I'm so sorry to hear that, Nanzzy *gives you a big hug* I know how hard something like this can be especially to someone you care about dearly. It's just in life these type of things happen. There's nothing you can do about it and that is probably the hardest part about it. Just remember that you are not alone in this. We are all going to be here for you and same with your friends and family. Let yourself grieve. Talk about it with others and with your friend. I know you want to put on a brave face, but talking is really important. It's only after you talk that you can feel that you can start to breath again.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
*hugs back tightly* I know... I really want to scream at the top of my lungs but I have to keep going on because I can't let down everyone around me who's counting on me... My job needs me more than ever right now so I'll have to suck it up and deal with it sweatdrop Thanks dear.... Thanks to all of you for being awesome friends, and welcoming me back with open arms after my hiatus, despite everything that happened heart It helps that the rest of my family and especially my mom is very close to my friend too... She understands too well how I'm feeling right now and on several occasions we've been crying on each other's shoulders, which feels a lot better than being all on your own >.<
I'm happy to hear that heart It's going to take awhile, but things will start to feel better, I promise. Ever you feel you need a good laugh to lift your spirit just ask me and I'll send you a few links to some funny Whose Line Is it Anyways videos *winks*
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 1:16 am
Nanzzy-chan
-Yuui-TR-Flourite-
It'll pass, your eyes with clear up, you'll feel better. Because you'll get it out of your system. For the day. Try too focus on something. Battling something will keep your mind off it. For awhile. If your friend is doing fine home, getting treatment. There might be a miracle at work. It takes time, she needs to be on top of it. I've been praying, thinking about your friend. Your friend has one heck of a well power. Might be stronger than mine. My gosh.
O_O'
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
I know... I'll go get breakfast/lunch, plus an aspirin for my headache, in a bit... Also because I have to work in a few hours so I kinda have to :/ And it certainly seems so... I really am glad that she seems to be doing so good! And yeah, like I told you before, she is always so full of life, and certainly doesn't give up easily~ *wipes a few tears away and giggles* *hugs* Thanks for your prayers sweetie, they mean a lot to me and everyone involved heart
I forgot to tell you. What kept-ed me from going into a coma. When I was 16. When I came down with diabetes.
-Whispers-
A bucket. I was screaming. ( Take it out, hand me a bucket. I need to pee. ) A bottle. Wouldn't have been enough. I felt violated by nurses.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
Ugh... I have the most horrible headache and I feel like s**t... crying Most of all I feel really lonely and I need someone to talk to... And usually I hate showing my vulnerable, little-girl side on the internet, but I ended up crying myself to sleep last night and even now I'm a freaking mess and on the verge of tears... I was doing good too, distracting myself and having fun with the contest... I don't know why it suddenly hit me again, and this hard too crying
And for those of you who saw my status a while ago about the bad news I got, yes, this is related to that.... Careful, rant/vent ahead
I have this friend in real life... A really good friend. Our mothers were friends before we were even born, and then we were born on the very same day; we've been friends pretty much ever since, went to the same elementary and high school so we've pretty much always been together too. We couldn't have been more different, but we always call each other twinnie and I've never even considered her one of my best friends, because she's always been more like a real sister to me... She's a great girl, the kindest, liveliest, most cheerful person I've ever met; in all those years I've known her I've never once seen her in a genuinely bad mood or bad health. And even though we didn't talk as much as I sometimes would've liked to, she'd still always be there to listen if I had a problem or was just feeling generally down about something.
Now she'd been complaining for a few weeks that she had been feeling a bit under the weather and tired; but no one including herself thought much of it because we were all a bit sick-ish from the weather changes and just tired in general... Then the day after my (and my friend's) birthday, Saturday the 24th, another friend called with bad news: my 'twin' had suddenly started coughing up blood a few days prior, so went to see a doctor and was shortly thereafter admitted in the hospital on suspicion of TB; however as it soon turned out, it wasn't that, but something else that the doctors weren't exactly sure of just yet. The Monday after, the 26th, they operated on her in order to find out exactly what was wrong, and it turned out she had cancer around her lungs; so they took some samples to see if they could find out more... Then that Thursday, the 29th, another friend called with more bad news: as it turned out the tumor was malignant, massive, and was stuck to the veins all around her heart and lungs; the doctors said they couldn't do anything but try to slow the growth down, and gave her a few more months to live at most...
A fewmonths.
She's barely 20 and still so full of life, even now.... I think you can imagine why I was crushed when I got the news; I was completely out of it for the next few days. Monday the 3rd I went to visit her along with a friend; that day for the first time, they took the IV and all the wires off her so she was overjoyed to be able to walk around again; seeing her still like her old self, even if she had it stuck in her head that she might very well die, made me feel somewhat better too... And on the 7th, she announced that since the medication had worked and the bleeding in her lungs had mostly subsided, she was allowed to go home, she just needs to return for chemotherapy from time to time. All in all, things seem to be looking up a bit after such a string of bad news... Both our families and our group of friends are still praying everyday for her and hoping for a miracle; it helps that my friend herself is in her usual mood again.
And yet, despite all that... I just can't help but feel bad.... Everyone around me is telling me to 'stay strong for her' and that 'life goes on even if she might not be around anymore after a while', and I've tried my best to keep going and keep smiling like nothing's the matter... But it's getting so hard when it feels like part of me is dying along with her.... ;~; On one hand I want to cry from happiness that she's actually doing so well, better than the doctors had expected at first.... But at the same time I just want to break down in tears because even now I still fear what might happen... I feel so conflicted and scared and most of all lonely...
Oh my! I'm sorry to hear that, Nanzzy. D: *huggles* I know how the situation feels. It's fine to cry. Even the bravest of people do. Even with something like that lingering, shouldn't keep you both down! Just keep going! Even when things seem down, just gotta kick it! Uhhh... *rubs her head* I'm not the greatest with words. Sorry... Anyway, I'll keep thinking about your friend making a full recovery. I really hope things get much better. <3
*hides in a corner* That sounded so stupid...
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 1:32 am
Auriga La Shock
I'm happy to hear that heart It's going to take awhile, but things will start to feel better, I promise. Ever you feel you need a good laugh to lift your spirit just ask me and I'll send you a few links to some funny Whose Line Is it Anyways videos *winks*
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
I forgot to tell you. What kept-ed me from going into a coma. When I was 16. When I came down with diabetes.
-Whispers-
A bucket. I was screaming. ( Take it out, hand me a bucket. I need to pee. ) A bottle. Wouldn't have been enough. I felt violated by nurses.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
xDDD *huggles* Poor you~ xD *patpat* Thanks for cheering me up silly heart
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 1:38 am
Nanzzy-chan
Auriga La Shock
I'm happy to hear that heart It's going to take awhile, but things will start to feel better, I promise. Ever you feel you need a good laugh to lift your spirit just ask me and I'll send you a few links to some funny Whose Line Is it Anyways videos *winks*
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
Hehe, thanks heart Ooh, that show is awesome xD
*gives you another hug and a grin* And here's just a small little funny video to put a smile on your face before work: Funny Vid
Oh my! I'm sorry to hear that, Nanzzy. D: *huggles* I know how the situation feels. It's fine to cry. Even the bravest of people do. Even with something like that lingering, shouldn't keep you both down! Just keep going! Even when things seem down, just gotta kick it! Uhhh... *rubs her head* I'm not the greatest with words. Sorry... Anyway, I'll keep thinking about your friend making a full recovery. I really hope things get much better. <3
*hides in a corner* That sounded so stupid...
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
*hugs back* Thanks Kate heart I really want to cry but at the same time I'm so tired of it... But eventually it all comes out because I keep it bottled up too much emotion_facepalm I tend to make people believe that I'm a mature, always-smiling sweet young woman in real life... Which is partially why Nanzzy on here is a more-bitter-kind-of-mature, she's sort of an outlet for all that built-up rage... But beneath all that is an insecure little girl who just really needs a hug but is afraid to show it to anyone but her closest friends and family emoI know, I should probably work on that =A= *hugs again* Thanks so much... It does seem like she's doing a lot better than expected, which is always a good sign heart
That didn't sound stupid, it had the right intentions and it hit the right spot <3
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 1:43 am
Auriga La Shock
*gives you another hug and a grin* And here's just a small little funny video to put a smile on your face before work: Funny Vid
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
Saw that one xD The one walking right into a pole is still funny no matter how many times I see it rofl
Today's special is: For one day only, we'll be accepting tickets! 50 points per 10 tickets 250 per 50 500 per 100
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Hi everybody! 4laugh So as many of you know, the 12 Days of Christmas thread is up and running and all the festivities begin this Friday! However, for the Anon Santa, we have an ever-growing list of people who could use a gift this holiday, and I would like to encourage you all to sign up and be merry, to be an anon Santa! It doesn't have to cost you a bunch of gold, or a ton of time, I'd just like to make sure everyone gets something this time of year. <3
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Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 4:51 pm
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Switch Ice Prince and and Jack Frost. The Half-Way/Day 6 prize is only a small congrats prize. ^^
I like the poem though! gonk I was thinking that in the story plot that either we would have a person say it or a note you pick up or something~ I have a plot set up already, so you don't need to worry about that part. I'll type it up ASAP. Ohhhhh yeeaaah~ emotion_dowant
Ok. >w<
Oh, well if you wanna work teh poem in then it's alright! 4laugh Ooooooh... Can it be narorated like one of those old stop-motion christmas cartoons somehow?! :'D Okies. emotion_c8 Then send it to me and we can think up post format or whatnot or whatever else you think it needs and such. Oh, and also, I'm super glad you like teh thread!
AJKLGFSADKFHDLLLL. THE FRONT PAGE. SO BOOTIFUL. heart And that Christmas 4laugh emotion is so adorable! emotion_kirakira Make the announcer speaking portion in a red color and it'll be perfect. ^^
