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Well, I'm back. Probably not regularly. But nonetheless I am here in this moment.
It's been awhile since I've actually written anything that isn't school-related. I did write a bomb-a** English paper about recycling for the senior project. I'm about a month away from graduating high school. Isn't that crazy? I never really though I'd make it.
Weirdly enough, Gaia has basically seen me grow up. The friends I have made on here, even though we really don't talk anymore, have made an impact on my life that I still remember. I developed my media taste on here, some of my music taste, and my people taste from talking to the Gaia people. Haha. Just really thankful for them, wherever they are.
So, who am I? Well, that's a very complicated question because to tell you the truth I don't really know either. My life currently is a blur, of my own design. I wake up with the sun each morning, and I leave home only to return late at night. I go to two schools, and spend the rest of my time bouncing between people and their homes. I drive, probably a little too much, but my car is my favorite place to be.
To be honest, since I doubt many people will read this, I am not so good at the people thing. I tried, really hard, but I seem incapable of maintaining any human relationship for longer than a year. I've lost many friends over the years, and it seems that's all I really do these days. I don't know exactly what I do, but I have a general idea, and that knowledge sucks to have.
And so without getting too into it, what I really want to write, just because it helps to have it down, is that I feel detached. I haven't felt any type of connection with a human being in a long time. And I miss it. I miss that feeling that I felt needed by someone. Someone who I could need too. And I hope- and often pray when I'm driving home under the stars- that someday they will come. Because I'm tired of always feeling this way.
I strayed off topic but oh well. Maybe I'll elaborate on my main topic sometime soon.

Till then, catch you later.

K.W.