising an eyebrow, "...Bastian." Ryder smiled, and looked down to Babs. "You hear that Bastian? I think Dex likes it." All of a sudden, the moment Ryder said it, the creature was consumed by a black smoke, and a white light. Ryder set him down and pulled Dex away before tucking him behind him protectively out of habit. They watched in shock, having no idea what was happening until the light and the smoke vanished. Babs' cloak was in a heap on the floor, and his top hat lay beside it. Ryder stepped forward after casting a backwards glance to Dex, then crouched beside the heap. He picked up a corner of the cloak, pulled upward, expecting ashes or something, but what he saw was nothing like he was expecting. "Holy-!" He stumbled back a bit, looking at Dex with a look of shock.
Ry reached out and pulled the cloak back just enough to reveal that there was a person laying there where the monster should have been. After a moment, Bastian stirred, letting his eyes adjust, then turning to look up at Dex and Ryder, both of which watched in major confusion. "Bastian?" he asked, somewhat hesitant. The raven haired male nodded, keeping the cloak wrapped around his shoulders. Ryder's eyes went wide. "We did it...we made him human again..." Bastian tilted his head before he made the familiar clicking noise from his throat. He got to his feet, and the three of them exchanged glances before the dark brown of Bastian's eyes turned crystal white, and he stared at Dex first. He started at his eyes and looked him up and down slowly. After a moment or two, he stopped, and turned to Ryder, doing the same thing. His eyes faded back to chocolatey brown, and he nodded to them both, apparently in approval. "Okay, my mistake. Not totally human..." They spent about an hour figuring out what to do, Ryder loaning him some proper clothes, and once Bastian grew tired, he made his way to the basement, and shut himself up in the wardrobe. He curled up with the comforter and drifted to sleep, perfectly healthy, and seemingly unharmed, aside form the scar on his chest. He didn't want to move, so they left him be, replacing their paper hidden in the door, so they would know if anyone had come in or out of the basement. Ryder made his way to his bed and crawled into it, not even bothering to turn the tv on. He laid quietly in the darkness, staring at the ceiling and thinking about the events of today, his mind reeling. When Dex climbed in, Ry didn't move, he just waited for a few minutes, trying to let him have his space, but that didn't last long. Dex very easily could have died tonight because of Alexander, and the idea still churned his stomach. He rolled over to face Dex and spoke quietly. "I never really had a chance to say thank you for what you did earlier...and not just the action itself, but what you said to him beforehand..." Dex looked to Ryder and smiled a bit nodding as his hands intertwined with his. "I thought you'd be upset, but I wasn't going to let him take you, or...anything I didn't want him to hurt you anymore." he stated quietly and brought his hand up kissing the top softly. "You're safe now, and that's all that matters.
Ryder listened to Dex's words and smiled, feeling a little better. He was still in a bit of shock, unable to grasp the concept of total freedom, and still a little overwhelmed. He pulled Dex into him, and held him tightly, thanking the Heavens above that he had come out of it okay. "I was worried. I've been burdened by him since even before birth, and even though it wasn't your responsibility, you took the weight off my shoulders, and Isaac's. I don't even think you understand the difference you made, for both of us. I'm just glad it didn't go the other way...I'd have been feral beyond saving at that point if I had lost you." Dex let that sink in for a moment and he blinked a couple times before closing his eyes. "I'm glad you two can walk around without feeling so frightened. And I don't, but I'm trying to understand, but I'm just happy you're okay now. And likewise. you're not going to lose me, I won't let that happen." Ryder smiled, keeping him close, tracing his fingers over Dex's arms, and kissing his neck from behind him, just below his ear. He lowered his voice and shut his eyes, taking in his scent. "Good. It makes me feel better to hear it...are you okay? Like really okay?" Dex snuggled into Ryder's chest a small smile placed lightly on his lips. He exhaled slightly out of exhaustion, "Yes, I'm okay, really okay." he stated and held onto his arm, his eyes closed for the night, "I love you." Ryder smiled and turned Dex enough to touch their lips together gently. He held onto it for a few extra seconds, before he nestled against his pillow, his mouth resting against the back of Dex's shoulder. He kept his arm wrapped securely around Dex and covered them both before tangling his legs with his, and shutting his eyes. "I love you too." he murmured against his skin, before falling into a heavy sleep.
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The following morning, Ryder was up first, looking around his room, and tightening his arms around Dex some. It was odd waking up and not having to worry about Alexander. Yes, Dex had killed him, but now there was a new problem. In killing a werewolf, you absorb their power, and Alexander was very strong, meaning Dex now had all this new power, and Ryder wasn't sure how well he would manage it to start. It worried him, a lot of things did, but he buried it. He was the type that bottled everything up and then, once he was pushed too far, exploded on some unlucky soul. Being around Dex made him remember that he couldn't just fly off the handle, he grounded him, kept his mind where it needed to be, and made him think more logically. Dex had been right when he spoke to Alexander. Ry was a broken person with a lot of internal damage done, but Dex was fixing it, slowly, and didn't even know it. Ryder rolled onto his back, keeping Dex in his arms, and letting him rest his head on his chest. He didn't wake, so Ry just stared at the ceiling, running his fingers through Dex's hair gently, and letting his mind reel. After thirty minutes or so, Ryder couldn't take anymore thinking. He kissed Dex's forehead, got up, and headed into the bathroom. He got ready for the day, and made his way back to his room, grabbing an outfit for Bastian, and moving quietly to the basement. He knocked lightly on the wardrobe, only to hear the sound of Bastian rolling over. Ry opened the door to see Bastian still sleeping, and shook his head. "Bastian, hey, come on, it's time to get up. We have to go out shopping today. You need your own clothes that actually fit you, and we are almost out of food in the house. Come on, you need a shower before we go." Bastian peeked one eye open before sitting up, rubbing his eyes, and looking around. He followed Ryder upstairs and to the bathroom, listening while Ryder explained how to brush his teeth and shower. Bastian nodded and Ryder left, waiting just outside the door, talking him through it as he went without being in there. "Okay, is your hair all wet?" Bastian knocked twice on the wall, which meant yes, and Ryder crossed his arms, leaning against the closed door. "Good, now pick up the orange bottle, and pour some liquid into your hands. Set the bottle down, and work it through your hair." Ryder verbally walked him through the rest, and once it was safe, and he knocked to confirm he was dressed, Ryder stepped in to see how he did. It wasn't bad but his hair was a mess, so he made him sit, and styled it for him, ending up cutting it a little so it would shape right. When he was done, he sent Bastian into the kitchen to find something to eat, while Ryder returned to his room to see Dex still fast asleep.
Ry crawled on top of him, hovering over while he trailed kisses from Dex's hip, up his side, across his chest, and kissed his neck, with a small hum coming from his mouth. He worked his way up to Dex's ear and nibbled at it sweetly, while whispering. "Oi...time to get up mate. We need to go before Viper and Malia get home. As much as I would adore to just stay here and please you, rolling around in the sheets all day, we have to get things done. However, I'm not busy tonight, so maybe I'll just have to ravish you then." He teased, keeping everything relatively sweet and loving, more flirting that actually trying to make this go anywhere. Dex squeezed his eyes shut and turned his head away then shivered as he came to terms with Ryder's touch. He mumbled groggily, tilting his head to his shoulder, "Mmm.." he whined and peered up at him taking in his appearance before reaching up and wrapping his arms around him. "Just shhh...I'm tired." He kissed his temple and snuggled into his neck. Ryder smirked and kissed his neck until it left a mark, then got up and leaned against the wall. "Okay, if you want anymore you'll have to get up and take it from me."Dex growled low and rolled out, shrugging into Ryder's chest and hugging him tightly."I want to sleep.. Ryder hugged him and swayed a little. "Would you rather stay here and sleep?" Dex closed his eyes and thought about it a tad,"No..." Ryder smiled and kissed his forehead while he cradled his jaw. "Good. I didn't want to go and spend my Saturday without you anyway."
Once Dex got up, Ryder moved into the kitchen to find Bastian sitting quietly at the table, looking outside and avoiding a sun ray that was shining through the window. Ry poured them all some cereal and they ate before they made their way out, and walked out to the cab when it arrived. They made it to the mall, and headed inside, Ryder taking Dex's right hand in his left, and leaning over to kiss him on the temple as they walked through the door. "I love you." He smiled at him, as Dex held Ryder's hand tightly and smiled back at him, mainly the confidence he had when he took his hand."I love you too." he glanced to Bastian then how was he handling all of this? He seemed to look pretty good, courtesy to Ryder. "Eh, Mate, you seem a bit away with the fairies, you alright?" Bastian looked to him, before glancing around at all the people, his heart rate skyrocketing. He was so far out of his element, but he tried to remain calm, nodding twice for yes. and from then on they spent the whole afternoon buying things Bastian would need. When they were set, Ryder called Viper and when he answered, he kept his voice even. "Hey, Viper, I have a question. I have this friend, and he doesn't have anywhere else to go right now. Since Dex pretty much lives in my room, do you think it would be okay if he stayed with us, and used Dex's room?" Viper thought on it for a moment before he leaned over and spoke to Malia. "Oi, Malia, Darling, the boys want to know if a friend of theirs can stay with us in Dexter's room for awhile. Would you have a problem with that Sweetheart or is it alright?" Malia's voice was too far away to be heard, but Viper started to relay questions. After it was confirmed that Dex was alright with letting Bastian use his room, Viper asked they typical things, like 'he isn't a risk, or running from anything is he?' and 'Is he human?'. To that Ryder kind of shrugged. "Well, I mean no, not entirely, but pretty much. He doesn't talk much, but his eyes do this kind of scanning thing, and he can take other people's injuries upon himself, but he doesn't have any enhanced abilities like strength, or speed, or claws, or fangs. He is fairly harmless." After a short conversation between Viper and Malia, he turned back to the phone. "Alright, we're okay with his staying, as long as he doesn't cause any trouble. He'll have chores just like you two do, and the same rules apply that you boys have. Understood?" Ryder agreed before Viper stated that they would be having a cookout tonight to meet Bastian, and get an idea of what he was like. Viper and Malia were currently out grocery shopping, so they were getting supplies, and told Ryder to text whomever they wanted to invite to the barbecue.
They hung up, and though he felt a little guilty about lying, he would rather have lied to Viper himself than having Dex do it. He asked Dex who he wanted to invite, but before he could answer, someone put their hands on either one of their shoulders. Bastian took a step back, thinking for a moment they were getting attacked. "Heya boys, what are you guys up to?" Finn smiled when Ryder and Dex turned around, hugging them both, and leaning against the rail of the mall walkway with a few bags in his hand. Ryder smiled and hugged back, shrugging his shoulder, and gesturing toward Bastian. "Just getting a few things for our friend Bastian here. He had a bit of a setback, so Viper said he could stay with us. Actually, we are having a barbecue tonight if maybe you and Jake wanted to come. I assumed we were inviting everyone from the pack, so it's only fitting you were the first to find out." They laughed, and Finn nodded. "Sure, sounds fun. Jake is around here with Sam somewhere. We came to pick up a new game I ordered on pre-release, and I got a few things for Ariana." Ryder quirked a brow. "Oh? Are you two back together?" Finn tilted his head and scrunched his face some. "Uhh, well no, not exactly, but that doesn't mean I can't still buy stuff for her. I do it all the time, see things that I know she'd like and get it, but then I chicken out before I can actually give anything to her, so I have an entire drawer of things for her in my dorm that she doesn't even know I have. I know, I know, weird, but people do crazy things when they're in love. You two will get there, trust me." Dex glanced up at Finn, a huge smile on his face, "Ah! Finn, I was wondering if perhaps you could help me with some homework. Not tonight of course, but whenever you're free. I'm not the best with Math and I feel that my attempts are doing more harm than good to my understanding of the concept." Finn smiled wide, totally honored to have even been asked. He tossed his arm over Dex's shoulder and nodded. "Absolutely. I'm free most days after class, so just shoot me a text whenever you want to work on it. Come out to the dorm anytime, or let me know and I can swing by your house, whatever works. I taught Jake up to calculus, so high school algebra shouldn't pose as too big a problem." Dex smiled and nodded"That's why I figured I'd go to you, and that sounds good, I'll come by your dorm so it's not too big an inconvenience for you, I really appreciate that." Finn shrugged a bit before smiling. "I do what I can to help. It's no problem Buddy."
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That evening, the three boys arrived back home to see Viper was already there with the grill warming up in the backyard, and a fire roaring in the fire pit. No one specific was there yet, but once the three boys approached the couple, Viper seemed a little frustrated. "If that bloody wench doesn't keep her mutt on a leash, I am going to kill it myself. Stupid thing ripping up my yard." The three approached and Viper acknowledged them, turning to shake hands with Bastian, who had been told prior what to do. He shook Viper's hand a little sheepishly, while the Vetala introduced him to Malia. Bastian shook her hand too but didn't speak, but before Viper could get too into a conversation, Finn entered the backyard, with Jake, Lexi, Kira, and Rian. After them, Zack and Emma arrived with Newt and Ella. Axel and Ethan arrived, along with Sydney, Dave, and Mason. Everyone was getting along great, having a hell of a time. They all sat around the fire and as they ate, Viper got up and started to speak. "As you all know, I called on this little get together, and as much as I like seeing all of you, there is a specific reason I called it. First of all, congratulations to us college kids who just passed our exams, cheers. Secondly, good luck to you younger lot who has finals coming. The real reason I wanted everyone here, is because I have something to say, and though I can't shout it to the whole world, I can say it to those involved in our little world." Viper paced a bit, speaking with confidence, and not a hint of waiver in his steps. "I seem to have fallen victim to a case I've avoided for the last three hundred years. In three centuries, I have always been able to dodge one ruddy emotion that for the longest time, I hated. I ran, for years and years, and never slowed down until one specific girl completely astounded me. When I met Malia, the urge to run faded, and since, I've stayed as close to her as I could because without her around, the colors of the world are duller, the sounds are bleak, and I realized that without her, I'm not much of a man. She makes me strong, reminds me to be good, and for some reason, loves me just as much as I love her. So, I gathered everyone here to bear witness to one act, that has never happened before, and hopefully, will never happen again."
Viper turned to face Malia who was standing next to the fire, taking her face gently into his hands and kissing her lightly, brushing his thumb over her cheek bone like he always did. "I adore you, more than I tend to say at times, but you are a very big part of me. The thought of having to wake up and not see you laying there beside me makes me sick, and I don't ever want to lose you. You've helped me raise two boys, and without you I'm not confident that I could have done a very good job." Viper pulled away from her some and reached into his jacket pocket as he knelt in front of her, traditional style, and took her hand in his, holding the open ring box with his free hand. "Malia Scott, would you consider walking through the rest of our lives together? Would you consider falling asleep and waking up in my arms every day and night until time itself decides to stop? Would you be at all interested in becoming a permanent part of my family? Malia...will you marry me?" She agreed and accepted his proposal and everyone erupted into cheering. Ryder was thrilled, knowing damn well that he and Dex would get the roles of 'best man' and 'groomsmen', and he was happy that they were happy together. They made an incredible pair, and it gave him hope that somewhere in the darkness of the world, there was always a spark of hope if you were willing to hold onto it. Ryder reached out and took Dex by the hand, pulling him closer to his side, and kissing his temple. "I love you." Dex had been smiling, watching as Malia and Viper hugged and everyone celebrated till Ryder's hand found Dex's causing him to look over at him immediately just after he was kissed, he smiled sweetly. "I love you too." he said softly and inclined his head slightly to kiss his cheek, "So much."
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That following Monday, Ryder and Dex took Bastian to school, figuring maybe he could figure out how to better socialize. He could understand what was being said to him just as well as anyone, but it was the communicating back he struggled with. They walked in together, making sure he would always have at least one of them in class at all times, just in case. First period he was with Ryder, then they all had English and lunch. Third was with Dex, and fourth was all together. Ryder introduced him to people as a 'childhood friend that recently got back into contact with him', and no one seemed to question it. Sydney was accepting as ever, as well as Dave and Mason. They all headed to English together, and Bastian took an empty seat behind Dex. He took out a clean notebook, wrote the word 'English' on the cover, and Ryder smiled, glad he was catching on so quickly. Babs forced them to buy fountain pens only, which was cool, especially since his handwriting was pure calligraphy. Ms. Anderson walked in and Ryder waved, stepping up to her desk and keeping his voice low. "Ms. Anderson, something else happened...and well...'Babs', he goes by Bastian now, and he is...sitting behind Dex. I'll explain later, I just wanted you to be aware. He doesn't talk out loud but he can follow what you say, and understand all the same." People were still flooding in for class, so they had a moment before the bell would ring. Ms. Anderson looked up and listened, trying to process before her eyes fell to the male behind Dex. Confusion filled her, it was clear as day on her face, until she forced it in. "Okay. Did you...name him?" Ryder scrunched his nose and nodded. "Yes. He was dying and we felt bad that we hadn't so I named him Bastian, and then this whirlwind of smoke and light took over, and the next thing we knew, we had him under the cloak. It takes awhile for him to adjust to light, he likes the enclosed dark places, and as far as we know, he hasn't spoken. He is smart though. Catches onto things very quickly. I don't know, maybe you can get him to open up. He is friendly, I mean, I haven't seen any hostility, but he isn't exactly 'human' either." She looked from Ryder to Bastian and then pondered it for a moment, completely shocked. "That's extraordinary." she said quietly and then nodded. "I'll do my best." she added before settling a few books on her desk. Ryder moved and took his seat, opening his own notebook just as the bell rang. Ms. Anderson stood up from her desk after communicating with the class a couple times, "Metaphors and Similies are writing tools to essentially describe or riddle, who knows the differences between the two? Hint, it's subtle." she moved over and wrote both words on the board while she chose two people. "Bastian? Do you want to give it a shot?"
Ms. Anderson stood up from her desk after communicating with the class a couple times, "Metaphors and Similies are writing tools to essentially describe or riddle, who knows the differences between the two? Hint, it's subtle." she moved over and wrote both words on the board while she chose two people. "Bastian? Do you want to give it a shot?" She held the marker out to him and Bastian took it from her, stepping up to the board, and thinking for a second before he started to write. "A simile is a metaphor, but not all metaphors are similes. 'Metaphor' is a rhetorical device that transfers the sense or aspects of one word to another, whereas 'Simile' uses the term 'like' or 'as' in it's usage. Example of a Simile: "His words were like shards of glass when he spoke of such hateful things." Example of a Metaphor: "His words were shards of glass when he spoke of such hateful things." Bastian turned back around when he finished writing and waited for Ms. Anderson to respond. Ryder was shocked, exchanging glances with Dex, not having thought Bastian had that kind of knowledge. Ms. Anderson smiled as she watched him, casting a quick glance over to Ryder before her eyes scanned the words Bastian had written in perfect handwriting, she nodded and stepped forward. "That's one hundred percent correct. Nice use of examples and great definition of the terms. Congratulations Bastian." she said with a reassuring grin. Bastian smiled too, glad to hear he had done well, and gave her the marker back before he went back to his seat and copied what he wrote on the board into his notebook.
When lunch came around, He followed behind Ryder and Dex in the line, with Sydney behind him, then Dave, then Mason. They were all talking about the Halloween Costume Ball that was coming up, and what they planned to do on Halloween night. They all sat in their usual places, and discussed what they wanted to dress up as, when Bastian gestured for the bathroom. Ryder nodded, and watched him walk off, then continued his conversation with Sydney. Bastian exited the bathroom, and looked up to see a girl across the room. He scanned her, and was immediately enticed. He made his way forward, with a sad expression across his features, stopping before her. Her aura was the darkest he had seen since his turning, and he was enthralled. He didn't know what to do now, but he just looked at her and tilted his head. Emily had her eyes on the notebook she was writing in, noticing someone was there, but not sure if it they were acknowledging her. After a few seconds she glanced up her eyes fixating on Bastian's and she gave a small, awkward smile, "Hi." she greeted softly. Her voice was like a song and it made his heart jump a little. He smiled back and gave a small wave. She was beautiful. Fair skin, bright eyes, soft personality, and breathtaking in general, but that being true, why was her aura so dark? Emily smiled wider then and she looked around before back to him, "...How are you?" Bastian nodded twice, indicating he was well, and winced, trying to think of another way to speak to her. He took his notebook from his bag and opened to a clean page before grabbing a fountain pen, and gliding it across the top line. "I'm well. Thank you for asking. How are you?" He slid the book to her, having taken note that she was reading prior to his interruption, and assumed she enjoyed reading if she was doing it in her spare time. Her eyes followed his movements watching as he wrote, her smile remained and she nodded, deciding whether or not to write back to him, or speak out loud. She lifted her regular pen and wrote just underneath his writing. "I'm content, you're in my English class aren't you? The book was passed back to him, and he smiled at the page, admiring her handwriting, before writing back. "I am. I apologize for not acknowledging you sooner. I'm not fond of crowds, and am lacking in the social swing of things. Will you tell me your name?"
She waited her turn as he wrote, no pre-reading, once he replied, she read and she glanced up at him, shrugging slightly, "No worries, Ms. Anderson usually speaks most of the time anyways, so there wasn't really a window of opportunity. How are you handling being at school? Is it overwhelming for you? Or are you getting the hang of things already? And yes, I'm Emily, and who might you be?" He managed the same as she, no reading prior to the book being passed to him, and looking out the window. When it returned to him, he read over her words and smiled again. "I enjoy the classes, but I have a distaste for so many people at once. I am overwhelmed yes, but I'll adapt eventually. Emily is a pretty name, they call me Bastian." He slid the book back to her, and looked up into her eyes, half admiring her face. "Emily..." Emily read the words he wrote when it was her turn and she nodded in agreement, "Understandable, people are hard to take, especially in groups...especially in high school, it's good you're willing to adapt to it. I like your name too, first I've heard of it." she looked up when he spoke her name and smiled, "Exactly. Bastian, yes? I pronounced it right? He read, then looked to her, nodding twice for yes. He began to write again, not seeing Dex quickly approaching. "Dex and Ryder are helping as best they can, but I suppose I could help them help me, if I at least tried to befriend someone myself. Out of curiosity, what are you reading?" Emily went to respond until Dex waved, "Ello Mate, what are you doing all the way over here?" he questioned and waved to Emily before he looked back to Bastian, "We were worried. Bastian looked up at him and gestured to Emily with an incline of his head. "Emily." He stated her name as if telling Dex that he was just talking to her. He wasn't sure if he was doing something wrong, so he waited for Dex's response to find out if he made an error or not. Dex nodded and smiled again towards Emily, "Yes, I know...but tell us the next time you wander off, yeah? Bastian nodded twice with an apologetic glance before gesturing for him to wait a moment. He grabbed another clean sheet of paper and wrote in the center before folding it and passing it to Emily without letting Dex see. He got to his feet and waved to her with a nod of his head, and turned to walk back to the lunch table. "Often it's sinful to feign nonchalance, catch my attention and receive a response. To deliver a message one has his tricks, find the cage with a lock, top marked six two six."
Ryder greeted the two when they came back, furrowing his brow and glancing to Dex. "Where did our little lost lamb run off to?" Dex tossed a glance over his shoulder towards Emily, "Over yonder." Ryder looked over to Emily and grinned. "Ah, expanding his horizons, was he? Good job Babs. She's a sweetheart, you definitely could have chosen worse." Bastian smiled and nodded, going ahead to eat his lunch, and listening to the others as they spoke.
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Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2015 12:54 pm
•°o σн, ωσи'т уσυ ѕтαу ωιтн мє? '¢αυѕє уσυ'яє αℓℓ ι иєє∂. тнιѕ αιи'т ℓσνє, ιт'ѕ ¢ℓєαя тσ ѕєє, вυт ∂αяℓιиg, ѕтαу ωιтн мє. o°•   All through school, Dex had been edgy. He had freaked out on Mason, and even Sydney, but Ryder knew it had to be the coming moon. He could feel it too, his own temper rather short, but he kept it at bay, trying to focus on other things. He waited by his locker for Bastian, speaking with Dave and Mason, when he looked up to see Emily at her locker and Bastian approaching her. He former creature had a folded slip of paper, putting it into her hand before he tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, and brought his lips to hers in the sweetest of manners. Ryder 'awwed' out loud, causing the others to look, and when Bastian pulled away, he smiled brightly and moved away, heading toward them. "Bastian! That was awesome! I mean I don't think she was expecting it, but that was so well done! You like her!" Bastian smiled and nodded, glancing back at her, then looking to the three guys before him. "Emily." Ryder smiled and moments later Dex joined them. The three of them walked home in silence, arriving at the flat to dinner made by Malia. They all ate together but the tension was fairly high, and even Ryder's usual good mood was depleting. He made his way to his room, turning on his music, and sitting down to lift weights and work off some of his pent up anxiety. He got this way during the moon, controlling his temper, and steering clear of others to protect them from his explosive temper. In the living room, Bastian chose to sit with Dex to watch a movie while Viper took Malia outside to enjoy a fire and some wine. When the movie ended, the two of them got up to get a snack in the kitchen. Everything was fine for awhile, when all of a sudden, Ryder noticed a shift in chemo signals around him. He paused his lifting and tried to sense where it was coming from. Initially, he assumed it was viper and Malia getting a little romantic outside, but it seemed closer than that. He got up from his bench and made his way out of his room, sweaty from the workout, and in need of re-hydrating. He rounded the corner only to walk into a situation he never expected. For there Dex stood in the kitchen with Bastian, lips locked. He stared in shock for a good thirty seconds, before his anger started to flare. His eyes flashed bright yellow, and his fangs threatened to surface with his claws. A low growl ripped through his throat, causing Bastian to pull away and look over in confusion. Ryder moved forward and took hold of Bastian, not hurting him, but holding him to the wall. "Not. Him. I get you don't understand the mechanics, but he is off limits. Don't you ever do that again. Do. You. Understand. Me." Bastian nodded a little frantic, before sputtering out, "S-sorry." Ryder nodded and let him go, before turning to face Dex. "You knew better...how could you?" The hurt, shock, and frustration rolled off of Ryder's chemo signals, still half shifted, hands shaking.
Everyone Ryder had ever cared about in his life had betrayed him at one point or another with the exception of Dex, until now. He trusted him, and now? How could he do that? There was an experiment he remembered Lexi and Isaac talking about in their HSB class, about how a kiss was always so much more than 'just a kiss'. It had emotions, it had vulnerability, it had feeling, no matter with who it was between. That was something Ryder had always valued above all things, the fact that he and Dex had that kind of connection, but all of a sudden, he wondered if maybe Dex didn't think so much of it. Had the roles been reversed, Dex would have beat Bastian to a pulp, and then ripped into Ryder and rightfully so, but Ryder didn't have it in him to lay hands on Dex in anger. A flashback danced across his mind just then, bringing tears to glass his eyes as they shifted back to hazel green. ~~ "How dare you! Do you think I give a damn about how it makes you feel?! Your job is to do what I say, and take care of those irritating little bastards upstairs! What I do when you aren't around is none of your ******** business!" Alexander's voice blared through the house screaming at his mother, while Isaac's mother stood by the argument. Ryder remembered crouching on the staircase with Isaac behind him, hanging onto him, and listening as the fight progressed, and Ryder's mother spoke. "I can't keep living this way Alex! One minute you love me more than air, then the next you are tangled in the sheets with her, and suddenly my feelings mean nothing! Do you understand what that feels like!? You have two beautiful boys upstairs, and you owe it to them to be a good role model! Do you want them growing up thinking they can just sleep around and disregard everyone's feelings for their own selfish wants?!" A loud crash sounded and she screamed, before Alexander's voice boomed again. "You will not tell me how to raise my children! They are ******** up little bastards because they share genes with you two! I should have cut them out of you both before they became a problem! They are bastards, but they are MY bastards, and I will raise them how I want to! Don't you ever speak to me like that again, or so help me God I will rip your throat out! Do you ******** hear me!?" The sounds of another struggle sounded, whimpering, and yelps, before it ended and Isaac took Ryder upstairs. He laid in bed, until his mother came up to tuck him in. Ryder looked up and her face was covered in cuts and bruises, as well as her arms and legs. "Mama...why does daddy do that?" Tears filled her eyes as she pet his hair from his face. "Because Mama made a mistake sweetheart. That's what happens sometimes, that's all...Can you promise me something?" Ryder nodded and watched her tears fall. "Can you promise me that no matter what happens in your life, that you'll never, ever hurt anyone the way daddy hurts me, just because you are angry? Even if you think they deserve it...even if they did something bad to you...promise mommy you'll never be like Alexander, okay? Promise mommy you'll never be a monster." Ryder nodded. "Okay Mama...I promise." ~~
Dex had watched as Bastian was reefed away and he growled a little warningly till Ryder turned to face him, stating he knew better. He looked him over getting into a defensive stance, he didn't speak, he didn't do much of anything until the scent of anger hit him. He narrowed his eyes, "It was a moment. The moment has passed. He muttered, he watched Ryder's eyes fade then and he just stared, coming back to himself then and shaking his head, "Ry?The tears spilled over Ryder's angry and devastated expression, taking half a step back and shaking his head. "Don't." Dex stepped forward, looking Ryder over, feeling something was very wrong. "Talk to me." Ryder started to break, reliving one of the many nights he listened to Alexander beat his own mother. The promise he made resurfacing, and he took another step back. He couldn't be like Alexander. As much as he wanted to take Dex to the ground for hurting him like this, he would never do it. Never lay a hand on him out of anger. "I need to calm down. I can't do this right now. I need to go walk or something." He shook his head, squeezing his eyes shut. He hated being angry because he didn't want to be like Alexander, but the pressure of the moon was on his shoulders and he couldn't cope. Dex took another step forward, "No, let me help you. Let me just...let me help you." Ryder backed up further, leaning against the wall and breathing hard. "I am a mess! Don't you get that?!" His voice was raised, but he lowered it right away through a sob. "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to yell, I just can't..I can't be this way. Why was I made to be this way...no. No. No..." His inner turmoil was obvious on the outside. "How dare you cross me! I am the alpha, and you will respect me! Stupid kid, always in the way, and never does a damn bit of good! Why were you even born! No one is ever going to love you, you little brat, and if they do, they're lying. You are gonna be a doormat, just like your filthy mother, and when you explode, and you will, you are going to hurt everyone and everything around you. Unstable little ******** up...pathetic waste of a bite, and waste of a birth if you ask me." The words of Alexander kept repeating in his mind, and in this moment...he was right.
Dex jumped slightly at the shout, but didn't recoil. He watched him lean back against the wall, and he stepped forward, trying to calm him down frantically, "Look at me, look at me, Ry." he made his voice quiet, trying to calm him down, but Ryder was seemed frantic. Malia had come in then with Viper and she moved over her eyes scanning the situation, Watch out Dex. she warned as she moved forward, Dex stepped back and Malia replaced the spot her eyes on Ryder's, "Ryder, hey, hey, hey. You're going to have to do something for me okay? Count how many times my pulse pumps, and I want you to match it." she stated, her voice was stern and she remained calm. She took Ryder's right hand and put his index and middle finger on her pulse, then did the same with his other hand on his pulse. She took a deep breath and kept her eyes on him, "Take a deep breath, you're right here. Ryder tried to hear Malia's voice over the screaming of Alexander's, but it sounded like she was in a tunnel, miles and miles away. He focused, barely seeing her as the room spun, and the panic attack still held, his heart hammering against his chest. Malia kept talking and the more she spoke, the louder she got, and the quieter, Alexander became. He felt her pulse when she moved his fingers, counting slowly as her heart beat, then listening to his own, and trying to focus. "Everyone is out to hurt you Ryder. You can't trust anyone. They'll use you till you're useless, and stab you right in the back. There's no such thing as love." He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to breathe, counting mentally, and glancing at Malia with tear stained cheeks. "Make it stop...I can't listen to it anymore...please make it stop."
Malia didn't move her eyes away from Ryder, she held both of his hands in place and nodded breathing deeply with him counting audibly, when he spoke she shook her head, "You're not there. You're here, right here with me, okay? I'm with you, I'm not going to let anything happen to you, okay? she said, her voice was soft and she looked him over, she was sympathetic and she just waited, she out stretched her legs and pulled him into her arms as she rocked him back and forth, smoothing his hair and kissing the top of his head, "You're safe. Ryder was able to calm down slowly, until finally her soothing reminded him of the way his mother used to do it. He had suffered from panic attacks when he was little and usually his mother and Isaac were the only two that could talk him down. He was thankful Malia knew what to do, but felt stupid for even having one. It had been a long time since his last one, and now, he was exhausted. "Thank you Malia...I owe you one..." He got to his feet slowly, then helped her up, giving her a hug and just letting his sad chemo signals fill the room. Viper stood with his arms crossed, conveniently placed in front of the only exit so Dex and Bastian couldn't sneak off. "Now that's settled...anyone mind filling me in on what the bloody ******** just happened?" Malia hugged Ryder back, letting him depart from her till her eyes moved to Dex who was standing back. Dex listened to Viper and stayed quiet, "What do you think happened? I ******** up, as per usual." Viper narrowed his eyes and set down his cigarette in the holder of the ash tray. "No one is accusing you of anything. I simply asked what happened. One minute life is bloody fine then the next, this one is hyperventalating, that one looks like he is about to lock down in a dresser drawer or something, then there's you who seemed totally fine up til about ten seconds ago. Stop getting defensive and just talk to me Dexter." Dex stepped back, his eyes narrowing slightly, scoffing, "No." Viper narrowed his eyes. "Ex-bloody ******** me? I suggest you mind your attitude. The moon is messing with you right now, I get that, but I haven't done a damn thing to deserve the dismissal you're force feeding me. Now I'll ask you one more time to explain what happened." Dex's teeth showed and he bared his teeth, "Or what...Dad?" he questioned, raising his eyebrow. Fury filled Viper's chemo signals. "Or what? That's the route you are choosing? Honestly? Okay, well how about I fill you in on a few secrets of mine Dexter, shall I? First of all, I saved your life when you were a kid and I 'abandoned you' because that was the price to keep you alive. Klaus threatened to kill you, and I had to go to save you from being murdered. Next, I kept tabs on you through the entirety of the time that I was gone, save for when you escaped and no one could locate you. Then, after you did find me, I had no issues whatsoever bringing you in, protecting you from Klaus, murdering him with my bare hands in your defense, and taking on his power as a price, not because I had to but because I wanted to and because I love you. You are my baby brother, and nothing is changing that. So I bloody well think that a shred of respect or common courtesy from you has been earned on my part, don't you? Or am I mistaken?"
Dex listened, his eyes flickering from Viper, to Ryder, to Malia, then to Bastian who seemed confused and mortified. Dex was livid, and he had no idea why he had just learned the truth and all he could think bout was lunging at him, or anyone in the room who spoke out. He bared his teeth and stepped forward, "Thanks. he snapped through clenched teeth. He stepped forward shoving passed Viper and to the front door, opening it and slamming it hard behind him, cracks traveled around the edges of the wall. Ryder bowed his head and Bastian moved away from the wall to rub his other shoulder with Malia. Viper let the rattle in his throat sound before he looked to Malia. "I need to cool off. Everything alright here?" She agreed, he kissed her forehead, and vanished out the side door. Ryder came around awhile later, feeling better after a shower, and agreeing to sit in the living room with Bastian and Malia for a movie. Dex didn't come home that night. Ryder laid in his bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking now more than ever that Alexander was right. Maybe love wasn't real if it could be dismissed so easily. Not just for Dex and himself, but for Dex and Viper too. He saw the look on Viper's face after Dex walked out, and he had never seen anyone break internally until just then. He didn't sleep, too worried about where Dex was, or if he was safe, even though it kind of felt like a knife was lodged in his chest. Bastian had moved into Ryder's closet, which Ry didn't mind, the former creature sleeping soundly with the door closed, while Ryder stared at the ceiling.
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Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2015 8:53 pm
•°o ʝυѕт ѕαу тнє ωσя∂ ιf уσυ ωαииα gσ, gσ αи∂ fαℓℓ ιи ℓσνє ωιтн ѕσмєσиє єℓѕє. gσ σи αи∂ fιи∂ ѕσмєσиє вєттєя, ωнσ ¢αи кєєρ уσυ ωαям, ωнσ ¢αи gινє уσυ мσяє. o°• Location: Dorm, Dave's Basement, Jeep, Airport, Wedding, Reception ⋰ ⋱ Company: Dex, Jake, Ryder, Isaac, Korra, Ariana, Emma, Zack, Noah, Lexi, Rosco, Derek, Charlie, others ⋰ ⋱ Status: Helpful, Content, Inspirational, Happy, Nervous, Ecstatic ⋰ ⋱ Health: Flawless     Finn had been exceptionally quiet since being released from the hospital. External healing wasn't a big deal, it was the healing internally he was struggling with. His Void ability was at an all time low, and for a few days, he couldn't even access it. For awhile, it was almost like he was human. Completely human. That was the closest to 'normal' he had ever felt. Slowly, he could feel it waking back up inside him, as as much as he hated being what he was, a sense of security washed over him. The longer time passed, the stronger it became, until finally, he felt like he was back to normal. In regaining Void, he managed to slowly work with it, learning better how to turn it off and on, as well as control the urges he felt in that state. Sure, he still wanted to rip apart everything that moved or challenged him, but he was better now. More stable. He had been spending his time mostly with Isaac, then when he was busy, he would hang out with Parker and Jake. Everyone seemed to be in decent enough moods, but Finn had a bad feeling about things. Usually someone was in a state of total destruction, but for now, everyone seemed good, which meant pretty soon...no one would. Finn had just left Isaac's dorm, heading back to his own, and turning to round the corner, key in hand. He looked up to see Dex standing in the hallway in front of the door and furrowed a brow. "Hey Dex. What's going on? You looking for Jake? I think he is out with Noah and Maggie. Everything okay?" Finn unlocked the door and stepped in, leaving it open for Dex to follow. Dex gave him a small smile and he waved to him and stepped in and looked around, "I'm not here to see Jake, I actually came to talk to you." he stated and sighed while he closed the door behind him. Finn quirked a brow and half smiled. "Oh yeah? What's going on?" Finn sat down on the edge of his bed and offered a seat next to him, then folded his hands in front of him, resting his elbows on his knees, giving Dex his undivided attention. "I have to talk to talk to someone, and I couldn't really think of anyone else besides you...You have that darkness thing, yeah?" Finn kept his eyes on Dex and nodded. "Yeah, I do. We call it Void. I mean for a bit I thought I had lost it, but it resurfaced over time." Curiosity peaked across Finn's expression, never really having anyone been interested in it enough to ask him questions before. Dex listened and leaned against the bunk bed. "And you've killed people, yeah?" Finn's lips formed a hard line before he nodded once again. "I've killed a lot of people. Yes. Not that I'm proud of it, but to be truthful, yeah." Finn wasn't sure where exactly Dex was going with this, but he remained intrigued, and in no way judgmental. "And how is Jake with it?" Finn scoffed and shook his head some. "Well he wasn't thrilled about it, but he didn't crucify me for it. I actually don't know how he really feels about it. Back then I was bad, in a really bad way. I wasn't even 'me' anymore. Rian and I were both in a bad way and we did a lot of bad things together. She got better, and I didn't, and it took her, Jake, and Damian to pull me back. He never spoke with me about it specifically." Thinking on it, Finn really didn't know what Jake thought, and now, it bothered him. Dex listened intently, "But he didn't hate you for it?" Finn shook his head. "Jake could never hate me I don't think. We've been best friends since literally birth, so I would have to do something personally devastating to him to make him hate me. I killed a lot of people, but never anyone close to him. Where is all this coming from Buddy? Are you in some kind of trouble?" Dex's eyes flickered away, "Kind of. I was attacked yesterday, and there were two people. I got the upper hand with the girl, who was willing to stop, but I got really angry and I just killed her anyway. Jake knows I killed her, but he doesn't know that she was technically innocent." he stated and then looked back to Finn his new bright blue eyes glowing.
Finn listened and tried to read his tone, but once Dex looked up, the concern on his face was apparent. "Well...it could be worse. I mean directly, she was part of the attack, so I can see why you went after her initially, but as for the doing it anyway, I think it was just fueled by anger. There isn't anything wrong with that, it's just your own 'Dark Passenger' that you have to learn to control. Everyone screws up Dex, Jake knows that...is that what you're worried about? That Jake is going to excommunicate you or something?" Dex let his eyes fade back to his pale blue color and he nodded, "Generally. Jake's never done anything wrong, or remotely bad, I didn't necessarily expect him to understand...." Finn shook his head and stood up, pulling Dex into a hug. "Jake is a lot more complicated than what people think. Usually, yes, he does tend to make the right decisions based on his heart, that's why he is a True Alpha, but the amount of guilt that guy carries with him all the time is insane. He might not have a darkness brooding around on the inside like we do, but I'm glad he doesn't, you know? Would you wish that kind of anguish on someone? He has dealt with my darkness our whole lives, but I don't think he ever really understood it, he just accepted it for what it was." Finn released him, and Dex rested his head against the bunk bed and nodded, "I'm glad Jake isn't burdened by darkness or rage, I'm glad he's my Alpha. But you and I are different in the sense that you've been best mates since birth, whereas I'm just a beta. I'm replaceable, you on the other hand are very much not." Finn furrowed a brow and shook his head. "You aren't replaceable Dex. You are unique, and different. Jake loves all his betas, and worries about all of you." Finn exhaled audibly, and looked up at Dex, his tone getting a little bit more grim. "Dex...if you give in to the negativity your darkness feeds you, then you are going to drown. I used to think that I was worthless. I believed that with every fiber of my being, that everyone would be better off without me, and I was of more use dead than I was alive. It was a very dark place and I had never hated anyone more than I hated myself. Giving into it means trading a portion of who you are, and trust me, it isn't worth it. You made a mistake. You have got to forgive yourself before you can expect someone else to forgive you." Dex looked Finn over and he swallowed hard, "I don't know how to do that. Finn nodded. "I didn't know how to either, and it took a long time, but sometime, you are going to accept that it's part of you, or you'll learn to block it out. For me, I have to accept it because it is part of me, and I can't get rid of it. I don't have a choice. You are already way further ahead than I was by admitting to someone that you need help, and I'd like to help you because I remember wishing I had someone who understood me, and after my mom was killed, there was no one." Finn really wanted to be there for Dex. Jake had always been there for Finn, and he appreciated it, but he couldn't relate to what Finn was going through. The circumstances between him and Dex weren't exactly alike, but to an extent, Finn knew what it felt like to have this burning anger on the inside. Hatred, resentment, the urge to kill, the rush of adrenaline he felt when the lights left someone's eyes, the pleasure of having fresh blood on his hands, but he also knew how it felt when he would come back to himself, and how much he hated himself after. He knew what it felt like to hate himself for doing it, and hating himself more for liking it. Dex was a good person at heart, Finn knew that, but he needed help to get through. Dex nodded, "I appreciate you helping me. I guess I'll have to just work it out, it's just mentally exhausting trying to calm myself down and prove that I'm okay, then I just get mad." Finn nodded in agreement. "Anger is a big part of it. Everything boils up and you snap, and when you snap, it feels good. At least for the moment. You need an anchor. Something that keeps you at bay. I have a few myself. Rian has always been my physical anchor, pulling me back, and Ariana is the emotional anchor. I could hear her voice, and all of a sudden it's like she calls me back to reality. Jake is my third, and I like to think of him as the 'love' anchor because we are like family. He reminds me of who I am supposed to be. They are like my triskilion." It was then Finn decided that he needed to make a triskilion for Dex to help him control himself. He wasn't sure how much use it would be, but it was worth a shot. Dex smiled to him and nodded, "I'm angry all the time. I have an issue with it. I guess that's a good idea, I never put much thought into that." Finn moved forward and hugged him again. "I'll get you a triskele, and you can pick your own anchors. Whether they are words, people, whatever, just pick three things that can bring you back from the rage. It'll help if you really try. You'll mess up a few more times, but after you get into the habit of controlling it, it'll all get easier, and I am here to help whenever you need it, so don't be afraid to come talk to me." Dex took the hug, holding him rather tightly back as he rested his head on his shoulder, "Thank you, I appreciate this. And I will. Guaranteed."
The following day, Finn had gone to Derek's to get one of his talismans, to copy the design, and head off to the welding shop in the college. He copied the design well and turned his scrap of silver into a pendant, placing it onto a sturdy silver chain. Once it was finished, he was called by Isaac, and he left the shop to go hang out with him for the rest of the day. The next time Finn saw Dex, he was in the mall with Ryder and some oddly quiet guy, so he decided to stop and say hello. They spoke for a short while and Dex asked if he could tutor him in math. He agreed without hesitating, and by the time the barbecue came around, he was in a great mood. Rian was there, as well as the rest of Jake's pack, but among the faces, the only one that kept his mind occupied was Ariana's. He missed her, and it was driving him crazy that he couldn't just walk up behind her and kiss her cheek like he used to. He kept his distance, knowing she had been avoiding him recently, and didn't want to push his luck. He returned to the dorm and laid in bed, his mind reeling, before he spoke up. "Hey Jake...can I ask you something?" Finn had his good nights and his bad nights, and tonight was not going to be a good night, he could tell. He missed Ariana, he missed his family, and he was worried about Dex. Jake angled his head to the side"Hmm? What's up?" Finn remained in his bed, staring at the mattress above him where Jake was laying, and hesitated for a second. "After everything I've done...did you ever hate me? Even for a second?" Jake didn't hesitate for a moment, and he turned over the side of his bed, "No! I could never hate you Finn, ever. Why would you even ask me that?"
Finn sighed and thought for a second before replying. "We never really talked about any of it after it happened, and we just never talk about it in general. I guess my curiosity just got the better of me is all." Finn wasn't about to bring Dex into this, so he let Jake think it was about Finn himself. Jake shook his head, "I could never hate you Finn. I'm not a hateful person, you know that." he said and smiled a bit. Zack rolled over and groaned, "Are you ******** kidding me? You are not nocturnal! Have this conversation in normal daytime hours please, you're not ******** nocturnal, Finn go change your tampon and go to bed, Jake stop feeding into it." Finn looked over with a glare through the darkness then laid back into his original position. "Oh shove it Zack. Just because you don't have friends doesn't mean other people don't. Calm down and go back to sleep." Zack scoffed, "Are you kidding me, like really?! You want to start comparing who has a bigger buddy list? Let's see Viper, Emma. Ariana, Noah, Tyler, Ella, Newt, Ryder, Dex, Malia, the list actually goes on. While you're sitting here practicing your ******** casting audition for the next role in Days of our Lives. Go. To. Bed. For. ********. Sakes." he snapped and Jake looked up, "You could have asked us nicely Zack, we would have stopped talking, you don't have to be cruel about it." Finn chuckled and kept quiet, relishing in Jake's win, and letting the subject drop.
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Over the next few days, Finn had been balancing school with Isaac, and Dex. After class, he usually worked on math with Dex until Isaac showed up, then he and Isaac would go out for dinner, and have their deep daily conversations. Afterward, he would return to the dorm and finish his night with Jake playing video games. He was content with it, happy even, aside from constantly missing Ariana. Today, he received an international phone call, and he accepted the charges, wondering who the hell would be calling from another country. To his surprise, Korra's voice was on the other line. "Finn? Hey, it's Korra...listen, I heard that Isaac was in trouble after a storm or something, and I need your help." Finn took a second to let it sink in then spoke up. "Yeah, hey, uhm, Isaac is okay. He made it out of the coma and he is doing okay. What's going on?" Korra exhaled and spoke quietly. "I remember. Over the last few months, everything has been slowly coming back to me, and I remember everything. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to come home but I am stuck here and I don't know what to do. I have almost all the money I need to get there but it's going to take a few more weeks. I'm going to miss Derek and Charlie's wedding, and I am missing my sister's pregnancy, and I just need to come home. So what I am asking is, when I finish getting the money, can you pick me up from the airport? I don't want anyone to know about this." Finn nodded, figuring Damon's compulsion would have worn off eventually and no blaming her for wanting to be back. "Well, I don't want you to miss the wedding this weekend. How about I forward you some cash into your account so you don't miss it? I'm sure everyone would love to see you there." Korra hesitated. "I couldn't ask you to do that. I don't want to use up your money..." They discussed it over until finally they came to the agreement that she could consider it a late birthday gift. She thanked him a dozen times before they hung up, leaving Finn to make the arrangements. He did so and sent her a text, letting her know that all she had to do now was get on the plan at the set time and date. Once that was finished, Finn was sent a text about Dex, and something that he was off the rails. Finn checked out the window and sure enough, he had forgotten it was full moon night. He bolted from the dorm and into his jeep, showing up at Dave's house just about in time. He had remembered to get the necklace out of the center console, and headed into the basement, calming Dex down after Ryder had him surfaced, and reminding him about the triskele they had talked about. He remained there with him until after dawn, and in the end, wound up heading home with everyone almost completely unscathed.
The weekend came quickly, and that Saturday morning, Finn looked to Jake and asked him to come with him for a drive. Jake agreed without question of course and as they left Mystic Falls, that was when he decided to spill his guts. "Okay, now I can tell you. We are going to the airport to pick up Korra. She called me the other day and I wound up paying for her ticket to come back. Apparently, like Isaac, the compulsion faded and she got homesick. She wanted to be here for Emma, as well as Derek's wedding, and I just couldn't tell her no, ya know?" The wedding was later that afternoon so there was still plenty of time, as Finn sped up down the freeway. It wasn't terribly far of a drive, forty minutes or so max. Jake glanced over and propped his leg up across his other so his foot was against the door, "No way, seriously? Does Charlie know? Is she in the wedding? Does she have a dress? Holy crap, you should of told me you Dufus." he said and smiled over at Finn. He was excited, not only had his father come back, but so did his little adopted sister, or was in the process of. He was in a permanent state of excitement and he just looked out the windshield bouncing his floored knee. "Yeah, Charlie and Derek both know, but they are the only two besides us. She wanted to surprise everyone else." They spoke happily for a long while until they made it to the terminal, both of them waving excitedly when she came running for them. She hugged Jake first, then Finn, and exhaled deeply. "I am so glad to be home! I missed everyone so much! How are you? Jake, how is everyone? Where's Lexi?" She looked a round a bit, figuring she might have gone to the restroom, before looking back to 'big brother'. Jake ran forward too, practically catching her and hugging her tightly. He let her go to hug Finn and then pulled her back and hugged her again. "I'm so happy you're home! How was your flight? How was school? Did you meet any friends? Who all knows your back? I think you're a little taller. I'm okay, everyone's okay." he said and smiled then shook his head a bit, passing it off simply, harder than it looked. "She didn't come, we aren't together anymore, broke up about half a year ago, but we're still friends." Korra hugged Jake again and listened as he flooded her with questions. smiling up until he mentioned that he and Lexi weren't together anymore. "Oh...I didn't know. That...makes me really sad actually. I always thought you two were perfect...I'm glad you're still friends though...anyway, the flight was alright, I slept through most of it, and school is none to be desired there. The rules are insane and the professors don't much care for 'foreigners'. I had a small group of friends there, yeah, but nothing like what I have here. I was kind of a loner over there. I'm glad everyone is okay. I can't wait to see them all. Isaac, Ariana, Ethan and Axel, Mom, Emma, oh my lanta, so many people. I can't believe Charlie and Derek are getting married!"
Each of them took a bag and wheeled them to the jeep, setting them in the back, before Korra took the backseat, letting the two boys stay up front together. Jake explained a lot of things on the way home, the hardest to swallow being Peyton's death. She hadn't been told, and wasn't at the funeral, and never got to even say goodbye. It turned out a lot had happened since she was shipped off, but losing Peyton was the hardest part. She was glad Sam had come back, remembering well how much Jake had missed him, and tried to focus on happier things. She made it back to Jake and Finn's dorm, getting dressed in the bathroom while the boys changed into their tuxes. When she was finished and ready to go, she exited the bathroom and had Jake finish tying the strings on her dress. Zack walked in and she waved, glad to see him, not that they were close. She admired him though, not that he knew that either. Their other room mate stepped in then, and Korra smiled and waved to him while Finn started to pin her curls up for her. "Hey, Parker, right? I'm Jake's sister Korra. It's nice to meet you." Zack waved nonchalantly mumbling a 'what's up' before Parker walked in and smiled as she moved up to him. He nodded and held his hand out to her,"Nice to meet you too Korra. I've heard a lot about you, nothing bad all good. I hear you were in London?" he stated and stepped forward moving a strand of hair out of her face that slipped out of Finn's grasp,"You seem really sweet, it's nice to have a little light around here. Korra smiled brightly and nodded a little. "Yeah, I just got back actually. Thank you, that's so funny my Uncle Dean used to call me his little light. I'm back to stay though and I can't wait to catch up with everyone, and make some new friends." She spoke with Parker for a bit before they had to go, and she went with Jake and Finn to the church. She kept hidden up until it was time for people to start walking down the isle. When Isaac stepped up, it was the first she had seen him in what felt like ages, and her heart skipped a beat, while she adjusted the necklace he had given her last year for Christmas that still hadn't come off since. She took a deep breath and stepped up quietly with her bouquet in her hands. When her eyes met his, she melted a little, her eyes getting the slightest bit teary. "Hello Isaac." It took everything she had not to cry and toss her arms around him, but she didn't know how he felt or what he remembered, so she hesitated. Isaac looked Korra over and smiled a bit, he was completely floored, he looked to Lexi who was a couple feet away and then back to Korra,"What are you doing here?" Korra smiled and shrugged a shoulder. "Well...I heard you were hurt during that storm so I fought to come home, though it wasn't working in my favor. Then I heard about the wedding, and my sister's baby, and it was just time I moved back. Things kind of...shifted, for me. I had to come home."
Isaac nodded listening intently to what was going on before his eyes flickered to the ground. "Oh...Well thanks for making the effort, I really appreciate that. So you're here? Like...to stay?" Korra bit her lip,not sure what was going on, but he wasn't acting quite as she hoped he might. She hesitated and nodded once, dropping her gaze to the floor too. "Yeah...to stay...I'm going to go...get in my place. I'll see you around. I'm glad you're okay..." She looked up and offered a half smile before she turned and moved toward the back of the line. It hadn't gone at all like she imagined it would. She kept her head down until she saw Ariana, Lexi, Axel, and Rian. She got into a giant hugging fest with everyone, before she glanced over at Rosco, and she couldn't help but smile before she made her way over and tossed her arms around his neck, knowing she was allowed to. "Hey Rosco." Rosco smiled and nodded waving and looking her over for a moment."Hey you. Didn't expect you back here for at least a very long time. How's life treating you?" Korra kept a hold on him for an extra second before shaking her head, everything kind of reeling in her mind. "Not as good as I thought it was going to. I guess the jet lag and the feeling of being completely overwhelmed is a little much, but I'm okay. I'm just happy to be home with Jake and Sam." Rosco nodded and looked her over pushing a strand of hair from her face, "Well I'm glad you're back home safe and sound, I missed you, being in Purgatory really makes you appreciate the good things in life. You look beautiful, as always by the way." A blush touched her cheeks before she nodded and offered a smile. "I didn't know you were even back until about an hour ago, but I'm glad you are safe home too. I've never been to Purgatory, but I doubt it's a picnic." She giggled a bit and took his arm, falling silent with everyone else as the music started. Finn had watched this entire interaction and smiled to himself, offering Lexi his arm, and waiting for their cue. She took his arm, but he could feel something was off so he asked, and she replied quietly. "I missed Korra, I did, but come on Finn. There is about to be a s**t storm and we both know it. Isaac is always going to want Korra, Rosco is always going to want Korra. Korra is always going to be stuck between the two, and anyone else involved will wind up being collateral damage. I mean I understand the feeling, but I just hate that I can see it coming." Finn furrowed a brow. "What if Isaac surprises you? Maybe he doesn't think that way about Korra anymore and you're in the clear." Lexi looked up at Finn with a sarcastic 'seriously?' face and he grimaced. "Okay, you are probably right but hey, listen to me. You don't need a man to be strong, or smart, or beautiful, or anything. You can do anything you want to all on your own. So no matter what happens, don't let your fire fizzle out okay? Promise?" Lexi smiled and nodded, promising, before it was their turn to step out. Finn walked her down, then stood behind Jake, watching as the others followed behind, and smiling happily when Charlie stepped out. He glanced at her sure, but he looked over to Derek, watching his reaction to her, until his eyes landed on Ariana. She was wearing the same dress as all the other girls, hair in the same style as everyone else, even the same shoes, but she still stood out to him, even more so than Charlie herself did. It almost made his chest hurt with a binding tightness, casting his gaze to the floor before she could catch him looking.
After the ceremony, everyone met up at the conference hall for the reception. The speeches were given, toasts were made, and after all the formalities were out of the way, the real dancing started, and everyone could mingle around as they pleased. Korra was dancing in fast circles with Rosco, Ethan was flaunting Axel around like he always did, and by miracle, Lexi was dancing with Isaac. Finn looked out to see Rian and Luka dancing and laughing together, Zack was with Noah and Maggie while Derek danced with Charlie, leaving Emma and Ariana to talk near the punch bowl. Finn couldn't stand it anymore. He had to say something. He nodded to Dex and made his way over, nodding to both girls as he approached. "Hey Emma, do you think I could talk to Ariana for a second please?" Emma smiled at Finn and nodded. "Sure. I'm just going to go check on Korra to make sure she isn't getting too wasted and making bad choices. I'll be back in a bit." She winked at Ariana before she departed, leaving Finn to turn to face the little hybrid. He stared at her for a second, admiring her face and letting all his thoughts and feelings for her resurface after months of repression. "I miss you." he said rather abruptly, putting his hands in his pockets, and keeping his eyes on hers. "I miss you, and I am damn tired of missing you, but I can't stop. I've tried. For months, I've tried to bury it but it just resurfaces every time I catch a glimpse of you in the hallway, or see you at the coffee cart before classes. I messed up, I know that, and I'm sorry, but I can't keep walking around pretending you don't exist because you are still the last thing I think about before going to sleep and the first thing I think of when I wake up. I can't help it, okay, and I can't keep pretending it's not there." Ariana watched as Emma left and then let her eyes move to the ground as Finn stood in front of her, trying not to look up at him, but that plan was quickly ruined when he said his opening sentence. I miss you. Her heart skipped a beat and she bit her lip before looking to the side, trying not to look at him directly, but he continued which made her finally look up to him. As soon as her eyes landed on him, the familiar pain shot through her, and she winced, by this time it didn't make her double over and gasp, she had learned to control it when she saw him on accident. Her eyes met his and the pain subsided into a stinging ache as she listened to him put everything on the table. She nodded as he spoke, silently agreeing with what he was saying, because it was true on her side as well, she couldn't go a day without thinking about him. When he finished she kept her eyes on his for a few seconds before she blinked, "Oh." she said quietly before letting out a breath,"I didn't think you felt that way." she continued, her nail picking at the side of her finger nervously,"I'm sorry I haven't been...around, just been a lot on my mind is all....I..."she trailed off and glanced away, "I miss you too." Finn exhaled a bit, smiling down at her before his hand raised to cradle her cheek, pushing her hair from her face. "Of course I still feel that way. I've always felt that way. I wavered, and I strayed, and I never meant to, and it was a mistake, but I know where I am supposed to be, and it is killing me not to be with you. I understand if you still want to explore, or whatever, but in the end it's going to be you and me, just like in the end it's going to be Jake and Lexi. I'll wait forever because in the end, it'll be worth it." His thumb grazed over her cheekbone, keeping his eyes on hers, with his heart hammering against his chest.
She leaned her cheek into his hand and closed her eyes briefly the pain seeming to subside dramatically. Comfort washing over her with every movement he made, she then looked at him, listening to him and just mentally melting at every word that left his mouth, she just wanted to hug him so much, and just be with him. She blinked and shook her head slightly "I don't want to explore." She couldn't. She glanced to Jake and then Lexi her gaze soft, but she just couldn't understand it. They didn't imprint, but they knew they were supposed to be together, and still. She couldn't imagine being with anybody other than Finn, with or without the imprint, so how could anyone else manage and contain their feelings like that?"I want you." But, he didn't feel the imprint back, and what if he decided to go back to Rian? She couldn't physically handle that, not again. She leaned back a bit and let out a breath, "It's complicated though." Finn shook his head with certainty. "No it isn't. None of it has to be complicated ever again. I've been living without you for months, and I never want to have to do it again." Ariana bit the corner inside of her mouth and she sighed, "But it is Finn. So much has happened, and things are...different now. And I guess I can't go into something without knowing that it's not going to change in a day." Finn furrowed his brow before he nodded, taking that as a 'she probably isn't ready' hint. "Not many things in this world are certain sweetheart. Almost everything you do can be left to question. It's up to you to decide what's worth the risk." Finn gave her a small smile before he leaned forward to kiss her forehead, and took a step back, fully intending on heading back to his seat at the head table. She sighed and forced a smile before she looked up at him and stepped forward nodding slightly, "Okay...I guess I can agree with that." she leaned up and kissed his cheek."Just give it a bit." Finn smiled and looked down at her with a nod. "For you, I can wait." Ari smiled then, dropping her gaze, her heart fluttering for a second, "Alright." she said sweetly and then looked to the ground tucking a strand of hair behind her ear."You look good tonight, by the way. I just want you to know that." Finn thanked her for the compliment before giving her one of his own. "Well don't tell Charlie I said so, but I'm surprised the whole room wasn't fixated on you." Ariana blushed and smiled genuinely wide, "Well thank you. I beg to differ, but thank you." Finn nodded and and kissed her cheek. "Differ all you want, my opinion stays the same." She giggled a bit and looked up at him, "Shh, Derek can hear you." she smiled and glanced over to Derek. Derek glanced back, having been listening this whole time, and smirking at her, speaking low enough for her to hear and most others to miss. "Nevermind what Derek can hear. As long as you're with Finn you can go ahead and pretend I'm not even here. In fact, no matter where you are with Finn, or what you're doing with Finn, Derek can never hear you, so feel free." Derek turned and winked at her before a giant grin spread across his face. She smiled to the floor listening to Derek and laughed a little, "Oh...Okay then." she said innocently and laughed under her breath again before looking up at Finn, "How about we watch a movie sometime? I'm not necessarily doing anything tonight...?" Finn agreed without hesitation, before he offered up his arm and smiled to her. "Mind if I steal a dance?" Ari smiled and accepted his offer, "Technically, it's not stealing, but sure."
Finn lead her out to the floor and swept her up into a fast dance. Nothing too terribly fancy, just something familiar he knew she could follow him with. For him, it was like there wasn't another soul even in the room, not when he was looking at her, so much so, that he paid zero attention to anyone else even around. It took forever for even Jake to catch his attention, which was when he finally snapped back to. He hadn't even touched a drink, and couldn't be happier. When he left, he noticed Rosco walking with Korra by the parking lot. He opened up the jeep door for Ariana, then called out to him. "Hey Ross! You guys okay or do you need a ride?" Rosco glanced to Korra and then shrugged, "Uh...Er..Sure." Finn opened the back door for them and let them jump in before he drove off toward Derek's place. For now, it was just the four of them, and Korra hadn't wanted to go back to Peter's yet, as he wasn't aware she was back, and she didn't want to go home sloshed. Everyone knew Rosco would take care of her better than anyone, so not even Emma protested. Finn let the two go upstairs before settling on the couch to let Ariana pick the movie. ι'∂ яαтнєя вє αℓσиє тнαи вυιℓ∂ α вяσкєи нσмє. тнєи нσℓ∂ σи тσ нєαят ιѕ ѕσмєωнєяє єℓѕє.
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Posted: Sun Aug 09, 2015 12:18 am
 ¢ℓσѕιиg тιмє, σρєи αℓℓ тнє ∂σσяѕ αи∂ ℓєт уσυ ιитσ тнє ωσяℓ∂mood :: Decent, Welcoming, Defensive, Angry, Upset, Shameful, Done, Angsty, Testy, Lustful, Excited, Thrilled, Pumped, Defensive, Stand Off-ish, Concerned, Sad, Defensive, Angry, Done, Overwhelmed, Upset, Better, Tired, Numb, Needy, Exhausted, Anxious, Ashamed, Wanted, Needed, Jittery, Wolfed Out, Angry, Stressed, Calmed down, Apologetic, Desperate, Nice, Okay, Proud, Accepted, Generally Okay, Loving, Calm. - Fine. Defensive, Aggravated, Annoyed, Pissed off, Fuming, Shocked. - Sore, Okay, In the mood, Tired, Cuddly, Embarrassed, Apologetic. - Good, Amped, Confident, Challenged, Jealous, Defensive, Worried // location :: Charlie's office, Women's Washroom, Home, Road, Dave's Bedroom, Dave's Basement, Store, Car, Wedding Ceremony/Reception, Home, School, Ryder's Room, Sydney's, School, Practice, Locker Room // health :: Perfect // with :: Ryder, Sydney, Charlie, Dave, Viper, Malia, Finn, Jake, Wedding Party, Isaac, Brett, Jesse, Chloe, Anyone else? ...Bastian.    
Dex had dealt with Bastian becoming a person, it had been a high stressful moment, but after they named him, it just...Changed? And now he was human kind of...Ms. Anderson, Ryder, and himself had been dealing with it. Though after he killed Alexander, it was like a power surge on a whole new level. He had only felt this strong once in his history of being a wolf, and that was when he had first shifted, but he had managed to control that, he had managed to bury that power surge until he was in control, and it hadn't bothered him until now. Now? It felt like his senses were heightened again, like if someone looked at him wrong he could just break their necks. It was frustrating, he didn't want to be this angry or on edge, but he couldn't help it, and it took everything in him not to give into that. Dex sat in the chair in front of Charlie's desk, awkwardly looking around the office. Charlie leaned back in her chair, checking her computer out and sending an email before she looked at him, "Okay Dex, how are you? How was your day today? What are you feeling today?" she questioned. Dex nodded, "Good, I've been good. I'm pretty sure I passed my test today, Ryder and I are okay, even though Dave speak to him all the time, but whatever...So I'm happy, it's been a fantastic, wonderful day." he stated. Charlie nodded, keeping her eyes on him the chair turning slightly each way as Dex bounced his knee. She let out a sigh and leaned forward setting her elbows on her desk, "Dex, I don't know how many sessions I have you for, and I feel like we should get right to the point. It was not a good day. You aren't dealing with your issues Dex, you're bottling and you're not seeing things for how they are." Dex stared at him, "What? How? I didn't even growl at him! Or punch him, or anything! I feel like me holding back was a little heroic on my part." She shook her head, "That's a load of crap." Dex outwardly groaned, "Stop saying that." Charlie leaned back then, shaking her head, "Look, look. Let me draw the picture out for you okay? Ryder chose you. He chose you out of everyone he could have picked, out of six billion people, you were the one that stuck out to him, you were the special one. But you seem to have the picture in your head, that when someone is attracted to him, or close to him, they're going to take him from you, and you'll have nothing." she explained. Dex shook his head.
"No. That's not how I see it at all. I don't think he's going to leave me...I think he's going to get tired of me eventually, or find someone better, because he is better than this, he'll leave, and I'll just be here." Charlie scribbled some notes down and looked up to meet his gaze, "So you're scared of being left alone." Dex shook his head again, "No. I'm fine with being alone. I'm not scared, I just know it's going to happen." Charlie leaned her head to one side, "But I think you are, you're so scared of Ryder leaving you, but why?" Dex sighed, "I thought this was supposed to be anger management." Charlie echoed his sigh and nodded, "It is, but Dex you have to talk some things out with me. I can't just pull out a magic wand and make you let go of the resentment you have for things that you can't control, or things that you can't change. Ryder is with you for a reason, he wouldn't do anything to risk losing that, I feel like you think this way because something happened to you, someone left you and you think it's going to happen again, you sabotage things before you get hurt, and you take it out on people, like Dave because they're an easy 'scape goat, you're just so scared of being alone." Dex pinched the bridge of his nose, her words sinking in and striking a cord with him but he shook it off, "That is a load of 'crap'" Charlie nodded, "Okay. You're completely fine. If I asked you to rate how you are mentally on a scale of one to ten, you would say ten. Just one hundred percent okay." she stated, not a question, she was obviously turning it around on him. Dex stood up, "You know what, I'm...not going to do this." Charlie looked up at him, "You're one hundred percent okay." Dex leaned forward, "Why do you keep saying that?!" She leaned forward as well, not threateningly, "Because if you can't see what's wrong with that statement, that you're one hundred percent okay, you're never going to get anywhere." Dex paced for a minute, "Okay, fine. I'm not exactly one hundred percent in tip top shape, yeah?! So what!" Charlie met his eyes again, "You're scared." Dex scoffed, "Are you calling me a coward?" Charlie exhaled deeply looking over Dex's defensive stance, "I think you're very frightened Dex, yes." - "Are you calling me a coward?" Charlie just stared at him and shook her head, "No. I think you need to open up. I know it's hard, and it's messy, and it hurts to relive what happened, what you went through, and tell me your insecurities, not even just me, but Ryder as well, but once you tell someone it's like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders, it's the first step to healing."
"He loves me so much, and till I met him, I just...I used to think that I wasn't a good person, and growing up with my Dad, I guess that's just kind of what I thought, that I wasn't supposed to be. Ryder doesn't think he is either, and... after all of this, everything that we've been through, what we're going to go through...He's going to figure out that he's a good man...And he's going to realize eventually that he's good enough not to deserve this, not to have to feel like he does with me, not to love me so much that he almost hates me. He deserves someone who will stay loyal to him, and honest with him. And I feel like, maybe he should find someone else...Someone that's going to make him happy, someone who will keep him happy, who will never hurt him. And I feel as soon as he finds someone like that, he needs to let me go, and not come back." he explained and sat back down his eyes avoiding Charlie's, "Dave makes him happy, he's always smiling with Dave, and he always manages to say the right thing to make him feel better while I'm just tearing him apart, just...wreck him. I jumped for Ryder, and somehow I managed to land him, and I knew. I knew that I wasn't together, and I knew that I was no good for him, for anyone and I wreck him. And that..." he trailed off, his lip quivering as he dropped his gaze to the floor, "Is unforgivable. And I don't forgive myself for that...I feel shameful for that. That is what I feel today. Shame." Charlie listened, "Good. That's a start." she said softly, keeping her eyes on him. - "How is that a start?" - "You named it, a feeling. You have to know what it is before you can start to navigate somewhere better." Dex shook his head slowly and sighed, "Can we be done right now? Please? May finish this later?" Charlie nodded, "Yes, I'll write you a note, do you want it for Math or your last period?" - "Math." he said immediately. She scribbled a note down and handed it over, "You did good today."
After English, Dex had pondered the whole 'therapy' thing, and the more he dwelled on going and talking about his problems, the more he resented the idea. Charlie was nice and all, but he just didn't see a point to speaking of his 'issues', he had been just fine on his own for this long right? He hadn't killed anyone maliciously, he hadn't destroyed any relationships as of yet. He was okay. He was managing. And he didn't need help. Dex stepped into the female bathroom, looking under the stalls till he saw Charlie's feet, he knocked on the stall door, "I need to talk to you." he stated. Charlie grumbled from in the stall, "Dex, are you kidding me?! Make an appointment." she called out. Dex sighed, "I don't need to make an appointment just to cancel my sessions. I'd like to do it right now." Charlie sighed heavily, "And I'd like to go to the bathroom in peace. It seems that everybody's dissatisfied here." Dex folded his arms across his chest, seeing women leave awkwardly, "Where do you get off suggesting that I never open up, that I'm some kind of damaged little boy with hidden issues? Are you trying to make me feel bad about my life so that you can fix me?" - "Dex, we'll talk about this in therapy." Dex resisted stomping his foot, "No! I. Don't. Need. Therapy." The door opened then and Isaac stepped in, looking like he had some kind of mind revelation or something, Dex looked around before looking at Isaac like 'this is the girls toilets, what in bloody hell are you doing?!', but he thought that would be ridiculous. Instead, he stayed quiet while Isaac spoke in a blurt of words, "I forgive you." he stated. Dex stared, wide eyed, "Isaac?" Isaac shook his head, "No. I forgive you. I forgive you for treating my friend like crap, and I forgive you for being a psychotic little time bomb. I just...I don't know how you get up in the morning, I honestly don't. You're dad abandoned you, and you killed our Dad, who by all accounts was the meanest person ever, and you can't let Ryder love you and it all really, really sucks. But ever since Ryder came back and found you, I had this fantasy about my little brother getting what he wanted and needed out of life, and so far you have failed on every occasion to live up to the fantasy, but he still loves you. Whether you are capable of letting him or not, but I forgive you." he stated and then glanced to the stall, "Sorry Charlie." he stated and stepped out swiftly. The toilet flushed after a few seconds and Charlie came out of the stall, "Two this afternoon work for you?" Dex looked defeated and nodded, "Yes, I suppose." he said quietly in complete defeat. After school that day, things had started getting tense, they ate, and then Ryder retired to his room to work out while Malia and Viper went into the backyard and Dex sat in the living room watching a movie with Bastian. He didn't know how it happened, but he and Bastian moved into the kitchen, and he glanced up to the male before turning and focusing on getting a drink. It wasn't until Bastian stepped forward and kissed him randomly till he felt a surge of instinct rush through him. He closed his eyes after a second and leaned into it after a few seconds, it was different than Sydney, and Ryder, and Dave...It was a rush, but he was sure it wasn't because he liked him, it was anticipation, adrenaline...
A growl ripped through the air that Dex diverted his attention to Ryder who stood watching their interaction. Ryder had taken hold of Bastian, moving him against a wall causing Dex to move forward and growl warning Ryder though he didn't seem to have any intentions of hurting him. "Not. Him. I get that you don't understand the mechanics, but he is off limits. Don't you ever do that again. Do. You. Understand. Me." Once Bastian apologized, Ryder turned to Dex who just kept his eyes on him asking him the question that normal Dex winced at, he did know better, and he did it anyway, because he wanted to, because it felt good. Ryder had an attack of some sort which snapped Dex out of his anger haze and he moved forward trying to calm him down, his hands cupping both sides of his face even after he yelled, his worry spiking until Malia came in and settled it all down. Shortly after that, Dex had snapped at Viper, and shoved passed him and left, he slammed the door behind him hearing the crack, but he didn't care. He walked through the streets angry as hell, his eyes bright blue he had successfully managed to ******** up two people he cared about most in the matter of fifteen minutes. That must have been a ******** record. "Dex? Hey man! I was just coming over to see you and Ryder, where are you going?" he questioned. Dex stopped dead on the street and growled slightly under his breath, "Out." Dave approached, "What's going on? You alright?" Dex scoffed and he turned to face Dave for a moment, "Am I alright? Yes. " Dave looked him over, "You sure? Because you seem a little angry." Dex glared at him, wow. "You're brilliant." Dave sighed, "I can leave you be if you want? Do you know if Ryder's still in?" Dex let his eyes take in Dave's appearance, visibly attractive, the perfect breed of human for Ryder, he was sweet and nice, and bloody ******** perfect. "Dex? Do you mind if I hang out with Ryder? I just want you to know that we're just friends." Only because Ryder wasn't available. Dex didn't move, "I ruined it. It's like I don't want anyone to care. Everything's so...fragile. We were special. I was scared, I'm always scared." his tone was quiet and soft, and he looked Dave straight in the eyes, his throat tightening again, "But I guess it's called an addiction for a reason, yeah? Because even though they're forever that doesn't mean they're good for you." he added and then shook his head, "Don't lie to me Dave. I'm not a ******** idiot, you're totally head over heels for the guy, so you go right ahead, take him if you want him that much. You're a great guy, you're a wonderful guy, and you are the better guy, I see that now." Dave shook his head, "I don't know what you're saying." Dex stared at him, "I watch you Dave, you can make him happy, not sad, or angry. You won't give him panic attacks. You'll make him really happy. It'll take a long time to get him happy, but he'll get there." Dave kept his eye contact up, "I don't believe you." - "Why not." - "Even if you guys broke up, it wouldn't take too long till you realized you need each other more than you think. I may not know everything that's going on with you two, but I see things, and I notice things and you and Ryder are a one of a kind pair." Dex exhaled sharply, "I thought that too. I did, I thought things would be good with us, but now I'm starting to think that love might mean wanting the other person to be happy, even if that means they can't stay with you." Dave sighed, "Dex are you going home tonight?" Dex shook his head and turned away walking in circles, "No. I can't. I can't go home." Dave closed his eyes for a moment, "You can come to my house if you want. I'm not trying to put any moves on you, or steal Ryder, I'm just trying to keep the friends I have." Dex stared at him and sighed, "I can't sleep with you." Dave held his hands up, "You don't even have to sleep Dex, it just beats a park bench, am I right?" Dex thought for a moment, calming down a bit, "Okay." Dave nodded and gave him a reassuring smile, "Come on." he said, slinging his arm around Dex's shoulder, "Should I text Ryder? Or your brother?" Dex shook his head, "No. Please don't. I just need to breathe right now. I'll find him tomorrow, just...Thank you for letting me stay with you, but I don't want him or Viper knowing where I am okay?" Dave sighed, "I'll respect that."
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Dex had 'slept' on the floor right beside Dave's bed, he listened to his heart beating trying to lull himself to sleep, but it was that layer of half asleep and still awake that he was in. The kind of sleep you wake up from, feeling like you didn't sleep and knowing that you didn't either. He stayed in Dave's bedroom that day, only getting up to go to the bathroom and borrowing a shirt from him. He laid on the bed feeling irritable, it was the day of the full moon, and he had previously warned Dave about it when they woke up, Dave sat next to him on the bed. Dave's phone rang and he sighed seeing Ryder's name on the phone, "It's Ryder." Dex looked up to Dave and sighed, "You haven't seen me." he stated. Dave narrowed his eyes, "You've been here all night, and day, you need to tell someone where you are, at least so they know you're alive." Dex just shook his head and Dave hesitated for a moment, "Hey Ry, what's happening?" he questioned resting his elbows on his knees while Dex listened in on the conversation. Ryder's voice was tight, as if he was holding his breath."Dave, thank God you picked up. Listen, I'm in a bit of a situation here and I need to know if you've seen Dex at all. I've been looking all day, and no one can find him...we kind of had a...disagreement and I'm worried sick."Ry's voice cracked a bit toward the end, inhaling deep before he finished. "Please tell me you know where he is at..." Dave squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head to himself, his heart picking up slightly, "No man...I'm sorry. I texted him earlier to see if he wanted to hang out, but nothing. I wish I could help you." Dex listened to Ryder's voice on the other end and put his face in the pillow, he couldn't be around him right now, not like this. He wanted to go apologize for how he acted with Bastian, not because he got caught, but because he fed into it, and he wanted to apologize to Viper for what he said, but he couldn't. He knew Viper, and he didn't want to fight with him, not now, not tonight. He chewed the inside of his cheek as he listened to Ryder's voice a tear falling out the corner of his eye, then took a deep breath into the pillow. Ryder nodded while he listened, losing what last shred of hope he had. "Oh...okay..." His breath hitched as he stifled a sob, biting his lip and looking at the ground. "If you do see him, or get a hold of him, could you tell him he needs to come home...or at least call me? The full moon is tonight and I just...I need him." Dex looked up then, getting up as Dave stuttered, "He...I...One second." he sighed out of defeat and handed the phone to Dex who stood up from the bed and stepped over to the window while Dave stepped out of the room, "I'm here." he whispered into the receiver. "Dex?! What the hell, I've been worried sick. Are you okay?" Ryder was in full sobs at this point, half relieved half still worried. Dex rested his head against the window and closed his eyes, just listening to Ryder's voice, he took a breath and shook his head, "Not really, no." "Come home." He wasn't demanding or angry, it was more desperate than anything. "Please Dex, just come home." Ryder sank to his knees in the middle of the sidewalk, dabbing at his eyes, and not caring about anything else. it was like he was mentally willing him to do what he asked. He was a mess. A sobbing, pathetic, mess.- Dex bit his cheek hard and pulled the phone away from his ear to let out a shaky breath and opened his eyes, pulling the phone back to his ear, "Come here." - "To Dave's?" He thought about it for a second, confused as hell, but didn't hesitate long in case Dex changed his mind. "Okay. I'll be there in five." Dex nodded and held the phone tightly, "Alright." he said quietly and then moved away from the window. He stepped down out of the room and Dave looked up at him, "Is he coming?" Dex nodded and Dave looked at the staircase, "My Dad just left." Dex thanked him and he stepped down the stairs, moving to the front door and leaning against the brick of the house, his eyes locked on the ground, his arm folded around his chest, not to keep anyone out, but to hold himself together. Ryder approached the house slow, trying to slow his tears, but the second he looked up and saw him in one piece, they fell harder. He shoved his hands in his hoodie pocket, unsure if he was allowed to do anything other than stand before him.
Dex looked up his bright blue eyes landing on Ryder and he pushed himself up from the wall. He stepped over carefully, as soon as he dropped his arms and took in the expression on his face he broke, tears falling down his face, his breath catching before he sobbed out, "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" he shook and cried a few more time. 'Everything's so...fragile. We were special. I was scared, I'm always scared.' his entire body shook then. Ryder couldn't take it. He no longer cared if Dex didn't want to be touched. He reached out and pulled him into his arms, both of them sobbing wrecks. "I don't even care about it anymore. I just want you to come home." Dex stepped into Ryder as he pulled him in and he shivered and buried his face into his shoulder, he couldn't even speak, he couldn't breathe. His fingers dug into his shoulder blades, "You are my home." he managed to get out, "You're just...You're the only thing that matters to me. I know it feels like I don't want anyone to care, I realize that, but I want you to, and I'm struggling with myself, and it's infuriating. I want to be good enough for you, I want to see the same person you see when I look in the mirror. Some days I want to rip my skin off. And I want to change that, more than anything, but I can't control it, I can't control anything." he let out a cry and bit his cheek, "I'm just so sorry, and I'm sorry that I say sorry more than I say I love you." Ryder listened and brought his left hand up to cradle the back of Dex's head, while the other kept him close. "I never had 'home' till I met you. It's okay that you make mistakes. I can't just stop caring. By rights, I should be furious, but I can't because I'm too worried about you. You push everyone away, and people get hurt by it, but to mee it looks like a desperate cry for help and I'm not comfortable abandoning you, just because you tried to push me away. You didn't mean it. I know you didn't." Dex pressed his lips in a hard line, "I don't! I don't want you to go away, ever. Please don't." he said urgently, "I'm sorry for leaving you. Because that is a giant lie, wanting you to go away is a lie. I am in. I am so into this relationship, only if you are. It's not a cake walk, and I'm well aware of that, so here's your choice, your out. To leave, and be with someone like Dave, or someone else... or stay with me. And I'm sure he's really great. But Ry...I love you. In a really, really big...pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat nothing but rubbish, hold radio outside your window...with your music...Unfortunate way that makes me hate you-love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me." Ryder stared at Dex, listening to every word he was saying, and trying to process it all. This decision was everything and it didn't take him but a moment to decide. Dex was in actual tears, the first Ryder had ever seen in person, and he had finally, finally opened up and let him bypass one of his many walls. "I don't need an 'out' Dex. If I wanted someone else, I would have gone for someone else, but I didn't, because I wanted you. I chose you. Out of everyone else in the entire world, and I picked you. It's okay if you hate me sometimes, because we are both impossible, but I don't want to let go. I picked you as 'my person', and I don't want anyone else. No one could ever replace you, or even hold a candle to you. So if you're asking me to chose, I already did ages ago, and I stand by that decision because I love you." Dex let out a sob as he spoke, nodding a bit and hugging him tightly, "Okay good because I can't handle not being with you. I don't ever want to experience that. I don't want to stare at a ceiling because I ruined it. I'm going to work on things, I promise, because I want to be with you, I want to be the better man and I'll work for it, I need to because you deserve someone who's going to try. I love you."
Ryder smiled through his own tears, listening to him speak, and continuing to hug him. "Let me help you. I think we both need to stop shutting each other out. It's destroying us from the inside out, and we'll drown if we don't stop it. I don't want to drown because I don't have a whole lot without you." He smiled through a sob. "I don't want to be 'homeless'." Dex pushed out his own smile, just wanting to hold him for a while, "You never will be." he whispered and kissed his neck softly, "I agree. I'll tell you what you what you want to know whenever you want to know it." he whispered letting his lips move from his neck to his shoulder, "I don't want to be anything without you." "You don't have to be. I'm here." Ryder kissed Dex's forehead and held him tightly. "I'm right here. Dex relished in the contact, his heart skipping as he nodded and looked up at him, "Thank you." he whispered and leaned forward meeting his lips softly, he kept it sweet and cradled his jaw with his left hand while his right intertwined with Ryder's left. "I love you so much." Ryder smiled when their lips met, bringing one hand to cradle his jaw as he was, and lacing their fingers together with his left. He kept it romantic, letting himself enjoy the fact that somehow they managed to save themselves from tumbling right off the edge. He poured what he could into the gesture, smiling when Dex spoke again. "I love you with everything I have. You are everything to me." Ryder shut his eyes and pulled Dex in for another kiss.Dex nodded, meeting his lips for a moment, "I love you too." he whispered into his mouth and kissed him softly again, cupping either side of his jaw and tilting his head into the act. He couldn't express it enough to him exactly how much he loved him, he just wanted to stay with him, laying in bed tangled up with him as they usually did. He didn't want to seal with the moon, or fix his issues, he wanted to avoid everything and just hide curled up to Ryder for as long as he possibly could. He leaned back slightly to look him over and then rested his forehead on his, "I can't go back home. he stated quietly and closed his eyes. "Why do you think that? Everyone at home is worried sick about you. Bastian is in town with Malia looking for you, and Viper is home in case you come back. I don't think you get how important you are." Dex sighed, "Text Malia and call them off. I can't deal with the Viper thing right now." he stated softly. Ryder held him tightly and shook his head. "Don't worry about Viper right now. All he cares about is if you are safe or not. The rest can be dealt with later." Dex bit the inside of his cheek, "This is our first fight. We never saw each other enough to fight, and I don't feel mentally stable enough to go back there." he paused and looked up at him, "Dave's dad is out tonight, he said I can hold up in the basement." Ryder bit his lip and looked to the ground. "Something tells me he doesn't know how to detain you...hell, right now, I don't even know if I could detain you. Do you think it's safe? I think we should talk to Jake. It's okay if you don't want to come home, I get that, but we can't pull this off by ourselves this time." Dex furrowed his eyebrow at the sound of Jake's name, "No. I'm not ready for him to see my eyes yet Ry, he doesn't know the full story. I'll call him and tell him I'm fine, we can even get Dave to get mountain ash or something, wolfs bane, something for insurance. I don't want Jake involved tonight, please respect that." Ryder sighed before he nodded in agreement. "Okay...I won't say anything..." He took a deep breath and rubbed the back of his own neck trying to sort this out. "I know where Kira keeps her mountain ash...I'll have to try and sneak it from her dorm and get back here before the sun sets...I don't feel good about this at all."
Dex held back a grimace and he shrugged, "I'm not expecting you to feel good about it. I'm expecting you to just leave Jake out of it... Between you and Dave I'll be fine. You can hold me down, and I hope I'll just subconsciously remember that he's human, and good." he paused and looked Ryder's face over, "Hopefully." He didn't want to hurt Ryder, or Dave, but Ry was more durable, and stronger and he knew that between the two of them Ryder had a chance at survival, Dave would be dead within seconds, so he was going to be the back up. He had his dads shot gun, and Dex had already given him instructions to shoot him if he was lunging at him Dave felt uneasy about it, but he agree, anything to help. Ryder's anxiety peaked on his chemo signals and he just nodded. This wasn't going to end well and he knew it, but if he denied Dex what he was asking for, then there was no telling what he might say or do. Ryder would rather know where he was than risk losing track of him. The guilt was already settling in the pit of his stomach as he pulled away from Dex. "I'll be back with the ash..." Dex looked him over as he pulled away, then nodded slowly, "I'll be here." he said. He watched Ryder walk away and then turned into the house, moving up back into Dave's room, "We need to chain me up now." Dave stood up and nodded, "Okay, my Dad's hunting stuff is downstairs, there's chains and ropes too...Do you want water? Or food or anything? I don't know how all this works, but I feel kind of important." he stated. Dex followed him down the stairs clenching his teeth, "It's better if I'm dehydrated and weak." Dave moved over to the caged weapons and chains, he pulled out a key from the desk in the corner and then went to open it, "I wasn't sure...Like I said first time, do you want me to stay down here?" he questioned. Dex slammed him against the cage and growled, his eyes bright blue, "Shut up you piece of piss." he snapped. Dave put his arms up, "Woah, Dex! Calm down! What did I say?!" Dex held him still, fighting against his shift until he realized who he had pinned, his eye color dimmed and he stepped back, "I'm sorry." Dave nodded watching him step back, he turned then grabbing the chains from the unlocked cage and moving over to one of the large concrete pillars holding up the house. Dex moved against it and let Dave secure it tightly, "Do you know what your doing?" Dave smiled and nodded as he tightened the chains causing Dex to gasp slightly, "You sure do." he wheezed. Dave wrapped his wrists in rope to the chains and then moved in front of him, "Too tight?" he questioned. Dex shook his head and looked up at Dave, "Yes. But that's perfect." he said quietly. Dave stepped back and looked Dex up and down, grimacing slightly, "You don't look comfortable." Dex shrugged, "It's not about my comfortability Mate, it's about your safety, and maybe the lives of others." Dave moved over to the fridge they had in the basement, mainly for alcohol but he pulled out a water bottle and stepped over to Dex, "Here...Mate, I know you said it was better if you didn't, but I don't think it's better, in fact I think it's incredibly stupid, maybe you being dehydrated makes you more antsy." Dex watched as Dave took the cap off the water bottle and move forward, tilting the bottle into Dex's mouth, after a few seconds he pulled it away and raised an eyebrow, "Still super on edge?" he questioned. Dex shook his head, "Refreshed, but not jittery." he stated. Dave nodded and smiled, "Good, I'll make you a sandwich." Dex looked at him, "Hey, Dave? I just want you to promise me, if I try to hurt you tonight, or get loose, shoot me. Understood? I'll heal, but you won't, so keep me as far away as possible from you, yeah?" Dave looked him over, shaking his head no first and then letting out a sigh, "Fine." he mumbled and turned up the stairs. Dex smirked, "As much as I appreciate the reluctance I need you to promise me." he called up. Dave turned on the middle stair, "I'm reluctant because I don't want to hurt you. But...as you wish, I promise." Dex nodded, "Atta boy."
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Jake stepped down the stairs slowly, listening to hear where Dex was, he stepped onto the ground and looked to the body cowering in the cage with a shotgun. He stared and stepped forward, "Dave right?" he questioned. Dave nodded and looked over to the next room of the basement, "He went in there, I only shot his leg, it didn't do much.." he stated. His cheek was bloody, three gashes in the flesh, "He got out of his chains." Jake stared through the cage, "Stay in there okay? We have this." he said calmly. He stood up from the cage while Dave held the gun like a person trying to reassure himself that he would make it out alive. Jake stepped forward, "Dex, come here..." he called out, positioning himself to take a hit. Dex hovered in the doorway his eyes bright blue, fully shifted, "Why are you here." Jake stared, "Your eyes...?" Dex bared his teeth and growled, "WHY ARE YOU HERE?!" he roared. Jake let his eyes go red, "Hey!" Dex stepped forward his eyes moving to Ryder, "Of course you told him. You little ******** coward. You can pretty much ******** off now." Jake stepped in the way of Ryder, "I found him." Dex snarled at Jake and scowled before turning his gaze to Ryder, "I suggest you bugger the ******** off before I remember I've seen you, yeah?" his body shook and he clenched his hands tightly. Jake was cautious having texted Finn prior to this, he remained in between Ryder and Dex, casting a glance to Dave who was still in the cage as if cowering from great whites. Dex was trying to hold himself back, trying to shift back, but there was just so much power and it felt so good to let it out. With every breath he took, the wolf inside him growled and he was ready to pounce and snap every bone in any body that got in his way. Jake stared, "You need to calm down, at least for a minute." he said and stepped forward. Dex snapped his teeth at him and Jake held his hands up, listening as Ryder spoke he sighed inwardly. Ryder shifted, having been standing guard for Dave, and tried to give Dex the benefit of the doubt until he started name calling. It pissed him right the ******** off and he roared from the depths of his stomach. Jake mentioned that he was the one who caught Ryder in the first place but Dex didn't seem to care. Another low growl rippled through his throat and he took hold of Dave's arm rather gently to lead him up the stairs. "Fine have it your way." He wanted to charge him. He wanted to lash out and rip into him as hard as he could for calling him that, but he refused to be the monster. Instead he took Dave outside and led him to the car, locking them in and sitting to wait for the sun. He downsized to only half shift, glaring at Dave's front door. Dex winced as Ryder roared and he stepped back slightly, causing Jake to move in between them more. Ryder had grabbed Dave's arm who almost started bloody crying and moved up the stairs, and Dex's eyes flickered slightly as he stepped forward to follow. Jake stepped in the way then, and anger filled him, he snarled and swatted, catching Jake's throat, just enough to dig in. Jake roared back, shifting fully and lunging for him, slamming him into the wall and narrowing his eyes as Dex struggled against him for a minute. Dex tossed him off then, getting the upper hand and grabbing Jake's throat, Jake gripped his wrist and growled before he inhaled and exhaled an alpha roar that made Dex recoil off him.
Jake had gotten up now fully shifted, growling back at Dex who crouched down defensively a snarl resting in his throat. Jake stepped forward which made Dex bare his teeth and fake a lunge, Jake crouched down as well ready to spring and take Dex to the ground, but Dex sprung first and swatted his claws forward, snapping his teeth. Ryder had come back in after Jake roared, forcing himself between the two and fighting against Dex who lashed. Dex made a gnarling sound which Ryder growled back at. Dex squirmed against him as he was put against the wall, Ryder leaned forward then, kissing him which snapped Dex right out of his attack. Dex shifted back, closing his eyes some, clenching his nails into his palm trying to regain control over himself, getting hold of his breathing again as his breath rolled into Ryder with an audible, "Hmm." When their lips parted, he opened his bright blue wolf eyes and shook his head slightly till they dimmed to his usual pale blue, he let out an exhausted breath and leaned his head against the wall, "Ry?" he whispered raising an eyebrow out of confusion. It hit him then and he struggled to give Ryder a sad smile, as he pulled Ryder towards him, struggling against his instinct. His rose his hand to Ry's cheek which allowed his nails to shift back and he licked his bottom lip, closing his eyes as he felt the pounding of his heart slow down. "It's okay. You're okay. I'm right here. You're good." Ryder tried to reassure him, leaning into his touch and resting their foreheads together. He was still half shifted, glancing over at Jake, then back to Dex. "Stay with me okay? I'm right here so you have to focus. Breathe." Ryder kissed Dex's forehead and kept him close until Finn came down the stairs. Dex took a deep breathe and squeezed his eyes shut keeping himself focused on Ryder. Whenever his heart rate picked up, he opened his eyes and pushed the urge down, he saw Finn approach and he let out a growl, "Get out of here." Jake watched carefully, a little worried as Finn stepped forward ready to take Dex down if he lunged at Finn, but he waited listening to the increase and decrease of Dex's heart. He was making an effort to calm down and that's what mattered, he wasn't giving into it, and he was fighting which made Jake proud. Finn shook his head and extended his hands palms up in a non threatening way. "No no that isn't going to work for me. Do you remember what we talked about? Do you remember what I said?" Finn shifted slowly into his Void form and remained behind Ryder, in front of Dex. "Do you remember what I said about the darkness? We are the same Dex. You aren't going to hurt me and you aren't going to hurt Ryder either. Three things. What are your three things?" Finn took the pendant from his pocket and held it up for Dex to see. "Come on Dex, three things. What are they?" Dex kept his eyes on Ryder, feeling the shift pressing, he growled again, his eyes brightening into their brilliant blue. 'Do you remember what I said?' Dex breathed heavily, his chest heaved and he shook his head, watching as Finn shifted, he listened then and bit the inside of his cheek until it bled, 'What are your three things?' He looked from the pendant to Ryder, finding his voice and closing his eyes, "Ryder. Finn. Viper." he stated his voice small, his growl retreating as he continued to repeat the words, his blue eyes fading once again to the pale blue. Finn nodded and kept his distance, letting Ryder calm him physically. They were both surprised to hear their own names as anchors, but accepted it. Ryder ran his fingers through Dex's hair, kissed his temple, and urged him to keep repeating and remember. He could smell the blood, and cradled his jaw, before he laced his left hand with Dex's right. "I love you." he whispered quietly, running his thumb over Dex's jaw. Dex let out a shaky breath before getting a full grip on himself before he leaned into Ryder's arms and squeezed his eyes shut, holding onto him for dear life, "I love you too." he whispered and buried his face into his neck, hiding mainly from...well everything. Sure, he had gotten under control, but with Ryder holding him, that meant he didn't hate him, and he still cared, and that's what really mattered.
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It was the day of the wedding, and things had settled just a little bit, he was heading to the store to pick up a few things for the girls. No. Specifically one thing that he was sent to the store found and he found it humiliating, but he had gone grocery shopping with Malia, so he knew the specific packages to look for, he was well trained. He stopped in the aisle and loaded up not really knowing how many girls would need them, so he threw in enough for at least thirty. He went to the counter and set them all down while the cashier snorted, to which he chose to ignore. He dug into his pocket for his wallet and then heard a voice behind him, "Hey Dex. You're looking better. How are you feeling?" Dex turned to see Dave standing behind him, he looked to his cheek immediately to see the three scratches he had left. Dex frowned, "I'm feeling okay, are you okay? I...I didn't mean to do that to you." Dave shook his head, "No, no! It's okay, don't worry about it, it doesn't even hurt." Dex sighed, "I don't believe you." Dave shrugged, "Dex, I'm fine. They aren't even that deep." Dex decided not to press on, and was rather relieved to see Dave notice the unusual amount of tampons the cashier was loading into paper bags. He raised an eyebrow, "Your brothers girlfriend?" Dex snorted, "Dear God. No. Well...Not all of them anyway. There's a wedding tonight, and a couple of the bridesmaids are in crisis. What about you? Busy tonight? Or do you want to crash the wedding?" Dave nodded and laughed a little, "I wish I could, but my Dad and I are having a movie marathon, my mom kinda moved out, well you already know that, but he works a lot, so we're just putting two mattresses in the living room and like every blanket in the house." Dex nodded and smiled, "What movies did you get?" Dave thought for a moment, "Ghost busters was a necessity, and then there's a few classics, for some reason he wanted to watch Annie, and then I chose Moulin Rouge because it's a guilty pleasure." They walked out of the store and down the road to where Malia's car was and Dex leaned against it after firing the tampons in the backseat, "So you and Mason?" Dave scrunched his face up and sighed shaking his head sadly, "No...He has a hard time...committing? I guess. I don't know, we're just better off friends, you know?" Dex nodded and looked him over, "Sorry to hear...Did you need a ride or anything?" Dave accepted and got in the passengers seat before looking over to him, "So the moon thing? All that stuff you were telling be, about the extra power?" Dex shook his head as he started the car and pulled away from the curb, "No, Jake took that. I don't know how, but he did. I'm back to my usual self." Dave smiled and looked out the window, "That's good to hear." Dex nodded and kept his eyes out the windshield till he drove to Dave's house, "It was nice seeing you, hope you have a good movie night!" Dave got out, "Thanks you for the ride, and thanks again! Enjoy your wedding reception!" They waved to each other before Dex pulled away and drove back.
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Posted: Sun Aug 09, 2015 12:22 am
 
The wedding ceremony was beautiful, and even a little humorous, seeing as Derek and Charlie weren't too serious, there were a lot of smiles and giggling. At the ceremony, Dex paraded Ryder around like the priceless prize he was, lacing his right hand with Ryder's left and pulling him in for a slow dance till they departed and danced with others. Dex had met Dani, and thought she was probably the most drop dead gorgeous female on the face of the earth, not that he was going to go for her or anything, but he could appreciate beauty. He offered to dance with her and met Parker who seemed to be fairly well...in love with the girl, good on him. He let him cut in before he watched Isaac leave and rose his eyebrow, following him out the door, "Isaac! Where the hell are you going?!" he called out. Isaac turned to face Dex and glanced to his truck, "I have to go pick someone up...Do you want to come with me?" he asked. Dex thought for a moment and then nodded following him into the truck and then closing the door after he got in. It was a little silent before Dex looked to him, "Do you hate me?" he questioned. Isaac's eyes flickered to him for a moment then shook his head and smiled, "No, I don't. If I hated you I wouldn't have invited you to come with me now would have?" Dex thought about that for a moment and then looked to the floor smiling a little, "I guess you're right." Isaac nodded and looked out the windshield, "I've been a little messed up lately, this whole feud with Jake and then Ryder's just been in and out of the hospital and you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I formed this idea that you weren't good enough for my brother." he explained. Dex nodded and sighed, "Well that's understandable, and that's not completely false." he said and looked out the window. Isaac turned the radio down then, "What? What does that mean? False about what?" - "I'm not really good enough for Ryder, so it was an accurate assumption." Isaac shook his head again, "Yes you are, you just don't know it yet." Dex blinked, "You really think so?" Isaac shrugged then, "You're growing up, you make mistakes, I just didn't want to see that. You've done a lot of growing up since the situation with Noah, and I've realized you were just doing what I did to you because you thought your brother was dead." Dex looked up to him and pressed his lips in a hard line, "And yours was dying...| Isaac nodded, "I heard what you said to Lexi, when you told her about how you felt about him...That's what I want for my brother, I just didn't think he was going to get a chance to have it." Dex moved his gaze to the windshield, "Oh. Isaac rubbed his shoulder, "I think you're a great kid I just want you to think about realizing that okay?" Dex smiled at him and nodded, "Thank you." he said and looked down. Isaac looked at him curiously, "For what?" Dex leaned against the seat comfortably, "For forgiving me, and giving me a chance." Isaac just nodded and smiled back to him, turning the music up a bit and speeding off down the road.
When they got back to the reception, Dex stepped in at Isaac's side and parted to step next to Ryder, kissing his cheek and glancing towards the direction Isaac was headed. Jake stood speaking to Parker before he turned to looked at Isaac who had his arms behind his back. Jake raised his eyebrow, "Isaac? What are you-?" Isaac moved his hands to his front and extended a cup with a little beta fish swimming around, Jake stared at the almost identical looking fish and then looked at him and blinked before accepting the cup and smiling. He stepped forward and hugged Isaac then, squeezing him once and then laughing a little bit, "Phish 2.0." Isaac nodded with a grin on his own face, "That's what I thought." Jake looked at the fish and then smiled wider, "Thank you, Isaac. I really appreciate him, and the gesture." he stated. Isaac dropped his gaze to the floor, "I guess I just missed you." Jake smiled back to him and hugged him once more letting Parker hold the cup while he really hugged him, "I missed you too." Dex watched the scene and squeezed Ryder's hand before he leaned over and kissed his cheek and smiled at him. Isaac, Jake, Parker and Dani came over and let the two check out the fish and talk for a bit before they decided to leave. Dex said his goodbyes to a few guests before stopping in front of Charlie and smiling at her, "Congratulations Charlie, you look great." he said and hugged her. She smiled back to him and gave him a little squeeze, "I'm really glad you came, and thank you, I appreciate that." Dex nodded, "Still up for our sessions?" Charlie looked him over, "Only if you are, I want you to be comfortable with it, and if it's not beneficial don't feel obligated." Dex blinked for a moment, "They really do help. I know something's wrong, and I want to fix it, I just don't know how, it gets overwhelming, but I really need and want this." he stated. Charlie nodded, glancing over his shoulder to see Ryder, "Well alright then, it'll be hard work, but it'll pay off, I promise you that." Dex agreed and hugged her, then thanked her and waved to Derek before rejoining Ryder's side and lacing his fingers with his, "Ready?"
When they returned to the flat, Dex hesitated, sure Viper and Malia were out, but the last time he had been here, he had cheated on the love of his life, and tore an emotional strip off Viper. He looked around the the entrance, then avoided the kitchen and lead Ryder to the bedroom, pulling him in and shutting the door and moving him to the bed. He took off his jacket, and unbuttoned the dress shirt and stepped forward, standing in front of Ryder, taking his left hand with his right and leaning forward and kissed him softly. Not to compare or anything...But the feeling he got from kissing Ryder or just...being around Ryder beat anything he had ever experienced with anyone sadly. Dex's left hand cradled his jaw before he dropped it to Ryder's right hand and moved it on to his chest, just above his heart, he moved Ryder down onto the bed before he straddled him, keeping his kiss rather innocent and his touches meaningful. He slowly unbuttoned Ryder's shirt then, taking it off with ease as he raised him up a bit and threw it to the floor, not breaking the kiss at all. His left arm moved around Ryder's neck as he leaned him back down and rose their intertwined hands over his head, he broke the kiss then just as he opened his eyes. "I'm sorry I hurt you. And I wish I could take it back, but I can't. Just know that I'm sorry, and I love you." he whispered and cupped Ryder's face with his free hand, looking into his eyes, his heart beat unwavering, "You're the only one that means anything to me. I screw up a lot, but I want you to know that I love you, and only you." he continued and blinked looking to his lips and then back up to his eyes, "And I'm working on fixing me, because I'm so sick of hurting you." his thumb brushed against Ryder's bottom lip, "I tell a lot of lies, and I make a lot of stupid mistakes, but you have never been one of them, and telling you that I love you has never been a lie." he said quietly and closed his eyes again. He kissed him softly and let out a small breath before giving him a sad smiled, "So I love you."
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When school came back around, Jake was there in the morning, but this time it was different, Isaac was in the passenger seat. The four [five] went out for coffee before they bid goodbyes and good day's and went separate ways, Dex held his coffee in his left hand and Ryder's hand in his right as they walked down the hallway. His mood was through the roof, as he attended classes. He ignored Bastian for the most part, not wanting to even look at him since their incident, the fact that he cheated weighed on him, and the fact that in the moment he liked it killed him. They went to English and Ms. Anderson greeted them with a smile and nod as she got up and began to welcome the students in as she usually did. His eyes landed on Sydney and he smiled a bit, he felt guilty when it came to her, he didn't see her as much as usual, and that bothered him, if Ryder wasn't his, he would have never let Sydney go, and a part of him wished that he hadn't had to. The class went unusually well, and the last ten minutes Ms. Anderson leaned against the front of her desk, "So, as you all know, the college is allowing us to throw a fundraiser for more of the expenses to rebuild the school. The faculty decided that a public bonfire sounded fairly fun, we just need two students to design the figure. Sydney has offered to take this into her hands, but I would like for someone to help her out." she stated and looked the class over, no one seemed to raised their hands or even make eye contact till Dex rose his hand straight, "I'll do it." he stated and then looked to her with a small smile, "It'll be fun, yeah?" Ms. Anderson nodded and turned to write his name down and then grinned, "Perfect Dex, thank you. Any other who want to volunteer to build the bonfire, the sign up sheet is posted on my door. You all can now be excused, just don't get caught." The students stood and left, and as Bastian went to Ryder, Dex moved to Sydney and looked at her, "Things are a little tense with my brother and I, would it be possible I go to your place? We could go through your stuffed animal collection that I know you have and try to find inspiration for this shindig. After school we can go to the store, pick up some popsicle stick and glue, rent a shitty horror flick and build this thing? What do you say?" he asked raising his eyebrow and giving her a reassuring smile. "Yeah sure Dex. You can stay as long as you need to. You know that." Dex smiled to her and nodded before taking her side and walking her out the room, "I didn't really know where we stood with each other I mean. It's been a busy little bit, and I wanted to talk to you about everything, but it was like negativity just kept seeping into my life and I didn't want to drag you into it." he stated as he walked her to her locker. "You are a sweet person Dex. I appreciate you trying to look out for me, but it's okay. We're in this together, and you can talk to me about anything you need. Okay?" Dex nodded and smiled to her as he leaned against the locker next to her, "Duly noted. he stated and then looked her over, "I'll pick you up around five? I have practice, so I'll text you before I come." he said and then stepped forward pulling her into a hug and giving her a gentle squeeze, "I'm glad I have you back." he said softly and
After the rest of their classes, Dex found himself in the locker room after practice, Ryder was around somewhere showering, or waiting in the hallway, or talking to someone. He slid into his shirt and looked at the locker and spritzed a bit of his cologne on before tilting his head to the side as he heard footsteps approaching him. He glanced over his shoulder to see Brett, he sighed and ignored him before he closed the door to his locker, "I want you to leave my sister alone." Dex rolled his eyes and turned to face him, "You know what, it's been a good day, piss off Brett." Brett shoved Dex back into the locker, "No. Listen here shitdick. You show up tonight you'll regret it." Dex snapped then, grabbing him by the front of the shirt and whipping him around back into the locker, snarling into his face and sinking his fist into his stomach. Brett coughed and pushed him back feebly, attempting desperately to get the upper hand on him Dex kept hammering punches into his gut, then once in his face as he held him by the throat to the lockers. Brett was shaking trying to get free and Dex was trying to fight the urge to rip his throat out. After a few seconds, Brett struggled again, and then his eyes turned black, fully black. Dex furrowed his brows and he tried to keep his hold on him, Brett pushed back then taking Dex to the ground and bending his arm backwards, pulling hard so he was immobilized. Dex squirmed and Brett grabbed his right arm, pulling that back over his head slowly, Dex legs thrashed, but Brett's foot was firmly pressing on his spine holding him to the ground. The more his arm was pulled, the more he thrashed and whimpered, a high pitch whine escaping his mouth just before he found his voice, "B-Brett!" Brett narrowed his eyes and pulled his arm back snapping it completely and a scream flowed out his mouth. A roar sounded from the doorway and a figure jumped, kicking Brett's face, and tripping him before bringing him to the ground, Malia snarled as she went to pull his head back, "Malia! No! No! Wait!" Malia halted and spun Brett around who looked up at her in terror, "I-I'm sorry, I didn't...I didn't mean to." Dex snapped his shoulder back in place and rolled it once or twice before getting up and walking over to them, "What happened? Your eyes, they went black." Brett shook his head, "I don't know, it's nothing, I just got angry." Dex stared, "You were stronger than me." Brett shook his head, "Adrenaline rush." he muttered standing up. Malia stepped forward a low growl ripping through her throat and Brett stepped back, "It was nothing." he snapped and walked off, leaving quickly and slamming the door behind him. Malia looked to Dex then, "Are you alright?" Dex blinked and rolled his shoulder again, "Yeah. I'm fine, thank you." He explained what happened to Malia and then sighed and grabbed his things, walking out of the empty locker room with her after texting Ryder to meet him at home.
When he got home, he moved into the bedroom he glanced to Ryder and looked him over, "I'm sorry I was late, I got into it with Brett, and kinda kicked his a**, Malia found us and broke up the fight." he explained, his heart faltering slightly. Ryder seemed to take it though until he narrowed his eyes and spoke, "Okay. You wanna try that again?" Dex dropped his eyes and he ran a hand through his hair, "His eyes went black, and he pinned me down. Malia came in and split it up." - "Pitch black? Like a demon?" - Dex nodded, "The whole eye. For maybe a few seconds, the rest I didn't see, I was on the floor." Ryder sighed and he looked to the ceiling, "Did he hurt you?" Dex shrugged, "Nothing too bad. I could have gotten out, Malia was just fast." Ryder rolled his eyes to which Dex stepped away from, moving to the drawer and pulling out a new shirt as Ryder spoke, "Are you sure?" Dex dug around the drawer using his left hand, nothing unusual, "Yes. He just had me pinned a little uncomfortably is all." - "Alright. Maybe we should talk to Jake or Sam. They know more about demons than we do." Dex looked him over and sighed, "My best bet would be Sam, he's had years of experience, but I can't tonight, I have to go pick her up, go to the store and then work on the bonfire." he said and lifted his arm slightly, keeping his heart rate down, once he felt the stinging pain, he tossed the shirt back in the drawer and zipped his hoody back up, mocking an 'I'm cold' gesture before turning to face Ryder completely and leaning against the wall. "Do you want me to go ask Sam." Dex nodded, "As long as he doesn't...do anything? I don't know he didn't seem like he knew what he was doing." - "Write it down for me nd I'll let him look into the details. It's Sam. He won't hurt someone if they don't deserve it. Where do you think Jake gets that mentality?" he laughed and handed him a sheet of paper and a pen. Dex nodded and smiled, "This is true." he said grabbing both the paper and the pen with his left then turned and leaned over the night table, scribbling what had happened, letting some detail of his eyes in as well as the strength that over powered him. Once he finished, he gathered the pen and paper in his left hand and handed it over, "Good?" Ryder read it over and nodded before glancing up, "You sure you're okay? You aren't moving your right arm much. I mean I know your left handed, but..." Dex watched as he read the letter then looked up when he did, he nodded and then smiled, "No, no, yes I'm fine. Stiff, but fine." he looked to the ground and yawned a bit before meeting Ryder's gaze again and then back to the note. Ryder accepted his answer before pulling Dex onto the bed over top of himself. He cradled his jawline and touched their lips together partially smiling into it, "I love you." Dex smiled back, moving carefully, but not too gingerly and leaned down, kissing him back, "Mm, I love you too." he murmured into the kiss, "I guess I don't have to leave just yet." his lips moved long Ryder's collarbone and he pulled himself closer to connect their lips again, running his fingers down his jaw. He supported himself on his left arm and didn't raise his right arm any higher than a couple inches, but he played it off fairly easily. He rested his forehead on Ryder's, keeping the kiss active.
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Dex had gone to Sydney's after he and Ryder took a little time for themselves. He and Syd went to the store, picked up popsicle sticks, glue and any other product they'd need to make the figure out of, and then they rented a couple crappy horror movies. They retired back to Sydney's and Dex was glad to find that Brett was not there, but at Jesse's. Jesse was a fellow p***k, just like Brett and came over to the house a lot of the time, he didn't scared Dex, but Dex didn't really know him, he just didn't like him in the proximity of Sydney. They finished the popsicle horse and then sat in the middle of her bed, her mom was still out of town, and her father was on night shifts, letting this be a real 'thing' even though they had nothing to worry about, they probably would have anyway. They were well into their third movie, and Dex had started to drift off to sleep, as well as Sydney he glanced over as she leaned on his shoulder and then wrapped his arm around her. He forced himself to watch more of the movie, but once he was too tired he gave in. Dex pulled up Ryder's conversation and half texted him, clearly already half asleep, that he wouldn't be home, even though it was complete nonsense, hopefully Ryder would get it. He turned then, his eyelids heavy and winning as he slid his left arm under Sydney, pulling the blanket over them and wrapping his right arm around her. She was snuggled into his chest and though it was different he kind of enjoyed being the big spoon, out of habit he kissed the top of her head and let his eyes close all the way completely. "Goodnight Love." - In the morning, he opened his eyes and stayed still, his arm felt better, it was stiff, but it didn't hurt like it was. Sydney was still asleep and he just looked her over, he really missed her, part of him was just enjoying being like this with her. That's when it hit him. He blinked and glanced down uncomfortably, apparently his arm wasn't the only thing that was stiff, and he was wearing sweat pants. Bloody brilliant. Seeing as she was still asleep, or seemed to be, maybe she didn't know yet? He tried to slide away from her, but his arm was still underneath her, dammit. He sat up looking to his bare chest, had he gotten hot or something? Most likely, whatever. He looked down and sighed covering his groin with his hand while he tried to get up, "Should I call Ry?" she asked. Dex closed his eyes and he scrunched his face up, piss. "I..Ugh...piss." he said and laughed a bit."I'm good." He opened his eyes and glanced over to her, she was very much awake he smiled and laid back down keeping his eyes on her, "Well good morning." he paused and sighed, "It happens all the time, I'm sorry." he said and looked her face over she was flawless, and all he could think of was how lucky he had been, how lucky he was to even be as close as he was with her, and how she trusted him...And how he hurt her. He ignored the issue below his waist and wrapped his arm around her, resting his face in her neck as he hugged her, "I'm sorry." he whispered and then blinked before closing his eyes, "I missed you." {Insert Sydney Here}
Once they got to school, Dex walked Sydney to her locker, then to his before going to English with her and looking to Ryder, his heart skipping a beat for a moment. He approached him and smiled, kissing his cheek, "Good morning." he greeted before taking his seat and nodding to Ms. Anderson, then giving Sydney a wink before he opened his textbook and notebook feeling rather refreshed and ready to start working. Ms. Anderson spoke about riddles which Bastian was obviously good at, Dex could never wrap his head around riddles, he was always focused on the bigger picture and never analyzed the word play. After classes came Lacrosse, he moved into the locker room and moved up behind Ryder, kissing his shoulder before opening his locker and grabbing his things. He glanced across the room to see Brett and they both simultaneously looked away from each other, not saying anything, not starting anything. Good. As usual, practice between Ryder went competitively. He whipped the ball to the goal landing it within seconds and felt a feeling of satisfaction when the guy couldn't catch it. He turned his head to face Ryder and licked his bottom lip before turning and running to the back of the line, equally as impressed and challenged by Ryder's playing, and even a little bit by Jesse who quite clearly had a thing for Sydney. He didn't like that. Not him. He gripped the lacrosse stick and spun it in his hands before he crouched down for his next run, one upping every shot Jesse took, then glanced over to the cheerleaders and smiled as he saw Sydney get lifted. He waved to her and and then turned to focus back on the line in front of him, casting looks to see her go down, and Chloe move over, tossing her blonde-ish hair over her shoulder, "So you and Dex didn't seem to last too long...It's sad when a guy leaves you for another guy, that's just...pathetic. I'm embarrassed for you. And did you lose weight? I'm shocked that it only took two girls to hold you up, usually we have four others spot." Dex listened in and narrowed his eyes, anger rising in his chest, what a ******** t**t. How dare she even...His name was called and he twirled the lacrosse stick in his hand as he glanced back to the goalie. The ball was tossed to him and he caught it then ran forward and turned, whipping the ball in the cheerleaders direction with a...dab of wolf power. "Heads up!" he called. Chloe turned instead of ducking and the ball came down on her head knocking her back a bit and holding her head. The coach blew his whistle and Dex nodded, "Yes, yes. Bench, I get it." he muttered and handed his stick to the next guy, he made his way to the bleachers and looked at Chloe who was being coddled by a couple of the cheerleaders, "I yelled to duck, it must have taken a few seconds to sink in that it was a warning... Maybe it was the lack of nutrients from the food you don't eat...Honestly? I'm embarrassed for you. Cheers." Chloe stared at him, completely shocked and quite obviously put in her place, no one disrespected Sydney, not while he was around that was. His eyes flickered over to Jesse and Brett who seemed to notice and then he sat down on the bench watching the rest of the team.
After practice, the team showered up and most of the people walked out no problem. Dex stepped out and pulled on his jeans, then his shirt after making himself smell nice. He ran a hand through his hair and then slid his shoes on, idly chatting with Ryder as they left the room and went to the nearest exit, Jesse and Brett close behind them. Sydney met them and Dex smiled to her , wrapping an arm around her shoulder as they made their ways to the exit. Sydney opened the door and stepped through, but as Dex did he was immediately repelled. He stared and looked down to see the perfect line of mountain ash, ******** piss. He turned to Ryder and gestured to the ground, Jesse and Brett couldn't get through either, and Brett seemed to play off the fact that he couldn't get through. He didn't want to be stuck with Brett and especially Jesse, he didn't even know what the ******** even was. He looked to Sydney as she decided to stay as well, Jesse probably didn't know what she was, and frankly Dex wanted it to stay that way. As she decided to stay, Dex gritted his teeth and kept her to his side as they made their way back to the locker room, they would start to get weak but they were together. After a while, Dex moved to sit on the ground next to Sydney and looked over at her, "You shouldn't have stayed. I don't think this is going to end well. And I don't want you in the middle of this. Whatever this is." he said quietly. He looked to see Ryder, and sighed looking to the ground then and over to Sydney as he let her head rest against his shoulder. He was thankful Ryder was there with him he wouldn't be sent into a mad panic, he glanced up, "Is Jake answering the phone? Viper? Malia?"
[ Gifs: Left to Right, starting on the first post.] - [First, while practicing Lacrosse rather angry seductive with Ryder. / Second, while he's attacking Jake on the full moon. / Third, after the wedding when he puts Ryder's hand on his chest and looks at him before laying him down. / Four, when he's making Dave promise him to GTFO.] - [Next post.] - [First, laughing at something the movie said at Sydney's. / Second, when he smiles at her. / Bottom, when they get stuck and he makes sure Syd's next to him and well yeah.]
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2015 11:07 pm
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уσυ'яє мαкιиg ιт нαя∂ тσ нανє нαя∂ fєєℓιиgѕ fσя уσυ иσωmood :: Meh, Uninterested, Disobedient, Whatever, Honest, Flirty, Content, Offensive, Defensive, Angry, Protective, Out of control, Scared, // location :: Class, Parking Lot, Locker Room, Police Station, Home, Jesse's place, School, Field, Locker Room // health :: Perfect // with :: Jesse, Sydney, Riven, York, Parrish, Dex, Ryder, Chloe, Whoever else.   "Do you have your work today Brett?" Ms. Anderson asked. Brett glanced up from his notebook, "No." She sighed, her usual amount of frustration, "And why not?" Brett leaned back in his seat, "Well I was...depressed." Ms. Anderson crossed the pages in her arms and nodded, "Oh yes? Why was that? Brett tapped his pencil against his notebook and then he sighed, "Because uh..I realized I'm going to die one day." She frowned and nodded, "We're all going to die one day Brett, I don't think that's a reasonable excuse for not completely your writing exercise." she stated. Brett shrugged slightly, "Uh...I was trying to. I just couldn't shake this...awareness of my mortality. Everything seemed meaningless including the assignment unfortunately." Ms. Anderson stared at him for a moment a couple laughs from a few students while she held her finger up to them without removing her eyes from Brett, "Very well. You'll stay after school today and find meaning in the homework." she said sternly. Brett narrowed his eyes, "Yes Ma'am." She turned away then and looked to the class bringing up some stupid bonfire that Sydney was running and low and behold Dex was the one who rose his hand to join her. He shot a glare his way and then glanced to Jesse before folding his books and shoving it in his bag. - After classes, Brett reluctantly made his way to the classroom and sat down glancing out the window for he got to miss the lacrosse practice. She explained that she wanted him to write a paragraph, on something that he found meaning in, then he could be excused. So he opened his notebook and sighed getting to work. Once his pen hit the page it was like words just came flowing out, it wasn't that he wasn't smart, he just didn't care. He could easily pass his classes, but he kept up a steady grade to stay on the lacrosse team and that was about all he cared about. It made him feel good. 'Since the dawn of recorded history, something like one hundred and ten billion human beings have been born into this world and not a single one of them made it. There are six point eight billion people on the planet, roughly sixty million of them die every year, now sixty million people? That comes out to about one hundred and sixty thousand per day. I read this quote once when I was a kid, 'We live alone, we die alone. Everything else is just an illusion' that used to keep me up at night. We all die alone. So why am I supposed to spend my life working, sweating, struggling...for an illusion? Because no amount of friends, no girl, no assignments about conjugating any mathematical word problems, trying to understand why Hamlet didn't off himself or determining the square root of a hypotenuse is going to help me avoid my fate. I have better things to do with my time. He read it over and stepped over handing the page over, then looked her over as she spoke, "Brett your future depends on the next few months. Not just for college it sets the tone for everything that follows. I know how you think, you're probably thinking that it's too late and you're going to be a fatalist and let it all go to hell...Brett if you keep performing the way you are forget about college, forget about graduating even. So this counts as your official warning, suspension is next." she paused and looked at the sheet that was face down on her desk before meeting his eyes, "I know you're capable." Brett sighed, "As much as I appreciate the concern. Don't worry about me. I'll do it." he muttered and then stepped back, "Now that you've kept me here pointlessly, am I free to leave now or do you want to look at me some more?" Ms. Anderson glared at him for a moment and then shook her head, "See you tomorrow Mr. York." Brett smirked at her and then turned to the door, going to his locker and meeting Jesse in the parking lot.
He stepped up to his 'best friend' and smiled at him, "Did I miss anything at practice? Oh s**t...Wait...I have to go grab my other bag, I'll be right back." he mumbled and moved quickly back towards the school. Once he opened the locker room door, he glanced to Dex who stood at his locker, alone? Where on earth was his butt buddy. Okay, so yes the encounter escalated, and yes, he crossed the line by calling him 'shitdick'. Frankly, Brett didn't mind homosexuality, he saw Mason all the time and he was actually more amused and flattered by how he acted towards him. He just didn't like the fact that he trusted Dex with his sister and he ******** it up, Sydney had been off all weekend, and he hated seeing the aftermath, knowing that anytime he spoke to her about what happened she was keeping the tears back as best she could, and she was good at it too, but by now Brett was better at telling if she was upset. Their argument got physical and something in Brett just took over...Brett had Dex pinned, snapping his right arm at the shoulder and wincing slightly when he heard Dex cry out in agony. He was going to let go, but that thing inside of him urged him to keep going, he set his foot on Dex's spine and narrowed his [mystery to him] pitch black eyes ready to take the arm straight off. A force knocked him off Dex and he hit the floor, being completely taken down by Malia, a college student here at the college, werewolf, and conveniently dating Dex's brother Viper. Malia snarled as she went to pull his head back, "Malia! No! No! Wait!" Malia halted and spun Brett around who looked up at her in terror, "I-I'm sorry, I didn't...I didn't mean to." Dex snapped his shoulder back in place and rolled it once or twice before getting up and walking over to them, "What happened? Your eyes, they went black." Brett shook his head, "I don't know, it's nothing, I just got angry." Dex stared, "You were stronger than me." Brett shook his head, "Adrenaline rush." he muttered standing up. Malia stepped forward a low growl ripping through her throat and Brett stepped back, "It was nothing." he snapped, he turned grabbing his bag and walking out of the room before they could ask anymore questions. He moved his way to the boys bathroom and looked at his reflection, analyzing his eyes for a moment, no...Dex was ******** with him, he was a liar, he must have been just lying. That's just what he did. He stepped back and sighed, it was just an adrenaline rush, he got like that it was over Sydney, he just got mad. He picked his bag back up and slung it over his shoulder and stepped out, moving back down the hallway and out the front doorways back to the parking lot.
He approached Jesse and nodded to him, "Hey, sorry." he mumbled and glanced to the car that left the parking lot, he waited till Malia's car was well out of earshot and looked back to Jesse who looked him over and quirked a brow. "What happened to you?" Brett exhaled and blinked, shaking his head and looking away from him for a moment, "Nothing...Just was held up..." he said and then bit his lip and shook his head. "No...I was just...I just almost killed Dex St. Valens...He said my eyes uh... turned black." he admitted and shook his head. Jesse quirked another brow and shrugged a shoulder, "You should be more careful with that. I mean I know your lot are the showy types, but I thought you'd at least be smart about it. You gotta think first bud." What. His 'lot'? Brett narrowed his eyes out of confusion, "Wait what? What types...How do you...?" Jesse glanced to Brett and a look of surprise crossed his features, "Wait, you mean to tell me you don't know?" What is fresh hell was even going on? Brett stared at him and shook his head, "No, no..Syd's the hybrid of the family. I'm the normal one, I'm my fathers child. That would be completely impossible." he stated, his thoughts racing, how many else did their mother sleep with in a twenty four hour span?! Jesse spoke again causing Brett to look back up to him, "Everyone is their father's child Bretty-Boy, you just haven't met him yet." Jesse smiled and clapped his hand onto Brett's shoulder, "I'd know that scent anywhere, and the crazy part is you have no clue who you are." he stared at him in half wonder, enjoying the situation, "And Syd is no hybrid. She is technically a half breed." Brett stared at Jesse back, nodding for a second to let it all sink in as he looked to the ground, "So am I apparently." he muttered and looked down to his wrist and narrowed his eyes bending down and picking a sharp rock out of the gravel before he stood back up. He sighed, looking to Jesse and shaking his head, "If this doesn't do what I think it might, you're going to have to take me to the hospital as fast as possible." he stated and stared at the rock. This was insane. He shook his head in disbelief and pressed the rock into his skin then dragged it forcefully, ripping his flesh. He gasped and threw the rock aside before he looked down to his wrist as it healed under the blood. He wiped the blood off his smooth skin and then shook his head, he had never paid that much attention to when he got hurt as a child. He had never broken a bone, even when he fell off the roof and was sure something had snapped the doctor described it as a 'bruised bone'. Things were starting to make sense now. Jesse watched and scrunched his face. "Well what did you do that for idiot? I could have told you about that." Brett smirked, "I wanted to see for myself." he stated and then flexed his hand looking it over, not even a scar, oh yes his childhood definitely made sense now. He glanced to Jesse and let his arm drop down to his side, "Interesting."
Brett had Jesse drop him off at the police station, he told him he'd text him later, but for right now he needed to deal with something. He waved to Jesse and turned to head into the building. He glanced around seeing Rory sitting at her desk, and without acknowledging her or asking or telling her what he would be doing he stepped passed her. Parrish was at his desk as well, and he looked over, calling out a greeting to which Brett ignored as he stepped into his 'father's office. He looked at two officers who were sitting down in the chairs in front of his desk, "Brett, I'm kind of in the middle of something, whatever it is, it's going to have to wait." Brett shook is head, "Or you can excuse your deputies and talk to me like a man, that'd be cool too." Sheriff York stood up, "Excuse me and my son gentleman, I apologize for the interruption. Impulse issues and all." Brett glared as the two officers exited and then looked back to York who gestured to the seat, "You have my attention Brett, sit down please." Brett shook his head, "I'm fine here thanks." York got up to his feet and leaned on his desk, folding his arms, and looking to Brett. "Alright, fine. What is so important that you interrupted my meeting?" Brett scoffed, "What the ******** are you?" York furrowed a brow. "Excuse me? What the hell do you mean 'what am I?' Brett, I don't have time for whatever game you are playing here, I have to get back to work. Whatever this is, can we do it later? When I get home maybe?" Brett narrowed his eyes and he stepped forward, glancing to his wrist before taking the stapler from his desk and sighed, "Okay. Whatever. I get it, I just want to check something out." he mumbled and then slammed York's hand down on the desk and stapled the top of his hand. York cried out in pain and jerked his hand back, prying out the staple, and looking at Brett like he was psychotic. "What the ******** is wrong with you!? Dammit Brett!" His hand bled and bled as Brett managed to hit a vein, with no signs of healing. "Parrish!" he called, ready to have his deputy escort his son out of the building. Brett looked his hand over and then nodded to himself, tossing the stapler over his shoulder and pinching the bridge of his nose as Parrish came through the door, "What happened...? Oh my god." he questioned. Brett snorted, "You have him on such a tight leash, just like Sydney, just like mom. I want a paternity test." Parrish stared at Brett as he grabbed the first aid kit from the wall and began to look York's hand over. "A paternity test!? Are you kidding me!? I've been with your mother since high school for crying out loud! We haven't split up since we got together Sophomore year! What the hell do you mean you want a paternity test!?" York didn't pay any mind to Parrish tending his injury, totally floored by Brett's new accusation. Brett glared at York, "Oh? Really."
Parrish put his hand up and shook his head, "Brett..." Brett shoved Parrish aside, sending him flying into the wall, and shoving York against the wall behind his desk shoving his arm against his neck and letting his eyes flickering black, "Maybe I managed to gather some extra genes." York was in a state of shock. "What the..." His heart jumped so hard it nearly brought on a stroke, before a black figure manifested in the center of the room. The figure lunged and grabbed Brett, placing him swiftly behind himself, just as the sound of a gun being fired sounded. It hit the figure, and he looked to the bullet hole in his chest, letting the hood of his cloak down to reveal his face. He forced the bullet out of his chest and it bounced on the floor, the wound healing, though it should have killed him. He looked back up and rushed York, holding his throat and lifting him into the air against the wall. When Parrish moved, the figure used his free hand to wave toward him, pinning the poor deputy to the floor without taking his eyes off the Sheriff. "If you ever even think about pulling a weapon on my son again, I will personally reserve a special place for you in Hell." York chocked and tried to gasp for air, but couldn't, totally terrified by the man between himself and Brett. Brett squeezed his eyes shut as the gun fired and felt the feeling of himself going back, what the ******** just happened? He opened his eyes to the figure in front of him and stared as Parrish was pinned, then York, his heart racing. As Riven spoke Brett just dropped his jaw, "You're...you're..? I...Thank you...?" he tried to find words, but he just couldn't as he watched the scene unravel. Parrish glanced to York before looking at Brett wondering what the hell was going on, he glanced to the door and kept his foot against the door in case Rory decided to walk in. Brett looked at York then his eyes wide, trying to take everything in, "You were going to ******** shoot me?!" he shouted, keeping his distance from York, and behind Riven. Riven glanced back at his son with a sassy expression. "If he wasn't going to shoot you, I wouldn't have just appeared out of thin air, now would I? Come on kid, I get this is stressful, but try to think a little straighter, eh?" THe raven haired male turned back to York and tossed him sideways, letting him hit the wall before toppling to the floor. He let the weight come off the deputy, and slid him aside with a slight flick of his wrist before taking Brett's arm and vanishing with him, with a snap of his fingers. They appeared inside Brett's bedroom, and Riven gestured to the closet. "Pack your things. You're staying at Jesse's for now." Brett glared at York and shook his head, just completely and utterly shocked, and once Riven spoke he seemed to calm down some, finding some comfort even in having him here, even though he just saw this figure who appeared out of nowhere, he felt a hell, ha, a lot safer with him than with York, or even Parrish for that matter, he knew where his loyalties were. When it came to who this figure was, it seemed rather obvious loyalties were. Within seconds they vanished, and were suddenly standing in Brett's room, he watched as Riven gestured to the closet and didn't hesitate to go forward and grab his sweaters and jeans, then to the drawer for his shirts, "...Wait. Can you just, explain what just happened, I just wanted one answer, and it seems I just got hit in the face with like.. fifty."
Riven scoffed and leaned against the wall. "That depends on the questions you're asking. I told Jesse not to tell you anything, and he managed, but I wasn't about to let that sick excuse for a man hit my kid with a bullet. Granted he acted purely on impulse, but regardless it wasn't bad for a grand entrance on my part, huh?" He quirked a brow, obviously pleased with himself before glancing back to Brett. "You can ask me whatever you want." So Jesse was in on this? Things were starting to make some sense now...Brett threw some clothes in his bag as he glanced up every few seconds to look at Riven, smirking as he described York and nodded in agreement. He paused as Riven mentioned he could ask him anything he wanted and suddenly the thousands of questions just kind of evaporated. He closed his eyes trying to think about at least one his eyes moved back to focus on Riven and as soon as he opened his mouth words seemed to just spill out. "You know Jesse? How? How are you my Dad? You're not Sydney's Dad right? Is York just some guy my mother met? Am I like you? How's your bullet wound? Are you okay? What's going on? So you know my mom? How did you meet if her and York were unfortunately together since high school? Would I have died? What are you? Well...Not what are you, just well yes, actually. What are you? Did you take my mother or were you together? Was it an affair? How is this even possible?" he paused and exhaled the rest of his breath then shook his head, "...Where were you?" Riven half smiled and stared at Brett, amused by his enthusiasm. "Jesse works for me in exchange for my protection. He is a born hybrid, the only of his kind. I am biologically and genetically your father, yes. Sydney is not of me, she is of an archangel named Gabriel. York was Melissa's high school sweetheart, she met me a year earlier. As far as you being 'like me', yes, slowly you are gaining your abilities, as I knew you would. The bullet? Oh, yeah, that was nothing, I'm fine." Riven slowed his answers down a bit to be sure it all came out right. "I met Melissa when she was fifteen. There is a being known as Nogitsune, or Void, and before Finn was his mother Julie. She lost control once, and as Keeper of the Void, it was my responsibility to stop her. Melissa was at a slumber party and three of her closest friends were killed in front of her that night. I stopped Julie before she killed Melissa, and something just kept calling me back to check on her. Years passed and I remained in and out of her life regularly, until eventually there was an incident, and she came calling for me...hence you. Anyway. I am known for many things. I am Keeper of the Void as I stated, I am Lucifer's assistant, so to speak, and with him caged, it is my job to guard Hell from the angels. Basically I'm a Demon on steriods. Regarding the 'affair' question, I suppose technically it was, yeah. York had one too many to drink and she walked out. She spent the next two days with me, then Gabriel meddled and I lost her." A bit of fire lit in Riven's eyes as he recalled the memory, looking to the floor as the scenes played back in his head. "Gabriel is an Archangel, and a trickster. He likes to play mind games more than anything, and when I was beckoned, he approached Melissa, and ruined her memories. He turned her against me, and convinced her to give York a second chance, but not before he had his way with her, resulting in Sydney. Melissa did what she was told and went back to York, even though I knew she couldn't stand him after their argument. I couldn't reverse it. I couldn't help her because she is human. As for you, Gabriel has been taking your memories of me away since you were born. I've always been around, but he kept me from you for his own sick pleasure. Now that your eyes have turned, I can fix that, and he won't be able to control you anymore. It's a damn shame really, and for Melissa, it still is."
Brett and Riven spoke for a little while before Brett went to Jesse's, speaking about his night's events and what happened with Riven. He needed to talk to someone, someone who got it, that someone just happened to be Jesse, and he was just appreciative that he was there for him. He knew Jesse wasn't the most emotional person, and he kind of liked the fact that he didn't make a big deal out of everything. Jesse accepted him, and right now, that's all he needed. Even though he knew he shouldn't let it bother him, the sound of the gun releasing a bullet echoed in his mind, it couldn't have killed him, but nonetheless it was the act itself that stung a little. - He went to school with Jesse, greeting Sydney before class and giving her the low down on what had happened and why he wasn't going to be home for a while. The day continued normally until lacrosse where Chloe was bitching to Syd, or so it seemed seeing as Dex nailed her in the back of the head with a lacrosse ball. He glanced to Dex and gave him a confused look, why had he done that? He didn't have to, that was rather abrupt. He continued practicing their play and set the question on the back burner. After practice, they seemed to be stuck in the school, and Sydney stupidly chose to stay, he knew she was special, and he was confident he could protect her, but he still didn't like the idea of her being in harms way. Once they all settled in the locker room and barricaded the doors he moved to see Dex alone in coaches office, blocking the windows in case any shots were fired and he leaned against the door frame, "What did Chloe do?" Dex moved the desk against the window and looked over his shoulder to see Brett, he let out a breath, "Just unnecessary insults." he paused, turning and moving more furniture against the window, "She didn't deserve it, and I couldn't say anything." he stated. Brett nodded, "That was nice of you. Thank you." Dex sighed and leaned against the desk, "It was no big deal." Brett gave him the 'come on' look before raising an eyebrow, "Okay, you may be with Ryder now. But I know it meant the world to her, and I appreciate you at least trying with her. She misses you, and she cares about you, you probably saved her today." Dex looked down and shook his head, "No, I just did what anyone would do." Brett shook his head, "It's what I would have done, and I didn't hear what happened. You did it, no one else, not the other girls, not the guys, not Ryder, you Dex. So thank you." Dex met his eyes and Brett shrugged, "I'm just saying that's the guy I saw with my sister. That is who I know she deserves, and I know he's still in there, I just hope you find him again." Dex stared at him and then pushed himself off from his leaning stance, keeping his eyes on the ground as he moved passed Brett and back into the locker room where he sat next to Sydney, letting her lean her head against his shoulder. Brett rotated on his leaning stance and listened as Dex questioned Ryder about anyone answering their phones, Brett caught his eyes for a moment and bowed his head slightly before pushing himself off the wall and next to Jesse.
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2015 2:47 am
 ¢ℓσѕιиg тιмє, σρєи αℓℓ тнє ∂σσяѕ αи∂ ℓєт уσυ ιитσ тнє ωσяℓ∂mood :: Tired, Okay, Loving, Buzzed, Attracted, Tempted, Touchy, Guilty, Quiet, Secretive, Apologetic, Concerned, Guilty, Empathetic, Defensive, Sad, Worried, Panicked, Scared, Terrified, Worried, Angry, Exhausted, Frustrated, Upset, Defeated, Sorry, Hopeful, Okay, Determined, Wired, Honest, Alright in General, Fine, Fine, Fine, Defensive....Obviously, Angry, Drunk, - - - Confused, Scared, Better, Understanding, Curious. // location :: Locker Room, Sydney's, School, Home, Forest, School, Hallway, Math, English, Costume Shop, Elijah's, Home, Guest Room, Birthday Party, Outside, Intersection, Ambulance, Hospital, ICU, Hospital Room, Viper's // health :: Perfect - Drunk/Good - Danger! - Okay - Perfect // with :: Ryder, Sydney, Brett, Jesse, Elijah, Viper, Malia, Jake, Finn, Isaac, Lexi, Dave, Anyone else    
Dex had his eyes closed, rather annoyed by Brett's constant glances over. He didn't appreciate what he had said especially when Ryder could hear everything in the other room. He sat with Sydney and looked her over a little worried about her, Chloe had been the biggest little b***h. Dex raised his eyebrow, "You know what Chloe said isn't true, right? She's jealous." he said quietly and then tapped his fingers together listening to her pretty little voice. She sat next to him on the floor, pompoms in hand in her lap. "Jealous? No. She is just a jaded person that likes putting people down. Even if she is wrong, it doesn't really make a difference." She pulled on one of the tassels and kept her eyes down. Dex nodded, "She's wrong. And I know it doesn't make a difference, I just wanted you to know that you're better than her and you shouldn't let that tramp get to you." he stated and looked to the ground. The night had been long, all of them being confronted by Dave's father, and once Dave came in to stop them, they were released and Dex exhaled in relief. He had gone home with Ryder that night after dropping Sydney off at her house, they showered and got dressed, and once he was in bed he turned wrapping his arm around Ryder's torso and kissing his collarbone, and resting his head on his shoulder, "I love you." he whispered and moved his lips lightly up to his cheek. His kissed him once and then kissed the tip of his nose, "Goodnight." his voice was quiet. He snuggled back into his side and let his fingers trace his collarbones till the motions in his hair stopped and they were both completely asleep. The next day he had decided to go to Sydney's to work on the model bonfire, and once they finished it they sat on the bed and watched movies with a more than a few drinks in their systems, getting into a playful hitting contest until it landed to the floor. It took an interesting turn when she triggered something on him and he rolled over, pinning her to the floor and pressing his lips to hers aggressively, and from that point...It just escalated.
The next day, everything hit them and Dex panicked for a moment, telling Sydney not to say anything as he got dressed and went to school. Sydney seemed to avoid everyone, which was the best idea seeing as he neck looked like he had strangled her. He knew he had to tell Ryder, obviously. And he was going to, but the middle of school didn't strike him as a good choice. The more he sat on it, the more he felt bad, was this really going to be the last time he screwed up? Ryder's chemo signals had been calm and balanced all day, and Sydney was in constant anxiety. He had successfully managed to get through the school day and once they arrived home he listened to hear if Viper or Malia were around, they hadn't gotten home yet, probably in the late classes. He dropped his bag to the side of the door and moved to the living room pressing his lips together and staring at whatever he turned the TV onto. He sat on the couch, leaning back against it and propping his elbow on the arm of it as he chewed the inside of his cheek, "We need to talk." Ryder sat beside him and nodded. "Yeah...I think we do." Dex's eyes fell to the floor and he tapped his knee with his fingers, so he had figured it out. That wasn't surprising seeing as Sydney had been a puddle of dark purple nerves all day, he took in a breath, "I slept with Sydney." Ryder nodded again and bit his bottom lip. "I saw. She was in the boys locker room before lunch today." His chest and throat were tight, staring at the floor. Dex's eyes flickered over to him before he leaned forward and set his elbows on his knees, he wanted to explain himself, but how could he without it seeming like he was rationalizing it? He blinked and stared at the floor, "I don't think this is going to work out." Ryder's jaw dropped. "What? Wait...you aren't gonna..." he couldn't even finish his sentences. Was he leaving him before they even talked about it?! Dex's eyes closed and he hesitated but turned to look at him, "I'm tired of doing this, of having to explain myself after I've done something I know is wrong and that I know is going to hurt you. I'm tired of disappointing you. So I think it's better if we just..." he cut himself off and looked away. Ryder stared at him and shook his head. "So that's it? You screw up and you run? What, did I use up all my worth or something? Not only was I not worth staying faithful for, but I also didn't mean enough to even talk to about it? Just 'Oh I cheated on you, kay bye'?" Dex shook his head, "It's not like that at all. Ryder, this isn't healthy for you, but don't think that that what I do is because you're not good enough, because you are, I'm just not good." Ryder got to his feet, trying not to shift out of anger or hurt, and grabbing his backpack from school. He refused to tear up, but he wanted to, scrawling a note for Malia and leaving it on the fridge. He headed for the door, saying nothing more about it. Dex watched him move away from him, he grabbed his bag and moved towards the door, Dex remained where he was, "I'm sorry." he said quietly, looking to the floor. Ryder turned. "No you're not Dex. You just got everything you wanted." Dex stood up, "What?! No! I don't want this Ryder, the entire reason I'm doing this is so I don't destroy what good you have left." Ryder shook his head and bit his lip again. "Don't you dare turn this around on me Dex. I told you what I wanted and that has never changed. It still hasn't changed even right up to this very minute. If you want to go, then go, but don't you dare say you are doing it for my benefit because you're not." Dex pushed him against the back of the door, trying to be as gentle as possible, but anger flared up in him, "I am doing this for your benefit, and yes, half of it is for mine, because I hate the feeling of the hurt in your eyes when I lie about the simplest of things, when I don't open up to you. It's not your fault that I do things, it's not I'm not turning it around on you. I choose not to hurt you anymore because I can't handle breaking you anymore than I have!"
Ryder turned Dex around so he was the one against the door, staring him in the eyes. "I can deal with it. I chose to deal with it because I love you, and to me, you're worth that, but you hate yourself so much, that you'll take all that away from me and call it 'helping'. Newsflash. You're not helping me. You think it's gonna help to get cheated on then dumped, then have to see you in the hallways, pass you in classrooms, see you everywhere but have to pretend you are some stranger I never knew? You are going to be this ghost of a person that I adored, and I won't even be able to speak to you. And you think that isn't going to hurt more? You might be able to deal with that Dex, but I can't okay? I can't." Dex stared at him grabbing his shoulders tightly and shaking his head, "I don't want that! I just think we should go back to being friends. When you and I were just comfortable and we were just friends, and everything was fine! When we didn't feel like this all the time, when things were good." he said exasperated, "I love you too." Ryder shook his head, and turned around, going out the side door instead. He made it to his bike in the garage he had just picked up earlier that day, and slid to his knees beside it, sobbing into his hands. He wept hard, trying not to send himself into a panic attack, before grabbing his helmet and strapping his bag to the back of it. Dex watched Ryder go, and he stayed against the door, hating the look on his face. He left out the side door and he listened hearing him crying, his stomach turned and he stepped forward instantly, moving out of the side door and to the garage. He stopped in the doorway, half confused by the bike, but deciding that wasn't the important thing to focus on. Dex moved to Ryder's level, "I don't know what to say that will keep you from hating me." he said and inched forward, he wiped his tears from his cheek and then leaned forward, prepared to be pushed away. He wrapped his arms around him tightly, holding him close and staring sadly at the ground, "What do you want me to say?" Ryder wept, confused as to why Dex was even out here. What did he care if he was crying or on the verge of an existential breakdown? "I don't hate you. you don't have to say anything. I'm fine." He got to his feet and swung his leg over his bike, starting and revving the engine before clipping his helmet on, and backing out, taking off quickly enough to leave a black mark in the street. Dex remained on the ground as Ryder got up, that being the first time he had actually pulled away from him. Dex watched him go, staying still till the noise of the bike was gone, it seemed like hours had passed, even though it was just thirty minutes later when he got up and reluctantly moved into the house.
A little while later, Isaac crashed through the front door and ran through the house, "DEX! Dex!?" Dex moved from the guest room where he had moved most of his clothes already, was he here to kick his a**? Dex stood in the hallway as Isaac moved out of checking Ryder's room panic filling his chemo signals, "What's going on?" Isaac took in a breath, "Some kid named Dave just called Jake said he got a call from Ryder, it sounds like he's being attacked." Dex stepped forward then now leading the way, Isaac followed after him, Viper and Malia are already looking for him, I called them on my way here." he said getting into the drivers seat, Dex already buckled in. They drove through town first, seeing no sign of anything, windows down while Dex tried to catch his scent, "Try the highway." Isaac looked at him, "Like out of town? Why would he be..-?" he cut himself off as Dex turned his head towards the window, "Just try the highway." Isaac didn't question it then and he stepped on the brakes before U-turning and heading towards the highway. Jake and Lexi were in the car behind them and they were going rather fast, Dex's heart sped as he caught the scent of blood in the air, and then he threw the seat belt off of himself upon seeing the bike, "Stop the truck!" he said as he opened the door hearing Isaac's panicked calls. He threw himself out of the truck, shifting in mid air and landing on the ground before he took off running into the forest as fast as he could. He stopped only to tell what direction the scent was coming from, but it was everywhere and it was hard to tell, he couldn't even hear a heartbeat from this far away. Panic surged through him and he took a choppy breath, was he? No. He was not dead, he was not. He swallowed the panic and took off again, launching himself around trees and over logs and branches the scent getting stronger and stronger as he approached. He stopped dead in his tracks his eyes landing on Ryder's body, a branch had impaled him and he was limply hanging there. Dex screamed then, not a roar, not a howl, just a scream of sheer agony that cut off as a wail. He moved forward, his heart beating painfully against his chest, he pulled Ryder from the branch, stumbling a bit backward as he supported him, but sunk to his knees listening for his heartbeat, He held his lower back and shifted so he was sitting and holding him across his lap, "Ryder?" he questioned, tears beginning to leak out of his eyes only hearing a heartbeat every few seconds, "You're okay...Breathe...Ry. Stay with me, stay with me, you stay with me." his voice was desperate and scared, trying to keep his blood in and wait till the other three got there. He cradled his face and looked at him, his bottom lip quivering as he pushed his hair back and let out a shaky breath, "Ryder!" he called out. And then leaned over him sobbing silently and squeezing his eyes shut, his voice giving out multiple times. He let out an audible scattered inhale, as he shook his head, "Please..please!" he cried out and then curled over his bloody body. Isaac, Lexi, and Jake finally found them and Jake acted quickly, taking initiative and going forward, "Isaac, help me." Isaac did as he was told, and Dex reached out for Ryder as he was taken away and he let out a sob turning into Lexi. Lexi was there to take Dex into her arms, turning his face away so he wouldn't have to watch the other two carry him off. "Shh, Jake is gonna fix it okay? Just let Jake and Isaac fix it. He's gonna be okay. Shh..." She cradled him and held him tightly, like she always did when he was catatonic. She heard the truck speed off, and she got to her feet, bringing Dex up with her. "Come on Dex, lets get to the hospital. He is going to need all of us there for him, okay?" She kept him close to her body, walking him to Jake's car, and getting him into the passenger's seat. She offered her hand for him to hold onto while she was driving. She gave him reassuring words all the way to the hospital, and when they arrived, she walked him in, holding him, and letting him curl into her side. She looked up at Jake when they made it to the correct floor, and spoke calmly. "Did they admit him? What did they say?" Dex stayed quiet after he calmed down, holding onto Lexi's hand throughout the car ride. Ryder wouldn't want him there, all Dex ever did was ruin him. Dex stared at Ryder's blood that was on him and then closed his eyes, fresh hot tears spilling down his cheeks. Jake met Lexi and Dex as they entered the building and he let out a breath, stepping over to Dex and hugging him tightly, "He's stabilized right now. They allowed Isaac in there for right now, I'll probably go in later." he stepped back at looked Dex over before glancing to Lexi, "A few people are already here. Viper, Malia, Dave, Rian, Finn, Kira..It's good we're all here."
Dex stared at the ground, no anger, nothing but sadness, "He was trying to get away from me, I know he doesn't want me here." he stated quietly and then stepped back, "What? Of course he'd want you here. Your his-" Dex shook his head and wiped his cheeks off, "Not anymore." he stated quietly and cleared his throat, "Call me when he wakes up."
Lexi was shocked, holding Dex up and shaking her head. "Dex, do you remember what you said to me the last time? Do you remember what I told you? You aren't really going to just leave him here are you? If it was you, would you want him to leave?" She wasn't being harsh at all, just trying to calm him down and stopping him from making an irrational decision. Dex looked at her. "That was before I emotionally destroyed him." he said quietly and averted his eyes away from her and Jake. Jake stood quietly, he didn't say anything or judge, but he nodded as Lexi spoke and looked at Dex reassuringly. Lexi took his face gently into her hands rather maternally. She was a little teary with worry, but kept up her strong face. "Dex, listen to me. It doesn't matter if you are together or broken up. When you need each other, nothing else matters. Not the hurt, not the arguments, nothing. If it was Jake, you know I wouldn't leave him, no matter what was going on between us personally, and I know the same thing applies to him. You two are stronger than this, and you know it. You don't have to be together to care." Dex listened to her and looked down and nodding slowly his eyes moving to Jake who smiled at her and then back to Lexi. He blinked, "Okay.." he agreed quietly and Jake looked Dex over, "I''ll go and get you some clean clothes okay? Sound alright?" Dex leaned against Lexi and ran a hand through his hair, "Sweatpants please and thank you." Lexi put her arms around Dex and pushed his hair away from his face, holding tightly to keep his pieces together. She looked over at Jake and mouthed 'thank you' with a smile, before turning her eyes back to the broken boy in her arms. Jake nodded and hugged the two before leaving with Finn while Dex and Lexi moved to the chairs. Jake had returned a little bit later with clothes for Dex and coffee for everyone, and as soon as Dex changed he sat in the chair between Jake and Lexi, leaning against Lexi and falling asleep almost instantly then turned and snuggled up to Jake who just looked at him for a moment and then took him under his arm and rubbed his back letting him sleep on him till he decided to call Rosco in. Rosco agreed and he was there shortly, slipping into Ryder's room with ease and looking at his broken body that he couldn't heal on his own. The vampire moved along the side of his bed and leaned forward his eyes empathetic on him before he bit into his wrist and slid it into Ryder's mouth. This was Isaac's little brother, and sure he wasn't a fan of Isaac, but Ryder had done nothing wrong to him, he sighed and let his blood flow into his mouth. The blood poured in and as the moments passed, the wounds began to heal painfully slowly, considering what had put them there in the first place. The wounds wanted to resist, but the blood seemed to be working nonetheless. Ryder's heart rate picked up a little more, at least giving them hope that he was going to make it. Rosco ave it a few more seconds and then glanced to the door where Jake was standing, "It's going slow, meaning it's hurting him." he stated. Jake didn't have to be told twice, he set his hand on Ryder's shoulder and took some of the pain, gasping as it flowed into him, he held his hand there until he gripped the side of the bed and Rosco quickly pulled him off, Jake stared at him, "I don't know what attacked him. But they're obviously very strong." Rosco glanced back to Ryder and frowned, "Well, s**t."
Dave had come out to check on Dex, a risky move, but he sat alone and Dave was concerned, "Hey. I just wanted to see if you were okay." Dex stared at the floor and didn't look up, he had one hand leaned on the side of his head with one finger in his mouth biting on the nail to feed his anxiety. He didn't respond right away, so of course, like he always did, Dave took that as an open invitation to sit down. Before he could speak again Dex answered, "I'm fine. I'm great. I'm horrible. I'm devastated. But okay, thank you for asking." his voice was laced with sarcasm and Dave definitely caught on, but he didn't go anywhere, of course. "He's stabilized, so it's okay, you don't have to worry." Dex reply was almost instant, in a flat tone this time, "Yeah, well you've never cried over the body of the person you love most so..." Dave frowned and shook his head, "I don't mean you have to stop sitting here, or worrying about him in general, but don't tear yourself down because of what happened, that wasn't your fault." Jake approached then, hearing the conversation and deciding to run interference, "Do you want to see him? He's not awake, but...He's stable for now, I don't know if he will be, Ross' blood is going slower than expected." Dex nodded and stood up immediately, "Yes." he said and then followed. Jake guided him into the room and Dex took over from there, "I'll stall the nurse if she comes okay? Take your time." Dex nodded and let Jake shut the door, he stared at the ground for a few seconds a few tears falling down his cheeks, he wiped them off and turned to see Ryder laying unconscious on the stretcher. He bit his lip hard as he approached, hesitating before his right hand touched his left, " I'm so sorry. I loved you so much. I thought...you were my heaven, but maybe...maybe I'm your hell." he whispered and held his hand tightly, "You scared me. You always scare me, sometimes it's good, and sometimes it's bad like tonight..." he said, his breath hitching, "You're going to be okay though. With or without me, it may seem like you won't, but you will." he leaned forward and brushed his hair back, "I love you, so hold onto that." he said quietly and kissed his lips lightly, they were cold, but they were still soft. He leaned back and ran his fingers through his hair, "Get better Love." he whispered and kissed his forehead and sat with him for a while in silence till Jake came in to get him out. Reluctantly, he stood up and let go of Ryder's hand before he was ushered out before the nurse and doctor came in for an assessment. f course they were caught, "Excuse me, but you're not allowed in here, not unless you're immediate family or registered as a guardian, which seeing how old you are, you are not." Dex stared, "No, I just wanted to see if he was oka-" The doctor shook his head, "Please, remove yourself before I call security." Dex huffed internally, "No, I just needed to say something in case I couldn't late-" The doctor sighed heavily, "Well, that isn't up to you, I had a meeting. That doesn't mean you sneak in." Jake went to speak, but Dex cut him off, "You shouldn't have time for coffee, you shouldn't have time for meetings. Your job? Is not to make sure the other doctors feel better about your patients, your job is to make your patients get better. Do you know what could happen in the hour or two you would be wasting in a board room? An hour or two matters, they matter to me! They should matter to you, they matter to your patients. If you leave? And your patient dies? It is not you who will suffer. It is his brother! His family, his friends, his boyfriend, and they will hate you. With everything inside them they will hate you. And her, and him and everyone here because they won't understand why he's gone, why people always leave, why...everyone you give a crap about walks away! Or...or...Is ripped from your world without warning, without reason in... Convenient stores and plane crashes! And useless hospitals! With useless doctors! Who don't do what they're supposed to do! Which is save people!" he screamed. Jake stepped forward and moved an arm around him as security guards approached and moved him back down the hall, sitting him on the chair and getting down to his level. "My life has turned into a horror show. All I an do is stand here and watch it play out."
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Isaac sat next to Ryder's bed looking out the window and taking what was left of Ryder's pain every little while. He looked his little brother and leaned forward standing up and getting creative, taking a white sheet from the nurses cart and clipping it to his IV machine, then across and onto the wall. He boxed them in and then sat back down, holding Ry's hand again, "I know you're not going to die, I just...I'm worried about you. I just want you to know that there are going to be a lot of hard moments in your life, be it with people you love or hate. And I remember when you were six, you showed an interest in music, and there was no way anyone was going to buy you a walk-man, let alone CD's to play. I remember I sold my bike to get you one, and the only CD's I cold find in my budget were Guns and Roses and N'Sync, funny mix I know...What I'm getting at is...Sacrifice. That's what we do for the people we love. I spoke to Dex a little bit, and I just can't fathom what happened really with you, but from what I've gathered it was just a sacrifice, it may have even been the wrong one, but in his mind he thinks it was the right choice. When you get something good in your life you have to fight like hell to stay with it, he just hasn't realized that yet." he stated, "I know that he hurt you. What I don't understand is why you would leave...And then I thought it over for a while, and I've come to the conclusion that if you wanna go...It's okay, it's okay. Just give me a little warning and we'll be out of here, we'll take some time and come back, we can't run away from our problems forever, but don't you think for a second I'm going to let you go again." Ryder could hear the world around him, faintly, but it was there. Isaac's voice was faint, but it quickly drowned out the beeping of the flatline. He wanted to cry, remembering vividly of the memories he spoke of. His fingers tightened slightly around his brother's hand and a tear rolled out of his eye, even though it was still shut. They opened just a little, just enough to look up at his big brother, and see the sheets around them. "I r-remember." he said as no more than a whisper, unsure if he would regain enough energy to fully wake up or pass back out. Isaac exhaled in relief when he spoke a little and he leaned forward half on the bed then looked up at the sheets, "The nurse only allowed me four, and apparently there's a pillow shortage in the joint." he brushed his fingers through his hair and smiled sadly, "Don't you run away again, not without me, got it?" Ryder nodded a little in agreement, licking his lips before turning his head. Whatever medication they had him on was strong, and the movement made him dizzy, but he was managing. "I was just going to the a-apartment. I had to get out." He looked back up at the ceiling and tears filled his eyes, falling over his cheeks quietly, too drugged up to stop it. Isaac stayed with him for a while, leaving the hospital only to shower and change and then staying with him over nights till he was released.
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Since the accident with Ryder, Dex had been on alert, he hadn't said anything to him in the hospital, but Jake and Isaac made sure that Ryder knew that he had been there. Dex continued with school, going on throughout the days as they usual avoiding Ryder honestly, but when he was around him, he was calm and refused to let things get awkward. It was a Monday, and things had been going moderately well considering the following. Dex was still in the guest room, and he stuck to trying to understand and hand in his homework as a main priority, though he was still worried that whatever had attacked Ryder was still out there, and would try it again. He sat in English having written everything off the board as Ms. Anderson wrote it, once she turned to the class and continued to speak, Dex checked out. Ms. Anderson looked at the faces in the class, "Hyperbole? Anyone know what that is? I can assure that you all use it at least ten times in a day." she said with a smile and then looked at Bastian, she knew he knew the answer, so she was going to ask someone else. Her teacher view knowing who knew it and who didn't, Sydney did, Brett did, Jesse was unreadable, Emily looked a little lost, Nikki seemed distant and dismissive, and Ryder probably had no idea and she didn't want to pick on him, her eyes stopped on Dex who was staring out the window, "Dex?" Dex turned his head to look at her after a second, "Hm?" She smiled to him, "What's a hyperbole?" Dex stared at her a little confused for a second as he mentally connected that this was school work and not mysteries of the unsolved supernatural cases. He nodded to himself, "Oh..Uh...It's a literary device. It's basically sarcasm, statements or claims that aren't meant to be taken literally, very exaggerated." he answered, biting his cheek in case he was wrong and he just went full into detail over some other thing. Ms. Anderson nodded turning back to the board, "Perfect Dex, thank you." Dex looked down at his sheet before turning his head out the window again. After the bell rang, everyone was dismissed and as they were leaving Ms. Anderson stepped over to Dex's desk while he put things in his bag, "Do you have a moment?" she asked. Dex nodded, tossing his bag over his shoulder and leaning against the front of the desk as she spoke, "Do I have anything to be worried about with you? It's just that you've been a little...distant? Not really in your head, I mean you answered the question, but I knew you knew what it was. Should I call Viper, or...?" Dex shook his head no and sighed, "No of course not, I've just been a little distracted lately, since the accident. No need to worry, I'm perfectly well." Ms. Anderson looked him over staying quiet for a minute, "You'd come to me right? If you needed help with something? That's what I'm here for, I look out for Viper too, but you're my main concern." Dex stood straight and smiled at her, "Of course, I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?" She agreed and moved aside for him, "Yeah." Dex left the room, letting out a sigh and running a hand through his hair while he made his way to his locker before going to the locker room for practice.
Dex moved into the locker room, throwing his things into the locker before he pulled his shirt back on, he heard the door close and then two familiar scents hit him and his desire to leave increased. Reluctantly, he turned and there stood Dave, with Mason of all people at his side. What was this? Some kind of intervention? Dex looked at them and raised an eyebrow, "Not today Mate, I'm really not feeling the condescending lectures right now. It's been a very long week, and I don't necessarily want to get involved right this very second, because only one of us would be walking out of here with all of their limbs." Dave narrowed his eyes, "Dex, I know what happened okay? I just wanted to see if you were okay, you've been super uninvolved, I don't necessarily think that Ryder just wanted to lose contact with you..." he stated. Dex's anger rose, but he kept it contained, "I don't have the time to listen to your nonsense." he went to step away, but Dave touched his shoulder, "Okay, different approach. I'm sorry for what happened between you and Ryder. If you do need to talk we're here for you." Mason nodded in agreement, just a little, not really wanting to get involved and have Dex rip off his limbs instead. Dex's throat tightened and he slammed his locker shut, "I said, not today." Dave sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose, "Look, I know it's hard, it's always hard to move on from someone. You'll eventually get over it, and so will Ryder it just takes a little time." Dex dropped his bag then, not a beat skipped he turned, grabbing Dave by the throat and slamming him into the locker fighting a shift, or tears, or both. Dave coughed and Dex's voice strained, "You do not have the right to even say his name to me, or at all. It is not your news, we are not a commodity for you because the god damn Kardashian's porn video got old! So you shut your mouth! Shut your mouth! What are you trying to accomplish here!? Want me to stay away from everyone just in case they end up like us?! Are you trying to make me feel this more than I already am!? You stupid, ignorant, monstrous, ********> he slammed his fist next to Dave's head, denting the metal causing Dave to squeeze his eyes shut and turn his head away. Dex took in a shaky breath, "How dare you?! How...DARE you! If you ever bring him up in front of me...If you ever tell me what he wants and what he doesn't want, what you think he needs, I will kill you! I will kill you with my bare hands Ryder was outside the door, hearing most of the interaction, and bolting inside once the death threat came around. No way in hell was he going to let Dex make that kind of mistake and get himself kicked from the pack. He half shifted and pulled Dex away from Dave, choosing to do it this way instead of pushing him back. "Shh, you're okay. Walk it off. You don't want to do this." They might be broken up, but that didn't mean Ryder didn't care anymore. He let Dex go, not so much defending Dave, but more so supporting Dex, both mentally to get through this, a physically by stopping a mess of a situation. Dex smelled Ryder before he felt his hands and he already had his claws shifted back, his chest was rising and falling, his heart had picked up a million miles per hour. He leaned back against Ryder's chest exhaling and closing his eyes and listening to Ryder's voice, which made the tears want to come even more. He nodded and once Ryder let go, Dex stayed against him for a moment before he reluctantly moved away from him to pick up his bag. Dave held his throat and stared at him till Dex rose his hand quickly to fake him out and Dave winced back into the locker while Dex growled low and stepped back to turn away. His chemo signals were full of anger, shock, sadness, loss, he knew it was his fault, but he couldn't control the feeling of losing someone. Mason seemed terrified while Dave seemed to get the hint that he wasn't ******** around anymore and that he would happily risk destroying his position in the pack to get him off his a**, it wasn't like he hadn't killed before.
Ryder's heart skipped a beat when Dex hesitated to move, and remained against him for that extra fleeting moment. He didn't object, just simply let his heart skip, knowing he would notice, not that he could control that. Dex faked Dave out and as much as Ryder wanted to smirk, because lets face it, that's hilarious, he remained quiet, watching as Dex made his way to the door. He let him step out before turning, and following after. He caught up in the hall, and called to him. "Dex?" he asked, waiting for him to turn. "I just wanted to say that you don't have to listen to what anyone says or thinks...it isn't their mess to talk about, it's ours. I just wanted you to remember that." He dropped his gaze to the floor, looking at his feet and holding his bag onto his shoulder. Dex had left the room, and he wanted to bolt down the hallway just to get as far away as he possibly could from the situation, but he heard Ryder's voice and he stopped dead before he turned hesitantly, half expecting one of Ryder infamous kisses. He swallowed hard before he met his eyes and gave a curious look, "Mhm?" Ryder began to speak then and he forced a smile and looked down to the ground and nodded as he spoke, "Yeah...I know, I just wasn't necessarily expecting to be bombarded by it." he said quietly and he avoided looking at him till he caved because he needed to, "Thank you." he whispered after, his voice turning against him, not strong enough to go passed a whisper. Ryder accidentally looked up the same second Dex did and their eyes locked, making his heart hurt as it strained to beat. He nodded when he thanked him, taking note of the tone and having to clear his own throat before he could speak again. "You're welcome...I just-" he cut himself off all of a sudden, knowing if he finished that sentence he would break. He bit his lower lip, avoiding eyes contact, like he always did when he got upset. His heart started to hammer and his chemo signals screamed nothing but a dire sense of want and longing to just run forward and hug him, but he couldn't. And that was what hurt the most. "I still got your back." Dex chewed on the inside of his cheek and he sensed every single feeling Ryder radiated, he tasted blood in his mouth and he realized he was biting into his cheek. He swallowed and he forced a sad smile, "Okay. I know, me too, you know? I really appreciate it, yeah?" he half made sense and he stepped back and tried to shake it off, "I...Uh, I...have to go." he mumbled and kept his eyes on Ryder. Ryder's immediate instinct was to respond, but the response that hit him first wasn't allowed to be said. 'Stay. Just please stay. Don't walk away from me. Don't walk away like everyone else has done to me. Don't leave me here alone. Not you...' but he couldn't. "Sure...yeah...see you around I guess." Disappointment washed over him and he nodded, turning slowly on his heel, and starting to walk off with his head down. His eyes started to mist til he rounded the corner, dropped his bag, leaned against the wall and slid to the floor. His fingers ran through his own hair, resting on his forehead to cover his face, and the streamline of tears that covered it.
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Dex had sat up having not slept at all in the guest room, he and Ryder were done now, and still it didn't feel real. He showered and slid into his faded ripped jeans and a black tee shirt running his fingers through his drying hair and slipping his shoes on. He grabbed his bag and avoided running directly into Ryder at all costs, leaving early before Jake stopped by to pick them up for school. He put his headphones in and blared the music as he walked, he had a sweater in his arms and his hands shoved into the front pockets of his jeans. He approached the street of the college slowly and walked up the steps going into the High School wing of the college. He approached his locker and pulled his History book out before he shut the door and turned walking down the hallway. His phone buzzed in his pocket and he pulled it out, looking the text over, it was from Jake, asking if he was okay because he hadn't been at the flat when he got there. He typed fast, 'Hi, yeah I'm fine, just had to speak to Ms. Anderson, everything's good.' he hit send, barreling into a blonde guy, around his height, he caught his arm and pulled him back up before he had the chance to lose his balance and his the floor and frowned, "Sorry mate, my mind isn't really here. You alright?" Elijah managed to gain his footing and looked up at the guy, nodding his head, thinking it was an attack at first till he heard the apology. "No worries. I'm okay." he said offering a smile and adjusting his backpack. Dex dropped his hand from his arm and smiled back at him, "Good." he glanced around before the bell rang and he his sighed, "Class...Again, I apologize." he said and nodded to him before stepping aside and moving his way down the hall and into the Math class. - Elijah kind of stared at him as he went. A British kid? In Mystic Falls? Seriously? He didn't snap out of it until a few seconds later, grimacing at himself and catching up to Mason, the only other person he knew to try and get his stupid locker open. Brett was already standing at his locker, texting for a moment before a shorter blonde guy came up and tried to open his locker, it was the shittiest locker in the school. He hit the top of the locker for Elijah and then moved returning his attention to his phone, Mason just watched him struggle with a half smile. "You know, I was thinking, since you're new and all, I could take you around town tonight. Show you a few things." Yes. He was hitting on him. And yes, it was painfully obvious. Brett listened to the interaction and quirked a brow as he heard the black kid speak, he turned and shut his own locker, "Or you could put your hands up and step away from the fresh meat. I don't necessarily think he's interested." Elijah glanced to the giant person who opened his locker, but before he could even say 'thanks', Mason was asking him to go out, and the tall one intervened. Elijah's cheeks burned red and a snort escaped him, trying not to laugh. Mason looked offended. "Mind your business Brett, no one asked you to butt in." Elijah took a half step back, having no desire to get caught up in a brawl between Paul Bunyan and Mr. T. Brett cracked his knuckles and raised a brow, "No one had to. I doubt that despite what his sexual preference may be you're not his type at all." he stated and smirked. "Was that a racial slur?!" He yelled, slamming his locker and taking a step toward Brett. Brett rolled his eyes, hardly intimidated, "What are you talking about? I was simply touching on you over confidence and shitty personality, or lack there of." he muttered. "Bullshit! You and Jesse are such douche bags I can barely stand it. Get over yourselves! You think you are both so big and bad, when really? You are childish bitches playing popularity contest." Mason grabbed Elijah's arm and yanked him over, gesturing down the hallway. "Come on Eli." Elijah stumbled and kind of mumbled. "It...I-it's Elijah..."
Brett scoffed a little in disbelief, ready to step away until he grabbed the kid's arm and pulled him towards him. "You're pathetic." he snapped, he didn't hurt Elijah, or move him over anywhere aside from moving himself in between the two, and ripping Mason's arm from Elijah. "Walk away." Mason turned, growling at Brett and trying to yank Elijah back toward him by yanking his arm. He made Elijah trip, knocking his books out everywhere and Mason threw his hands in the air and shouting, shoving Brett. "Now look what you did!" Brett allowed himself to step back at Mason's shove then he tilted his head, letting his eyes flick black before returning to his pretty pale green/blue eyes, "You have absolutely no idea what you're dealing with." he stated. Brett grabbed the front of Mason's shirt and slammed him into the locker, narrowing his eyes, "I said walk away." he snapped, his voice was low and menacing then he shoved him back and then turned towards Elijah who was on the ground and moved to the ground, helping him pick up his papers and books. Mason glared at him the whole time before he watched him help Elijah off the floor and already he could see it all going to hell. Mason lost his s**t, tackling Brett to the ground after knocking him once in the brow. He knew it wasn't going to end well, but he was ready for it, swinging and flailing trying to hit him as many times as he could before Brett retaliated. Brett was shocked when he hit the ground, "Are you ******** nuts?!" He rolled him over and balled his fist before letting it fly and collide with his face. Ms. Anderson's voice picked up from down the hallway, "Brett! Stop!" Brett had hit him three times and was ready to continue, but hesitated and got off as she approached, getting in between the two of them, "Brett, office, please. I'll be down there in a bit. Mason, my classroom, now please." she exhaled and looked down to Elijah and knelt down to his level after Brett walked away, "Are you okay? What class do you have right now?" she picked up the rest of his books and piled them together before handing them over to him. Mason went and Elijah got up, taking his books and saying thanks to her, before glancing around her at Brett. "Thank you." He called after him, then refocused his attention to Ms. Anderson. "Uhm, math? I think?" Brett nodded, waving to him before walking away. Ms. Anderson. "Okay, I'll show you to the room." she said and stood up, helping him up as well and showing him down the hallway, entering the room after she knocked and smiled at the teacher. Her blue eyes moved to Elijah, "There's an empty seat in the back, right there." she stated and moved over to the teacher to explain what had happened from her perspective and why he was late. Dex looked up to Elijah and watched as he entered the room, what the bloody hell had just happened? He offered him a smile and listened into the conversation between Ms. Anderson and Mr. Morrie. Elijah took his seat, feeling awkward especially now that the whole class was staring at him. He kept his head down, and opened his book, flipping through until he got to the right page, and sinking in his chair. Dex outlined the date on the top of his page and then glanced to the hand out they had all been given, he picked up the handout and turned around setting it on his desk, "Question four is what we're discussing." he stated. He would make due, they were simple equations, easy to follow along with. "Thanks," he replied, looking down at the page, then up again when he recognized the accent, It was that guy from earlier. The British one. Dex nodded, "No worries." he said and turned back to the front of the class. After the class ended, Dex caught up with Elijah and stepped in front of him, "Oi, I just wanted to say sorry for knocking you down earlier. I'm usually not in a rush for class honestly, that teacher just...I'm pretty sure he would love to see my head on a stick." he stated and smiled a little not bringing up Elijah's second hallway encounter for that would be definitely odd of him seeing as technically he shouldn't have heard any of it. He noted the lacrosse stick Elijah had in his bag, "You have Lacrosse practice? I can walk with you there? I just have to ditch my math binder." he offered. Once Elijah agreed Dex walked next to him and to his locker, then the locker room.
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Posted: Sat Sep 12, 2015 11:16 pm
Throughout the week, Dex had hung out with Elijah and come Friday after Lacrosse they stood in the locker room talking about the movie they had seen the night prior. Nothing had happened between the two of them, just innocent hang outs, he glanced up at him, "Either way, the protagonist is a buffoon...But, I do have to ask you something, if you don't have plans or anything, don't feel obligated to say yes." he said and shut his locker before turning to the blonde, "So, things have been fairly tense at home, but it's my brothers birthday tomorrow, yes on Halloween, it's quite a hit usually. Anyways, if you don't have any big plans for tomorrow, would you think about accompanying me?" he asked quiet adorably as he leaned against the locker and looked him over, "It's up to you." Elijah smiled and turned to face Dex, listening to the offer and quirking a brow. "Is it a costume party?" Dex laughed lightly, "Why of course." he replied and held the strap to his bag. "Then I am in." He smiled and tilted his head, "Any ideas on who I should go as?" Dex thought for a moment, "Just make sure your face is easily viewed, other than that...Surprise me." he said and grinned, "Though you'd be a great Rocky Horror." he added with a smirk. Elijah laughed and blushed, "I could rock the gold speedo. I have the abs and blond hair!" Dex quirked a brow, "I hadn't noticed." he said sarcastically his eyes hesitantly lingering on him for a moment before he looked away to the ground, then back up to his eyes. "Rock Horror it is. Now all I have to do is find the speedo and gold boots!" He laughed wondering if Dex was serious about this outfit. Dex bit the inside of his cheek and smiled wide, "How about we take a trip up to the costume shop and see what they have? I wasn't expecting you to say yes, thus I don't have an outfit, so while we check to see if they have the two articles of clothing you need, I'll try to find something." he offered and pulled out Malia's car keys. "Count me in." He said with a half smiled, pulling on his hoodie and letting Dex lead the way. They spent the rest of the afternoon in the costume shop, trying things on and laughing about how stupid some of the costumes were, music played making their fake montage more realistic. Everything they needed was purchased and Dex parked in front of Elijah's house to watch a movie that night, things were great, but took an interesting turn when Elijah shared something rather personal that Dex personally didn't expect. He took it lightly and accepted it, sharing his own 'preference' with Elijah before he got a little curious of him and leaned into kiss him.
Elijah seemed to retaliate well, but Dex kept it innocent and pulled back when he felt it was getting a little too 'in the moment' and smiled at him, finishing the movie. Once the credits were rolling Dex had glanced over, "I should get home, if I didn't have Malia's car I'd stay, but unfortunately..." he trailed off and tilted his head leaning forward and kissing Elijah again, moving him back against the red couch thing and hovering over him while he deepens the gesture a little more, holding his waist having a little fun with it till he pulled back some and smiled. "It was a great night though. I'll see you tomorrow." he says and gets up pulling on his sweater and waving pulling his car keys from his pocket and stepping out of the room and down the stairs. ~ Once he got home, he locked up and set the keys on the key rack, smelling instantly to see if Ryder was home to which he wasn't. Dex sighed and moved to the kitchen, making coffee and leaving it black while he grabbed and finished a banana quick. He took the coffee to the guest room, unlocked it and stepped in, relocking it behind him and turning to the desk that was full of papers, the two bulletin boards covered in papers with theories and articles. He hadn't taken what happened to Ryder lightly, and he was obsessed with researching what it could be. The scent was't like anything he had ever smelled, Ryder's wounds had been so bad he hadn't healed for a few days, with Rosco's help, whatever this thing was, they hadn't ever dealt with one before. The blinds remained closed as well as the curtains and he got to work, typing and scrolling, scribbling notes down and drinking his coffee and a few energy drinks he had around the room. He spread papers along his floor and read up on it, possible sightings, what it could be, other people's theories, even searching chubacabra. He stood up and moved over to the window, opening it only to be blinded by the sun for a few seconds, oh...seven already? He shut the curtains and turned heading out the room to get more coffee, seeing Malia right there, "Jesus! Morning." he exclaimed, Malia peered over his shoulder and went to step forward into the room seeing nothing but papers everywhere but Dex shut and locked the door. "What is that?" Dex shook his head, "Pardon? Nothing. I have a really big assignment for all of my classes, I just finished one." Malia nodded slowly as she narrowed her eyes, "Riiiiight. Well, I know you haven't slept for at least four days now, and I know you're a supernatural being and all, but you're not invincible, you need sleep." Dex stared at her, "Well I can't. My nightlight is gone. Thanks for the concern." he stated and stepped aside her moving to the kitchen, then the bathroom for a shower. Once he was finished he got a fresh pot of coffee and brought it and a mug to his bedroom while he typed a little more, after about an hour and leaned back and rested his face in his hands for a few moments before he opened the binder to a fresh piece of paper, he dated it and then began to write like a mad man, unsure if he actually wanted to send it, but he had to write it down.
Ryder,
I'm sure it must feel as though everything is coming apart lately, but you can get through this. I'm still a lot of things. Dishonest is not one of them anymore. Every 'I love you' was genuine, every kiss, every touch, everything. I am disgusted with myself for even laying a finger on someone who wasn't you, and I wish I could take it back, I wish I could take the entire night back, that entire situation, I never wanted to hurt you, I never intended this to happen. Every morning I wake up from an hour sleep, and I want to rip my skin off, I know that you want to be with me, even if I'm hurting you because you can 'take' it, but I can't. I miss you though.. All the time I miss you. It's not waves, it's constant. All the time. And when it gets unbearable I think of things that I love about you, your hands are warm and soft. Hands I know better then my own. Your eyes and how you can look at me for a brief second and know exactly what's going through my mind and how I feel. Your voice, angry or happy it's comforting. How you ran your fingers through my hair exactly thirteen minutes before you completely conked out. When you bite your lip not even in the heat of the moment, but when you're excited, and when you're hurt, and angry, and when you really want to go do something, but you're being held up. Unlike you, I found it hard to express how I felt vocally, so I expressed it differently, but you were better. You loved me with a passion, but I felt it in your expressions, in your touch, in the tender brush of your lips. And here I am, writing in words because I'm a coward. I wish I had the talent to paint the way I feel about you, for my words always feel inadequate. I imagine using red for your passion and pale blue for your kindness; forest green to reflect the depth of your empathy and bright yellow for your unflagging optimism. And still I wonder: can even an artist’s palette capture the full range of what you mean to me? I understand that love and tragedy go hand in hand, for there can’t be one without the other, but nonetheless I find myself wondering whether the trade-off is fair. Personally, I think you feel a little jipped seeing as this tragedy wasn't up to you, or even caused by you, and for that I'm so sorry. Though, if I'm being perfectly honest, pushing aside all of the horrible things that I've done to compromise this relationship, knowing you has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think back on the first time I kissed you, and everything before I said what I said, I just knew? I think. We were wrestling, because you hit me with a pillow, but before that you threw popcorn at me, oh right! Right before you dumped ice water down my back, yes what a fond memory we have there...I tackled you to the ground, we threw each other around till you called the most unbelievable word that we could have picked, smorgasboard. I remember the feeling coming over me because I had felt it before, I just didn't accept it, I stopped...and then you stopped. And looked at me. And I knew then exactly what was going to happen. I kissed you, yes. But it was not just goodnight or to say that I won. Even then, I could feel the promise in it. The promise that you would kiss me just like that, forever.
What I've realized is everything isn't so perfectly right, or perfectly wrong. And that I know I'll make it out of this hole that I've dug for myself, eventually. I know you love me, I do, but I need to love myself before I let you again, but I'll win that fight. The key, though, win or lose, is not to fail. And the only way to fail is not to fight. So you fight until you can't fight anymore. Hold up your head and enter the arena, and face the enemy even if it's your own reflection. Fight until you can't fight anymore, never let go, never give up, never run, never surrender. Fight the good fight, you fight even when it seems inevitable that you're about to go down swinging. And when the fight is down, I'll lay down my armor, when I find my safe place again. Nothing in my life is solid, and there's no way I could truly see what's going to happen in the future, and personally I don't want to. The only thing I do know for sure is that if we both want to, we’ll find a way to make it work. If we’d never met, I think I would have known that my life wasn’t complete. And I would have wandered the world in search of you, even if I didn’t know who I was looking for. I love you more than anything, hold onto that, with or without me.
- Dex
Dex leaned back and dropped the pen leaning his head back and wiping the tears from his cheek as he pulled out an envelope from the desk and folded the papers perfectly before slipping it into the envelope and licking the strip before pressing it closed and turning it over writing in cursive, 'Ryder' on the front before he stood up and moved out of the room, locking it behind him and moving over to Ryder's door, he opened it and looked around before he set the envelope on the made bed. He stepped back and closed his eyes inhaling for a moment before moving out of the bedroom and back to get more coffee. Dex made his way back to the locked room and looked at Malia who was coming out of the bathroom, she offered a reassuring smile, "Sorry...I just, Dex can I just say something?" Dex looked at her, dark circles under his eyes, "No." Malia sighed, thankful Viper wasn't here, "Dex, please talk to me, or at least Jake? Maybe Lexi?" Dex unlocked the door and rolled his eyes, "If you speak even the most rudimentary form of the English language then you'll understand this. Leave me alone." Malia blinked and she dropped her gaze to the ground before turning away from him and moving back into the bathroom to shower. Dex let out a sigh before sliding back into the dark comfort of the guest room. He left once more after that to get a bag to put Viper's present in, and a card, that took about forty five minutes itself, going through each birthday card to find one that related and meant the most to him, he wasn't a fan of stealing other people's words, so he looked for the overlooked cards, not the funny ones or the cheesy ones, but the ones at the bottom of the rack. He sat on the ground going through them, looking for something simple, but settled on just a plain happy birthday card, but wrote, 'I never believed in miracles, until I found you, and you have been the most amazing brother to me.' he wrote, his penmanship neat and tidy, 'Happy Birthday Brother, I love you.' He kept things short and sweet, they were still on the outs, but he hated missing any of Viper's birthdays, he refused to. He included a Halloween sticker on the back of the card for ironic effect and then packed it in the gift bag he had wrapped.
He had gotten Viper the two newest edition in the brand of shoes he wore. Sure he probably wore other brands, but these were imported from England, and costed a pretty penny, but it didn't matter, it was V's birthday and he wanted to splurge, that just meant he'd do a few extra chores, but he knew he'd like them. He had set the last gift next to the shoe boxes and smiled to himself. Viper would make an excellent Jack Sparrow, and he like what the compass did in the movie, hopefully it followed the same philosophy of it pointing you in the direction of what you wanted most at the moment. Eventually it was time to get ready, he showered again for good measure, had a few more cups of coffee, and put on his costume, or lack there of. He had the costume chosen before he and Ryder had split, and it felt weird wearing it for anyone who wasn't Ryder. He messed his hair up and put the required make up on, applied to fake tattoos that looked rather real, oiled his torso, got into the pants, grabbed the leather jacket and gift bag, slid his phone into his pants and made his way to the car. He set everything in the backseat and got into the drivers seat then picked Elijah up, he smiled and looked at him, "You look good." he commented and glanced to the road as he made his way to the hall in the college that Viper had rented. Upon arrival, he took the bag out of the back seat and walked side by side with Elijah into the building. The music was blaring, and everyone looked great, he set the bag down on the table where the rest of the gift were and moved over to the bar immediately, getting two of the strongest alcoholic shot he could order, taking them both in one shot before ordering two more drinks. He made his way back to Elijah and handed him the cup, "There you go." he said with a smile. He turned to look around seeing Jake with Zoey Finn, his sister Damian and then looked to Ryder who was next to Brett and Dave, obviously. He shook his head and looked away from him, downing his drink and turning back to the bartender, "May I have another one of those shots?" The bartender looked him over, "You just had two, and a drink, where did your drink go?" Dex leaned against the counter, "Oh, I'm sorry, who hired who?" he questioned. The bar tender dropped it then, turning back to the alcohol and pouring him one, "How many?" Dex smiled to him, "Two more please and thank you." The bar tender passed him two shots and turned away as he took both of them again then left a five dollar bill for him as a tip and turned around to see Elijah again and smiled "Sorry, I don't think I can do this party sober." he said with a grin, hearing the song that came on, "Mm..let's dance." he murmured moving onto the dance area with the blond. He moved around, backing up when things got too intense at first. Once the songs progressed and he began to move faster, the alcohol pumped through his body quickly, making all the cares in the world just disappear. He jumped around and smiled at Elijah before gripping his waist and going down and back up his body and rolling against him and dancing with whoever else was in vicinity of his body. A few people he had never seen before, he allowed himself to be sandwiched in till the song changed again and he moved against Elijah again. His hip moving against his for the most part till he would get distracted with someone else, then go get another drink. It was a blur for the most part, he hadn't even realized Elijah disappeared, he was dancing with some girl named Hayden, drink in hand, she was older, and she kept it pretty innocent with him. He finished his drink and then turned to see if Elijah was around him, but he couldn't see him. He caught the sight of Jake and Isaac moving outside quickly as if to break up a fight.
He followed outside and looked to who the fight was between, his hazy eyes landing on Ryder and Elijah. Ryder had been sprayed in the eyes with mistletoe, and Isaac was holding him back while Jake moved Elijah inside the building to interrogate him. Dex moved forward and Isaac looked at him, "I'm going to get water, stay with him?" Dex nodded and watched Isaac go before he looked at Ry, ripping the pocket off his pants to wipe the excess mistletoe from under his eyes and cheek, "It's me. Calm down." he stated, his words were slurred, but he tried his best to sober himself up to help Ry out. Ryder spoke and Dex tried to stay neutral, not ready to fight with anyone or get angry, but he took that differently, and he got defensive. Dex sighed heavily, letting him step back, Ryder seemed upset and Dex didn't want to piss him off anymore than he already was. Ryder disappeared and when Isaac came out, Dex looked at him, "Where did he go?" Dex shrugged, "Threw a fit and walked away." he snapped. Isaac stared, "Wait, Dex! What the hell happened?" Dex walked towards the parking lot, "Piss off!" he shouted and moved to Malia's car. He got in and plugged in his phone turning on his music so he didn't have to think. He pulled out of the parking lot, and turned the corner, stepping harder on the gas pedal, going through the intersections quickly planning on just driving, for some reason thinking Ryder was on his way to the apartment in Beacon Hills. He glanced to his left and slammed on the breaks for the stop sign, not realizing someone was behind him, they collided into the back of his car, pushing it into the middle of the intersection. Dex glanced out his window and squeezed his eyes shut, bracing himself as the truck hit his side. The sound of metal bending and glass shattering was all he could hear as the car was sent tumbling, rolling a good solid three times before smashing and landing on the roof. He was still conscious, and honestly, all he could hear was distant sirens, and screaming, but it sounded so far away, like it was through a tunnel. His chest hurt, and he wasn't healing, and his head was bleeding heavily, he looked down to the giant shard of glass in his right side and he gasped a little, arching his back, trying to make the pain go away. His energy was so tapped out he could barely see, Dex tried to pull himself out of the window, but he didn't get any farther. "Dex?! DEX!" Dex could hear Jake's voice, what was he doing here? Jake pulled Dex out of the smashed window carefully, and moved away from the car quickly smelling nothing but gasoline and a bit of smoke, a small blow came and her covered Dex's head then counted down the seconds as he got a safe distance away and exploded. The care was up in flames and Jake walked with Dex limply in his arms, he sat stretching Dex over his lap and stared at him, "Dex? Hey, hey, hey...Come on, you're okay." he looked around to check if the ambulance was anywhere near them. Dex stuttered, blood spilling from his mouth as he pushed to speak, nothing but shallow gasps and the attempt of "R-y-." he rasped before shutting his eyes. "No, no, no, Dex stay awake. Stay awake." Jake shook his head, picking him up bridal style, and taking his pain quick while the ambulance showed up. He met the stretcher and set him down on it, Jake was pushed back as they strapped him in and spoke to each other, shining a small flashlight into his pupils, checking his leg, his left arm, and putting pressure on his side. They let Jake get into the ambulance and within seconds were on their way to the hospital.
When they arrived, Jake followed quickly already having called Viper, and was now on the phone with Isaac, "I don't know...I just followed him because you said he took the car...Where are you? They're taking him in right now and they're trying to resuscitate him, Isaac it doesn't look good. Where's Ryder? Is he safe?" Isaac spoke through the phone as Jake tried to follow the stretcher to the emergency room, "Jake breathe. It's going to be okay, I have his scent, I know he's okay. Call me when you know what's going on. I'll text Finn and let him know where you went." Jake nodded and ended the call before stepping forward to follow into the room, but the nurse pushed him back a little. He shook his head, "He's been drinking...He..I can't let him die." She kept her hands up, "Please, let us work." Dex was rolled into the room, and they began to work over him in a craze, getting vitals and charging the machine to 100, then 200, nothing, by the third try, he flatlined and Jake stared, leaning against the window to see what was happening, following them. What would do? If he lost a beta? What would he tell Ryder? Why couldn't he keep them safe? "Start CPR." The paramedics began to push his chest down and up quickly, "Come on stay with us." the lady urged and Jake texted Rosco like a mad man. Jake watched the scene, both hands in his hair after Rosco replied that he was coming with Viper, it was going on Dex's fourth minute flatlined and Jake's anxiety was everywhere. - - - Dex coughed and opened his eyes, looking around the faded area around him. Where was he? No, no, no, no, no, no. He stood up and looked around, moving quickly through the trees, running around as he tried to find his way out, frustration, fear, regret, shame, all of it overflowing. He was not dead, not like that. He ran pushing branches out of his face and then collapsed, "GOD!" he screamed and pounded his fist down into the ground twice, he leaned back holding his head "I just...I want this...I want this to be.." he growled at himself hitting the ground again, "I want this to be OVER!" Dex was frantic, his throat raspy and his eyes stung with tears and he felt like he couldn't breathe. The sound of foot steps approached and stopped in front of him. Half of him was scared to look up, half of him just gave up the fight. He looked up reluctantly, seeing Ethan? Ethan held out his hand and Dex took it, "Ethan?" He laughed some, "It's Aiden, remember, the one you tried to suffocate on a bench press?" Dex stepped back as if he was ready to run and Aiden shook his head, "Relax, I don't hold grudges. Why are you here? What happened? Are you really dead?" Dex closed his eyes for a minute and then reopened them to stare at him, "I just remember headlights." Aiden nodded and then shrugged, "Well I kind of run this place, and you feel more like a visitor than a new house guest." Dex stared at him, " I need to get out of here, now" Aiden took his shoulders, "Woah, calm down kid. Not that I don't disagree with that statement, but don't worry about your Dad, Finn took care of that a while ago." Dex looked up at him, "Pardon?" Aiden nodded, "He's not anywhere around here that's for sure. You're safe. Finn locked him up." Dex listened and blinked, "Ryder?" Aiden shook his head, "Nope, just you. But you're leaving in a few minutes...Don't get too comfortable." Dex looked him over, "Are you coming with me?" Aiden shook his head, "No Sir, you'll be okay, but don't take your life for granted okay?" Dex nodded and Aiden did as well, "You tell my brother that I love and miss him, maybe punch his arm for me." he laughed and then winked, "See you Kid." - - - Beep...Beep...Beep..."We got him."
When Dex opened his eyes, he hadn't the slightest clue as to who anyone was, where he was, what had happened, all he knew was that he needed Viper. And after a short couple minutes it was established that he had lost part of his memory in the wreckage, according to what the doctors told Jake he had an hemorrhage in the brain, but the alcohol had left his system before that, meaning it probably didn't heal fully meaning parts of his mind didn't remember certain things. That's what Rosco had summarized for them, everyone seemed rattled, and Dex had gotten reintroduced to everyone he stuck to Viper mainly and when he had gotten a little more comfortable he stayed around Ryder as he had before. He had gone home and had the tour, he hung out with Ryder, staying with him the first night, but moved into the guest room for the other nights. Scattered pages of whatever he had been doing before the accident pinned to a bulletin board and taped to the wall, pages were organized on the floor but scattered everywhere. He sighed and picked up what he could piling it on to desk and clearing off the bed from books and pages of research, what in the bloody hell was he even doing?! He dismissed it and went to bed, it was a restless sleep, tossing and turning till the morning. After a couple days he had tried to put things together, who his friends were, etc...He liked pretty much everybody until Dave got friendly with Ryder during lacrosse practice, he didn't understand what the big deal was himself he just didn't like it. He managed to drop two guys the first round and almost damage Dave's hand, and the second go around he let himself go flipping the two guys completely and whipping the ball so hard it dropped Dave. Needless to say he received detention for his 'violent' outburst, but that was only because the principle was speaking to the coach, had it just been the coach he would have gotten a pat on the back. Upon arriving at detention, he noticed he and Sydney were the only ones in the room and Ms. Anderson left the room. He and Sydney spoke for some time, catching up and throughout the entire conversation there was just a heavy feeling of nostalgia and sadness and he knew that it was her goodbye. As he expected, it turned about to be her goodbye. She kissed him, it was short and sweet at first, he held her waist respectively and let her hang onto himself for a moment. Her fingers were in his hair and held her a little closer then, "Bye Dex..." His throat tightened a little not quite sure as to why he felt this loss so much, but it was sad, he felt like he didn't fight enough for her, and maybe that was true, but he hated thinking about how she felt. He let her go first out of the room and once she was gone he left to go put his binder in his locker, his eyes landed on Brett who nodded, and against his better judgement he turned to him, "Brett? I have a question."
Brett turned to him, "What is it?" Dex let out a breath and looked up at him, "I just had some questions about myself and you seem to be the least bias." Brett shrugged kind of agreeing, he liked him, but he didn't, "Sure, what's going on?" Dex nodded, "What was I like? In your opinion? Was I a good person?" Brett thought for a moment, and he wanted an honest opinion from him? Dex prepared for it and Brett nodded, "I'm not going to sugar coat it." Dex looked to the ground. "I don't want you to." Brett sighed, "It's not like you wanted to be a bad person. Honestly, most people just wanted to wonder what happened to you that made you so harsh. You never thought before your actions and you hurt a lot of people, in my knowledge. Lying was your oxygen, you could do it when you were laughing, when you were angry, I bet you could even do it when you were kissing someone. It's stupid how much damage you can do with the best intentions...And you kind of had the subtly of a hand grenade. I don't think you were evil, I think you were just hated yourself so much you never knew a good thing when you had it, so you destroyed it inadvertently. True hell is hating yourself Dex, your ego is what protects you and you did'n't really have much of that either, your hatred...We could all just see it destroying you. You hated yourself because you've hurt so many other people." he explained. He wasn't pretending, there was no sugar on that at all. Dex looked down and nodded slowly, no one had really told him upfront what he was like, but now he had a pretty good idea of who it was, "Thank you for being honest." he stated and shut his locker. Brett nodded and moved away while Dex left the school. When he got home he moved quietly to his room, he didn't hate himself, he was just upset with himself for being so reckless with people he supposedly cared about and he was a little disappointed no one told him. Malia knocked on the guest room door and Dex looked up from the bed, "Hey, I was just wondering if we were making dinner, I waited to start it till after you got home." Dex kept his eyes on her, "I don't feel well, I think I'm just going to lay down." Malia blinked and leaned against the wall, "What's going on?" she asked, concern lacing her voice. Dex laid back and shook his head, "Truth is absolute. I believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold and more painful than you've ever imagined...And even when that truth is more cruel than any lie." he stated. Malia stepped in more, "Dex, what do you mean?" Dex sat up a bit and pinched the bridge of his nose, "I mean I'm sick of trying to guess these blanks that you guys keep avoiding, I want to know what the hell was wrong with me before this happy little accident came along and reverted me back to a saint." Malia stared at him and looked to the ground, "Just give it a bit of time Dex. I promise you, once you know you can't un-know things you're forced to deal with them and you have the blessing of never knowing these things again." Dex scoffed then and stood up from the bed, "Oh? Well I happen to know a few things that I'm dealing with quite well actually." his frustration rose a bit and Malia stayed quiet just watching unsure of what to say and not wanting to say the wrong thing. Dex nodded, "Like how I was before this happened. How I practically emotionally destroyed...I don't know, everyone? And I'm sorry, how did you possibly forget to mention and I quote, 'lying was your oxygen, you could do it while you laughed, when you were angry, I bet you could even do it when you were kissing someone', you conveniently forgot my self hatred issues, what else is there? What happened to me? And why are you not telling me? Personally, I feel like I have a right to know." he stated. Malia was shocked, and somehow Dex had backed her out of the room as he spoke, she shook her head, "It's not like that, we're not trying to upset you. I'm sorry you feel betrayed, but that was for your best interest." Dex raised an eyebrow, "My best interest? Maybe you should have told me who I was so I could work at being a better person and not live in this moment where I walk around and pretend like no one is still hurting for what I did to them, every lie I ever told them, every time they sit there and wonder why they weren't enough. But I was finally better right? I'd reevaluate whose best interest it was." he snapped and stepped back slamming the door and locking it behind him. { Insert whatever here if need be }
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He spent a week after that with Ryder in a house he bought fixing it up, and in some chain reaction, one thing lead to another. Managing to mend some things between them and calling Malia to apologize to her, then planned on making up his mini break down when he got back. Some things had been coming to him, and withing the first three days of being at the new house with no one but Ryder he had managed to figure out something for himself. He loved Ryder, and it wasn't at all what he had thought it was, he had figured Ryder and himself had an on again off again relationship something that they hadn't been serious with. But once he dug that feeling up, it hit him like a ton of bricks and he moved for it, refusing to let himself slip away from Ryder again and sealing it with giving Ry everything he could possible think of. Doing everything he could think of to make Ryder enjoy himself, and allowing him full access to whatever he wanted, by the end of that week they had established that nothing was going to break them up, not again. If they had survived this so far, Dex was confident that he and Ryder could endure anything.
Malia had approached Dex the next Sunday morning and asked if he would like to go grocery shopping, he had agreed and after he showered and got ready they got into Rian's car. She had lent it to them due to the total destruction of Malia's car, and still Dex was the one who drove, at first he was confused with the lanes, but he played it like a video game and dealt with it having been warned by Rian not to let Malia get behind the wheel of her car. He laughed finding it humorous that he wasn't the only one dubbed 's**t driver' and was on his way to the grocery store with Malia. Dex parked and they got out, he let Malia get and push the shopping cart even though she wasn't very capable of steering that either. "So, how did you manage to get your license?" he questioned as they moved into the vegetable area, and he immediately started checking for the best ones, grabbing tomatoes, peppers, carrots, celery, and ten others. She let him pick them out, knowing that he was mainly the health junkie in the house, she just hoped he remembered how to cook it all. "Believe it or not, I'm not the one to blame. People jay walk, they should endure their consequence." Dex snorted and moved onto fruit grabbing a clear bag and setting grapefruit in it after he checked them over. "Does that mean that you've hit random jay walkers? If so, how many?" Malia scoffed, "I have never hit anyone." Dex stopped picking out the apples he had been checking over and looked at her seriously, quirking a brow as if to say 'Oh? She kept eye contact for a minute or so before she sighed, "Three." Dex stared at her and dropped his jaw a little, "You've hit three people?!" Malia nodded slowly, "That is correct." He closed his mouth and shook his head, "How did you manage?" Malia thought back for a second, "One of the high school students in your class, a grown man who actually walked into me and then there was the older lady." Dex ran his hand over his face through his hair, "How serious was it?" Malia frowned, "Well the lady I felt bad for, I mean she was little and I took the corner a little sharp..." Dex spun to face her, You drove on the sidewalk?" Malia shrugged, nodding a little, "Yeah..." Dex closed his eyes, "Did you hurt her?" She shook her head, "Not...fatally." Dex groaned and shook his head before laughing a little, "And the student?" Malia rolled her eyes, "Oh he was a little b***h and I heard him say something about Kira, and it was too easy. He was riding the a** of my car and I simply slammed on the brakes. He didn't get hurt as much as I wanted him to, I should have backed up." Dex laughed and sighed, "Did he try to charge you?" She nodded, "He tried, but Parrish is very clumsy. He just happened to accidentally shred the report, then accidentally dismissed the entire file." Dex and Malia giggled about it before heading to the meat section where he looked prices and weights over, Malia watched him, he did groceries the same way as before, he was a bargain hunter. Even though they were financially stable, he always managed to get the best deals the last time they had gone he managed to score all the vegetables for seventy percent off because they left the prior weeks sale sticker on the sign. Ryder was her favorite, he was her baby, but Dex was a boss grocery shopper and even she knew that...Besides Ryder had an unhealthy habit and was a horrible food influence, the entire house knew it, it was a shock that he wasn't over three hundred pounds. Dex on the other hand? Shopped organic. And that was just...case in point.
Once they had all of Dex's health stuff, and healthy, unhealthy looking food for Ryder they proceeded to the checkout. That was something Dex still did that Malia noticed, it hadn't taken Dex very long to snap back into rhythm with Ryder so far, he had already begun tricking him into eating healthy again. Dex bagged the groceries while Malia unloaded the cart and paid the cashier. Dex moved the cart through when it was empty and set the bags down then moved with Malia out the doors, he pushed it about half way, both chatting idly about one of Viper's habits and Dex explaining where and what time it originated from. "So what happened at detention? You were a little late coming home, and usually it takes only an hour then about fifteen minutes for the walk home. You were gone for a while." Dex shook his head, "I hung out with a friend." Malia perked a brow, "What friend?" Dex got the sense that he could trust Malia, and he knew she wasn't the type to run around and spill everyone's secrets, as close as her and Ryder were she had respect for everyone's privacy. He chewed his cheek and sighed, "Sydney." Malia's eyes flickered over towards him and she nodded, "Did something happen?" she questioned. Dex frowned and looked around at the other cars, "We kissed." Malia hid her distaste, not for Sydney, but for their obvious magnetic attraction for each other, "And?" Dex kept his eyes away from her, "And she said goodbye." he stated quietly. Malia looked him over getting a tiny bit of disappointment and sadness from his signals which made her upset, "Did you talk to Ryder about it?" He shook his head once, "No. It's not really all that important, and I know that he's attracted to me, so I don't necessarily want to cause him any grief over nothing. Especially when it was the last time that she's ever going to do that. I don't know a lot about our relationship, but I know that this time it was her choice to step away." Malia nodded and listened, respecting his choices and reasons and quietly promising to him she wouldn't say anything.
He looked down to his pocket while his phone vibrated and pulled it out while Malia took the cart to Rian's car. Dex turned his back facing the car and answered the phone, "Hello?" It sounded rather busy at the house, voices in the background as Zack spoke. Zack was one of Viper's best friends he had learned and apparently Zack got along with Dex himself pretty great as well, "Hey, when are you two coming back? A few people came over for a movie night, we need Malia." Dex scoffed playfully, "Glad to know your priorities." Zack snorted through the phone, "No, you're hanging out with Ryder I assumed, and you hate zombie movies." Dex nodded and started walking to the car. "You think you know me pretty well." he said and smirked as if Zack was standing with him. "When we worked together it was like ninety nine percent talking about how much you hate fake gore movies...Anyways, can I talk to Malia for a second?" Dex smiled as Zack spoke, "Yes, she's just..." he trailed off as his eyes landed on her. She leaned, hands pressed against the car door, her head hanging and Dex could sense her signals, "She actually just went to the washroom...I'll get her to call you right back, yeah?" Zack didn't sound worried, he didn't even know there had been a pause, "Yeah no problem." Dex hung up and slid the phone into his pocket as he moved over to Malia and held her shoulder, "Are you okay? What's happening? Malia? Do you need to go to the hospital? Do you need me to call Viper?" He thought wolves didn't get sick, and he hadn't heard any gun shots, he had no idea what was happening to her. She kept her head down, biting her bottom lip hard and shaking her head, "Yeah, I'm okay." He shook his head, "Well something's wrong and I should tell Viper at least in case something happens." She went to look up when another pain shot through her and she winced, "I!..I'm okay." The scent hit him before he saw anything, he glanced down half panicked and his eyes widened, "But...there's..there's blood spreading down your thighs." Malia looked up then and kept her eyes on the hand she had on the door, "I'm uhm, I'm having a miscarriage." Dex held her shoulder and stared at her, "What can I do?" he asked as he pulled off his sweater to wrap around her waist. Malia smiled a little sadly at him trying to hold herself together, trying to look away but Dex acted then and stepped forward to hug her. She wrapped her arms under his shoulders and let a few tears come down, "I don't know what I'm going to say. I don't know what's wrong with me." Dex didn't pull away, "How many times were there?" Malia bit her lip, "This is the second time, and I don't think it's a coincidence." Dex listened to her and rubbed her back and comforted her till she breathed slowly that was when he pulled back, "Were going to get you a new pair of pants, and I'm going to drop you off at the hospital, drop the groceries off and then go back for you, we'll go see what's going on okay? I won't say anything, I'll let you do that once you're sure and have all the information." She nodded slowly and thanked him before he moved to the passenger seat and folded the hoodie up on the seat so her blood didn't leak or anything. He went with her to pick up a new pair of pants and whatever else she needed before he dropped her off at the hospital and then went to the flat. Zack met him outside and people started unloading the bags, "Did you lose someone?" Dex looked up, as he lifted six bags, "What?" he questioned a little shocked. Zack stared at him as he grabbed the case of water, "Where's Malia?" Dex got what he meant then and followed into the house, "She wanted to check out this store, but we have cold food so I offered to drop them off and pick her up." Zack nodded, and when all the groceries were emptied Dex waved to them and backed out of the driveway before making his way to the hospital.
When he got there, Malia had already been taken in. He had a nurse walk him to her examination room and sat with her while the doctor excused himself to check out her x-rays and a few other things. Malia's knee bounced anxiously, her heart pounding, and her eyes permanently teary, Dex noticed and reached his left hand over to offer she smiled weakly and took it. About fifteen to twenty minutes later the doctor came back and sat down with her x-rays in hand and looked her over, "Ms. Scott, with careful observation of your x-rays it appears that you have a series of scarring along you ovaries, and a few unexplained fertility problems. As for the bleeding you had..." he trailed off and showed her the x-rays, and then the ultra sound, "The embryo didn't make it. And I regret to inform you that with the significant complications with your body it is highly unlikely for you to successfully withhold a pregnancy let alone deliver, my apologies. I'll give you a minute." Malia's eyes didn't leave the floor as the doctor left and Dex moved to sit in front of her, "It's going to be okay alright?" Malia looked at him a few tears spilling over, "Dex I can't have kids." Dex shook his head and took her other hand in his, "I don't believe that. In our lives...No I don't believe that. We pull off miracles for a living, we have proven that we can reverse the impossible." he explained, "It's going to work out, it's going to be okay." he reassured her and then leaned forward to hug her again promising that he wouldn't tell Viper or anyone, that he'd let her do it herself and that he wouldn't worry about it. They stayed in the hospital for another few minutes before Dex and her went home, and she put up an amazing front, so he did as well. He didn't like lying, not...After everything he had fixed so far, and even now he didn't like keeping things from Ryder, but this wasn't his business. Something that really bothered him was that Ryder didn't know about his goodbye kiss with Sydney, and the entire reason he didn't want to say anything was in case Ryder reacted negatively, he was scared and he didn't want him to be angry or upset with him. After reading the letter and knowing how close he was to losing Ryder, he didn't ever want to jeopardize that and he felt like he screwed up before he even managed to realize.
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Posted: Mon Sep 14, 2015 1:17 am
•°o ι киσω ιт gєтѕ нαя∂ ѕσмєтιмєѕ вυт ι ¢συℓ∂ иєνєя ℓєανє уσυя ѕι∂є, иσ мαттєя ωнαт ι ѕαу. o°• Location: Where I am ⋰ ⋱ Company: Who I'm With ⋰ ⋱ Status: How I Feel ⋰ ⋱ Health: Am I Dying?    The sounds of large dogs snarling ripped through the hallways. Aria took a step back, scared out of her mind, while Oliver took a step in front of her. The door was shut to the study, but they knew it was coming. The hellhouds slammed against the door, taking their time to break it down, while Aria gripped at Oliver's shirt. He turned around just in time to put his arms over the brunette, both screaming once the hounds ripped them away from each other. It was agony, bloody agony, being ripped apart for the deals they had made, but they died together, and that was what they wanted. When the reaper came to take their souls, a dark figure emerged, and sent the reaper away with a banishment sigil. The hooded figure took hold of both of them, and for a moment, everything went black. When the two teens opened their eyes, they were bound by chains around their ankles and wrists, laying on a marble floor. Aria woke first, looking around to find herself in a very large black palace. Everything looked like it had come out of a horror movie, and she had to admit she was scared and confused. She noticed Oliver still unconscious beside her, and scooted her way to him to shake his arm. "Oliver...wake up. I don't know what's going on...Oliver!" The male stirred and sat up some, looking around and freaking out a bit himself. What had they gotten into? He glanced to Aria and checked her over, before looking to see if anyone was around. "Where are we? What happened?" Before the girl could answer, a black figure appeared, dropping his hood, and sitting in the large black throne. "You are in one of the lowest pits Hell has to offer." Riven answered, looking them over and tilting his head. "Are you like...Satan or something?" Riven scoffed. "Oh ******** no. Nice guess, but no. Riven Karthus, Keeper of the Void, Guardian of the Gate, and Caretaker of the Cage. Also, I think he prefers 'Lucifer' to Satan. Just a heads up." Aria and Oliver exchanged glances before Oliver spoke again. "Okay Crypt Keeper, could you maybe be a little less vague, and tell us what is happening? This isn't what the book said would happen."
Riven cocked a brow before looking to the male. Brave son a b***h wasn't he? "I saved you from your fate because I have potential use for you." Riven waved his hand and a table appeared before them. On that table stood two dark chalices, filled with a smoky black liquid. It was thicker than water, almost the consistency of blood, but the color whirled within like a galaxy of starlight being consumed by darkness. The two got to their feet, able to move enough, but not enough to try and make a getaway. Riven gestured to the chalices, and nodded. "Drink." He stated, and the two exchanged glances. "What is it?" Aria asked, taking a closer look at the liquid. "It's your brand new life. If you decide against drinking it, and following my commands, then I will return you to your 'textbook' fate." Riven waved his hand and all of a sudden, they could see themselves hung by meat hooks, screaming while creatures ripped at their flesh. Eternal torture, just like the book they had read stated. The image vanished once they understood, and Aria went for the chalice closest to her. Oliver reached out and stopped her from taking it, and turning his glance to Riven. "Sounds a bit too generous if you ask me. What's in it for you? What orders are we supposed to be following exactly?" Riven chuckled darkly and got to his feet, pacing in front of his throne. "It isn't my orders you'll be following. I reign for now, but the new up and comer, that's who you'll work under. My son needs to learn what it means to take my place, and he needs to start with you two. I have thousands of others, just like like you, that are bound to me, exactly as I will bind you to him. The moment you drink, your human souls will alter, darken some, and you will become demon. I will bind you to your bodies, so no switching meat suits, and after that, you'll be branded and bound to your new king. From then on, it's between you and him. If he finds you useful, the possibilities are endless, but if he deems you useless, he can always put you right back where you belong. He will feel compelled to protect you, and vice versa, if your bond is strong. If not, he can easily let you parish. Basically, by the end of the night, he will own you, and your fates are up to you from there." Aria reached for the chalice again and once more Oliver stopped her. "What the hell are you doing? You aren't going to buy into this are you? This is some crazy BDSM s**t. You really want to turn into a demon and be some jackoff's b***h for the rest of eternity?" Riven stayed quiet, allowing them a moment to discuss it. "Oliver, we don't have a whole lot of options here and I would rather give it a shot. Forgive me if I don't find hanging on a meat hook by my Achilles heels forever appealing. Either we go there now and suffer, or we at least try to manage this. If it doesn't workout, we wind up there anyway, so there really isn't that much of a downside is there?" Oliver scrunched his face in frustration, taking her shoulders in his hands and making her look at him. "Aria, I don't want to be owned like some kind of sick pet okay? You don't know what this guy has planned! For all we know, we could be setting ourselves up for something worse."-"Or something better. You don't know either." Oliver was a glass half empty kind of person while Aria remained glass half full. The male caved and turned to his chalice, picking it up after a long moment of contemplation, knowing she was right. She picked hers up too and they both hesitated before drinking back the liquid, and both falling to their hands and knees.
It felt like fire in their veins, scorching hot, burning them internally. They struggled against their chains, screaming as their souls altered. Suddenly they both shot up on their knees, backs arched, arms out, while their eyes turned black. After the burning stopped, Riven moved to them with a red hot iron, a symbol searing red. "Any specific requests for your new 'scarification'?" Oliver and Aria were feeling weak already, but they thought a second, and decided. Oliver chose his left hip, Aria chose her right. The smell of burning flesh about made them sick, but they managed, Riven healing it fairly quickly. The scars left were actually very pretty looking, but they didn't have much time to look them over before Riven stepped up and handed each of them a second, much smaller, chalice. "Drink." Neither argued, too exhausted to fight it. The second it touched their lips, they knew it was blood. The coppery taste and smell made them sure, but they drank anyway. Finally, their hearts started to race as the blood met their new souls, and they were rendered back to their knees. "Well done. Come now, time to go and meet your new puppet master." Riven waved his hand and in seconds they were gone, away from the palace, and out into the chilly October air. They took a few minutes to recoup, then followed Riven as he walked. When they were at least able enough to function properly, he moved them again, and they stood in a rather expensive looking kitchen. "Brett, I need you downstairs please." Sydney wasn't there, but the moment Brett stepped into the kitchen, Riven gently pushed the two to stand in front of him. "A gift for you. The war is raging and I don't know exactly how long it'll last. You need to learn your birthrighted responsibilities, just in case something happens to me. I've altered them, and bound them to you already, a process I'll teach you later, but for now, focus on them. I have thousands myself, and you will as well, but for now, let's see how you do with them." Aria and Oliver both looked to Brett, weak, tired, hungry, famished, and terribly uneasy. They both felt a jolt on the inside when Brett first made eye contact, sealing the binding between them. They didn't bow, or kneel or anything fancy, just stood where Riven placed them in front of Brett. Brett looked both of them over curiously, "It's my birthright to have...slaves?" he questioned a little confused and then shook his head as if to wipe the question out of the air, "Sounds good." he stated and glanced over at the other two. What the hell was he going to do with them? They were probably just as confused as he was, but he pushed that away, "What am I supposed to do with them?" he asked, unable to even hold that question in. Riven smiled, glad he was so terribly accepting. "Condition them. Train them. They will be your greatest strength, if you train them properly. 'Slaves' is a little harsh of a term, but generally, yes, you own them. They are to do as you say, follow your lead, and fall into line. They are meant to protect you, fight for you, and be allies you can trust without a shadow of a doubt in your mind of their fidelity. Demons like us don't leave openings in the game. We create our own armies, and in this way, those armies remain faithful, but it's all in the training. If you can't make them want to fight for you, if you can't convince them, then they are scrap, and you have to start over anew. At this stage, they are 'babies' that know nothing of what they are capable of. Slaves tend to mirror their owner, so be a good example."
So dogs. He had two human-demon pet dogs. Brett kept his concerns to himself personally not wanting to fight with Riven on this, but it was still unnerving that he had two pet dogs to train. He nodded and glanced at them again, he had to be a good example? Well...He didn't know how well that was going to go over, but he would try his best, "Are you hungry?" he questioned hesitantly, was he allowed to be nice to them? Or did he have to lay out the strictness? He looked around the kitchen he had to make dinner anyway. Oliver and Aria both nodded, unsure really what to say. Oliver seemed distant, not liking this one bit, while Aria was just too tired to express her discomfort. Riven glanced to his son and his expression softened as he led him out of earshot. "I know it isn't 'normal' for you, but it's important. If I get killed and you go in blind, having no idea how to run a few hundred fleets of demons, our entire empire will fall at the hands of angels. You need to be protected. They need to trust you fully, and vice versa. You'd be amazed at what they'll do once they have their minds set in the right place. You can do with them as you please, go about this however you want to, but above everything else, you need to be one hundred percent sure that they'll protect you if a situation demands it. I can't let anything happen to you, or your mother, or even your sister. I have to train you now, in case I don't have the chance to later. The demons aren't the villains in this Brett." Brett listened intently, never disregarding Riven's information, he knew it was important he just wondered if he was able to do this, Aria seemed like the easy one, Oliver seemed like a tough nut to crack, but he didn't want to break them in like horses, he wanted them to be okay with this too. "I understand." αℓℓ αℓσиg ι тяιє∂ тσ ρяєтєи∂ ιт ∂ι∂и'т мαттєя ιf ι ωαѕ αℓσиє, вυт ∂єєρ ∂σωи ι киσω.  ιf уσυ ωєяє gσиє fσя єνєи α ∂αу ι ωσυℓ∂и'т киσω ωнι¢н ωαу тσ тυяи, ¢αυѕє ι'м ℓσѕт ωιтнσυт уσυ. ¢αυѕє ιf ι ωαитє∂ тσ gσ ι ωσυℓ∂ нανє gσиє ву иσω,
вυт ι яєαℓℓу иєє∂ уσυ иєαя мє тσ
кєєρ му мιи∂ σff тнє є∂gє. ιf ι ωαитє∂ тσ ℓєανє ι ωσυℓ∂ нανє ℓєfт ву иσω
вυт уσυ'яє тнє σиℓу σиє тнαт киσωѕ мє
вєттєя тнαи ι киσω муѕєℓf.
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