Oh yeah. That would be convenient. :/ How's that going, by the way? Your wing quest?
o.o
Sapphire-chan's quest has been long. Sapphire-chan wish her wings would be sold in the marketplace.
Yeah, I know. >n< I've seen them in the marketplace only a few times and then they were being sold for some obscene figure like 14 billion gold or something. burning_eyes
TwT
Wish Sapphire-chan had that kind of gold to buy her wings.
Hmm... Welp, you know what they say: "every time a bell rings, an angel gets its wings." *Starts ringing a bell* Maybe if I keep at it long enough...
>w<
The bell is hurting Sapphire-chan's ears.
Posted: Tue Dec 11, 2012 7:44 pm
-Sapphire-Icy-Angel-
Seiji-ojisan
-Sapphire-Icy-Angel-
Seiji-ojisan
-Sapphire-Icy-Angel-
Seiji-ojisan
Oh yeah. That would be convenient. :/ How's that going, by the way? Your wing quest?
o.o
Sapphire-chan's quest has been long. Sapphire-chan wish her wings would be sold in the marketplace.
Yeah, I know. >n< I've seen them in the marketplace only a few times and then they were being sold for some obscene figure like 14 billion gold or something. burning_eyes
TwT
Wish Sapphire-chan had that kind of gold to buy her wings.
Hmm... Welp, you know what they say: "every time a bell rings, an angel gets its wings." *Starts ringing a bell* Maybe if I keep at it long enough...
>w<
The bell is hurting Sapphire-chan's ears.
Ah! Sorry! *Stops* >~<;; Guess that didn't work, huh? ^^;;
Yeah, I know. >n< I've seen them in the marketplace only a few times and then they were being sold for some obscene figure like 14 billion gold or something. burning_eyes
TwT
Wish Sapphire-chan had that kind of gold to buy her wings.
Hmm... Welp, you know what they say: "every time a bell rings, an angel gets its wings." *Starts ringing a bell* Maybe if I keep at it long enough...
>w<
The bell is hurting Sapphire-chan's ears.
Ah! Sorry! *Stops* >~<;; Guess that didn't work, huh? ^^;;
>w<
No.
Posted: Tue Dec 11, 2012 8:58 pm
"enters with hot chocolate and gingerbread cupcakes." hihi!! I am so excited about this event!!
-Fighting for my own soul not to turn into steak, someones meal while being tortured/ torment, glaring at the mini devil-
-Getting acid burned on my back- Mini Devil: Not liking that glare your giving me. Some tasteless meat. Would have broken by now. I wonder. How long will you last, how much will the royal give me for a good tasting steak.
You can go to hell.
Mini Devil: I am. Already am. Maybe the princess will like. How you taste. We keep our soul cattle a secret. From them. If they knew. They would be thinking. Their eating waste, riot, and crap from a dog.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
Ugh... I have the most horrible headache and I feel like s**t... crying Most of all I feel really lonely and I need someone to talk to... And usually I hate showing my vulnerable, little-girl side on the internet, but I ended up crying myself to sleep last night and even now I'm a freaking mess and on the verge of tears... I was doing good too, distracting myself and having fun with the contest... I don't know why it suddenly hit me again, and this hard too crying
And for those of you who saw my status a while ago about the bad news I got, yes, this is related to that.... Careful, rant/vent ahead
I have this friend in real life... A really good friend. Our mothers were friends before we were even born, and then we were born on the very same day; we've been friends pretty much ever since, went to the same elementary and high school so we've pretty much always been together too. We couldn't have been more different, but we always call each other twinnie and I've never even considered her one of my best friends, because she's always been more like a real sister to me... She's a great girl, the kindest, liveliest, most cheerful person I've ever met; in all those years I've known her I've never once seen her in a genuinely bad mood or bad health. And even though we didn't talk as much as I sometimes would've liked to, she'd still always be there to listen if I had a problem or was just feeling generally down about something.
Now she'd been complaining for a few weeks that she had been feeling a bit under the weather and tired; but no one including herself thought much of it because we were all a bit sick-ish from the weather changes and just tired in general... Then the day after my (and my friend's) birthday, Saturday the 24th, another friend called with bad news: my 'twin' had suddenly started coughing up blood a few days prior, so went to see a doctor and was shortly thereafter admitted in the hospital on suspicion of TB; however as it soon turned out, it wasn't that, but something else that the doctors weren't exactly sure of just yet. The Monday after, the 26th, they operated on her in order to find out exactly what was wrong, and it turned out she had cancer around her lungs; so they took some samples to see if they could find out more... Then that Thursday, the 29th, another friend called with more bad news: as it turned out the tumor was malignant, massive, and was stuck to the veins all around her heart and lungs; the doctors said they couldn't do anything but try to slow the growth down, and gave her a few more months to live at most...
A fewmonths.
She's barely 20 and still so full of life, even now.... I think you can imagine why I was crushed when I got the news; I was completely out of it for the next few days. Monday the 3rd I went to visit her along with a friend; that day for the first time, they took the IV and all the wires off her so she was overjoyed to be able to walk around again; seeing her still like her old self, even if she had it stuck in her head that she might very well die, made me feel somewhat better too... And on the 7th, she announced that since the medication had worked and the bleeding in her lungs had mostly subsided, she was allowed to go home, she just needs to return for chemotherapy from time to time. All in all, things seem to be looking up a bit after such a string of bad news... Both our families and our group of friends are still praying everyday for her and hoping for a miracle; it helps that my friend herself is in her usual mood again.
And yet, despite all that... I just can't help but feel bad.... Everyone around me is telling me to 'stay strong for her' and that 'life goes on even if she might not be around anymore after a while', and I've tried my best to keep going and keep smiling like nothing's the matter... But it's getting so hard when it feels like part of me is dying along with her.... ;~; On one hand I want to cry from happiness that she's actually doing so well, better than the doctors had expected at first.... But at the same time I just want to break down in tears because even now I still fear what might happen... I feel so conflicted and scared and most of all lonely...
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 12:38 am
Nanzzy-chan
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
Ugh... I have the most horrible headache and I feel like s**t... crying Most of all I feel really lonely and I need someone to talk to... And usually I hate showing my vulnerable, little-girl side on the internet, but I ended up crying myself to sleep last night and even now I'm a freaking mess and on the verge of tears... I was doing good too, distracting myself and having fun with the contest... I don't know why it suddenly hit me again, and this hard too crying
And for those of you who saw my status a while ago about the bad news I got, yes, this is related to that.... Careful, rant/vent ahead
I have this friend in real life... A really good friend. Our mothers were friends before we were even born, and then we were born on the very same day; we've been friends pretty much ever since, went to the same elementary and high school so we've pretty much always been together too. We couldn't have been more different, but we always call each other twinnie and I've never even considered her one of my best friends, because she's always been more like a real sister to me... She's a great girl, the kindest, liveliest, most cheerful person I've ever met; in all those years I've known her I've never once seen her in a genuinely bad mood or bad health. And even though we didn't talk as much as I sometimes would've liked to, she'd still always be there to listen if I had a problem or was just feeling generally down about something.
Now she'd been complaining for a few weeks that she had been feeling a bit under the weather and tired; but no one including herself thought much of it because we were all a bit sick-ish from the weather changes and just tired in general... Then the day after my (and my friend's) birthday, Saturday the 24th, another friend called with bad news: my 'twin' had suddenly started coughing up blood a few days prior, so went to see a doctor and was shortly thereafter admitted in the hospital on suspicion of TB; however as it soon turned out, it wasn't that, but something else that the doctors weren't exactly sure of just yet. The Monday after, the 26th, they operated on her in order to find out exactly what was wrong, and it turned out she had cancer around her lungs; so they took some samples to see if they could find out more... Then that Thursday, the 29th, another friend called with more bad news: as it turned out the tumor was malignant, massive, and was stuck to the veins all around her heart and lungs; the doctors said they couldn't do anything but try to slow the growth down, and gave her a few more months to live at most...
A fewmonths.
She's barely 20 and still so full of life, even now.... I think you can imagine why I was crushed when I got the news; I was completely out of it for the next few days. Monday the 3rd I went to visit her along with a friend; that day for the first time, they took the IV and all the wires off her so she was overjoyed to be able to walk around again; seeing her still like her old self, even if she had it stuck in her head that she might very well die, made me feel somewhat better too... And on the 7th, she announced that since the medication had worked and the bleeding in her lungs had mostly subsided, she was allowed to go home, she just needs to return for chemotherapy from time to time. All in all, things seem to be looking up a bit after such a string of bad news... Both our families and our group of friends are still praying everyday for her and hoping for a miracle; it helps that my friend herself is in her usual mood again.
And yet, despite all that... I just can't help but feel bad.... Everyone around me is telling me to 'stay strong for her' and that 'life goes on even if she might not be around anymore after a while', and I've tried my best to keep going and keep smiling like nothing's the matter... But it's getting so hard when it feels like part of me is dying along with her.... ;~; On one hand I want to cry from happiness that she's actually doing so well, better than the doctors had expected at first.... But at the same time I just want to break down in tears because even now I still fear what might happen... I feel so conflicted and scared and most of all lonely...
-Gives you a hug-
Cry. Nanzzy-chan. Cry. My shoulder welcomes your tears.
Cry. Nanzzy-chan. Cry. My shoulder welcomes your tears.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
*hugs back tightly* Thanks hun... By now I've cried so much it feels like all my tears should have dried up, and yet I still want to cry more.... I don't know why it suddenly hit me like this again crying
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 12:54 am
Nanzzy-chan
-Yuui-TR-Flourite-
-Gives you a hug-
Cry. Nanzzy-chan. Cry. My shoulder welcomes your tears.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
*hugs back tightly* Thanks hun... By now I've cried so much it feels like all my tears should have dried up, and yet I still want to cry more.... I don't know why it suddenly hit me like this again crying
It'll pass, your eyes with clear up, you'll feel better. Because you'll get it out of your system. For the day. Try too focus on something. Battling something will keep your mind off it. For awhile. If your friend is doing fine home, getting treatment. There might be a miracle at work. It takes time, she needs to be on top of it. I've been praying, thinking about your friend. Your friend has one heck of a well power. Might be stronger than mine. My gosh.
I'm so sorry to hear that, Nanzzy *gives you a big hug* I know how hard something like this can be especially to someone you care about dearly. It's just in life these type of things happen. There's nothing you can do about it and that is probably the hardest part about it. Just remember that you are not alone in this. We are all going to be here for you and same with your friends and family. Let yourself grieve. Talk about it with others and with your friend. I know you want to put on a brave face, but talking is really important. It's only after you talk that you can feel that you can start to breath again.
Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2012 1:02 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite-
It'll pass, your eyes with clear up, you'll feel better. Because you'll get it out of your system. For the day. Try too focus on something. Battling something will keep your mind off it. For awhile. If your friend is doing fine home, getting treatment. There might be a miracle at work. It takes time, she needs to be on top of it. I've been praying, thinking about your friend. Your friend has one heck of a well power. Might be stronger than mine. My gosh.
O_O'
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
I know... I'll go get breakfast/lunch, plus an aspirin for my headache, in a bit... Also because I have to work in a few hours so I kinda have to :/ And it certainly seems so... I really am glad that she seems to be doing so good! And yeah, like I told you before, she is always so full of life, and certainly doesn't give up easily~ *wipes a few tears away and giggles* *hugs* Thanks for your prayers sweetie, they mean a lot to me and everyone involved heart
I'm so sorry to hear that, Nanzzy *gives you a big hug* I know how hard something like this can be especially to someone you care about dearly. It's just in life these type of things happen. There's nothing you can do about it and that is probably the hardest part about it. Just remember that you are not alone in this. We are all going to be here for you and same with your friends and family. Let yourself grieve. Talk about it with others and with your friend. I know you want to put on a brave face, but talking is really important. It's only after you talk that you can feel that you can start to breath again.
”Where is the edge of your darkest emotions? Why does it all survive? Where is the light of your deepest devotions? I pray that it's still alive”
*hugs back tightly* I know... I really want to scream at the top of my lungs but I have to keep going on because I can't let down everyone around me who's counting on me... My job needs me more than ever right now so I'll have to suck it up and deal with it sweatdrop Thanks dear.... Thanks to all of you for being awesome friends, and welcoming me back with open arms after my hiatus, despite everything that happened heart It helps that the rest of my family and especially my mom is very close to my friend too... She understands too well how I'm feeling right now and on several occasions we've been crying on each other's shoulders, which feels a lot better than being all on your own >.<
