I fantasize about killing my parents...What should I do?

[Not_Coding_Anymore]

My dad is obsessed with my getting into college. Think of a Born-Again Christian who is obsessed with his son getting into heaven - he keeps on telling me how if I don't study, I won't do well in school, if I don't do well in school, I won't get into a college, and if I don't graduate college, I will fail at life and be a bum forever...as opposed to being a rich success. He sounds exactly like those Jesus-freaks who say "If you don't love Jesus, you won't get into heaven, and will go to hell forever." He is obssessed, OBSESSED with the thought of college, harassing me about it all day long and even personally insulting me whenever I disagree with him.

I hate him. I hate him so much. I don't love my father any more. He's an a*****e. He's so mean to me. All he has to say to me are mean things. I feel like my father died and was replaced by a horrible monster who delights in torturing me. I hate him so much. I wish he would disapear from my life. I want to make him disapear from my life. I want to kill him. I want to kill him with my bare hands. I want to strangle him to death. I probably couldn't do that, though - so I always fantasize about using a knife. While he's sleeping, I sneak into his room and plunge the knife right into his throat. Stab him over and over and over while screaming at him what a horrible father - what a horrible PERSON he is. And right as he realizes it's me, he'll die. Then I'll have to kill my mom. She's a total b***h, anyway. I'd like it if she died, too. All SHE does is get mad at me for things I didn't do or have no control over or aren't my fault.

Every day, I get more and more angry and grow more and more hateful towards those two stupid horrible people. I want them both to die. And I feel like I am eventually going to do something absolutely horrible to them.

What should I do?

[AirForceFreak]

Wow..... a friend of mine had a similar problem. Her solution was to move in with her friend and her family. I'm sorry, I don't know what else to tell you. Good luck!

[Candy_Chimes_Gurl]

I think you should get a job and move away. Cut your parents off from your life.

Or, try to talk to them about how much this is bothering you. THEN if they don't listen to you do advice A.

[This Here Girl]

Alright listen. From experience i know it's not going to get you anywhere fighting back with your parents. I was sick of my mom's s**t too. My mom and dad are divorced. And if it wasn't bad enough my dad completley ignores me. The only time I ever get to hang out with him he is taking me shopping then he dumps me off at home. So yeah I hate them both. My mom hits me all the time. She's a complete b***h who only thinks of herself. all she buys us is groceries and gets pissed when we eat and drink everything...They're never around. Especially her and my mom is ALWAYS spoling my damn little brother.
One day I got sick of her bull s**t abecause she was hitting me with a metal ringed belt swelling my arms so I picked up a broom to protect myself...well it didn't work she called the police and I got sent off. No house arrest since I was already in trouble for cussin her. I went straight to Juvie. Abunch of a** holes there. I couldn't see any of my friends for a whole year. The only people I could talk too. Well I finally got out and now I don't hardly speak to either of them. My brother and I fight all the time and I get in trouble. Nothing is too different except I spend most of my time in my room or with friends.
What you should do before it gets way out of hand is tell your dad to stop ******** pressuring you. You'll get into the college you want on your own terms and he has no control over what the ******** you do. As for your mom. She is probably just stressed if you and your dad constantly fight. I mean fighting makes my mom stressed and cry.

[garrettmaruk]

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I fantasize about killing my parents...What should I do?

stop sleeping so you dont dream about killing your parents.

[Scarlet Nightshade]

You can legally move out at the age of 16.
Lucky you. June 30, 1988

[Not_Coding_Anymore]

Scarlet Nightshade

You can legally move out at the age of 16.
Lucky you. June 30, 1988

...But...I don't want to move out...I do, but...I wouldn't be able to survive...

[Dante Rien]

Get a GED and then stop going to High School.
It'd be funny as hell! Go for it!

[PsyanideG0D]

Heh I'm not sure I know how to help you... other then tell you to move out...

I used to have dreams that I killed my brother and smeared his guts on my basement wall lol... :S

But then he moved out.

[harlock]

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I fantasize about killing my parents...What should I do?

I donno, Kill your Parents? confused

[Sensedog]

You can either consider some form of counseling for yourself and your family situation in hopes of trying to repair things with them, or move-out as soon as you are legally able to. Just make sure that you are at least financially stable before you do and you should be fine. Sometimes measures like this must be taken if you hope to live your own life the way that you want regardless of what anyone else says.

[fangl55]

Scarlet Nightshade

You can legally move out at the age of 16.
Lucky you. June 30, 1988

You can't rent an apartment though or sign any contracts unless you get emancipated.

Maybe you should tell you dad how you feel about how much he is pressuring you. Tell him there are always trade schools and community colleges that'll let you in. If he doesn't stop pressuring you, maybe you need to stay with a friend for a couple of days to cool off. You probably just need a break from them.

[gemini_fairie]

perhaps you have to communicate more with your dad, he obviously doesn't understnd wat is going on in your mind and viceversa.. i think he is worried like shyt! (worried tat you won't lead a succesful life in the future without getting into college)

question: are u good in your studies? if not, then maybe you should show him ur improvement and show him that u are capable of getting into college. that way, i think he wouldn't be so obssesed about u getting into college..

[Not_Coding_Anymore]

Candy_Chimes_Gurl

I think you should get a job and move away. Cut your parents off from your life.

Or, try to talk to them about how much this is bothering you. THEN if they don't listen to you do advice A.

If I try to tell them that they're bothering me, they instantly blame every problem in the world on my spending so much time on the Internet or with video games...

[Da_Nuke]

You can try getting a job, and as soon as you get paid and come home, wave the big handful of bills in front of him, and tell him: "I'm getting rich. Like it?".

You can also try making some business of yours. I suggest you to read "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" and "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari", 2 books that will teach you the basics of business and management. Doesn't matters if you know nothing about business: all you need to get started at a local level is a little bit of cash and common sense. When your business gives you winnings, wave the bills in front of him, and tell him this: 75% of the world's richest people only have high school or incomplete college, and those who did finished college, went there only and exclusively to find people and make contacts.

Anyway, as long as you hold your fantasies into your mind and don't transfer them into reality, everything is OK.