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Shadow shrugged, he really did not know the answers to Selena's questions, he could not even answer his own right now. It was strange for him to be feeling so empty again, like he used to. Shadow thoguht that he was going back to who he used to be, not just to his old light hearted way but also ending up being that soulless killing machine that he once was. "I do not know what we do from here Selena... I really do not know..." Shadow said in a low voice as he stared out to the figured of his family that stood out on the lake 'Bloody specters. Can't leave my mind alone.' he thought for a second. "I do not know if it was just sex or if there was love there. I just remember being overcome with a passionate lust and going for it. Maybe the only way I can go on in life is by causing myself pain." Shadow said,it was a simple sugestion and he did not really know why he did what he did, it all carried in his voice and his confusion was all still there. "I am a monester in more ways than one Selena.... I had a dream, my father and Amelia spoke to me... called me a monster, said things that hurt, confused.... things that i do not understand..." Shadow said as he looked over to Selena. Everything he was feeling was clear in his eyes, he was scared right now, completly scared of what he might have been. "They said everything I have been saying has been a lie... a lie created to make myself feel ebtter.... hell Shadow isn't even my real name it is a part of a title, a nick name that the soldiers gave me back in the day... atleast I think it was.... I can't remember." Shadow said.

Shadow listened to Selena's words before she disapeared. He then laughed a little at her comment about his name, "Would it help if I told you my title was The Shadow of Shyesh.... atleast I think it was... I am not sure. Why can't I remember my past anymore?" he said to himself with a heavy sigh and finaly stood up. "I do not know who I am or what I am anymore... to many questions." he said as he turned away form the lake and started to walk back to the manor ever so slowly.

Shadow walk, lost in his thoughts and trying to decode everything that had been said to him. Was it a warning ro just a simple fear? He could not tell right now what was what and just needed some company right now more than anything. It was shortly after that thought that he felt someone running into him. He looked down to see Luna and a very small smile tugged at his lips, fading quickly though. "Hello Luna.... how are you feeling? I hope I did not hurt you to much last night." he said as he offered his hand to her.

Shadow nodded slight, "Good, I am glad. Didn't want to hurt you and well thanks." Shadow said as he let out a little sigh. She could tell something was wrong with him, it was either that obvious or she was getting to know him so well that she could see threw his usual facade. "Dreams... horrid dreams. Of the past... I can't remember if my life was a lie and i was a true monster or if that is just how I have looked at myself over the years." Shadow said as he looked to luna.

Shadow felt the soft touch of Luna's hand on his face, it wa skind of relaxing for him to feel that there, it was something he was needing right now, the company, the feelings. "My home holds little anymore and my blood hold so mnay memories... so many. if you were willign to try this for me then I would apreciate it.." Shadow said a she wrapped his arms around Luna, just wanting to feel someone there. Selena offered words but did not seem to want to try and understand what was happening but Luna here was something completly different for some reason. "I am glad you do not see me as a monster but i have done many horrible things in my life.... maybe I was just a killing machine, a monster back then and now do all these things just so I can feel something, anything or I couldjust be losing my mind." he said.

(thank you *bow*)

Luna leans her head back and smiles at him. "I know you have done horrible things i've seen them in Blades memories but that does not make you a monster." She sighs, "You did what you had to do?" She looks at his neck, "When I'm done looking drink from me so you can see what I see." She kisses his neck thens sinks her fangs in and begins to drink his blood his memories began to flash in her head. She didn't see him and a killing machine. She only saw him trying to defend and he was even putting his life on the line to save other soldiers the best he could. More memories came and she saw his wife. She felt his joy when seeing her and the sadness when she died. Teas began to flow out of her eyes that he didn't want to shed after his wifes death. She saw how is family was and how evil they where to humans she understood why he took care of them. The memories disappeared and she tilted her neck to the side so he could drink. "Your not a monster," she whispers to him waiting for him to bite and see what she say.

She clinged to him while he bit her. It didn't help because she was thinking of last. When he pulled away she smiled. "I'm happy i could help," she rubs his cheek agian. "I don't like seeing you like that." She smirks then steps back. "Ok side track," she takes a deep breathe. "I want to know if you reget last night." She crosses her arms holding herself ready for his answer.

Shadow looked at Luna and he thought about her question. Did he really regret what he did last night or was he just ashamed to admit that he did that because he wanted to? "I have no regrets Luna.... well not on last night anyway, I regret many things in ym life but last night... I was overcome with something else." Shadow said with a half smile.

Resu nodded slightly, "We hide well enough to keep out of thier sight for now but I am sure they could smell us out if they wanted to... if they were desperate enough." Resu said. After hearing Zero's words he just had to let out a sigh. H eknew Zero would not harm him in anyway it was just a reaction he had now, second nature. It would take him some time before he managed to break out of that habit and many others. "I know you will cause me no harm Zero... it is just that the temple done some horrible thiings to us, they warped the very meanings of words to make themm soemthing to fear. We were denied simple pleqsures like laughter and well... Let us just say resistance wa spunished sevearly." Resu said with a small sigh. He didn't want to be shaking liek this infront of Zero everything she mentioned such acts but to much pain had been caused to so easily forget.