PTSD Support Thread

[Devin Rae Stone]

grinningjester

I'm sorry you experienced such horrible things. Feel free to vent all you want. I can only speak for myself but I sure as hell won't judge you poorly or make fun of your experience. I really understand where you are coming from, though my experience is nothing like yours. Rape is not funny and is nothing to joke about. I'm mad on your behalf that people joke about it.

Paranoia is devastating. I'm a complete nut case sometimes, with my paranoia. How do you manage yours? I try to get out when I can because I miss the things I used to do but it's so very difficult.

Thank you. It's nice to have a bit of empathy sometimes. There's only so many people who can really understand and grasp how awful it is to have this condition. But people today are excessively insensitive unfortunately, and I guess they just want to look edgy and cool in front of their friends. It's sad, really. They have no consideration or thought as to how they may make other people feel..

My paranoia has only recently started to get worse, honestly. I've been trying to manage it for months by myself, and I still feel no relief. I've covered up all the LED lights in my house, checked vents and heaters, any sort of openings for cameras. It's a bit unreasonable, but it does give me just a bit of closure. I also just started meds to help with the paranoia, so I'm calmed down a bit 3nodding



Lil Enslaved Kitten


It's lovely to meet you too c:
And it has helped a lot. I found that finally opening up to friends and letting them know what was wrong with me made them show a bit of understanding. They can't really relate for the most part though, so this thread is certainly a nice tool to utilize.

[SlashRomance]

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

[chisuu-chan]

I really... want to put some things here. Just to help me get all these things off my chest. Truth is... I'm not sure where to begin or how to form my words.... a lot has happen to me in the last 10 years and it's all just boiled down to things I am coming to terms with. I think if I could take a moment and get my words formed I can post here. Just... I really think this is a wonderful thread.

[grinningjester]

Pengeru

I really... want to put some things here. Just to help me get all these things off my chest. Truth is... I'm not sure where to begin or how to form my words.... a lot has happen to me in the last 10 years and it's all just boiled down to things I am coming to terms with. I think if I could take a moment and get my words formed I can post here. Just... I really think this is a wonderful thread.

Take your time.

ducky duckie

There's only so many people who can really understand and grasp how awful it is to have this condition. But people today are excessively insensitive unfortunately, and I guess they just want to look edgy and cool in front of their friends. It's sad, really. They have no consideration or thought as to how they may make other people feel.

My paranoia has only recently started to get worse, honestly. I've been trying to manage it for months by myself, and I still feel no relief. I've covered up all the LED lights in my house, checked vents and heaters, any sort of openings for cameras. It's a bit unreasonable, but it does give me just a bit of closure. I also just started meds to help with the paranoia, so I'm calmed down a bit 3nodding

Medications have really helped me and I'm glad they're helping you. Before medications, I could not function without a gun on me and literally patrolled my house. I broke into a run when people happened to walk behind me and cars that turned on the same street as me were obviously trying follow me home to kill me. Now I can recognize those feelings as part of the PTSD and just paranoia. Have you tried doing reality checks? Those have also helped me. Is there any reason your paranoia has gotten worse?

Lil Enslaved Kitten

if you come up with any ideas on how to be ok with it please share.

I asked a friend about this because I don't know the answer. I said that I feel broken and that the person I am now is worth less than the person I was before. They said this: that the person I am is the same, just with added anxiety and paranoia. Just because I am paranoid, I'm still the same strong person I was before. Instead of using my strength to take care of others and do the things that I used to do, now I have to use those strengths to take care of myself. And that is a brave and difficult thing to do all on its own.
I don't know why but that helped. Thought I'd share.

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

grinningjester

I asked a friend about this because I don't know the answer. I said that I feel broken and that the person I am now is worth less than the person I was before. They said this: that the person I am is the same, just with added anxiety and paranoia. Just because I am paranoid, I'm still the same strong person I was before. Instead of using my strength to take care of others and do the things that I used to do, now I have to use those strengths to take care of myself. And that is a brave and difficult thing to do all on its own.
I don't know why but that helped. Thought I'd share.

i like that answer it sounds like something one of my best friends would say to me 3nodding

[grinningjester]

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

Welcome to the thread and I'm glad you've found us. Life with PTSD is so hard. I wish that no one had to go through trauma. Have you sought therapy or medications? Again welcome and I hope you find some help here.

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

Pengeru

I really... want to put some things here. Just to help me get all these things off my chest. Truth is... I'm not sure where to begin or how to form my words.... a lot has happen to me in the last 10 years and it's all just boiled down to things I am coming to terms with. I think if I could take a moment and get my words formed I can post here. Just... I really think this is a wonderful thread.

give it time. i know that feeling of not being able to get things out you'll think of a way to put everything down when you least expect it. and its nice to meet you

[SlashRomance]

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

Thank you so much smile
Well, I'm already on meds for bipolar, borderline, psychosis, anxiety, and sleepaids.
(Soon to be cancer meds)
and IDK what anyone can do to help me, I've had 5 therapists and they never helped :/

[SlashRomance]

grinningjester

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

Welcome to the thread and I'm glad you've found us. Life with PTSD is so hard. I wish that no one had to go through trauma. Have you sought therapy or medications? Again welcome and I hope you find some help here.

Thank you! it's very nice to meet ya ^^
And sadly can't afford therapy, can't even afford rent sad

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

Thank you so much smile
Well, I'm already on meds for bipolar, borderline, psychosis, anxiety, and sleepaids.
(Soon to be cancer meds)
and IDK what anyone can do to help me, I've had 5 therapists and they never helped :/

all but cancer meds sounds like my med cabinet before i got preg and oh no's i hope all goes ok.
as for therapy i have found more really help in friends then i ever could at what lil therapy i was able to afford. having people to be able to open up to who can in some ways relate can be a big help sometimes.

[SlashRomance]

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

Thank you so much smile
Well, I'm already on meds for bipolar, borderline, psychosis, anxiety, and sleepaids.
(Soon to be cancer meds)
and IDK what anyone can do to help me, I've had 5 therapists and they never helped :/

all but cancer meds sounds like my med cabinet before i got preg and oh no's i hope all goes ok.
as for therapy i have found more really help in friends then i ever could at what lil therapy i was able to afford. having people to be able to open up to who can in some ways relate can be a big help sometimes.

Thankies, yeah I have cancer just got diagnosed :/ and had a heart attack on Valentines day.
Soooo I will need more meds to prevent that.
Really? I have a rough time opening up after all the abuse I've been through, so it's rough :/

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

Thank you so much smile
Well, I'm already on meds for bipolar, borderline, psychosis, anxiety, and sleepaids.
(Soon to be cancer meds)
and IDK what anyone can do to help me, I've had 5 therapists and they never helped :/

all but cancer meds sounds like my med cabinet before i got preg and oh no's i hope all goes ok.
as for therapy i have found more really help in friends then i ever could at what lil therapy i was able to afford. having people to be able to open up to who can in some ways relate can be a big help sometimes.

Thankies, yeah I have cancer just got diagnosed :/ and had a heart attack on Valentines day.
Soooo I will need more meds to prevent that.
Really? I have a rough time opening up after all the abuse I've been through, so it's rough :/

aww that makes me sad to hear cause your pro and well just you already reminds me so much of a very good friend i use to talk to on here all the time.
i got lucky as far as having people to talk to. my best friend in the world i knew long before the storm ever happened and she lived in the same town just thank god it missed her house she was also my lil brothers cousin (we were half brother and sister but hey who cares ) the biggest help i had losing him was his best friend who i had just meet before he died. my brother made it a point for me to meet his friend and get to know him and i'm so glad now he did. that boy moved in with me and slept outside my room for a month after my brother died and i still call him my brother to this day. guess coming from a small town where everyone knows everyone helps. my girl ash still takes me up on the mountain from time to time when she knows i'm bout to have a melt down cause she knows better then anyone how much the places means to me and how safe i feel there.

[Lil Enslaved Kitten]

question for everyone xd is there anything you do at home that you have found helps calm you some?? for me its cooking i know sounds odd but the more i can cook and prep myself the better i feel

[SlashRomance]

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

Lil Enslaved Kitten

guardian ocean

I have major PTSD due to being raped, verbally and physically abused by my family,friends and ex's, sexual assaults, and hearing gunshots (long story)
But I live with this everyday and need out, I just... don't know how to get passed any of this sad
Every day is a struggle, I have major paranoia due to it and still learn to trust SOME
people, but not all... I can't enjoy sexual pleasures due to this rape and sexual assaults...

hi there and welcome to the thread. i'm so sorry that you had to go through all theses things and trust me i know how hard just going from day to day can be. hopefully talking, therapy and if need be meds will help you to start feeling better. wish so much i could be like here and give you a link to a mirical cure but i hope the company here will at least help some

Thank you so much smile
Well, I'm already on meds for bipolar, borderline, psychosis, anxiety, and sleepaids.
(Soon to be cancer meds)
and IDK what anyone can do to help me, I've had 5 therapists and they never helped :/

all but cancer meds sounds like my med cabinet before i got preg and oh no's i hope all goes ok.
as for therapy i have found more really help in friends then i ever could at what lil therapy i was able to afford. having people to be able to open up to who can in some ways relate can be a big help sometimes.

Thankies, yeah I have cancer just got diagnosed :/ and had a heart attack on Valentines day.
Soooo I will need more meds to prevent that.
Really? I have a rough time opening up after all the abuse I've been through, so it's rough :/

aww that makes me sad to hear cause your pro and well just you already reminds me so much of a very good friend i use to talk to on here all the time.
i got lucky as far as having people to talk to. my best friend in the world i knew long before the storm ever happened and she lived in the same town just thank god it missed her house she was also my lil brothers cousin (we were half brother and sister but hey who cares ) the biggest help i had losing him was his best friend who i had just meet before he died. my brother made it a point for me to meet his friend and get to know him and i'm so glad now he did. that boy moved in with me and slept outside my room for a month after my brother died and i still call him my brother to this day. guess coming from a small town where everyone knows everyone helps. my girl ash still takes me up on the mountain from time to time when she knows i'm bout to have a melt down cause she knows better then anyone how much the places means to me and how safe i feel there.

Aww such a sad story :'( I'm sooo sorry to hear that >.<
Loosing someone is so hard....
And that's good you found a spot to relax at smile