Green_crayon42
Man. I can't take it sometimes.....
everyone's out there doin stuff and going places they wanna go...and I'm just not capable of that.......I really do hate it.
I mean, I do know not everyone has the dream life, or job or things. but I just............I'm so sick of being incapable!!
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Sorry.
Nm, just chillin for the evening. Currently listening to Chains (my roommate) game obnoxiously loud. Though that will change when I find something to listen to.
Also I totally feel ya. Just today I saw a thread about vacation stuff which who tf can relate to that! Most ppl live paycheck to paycheck and can't afford that s**t so it's a bit insulting in a way to see. There's so much s**t I wish I could do and have too but ofc can't afford. I can't even afford to get my mouth fixed up. Just last month was an insane struggle because we paid off some extra bills so we even had to borrow money from our roommate just to have food and stuff for the last week.
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This is also why I don't follow a lot of goth vlog channels because they always have EVERYTHING and it makes the poor goth feel a bit meh. At least for me it does. I have a lot of things to be thankful for sure but eh it's still depressing, the struggle for money and such. I mostly just don't focus on what I can't have and focus on what I do have and can do. It helps me greatly mentally.
What specifically would you like to have rn? For rn that'd be dental insurance! Then perhaps a few new outfits. One day I'd also like to get my art printed out to hang up on our blank walls. Ah another thing, I'd like to get crafting supplies so I can get back into DIY. I'd need a sewing machine, fabric, stuffing, paint, and storage drawers.