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Broken_Illumination Captain
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 Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2017 11:26 pm
Was It Worth It?
//About the Twins//
Maybe this was a bad idea.
They hate me.
They hate everything.
They don't listen.
They barely listen to Tri, and that's only because they are afraid of him.
I don't blame them.
I'm afraid of him too. But maybe not for the same reasons.
Was this really worth cutting all ties with EE? Leaving everything behind.
Who knows anymore.... Now I feel even more lost than before...
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2017 11:30 pm
Trisuri
//When Trisuri turns himself in//
Idiot!
What was he thinking? They'll kill him for sure.. Or worse!
I don't understand. How could he do this?
Just turning yourself over to them? Naive idiot!
I have to get him. I can't let him stay there. Gaia knows what they'll do to him.....
I don't even want to think about it. It's making it hurt again, something I'm beginning to realize is something far different from hate.
Dammit! Why did it have to be him?
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2017 12:06 am
.............
//About Hexxis' death//
Dead.
She's dead.
She had gone missing for a some time, everyone was looking for her it seemed. A race against time to see who would find her first. Well the winner was ******** Haven.
Tri and I found her dead, impaled by her own sword in a room completely drenched in blood. Even Kae said that her death must have been slow and painful. Gaia, how could this have happened?
It wasn't fair. She wasn't supposed to die in some cold Haven cell, left to rot alone in that place. She was supposed to be with Tri. Things were supposed to work out.
DAMMIT!
And his face... Oh, Gaia, the look on his face. The one I hate. I never wanted to see a look of anguish such as that on his face. It hurt so much to be able to do nothing. He was devastated and there was nothing we could do.
Ree showed up with Cordelia.... There were so many questions. What really happened to her and Ree was convinced maybe her spirit was somewhere. All I know, is that I failed her.
And I failed Tri.
This wasn't supposed to happen. Not like this. Not ever again.
She's just... dead.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2017 12:08 am
He's gone
//About Tri's disappearance//
Where did he go?
Cordelia was found dismantled in a closet and then left in a jail.
Someone had attacked them.
Gaia, I hope he's okay.
I can't lose anyone else....
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2017 12:12 am
The Banter of Fables
//About Ree's Secrets//
There's something strange about Ree now. He spoke of an island. Some place that... did unspeakable things. From what I understand there were people with masks there and people died.
I know he asked Cordelia about a place called Ebonfall and some people there.
What even took place there? He even alluded that Ashral was affected... Well,
she was alive again.... sort of.
Just when I thought things couldn't get more confusing.
Ree won't eat anymore, and he's pushing himself too hard. I have to do something. If he ends up dying too,..............
I couldn't bear the look on Tri's face if that happened.
Just... please hang in there, Ree. I'm doing everything I can. I won't lose you too.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2017 12:26 am
Echoes
//About Mafia and Mise//
It's a nightmare. To watch someone twist my words and my messages. Contort them into weapons of justification for someone to use to rally a war.
I never wanted a war. We were trying to stop one from happening.
It's scary being on the outside, to see just how terrifying words can be. Just what my cause turned to. It had been an effort to garner rights by making the humans hear us. Take out those who sought to hurt us. We never picked fights that weren't justified by their support of Haven facilities.
This Mise guy, he's declared war using my words to back his revenge.
It's not hard to put together who Tri had shot. The mafia leader's daughter...
What a mess.
And now back at square one, who knew my followers could have been so easily swayed, first by mutiny and now by the insane ramblings of an angry father.
Is that what I would have become had I been able to keep Melody and Hexxis... if they had gotten hurt. Would have I raged wars in my efforts?
Is this a glimpse into what could have been? My words, my cause, my fight.... it's all the same. Was I really any better than this?
I built an empire of angry metas that wanted justice.... and this is the result in full flourish of fired up, cold veins, and a hate so deep of being repressed for so long.
Was I ever actually in control? Or was this just an inevitable outcome to everything I tried to accomplish, falling before my eyes to the most basic inherent violence of the mortal soul. All the hate of years, left to fester and never any relief.
Could I have changed this?
....does it even matter anymore.
I gave it all up. I promised I wouldn't fight anymore.
I won't let anyone else I care about fall.
I will protect what little I have left.
If there's anything I can do right, it needs to be this.
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2017 12:34 am
I'm a Fool
//About infiltrating SIU//
I'm a fool for him.
I'm consumed by the simple notion of making sure Tri is okay.
Why?
I don't even know, but I won't be able to rest until I know he's safe.
I'll do everything I can,... I've had time to think of this. Every possible cover up that I could come up with. Get the three of us into SIU. Even as thorough as they are, there's no way they will find out. I have that confidence.
We agreed on a plan. A way in. Covered all our bases. Our goals, to check our respective three interests. I'll check on Tri, Silver will check on Hexxis,
and Silence will check on Ree. After it's certain they are safe.... Then we work together to get Cordelia out. And anyone else not considered in safe conditions.
It will be quick. Maybe a week or two. If the heat gets too intense, we bail.
Find other ways to get the information. Either we leave together.... or we split.
Every man for himself. It's the only way this will work.
If I could just talk to Tri. I just need to know. I need to make sure.
If he actually is happy there.... then I'll go. I'll leave him be and he'll never see me again, because he'd finally be happy and I could rest as ease.
He deserves to be happy. And I'll to it that he is where he wants to be. Even if it hurts to walk away. As long as he is okay. That's all that matters.
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Posted: Wed Aug 15, 2018 6:44 pm
Talk Some Sense to Me
//When his memories were erased after Kaen brainwashed him//
Zaku was laying down, staring at the ceiling, deep in thought. It was quiet, something he both enjoyed and dreaded. He wished he had his mp3 player, but couldn't exactly remember where he had left it, forgetting about the fact he had given it to Stormy.
A soft knock at the door, Andy entered. "Hey there, champ." she greeted with a faint smile.
Zaku sat up and smiled at her, although it didn't seem to reach his eyes. His gaze was a tired one wrought with sleepless nights consumed by racing thoughts about far too many things.
Andy sauntered over and set a bottle down on the nightstand and set down two glasses. "Let's drink." she grinned softly.
Zaku frowned. "I don't dr-.."
"Shh... I know what you're going to say, but isn't it better when you relax... I'm sure you've got a lot on your mind... alcohol can help clear all that junk out. I know it helps me when I can't seem to think clearly." She poured alcohol into both glasses and then took them to sit next to him and offered him one. "Come on... don't act like you don't drink at all. I'll make sure you don't drink too much, okay?"
Zaku seemed contemplative, frowned, sighed, then took a sip.
Andy smiled, "See? It ain't gonna kill you." she joked a little. "You know.. I went on a date." she opened up.
Zaku quirked an eyebrow. "...really?"
"Yeah, just a date. We didn't even go home together. He didn't even kiss me. Just gave me a flower... Forget me Nots. He said he got them because he didn't want to forget me and the color reminded him of my eyes." she snorted. "Isn't that just corny?"
"...but you like it?"
Andy smiled and swirled her glass a little before taking a drink. "For some reason, I do. He's not like anyone I've ever been with..."
"Why the change of heart? Didn't you used to say you never wanted to date anyone after Rasiel...." he asked curiously.
"Yeah, well, Rasiel was a piece of work." she grunted with a wrinkle of her nose.
Zaku laughed a little, but it was only half-hearted.
Andy sighed, "This guy is something else though.." she commented. "I guess.. I recently decided I just.. wanted to be a committed person. No reason really."
"Hmm...okay." he seemed skeptical.
"Hey. You're supposed to just believe me, you know." she punched him gently in the arm.
Zaku snorted a little and took another sip.
"What about you, huh? How are you holding up with everything that's happened..."
Zaku frowned a little. "...I don't even remember everything that's happened... so I guess I'm holding up fine." he answered simply.
"....really."
"...aren't you supposed to just believe me?"
"H-hey! Those are my words!" Andy huffed playfully then laughed. "Okay, so at least you still have your sense of humor." she sighed. "What's really got you down, huh? Is it Tri?"
Zaku looked at her and frowned. "Why would you think it's Tri...?"
"Wild guess."
"Is it really a guess?"
"Maybe because of how you used to be..." Andy sighed.
"I'm fine."
Andy frowned and leaned back a little. "Then what's on your mind. You aren't yourself, you know..."
"...of course I'm not myself, I don't even know who I am anymore." he admitted, paused and frowned. He hadn't meant to say it.
"I see... and what do you think would help you feel like yourself..?"
"I don't know. And I think that's what's troubling me... I don't even know who I used to be... I know how I feel, but is it really how I should have felt right now... Were there things that changed me... grew me... made me.. me. How would I know... I don't remember any of it."
Andy's frown deepened. "I know that feeling... when I remembered everything after Kylar... I was really conflicted... between my feelings for him, and the fact I was so utterly disgusted by what he had done. It made me hate myself for ever feeling anything for the guy. But then I didn't know which were my real feelings and which were implanted... it was hard to grasp. I let it consume my mind, and it distracted me from the real threat and got me captured..." she explained. "You can't keep dwelling on things you can't control."
"I've seen him.."
"What?... Who? Tri?" she looked around. "Was he here??"
Zaku shook his head, "On the television. With the Morrad heir. He looks like he's doing in the same as he did in SIU..."
Andy stared at him with a hint of worry. "Look, Zaku, you really need to give up on that guy. I don't want to say he never cared for you, because I really don't know. But he's there doing things to further human agendas to eradicate people like us... just as he always has. All in all, whatever you might have felt for him, it means nothing to him... you are always going to be his enemy. That will never change."
Zaku looked mournful. "...part of me doesn't want to believe that."
"And that's the part that Valentein put in your head. You and Tri, that's not a thing. You both have literally been on opposite sides from the beginning... and the only reason the two of you aligned was because of Hexxis. Or Ree. If I could take a guess, he sees you as pawn to further whatever goals he has at the time... that's what I see. He's never come busting down my door asking about you, wondering if you're okay, or anything to indicate he would do anything for you if it didn't benefit him in some way."
Zaku put a hand against his head and closed his eyes, taking another sip, he then took a deep shaky breath. "Then why does it hurt so much to think about him... I don't even remember... and yet it still hurts."
Andy moved to wrap an arm around him to comfort him. "Don't know... but I figure it has to do with Val, and it will probably fade with time. I know it hurts, it's going to... but I think you'll sort out your thoughts and memories and realize that you never really loved him... it's just fake feelings by the goat lady to entertain her, and that's ******** up."
Zaku took another shaky breath and downed the rest of the glass. Already drunk with just this much. He leaned over and tried to pour himself another glass, spilling some of it.
"Whoa, slow down there. I promised I wouldn't let you drink too much..." she frowned.
"...I just want to forget."
"Yeah, well, you've already forgotten a lot... so let's not go overboard on that idea. Yeah, being drunk is cool and all, but you can't use it to escape your problems."
He looked at her.
"Yes yes, I know. Pot. Kettle. Black. I get it. But also know that it comes from someone who's constantly in that shithole of a bottom of the bottle... don't follow in my footsteps." she sighed. "Hey, why don't we find someone for you to date?"
"I don't want to date. I just.. want to watch the news.."
"You don't actually want to do that, because you're just going to stare at Tri and feel shitty about yourself. I know you."
"So? It's not hurting anyone."
"It's hurting yourself. Just... let it go, Zaku. It's not worth it."
"Fine... then take me to the main house."
"Why?"
"To get my mind off of everything."
"Jeez... you're really gonna get me in trouble with Lucy..." she rolled her eyes and got up, moving to the closet to pull out a hoodie and threw it to him. "Put this on and I'll take you."
Zaku drank the second glass and then tried to pull on the hoodie, almost falling over in the process. Finally getting it on, he pulled the hood up over his head. He reached out for the bottle, took it and began to walk out of the house.
Andy sighed and finished her drink. "Lucy is never going to let me hear the end of this..." she mumbled to herself with a soft snort, but at least this was better than letting him wallow in self-pity. Following him out, she lead him over to the main house and started up a party among them to make Zaku feel better.
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Broken_Illumination Captain
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Posted: Wed Aug 15, 2018 7:54 pm
Missed You More Than I Thought I Would
//After the drinking party//
Zaku waited out his own alcohol tolerance, just waiting for his mind to start thinking clearly again. He packed a bag once the others were all asleep or passed out. He wrote a note, and took the mask that Andy had made him. He frowned, just not wanting to be apart of this. He hadn't before, and he didn't now. Maybe this was the cowards way out, to avoid actually talking to Andy about it. How he felt. But he just wanted to be alone now, with his own thoughts. He couldn't do this anymore. As he stepped outside, Silver was standing there.
"...why.." she asked with a frown, keeping her eyes to the ground.
"....you know why..." he answered simply.
"...and you expect me to stay here, with these people... alone."
Zaku frowned. "There is nowhere safe in this world for you... not dead or alive. And what am I to do about that..."
"...take me with you."
Zaku sighed, thinking on it for a long time. He was conflicted about it. He didn't want to get her caught up in what he would likely bring, but then again, he didn't want to leave her here alone. His frown deepened.
"...just go." she suddenly spoke with a sigh.
"Silver."
"But before you go. I want you to have this." She pulled out a very small music box and handed it to him. "You'll understand one day. That I just want you to be happy, I always have. Just.. be careful." she spoke. "I'll wait her for you as long as I can... if not, I will go back home." she backed up, allowing him to leave.
"Close your eyes."
Silver hesitated then did so.
Zaku leaned down and hugged her tightly. "...stay safe... and I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you."
Silver nodded, "...don't be, you do enough as is... and I'm sure you will do more. I will always proud of you."
Zaku hugged a little tighter before he let go, hesitated, then levitated off, be careful to stay hidden among buildings, his hood obscuring his hair and face.
Silver sighed and left to go back to the safehouse.
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