i've done some more research and thought things through harder.
it's much more expensive to go to sheridan than i had anticipated. ultimately, i came to the conclusion that it's important to prove yourself before you invest.
education is an investment. and proving yourself means more than just getting into a school; all schools ultimately want you and your money.
proving yourself means earning money with your talent. it means making a name for yourself even before you had formal training.
so i'm going to find a job. maybe i'll apply to teach for america in august.
the BIGGEST thing i learned from an hour of scary internet browsing is NEVER GET INTO DEBT for art school, ever. the full art school shebang ($100k and up) in debt is torturous death.
you will quickly be middle aged and sad, venting on internet forums.
i just want time. i guess maybe i'll settle for being a teacher, which really does alright time-wise. i'm going to try to enjoy my last summer. i will be working almost full time as a student librarian on minimum wage, but at least i'll have time chilling at the desk to read and write. i don't anticipate having time like that for a long time thereafter.
gloomy thoughts in the midst of finals.