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Why...why must you do this to me? I love you so much, and you said the same to me. But in the end it had to end this way. I said no when you asked me out because I was scared. No one had ever dared ask me that before. I was afraid of what would and could have happened. I realize that you still glance at me during English. You make me feel like I'm just plan trash, like I don't even exist. Like that time when I was behind you in the hallway. I tapped you lightly and you turned around. I said hi but you just completely ignored me like I was invisible at the moment. I want to know if I'm even considered a friend to you still. I do. I want to be with you, wrapped in your arms forever, loving the moment. But I know it's not possible at this point. The letter I wrote to you and gave to you on Valentine's Day was cruel. I know that but what you did to me was even more cruel. You ditched me for ******** ice cream. You don't like that fact that I told Aubrey and Rebecca. You don't talk to me as often as you used to. Right, I feel like I'm about to cry. It's all because of you. I hope that I will be able to relax over spring break. Everyday is hard to live, knowing that I have once loved you and you have once loved me. Even though I want to relax and have fun during spring break, it's impossible to do so. You have caused me such pain. If my friend Omi- Chan reads this, I'm pretty sure she will try to kick your a**. I want to rid you from my mind, but I cannot do so. I wish that day had never happened. I wish I had never moved. I wish that border change had never happened. If none of that had ever happened, then I would never have felt this pain I do right now. What have you done to me? You say you love me, but then leave me with my shattered heart. Why did you do that?

My life is like these two songs. These two songs completely, I mean completely, describe me. I don't know bye Jonne [sp] Accom and Almost lover by A fine Frenzy. The part that describes me the most in I don't know Is this: You're not who you used to be, I remember when you used to look at me differently now you don't talk to me you're not the one for me. Almost Lover : I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind. So you're gone and I'm haunted and I bet you are just fine. Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

You don't know how much you have hurt me. I wish you did, yet I don't. You probably wouldn't even care at all since you have ignored my letters. I wish this didn't have to happen. I don't know where we went wrong. Maybe it was just me and my fear. Maybe it was both of us when we talked less and less. You never picked up my phone calls. You never replied to my messages. What have I done to you for you to do this to me? WHy must you do this? No matter how much I want to give you this, I don't want to because I know for sure that you wouldn't do anything about this. You might even just throw it away without reading it at all.