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[AnimeJet]

Oh god that's so sad. I'm always afraid i'll do something horrible like that, ugh. Just thinking about it makes me sad, i wouldn't know what to do, just explode.

[kiwi hatake]

My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger

Hmm don't know how to go about this so anyway,

My dad came at me with a wrench tonight. Yeah big fight anyway in short I don't know what's gonna happen, I'm not even sure if I have enough life in me to live. So...I don't know, I might come online still I might not, I might just be gone we'll see right?

Oh he's fine, I plan on kicking him out. I'm not hurt but I'll have lock all my doors now, but you just don't know what will happen, we can't see the future after all.

I guess you should consider this a heads up for trouble from my direction...we'll see when tomorrow comes...

Love you all!

A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end the judgment night

[AnimeJet]

What the hell Kiwi what happened? I mean I know family life isn't like super totally stellar over there, but what?? Why? How Ackk??? If you have the time or feel like telling please do D=, and obviously you know we don't mind if you have to take leave for real life, but I do worry about you so i hope everything ends up okay. When things settle down drop in if possible =O!! D=

I have to sleep right now, i thought i would just check up on the thread, and look waht i finddd D=, i will have to catch up tomorrow some time >__<


eDIT: And don't you think about not having the will to live before i smack your spiritual a** when my time comes scream

[A-Syndikai]

@Kiwi: What the...woah. Look, I don't know your circumstances, but if anyone threatens you like that, you have a right to legal action. Consider it. Also, I know we're ultimately just a pixel-face to each other, but the idea of you getting hurt like that is scary, and just as bad--if I read about a death in Yuma with your picture next to the column, I'd ******** cry. I don't know you in real life but you're still my friend. Please, if you're reading this, please be careful. And know that there are people who do support you.

[AnimeJet]

I see kiwi is onlineee D=

*did donations* school is so bogging me down from doing these in a timely manner >_<

[Raissa Firehawk]

Thank you for the donation! -hugs to all- heart heart heart

-runs to place this blessed donor's name and banner in quest thread-

[Dark Ruse]

lol, you're a blessed donor, AJ. xD

At least you're getting them done though? Anyway, applicants should know that life takes precedence over Gaia. xD

[Friday_Dora]

Kiwi scared me so bad gonk DON'T DO THAT AGAIN.

[kiwi hatake]

My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger

"And don't you think about not having the will to live before i smack your spiritual a** when my time comes scream "

That made me laugh.

Anyway I'm not sure what happened really, he ALWAYS yells at me at some point and last night he snapped. And JUST the night before we were happily watching tv together so what the hell. D: Anyway he's just pissed that "I do nothing." =/ He doesn't understand how horrible anxiety >_< My mom does though and I'm pretty sure she's figured it out by now. Anyway he said something hit things better change right now or he's going to destroy all my stuff, kill my bird and "I'll regret it." So that last part is harm towards me... anyway I told to calm down, a lot and then I told him I was going to all the police if he didn't which is when he walked out into th front and came back with a wrench.
'_'
He was trying to hit my monitor (I was between it and him telling him to calm the ******** down and try to work logic into him) and yeah my mom got him out of my room and because I'm currently EMOTIONALLY OVERLY REACTIVE DOOOOOOMED (period LOL >________> ) yeah I lost my logic last night and just broke down and now! I plan to kick his a** out.

*deep breath*

Also the life plan is to get GED, job, save money until next year (around end of summer) all the while finding a college and applying for finical aid and and and yeh. x_x I'm heading for San Jose area (Northern California) cause my brother wants to be a police officer there and I want at least him in the general area of me.

Phew yeah I'm more than willing to run for the phone or the neighbors if it comes to that point. Seriously; I'm tired of him and it's so hard to want to live life and enjoy it when all he's ever said is "life's a b***h then you die' or "life is full misery" or or or "better off dead" and such things. D:

I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you guys. ;________; <33

(forgive grammar mistakes I have a handful of friends to calm down ^^;; )

A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end the judgment night

[Friday_Dora]

The sooner you can get rid of him the better. Believe me. My dad was also abusive and before my mom kicked him out things were really, really bad. I can't even tell you how much my life improved by getting rid of him. I worry about how your dad will react when you kick him out, but it's something that needs to be done. Just make sure you do it carefully and have other people (like your mom) there to back you up. I'm glad you're okay hon. <3

[A-Syndikai]

Holy s**t. Kiwi! DDD: *HUGS* Dude, you scared the s**t out of me. Anyway is your dad mentally stable? Because it doesn't sound like he is. Getting that angry and violent just isn't normal. ._. You be careful, you hear?

Your plans for the future sound great! =3 If you need help with some stuffs, or like college app questions, etc, just ask, yuh?

And totally don't let your dad make you feel like life isn't worth it, because your life is your own. Again, he doesn't sound fully stable (like he has manic depression or something). Maybe you should talk to your mom about it.

Edit: Or if you know he's just being a raging sonofabitch, by all means, kick him the hell out. I'd fully support that.

[love-the-klutz]

thank you for the donation
and bah kiwi
i'm glad you're ok

=(

[kiwi hatake]

My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger

Mental illness runs in the family actually. =[
and he's been in the mental hospital before but they declared him sane >_________> Bastards
But yeah I'm telling my mom I want him out and I want him gone NOW. D< If i to sell my s**t to give him gas money to get the the ******** out and stay ******** gone then so be it.
*sigh*
Even my mom is happier when he's not here. =/

I think he's just being a raging b***h cause he hates Yuma, and my mom is stressed and somehow it always ends up on my shoulders. x_x He's leaving this house one or another >_>

Oh you know I will. xD Who else would help me out with this confusing mess known as college?

Ah he just brings down the mood by a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT Dx Always saying those things makes my mom all depressed too. D: I don't know why she won't kick him out herself v_V

A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end the judgment night

[HopeforLove]

-sorry to interrupt-
(Hi there, everyone! =)

Thanks so much for the donation!
You'll be loved forevers and evers and evers for this!
=DDDDD

Also. Folk Metal is the scariest music ever. EVER.
Guys in kilts with flutes and yelling and drums and...Eeek. -hides-

[A-Syndikai]

@Kiwi: Well, I'm not an expert but he certainly doesn't sound like he's fully sane. >_> Maybe your mom feels that it would be too cruel to toss him out? I don't know. But do your best to convince her that it's in the best interests of both your health and hers, if he were gone. Since the hospital says he's sane, I'm not sure there is any other course of action.

Yeah, applications can be annoying, lulz. You can always consider community colleges too, if you like. It saves a ton of money than going straight to a university, when you may be able to transfer credits. Though it's possible you might qualify for full federal aid, in which case it wouldn't matter which type of college you started with. xD