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i sit here in a room
in a so called
"home"
where there are people,
but i feel so
"alone"
this is the life
that was granted to
"me"?
with no one in my
arms, not allowed to
"see"?
im just one boy,
in love with one girl
so beautifull to my eyes
she sets my mind awhirl
i love her to death
but my parents always say
"you cant be with someone
who lives so far away!
its not a real love
to either one of you"
what they dont understand
is i know whats true.
they feed me lies
all day and night
breakfast, lunch, dinner
but i will win this fight.
i dont know how i lived
through this broken life i have
miscarages, cars
im not supposed to laugh!
yet i sit here now
when i should be dead
only thing on my mind
is th color red.
it should have come
as im deaths son
but i spare him every day
untill his time has come.
that souless man
he is rot and empty
hes what brings me dispare
and makes me so angry,
i want him to leave
'fore i do it myself
but i live through for her
and put the emotions on shelf.
one day they will come back
and i will let them fly out,
i wont take it anymore
i would pound and shout.
the peace will be broken
and fly away as the dove
but for now i sit longing
all, in the name of love

I look into delicate eyes,
what do i exactly see?
i see nothing but the eyes of them,
and the overall face of me.
your eyes are like stars,
i never have to look far,
but loosing your kiss and gaze,
makes me feel behind bars.
you are on the top of my mind
and i miss your soft lips.
just one more lean in,
and leave me one last kiss?
it may have been a minute,
but it felt like years.
however, seeing your smileing face
brings me joyfull tears
people may call me freak,
others call me magic
but i will always be yours hun,
sincerly, cross vattic