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*Angrily flips a table and throws it across the room letting it crash through a window out into the street and makes a semi wreck into my house and the resulting explosion amplifies my scream of pure rage*

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*calms down*

Yeah if you all haven't noticed I'm mad -.-

crying Thank you! Everyone I know irl doesn't care. >_>

Well for starters my ex gf who I still have very strong feelings for broke up with her boyfriend the other day. Well her and I started getting very close again, then out of the blue one night she informs me that her and her jerk boyfriend who treats her like she's a freaking lamp got back together. Well this really upset me because the conversations her and I were having together it was clear we were growing close to one another again. Well that got shot out the window and it completely tore me apart inside like I was sucked into a shredder. Then when I try to go to anyone I know every single one of them either tells me they don't know what to say or tell me they don't care. My own parents told me to my face they don't care. On top of that the person who is one of the best friends I know harasses me about a stupid house on a show. They were trying to make a floor plan for it so they could make it in a stupid flipping Sims game. After 13 times of asking me where a flipping door in the flipping fictional house goes to and every flipping time I told her I didn't flipping know I've never seen it used in the flipping show. I snapped at her and started yelling. Well now she is holding this against me and treating me as if my soul purpose in life is to yell at her for no reason whatsoever. I told her oh yes of course I wake up every morning grab a slip of paper and write down ways to piss you off. I got several books worth by now yup yup. Then my family has hit some very hard financial times and I have not been able to get a job and the only one I did manage to get was a job 30 miles away for only 16 hours a week. Of course they might as well said at the interview "Lolnope we don't want no fatties working in jewelry." Then mom tells me that we as a family have to start buckling down and stop spending money and stop running around and all this other stuff. Well last check I literally have no social life outside of the internet because I'm trying to save gas. Only time I leave the house is when I need to go to school. I have stopped buying anything that isn't important. But in the mean time dad hordes his money doesn't want to help with the bills at all and goes to blow his money everywhere else. But fusses and complains if someone ask him for money. Then don't even get me started on how freaking annoying he gets when he blindly accuses me of something and I know I clearly did not go riding down the road on a bicycle and dove from it onto the neighbors horse and rode it drunk going North on the South bound lane of the interstate. But if I say that I didn't do that he gets mad fusses and gets in my face and yells "Are you calling me a [expletive] liar?" and if I say anything at this point other than "NosiryouarecompletelyrightIamwrongandthescumoftheEarth."IgetchewedoutliKEIAMFLIPPINGADOLFHITLER!

*Steam starts blowing out of my ears*

oooooKAY...gimmie a sec...

the ex girlfriend you need to stay away from her...she rebounded with you
she clearly doesn't care about your feelings...but since you really care about her...just take a break from her for awhile and don't let her rebound with you again...but it might be time to let those feelings go...take it easy when you really care about someone it can take months to get over them

the friend thing is kinda funny i will admit...try to apologize...say you're sorry and you don't want your friendship to end on a stupid fight...if your friend truly values your friendship she'll try and work things out with you

your hard times i understand I come from a poor family and we lived pay check to pay check well they still do but i moved out...(i still help with their bills)

your family seems hard headed so having a family meeting about money might not work but you could try...

just keep trying to find a job...and don't think of yourself as a failure...you're trying to get a job...not sitting on your a** doing nothing...

when I look at all this as a whole...the best advice i can give you...is to start thinking about yourself more...

I know people in college that are failing and they are more worried about bfs and gfs...
you seem like a selfless person...i know it might be hard but...just take a deep breath and know you're doing the best you can emotion_hug

haha...i hope things get better for you smile
you have a lot happening at once...so anyone would have an emotional meltdown it's good you got them out biggrin <3

XD emotion_brofist bro fist to go with that hug

My reaction if someone tells me something like that ---> lol

Maybe my suggestion might not be an appropiate one, but considering that i'm going through some similar situations, i'll say it anyways. Try to avoid the people that makes you feel uncomfortable for a while. I'm not saying to give them the cold shoulder, just to try to speak less, if they talk to you, just answer what is necessary, politely of course, so you don't look like you are bitter.

Someone told me that i'm just avoiding the problem, but, if someone (even if they have good intentions) just keep beating me with words, making me feel like i'm worthless, then I won't keep wasting my time trying to explain why i'm like the person I am. So far it has worked for me, and it's helping me to feel more traquility so now I can put my life in order.

Hope this made sense sweatdrop

At least it's almost Friday. XD

Just remember to not make it look like you are giving a cold stance. Just something more...condescending? Not sure if that would be the appropiate word.
Anyways, just smile and wave, smile and wave.

Good luck!