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Both hands, palms down, hit the desk as she stood to turn and face him. "So you're made of stronger stuff than I am James. You may know how to find another way and deal with what you have in your past but I don't. I've tried and I don't know how. My brilliant mind is what put me in this position that I'm in now."

A bang of hand on the desk, not caring about his gun at all, she'd been shot before it was no big deal to her. "And if you're think I'm trying to off myself then you're wrong! I have too much to do, my echoes need me and I'll be damned if I let someone else take over only to loose them all."

"Go ahead, say I'm whining and what not, how can I not after all?" And then she got quiet, despite the raised voice of earlier. Whoa, dizzy there a moment, not to mention those tremors of hers had gotten worse. "If Fleet had just....given me a little more time to say goodbye...if they hadn't of treated the whole thing like it was nothing more than some stupid training session or inspection. Maybe then it wouldn't hurt so bad...but things just didn't happen that way."

For a moment she looked to him again, that teary look depite no tears. "Why do you have to care so much? I've always been left alone about it...even Erik leaves me along about it. It's not like I can go back and fix what went wrong, Earth is nothing more than a far away place now. I should of left everything dealing with it behind on it." Of course a look out the window to said planet.

Upon his leaving the desk was duly tipped over, sending the turned down pictures on it's top scattering to the floor, glass cracking in two of them. Anger was back again. After five years, this was a new thing for her. Honestly even with her so called brilliant mind she couldn't figure out why now people cared.

Maybe it was because she let them so close this time, they had stuck around this time when usually they were gone long before now. That had been an aspect of her life she accepted...and now it was being turned upside down firstly by James Moira, and then Lilia Nickko was backing him up.

Moving over to her computer she sunk down in the chair and fired up her systems. She needed a distraction...and she needed to prepare for Board. Whether she would be alone for it or not was the issue...but she had to prepare for both scenarios...last time seh went to Board that almost shipped her back to Earth.

Hm, cut out of work early, take in dinner and a movie. Follow up with drinks in someone's room. Maybe play a game or two or something. Ever walk the cruiser when they shut it down for the 'night'?" Indeed, the station move independant of teh earth's orbit around the sun. And didn't rotate itself. Therefore, the sun was always shining...behind specially coated glass that was. Night meant the cruisers were totally locked down and sun was kept out.

"That's some fun scary feeling right there."

He laughed at her expression. "Yeah we can do that. Have you ever seen a schedule in this place? Honestly people take time off all the time. We all have set tasks to do and when we're done we can go home. Ever notice there's never more than a dozen techs in the labs really?"

That was amusing, it really was. "Give Trevy a little push and convince her thigns won't melt down over night and the echoes are fed and even she's free as a bird."

"She's usually first in last out...sometimes she doesn't leave, sleeps right wherever she drops. It's kind of cute to find her in the mornings, papers and what not stuck to her cheek." A little chukle at the image of that in his head.

Then another laugh at Lilia and a shake of his head. "You're jsut as bad a worker as she is, do you know that? Am I going to have to start sedating you?"

"I can imagine how scary that it. In fact...I think that's happened a few times to us before too...though we knew we were both there and it was still scary as hell in the mornings." Ah yes Erik was all laughs now.

"Well I'm keeping an eye on you. And you know I love to sedate people. Serial Sedatist."

"I can imagine. Jelly always has this cowlick thing going on when she wakes up in the morning and I know I'm not a pretty sight either, especially when you roll around on your desk and get paper clips stuck in your hair and notes from files stuck on your cheeks and forehead."

She batted her eyes and said, "You wouldn't sedate me Erik. I'm too pretty."Though a giggled and a kick of her feet before she leaned back in her chair. "I just want to have some fun. It's been too long."